Gon jumps up in bed, his heart beating fast in his chest as he breathes deeply. The raven haired boy grips the blanket that's around his waist, keeping his eyes squeezed tight. Gon's had another one of those dreams. He never remembers what it's about but he always wakes up feeling as if he's lost something. Such a deep feeling of dread overwhelms him upon waking up yet he doesn't even know why he's so upset.

Gon reaches over beside him, his hand searching for warmth, for his best friend that's always beside him- Gon feels nothing but the cold mattress under his palm. The young boy's eyes snap open, his heart seizing up in his throat as he looks at where his best friend should be. That feeling of dread doubles, his heart beat being heard in his ears. A panic starts to bubble up. He feels so helpless. Is this still the dream? Gon is about to yell Killua's name when he looks around the room, only to spot his friend across the room from him, laying on the couch, asleep.

All the panic, dread, and feelings of helplessness fades away. His heart calms down till he can't hear anything but Killua's soft breathing. Soon reality settles in, and that horrible dream and feeling become a distant memory. I'm in the hotel room Leorio bought for us but why is Killua sleeping on the couch? Gon tries to remember what happen last night. His eyes light in realization. That's right! I was doing Killua's hair and when I was finished he got really hot and had to take a shower. I must have fell asleep waiting for him.

Gon reaches over to grab his phone off the night stand to check the time. 4:30 am. He frowns looking at the time before glancing back at his friend on the couch. It's too early to wake up Killua, he'd probably be mad if he did but Gon wants his best friend closer to him. Gon doesn't know if he'll be able to fall back asleep like this. No wonder I had the dream, Killua wasn't beside me. It seems whenever Killua sleeps with him he doesn't have the dream or if he does, he doesn't wake up feeling as bad. The feeling goes away as soon as he feels Killua next to him. Gon almost had a panic attack just then when he didn't see Killua next to him. The nightmare must be getting worse. The feeling of dread he had was stronger than it ever was before.

Gon bites on his lower lip, rocking on the bed back and forth as he tries to think of what to do. A part of him wants to just yell for Killua to wake up and get in bed with him. Another part is thinking if it's possible to move Killua without waking him. The latter is impossible. Gon knows as soon as he touches Killua, he'll wake up. He's been trained to be aware even in sleep after all. I don't want to wake him up and make him mad at me...Gon tilts his head before he gets an idea. Quietly he gets off the bed before he grabs the blanket and pillows. He walks over towards Killua slowly, glad the carpet hides his footsteps pretty well.

Killua doesn't move a muscle. He's so still in his sleep, like a statue. When he sleeps he looks dead. His chest barely raising and falling. Gon frowns as he places his blanket and pillows on the floor next to the couch before studying Killua's sleeping expression. There's no calmness about his sleep. When Gon looks at his face, it seems that Killua is just closing his eyes and at any moment he could just jump up. He looks so stiff...when we sleep together he isn't like that though. His body relaxes. Gon has woken up before Killua a couple of times and when he looks at his face, it's calm. Killua is calm. But now he's not. He wonders If Killua can even feel refreshed sleeping like that.

Gon smiles when he notices that Killua kept the braids in. He wants to touch Killua and tell him to relax. He wants to see his face calm. He wants to see his true sleeping expression. Gon doesn't want to wake him up though so he settles for laying on the floor next to him, pulling up the covers. He shifts a bit, getting comfortable. He's slept on worse. Gon glances up at Killua, taking comfort in his presence. Gon smiles to himself, his body already loosing up now that he's next to his best friend. He lets his eyes shut and soon he's out again.

The nightmare doesn't come back.

The vibrating of Killua's phone in his pants pocket was all it took to wake him up instantly. His eyes snap open, his body jerking up. He glances around, checking his surroundings, his hands inching to turn into claws if needed. Once he sees he's in the hotel he calms down and relaxes. Mentally, Killua knew he wasn't in danger but his body always reacts this way. Years of training has drilled it into him. Sleep light, so you'll awaken to the slightest indication of an enemy. When you wake up, check your surroundings, be ready to kill. Killua's eyes get dull. He shakes his head, shaking it off. It seems no matter how hard I try, the assassin is still a part of me.

Killua is broken from his thoughts by his phone still vibrating in his pants. He takes it out and turns off the alarm he had set last night to wake him up at 6:30. Time to wake up Gon... Killua takes a deep breath before looking over towards the bed, wanting to see the face that he had been deprived of through the night-

The bed is empty. "Gon?" Killua jumps off the couch, tripping over a hard lump on the floor he hadn't seen, too focused on the bed where his best friend should have been. Killua hops a couple of steps before he gains his balance, his eye twitching, only to stop when he hears the lump behind him groan.

"Ow Killua You're heavy." Killua turns around, a look of surprise on his face when Gon pushes the blanket down that he had covering his head. A look of discomfort expressed by his eye brows being furrowed.

"Gon what the hell are you doing laying on the floor?" Killua blinks still not registering the sight before him. Gon is laying on the ground with the blanket wrapped around his body like a cocoon. He was asleep on the bed before I laid down on the couch. When did he wake up? And why didn't I sense it?

"Why weren't you in bed?" Gon pouts, sitting up with the blanket still around him.

"H-Huh?" Killua tenses at the cuteness of Gon's pout and his question.

"When I woke up you weren't in bed with me. Why?" Gon tilts his head, he says it so innocently, those amber eyes seem to pierce through Killua's soul. As if he's trying to find his most deepest secret. Killua closes his eyes and puts on an annoyed face.

"I just decided to sleep on the couch. When I came out from my shower I saw that not only you had fallen asleep on me but you were sprawled out, taking up all the bed. I didn't want to deal with hearing you whine when I moved you so I just took the couch." It's a lie. I always have to tell you lies.

"Oh." Gon gives Killua a sheepish smile. "I guess I was more tired than I thought last night." Gon rubs the back of his head as he gets up from his blanket cocoon and starts stretching. Killua watches his best friend from the corner of his eye as he bends this way and that. He steels himself to look away from Gon's sun kissed skin to focus on the blanket and pillow on the floor.

"I answered your question. So answer mine. Why were you laying on the floor?" Killua puts his hands on his hips. "That's why you're all stiff idiot."

"Because I wanted to be close to Killua." Gon stops his stretching to lock eyes with the ex-assassin. His amber orbs hold nothing but honestly. It takes Killua's breath away. His words, that look, makes his heart feel like it could stop. "I didn't like waking up and seeing you over here but I didn't want to wake you. So I came up with a solution! I'd just sleep on the floor next to you! I was able to fall right back asleep thanks to you."

"W-What the- you should have just woken me up! Why sleep on the floor when you have a perfectly good bed?" Killua crosses his arms. He tries to keep a straight face. He tries to keep his scolding mode on but really he just wants to melt. The fact that Gon wanted to be next to him so much that he would sleep on the floor makes Killua's heart ache. He didn't like that I wasn't next to him...Killua feels too warm and soon that warmness is spreading upwards, flushing his cheeks. Killua stands firm though, not looking away. What Gon did was really sweet but Killua still doesn't want him doing things he doesn't have to do. All Gon needed to do was say the word and Killua would have gotten back in bed with him.

Killua isn't strong when it comes to Gon. He's his weakness.

"Aren't you the one who tells me to stop being selfish all the time?" Gon hums, thinking to himself as he goes back to stretching.

"Well this was a time to be selfish!" Killua retorts childishly.

"How am I suppose to know when to be selfish and not to be?" Gon frowns, Killua can see the gears in his head turning. He groans and rubs his forehead. "It's too early to be using my head. I didn't want you to get mad. It was only four when I woke up so I wasn't asleep on the floor for that long."

When he saw I wasn't with him, despite how early it was he just got up and laid down next to me to sleep for a couple of hours? Killua doesn't understand Gon sometimes. The boy makes his heart flutter and makes his body feel like it's air. But at the same time, his feelings, his darkness, his guilt holds him down. If Killua wasn't weak, he could have been sleeping by Gon's side and everything would have been okay. Gon's sleeping on the floor is his fault but a part of him is happy he did it. Killua's delighted Gon would go to such lengths. The delight makes another part of him sick.

"So next time you wake me up!" Gon walks up to Killua, poking him in the forehead with a grin on his face. "Next time you tell me to move! The couch doesn't look as comfortable as the bed and you looked all stiff asleep. Also I sleep best when you sleep with me."

"That's just you being selfish again." Killua grumbles, his face getting warm as he glances away.

"Maybe." Gon chuckles before he walks over to the side of the bed where the dresser is. He pulls out his green sweat pants and white tank top. He puts them on before his eyes light up in realization. "Oh! It's time to see how your hair turned out!" Gon runs up to Killua, taking in his braid that held through the night.

In all honesty, Killua thought that he would have some trouble getting to sleep after such heated thoughts about Gon and the fact he wasn't allowing himself to be next to his friend or to look at him. But the braid in Killua's hair, the slight tugging he felt was as if Gon was right next to him, his hands still in his hair. It put him right to sleep. Killua won't admit it but he's excited to have Gon's hands in his hair again and to see how his hair will look like.

Gon gets behind Killua and takes out the pony tail. The ex-assassin's heart beat increases as Gon's hands skillfully unwind his hair, gently breaking the braid apart. Soon enough there is no tugging on his scalp, and no hands in his hair. Killua fights back the whine when Gon's touch left him before he blinks. My hair feels...thicker?

"Oh wow! It looks great! All puffy and wavy!" Gon grabs Killua, turning him around. Those amber eyes are so light and bright. They burn the ex-assassin. "It's cute!"

"C-Cute?!" Killua can't help to sputter. In the inside he's screaming in Joy, on the outside he can't help to show his embarrassment, his face getting red. "Let me see!" Killua pushes Gon out of the way to run to the bathroom, Gon hot on his tail. Killua knocks the door open, running till he's in front of the mirror.

He blinks a couple of times trying to take in his image. His hair is short again. Short and puffy. His hair is too wavy and girly. He looks like a female! Especially with his face still red from Gon calling him cute and from the look in his eyes like he's in love- Killua changes his expression in the mirror, hiding his emotions from his eyes. If there's anything Killua can do, it's hide. He won't let Gon get the best of him.

"Don't you like it? I think it looks good." Gon beams, drifting around his friend trying to gauge his reaction. "Well, what do you think?"

"I'm washing this out." Killua grunts, crossing his arms. "You made me look like a girl!"

"Aw are you really washing it out? You don't look like a girl Killua, you still look like a man!-"

"Yes, I'm washing it out." Killua's eye twitches, he keeps his eyes closed as he makes a 'go away' motion with his hand. "So get out so I can take a shower."

"But It looks good!" Gon tries one last time.

Killua's heart flutters and his resolve crumbles a bit but it's not destroyed. The ex-assassin just gives the go away motion again.

"Awh." Gon frowns but listens to his friend. "Fine. I really thought you would have liked it." Killua's resolve is once again attacked by the disappointment in Gon's voice. "Guess I'm not as good as a hair stylist as Mito-san said-"

"Just because I don't like this hairstyle doesn't mean I won't like the others you can do." Killua cuts him off.

"You want me to do your hair again?" Gon's expression brightens up.

Killua's eyes snap open, realizing what he just said. Damn it I was suppose to stop him from doing my hair not encourage it! After how I reacted yesterday to it...I can't have him doing my hair!

"Ugh well-" Killua starts.

"I won't let you down! I'll find a hairstyle you like! Or my name isn't Gon freeces!" The young boy beams proudly, those amber eyes full of excitement. Killua's resolve shatters and his strong stance deflates in defeat. Damn. I can't tell him no now...And if Killua's honest with himself, it's not like he wants to anyway.

"Yeah, yeah now get out of here." Killua grabs Gon by the face before pushing him out, giving him a playful smirk. "I got to wash out this monstrosity." He coos as he slams the door in Gon's face before he could say anything.

"Hey! It's a good style! You just have bad taste." Gon yells in his defense. Killua chuckles at his friend's frustration only to stop when he looks at himself in the mirror again. His eyes have gone back to showing how he really feels. Big and soft, full of longing. Killua touches the waves in his hair absentmindedly. Really this isn't a bad look. But it's way too embarrassing to wear out in public. Killua twirls a strand around his finger, his eyes getting glossed over, his heart doing that damn flutter again.

Gon called it cute...So that means he thinks i'm cute with this hair style right?...Killua blushes, a warm happiness flooding him.

Hmm it's kind of a shame I have to wash it out. Killua thinks to himself as he gets into the shower. I wonder what kind of style Gon will try on me next?

It's sad really, how excited he feels over the idea of Gon just doing his hair. He's excited for the attention, hungry for his touch, and he wants Gon to look at him again and call him cute with such honesty.

Really Gon, I wish I could be as honest as you. But if I was...Killua won't think of that. He just hums to himself, relishing the fact Gon had called him cute.

This is all he needs. Nothing more.

"Damn it's too early." Leorio grumbles, holding a bag of ice to his temple. "Way too early."

"You've been saying that since three hours ago." Kurapika turns a page in the book he's reading. The blonde is sitting next to the older male on the train. "You shouldn't have drank so much last night."

"Hey I was celebrating!"

"You don't need to drown down two bottles of champagne to celebrate."

"You're exaggerating. You helped me with it so it's not like I drank it myself." Leorio winces from the pain in his head.

"I had three glasses at most."

"Whatever, you just don't know how to party." Leorio smirks. "I mean, That was the first time in awhile that I could just sit around and drink my heart out. It felt good." Leorio looks out of the window, watching the trees go by. "I liked being able to talk and drink without having to worry about anything for once."

Kurapika glances at his friend, studying him a moment before looking down at his book. "I liked it too." The blonde isn't sure but from the corner of his eye it looks as if a sort of smile has formed on Leorio's lips.

"Yeah, next time we do it learn to unwind a bit more! You need to drink more than just three glasses, you got to get out there!"

" Look where 'getting out there' got you." Kurapika gives Leorio a pointed look, staring at the bag of ice and the wince on his face.

"Tsk-" Leorio looks like he's about to say more, his eye twitching only for his face to contort in pain. He huffs. Settling with glaring out of the window. Sulking. Because he knows Kurapika is right.

As always. The blonde can't help his amused smile. It's been way to long since he's felt like this. The smiles almost comes naturally.

Kurapika had gotten up by himself in the morning but even if he didn't Gon would have woken him up. The excited teen banged on his door around 7 o'clock, wondering if he was up. Then he did the same to Leorio. The older male had a more irritated response, his hangover not going well with Gon's loud cheerful voice and the banging he was making. Needless to say Leorio was the only one who wasn't up and everyone had to wait for him to get ready. Killua made smart comments the whole time and started making loud sounds just to spite Leorio. Kurapika thinks it has something to do with Leorio yelling at Gon when he had knocked on the door.

Despite the rocky beginning it was nice getting breakfast with everyone again. Gon, despite being yelled at, stayed in a cheerful mood. He talked excitedly through breakfast, those amber eyes so bright. They haven't' lost their fire. The blonde just listen to him go on, feeling a smile tug at his lips. Gon just brought it on so easily. Kurapika can't help it. With Leorio being grumpy, and Killua listening to Gon intently, Kurapika kept his eyes and ears on Gon, the younger male kept his thoughts from the Troope and the makeup on his face.

"Wow Gon. You really are amazing." Kurapika had smiled at his good friend. He's sure his eyes held some sort of emotion. Probably admiration. Gon just got done telling him how he had completed Greed Island with Killua, but Kurapika wasn't just talking about his achievement there. He was talking about how Gon has stayed the same. It's almost like nothing has changed. He's still kind with those honest eyes. Having a smile that warms the coldest soul. He's always admired that in him.

Kurapika's eye brows furrow as he remembers what happens next. Once those words left his mouth, Killua was staring at him. The look in his eyes was different. Killua was studying him. Actually when Kurapika thinks about it Killua was studying him long before he had even said anything. But once Kurapika spoke and let his admiration show, he felt a tenseness in the air. The wave of aura he felt from Killua felt as though he was challenging the blonde. When Kurapika looked back at him, Killua didn't look away. He wasn't glaring at him but his eyes were narrowed as if he thought the blonde was suspicious or up to no good. There was also something else in his eyes that Kurapika didn't understand or at least what it looked like didn't make much sense. The tenseness in the air didn't make sense either. Kurapika hadn't done anything but compliment Gon. Killua was looking at him like he was an enemy. What had brought that on? Kurapika and Killua have never been really close. Really, they haven't talked much at all. But still what happened this morning confused the blonde.

Of course Gon didn't sense the change in mood and kept talking. Leorio was too busy grumbling about his head so the blonde was the only one who saw or noticed the change. Kurapika didn't say anything about it then but now that he's had time to sit and think about it, he can't help to think how strange it was.

"Hehe we found the conductor! Too bad he kicked us out right after." Gon's voice breaks Kurapika out of his thoughts and soon enough the young man is sitting across from him again with Killua by his side.

"Yeah It wasn't that interesting anyway." Killua grunts. "I can already tell I'm going to get bored quick on this train."

"At least we have nuts!" Gon grins over at his friend, pulling out a bunch of packets of nuts from his pocket.

Killua blinks before he starts to laugh. "You're a nut Gon! Who says that with a straight face. We've been on this train for 4 hours with nothing interesting happening and you're happy about the nuts. You're so weird."
"But you can have as many as you want! And they're good! Have some Killua!" Gon starts pushing a couple packets of nuts towards Killua's face. Gon's grin is goofy. "You'll see I'm not weird if you have some!"

"Get those out of my face Gon!" Killua's playful smile doesn't leave him as he grabs Gon's wrist, struggling against the other boy to keep the nuts away from him. "No matter what you'd still be weird-"

Gon grabs some more nut packets out of his pocket with his other hand and successfully pushes them into Killua's face when there was an opening. Gon's eyes shine with myth.

"Say 'Ah' Killua!" Gon chuckles only for Killua to grab some of the nut packets that fell between them during the struggle and he shoves them into Gon's face, his smile cat like.

"What's wrong Gon? I thought they made you happy?" Killua smirks only for Gon to move back suddenly, he grabs a couple of packets and throws them at the ex-assassin.

"They do!" Gon giggles at the look on Killua's face.

"You'll pay for that!" Killua grins, grabbing some more nut packets and throwing them back at Gon. Kurapika watches as the two throw nut packets at each other, Gon must have grabbed a lot because now the they're everywhere. Kurapika moves his head when he needs to avoid being hit by a flying packet. Leorio isn't as fast and has been hit a couple of times.

"Damn you kids! Cut it out already. You two are killing me here." The older man just groans, his face getting red from anger but he knows if he yells it will just hurt his head more.

Gon stops throwing the packets once he hears Leorio's in pain voice, giving his friend a apologetic smile. "Sorry Leorio. I forgot about your head."

"That's your fault for over doing it last night." Killua grunts, peeved that his fun with Gon had been cut short. "Learn some self control." He snaps.

" You're really pissing me off!" Leorio growls only to wince afterward.

"Killua." Gon frowns at his friend. The ex-assassin sighs and leans back in his seat. Mumbling a 'fine'. Gon smiles before grabbing a couple of packets of nuts. "Do you want some nuts Leorio? They're good!"

"No I'm okay." Leorio calms down at the gesture of kindness. Pressing the ice firmly against his head, ignoring Killua to look out the window. If his head wasn't hurting then it would have been a different story.

Kurapika sighs as he tries to read his book once again. "Hey Kurapika do you want some?" The blonde blinks before looking over at Gon. The young man is smiling at him, holding out a packet of nuts. He can't help to smile back.

"Sure. I'd like some." Kurapika takes the nuts from Gon's hand. He closes the book so he can use both his hands to open the package and eat the nuts.

"Well?" Gon beams at him.

"They're good Gon." Kurapika chuckles. Before he opens his eyes, the blonde can sense the air has changed once again around them. Kurapika opens his eyes, keeping his smile as he looks at Gon, but from the corner of his eye, he can see that Killua is staring at him. That same look in his eyes. Killua is studying him, that thickness in the air. Is the key Gon? Whenever I interact with him Killua starts to look at me strangely. Kurapika decides he wants to see if his theory is correct. "You have wonderful taste Gon." Killua is intently staring at him, looking for something. That thickness hasn't left, if anything it's grown.

"Heh! I told you they were good Killua!" Gon grins. "Kurapika likes them too!" He teases. Kurapika catches the slight twitch in Killua's hand.
"Psh that's just because he's weird like you." Killua says weird differently when he calls Gon it. When he called Kurapika it there was hidden mean intent. When he called Gon weird it was an endearment. Kurapika puts what he knows together before he decides to make his next move. He has a pretty good idea what's causing Killua to act like this but he just wants to try something first to confirm it.

"Well it seems like us weirdos need to stick together Right Gon?" Kurapika smiles sweetly at his friend who turns his attention back to him. "Aren't you glad to have a friend like me who's willing to try new things for you?"

The reaction is almost instant. Killua, whether consciously or unconsciously moves closer to Gon. The expression on the young Zoldyck's face turned into a glare. It was only a second but it was enough reaction to confirm his suspicions.

"Of course I'm happy to have a friend like you Kurapika!" Gon says cheerfully. Not at all aware of the change in atmosphere, or how his friend beside him is covering his face with his bangs, grinding his teeth.

"Give me those nuts!" Killua snatches a bunch of the packets from Gon. He rips a lot open at one time with his teeth before he stuffs the nuts into his mouth. "Kurapika's not that special. Of course I'll try new things for Gon. I was going to eat the nuts but I like to have fun." Killua crosses his arms before looking over at the other male who is looking at him in surprise. "Right Gon?"

"Yeah!" Gon smiles. Kurapika almost wants to give Gon a look. How can he not feel this? It's obviously different then how it was before. There's a hostile air between the ex-assassin and the blonde. Kurapika is a bit surprised though. He didn't expect for Killua to act like that. He lost his cool a little and showed more of his feelings. Just as I expected. The emotion I thought I saw and felt in him is Jealously. But why he is he jealous of me? Because me and Gon are friends? That didn't seem to bother him before. Kurapika's eyes lower back to the book that's closed on his lap. no... Killua didn't lose his cool over what I said. But what Gon said. I saw it in that moment, the slight shift of his eyes, the grinding of teeth. Is Killua really jealous of their friendship? Has the ex-assassin become possessive over these years with Gon?

Kurapika supposes it makes sense. He's aware Gon was Killua's first friend. He was aware Killua felt a special bond with Gon since the beginning of the hunter exam. Kurapika never has gotten any ill will from Killua just from talking with Gon though. Something else must have changed. Unless Killua doesn't trust me-

The blonde's gray eyes flash but he hides it with his long blond strands. Can Killua smell it on me? Death? He wouldn't be surprised if Killua found some detail he forgot to hide to expose the truth. But if Killua knew, he wouldn't be jealous. He'd be...well Kurapika doesn't know but jealous doesn't make sense. Kurapika takes a deep breath and allows himself to calm down. The tenseness isn't really bad either. The blonde doesn't think Killua would try to hurt him, the feeling in the air is just wary. Killua seems wary of him.

"Did you like them Killua?" Gon smiles brightly at his friend. As soon as those amber eyes lock with blue, the tense feeling between them fades away.

"Yeah I guess they are pretty good. I still don't see how they make up for this train ride though." Killua leans back in the seat, folding his arms above his head.

"Maybe we could play a game to pass the time?" Gon opens up more of the packets and throws the nuts into his mouth.

"I have a game." Leorio suddenly comes back to life, groaning.

"Really? What is it?" Gon beams at his friend.

"It's called 'make Leorio happy' ." Leorio mumbles. " Who ever can shut up the longest wins. A silent game between you two huh? How about it?"

"That's boring." Killua yawns.

"Then make it more interesting." Leorio looks over at the younger two males. "do one of your bets or whatever." Leorio waves them off.

"Tsk. Come on Gon. Lets go find something else to do." Killua gets up off the seat, shoving his hands into his pockets. "This old man is pissing me off."

"Okay." Gon gets up. He gives Leorio a glance before he follows his friend out of their space and into the isle.

Kurapika watches the two younger boys leave before looking over at Leorio. "You should take some pain medicine if your head is bothering you so much. You shouldn't snap at them. This is a long train ride after all. You know it's hard for them to sit still."

"I told you, I don't use my meds for myself unless I really need them. I understand this is a long trip and all but Killua has been trying to piss me off since this morning! You know i'm right! He kept making loud noises and everything he says has a bite to it. My head is hurting. I know Gon and Killua like to play but I just can't deal with it right now." Leorio sighs.

"I think Killua is acting the way he is because you yelled at Gon this morning." Kurapika watches Leorio frown. "And in turn you made Gon upset. Of course Gon quickly recovered but Killua is one to hold on to things for a little bit." Again, when it comes to Gon, Killua reacts a bit hostel. Is he really jealous of the friendship that both Kurapika and Leorio share with him? I wonder if I should mention it to Leorio.

"I said I was sorry. I love Gon to death but he was knocking at my door way too early and shouting when my head was pounding." Leorio shakes his head. "I'll make it up to him when I feel better. Hopefully Killua has dropped it by then. I know he's a teenager and hormones and everything but that attitude of his is annoying."

Kurapika looks down at his hands in his lap for a moment. "Does Killua seem different to you?"

"Hm?" Leorio looks over at the blonde. "Different?...Not really. He's grown and he seems to snap more often but that's it. It's all apart of his mental development. I've learned about this after all. Really it's crazy how much they haven't changed. At least the relationship between Gon and Killua. Its like how it was when they were children."

So he doesn't see it or sense it. "Yeah it's nice isn't it?" Kurapika smiles faintly before frowning. "I wonder if Killua feels like we're intruding on his friendship with Gon."

"Huh? What makes you say a thing like that?" Leorio blinks.

"I don't know, just thinking out loud." Kurapika sighs. "It's just when i've been talking with Gon I notice that Killua will give me this look as if he wants me to stop or if he's studying me for something. It's strange but it almost feels as if Killua is jealous."

"Jealous? Really? From you talking to Gon?" Leorio blinks, his attention fully on the blonde.

"Yes. It seems a bit strange even to me. Maybe i'm wrong. I have no proof of it. It's probably my mind playing tricks on me from lack of sleep. Forget about it." Kurapika shakes his head.

"IF you say so." Leorio yawns. "I think I'm going to...take a nap. I'm sure my headache will be gone by then." Leorio's voice becomes softer. Silence falls between them. Once Kurapika hears his calm breathing he knows the older man is asleep.

I guess I'll read some more then. Kurapika opens his book back up, pushing his thoughts of Killua to the back of his mind. It feels wrong in a way to have judged what he felt so quickly. Kurapika could have it completely wrong. He'll leave it alone for now.

The blonde tenses when Leorio suddenly leans on him, his head laying against his. The blonde glances over at the other man's sleeping face that is so close to his own. The blonde closes his eyes for a moment before going back to his reading, not bothering to move the other man.

Once again Kurapika smiles. It just comes naturally.

Killua stares out of the window, watching as the trees go by. His reflection stares back at him through the window. Even to himself he looks calm. But he's pissed. This feeling turning his stomach and making him want to growl.

"Killua?" Gon questions next to him. He can see his friend's reflection looking at him, those amber eyes confused. "Why are we sitting here? Shouldn't we go and sit with Leorio and Kurapika?"

Killua sighs, his face turning in annoyance. "You heard that old man. It's obvious he didn't want us over there. He was talking to us like we were still 12 or something. He's been annoying all day. Complaining about his head and then he yelled at you this morning when it's all his fault for drinking too much."

"Yeah but I felt bad. I didn't know that if you drank that stuff it could hurt your head." Gon frowns. " Leorio seemed like he was in a lot of pain when he opened the door and yelled at me so I don't mind. I don't think Leorio should drink if it hurts him." Gon thinks a moment. "It's been a couple of hours though. Maybe Leorio is better now?" When Killua doesn't respond Gon looks at him more intently. "Are you mad at Leorio?"

"Yeah I am. Drinking doesn't hurt your head like that unless you drink too much Gon. You won't have to worry about that when I make you a nice alcoholic drink. He made the mistake of drinking too much and then for the rest of the day he's just complaining and trying to ruin our fun." Killua closes his eyes. "I don't want to go back there right now." this is the only truth he's spoken.

Yes, he's a little annoyed with Leorio but the real reason he's pissed off is because of the younger blonde. Something about him isn't sitting well with the ex-assassin. If he's honest with himself he knows what it is. It's the way he looks at Gon. There's something different about it. Those gray eyes get a little lighter every time they look at Gon, and he smiles. Killua noticed it today, there's admiration in his eyes. That's all good and dandy that Kurapika admires Gon but Killua doesn't like it. He really doesn't like Gon smiling at Kurapika either. He smiles at the blonde more than Leorio. Killua feels threaten. Not physically. Killua could kill Kurapika if he wanted to but...What if Gon started wanting to hang out with Kurapika? What if Kurapika feels something for Gon? The blonde was challenging Killua. The way he spoke those words "Aren't you glad to have a friend like me who's willing to try new things for you?" Kurapika was acting like he's better than him! Like he's a better friend for Gon... Killua's stomach turns.

"Kurapika wants to take him away from you." His reflection sneers at him. Killua averts his gaze. He feels his hand twitch. "Gon likes him more than you."

Just when Killua is about the punch the window he feels a hand on his shoulder. Killua blinks, his reflection blinking with him before he looks over at Gon who's giving him a smile. "If you don't want to go back then we won't. We'll just hang out here together till the ride is over! That way Leorio will be able to have some quiet and we can still have fun. So don't be angry Killua, this is suppose to be a happy time. I want you to be happy."

All the dread, anger, and the twisting of his stomach leave him. It melts away with that smile and those sweet words. All tenseness leave his body and that sneering voice disappears. Gon's brightness destroyed his darkness and cleared his mind. What's wrong with me? Kurapika is just a friend. He wouldn't want to take Gon from me. The looks are weird yes, but Gon is my best friend. Killua's heart flutters at Gon wanting him to be happy and he can't help the smile that's found it's way on his lips. We're all friends here. I have nothing to worry about. Stop being suspicious. It's not like that anymore.

"Yeah, yeah okay." Killua grins, poking his friend on the forehead, getting Gon to beam. Killua wants to say so much more. He wants to tell Gon that he's always happy when he's with him but that's too honest and too bold for him. He could never say it. So he'll keep playing his dishonest game. "I'll be fine when we met back up with him. Hopefully the ship will be more interesting."

"Yeah and while we're on the ship we can all fish together." Gon points to the back pack that's on his back, his fishing rod hooked to it.

"I'm sure I can catch a bigger catch than you." Killua sticks his tongue out. "I've gotten so good I think i've surpassed you Gon."

"Yeah right." Gon shakes his head. "You still freak out when I grab the bait and put it on the hook."

"I hate worms." Killua wrinkles his nose. "They're slimy and yuck." He puffs out his cheeks. " And I don't freak out anymore. I'm even able to put the bait on the hook myself!"

"I guess you got a little better." Gon smiles playfully before he yawns. His eyes getting half lidded. He starts to rub at them.

Killua studies him a moment. He didn't sleep well last night and sleeping on the floor didn't help him either. Killua's chest feels warm at the thought of this morning. "If you're tired Gon you should sleep now. We have three hours before the train ride is over."

"...yeah i'll take a nap." Gon closes his eyes before he leans down into his seat. He turns so he's facing Killua. He opens his eyes back up, those amber orbs staring into his. "I don't want to be...tired for when we get on the ship.." He yawns again before closing his eyes.

Killua watches Gon from the corner of his eye, greedily taking in that heavenly face, a small smile coming to his lips as he watches his friend slowly become more relaxed.

"Killua?" Gon doesn't open his eyes. Killua blinks, knowing Gon is so close to being asleep.

"Yes?"

"You're not going to leave are you?"Gon's voice is soft and drowsy.

"No i'll be right here." I'll always be right here. What a silly question Gon.

"Good..." Gon's voice trails off. His hand falls limply against Killua's shoulder. It slides down his arm before grasping onto the end of his sleeve. Killua waits for Gon to let go. He's asleep now, there's no doubt about it. His aura is calm and his breathing smooth. His expression is so peaceful, those lips slightly parted. Killua can feel his heart beat faster and his mouth go dry. The warmness of Gon's hand against his arm as he grasps his sleeve becoming too much for him.

It's too cute. Gon is holding onto his shirt while he sleeps. Killua's sure Gon doesn't even know that he's doing it. It warms Killua and makes his pale cheeks pink. Killua glances around at the other passengers. No one seems to be paying them any mind. The ex-assassin turns his attention fully on Gon, not able to help his staring. He missed out on this last night.

The raven haired boy is beautiful. Even when he's asleep he's as bright as the sun. He's handsome, cute, and sexy at the same time. Gon is funny, kind-hearted, hard working, stubborn, naive, wild, weird, selfish but most of all he is light. He is everything that Killua isn't. Killua soaks in this time where he can openly stare and admire his best friend. His heart feels too light. Gon makes him feel so good. The way that Gon is clinging to his shirt makes him feel needed. Wanted.

The ex-assassin gives into his desire to be closer to his friend and leans his head against Gon's, closing his eyes and rejoicing in the feeling of Gon's breath against his face. He closes his eyes, curling up next to Gon.

Killua will never leave Gon's side. He'll always be here. That's why it was a silly question. Where else would I go? Killua smiles to himself, rubbing his head against Gon's in a snuggling manner. You're my home now.

"Hey it's time to wake up Gon." a soothing voice comes from the darkness. The raven haired boy just smiles and cuddles into the softness and warmth that's against his head.

"mmm."

"H-Hey Gon wake up." A finger pokes him in the forehead causing him to groan. "The train has stopped."

"aw so soon?" Gon moves away from the warmth to rub at his eyes. Only then does it hit him and his eyes snap open, looking excitedly over at Killua whos looking out of the window. Gon can't see his face. "Oh hey the train's really stopped! Now all we have is a 2 hour sail and we'll be at the island! I'm so excited!"

"Yup." Killua grins over at Gon. He looks down for a moment before looking away again, his cheeks seem to have more color to them. "You can let go of me now Gon."

"Hmm?" Gon blinks before looking down at his hand that is grasping his sleeve. "Oh wow I didn't even realize I was grabbing you. I guess it was my body's way of making sure you didn't leave!" Gon remembers a little bit of what he said to Killua before he went to sleep. He was worried that Killua would leave him to explore without him because he was bored. Killua doesn't have to sleep as much as him so Gon knows that he probably wouldn't sleep and would want to move around. I just didn't want to have that dream again and knowing that Killua would be by my side helped ease me into sleep.

Maybe it was selfish of him. Killua probably would have liked to leave but Gon needed him to sleep. Also he doesn't like thinking that Killua would have fun without him.

"Thank you."

"Don't thank me idiot." Killua looks out of the window again, hiding his face. "It's not like I had a choice, you had a pretty good hold on me."

Gon chuckles at his friend. That was a bad lie. Killua could have easily gotten away from him. Probably even got away without waking him. But Gon knows that Killua didn't leave his side. He knows that his hand never stopped grasping his shirt.

"There you two are." Gon looks over to see Kurapika and Leorio. The blonde is smiling while Leorio is scratching his cheek. "We were wondering where you two went."

"I just wanted some quiet you guys didn't have to sit somewhere else for the rest of the train ride." Leorio frowns.

"Yeah but we wanted to give you some space. I felt bad about hurting your head!" Gon smiles. He doesn't mention that Killua didn't want to come back because he was angry. That would just make Leorio angry.

"Ah well don't. I did it to myself." Leorio waves his hand, before rubbing the back of his head. "I didn't mean to snap at you guys. My head feels a lot better and now that it's clear I know I was being a bit of a jackass." Leorio huffs, averting his gaze before looking back at FGon, a frown on his lips. "I didn't mean to yell at you either. This is suppose to be a nice vacation and I've already set us off on a rocky start."

"No it's fine! I'm just glad you're feeling better. I understand why you yelled since you were in pain. I don't think you should drink anymore Leorio if it hurts you." Gon stands up with Killua behind him.

"Ha! I can't stop drinking my liquor. I love it too much but i'll try to keep it down so I don't get like that again. As a doctor I've learned all the bad drinking can do for a person but I think the books failed to say all the good it does." Leorio beams proudly. "I should make an Alcohol that isn't toxic to the liver. I'd make millions!"

"Some things never change." Kurapika shakes his head. "I highly doubt you could make such a thing when you can't even cook ramen noodles without burning them."

"Hey! That was a one time thing. I got better at it. Just wait, I'll amaze you all with my invention!" Leorio grins as he leads the way out of the train. Kurapika, Gon, and Killua following behind.

"I doubt it." Killua and Kurapika say at the same time.

"Oh yeah? What's to doubt?" Leorio snaps at them.

"Everything." They once again answer together.

Gon can't help to laugh at the face Leorio makes. Soon to follow him is Kurapika with a light chuckle and Killua with a snicker. Gon feels good. It's just like old times. He's glad it's gone back to normal with everyone. Leorio and Killua seem to be getting along as they always do.

"You all have problems." Leorio's angry expression soon changes into one of mirth. He chuckles a little bit before those brown eyes shine. "let's hurry up and get on the ship. I'm ready to get into our hotel. It's going to be so nice. We're going to have our own hot tub in the rooms!" Leorio sighs happily just thinking about it, cracking his neck. " I need something to relax me."

"Ohh a hot tub! I've seen those in the movies! I've always wanted to try one." Gon beams, looking over at Killua. For some reason Killua averts his gaze.

"...Me too." he scratches his cheek.

"Yeah! We can try it together Killua!" Gon smiles feeling excited that he gets to experience something new with his best friend. Killua smiles back at Gon, those blue eyes look bright. He nods.

"Sure. Sounds good!"

"Maybe we can all soak together tonight." Kurapika hums. "While we talk about our plans for tomorrow."

"Oh! That's a good idea Kurapika!" Gon blinks not realizing that possibility. He smiles thinking of all his friends together, sharing a hot tub with Killua by his side. "That'll be fun."

Killua slumps a bit, a look of disappointment crossing those eyes that Gon misses. When Gon looks over at Killua, the ex-assassin smiles at him.

"Yeah if we can all fit in one." Leorio grumbles. "But it will feel nice being able to relax as we plan out our vacation."

"I want to go to the caves!" Gon cheers.

"I want to eat that cake." Killua licks his lips.

" I want to see the museums." Kurapika adds in.

"I want to go to the beach." Leorio grins as the four of them walk together down the path away from the train and towards the port. Luckily the train stop isn't but a couple of miles away from the port where Gon can see the ship they need to board waiting at the dock. "Babes, the sun, the waves."

"We probably won't be able to do all these things so we'll have to work out what we want to do tomorrow and then maybe add smaller activities." Kurapika looks over at Gon. "What else do you want to do other than the caves?"

"Well I want to do the fishing competition-" Gon turns his attention to Kurapika, thinking about everything that he wants to do.

"Hey Gon! Race you to the ship!" Killua suddenly shouts, taking off running ahead of the raven haired boy. The shout broke his train of thought and he's left staring after Killua dumbly. The ex-assassin stops running to grin back at Gon. "If I win this will be the second time you've lost to me Gon~"

This snaps Gon out of it and in a blink of an eye he pushes hard on his back leg, pushing himself forward in a fast first step, getting him all the way to Killua. He grins largely as he passes the surprised Killua. "You're not beating me again! You just got lucky this morning!" Gon starts to run now that he got his word in. Killua blinks before a smile breaks out on his lips. He follows after Gon, the raven haired male feels Killua getting closer. He's always been fast but I'm also fast. I'll show Killua now, i'm an worthy opponent.

While Gon got a good head start soon Killua is right behind him. He jumps so he's right next to him, grabbing his arm to push him back. Gon's eyes widen as they get closer to the loading deck. If I let him pass me he'll get to the ship before me! Thinking on his feet, Gon puts weight on his back leg again only to jump, tackling his friend from behind. Gon turns them so he's the one who hits the ground, taking the blunt of the impact before he rolls them over so he's on top. He jumps off of his friend and runs all the way to the loading board of the ship. "I win!" Gon shouts, throwing his arms in the air, those eyes bright and his chest warm. I beat Killua! The victory puts something at rest inside him. A restlessness. A sort of worry. Gon looks back expecting to see his friend right behind him only to see Killua just getting off the ground, his bangs covering his eyes. The glow of victory disappears immediately and he frowns. Did I accidentally hurt him? Is he mad?

"Killua! Are you alright?" Gon runs back to his best friend, his face showing his concern. He stops in front of Killua who isn't looking at him. From the shadow his bangs are casting Gon can see the color red. "Did you get hurt?" Gon reaches out to move Killua's bangs, wanting to see his face. Guilt eats at him. I shouldn't have tackled him just to win but I just...I hate losing. If he keeps losing to Killua then...something will happen right? Killua might lose interest in him.

"Nope." Killua grabs Gon's arm before it can reach his bangs. He looks up suddenly a large mischievous smirk on his face. "You idiot!" Killua suddenly pulls Gon, throwing him behind him before he runs up to the ship. He turns back to a dumb founded Gon, that smirk still there, those blue eyes bright. " You didn't make it completely on the ship. You stopped to see if I was alright. You can't just believe what you see Gon, or let your feelings get in the way of your goal." Killua grins. "I win again~"

"Damn it!" Gon groans. "that was a dirty trick Killua! I thought I hurt you or something!"

"that's what you get for thinking I would get hurt from a simple tackle." Killua huffs. "that's an insult."

"Well I didn't know. You just kind of stopped and you were hiding your face." Gon rubs the back of his head feeling a little pissed that Killua used his emotions against him. But I guess he's right. During our missions I let my emotions get the best of me sometimes. I lose sight of the goal easily. Killua always has to put me back on track. He's always teaching me things. Gon feels his cheeks tint a bit. It feels like Killua is scolding him now. He feels like he's a child again and he doesn't like it. It makes it the more obvious how grown up Killua is compared to him. Some times I feel like we're on the same page only for him to teach me something new. I wonder if soon he'll think I can't keep up with him.

"Hey Gon..." Killua's expression suddenly softens. Those blue eyes are studying him making him feel strange. Gon pouts, averting his gaze. Killua's mean. No matter how many times he teaches me, I won't be able to throw away my concern for Killua just for the sake of my goal. "Don't sulk! I wasn't expecting you to tackle me so you almost won. It was a good try."

"Yeah just a good try." Gon mumbles, knowing he is sulking but still! He was so close! He knows Killua couldn't hear him from how far away he is. He crosses his arms and looks away from Killua. He can see Kurapika and Leorio catching up to them. His two friends are walking side by side chatting about something. As they get closer he can make out a couple of words-

An arm wraps around his shoulder and a hand grabs his cheek squeezing it. "Come on Gon don't make that face." Killua chuckles, pulling on Gon's cheek.

"I cwant help it." Gon's voice is muffled from Killua pulling his cheek, pouting over at his friend. The other male expression changes when their eyes meet. His face doesn't seem as pale.

"Wow you guys have gotten a lot faster! Geez it was like watching a blur." Leorio catches up to them, chuckling. "What happened Gon? You had it!"

"Killua used a dirty trick." Gon frowns.

"You should have saw it coming really." Killua's smile is cat like but there's a softness to those blue eyes.

"I'll get you back." Gon pushes Killua, not meanly, just a slight playful shove before he grins at his best friend. " I won't lose sight of the goal Killua but know I won't leave you behind to do it. I'll always make sure you're alright. I know you're strong but that doesn't stop me from caring."

Killua's face completely falls. Those blue eyes light up and shine, his face getting red before he glares away. He grabs Gon and puts him in a head lock. "You and saying these things. People are looking at us now!"

"That's because...your...killing me." Gon wheezes, trying to pry Killua's tight grip around his neck. Killua lets go of him, those bangs covering his eyes. He huffs.

"I can feel the love." Leorio laughs. "You two take a game and make it too serious."

Kurapika stares at Killua. The ex-assassin looks up, staring back at the blonde, his red face gone. "Well lets get onto the ship." Kurapika smiles at Killua before looking at Gon. The raven haired male is catching his breath.

"Okay!" Gon eyes suddenly get bright catching everyone off guard. "I can still beat Killua! I'll catch a bigger fish!" Gon grins at Killua who blinks. "I won't let you trick a win out of this one!"

"Heh I won't need to." Killua sticks out his tongue, Gon's happy his best friend seems to be back to normal. He wonders why Killua gets so flustered when ever he speaks his feelings. Killua will always hide his face and call him embarrassing or attack him. They're not mean attacks.

"Hey once we get settled on the ship do you all want to look for something to eat? I'm sure they have a snacks or something. It's a large ship." Leorio glances around as they walk up the long loading board onto the ship. There's many people already on it, staring out into the ocean, chatting amongst themselves.

"Yeah I'm feeling a little hungry." Kurapika glances around.

"You guys should have eaten more nuts." Gon crosses his arms with a smile on his face.

"Are you saying you're not hungry?" Killua raises his eyebrow.

"...No I'm hungry too." Gon gives a sheepish smile, Killua sighs.

"I knew it. Those nuts didn't do shit."

"They were still good." Gon mumbles.

Kurapika smiles at the two. "I think I've found the door down." The blonde looks over at Leorio who is walking ahead of them, pointing towards a door a little ways off. Everyone follows Leorio, Gon smiles over at Killua.

"We could explore while we're done there too Killua!"

"It's nice to see that you two still have that curious nature to you." Kurapika walks by Gon's side, glancing over at the younger boys. "You two play games and joke just as you did 4 years ago. You two are as close as ever."

"Yeah! Killua's my best friend I never get tired of playing games with him." Gon beams, he doesn't catch how his friend's eyes light up but the blonde does. He caught it before Killua could hide it.

"Yes your friendship is very strong." Kurapika looks ahead of him, staring at the back of Leorio's head as he leads them down the stairs into the Ships interior.

"Our friendship is strong as well." Leorio grins at Gon before locking eyes with Kurapika. The blonde averts his gaze before closing his eyes and smiling.

"Yes, during this time I'm looking to strengthen my bonds with all of you. It's been so long and though it may not seem like it, there has been a lot of change in us. We're all stronger, and wiser. We've all missed out on so much these pass four years. We can tell our stories but it's not the same as being there." Kurapika looks over at Gon and smiles.

"I'm sure this vacation will do just that. It's going to bring us together and treat us at the same time! We've all worked hard now it's time to relax! Take a load off." Leorio grins when he finds a door with dinning room written on the plague.

"Hey Gon." Killua stops walking, pointing his thumb over to a door across the hall. "I'm going to go to the bathroom first. Don't wait up for me." He turns around and starts walking off to the bathroom, his hands in his pockets.

"Okay." Gon watches him go before he walks into the dinning room with Leorio and Kurapika. He watches as his two friends walk side by side as they did all those years ago during the hunter exam. It's strange seeing them now as not that tall. They don't tower over him anymore. He's Kurapika's height. When he looks at his two friends like this he can't help to be hit by the obvious. I've really grown. I've changed but I don't really feel like I have. I feel stronger but I don't feel different. Am I suppose to? I wonder if Killua feels different?

"Looks like I overestimated this Only food they have is from vending machines!" Leorio's eye twitches when all he sees is a bunch of machines around with a couple of tables.

"Looking at the tickets you got us this is one of the cheaper ships so I'm not too surprised." Kurapika crosses his arms as he studies the different vending machines, looking for something he'd like. "Mind as well get a snack here."

"Way ahead of you." Gon runs up to a vending machine that he saw had Sun chips in it. What also caught his eye was the packet of tasty cakes they have. I should get something for Killua while i'm at it. Gon puts his money in, pushes the numbers and watches his goods fall. His forehead against the glass.

"I don't know what I want. Damn I was hoping for some real food. I could go for a cheeseburger or some steak right now." Leorio sighs as he looks at a vending machine with Kurapika.

"It can't be helped. Once we get off we should stop by a restaurant. I would also like something more substantial." Kurapika takes out some money when he sees a bag of chips he wants. He puts the money in and takes the bag out.

"Yeah." Leorio gets himself a soda and a tasty cake. "At least we only have two hours instead of 10. We've traveled longer but my head was not mixing with that train ride. It was killing me." Leorio glances over at the blonde as they walk over to table to sit down, Gon making his way towards them. "I felt much better when I woke up. My head felt lighter." Leorio glances away. "Thanks."

"Don't thank me. You just feel on me while asleep. I just didn't want to wake you up." Kurapika closes his eyes but there's a slight smile on his lips. "You'd probably start yelling again. I wanted to read my book in peace."

"Whatever just take the damn thank you." Leorio's eye twitches but his cheeks tint every so slightly.

"You're welcome." Kurapika says a bit softer, giving his friend a gentle smile that gets rid of his irritated look. He looks over at Gon as the two sit down. " we were thinking about stopping at a restaurant right after we get off the ship."

"That sounds good! I know this won't fill me or Killua up." Gon chuckles as he opens his bag of chips and starts digging in. "What are you guys in the mood for?"

"I want beef!" Leorio hits the table with his fist. "That's what i'm in the mood for! Cheeseburgers and steak!"

"I'm fine with that." Kurapika opens up his chips.

"Me too! I could go for a cheeseburger. I'm sure Killua would too but I'll make sure before we get off the ship." Gon glances at the doors to the dinning room, looking for his friend but he still hasn't come back.

Kurapika studies Gon for a moment before he puts a couple of chips in his mouth.

"Now I'm excited." Leorio grins.

"So Gon have you and Killua always been together for these four years? Have you ever separated at all?" Kurapika's gray eyes lock with Gon's, the raven haired male tilts his head and Leorio blinks in surprise at his random question before looking at Gon.

" Well Killua went off to get his hunter license while I was still in Greed island." Gon hums thinking to himself. "but I think that was the only time. Why?"

"Just wondering. Four years is a long time to be with someone constantly. It's amazing. Have you two fought at all? Have you had any trouble from Killua's family or from Hisoska?" Kurapika's gray eyes never leave Gon's.

"Yeah I've been wondering about that too." Leorio leans closer, interested.

"Well me and Killua get in arguments sometimes. We've gotten mad at each other. Usually about choices I want to make that Killua thinks are reckless or not worth it. But nothing serious." Gon thinks to himself about all the times him and Killua have fought. He never stuck on any of the argument. I don't think Killua stuck on any of them either. "We haven't had any trouble from Killua's family." Gon's eyes flash at thinking of that mansion. "Or Histoka. The last time I saw him was in Greed island."

"What did you two do when you got into arguments? Did you two separate?"

"Hmm no. I think we mainly yell at each other a little and then move on." Gon tries to think how their last fight ended. "We don't really separate. I think Killua took a walk once but he came back pretty quickly. Then we were okay. We don't really fight though."

"I see. I'm sorry if I'm asking you too many questions Gon."

"No it's fine Kurapika! I like getting to talk to you two. It's nice."

"Yeah and I find it pretty amazing you two don't fight that much And you are attached to each others hip still." Leorio chuckles, smiling at his younger friend. "I'm also happy to hear you haven't had any trouble with Killua's family or that creep."

"Yeah it's been pretty quiet lately. After Greed island we haven't done much else but train and explore. Me and Killua have learned awesome techniques with our nen because of it. If we did run into Histoka, I feel like I could take him." Gon's eyes start to shake, that feeling of excitement there only for him to blink. "But Killua thinks I still have some time to go." He grumbles. "I don't really feel like searching him out yet anyway. I want to find Ging first."

"I wish I could help you Gon but I still have a ways to go. All my time will be taken up with caring for the sick and making money to afford giving free care to everyone." Leorio takes a gulp of his soda.

"Yeah I think it's best to avoid Histoka if you can Gon. I know you've gotten much stronger but it's best to fight fights you need to fight for your goal then to search unnecessary fights out. Knowing him I doubt he'll stay away forever." Kurapika looks down at his bag of chips. "I would help with your quest with Ging but I first must get the eyes of my people back. Then if you haven't found Ging, i'll assist you."

"That's okay. I'm sure by then i'll find Ging. I feel like i'm close." Gon smiles, showing his appreciation in his eyes. "You two have your own things to worry about. I haven't helped you with it, so don't worry about helping me with this. I have Killua!"

"That's true. He'll certainly be by your side to help you." Kurapika smiles.

"heh once Kurapika finds all his people's eyes, and I get my free hospital started and you find your dad, we should all meet up again and stay together for a while. We could be a gang of hunters!" Leorio grins at his idea.

"And I can introduce you to my dad!" Gon's eyes light up. "That sounds nice. All of us together again to go on missions!"

"Yeah this vacation is just a taste of what's to come in the future!" Leorio grips his fist excited.

"It does sound like fun." Kurapika chuckles at his two friends and their enthusiasm. "Does Killua have something he's working towards?"

"Killua? Well...he still hasn't told me what he wants. But that's okay. He said he would help me as he thinks of what he wants." Gon hums remembering what Killua had said four years ago. I haven't thought about it since then. I kind of just thought Killua would stay with me but if he figures out what he wants, does that mean he'll want to go his own way? Gon frowns before he shakes it off.

"I see." Kurapika eats a couple of his chips. "I wonder how long it will take me to find all my brethren's eyes..." Kurapika's eyes get glossy.

"I'm sure not long. You've been at it none stop. You've already found half of them." Leorio gives his friend a reassuring smile. He pats him on the back. "...What are you going to do once you have all of them?"

"I'm going to put my brethren to rest and get rid of the images in my head..." Kurapika's voice trails off those gray eyes distant.

"Kurapika..." Leorio stares at Kurapika, a look in his eyes that Gon doesn't understand. It's a deep look. One of concern and something else.

"I know you can do it." Gon smiles at the blonde. Kurapika blinks before he looks up at Gon, that distant look gone.

"Of course you can." Leorio smiles as well, the blonde looking over at him. "And then you can put yourself to rest Kurapika."

Kurapika closes his eyes. "That is the plan but I wonder..." He opens his eyes before he smiles. "I wonder if we've started moving yet?"

Leorio blinks before his eyes light in realization. "You're right! It doesn't feel like it's moving and we've been down here for a while! It better be moving!"

"Let's go up and check." Kurapika stands up with Leorio. Gon follows the two out of the dinning room but he stops there as the other two keep walking.

"I'm going to check on Killua first." Gon waves to his friends.

"Alright we'll meet you up there." Leorio waves back as they ascend the stairs up into the deck. Gon turns around and heads to the bathroom. It has a picture of a female and male so this must be one of those family bathrooms. Gon tries the door but it's locked.

"Killua?" Gon tilts his head when he hears a shuffling sound and a mumble of something.

"Ah Gon?"

"You alright? You've been in there awhile." Gon frowns.

"Yeah i'm fine Gon, geez i'm just going to the bathroom." Killua grumbles.

"Oh." Gon feels like Killua's not being honest but what else would Killua be doing in there? "Okay well i'm going to go back up to the deck then. The dinning room didn't have any food except in vending machines. When you come out I got you a tasty cake."

"...I'll meet you up there soon. I'm almost done."

"Okay." Gon smiles. "I'll hold on to your tasty cake then! See you up on the deck." Gon turns and walks away from the bathroom. I wonder if his stomach is upset. He walks up the stairs onto the deck, the warm salt air hitting his face. He breathes it in and sighs, the smell reminding him of his home. Soon we should go back to see Mito-san. Gon looks around the ship noticing there's more people then there was before. He also notices that the ship is moving. Slowly but surely. He looks around for his two friends.

"And then I said, 'hey you, what are you doing to that lady!' He got scared and ran off." Gon blinks when he hears Leorio. He turns around to see his friend talking to a couple of women, a strange smile on his face. They giggle behind their hands. "I swear! He was actually going to do it!"

"Good thing you were there right?" The women chuckle, looking between themselves.

Gon tilts his head. So there's Leorio but where's Kurapika? He looks around for the blonde, walking around the ship. He finds the blonde on the other side of the ship, staring out into the ocean. The warm air blowing his hair and his slash. Gon smiles and runs up to his friend, stopping by his side.

"I saw Leorio talking to a couple of women. Did he know them?"

"Ah Gon." Kurapika looks over at his friend only for a his eye brow to twitch. "No he didn't know them. He's still as much as a ladies man as he was 4 years ago, the shameful man. I didn't want to stick around him while he's flirting with women. I'm not interested in that."

"Hmm." Gon leans on the bars, looking down at the sea. "Is Leorio looking for someone to date?"

"Most likely not. He just wants-" Kurapika looks over at Gon only to stop. He averts his gaze. "Well you know." He looks out into the sea. "He's only dated a couple of women."

"So he's not looking for love? Or someone he likes romantically?" Gon can't help to think of the conversation he had with Killua the other day.

"I don't think so but I suppose I can't speak for him. He may be." Kurapika's gray eyes change.

"So you can like someone romantically without really knowing them?" Gon tilts his head. He's glad he can try to learn from Kurapika instead of Killua. This way he'll learn and Killua wont get annoyed with him.

"Well you can find someone attractive and want to do...things with them even if you don't know a person well." Kurapika averts his gaze. "Much like Leorio does."

"But don't you have to like the person to like someone romantically?" Gon blinks.

"Well usually. But Leorio's more...lustful than romantic." Kurapika's cheeks dust a bit. "W-Whats with the interest?"

"I want to understand the difference between the different likes. Killua says there's the like two friends have and then there's a romantic like. But now you're saying there's' a lustful like...but it's not a romantic like?" Gon can feel his gears moving, steam close to coming off of him. "Ah i'm so confused!" Gon grabs his head. " can you explain it to me Kurapika?...Killua got annoyed when I asked him. He tried to explain it to me but I still didn't get it. I don't want to ask him again. He'll think I'm even more dumb."

"You're not dumb Gon." Kurapika puts a hand on his shoulder. "You're just innocent. Since you've been 12 you've been traveling around with out any parents. There was no one to teach you this. Killua has had more experienced in things than you." Kurapika gives him a reassuring smile. "I'll try to explain it to you the best I can. I'm not the best one to ask about romantic things but I know what it is."

"Thank you Kurapika!" Gon beams, looking at the blonde with his eyes bright. "Please explain what the difference is between friend like and Romantic like! And lustful like! Since lustful like isn't romantic like right?"

"Well...in a sense. When you like someone romantically you can like them as you like a friend but the difference is that you want to kiss them or hold their hand. You want to be in a relationship with them or get closer to them. You want to spend time with them. Of course you can lust after someone you like romantically but that's not all you want. You care about the person. A lustful like is when you find a person attractive and you want to kiss the person and...do things as you do when you like someone romantically but that's all you want. You don't want a relationship. You just want to do those stuff and leave. Do you understand?" Kurapika cheeks have a bit of color to them.

"Hmm I think so but it's a little hard. So a lustful like is when you want to kiss someone but don't want to be with them? And a romantic like is when you like the person and want to kiss them but you want to stay with them?" Gon puffs his cheeks, thinking hard.

"Yes. In a sense. But a lustful like the person wants to do more than just kiss..." Kurapika watches Gon's face waveringly.

"Like what? Hold hands? Go on dates?" Gon tilts his head.

"...and the other thing. You know about that don't you? Mito-san taught you about that right?" Kurapika looks like he's starting to sweat.

"Taught me about what?" Gon thinks. "She taught me about how to take a woman on a nice date. She also told me that kissing is something you do with someone you like and that you should never kiss a woman on the first date."

"Well...she's taught you how babies are born right?" Kurapika is starting to look uncomfortable.

"Of course! Making love!" Gon points a finger in the air as if he's proud of his answer.

"Don't say that so loud." Kurapika flushes when a couple of people look over at them. He sighs in relief. "At least you know about it...I thought you didn't know for a moment. That's also what a person with a lustful like will want."

"Really? But Mito-san said it's something two people do when they love each other. And I thought you said a lustful like was when you didn't really like the person."

"Well people that don't really like each other can still...have sex." Kurapika averts his gaze. "I just want to make sure you understand. Making love is done by people who love each other that's true but the act can be done without love, with nothing but attraction."

"Oh." Gon looks down, thinking hard. " I think I understand the difference between lustful like and romantic like. But I'm still not sure I see the difference in liking a friend and liking romantically."

"That's simple. Think of me Gon. I'm your friend and you like me don't you?"

"yes I do."

"But you don't want to kiss me or be in a relationship with me correct?"

"I don't think so." Gon blinks, tilting his head.

"See? That's the difference between a friend like and a romantic like." Kurapika looks out into the sea.

"So Leorio lustful likes those women?"

"yes." Kurapika frowns slightly.

"thank you Kurapika I think I understand better now." Gon smiles at his friend, feeling grateful. I've learned a lot but still...something is eating at me. Kurapika is my friend and I like him but I feel like it's different from how I like Killua. But Killua is also my friend.

"You're welcome. If you have any other questions I'll try to answer it the best I can." Kurapika smiles back at Gon.

"Okay." Gon beams. Kurapika suddenly looks past him, his nose wrinkling up before he looks out towards the sea again. Gon looks behind him to see Leorio in the distance, one of the women he was talking to is whispering something in his ear, Leorio looks more than pleased. Gon can't help to notice this woman's hair. It's such a pretty shade of blonde. Like Kurapika's. He looks back at Kurapika, his friend looks down at the sea. Something tells Gon that Kurapika doesn't like what Leorio is doing. Gon's not sure if he likes the idea of lustful like himself but he's just learned about it after all. "Would you like to fish with me Kurapika?"

"Hm?" the blonde glances over at Gon as he gets his fishing pole out.

"Have you ever fished before?"

"Once or twice. but We don't have any bait though."

"maybe there's some on the ship somewhere." Gon looks out towards the ocean before he puts his fishing rod away. " actually there's something else I wanted to ask you Kurapika."

"What is it?" The blonde looks over at him.

"It's about Killua. Something thing happened yesterday that made me think of what the difference was between all the likes. Even though you explained to me something Is still bothering me."

"What's bothering you Gon?" Kurapika gets closer to him.

"Well this guy yesterday mistook me and Killua as a couple. He asked if we were together and I said yes because we have been together for more than four years but Killua said he meant as a couple. He got angry at the guy for saying that. I learned from Killua that two guys can be in a relationship and like each other romantically. How does that work Kurapika? How do two guys make love? How do they date? Why haven't I ever heard or seen two guys dating?"

Kurapika's face gets red. He grabs Gon to pull him closer so he can whisper to him. "Don't be so loud please! We are in a public place. Maybe we should continue this conversation later okay? I'm feeling a little uncomfortable talking about this here."

"Why is it bad?" Gon turns blinks, whispering back.

"No it's not bad..." Kurapika's voice seems different. "It's just a subject I wasn't prepared to be asked about. You haven't' seen two guys together Gon because it's not that common. At least in these parts."

"How does it work?" Gon whispers back again.

"Well..." Kurapika grips Gon's shoulder, those gray eyes glossing over before they become focused. "It works like..."

"Get a hold of yourself." Killua growls at himself as he turns on the bathroom sink, splashing water on his face. He holds on to the sink as he leans over it. He close his eyes but he still feels warm despite the cold water dripping off his face.

Gon is too much for me. During our race I...Killua blushes thinking how Gon had tackled him to the ground. It wasn't as rough as he could have been. Killua knows that Gon made sure he took most of the blow when they hit the ground. It happen so fast but Killua felt the warmth of his body on his and those strong arms around him. He smelled his earthy scent and felt his hips against his. The care Gon took not too hurt him also made his heart flutter. It was a hard blow and to top it off, Gon ended up on top of him, looking down with that adorable smile on his face. It was too much. Gon was pinning him down and looking at him with those bright eyes. Despite most of Killua's fantasies of his best friend being of Killua on top, he found that Gon pinning him down had an effect on his body. It was only for a split second but it was enough to increase his heart rate and get his heat to pool where he didn't want it to.

Killua was seconds away from grabbing a hold of his friend and pinning him to the ground. He wanted to kiss him. He wanted Gon to lean down and kiss him like in those cheesy romance movies.

Before he knew it there was no more warmth on him, Gon had gotten up and was making his way to the ship. Killua had forgotten all about the fact that they were racing. Gon had stopped all his train of thoughts which was dangerous. Any second longer and he would have...

Killua's cheeks feel too hot. I would have done something I would have regretted. After Gon ran to the ship, Killua was stuck laying there trying to calm himself down. He had to hide his face from Gon and his eyes. He knew they had become half lidded and his face red. Of course Gon being Gon turned to check up on him and instead of running up all the way to the ship and winning, He made his way to Killua, asking him if he's okay.

The concern he showed was about to break his resolve. He had to come up with something quick. Gon was going to move his bangs out of his face and then it would have been all over. So he came up with the lie that he tricked Gon just to beat him in the race. He even ended up scolding him for caring about him! He told Gon that he shouldn't let his emotions get in the way of reaching his goal.

"How ironic. Me lecturing him on letting emotions get in the way. I was really just scolding myself. I'm suppose to be his best friend and yet I almost lost myself in that moment." Killua's eyes get glossed over as he thinks about how Gon started pouting because of it. His eyes got deep in thought and he looked like he took what Killua said to heart. The ex- assassin didn't show it then but he felt bad for lying to Gon. Especially since it made him sulk a bit but It had to be done. Another part of him thought Gon's pout is too cute...

"You're losing yourself." Killua tenses at the voice. He looks up at the mirror, seeing his reflection smirking at him with ghost like blue eyes. "Soon Gon's going to see through you and then he won't want anything to do with you."

"I won't let Gon find out. I'll bury all these feelings away-"

"You really think you can do that? Don't make me laugh." The reflection chuckles darkly.

"...He won't find out. He can't." Killua's red cheeks soon disappear, his eyes shaking.

"but he will. He'll try to leave you but you'll snap. You'll hold him against his will. You'll end up killing him-"

"I would never hurt him-"

"but you're so close to losing it. You want to feel his bare flesh against your own. You want him all to yourself. You want to feel his warmth around you and claim him as your own. You can't hide your desires from me. I'm you after all. Sooner or later you'll snap. You'll hold him down while you have your way with him-"

"Shut up!" Killua growls, punching the mirror. It shatters instantly, cutting up his fist. "You're wrong. You've always been wrong. You are not me. I would never hurt Gon. Even if I lose myself I would never rape him. If Gon finds out and wants nothing to do with me I'll just leave. I wouldn't kill him. You're sick!"

"You're the one that's sick in the head Killua." The reflection is gone but Killua can still hear him.

The ex-assassin pants heavily, a bead of sweat falling down his cheek. He grips his fist, the veins in his hand sticking out. I've let my feelings get too out of hand. I need to do another release sometime soon...or I will end up losing myself. I would never ever hurt Gon but I might kiss him and blow everything.

"Killua?" The boy in question tenses at the voice. He moves towards the door on impulse, almost about to throw the door open only to stop himself.

"No what are you doing. He can't see your hand." He mumbles to himself, taking a step back. "Ah Gon?" Killua makes sure his voice is fine.

"You alright? You've been in there awhile." he can hear the concern.

Killua steers himself, taking a deep breath. "Yeah i'm fine Gon, geez i'm just going to the bathroom." He makes himself sound annoyed but really he's both happy and afraid that Gon has come to check up on him. Afraid because he isn't in the right state to see his friend yet. He needs a little more time.

"Oh." what's with that tone? "Okay well I'm going to go back up to the deck then. The dinning room didn't have any food except in vending machines. When you come out I got you a tasty cake." he got me a tasty cake? Killua's stomach growls. Just a little longer.

"Okay I'll met you up there soon. I'm almost done." Killua hears Gon tell him he'll see him up there before he's gone. Killua sighs in relief before he starts to wash his hand off. It's not bleeding much but still he wants to clean it up.

"I'm not going to even bother cleaning up this glass." Killua crosses his arms. He closes his eyes, taking deep breaths. I need to do better with hiding my feelings. I need to stop having these thoughts while Gon is still awake. At night I can fantasize but when Gon's awake I can't let myself get excited. What if Gon had stayed on me a second longer and felt my problem? Killua's face gets dark. It would have been really bad.

Sometimes I wish I was still a kid. Back then I wasn't a pervert but now...the most innocent of things can set me off. Gon doing my hair, and now Gon playfully tackling me.

"If I don't get a handle on myself I might have to do it again tonight." Killua closes his eyes before he opens them back up. He grins feeling it on his face but it feels plastered on. He needs to pretend that everything is fine. He's good at lying.

Killua finally leaves the bathroom, knowing that he left a mess but he doesn't care. He walks up the stairs to the deck, keeping his mind clear. All that's on his mind is finding Gon and being by his side. Despite the battle he'd been having in the bathroom another part of him was telling him to hurry up and get back to Gon. Killua doesn't want to miss anything Gon does after all.

Killua looks around at all the people, he spots Leorio first kissing on a girl with blonde hair. Killua wrinkles his nose. "Ugh old people." He continues to look around only to stop when he spots Gon behind him. He's leaning on the railing with...Kurapika whispering something in his ear. Killua feels that feeling twist his stomach. The blonde is blushing! What the hell is this?! What is he saying to Gon?! Why are they so close?! Before Killua knows it he's striding over to the two and in a blink of an eye he's standing beside them. Kurapika must have sensed him coming because the Blonde glanced over at him. They stare at each other for a moment.

"...Gon we'll continue this conversation later okay." Kurapika looks at the confused male. "Remember your promise." Kurapika locks eyes with Gon before he looks at Killua. "hello Killua i'll leave Gon to you." Kurapika walks away. The ex-assassin has to use all his will power not to glare daggers at the blonde.

That nasty feeling is making his stomach hurt and his chest feel tight. "Hey Killua! Finally I was wondering when you would get out." Gon smiles at him, those eyes too bright. Killua can't help to be stuck on how close Kurapika was to Gon, and that blush on his face. He grips his fist slightly.

"What was Kurapika saying to you?" Killua puts his arms behind his head, seeming indifferent when he really wanted to shout it. He'll act like he doesn't care but he really does.

"Hm? Oh he was teaching me things about liking people."

Killua sputters. "L-Liking people?! What does that mean? What did he teach you?" Killua loses his cool for a minute only to redeem himself. He's seething on the inside. What did that kurta say to Gon?!

"I can't tell you. It's a secret." Gon waves his finger around, a cute teasing smile on his lips.

In any other situation Killua would be secretly flushing over that smile but now it only adds to this nasty feeling. Kurapika made him promise that he wouldn't tell me...what is it that Kurapika can say to Gon but he doesn't want me to know? Does Kurapika like Gon? Did he confess to him? If that kurta touches my Gon i'll claw his eyes out! Killua seethes on the inside but contains himself. He swallows down his feelings, a bead of sweat starting to form. If Kurapika confessed what was gon's answer?

"Gon you're not dating anyone are you?" Killua stares out into the sea, hoping Gon doesn't notice a change in him.

"Huh? No why?" Gon blinks, looking at him confused. Killua lets out a breath he had been holding. Maybe I was wrong about Kurapika confessing...or maybe he did and Gon turned him down. Killua smirks to himself at the thought. He blinks when he realizes that he really doesn't' know what Kurapika told Gon. It might not have been anything like he was thinking. Killua had gotten so jealous that for a second there he felt like hurting the blonde. That's no good. I need to keep that in check. Kurapika is a friend. He's also a friend of Gon's. Killua almost blushes when he realizes he had called Gon his. I really am sick...aren't I?

"No reason just wondering." Killua shrugs his shoulders.

"That was random." Gon chuckles before he digs into his sweat pants pocket. He pulls out the tasty cake and hands it to Killua. "Here you go! I almost forgot about it. We're going to stop by a restaurant after ship ride is over to get some cheeseburgers."

"Good i'm starving." Killua opens up the packet before he gratefully sinks his teeth into the sweet cake. Killua looks at Gon's smile and all those bad thoughts disappear. It's like his eyes make all his darkness fade away till he thinks, almost believes it's not there anymore.

"So am I." Gon sits down on the deck. Killua sits down next to him. "Too bad we can't have are fishing competition. I realized that we don't have any bait to work with."

"Oh yeah no fish is going to bite an empty hook unless they're really stupid." Killua grins over at his friend.

"I'll have to find another way to even out the score with you." Gon leans back, those bright eyes staring out towards the ocean.

"I suppose you do." Killua finishes his cake before licking his fingers. He keeps his hurt hand in his pocket. If he's careful he can pull it off and Gon won't notice that he's hurt himself.

"Hey Killua I've been thinking...Have you thought about what you want to do?" Gon looks over at his friend, those amber eyes looking deep.

Killua is taken aback by the question. He has his answer. He's had his answer awhile but he's never voiced it. "Yeah I've figured out what I want."

"Really what is it?" Gon's eyes light up and he gets closer.

"It's a secret." Killua pokes Gon in the forehead, smirking when the other male whines. I couldn't possibly tell you now. What I want Gon, is to be with you always. I never want to leave your side. What you want, I want...it's too embarrassing to say.

"Aww come on no fair."

"life isn't fair." Killua chuckles when his friend pouts at him. Really, if you keep being cute, it could be dangerous.

Killua and Gon just sit together for the rest of the ship ride. Talking with each other and laughing at their jokes. Killua feels content, he feels warm next to his best friend when he had felt so cold and disgusting in the bathroom. Gon makes him feel like he's something special, like he's normal, like he's a part of the light. He never wants to let him go.

I always want to be beside you like this Gon, that's what I want.

There we go. I'm having a lot of fun writing this story. Thank you for your reviews! If you guys have any suggestions on what they should do one their first day of vacation let me know.