Hey guys sorry this update took longer than normal but I have been focusing on EOCT's and all these tests and stuff hopefully you will like this chapter. Its kind of sad but I didn't intend on making it that sad. Um ehh i don't know what else to say but i love Lady Gaga's new CD THE FAME MONSTER :) 'Kay Watashi-Wa-Black- Geisha!? Out?! P.S. Might be some lime or er.... lemon next chapter :) we will have to see bye~ ^_^

Chapter 3:

What the heart desires but cannot say

Normal Perspective

Now, to the people that were minding their own business, to them, it looked like Fuu and Mugen were a couple just taking a leisurely stroll. The stares caused Fuu to stomp and more more rapidly with an irate temper building up, to Mugen he really didn't give a shit about what people thought about him. Fuu's house was exactly that, it was an actual house, and it seemed awfully suspicious to Mugen about how she inquired a house. Mugen finally broke the long and dreadful silence," So, how did you get this huge house Fuu? Last time I checked noodle shop waitress' don't get paid that much." His voice was drenched in anger like a wood drenched with fire.

"Well Mugen that is correct.....you see um..when we left our separate ways, the man who killed my father said that my dad left me some money. I really didn't know what to do with it, so I had some people build this house and after that I just stored it somewhere." Fuu was becoming very uncomfortable about the way Mugen was watching her. She didn't have the heart to tell him that she had to do some really bad things in order to get that money, but she knew when the time came for the stone of truth to be found that it would.

Fuu gracefully walked to the door and pushed it open, there she took off her shoes and put on her wabaki, and invited Mugen in. Mugen was a bit skeptical but he walked through the door way, closing the door behind him, and putting on the guest pair of wabaki.

Fuu's Perspective

I didn't know how I was going to tell him about my true feelings, what I had to do to get where I am now, or how my past might come back to haunt us both as we know it. "Mugen, can you follow me into the living room area? This is something we both can't stall any longer getting out." I walked to where the other set of sliding doors were to my right, and I could feel myself setting up for failure and pain to come. When he came through I closed the door and we both knelt across from each other at the table. I looked into his eyes and they seemed unreadable and that scared me more than what I had gone through. "Mugen... I don't know what to tell you or how to start and....it-it's so hard for me because I don't want you to hate me!" My voice started to waiver and tremble as I forced the words out.

I didn't know what took over me but I couldn't look him in the eye any longer and I just began to cry and tremble into small convulsions. I knew I had to force myself to continue on what I wanted to tell him, what I knew I had to tell him because if I didn't I would always be looking at a what could have been instead of what had happened. "Mugen, what I really wanted to tell you, was that I-I love you... and I know that you might not feel the same way towards me, but its something that I'm willing to risk." I looked up at him to see him, and he did nothing but stare at me. I just confessed my feelings, and all he was doing was staring at me! I couldn't take the painful silence of being flat out rejected, so I stood up and began to go to the door to leave. Thats when I felt it, the one thing I thought I would never feel in a lifetime.

Mugen's Perspective

I grabbed her wrist because I just couldn't let her leave after saying something I knew I wasn't man enough to admit. I tugged her downward so she was exactly parallel to my face, of course I wouldn't let her leave. Those cute auburn brown eyes of hers that were bloodshot from crying. She was an adorable idiot to say the least, because there would be no way in hell I would let her go. Before I could say anything she broke into a loud wail of cries trembling to say," Mugen..I-I don't want to be near you because you don't feel the same way towards me!"

She sounded so cute, even going as far to act like a five year old. I couldn't hold it back any longer I just burst into laughter from such childlikeness that she was showing. Then you could tell that she was getting angry, but I easily calmed that too. "Fuu, I love you too", that was the calmest I think I have ever been in my life. She started to speak but I gave her a kiss square on the lips.

There was no way I would ever let her go, me and her are too much a like and I wouldn't want anyone else but her. Only after I gave her a kiss she pushed me away," I'm not some whore at a brothel, that you think you can use for free!" I don't know why, but I felt something in my chest that really began to hurt when she said that. "Wow, Fuu, you know I would do nothing to hurt you and I've protected you all this time, yet you accuse me of wanting you just for your body.

I'm outta here, I don't need this accusation shit! Just when I thought the person I actually cared about knew me for me." I got up and stormed out of the living room putting back on zori, then I left. I heard her screaming in the background," Wait! Mugen, I didn't mean it like that! I'm Sorry!" I felt my irritation grow each time she said sorry. I finally had it and I let my anger get the best of me. I circled back around stormed up to her and got in her face," Listen to me, Fuu! You meant what you said, or else it wouldn't have came out of your mouth! It doesn't matter how many times you apologize to me! I actually cared about you! Protected you! And went on that journey with you!

But no, I guess that whole time you didn't trust me and just thought I was a worthless piece of shit!? Is that it?!" She was backing away," Mugen, thats not it-its just that, I'm scared your going to toss me away like you did with those women at the brothel and not to mention that one girl." She crouched down and began to cry. I couldn't take this shit any longer and began to walk away. I heard her still screaming after me," Mugen, where are you going?! Mugen?!" I couldn't take it any longer, and I did what I knew best, I kept walking.

Fuu's Perspective

I fucked up again, I promised myself that I wouldn't do this again, and I did?! I'm not good for anything. Not only did I lose one of my best companions Momo a long time ago, but I just lost the love of my life, because of my own selfish insecurities. "You know Fuu, you still have time to catch up with him." I looked up and no one was there, that voice was so familiar though, it sounded just like my moms. "Fuu-Chan, don't give up so easily. Its not like you to just throw in the towel like that, get up and go get him." This time when I looked I could see that it was my mom and dad's spirits. Thats when I knew I had to follow through with my promise, I had to go win back the love of my life, no matter how I had to do it.