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Chapter 11

Ian's POV

My head hurt.

I was tired from thinking, stressing and panicking but I wasn't done yet; there was one more person I needed to talk too.

I made my way to mine and Wanda's room. It didn't take me long and expecting to find Wanda in there I made my way there as fast as was humanly possible. When I pulled the two doors aside I found the room empty and instead of setting off to go find Wanda I found myself collapsing in a heap onto the mattress too tired to carry on looking.

I didn't know what I was going to do. I had tried as best as I could to sort everything out but it was too much of a mess to be resolved in one day. First of all I had to speak with Wanda. I told myself that things wouldn't be too difficult with Wanda, she had to understand how this had happened – I mean she was a part of this too – I couldn't let myself think about the impact this was going to have on the two of us.

I still needed to talk to Jared. Over the past few months I had thought that I had grown close to Jared. When he had first arrived at the caves with Jamie we had, had our differences but the whole Mel/Wanda situation had brought us closer together and I now counted him among my most trusted friends – I didn't want to lose him.

I closed my eyes and lay back on the pillows. I rolled over and buried my face in the soft fabric that Wanda had gotten for us on one of her last raids and found traces of her flowery scent lingering on the material. I stayed in that position for a few more minutes until I resolved to go and find Wanda before someone else could. This was definitely best coming from me.

As I turned back over and sat up I found Wanda turning coyly back away from me the hint of a blush appearing in her normally pale cheeks. I wondered how long she had been standing there; I certainly hadn't heard or noticed her enter the room. She seemed to be embarrassed about me catching her looking at me.

"It's okay to stare you know Wanda, I look at you all the time while you sleep" I chuckled. It was nice to know she liked watching me too.

I watched as Wanda's cheeks turned from pink to crimson.

"In a non stalker way of course" I added realising how I may have sounded.

I patted the mattress next to where I sat indicating for Wanda to take a seat. I saw her eyes travel to my hand clearly seeing my gesture and then move back to my face without moving an inch in my direction.

"Are you okay?" I asked suddenly noticing her red eyes that showed she had recently been crying. The dust that covered most of everybody in the caves bodies was smudged from where she had obviously wiped her face.

"I'm fine" she replied.

"Wanda" I sighed. "I know you better than that; you've been crying I can tell now please, tell me what's wrong. I hate to see you upset"

I got up from the bed and moved to the door to comfort her and was shocked to see her flinch away from me.

"Wanda" I pressed trying not to let on how much it pained me to see her move away from me like that. I reached out once more to take her hand and was glad to feel her accept it and entwine her fingers with mine.

"I've just been talking to Jared" Wanda mumbled. Her face searched mine and I saw tears start to well up in her eyes again.

"Oh Wanda" I pulled her close to me and wrapped my arms around her. She felt so small in this body and my arms went all the way around her so I could close the space between us; there was no hesitation from her this time and I held her why she quietly wept into my shoulder, her tears soaking through my grimy t-shirt.

After what felt like a lifetime she lifted her head from my shoulder my arms still wrapped tight around her waist. No way was I letting her get away from me now. She untangled an arm and wiped her face with her sleeve and then stood there probably waiting for an explanation. Why did I not know what to say to her?

"I was coming to tell you myself, I thought you'd be here and was just on my way to look for you" I told her. "I'm sorry you had to find out like this; I wanted it to come from me, not Jared."

"It wasn't Jared that told me" she explained. "Kyle decided to share the news with Jamie and I"

"Kyle?" I asked confused. "Kyle doesn't know...I haven't seen him yet...Who?"

"Well he knows alright" she stated.

Sunny! Who else could it be to tell my brother something like this, and I thought I could trust her.

"Look Wanda" I continued. "Please don't hate me. It was the night you and I spent together; I haven't been with Melanie just so you know"

Everything came out so fast I didn't think Wanda caught half of it. I thought she would understand. I knew that everything was going to be different but I didn't expect her to be this upset; I didn't know what to do or say to make my Wanda feel better.

"Ian" She shouted. I think she may have been calling my name while I mulled everything over.

"Sorry -what?" I asked. Her smile distracted me. Well I was glad she was smiling, even if I could still see the tear tracks on her face. Women's moods could certainly change fast.

"I know you didn't sleep with Melanie and I don't hate you. Why would you think that?"

"Well you're so upset and I don't know but you believe me right...I would never do anything like that Wanda; I could never hurt you."

"I know that Ian"

"Then why are you so upset?" I worried that Kyle or Jared had said something else to hurt Wanda

"Nothing it's...It's silly" she stuttered.

"Nothing that upsets you Wanda is silly!"

"No really it is"

"Tell me – Please" I pleaded.

"Well...It's just that I always imagined we would have children together that's all. I thought that our first child would be yours and mine not yours and Melanie's"

"Oh Wanda but it is...don't you see" I was so glad that she didn't hate me. "That baby was created by me and you and I can't believe that you can't see that. And by the way when did you start thinking about children, surely I should have been clued in about this."

Wanda laughed and shook her head, her blond curls falling in her eyes. I brushed my hand across her forehead to move her hair out of her face and caught her blushing again.

"Stop it" she giggled and as she did I kissed her needing her now more than ever.

"Ian" she protested and I gave in moving my lips from her mouth to her neck and pulling her down on to the bed with me.

I felt her wriggle out of my embrace and as she did I fell back defeated. I lifted my head after a few seconds when her weight didn't lift from the bed and saw that she was just pulling her boots off.

"So your not trying to escape me then" I asked trying to keep a serious face.

"No – no Ian I was...I was just taking my boots off."

Laughing at how she squirmed. Her face turned from angst to laughter and she crawled back up the bed and lay down so that we were face to face.

"I love you Wanderer" I whispered

"I love you too Ian O Shea" she whispered back and as her breath reached my face I closed my eyes and leaned towards her until our lips met.

We lay like that for what felt like hours our faces connected kissing and exploring each others bodies.

I trailed my fingertips down Wanda's arm and the moan that escaped her mouth had me screaming inside. I kissed her harder no doubt bruising both our lips but I was too overwhelmed with passion to care.

Wanda pulled me closer unresisting as our bodies melted in to one another as if we were made to fit each other perfectly. I lost myself in the moment and was surprised when all of a sudden Wanda wiggled from underneath me.

"What's the matter" I gasped trying to catch my breath.

Wanda blushed and moved the hair from her face.

"Erm...Do you have any protection?" she asked and then quickly hid her face as if embarrassed.

I realised that after today protection was necessary. It goes to show that whatever people said nobody could get away with it.

"Wanda I'm sorry of course" I walked over to a bag lying on the floor that held the contents of some of the stuff we'd looted on our last raid. It took me a few minutes to extricate the condoms from the bottom pocket of the backpack where I'd stashed the condoms that sunny had gotten us on the last raid.

"Sunny got these" I held the packet up. "...the last time we went out. Jeb had apparently decided that they were necessary. I guess the old man doesn't miss anything" I laughed.

"Oh – Right" she mumbled.

"Wanda you don't need to be embarrassed with me. Things like this are completely normal here you'll get used to it I promise."

I scooted back across the room to sit next to her on the bed again; Wanda leaned in to lie her head between my neck and shoulder.

"I know" she replied. "It's just you're the only species that reproduce this way and definitely the only ones who do it for fun. It's just different that's all."

I kissed her soft, blond curls and moved my mouth back to hers. She turned her head to allow the meeting of her lips.

"You know..." she began. "All of this kissing is making my mouth swell like a balloon"

I chuckled and moved my lips from her lips to her neck and down to her shoulder. Wanda tilted her head and as she did I brushed my hand across her shoulder, shifting her spaghetti strap away from her body.

We fell back on the bed in a heap and Wanda giggled as my hand grazed her breast as we fell.

It didn't take long for us to lose ourselves in one another and I enjoyed every part of Wanda that I could get my hands on.

When we woke up the next morning Wanda was wrapped in my arms, sleeping soundly without a care in a world.

I loved watching her sleep. During sleep she seemed so peaceful and happy; not worrying about anyone or anything or putting someone before herself.

She looked so beautiful in sleep; not that she didn't all the time anyway, but she had that glow. Her hair was askew covering her pillow and parts of her face. I loved the way her skin warmed mine as we lay wrapped up in each others arms and I wished we could stay like this forever; just her and me, but another day was waiting for us and there was certainly a lot more problems and aggravation to come are way after yesterday's revelation.

So for you Team Ian and Wanda I put in a chapter from Ian's POV without any Mel or Jared. What do you think? Please, Please READ AND REVIEW I love reading your comments. I'm going to try and update sooner, I've caught up on the college work so should have some more time to write fingers crossed. Like I said before I'm really sorry it took so long to update but any of you people that are also writing fanfiction you know how hard it is to find time to write when you have so many things on your plate. Again please READ AND REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!