Disclaimer: Same as previous chapters.

Chapter 3

As Xander returned to Chulak Mara looked into his haunted eyes and then looked into Bra'tac's eyes, "What happened?"

"Xander was forced to massacre a group of Ra's followers; they were not warriors but innocents that had wandered there by mistake."

Mara sat next to her son and whispered, "It shall be alright my son, you only did what was ordered. You did not order the attack."

"It still does not remove the stain on my soul," Xander said, "I participated in the slaughter."

Bra'tac walked to him and said, "My son, it will never go away but keep this as a reminder; that it is best to serve with honour and that this is the way the Goa'uld make war upon one another, it has been like this since Dakara, so steel yourself for the wars to come."

Xander nodded and began to try to train the weakness out of his heart; he meditated trying to forget the looks of horror on their faces but couldn't, he realized partly that they were enemies of Apophis which meant they were his enemies too, this still made no sense to him but he supposed he couldn't understand how the minds of the Goa'uld worked.

A few weeks later Apophis called Xander and Teal'c before him and said, "It is time for my children to seek out new hosts and you are amongst my best warriors and so you two shall accompany me."

They nodded and went to tell Bra'tac, who looked down and said, "Now you shall learn the fates of the Prim'ta we are implanted with, be prepared for I shall not be coming with you and remember; even if you do not believe the Goa'uld are gods do not disobey orders. Also remember one last thing: a man or woman who is defending their loved ones is more dangerous than anything you have ever faced."

Xander looked confused; he had seen the people chosen to be hosts and he had heard that most people were honoured to be chosen but the look of anger on his father's face made him think as he went into a meditative state to prepare himself for when he and Teal'c had to go with Apophis. He wondered if they would be taking one of Apophis's ships or the Chappa'ai, he had heard so many things from other Jaffa and his father about the Chappa'ai.

The next morning he got up and was greeted by Teal'c and Apophis's honour guards surrounding Apophis, who wore his ceremonial gold armour, they quickly joined the group and followed them to the Chappa'ai.

Xander watched fascinated as Apophis activated the pedestal in front of the portal and sounds the Chappa'ai was making as the symbols spun and nearly fell to his knees as the plume of white blue fire erupted from the center of it.

Apophis walked into it and followed by his guard, Xander stopped in front of it, his face full of wonder; it was like water and, as he put his hand into it, it felt like water. He attempted to pull some back but found he couldn't when another Jaffa sighed and pushed him in, "We cannot be late

The screaming greenish portal that Xander traveled in was strange; it felt cold and, before he could even shiver, he was somewhere else. It was night here and, as he looked up, he saw three moons in the sky, he gasped; they had traveled to another world in a matter of seconds, faster than even Apophis's great ships could move.

Teal'c tapped his shoulder and said, "Brother, Apophis speaks."

Apophis looked at them and said, "Your god demands that you take the most beautiful of the people here for only they are worthy to hold my children."

The Jaffa nodded and ran into the town, a Jaffa looked at Xander and Teal'c and said, "Remember; kill those who resist."

Xander nodded and steeled himself for what might happen as he kicked a door down and saw two men holding weapons.

One of the men looked at him and said, "Bastard, I'll not be letting my son be taken as a host to those demons you call gods!"

The word the man said sparked a feeling of familiarity as if he had heard the name before "Demon?" he repeated to himself. When the man threw an axe at him he quickly responded and shot the man in the chest, causing him to fall down, his eyes full of shame and disappointment, Xander looked at the young man, disabled him and grabbed him.

Apophis looked at the man who Xander had in front of him and nodded his approval, Xander bowed and walked back to the village, he heard the screams of people coming from their homes, he also heard the sounds the Ma'Tok staffs firing and even some Zat'nik'tel blasts.

Teal'c came out carrying a young woman in his arms with a grim look on his face; they both were displeased at this task.

Xander walked into another house prepared for whatever waited for him, a woman pleaded with him not to take her daughter but as Xander turned to the young girl he sighed; Apophis would definitely want this one for his queen and he had no choice but to obey as he grabbed the girl who screamed and clawed at him, desperate to get away from her fate.

"Very good Xander," said Apophis as he looked at the girl, he then used his hand device to scan her and she fell silent, Apophis looked back at Xander and said, "Your god is pleased, she is perfect for my queen. Continue to please me and you shall be richly rewarded."

Xander nearly threw up, his sense of honour wouldn't allow him to do this anymore but what other life was there for him, he was trained as a warrior so he couldn't run and even if he did where could he go? But he bowed again and made an internal vow he would kill Apophis and every Goa'uld he could find.

As he walked into another house, one that was smoking, it looked like another child was here, as he looked in he saw a screaming baby and something in him screamed, 'Save the child!' He looked into the child's eyes and realized the child's fate, a small voice screamed, 'Save him, please! Make up for the lives you took tonight!' He grabbed the child and hid him in another house.

"Stay here," Xander said, "The attack shall end soon," as he left the child looked and held his arms towards Xander in a gesture Xander knew that meant he wanted up, he shook his head and said, "Stay here, you'll be alright," and ran out to join his brother.

Teal'c said, "Brother, the attack has ended and Apophis has ordered the village destroyed so no other Goa'uld may take these people as hosts."

Xander's face was frozen in horror as staff weapons lit up the night and began to rain destruction, he whispered, "Brother, I found a child and I hid him in another house that was not damaged."

They watched as the staff blasts began to set fire to the village, Xander whispered, "No, please!" as the village caught fire quickly and engulfed the town, Xander heard the screams and, without knowing it, a tear fell from his eyes.

As they headed back to the Chappa'ai Teal'c looked at Xander and said, "I am sorry the child died Xander."

Xander nodded blankly and realized he would have to hide his compassion and become hardened to war the best he could do for the ones he fought was give them a swift death and one day he'd find away to avenge the child and this village

They walked back to the Chappa'ai and Xander's fascination with the device was still there, the shimmering liquid portal was beautiful though its beauty was diminished by the acts they had done today. He looked at the fear in the chosen one's eyes and he could feel them blame him and they were right to blame him.

As they walked through the portal Xander felt another warm wind caress him and shrugged it off; he did nothing to deserve this small comfort and as he walked through the liquid he vowed that in war he would have to shut down his compassion, he'd grieve for the people he killed in private, in his own way.

When they got to Chulak Xander walked to his father's home, his father knew the look and said, "My son, now you know my private shame."

Xander told his father and mother what happened and Bra'tac said, "Xander, it happened. Do not let the guilt consume you, you had no idea that Apophis would order the village destroyed."

"But Father," Xander said sadly, "I could've saved the child."

"No Xander, you couldn't have," Bra'tac said, "You would've been killed for defying your master and most likely Teal'c as well as your brother would have jumped to your defence, you must learn to hide your compassion from others as most other Jaffa will see it as weakness and Apophis will not tolerate you showing weakness."

"Yes father," Xander said, "Though I'm not sure I wish to be first Prime now."

Bra'tac smiled and nodded, "I understand, I believe Apophis was thinking of making Teal'c as his first Prime anyways and Teal'c will need a second in command he can count on."

"You aren't shamed by the fact that I do not wish to follow your footsteps Father?" Xander said as he looked at his father.

"No, I am not. I would rather have you do what is right in your heart my son," Bra'tac said, "Now be loyal to your brother for he shall need it in the years to come."

Xander nodded, he vowed that Teal'c would have his loyalty and his service until the end and got up, he had to mediate and he wished to understand what had happened this day.

Bra'tac looked at Xander and said, "You have to go to the palace, Apophis will need extra guards to guard the chosen."

As Xander walked to the palace he was joined by Teal'c, who looked at him with a look of concern and said, "Brother, are you feeling better now?"

Xander shook his head but said, "I shall never be better after today brother and you should know by now that I share my father's views on the Goa'uld."

Teal'c nodded, he indeed knew of both of their feelings and he agreed with them but, for now, they could do nothing against the Goa'uld and both Xander and Bra'tac hid their feelings well and that was good for Apophis would destroy them both.

They got to the palace; they waited in their area as the Goa'uld that served Apophis went down to choose their new hosts. Xander heard the screams of those chosen as they clung desperately to loved ones who had come with them and how the Jaffa pulled them away from one another.

He saw the boy he had taken, whose father he had murdered, being taken away as he thought he would be. The girl, he found out, was to be the host for Apophis's queen after everything had been done. Xander turned to leave when he heard a scream; it was from the boy, he turned around and his eyes widened, it seemed the symbiote the boy had been chosen for had been too eager to claim its new host and slid into his body.

Xander watched transfixed as the boy's body convulsed for a moment and suddenly his eyes glowed, he got up and wore a sadistic look on his face. Xander turned away and walked out with Teal'c, they both were disgusted with what they had subjected these people too and walked out knowing full well they would have to help Apophis find hosts again.

TBC

A/N: There we go a longer chapter and I'll have the rest of the SG1 cast show up. I have a clear idea who Xander's going to be paired with, thanks for your ideas but Keep in mind that this will be a Slash Pairing. Do you want Xander to join SG1 with Teal'c or do you want him on his own team?

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