I made it to Emmett's house to see him on the front porch. When he saw me, he ran over and opened the door. "Did he hurt you?" he demanded.
I shook my head, a few tears sill running down my cheek. "No… it was just a song on the radio." I said.
He nodded and carried me into the house. His parents weren't home. "I knew I shouldn't have let you go over there."
"Em, its fine." I kissed him and he calmed down. "I have some news…" I said.
He looked at me.
"I'm pregnant."
Shocked, he hugged me. "That's the best thing I've heard all week."
I laughed. "It's only Monday."
"Fine. The best thing I've heard in two weeks."
I smiled and kissed him again. "But…'' I looked at him serious. "Our baby can't have a daddy who's on drugs."
"I know, baby. I'm stopping. Right now." He kissed me. "I can't wait to tell my parents!"
My face dropped. "They'll hate me."
"No! They'll be so happy that they'll have their first grandchild."
"Are you sure?" I asked.
He nodded.
"Okay…" I kissed him again and yawned.
"Let's go upstairs." He winked.
I laughed and we walked upstairs to his room. "Can I use your laptop?"
"Sure." he sat down on his bed and handed it to me.
"Thanks." I sat down next to him and googled Simple Plan. After browsing some songs I found two that described my relationship with my father. i clicked on lyrics and read them.
"Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect"
I clicked on another screen and the next song came up.
"Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life"
"Babe, what're you looking at?" Emmett looked at the screen.
"Nothing." I memorized the name of the CD that had both of the songs on it, plus the song I heard in the car, and turned off the laptop, handing it back to Emmett.
"You okay?" he asked.
I nodded. That was only partly true.