Every minute, every second was killing me. I wanted to know so badly what was going on to Zaizen, why he was the way he is now. I had to wait, wait for him to answer me. Maybe he is trying to avoid the topic by running away or hoping I forget about it by the time we are finished with lunch. I may never know what he is planning no matter how much i try.
Finally we finished our lunch and exited from the shop. I immediately asked him the question again so that he would not avoid it.
"Let me bring you to a place first." he replied.
"What?Are you trying to avoid the subject?"I asked.
"Trust me. And I will tell you when we get there." he answered again, looking towards a direction.
It turns out we were heading towards the direction he was looking at. We ended up in the park. There was a lake in the park. A very huge lake. The waters sparkled so brightly in the rays of the sun, like jewels and pearls, emerging to the surface. There was a gentle breeze that sway the branches and leaves of plants and trees as though they are dancing. People were strolling around the lake, playing and enjoying themselves.
My eyes were captured by this wonderful scene. I felt like I never want to take my eyes off it. It was so peaceful as though man and nature are at peace with each other. Then I hear someone snap their fingers in front of me. It was Zaizen. He looked at me with that very same look back at the ramen shop. He was holding back something, I was very positive of now.
He started to come closer to me. Every step he took, I took a step back as well. I was afraid what he was going to do next. Actually, my mind was in a blank now. Eventually I was cornered to a tree. His eyes was staring into my eyes like he was reading me. Then he gave me a sweet and gentle kiss on my lips.
I was shocked, stunned that he just kissed me like that. As his lips parted away from mine, he stared at my eyes again. As though he was searching for an answer from me. I turned away from his gaze, my face was blushing ever so madly. I stammer my words as I tried to as him why.
"That's because I love you. I fell in love with somehow. I don't really know when it started but ever since I did, I had the urge to touch you, to see you. It was to the point I couldn't control myself anymore. I thought I could hold it in a little longer but since you asked, I had to tell you."He spoke gently, trying to make me look at him again.
As he tried to touch my cheeks with his hands, I quickly slap it away from me and ran off. I couldn't believe he love me, more than a friend but as the one he truly love in his heart. My mind was in a blur, but my heart was telling me something else. I couldn't face him again, if I do, I don't really know what to say to him.
I called Zaizen's brother that I will head back home first. I didn't want to see him once more again. Furthermore, this had already decided about my plans to move back to my home even earlier. When I arrived back to the Zaizen's, I told Zaizen's mother about my plans and immediately packed my stuff. Zaizen's mother and father were surprised about my decision and were even more surprised that I was leaving now.
They insisted that I stay for dinner at least. I refused, saying I had already eaten my dinner early. I quickly rushed off after packing, to avoid see Zaizen's arrival back home. Lucky for me, I didn't see him at all throughout my journey back to my real home. I was thankful for that but I wondered how was I going to faced him again? I could cancel my trip to the beach with the Zaizen's but once school reopens, I have to face him again.