Warning there's some sexual content in this chapter.
"Kurapika!" The last of the kurta tenses at the voice calling his name behind him, saving him from that dark place in his head. The waves that move calmly against the still ship come back to his vision and he lets out a breath he didn't know he was holding. His heart calms and he can once again feel the sun on his back and head, making him warm when he was feeling so cold.
Kurapika's not sure when he got trapped in his inner hell but that bright voice brought him out if only for this moment. The blonde turns around, seeing Gon run towards hm, a big smile on his face. Killua is jogging next to him, his hands in his pockets. His expression is indifferent but Kurapika can feel he's wary of him still. I wonder if it's because you can still feel it on me Killua, this rage. Kurapika smiles at his friends. Do you not trust me with Gon?
"The Ships finally stopped! Me and Killua are starving!" Gon stops once he's in front of the blonde, Killua stopping by his side.
"Where's the old man?" The ex-assassin glances around before those light blue eyes lock with the blondes. His expression hasn't changed and the air around them isn't hostile.
"I don't know. He's probably still with that woman." Kurapika sighs. "If he's not up here he's probably down in the ship somewhere." The blonde ignores the pang of annoyance he feels. Honestly did Leorio really have to do this now? Kurapika turns his back to his friends, Gripping the railing.
"Well we're going to get off the ship. Leorio will probably come up soon." Killua starts to walk towards the unloading dock. He glances over at Gon who's staring at Kurapika with his head tilted. "come on Gon. He'll come when Leorio does."
"Okay." Gon nods over at Killua before he starts walking off with him. "We'll wait for you off the ship Kurapika!"
The blonde is aware of Gon's voice getting distant. He's aware of the sun and the smell of salt water. He's aware but in this moment he feels numb. It was Leorio that set him off in the first place. After seeing Gon and Killua, Kurapika was able to piece everything together before his fears, his hell consumed him.
Leorio had gone off to flirt with some woman. The blonde didn't want to deal with it, feeling annoyed, so he went across the ship to just stare at the water. Then Gon came. He got his mind off of everything as he always does but then he started to ask him questions. Questions about liking someone. Though Kurapika wasn't the best on the subject he felt he had taught Gon as well as he could. But then Gon had to ask about gay couples. Kurapika flushes.
Gon is my friend. He wouldn't tell anyone about what I said, not even Killua. He'll keep his word. Kurapika knocks out any worry he felt, knowing his secret is safe with Gon. He wasn't able to explain everything though because Killua had shown up. Kurapika felt it then, a dark feeling. Kurapika felt as if Killua would hurt him. In a blink of an eye he was standing next to them when he was yards away, those blue eyes dilated, staring at him as if he's done some horrible crime. Gon is too dense to sense the mood but Kurapika understood. It's obvious Killua doesn't like him much. Whether he's jealous or protective, he seems to think Kurapika has ill will.
The blonde backed down, promising to tell Gon more before leaving those two together, knowing Gon would calm Killua down and get him back to normal with no issues. Leorio was still with that woman, kissing her and holding her. That annoyance was still there when he looked at his friend and that woman but It had grown to a dull anger. Kurapika understands but he won't accept it. He won't accept what he feels for his friend.
So Kurapika stood by the water away from Gon and Killua, just staring at the waves as they passed them by. Alone. That's when the thoughts preyed on him. Soon the waves disappeared and he was no longer on the ship. He was standing in that dark alley, his Nen chain wrapped around that young spider's neck, the space around him red. Kurapika was reliving Killing that boy before he had met with his friends. He should have controlled himself but he couldn't. In this hell he could see himself, the rage twisting his face, his red eyes clouded as the young boy sputters, his face turning blue, tears leaking from his eyes. He should have shown him mercy. Kurapika knew they were using him but he couldn't stop himself.
The boy gives one last gasp before his flailing limbs go limp. Those blood shot eyes rolling over in their sockets, drool dripping out of the corner of his mouth. Kurapika's chain retracts, going back to his hand as the body falls limply on the dirty ground. The kurta didn't bother with cleaning up his mess. He turned and walked away, leaving the dead boy there, the expression of his death stuck on his face.
Kurapika just kept reliving that moment in his head, time becoming nothing to him as he continued to kill that boy with no mercy. Maybe Kurapika was wishing to feel something. To feel regret or guilt but no. He didn't feel anything. Nothing but his rage still bubbling up inside him.
My rage hasn't lost it's flame. I still want to kill them all. I still see my brethren with their empty eye sockets crying out for revenge, fresh blood pouring down their cheeks like tears. Even with that boy, who was only a tool of the spiders, I destroyed him without any hesitance.
"Sorry for the wait but as they say, duty calls." Leorio's cheerful voice snaps the blonde out of his thoughts. He sighs, feeling his eye twitch.
"Duty?"
"Yes duty! You saw how cute she was! I tried to get you talking to her friend but you just walked off on me! You need to let loose! You could have had a cute girl just now."
"I'm not interested in girls like that or into getting women into bed the first day I've met them." Kurapika turns around, crossing his arms.
"It's all about having fun Kurapika! You're acting like you're disappointed in me or something." Leorio grumbles at the look the blonde is giving him. "But like I said, duty calls me! When a beautiful lady is feeling down and wants me, who am I do leave her hanging?"
"You're pathetic." Kurapika walks away from his friend, heading towards the loading board where Killua and Gon had already headed. I should have just went with them to wait for Leorio.
"What was that?" Leorio glares at the blonde, marching up beside him, those brown orbs burning into his side.
"you heard me. You're pathetic. You're nothing but a pervert. Honestly sex has become like eating for you hasn't it? Every time you called me you had to get away from some woman you were with. You do it too much and now it's become a daily thing. Not special at all."
"Hey every time is special! You don't know! And I don't do it every day! I mean yeah every time I called I may have had a girl over but what do you expect? It's college! It's all about experimenting. And you know how everyone loves a doctor." Leorio grins at Kurapika only to get a cold stare in response. He grumbles. "I'm a man you know. You're acting like I'm doing something against my nature-"
"I'm a man as well but I do not chase after women as you do. And if I did pursue someone, it would only be one person and I would be serious about it. I don't just lustful like someone." Kurapika can't help to think about his talk with Gon, the thought of his friend, and his acceptance gives him strength. "I romantically like someone. I'm a man but I'm not like you so please don't act as if this is acceptable behavior because you are male. If so you're insulting not only me but Gon and Killua, and any other male who understands what self control is."
"What the hell? You're acting like I'm some kind of pig. Geez I didn't know my sexual life gets you all pissed off. What are you jealous?" Leorio sneers, Kurapika feels an anger raise in him. "I have self control! I don't have sex every day like you seem to be saying!- wait did you say you like someone romantically?" Leorio's rant is cut short. He blinks, looking over at Kurapika with surprise.
"I was just making an example but yes, if you must know." Kurapika walks off the ship, searching for his two younger friends. I don't want to talk with him anymore. He makes me angry.
"Oh...who?" Leorio keeps up with him, his red face has gone back to his normal color, those brown eyes staring at him intently.
"I don't want to tell you." Kurapika states bluntly.
"What the hell? Aren't we friends? This is big news! You've never, ever said anything about liking someone from the time i've met you! Who's the lucky lady? Do I know her?" Leorio seems to have forgotten all about the fight they just had, too busy being nosy.
Lucky lady? That's funny. "I'm not going to tell you so you mind as well drop it."
"Fine geez, what's crawled up your ass and died today?"
"Leorio!" Kurapika warns, not feeling like dealing with his smart ass comments right now.
"tsk." Leorio backs off, glaring off to the side. He can see from the corner of his eye Gon and Killua making their way towards them.
"Kurapika! Leorio! What took you guys so long?" Gon smiles as he comes into this tense air between the kurta and Leorio but that smile doesn't waver. Killua on the other hand, glances between the two, those eyes light up a bit, a cat like smile forming like he's waiting for them to start yelling at each other again. The ex-assassin can sense the tension. He knows they just had a fight.
"Ask Leorio, I was waiting for him." Kurapika doesn't look at the older male, already feeling the glare he's gotten.
"I was having some fun with a nice young lady Gon. I'm sorry I had you waiting." Leorio grinds his teeth, still glaring at Kurapika. Gon blinks while Killua looks disgusted.
"Fun?" Gon tilts his head, glancing at Kurapika before locking eyes with Leorio.
"Don't bother Gon, you don't want to know." Killua grunts.
"Killua's right, you'll understand when you're older-" Leorio waves him off, a smile starting to come back to him. Kurapika's eyes widen when Gon's expression changes. Those amber eyes shift, a fire of determination in them as he points a finger at Leorio. The change in Gon knocking that smile off his face. Even Killua is looking surprised at the random change in his friend.
"I'm not a kid! I understand what you mean." Gon's eyebrows furrow, the gears turning before those eyes glisten as if to the clicking of the gears in Gon's head as they set in place. "You had sex with her didn't you?"
Kurapika's mouth hangs open, as does Leorio's and Killua's.
"Whaaaat?! Gon when did you start saying that?! It feels so wrong coming from you!" Leorio stares at his friend, still in shock. "And what's with that face?! You look proud!" and proud Gon did look. He had this small smile on his face and those eyes are so bright. It's hard to believe he just shouted out proudly that he knew Leorio had sex.
"Because I'm right! You only lustful liked that woman so you were only looking to do things to her for today! So if you were to have fun with her, that would mean getting to know her and getting attached so I know you didn't mean like playing games or something. Knowing that you lustful like her, that was what you really wanted to do! So you did it!" Gon looks too happy for himself. He looks over at Killua, his eyes so bright. "Right Killua?"
"Uh y-yeah." Killua blinks, seeming to get over his shock. "Wow you actually figured it out yourself and I've never heard you say Sex before either." Killua averts his gaze for a moment before locking eyes with Gon. He's studying him. "Where'd you learn that?"
"That's what I want to know! What the hell is with everyone analyzing my sex life all of sudden?!" Leorio's eye twitches but his cheeks a tinted pink. Leorio stops. He blinks before he looks over at Kurapika, a strange look in his eyes. Kurapika closes his eyes, he knows that Leorio probably is debating on whether or not he's the one who told Gon. With the fight they had it would seem suspicious that right after Gon would say something like this. All Kurapika can do is hope that Gon doesn't deem him as his teacher.
"How do you guys know that I didn't already know it?" Gon puffs out his cheeks.
"Because I know you Gon." Killua states with confidence. "You've never said that word since we've been friends. I also know that I just taught you a little bit about liking someone romantically, so I know you wouldn't know about how Leorio just wanted to have sex with that woman instead of being with her. You wouldn't have been able to tell the difference. Someone had to have just taught you this." Killua's eyes narrow at the last part. He doesn't look at the blonde but the kurta can feel his intense gaze from the corner of his eye.
"Just because I didn't say it doesn't mean I didn't know about this stuff." Gon insist, his eyes showing his stubbornness.
"yeah. Right." Killua pokes him in the forehead. "Don't lie to me."
"I knew about some of it." Gon admits, his cheeks puffing out in defeat.
"...I'll believe that." Killua stops his poking, glad Gon's not going to try to deny it the whole time. "But-"
" I don't know about you guys but I'm hungry. I think we should find a cab to drive us to a nice restaurant to get burgers." Kurapika doesn't bother with the looks he's getting from Killua and Leorio. Leorio has pissed him off and Killua is starting to irritate him as well. Maybe it's because I'm hungry. I need to calm myself.
He doesn't like how they're looking at him. Gon's the only one who isn't giving him a look. He's smiling, looking proud of himself despite Killua shooting him down. Kurapika walks so He's standing next to Gon, not paying Killua any mind when he feels that tenseness around them.
"What do you say Gon?"
"Hmm it sounds good! I'm hungry too. My stomach is starting to hurt." Gon chuckles, a boyish smile on his face that could make any girl melt. Kurapika notices a slight reaction in the ex-assassin but he pays no mind to him.
"Then lets get going." Kurapika starts to walk ahead of everyone. Gon follows behind him which makes Killua walk next to him and soon Leorio is walking slowly along. Really this vacation has started off on a rough start. Something is different and strange about Killua. It has something to do with Gon, and Leorio is more of a man whore than Kurapika remembers. Things have changed and Kurapika wasn't there to see these changes or to understand them.
The only one who hasn't changed is Gon. Kurapika wants to hold on to that light of his, it makes him believe that he doesn't have to keep changing into something dangerous. He makes him forget about the man he just killed for a moment.
Everything, even this moment is only possible because they met Gon. With out him, they wouldn't have become friends. Gon is like the piece of glue holding everyone together. Maybe we've all drifted apart? Yet we all are still close with Gon. Especially Killua. Kurapika knows he'll end up talking to Leorio again but he's not going to apologize. He really shouldn't be having sex as much as he is. He'll end up getting a disease or getting himself sick or getting a woman pregnant he really didn't like. It's endless what could happen to him because of his bad habits.
Really, why do I even care for you?
Gon takes a large bite out of his cheeseburger, the sandwich so large he almost couldn't get his lips around It. Some of the ketchup squirts out onto his plate when he took a bite. "Mmm." Gon closes his eyes savoring the delicious mix of beef and cheese. He opens his eyes to glance at his friends. "These are great!"
"Yeah they're pretty good." Killua dips his fries into the ketchup on his plate then he eats them. The ex-assassin is sitting next to him in a booth while Kurapika sits across from him with Leorio next to him. The blonde and the older man nod in agreement but something doesn't really feel right. Gon stops his chewing, tilting his head. Once he thinks about it, when they got off of the ship everyone stopped talking as much. Usually when they eat together everyone is alive with conversation. Did I miss something?
Gon looks over at Killua but his friend seems fine. If something had happened wouldn't Killua have told him? Or maybe he just expects me to know? Gon swallows down his beef, the silence that didn't bother him is now becoming too tight.
"When we get to the hotel are we still going to soak in the hot tub together?" Gon glances around the table, hoping that the silence will be broken and everything will go back to how it was before.
Everyone stops eating for a moment. Kurapika and Leorio look at each other before looking back down at their food. Killua and Kurapika make eye contact.
"I'll soak with you Gon." Killua takes his eyes off the blonde, looking over at Gon. The raven haired male's eyes light up. Gon notices that Killua's shoulders relax a bit and a small smile starts to form on his indifferent expression-
"So will I." Kurapika smiles at Gon when he looks over at him. Gon's smile grows, happy that his friends are not only talking but agreeing to spending more time together. Maybe he was just imaging things. Gon doesn't catch how the stiffness comes back to Killua's shoulders, or how his lips go in a tight line. "A soak sounds nice. I need one."
"You need more than a soak." Leorio sneers. The blonde doesn't look his way, those gray eyes staying locked on Gon's. Leorio smiles at his younger friend. "of course I'll soak with you Gon."
"Yay that's great! I was getting kind of worried that you guys didn't want to anymore." Gon takes a bite out of his burger.
"Why do you say that?" Killua raises his eye brow.
"I don't know. I just had this feeling I guess." Gon gives Killua a sheepish smile. "The quiet between us didn't feel nice."
Everyone blinks before looking at each other. "There's nothing to worry about." Leorio waves him off. "I think some of us were just grumpy from the long trip so I forgive some people."
"How kind of you." Kurapika's eyes narrow. "And I think some of us lost brain cells from getting drunk last night so I forgive some people as well."
"...That's good?" Gon frowns at the tone of his friends. "Leorio if you lost brain cells from drinking will you be okay?"
"He can't lose what he doesn't have Gon." Killua grunts, smirking at how Leorio's face gets redder from his anger.
"Kurapika I was saying I forgive you, you're the one who keeps dragging this on and pissing me off-"
"I didn't ask for your forgiveness. I feel as though I've done nothing wrong." Kurapika looks away.
"Guys stop fighting." Gon frowns. He starts waving his hands. "This is a vacation! We should all be happy! What's wrong? Why are you two angry?"
"This is pretty sad. We haven't even made it into the hotel and these two are already at each other's throats. How are you guys going to survive in a room together?" Killua grumbles, not looking amused.
"Gon I haven't done anything! Kurapika decided to go off on me about having some fun with the ladies. He's the one who's starting this." Leorio growls. "And to top it off he brought you into it."
"Me? How?" Gon blinks.
"You're right Killua, I can't share a room with him." Kurapika speaks calmly. He doesn't look at Leorio or Killua. "So i'm going to switch rooms with you. I'll stay in a room with Gon-"
"No!" Killua and Leorio shout at the same time. The ex-assassin hitting his fist against the table. "I'm staying with Gon. I don't care if you two are fighting or if you kill each other. Just stop being cheap and buy separate rooms."
"I don't think you should stay with Gon." Leorio gives Kurapika a look.
"Why must you stay with Gon then Killua?" Kurapika locks eyes with the ex-assassin. "Why don't you get your own room? I'm sure you have the money to."
"Why don't you mind your own business?" Killua snaps, showing his teeth.
"Why do you even care?" Leorio snaps at Kurapika.
"Stop!" Gon shouts, hitting the table with his fist hard enough that the plates bounce up before falling down. The three males fall quiet as Gon glares at them with a disapproving look. "Why are you all fighting like this? I don't get it. We were all happy this morning. I don't know what happen with you two but you guys are friends. It's been four years since we've seen each other and now that we're together all you guys want to do is fight? Instead of being nasty with each other why not just talk it out? Or let it go?" Gon's glare falls and he frowns. "I just want us all to have fun together."
Leorio and Kurapika frown before glancing at each other. They quickly look away, their shoulders slumping before they seem to nod to themselves looking back at Gon.
"My apologizes. I shouldn't have taken things so far." Kurapika glances over at Leorio.
"Hey I shouldn't have gone with that Lady. I held everyone up, I would have been pissed in the same situation." Leorio rubs the back of his head. " Gon's right, this is our vacation. It should just be about us. I'll show you I have plenty of self control."
"We shall see." Kurapika gives this sly smile before giving Gon a real one. "Thank you Gon, we needed that."
"Yeah this is our vacation!" Leorio leans back, that strange feeling in the air disappearing.
"You never cease to amaze me Gon." Killua grumbles under his breath as he watches the situation do a 360. A hidden smile on his lips.
"Yeah!" Gon beams before he looks over at Killua. "This place is pretty amazing isn't it? When we were coming across it on the ship, this place looked huge! And now that we're on the island, there's so many trees. It reminds me of whale island." Gon smiles slightly.
"Yeah it's pretty here. I wasn't expecting a restaurant to be in the middle of no where."
"Our hotel is a bit away from here towards the tourist attractions. This island is mainly for tourist and people on vacation. The beach is around our Hotel and all the attractions aren't too far from it." Leorio grins. "Good thing I got a map."
"We can use it to help plan out our day for tomorrow." Kurapika looks over at Leorio. "Do you have a list of the attractions?"
"Yeah i'll bring it out when we soak together."
"Hello, I couldn't help to over hear your conversation." Gon blinks when a old man walks up to them, stopping by their booth. "If you're still planning on what you should do tomorrow, you should spend the day at the circus. It's only here for tomorrow. It's a special treat. They have some of the best acts in the world. Like the rat man, a loin tamer, a knife thrower, a two headed person and even a magician! They have many more acts as well. They'll have cotton candy and plenty of good things to eat." The old man hands the four a pamphlet with a large tent on the cover.
"Who are you exactly?" Killua stares at the old man.
"I'm just an Old man who loves the circus. I've been spreading the news all day-"
"Oh wow! Look Killua! It says the strongest man in the world will be in the circus! Ohh and the legendary white fox!" Gon shoves the pamphlet in the other male's face, his amber eyes sparkling with excitement. "ohh we have to go! I've never been to the circus before! It looks like fun!"
"Looks like I'll see you there. " the old man chuckles before he walks away.
"Yeah it looks like it." Kurapika chuckles at Gon.
"I really doubt they have the strongest man in the world but if they have the fox that would be awesome. I'd like the see the motorcycle act too! This is going to be awesome." Killua grins at Gon, his eyes gleaming with excitement. They give each other a high five, Killua grasping a hold of Gon's hand a little longer than expected but Gon doesn't mind. Killua's hand feels warm in his. Their hands are the same size, fitting perfectly together. It's weird but Killua's hands are much softer the his. Gon's fingers are callused from gripping his fishing rod all these years. Gon feels that strange feeling in his stomach but before it can grow, Killua quickly lets go of him, his bangs hiding his face.
"The circus has gotten me all hyped up." Killua chuckles.
"Me too" Gon beams, wanting the feeling to go away. Though he doesn't understand this feeling, he finds that he misses the warmth of his best friend's hand in his.
"I guess we know what we're doing tomorrow." Leorio grins over at Kurapika.
"There's no need to plan then. Maybe we could plan for tomorrow and the next day to stay ahead."
"yeah the beach can wait, I'm interested in this circus too."
Soon Gon and Killua are talking normally again, Kurapika and Leorio chatting. It's as if that tense moment didn't happen.
Gon smiles at Killua, those blue eyes gleam in a pretty way, a smile being returned to him. Kurapika chuckling and Leorio being loud. This is how it should be. This is how it should always be.
He wants them all to be happy, his friends.
"Wow check it out Killua!" Gon's eyes sparkle as he takes in the large room he's now standing in. "It's huge! Someone could live in here as their home!"
"The size isn't that impressive. My room is three times bigger." Killua shrugs his shoulders indifferently as he takes in their room, his eyes immediately going to the bed. There's only one bed in here...so we'll share it. It's a decent size too. Killua feels a relief wash over him that he can't ignore. If he's honest with himself he was a bit worried that since the room was so big, there would be two separate beds. Lucky him, there's only one bed. It's pretty big though, a king sized bed with dark blue covers and small pillows decorating the top of it. Killua's eyes shift over to analyze the rest of the room. There seems to be an ocean theme. There's paintings of golden sea horses on the wall, the carpet is a sand color while the walls are a dark blue. Next to the bed is a window. Their on the third floor with Leorio and Kurapika on the forth floor.
Leorio and Kurapika went to their room to unpack and get the hot tub ready for everyone. They said for us to meet them in an hour. Even though things had gotten better between Leorio and Kurapika because of Gon's amazing ability of taking control of a situation and completely turning it around, Killua still doesn't want to be around them. Not right now.
Killua wants to respect Gon's wish for getting along and having fun together during this vacation but there's a part of him that is every much still pissed and suspicious of the blonde. On the ship, everything was great. Despite Gon not telling him what Kurapika had said to him, those amber eyes released all the tension he was feeling from his bottled up feelings and the uncertainty of what Kurapika had said to him. Killua was able to sit with his friend, chatting with him for more than an hour about this and that, the sun on top of their heads. All the guilt and worry faded in till there was nothing but light. There was nothing but Gon. Gon and Killua. Sitting together. In that moment nothing and no body else mattered. In that moment, Killua was normal, he felt almost pure.
Gon always makes him feel that way. The warmness in his heart and the tingling sensation in his skin when Gon touches him is something that can't be explained with words. Killua would be content with just sitting next to Gon, being able to be near him and laugh with him.
But then the ship ride ended and they needed to meet back up with Leorio and Kurapika. Though Killua was still suspicious and a bit pissed at what he saw with Kurapika whispering in Gon's ear, after cooling down he was able to push that to the back of his mind when he saw the blonde again. He did what he could though to get Gon away from him when he saw an opening to do so.
Killua's not sure what happened on the ship with Kurapika and Leorio but when they came off the ship, Killua could sense the tension. It got him kind of excited. He wanted to see if they would fight and they did a bit only for something very unexpected to happen.
Gon called Leorio out on having sex with that woman. He actually said sex and understood what Leorio meant when he said 'fun'. Gon wouldn't have known that unless someone taught him. As soon as Killua understood that, It was obvious who did it. Kurapika had taught him about sex and the difference between romantic like and lustful like. He had to have.
Kurapika was the last person who talked to him and what he talked about was told to be kept secret. That's what he was whispering about. Killua won't push Gon to tell him but he knows Kurapika isn't to be trusted with Gon. He doesn't know what would bring Kurapika to start talking about sex with Gon. He doesn't know what else he told him either. Leorio must have came to the same conclusion. He saw the look on Leorio's face change. As soon as it did, Kurapika was quick to walk off, stating he was hungry. After that he tried to keep close to Gon, he would only talk with Gon, and he tried to sit next to him in the restaurant. Killua was quick to cut him off. The spot beside Gon's is his.
Killua stayed out of the fight between Kurapika and Leorio at the restaurant but when Kurapika started talking about taking his room with Gon, Killua almost lost his cool. Killua would never give up his spot and let Kurapika stay and sleep in the same room and bed as Gon. The blonde must be crazy. And then! And then the kurta has the balls to question why Killua won't get his own room. It's true, Killua could get his own room. Killua knows deep down he got pissed because he knows the kurta was right. Kurapika was trying to call him out. Killua was not amused. Kurapika's eyes changed like he knew something. It just pissed Killua off more. If it wasn't for Gon stepping in, Killua might have shown how...unhappy he is with the blonde. Killua doesn't care if Kurapika knows but he rather not show Gon, the raven haired male would be upset.
After all his dislike of Kurapika is based on his feelings for Gon. He's jealous and protective of the raven haired male. The blonde could be a threat. Another part of him is shaking his head, filling him with guilt for thinking of Kurapika like this. Kurapika is his friend too, and a good friend of Gon's. He should be able to set his feelings aside for just this vacation but he still doesn't understand why Kurapika would talk to Gon about sex. It bothers him.
"That's amazing Killua! I kind of wish I could have seen your room but at the same time i'm glad we got out of there as fast as we did." Gon's voice breaks the ex-assassin out of his thoughts. He blinks, registering what was said before looking at those amber eyes that are staring back at him.
"Why do you wish that? My room is big but that's about it. It's filled with a bunch of junk." Killua cheeks dust at Gon looking at him so excitedly, kicking slightly at the ground.
"Because if I saw your room, I would know you more. You've seen my room and stayed the night at my house." Gon chuckles, not noticing how his words have effected the ex-assassin. How his cheeks have gotten redder. "You know, when we were on the way to go get you back from your home all those years ago, I had this excitement thinking that i'd get to meet your family and we'd be able to stay the night at your place and i'd get to see your room. That idea was quickly changed though."
"Gon..." Killua feels moved my his friend and disappointed at the same time. If his home life was different, if it was normal, they would have been able to have a sleep over. Killua can't picture, and doesn't want to picture Gon in his home. He wants to keep his friend away from his family and that life style. He wants to keep himself away from it too.
"But it's okay. I don't want you to have to stay anywhere that you don't want to. Anywhere that I stay with you is a chance to get to know you better." Gon waves it off as he runs and jumps on the bed. He opens up the curtain, staring at the many buildings.
"You know speaking of rooms..." Killua tries to keep his heart beat in check, and to make the blood in his face leave. He takes a breath before he walks over to his friend, sitting next to him on the soft bed. "This one is pretty awesome, despite that the size doesn't impress me all too much. I think I could get use to this for the month, what do you think?" Killua stares out of the window, keeping his face from changing. He wants Gon to say yes. He wants to stay with Gon for the rest of the vacation.
"Yeah I really like it too. It would be nice to stay in this room."Gon smiles, looking over at his friend. "I wonder how much it cost?"
"It doesn't matter. We can afford it. We've saved a decent a amount. We should be able to cover this room for us."
"Good. This is going to be a lot of fun. When we're getting ready for bed we can watch movies." Gon points at the large TV on the wall. "and there's plenty of room for training in here. There's a great view of the island and i'm pretty sure the bathroom is awesome even though I haven't looked at it yet." Gon wiggles. "And the bed is super comfy. We're going to sleep great tonight Killua!"
Oh don't wiggle like that Gon and on my side of the bed! I'm sure you're going to get some sleep tonight but I know i'm not. "Mm yeah. We're going to need it. Leorio said the circus tent is placed on the other side of the island. It will take a couple of hours by car so we'll have to get up early if we don't want to miss any of the show."
"It's going to be worth it. I hope I get to see the fox but at the same time I hope they don't have it."
"...If they do you're going to let it go aren't you?" Killua sighs, knowing his best friend too well.
"It's the legendary fox. If it's unhappy then i'll let it go. I'll talk to it first to make sure though." Gon scratches his cheek before smiling over at Killua.
"Heh looks like we're going to do some sneaking around." Killua smirks, feeling excitement. " As soon as we get there I'll cope out the place. The ideal time for getting into the back would be in the middle of the acts."
"Oh, you're going to help me let the fox go?"
"Sure. It sounds like fun. I agree with you, if the fox is unhappy we should let it go. If they're treating it wrongly they don't deserve to have the fox. I read books on it once. The legendary white fox has the power to heal. Any wound the white fox licks will be instantly healed no matter how fatal it is. There's also a legend that if you were to drink the blood of the white fox, sacrificing it, that person would gain immortality. They would never age and would never be able to die."
"That's amazing! The white fox can do all that?! I heard about the fox's ability to heal but I didn't know drinking their blood could make you immortal."
"OF course it's just a legend Gon. It's probably not true but still it makes you wonder doesn't it? If this circus really has the white fox I'll be really surprised. I bet it's a regular fox that they dye the hair white. A cheap trick but it would work. If the circus really had the fox, hunters from all over the world would be attacking them trying to get the fox. Many want to study the fox, others want to put it in a zoo, others want to use it to heal the sick and dying, and others are looking for eternal youth and immortality."
"Yeah but even if they dyed the hair white, the coat would never pass for the true white fox's fur. They sa the coat glows in the moonlight and is as fine as silk." Gon smiles over at Killua, his eyes shinning. "I really want to see the white fox Killua. I hope you're wrong. I hope I'll be able to met one in person."
"I want to see it too but if they have it, either the circus is full of crazy talented hunters or they hired professionals that were willing to give up the catch which I doubt. The fox is worth billions."
"...Hey Killua? Can I ask you something?" Gon suddenly looks at him seriously, his eye brows furrowing.
"Sure." Killua stops running on to look back at his friend. "What is it?"
"If the fox could really give you immortality by drinking its blood...would you do it?" Gon tilts his head.
"If I could be really immortal by doing it? Hmm...lets see." Killua rubs his chin thinking about the pros and cons. "I would stay this age forever and I could never die. That's really something but just because I can't die doesn't mean I can't suffer. I'd never get the release of death if I got myself in a situation where death would be preferred. That's a tough choice." I wouldn't drink it. If I became immortal, then you would die before me. I don't want to live in a world without you. "What about you Gon? Would you drink it?"
"I don't think so. If I became immortal I wouldn't die but everyone else would. Mito-san, Kurapika, Leorio, Ging, and even you would die and I would still be here. I think the idea of being immortal is kind of sad. It seems lonely to me. I wouldn't want to not grow up either. While you would age I would stay a kid. I don't like it." Gon shakes his head, frowning.
You see it too Gon. "I agree." Killua feels his heart flutter at Gon pretty much saying what he's feeling. Gon wouldn't want to see him die either. He wants to grow with him. "I think that if it's true that the fox grants immortality to those who drinks its blood, I bet it's a curse of the fox. For those who kill it and drink it's blood it gives immortality but it was never meant to be a blessing. It was meant to punish those who killed it, cursing them with immortality. An endless cycle of loneliness."
"That sounds right." Gon smiles as he kicks his legs. "I don't think immortality is good for anyone. Even if someone didn't care if they ended up alone, I think it would get boring after awhile."
"It would get so boring they would want to die. There's only so much you can do with all the time in the world." Killua chuckles. "Everyone complains of not having enough time to do all the things they want to do...but really I think it's better like this then to have unlimited time. The sacrifices made to do certain things then others during your time makes what you do all the more important and satisfying."
"I think we have plenty of time to do what we need to do. Soon I'll find Ging and then...we'll have the rest of our time trying to figure out what else we should do." Gon smiles at Killua. "Are you going to stay with me after I find Ging?"
Killua blinks, taken aback by such an obvious question. Of course idiot. "...Yeah. I am." Killua glances away, feeling his face heat up when Gon's eyes gets too bright. He's like the sun. That smile of his is blinding. He feels on fire. "Didn't we promise to stay together stupid?"
"That makes me really happy Killua!" Gon lets out a cute chuckle that gets Killua's stomach to twist. He grips the bed, wanting nothing more then to squeeze his friend from being too adorable and making him feel this way. "I was worried that when I found Ging you would want to leave"
Killua is melting. Gon was worried I would leave him...he wants me to stay by his side. Killua takes a deep breath. You've got it wrong Gon. Once again. I was the one worried that you would want nothing to do with me after we find Ging. I'm the one who's happy. "I'm not leaving so stop worrying. Once we find Ging that's only the beginning." I'll never leave your side.
"Yeah! After we find Ging we can go back to whale island and explore, we could go searching for new species of animals. There's so much we could do." Gon's amber eyes burn with fire before it calms. "I'm glad that you're staying with me Killua. Now I know, even if nothing is going on, I'll have fun. Everything that we'll do will be funner because you're there with me."
"You and saying these things..." Killua grumbles, his cheeks feeling too hot and his heart beating too fast. Gon's words are causing him to crumble. He feels his resolve breaking. He wants to get closer. He wants to hold Gon in his arms. He wants to touch his tan skin and kiss those lips. He wants to confess all these feelings he's been holding in since he was 14. He wants to tell how much he loves him. He wants to be honest with himself and Gon for once...
If he doesn't do something this could become dangerous.
"What? It's true!" Gon chuckles before those eyes get a serious tint to them. "Don't you have fun when we're together?"
"Of course I do." Killua says a bit too quickly and a bit too honestly. Gon's eyes light up all the same. Killua feels his body move closer, his heart beating so fast it's painful. Gon's so close. I could kiss him. I could feel his lips against mind. I could touch him. I could confess...
Killua stops his body from moving any closer, he looks away from Gon, gripping his fist. But I won't. I can't.
"I'm really happy." Gon suddenly grabs Killa's face, turning the ex-assassin's head so he's looking at Gon with a surprised expression. Gon is so close, he can feel his breathing on his face. Killua's breath catches in his throat, and he struggles to keep the blood from going to his cheeks as he's forced to look at his handsome best friend with his heart pounding hard against his rib cage. Gon's hands are so warm against his cheeks. They feel so nice. Killua keeps his eyes locked with Gon's, not allowing himself to stare at those lips, knowing Gon would catch him looking. He uses all his willpower to remain calm in this situation.
Gon's eyes flash suddenly, a frown coming to his lips. He lets go of Killua's face, much to the ex-assassin's disappointment. What was with that look? Did he realize how close he was to me? Killua feels a pain in his chest only for his heart to flutter when Gon starts feeling though his hair, that same frown on his face but there's determination in those amber eyes that makes the pain disappear into that warm feeling.
"Your hair got kind of messed up from being on the ship." Gon smiles, those amber eyes softening. "You should let me do it tonight. I'll try a different hair style and see if you like it."
"Sure." Killua shrugs his shoulders, trying to act like he doesn't care but he's jumping on the inside. Gon is going to do my hair again! He wasn't frowning because he was close to me...he was frowning because my hair was messed up! That's not that good but it's better then the former. Because his hair is messed up, Gon wants to fix it up. Killua feels an excitement. His heart feels like it could just burst from over working it.
Gon continues to smile, those amber eyes like flames. He's too bright. He's everything that he loves and adores. Killua can try to hide his feelings all he wants but in moments like this he is weak. He can't stop his blushing or his heart beat. All he can do is hold himself back, yearning for the day that will never come when he can tell Gon how he feels freely without fear. He yearns for the day that he can claim Gon as his, and only his. He yearns for the day that Gon claims Killua as his and only his.
He yearns for his best friend. I'm sorry Gon. Killua smiles to himself, looking away, his bangs hiding his face. His blue eyes are soft and deep, filled with the emotion he's been hiding for so long. I can't stop it from showing. You bring it out in me.
But when Gon gives him a playful push, Killua quickly returns it, a grin on his lips and that emotion once again hidden behind playful slanted blue eyes. He'll keep fighting this battle so he can stay with Gon. He'll be the best friend and that's all.
And that's how it should be.
Kurapika places his book bag on the large bed with a light blue cover. The room Leorio picked out for them is large, the walls a dark blue with golden sharks painted on the walls. There's so much space in this room but Kurapika feels it's being filled with their silence. Now that Gon isn't here, the tenseness from before has come back.
The blonde wasn't planning on saying sorry for his actions but of course Gon has a way of surprising him. Kurapika felt bad at Gon's words, knowing he was right. This is a vacation. They haven't seen each other in four years. It was Kurapika's fault partially because he let his feelings get the better of him on the ship. Kurapika also was starting to show his annoyance with Killua at the restaurant. The blonde knows that Killua is aware that he taught Gon about lustful like. The blonde is also very much aware of those looks he was giving him. The way Killua reacted when Kurapika talked about taking his room with Gon was surprising though. There was a flash of protectiveness in his eyes and something else... Possessiveness.
Why does Killua have to stay in a room with Gon? They have been together for these four years, never taking a break from each other. Even if they're close it's normal for friends to sleep in separate rooms. I don't know if it's because I said I wanted a room with Gon that he reacted like that. I don't know if he dislikes me because he doesn't trust me or something else. There's something missing and it's bothering me. I don't like seeing that possessiveness in his eyes. Killua has definably changed but Gon hasn't...
Kurapika takes a deep breath as he unpacks his clothing from his book bag into the dresser next to their bed. Yes, their bed. Since there's only one in this room. Kurapika feels a nervousness in him and he almost wants to buy his own room and get out of here as soon as possible. The silence is broken by Leorio's whistling. Kurapika blinks, looking over at the older male. He's messing with the hot tub, filling it up. The large man's muscles shift every time he moves, he's wearing nothing more than his boxers.
"So...How do you like the room?" Leorio glances over at the blonde.
"It's nice." Kurapika looks around. "The decorations are pretty and the view is amazing. I'm sure this room cost quite a bit."
"Ohhh it did. Killua's and Gon's room too. This place is ridiculously expensive but it's the best hotel they got and all the meals here are free." Leorio seems to light up at Kurapika complementing the place.
"Hmm that sounds good." Kurapika glances over at the single bed. "But why get a room with only one bed?"
"Because all the rooms here only have one bed."
"What? Why?" Kurapika looks over at his friend.
"Like I said this is the best hotel they got but uh...I forgot to mention this hotel is used for couples. You know, honeymoons and things like that." Leorio chuckles, scratching his cheek. "Compared to the other places, this seemed like a really good deal. The bed is big enough so we'll have plenty of room. I'm sure Gon and Killua won't mind sharing a bed, they did it all the time as kids."
"This is a honeymoon hotel?" Kurapika shifts a bit. "I suppose that explains the single bed and...what I found in the bed side drawer." Kurapika's cheeks flush.
"Oh yeah I saw that too." Leorio face gets warm. "I-I'm kind of hoping Gon doesn't find them in his room. Maybe we should scope his room out and get all the stuff out of it. I didn't think the hotel would supply the honeymooners you know?"
"That would be awkward if Gon found them but I'm sure he knows what condoms and lube are for." Kurapika shifts.
"Yeah, since you gave him a sex talk on the ship right?" Leorio gives Kurapika a look, crossing his arms.
"I didn't give him a sex talk." Kurapika sighs. "He asked me questions about liking someone. He wanted to know if you liked that girl you were talking to romantically. I just taught him the difference between liking someone and liking someone lustfully. Gon already knew about Sex. I'm sure he started saying sex because I said it but he referred to it as 'making love' when we talked."
"Oh so he was the one asking about me?" Leorio blinks. "Why was he interested in that?"
"I'm not sure but he said he wanted to know the difference between liking a friend and romantically liking someone as well."
"Ohh do you think Gon likes someone?" Leorio gushes. "At first I was pissed off at you because I thought you were talking smack to me to Gon but what you say makes sense. I can see Gon being curious about me if he himself likes someone and doesn't know how to express it!" Leorio grins. "We should ask him when he gets in here!"
"I don't think we should be asking him personal questions. If he wanted us to know he would tell us." Kurapika folds his arms. I won't tell him what else Gon wanted to know about, or what I told him either...
"Then lets not ask him fully, lets hint around to it. When he gets in here you should hint around to liking someone and see if Gon will respond. He's an honest boy." Leorio gushes. "If he has his first crush we need to be there. I can give him pointers on how to win his lady friend over."
"If you give him pointers he'll never get his crush." Kurapika shakes his head. "I don't think we should get involved."
"You're no fun Kurapika." Leorio grumbles. There's silence between them for a moment. "You know, I am really sorry that things got out of hand today. I meant what I said in the restaurant. I wasn't just saying it for Gon. This vacation is about us. I shouldn't be off doing things without you all. So while we're on this vacation I'll lay off of the ladies. I'm serious." Leorio smiles over at the blonde. "So let's have fun Kurapika."
"...Yeah." Kurapika's eyes widen slightly from Leorio's apology and the smile on his face. Kurapika feels his chest warm and he smiles back. They stare at each other for a moment before the blonde's eyes avert. "Shouldn't we call Killua and Gon? The hot tub looks ready to me."
"Oh yeah." Leorio looks away from Kurapika to pull out his phone. He texts something before sending it. "I just sent a message to Killua. They'll be here soon." Leorio puts his phone on the bed before taking off his boxers. Kurapika looks away before he catches a glimpse of anything. He walks over to the hot tub and eases himself in. "Come on in! The water feels great!"
"You're shameless." Kurapika flushes. He turns his back to Leorio as he takes off his slash. He takes off his shirt and pants before he grabs the towel he had prepared. He takes off his boxers before wrapping the towel around himself. He walks over to the hot tub and gets in, making sure there's distance between the two. "You should put a towel on."
"This feels better and it's not like you guys can see anything. I'll be the last to get out." Leorio grins. They sit in silence, Kurapika feeling a bit uncomfortable being in this situation. The water is so hot, flushing his body but he knows the water isn't the reason his face is flushed.
It's so strange being here soaking in a hot tube half naked with Leorio when for these past four years he's been fighting his rage, dealing with many clients that deal with the underground dealings to find his brethrens' eyes. For half of the time he wasn't doing it alone. He had Melody but there's something so much more soothing being with his friends here. Melody was his partner in their work. Friends but partners all the same. Being with her meant work. Being here isn't like that. For now he can put all that aside. He can forget about it for a month. He's going to have to or he'll make himself go crazy.
"Kurapika?" Leorio's voice breaks the blonde out of his thoughts. He looks over at the older male who is staring at him, a concerned frown on his face. "You've been taking care of yourself right? We didn't get to talk much in these four years...I know you were busy so was I."
"Yes I've been taking care of myself. Why do you ask?" Kurapika locks eyes with Leorio. The brown man's emotions can be read like a book. The concern is enough to warm his chest.
"You look tired Kurapika. Well you feel tired to me. I just have this feeling in my gut when I look at you. Have you been feeling sick? Have you been sleeping a full eight hours? What's your diet been like?" Leorio's eyes focus on him, those eyes concerned still but his face serious. He's in doctor mode. Kurapika can't help to smile, it feels strange on his lips, to smile so freely and largely.
"You don't need to worry about me Leorio. I'm not one of your patients." Kurapika smiles at him.
"I can't help it. It's a habit now." Leorio mumbles, his cheeks getting pink. "it's hard not to worry." Leorio dips his fingers into the water, moving it around. "...Have you ran into the phantom troope since that time in Yorknew?"
Kurapika tenses at the question. The blonde lowers his gaze to the water that is bubbling around them. The steam hitting his face. "...No I haven't." Nothing good will come of me telling you.
"Okay." Leorio studies Kurapika for a moment. He looks like he's about to say something when there's a knock at the door.
"Leorio! Kurapika! We're here!" Gon shouts, the excitement can be heard in his voice. "We're ready to try out the hot tub!
"I'm coming Gon." Kurapika gets out of the tub, water dripping off him and on the carpet as he walks out of the bathroom and to the front door to let his two friends in. Gon beams as he walks in with his towel, Killua right behind him. The ex-assassin can't really be read by the blonde.
"Oh you two already got in? How is it?" Gon takes in Kurapika's appearance, those amber eyes bright.
"It's pretty good. The water feels nice and hot." Kurapika closes the door behind the two. "You're going to like it."
"I could use a good soak, my muscles are stiff from sitting around all day." Killua groans, grabbing his shoulder and moving his arm in a circle.
"Me too! Come on Killua!" Gon rushes into the bathroom.
"Gon! Hurry up and get in! This is great!" Leorio grins when he sees the younger male.
"Killua, Gon, I've laid out towels for you here so if you want to get ready in the other room and then come in-" Kurapika starts to explain only for Gon to pull down his pants, boxers and everything.
"G-Gon!" Kurapika and Killua shout in surprise, both getting an unexpected view of the boy's tan and muscular ass. The blonde looks away quickly while Killua's gaze lingers for a bit longer before doing the same. Both of their faces are red but for different reasons. Kurapika is blushing because he's embarrassed. Gon's like his little brother but even he has to admit that Gon has a glorious bottom. It should be illegal to have a butt like that on a man. Even though he says this, Kurapika isn't sexually attracted to Gon, it just feels strange to have seen the boy's ass. So very wrong.
The blonde glances over at Killua and immediately he notices there's a change in the ex-assassin. Killua is glaring at him, those blue eyes suspicious. Despite the look on his face, Kurapika sees a faint tinge of pink on his face, and his breathing is being forced slow. Does he think I was looking at Gon inappropriately? The fact that I'm blushing probably doesn't look good on me but I didn't know he was going to do that. This whole thing just became really awkward.
Gon keeps getting undressed unaware of the tenseness he just caused. The boy takes off his shirt quickly, exposing his back, his muscles shifting with every move he makes. Luckily, Gon wraps a towel on his waist soon after. Once he's covered, Kurapika finds his voice.
"Gon don't just do that out of nowhere! Give a warning first." Kurapika scolds. "Since we weren't prepared Killua and me got a full view."
Killua flushes but he also gives Kurapika a look, those slanted eyes holding something that doesn't sit well with the blonde. He was trying to hint to Killua that he didn't look on purpose. Killua really doesn't trust me. Does he think I'm some kind of pervert? How can he think that when he was caught off guard and looked as well?
"Oh sorry about that. I was just so excited to get in." Gon beams, turning around to look at his two friends. "And Killua and me use to always take bathes together so I guess I didn't think twice about it."
"Do you still take bathes together?" Kurapika can't help to ask, blinking.
"Of course not idiot we're partially adults now. We're not kids anymore." Killua grunts, walking away from Kurapika to be closer to Gon.
"Yeah that's what you say but I still don't see why we can't take baths together. It was fun." Gon pouts.
"Use your head, two grown men don't take baths together." Killua snaps, his shoulders are tense.
"Why not?" Gon tilts his head.
"I-It just doesn't happen!" Killua grumbles as he takes off his shirt, throwing it on the floor.
"Aren't we all grown men about to get into a hot tub together?" Gon frowns.
"This is different. It's a hot tub and there's four of us! Me and you taking a bath together would be weird okay?" Killua takes off his pants, seeming irritated.
"Oh okay." Gon nods but that excitement in his voice has dulled. Killua hasn't changed but Kurapika feels a slight shift in the air.
"Yeah it would be a little strange Gon." Leorio offers his friend a smile. "Don't' feel bad, it's all about growing up. You can't do all the things you use to do when you were younger. Now that you're older, two men in a bath tub together would probably mean they're partners."
"But me and Killua are partners."
"He means in a romantic sense Gon." Kurapika speaks up, giving his friend a look.
"Oh." Gon tilts his head. "So when you're older...you can only have baths with people you like romantically?"
"Sort of." Leorio waves his hand. "Come on get in!"
"You ready Killua?" Gon smiles at his friend who's just wrapped the towel around his waist. Seeming to forget the conversation they were just having.
"Yeah." Killua and Gon get into the hot tub at the same time. Gon lets out a sigh as the heat engulfs him, closing his eyes. Killua leads back, groaning slightly from the relief the heat is giving to his muscles. Kurapika gets back in, keeping his distance from Killua.
"This feels amazing!" Gon sighs happily.
"Yeah I wish I could just stay in here forever." Killua purrs, the ex-assassin seeming to relax as he looks over at Gon's smiling face.
"You'd get all pruny if you did that." Leorio makes a face. "but I hear you."
Kurapika slowly lets himself relax, his eyes meet with Gon's suddenly. There's a question in those amber orbs. The blonde understands. The bath conversation has peaked his interest. He wants to talk more about gay couples. The blonde doesn't say anything. He just nods his head, hoping Gon will understand what it means. We'll discuss it later.
Gon seems to understand because he nods before leaning deeper into the tub, the water coming up to his neck.
"So we already know that we're going to the circus tomorrow." Killua stretches his arms above his head. "So that's already planned out."
"Yeah we'll get up about 10 tomorrow and head towards the circus by cab. We'll get there around 1 oclock. The circus doesn't start till two so we will have time to get some cotton candy before finding our seats." Leorio keeps his eyes closed.
Killua and Gon look at each other, a secret message being passed before they grin to themselves.
"After the circus, depending on how late it is I thought we could go shopping for some more clothes. I packed well but I noticed that you two have packed light. You'll probably need some more clothes. We can also see what other shops they have. If not tomorrow then we can move this to the next day." Kurapika looks between everyone.
"Sounds good to me." Gon smiles.
"Yeah I'm fine with that."
"Me too."
"So that brings us to what we want to do on the second day. If we shop that will take a little of the day but not all." Kurapika looks at everyone.
"Let's go to the cave!"
"Let's go to the beach!"
"Let's get cake!
Gon, Killua, and Leorio shout over each other, all three looking excited. Kurapika sighs. "Well, the cake is something we could do. I think we should save the beach for the third day. I heard that the day after tomorrow has some chance for rain." Leorio awes while Killua cheers. "As for the cave Gon I think we should save that for later. We just got here so we should relax. The caves are going to be a strain on us, especially if it's true that no one has come back from the caves. It could be dangerous."
"Aw." Gon frowns, his shoulders slumping.
"I'm not saying we're not going to do it but wait a little longer okay?" Kurapika smiles at his friend. "So the day after tomorrow we have shopping possibly and cake. We could also check out one of the art galleries here." Kurapika beams.
"I guess that's good. And then the day after that the beach and then after that...well we'll just do these three days and see what else we wanna do. There's a lot to do on this island. We're going to have our plate full." Leorio grins to himself. "So Gon, Killua how do you two like your room?"
"It's nice! I think we're going to stay in it for the rest of the vacation!" Gon kicks his feet in the tub.
"Oh really? See I knew I made the right decision." Leorio beams.
"When it's your turn to pay you're not going to get separate rooms?" Kurapika blinks.
"Nope! It's cheaper this way and I wanna keep sharing a room with Killua!"The ex-assassin hits Gon over the head. "Ow what was that for?"
"Stop being so honest!" Killua snaps, his eye brow twitching but his face is flushed. Kurapika can't help to chuckle at his friends. Really, they can put a smile on anyone's face. It's amazing.
"So...Gon." Leorio stops laughing, his face getting serious. He leans closer, the change in him getting Killua and Gon to stop playing around to focus on him. Kurapika raises his eye brow. What's this about? "Has anything changed recently?"
"Changed?" Gon tilts his head, thinking. "I don't think so why?"
"There's some pretty girls out there." Leorio leans back. "Have you seen any pretty girl's Gon? Any perpendicular girl that's really pretty?" Kurapika can't help his face to fall, giving Leorio a look. Is he really trying to find out if Gon likes someone like this?!
"Hmm?" Gon tilts his head, his eye brows furrowing.
"What the hell kind of questions are these old man?!" Killua points a finger at Leorio, his eye brow twitching. "What are you still trying to get some? You old pervert."
"That's not why I'm asking this!" Leorio glares at Killua. "I'm just wondering if Gon's seen anyone he thinks is pretty! I'm trying to figure out if..." Leorio looks over at Kurapika only to see the blonde giving him a disapproving look. Leorio mumbles something before scratching the back of his head. "Never mind. Forget I asked Gon."
"Oh okay but I was going to answer."Gon blinks.
"R-Really? Who is the lady Gon!" Leorio gets closer, excited.
"Mito-san's really pretty! She's the prettiest I know!" Gon smiles brightly, innocently.
"Not your aunt Gon! I mean a girl you're not related to! You know-"
"Leorio stop being nosy." Kurapika breaks in.
"What are you trying to get at?" Killua's eyes narrow at Leorio.
"I was just wondering if Gon had a crush is all!" Leorio grumbles. "I mean you're older now, I'm sure you like someone don't you? And what about you Killua? Have you two been dating girls on the road? A pair of studs like you probably have girls hanging off of them!"
"What the hell! Stay out of our business old man." Killua hides his face with his bangs. "I don't have a crush on anyone and girls aren't hanging off of us."
"What about you Gon? Do you like someone romantically? I'm sure that has to be a lie Killua, two good looking boys like yourself."
"Leorio stop." Kurapika pulls at Leorio's ear getting him to struggle against him. "You're pestering them."
"Hmm..." Gon tilts his head as if he's thinking about the question.
"Don't answer that Gon. It was none of Leorio's business." Kurapika sighs.
"It's okay. I don't really have an answer right now so when I do I'll get back to you Leorio."
"You don't have an answer?" Killua looks over at his friend. "What do you mean?"
"I just don't know how to answer his question." Gon chuckles, scratching his cheek. "I guess that's weird huh?"
"Well in any case, I think that's for the best. If you did have a crush, Leorio would be all over it. He'd probably try to push you two together using a cheesy method that would just hurt my eyes."
"Shut up Kurapika you don't even know how great of a match maker I am!" Leorio grins suddenly. "They call me the lovvve doctor."
"No. Just no." Killua shakes his head, his nose wrinkling.
"That has to be the worse thing I've ever heard." Kurapika shakes his head.
"You two are just heartless. You wouldn't even understand. I'm a romantic at heart-"
"If that's what you call it." Killua smirks at the look Leorio gives him.
Gon suddenly chuckles. "This is fun. We should do this again sometime." Gon once again stops Leorio from getting to worked up. The three others seem to calm down, a smile turning their lips at Gon's honesty.
"I agree. This soak has been nice." Kurapika closes his eyes.
"Yeah despite the old man being creepy." Killua shakes his head.
"I wasn't being creepy! I was asking questions as a concerned friend!-"
"More like a nosy mother-"
"Keep it up Killua!"
"What are you going to do about it?"
"Hey Killua lets see who can hold their breath the longest!"
"Ha! Still trying to beat me at something Gon? Well you won't win~"
Kurapika watches silently from the side, smiling to himself. He watches as the two young boys go under the water only for Killua to come up before Gon. This ends with a little rough housing, the two boys smiling. Leorio is watching like him, but they share a look that probably looks the same.
I really do have good friends.
"You must be part fish or something." Killua grumbles as they walk into their room, a clean try towel around his waist and one wrapped in his hair. "I know I held my breath over 3 minutes."
"I can hold my breath for more than five!" Gon grins. "Being able to hold my breath for a long time came in handy on whale island. There was a competition every year and every year I would win and get some prize money! I'd always give the money to Mito-san to help her." Gon's eyes get a distant look. I miss Mito-san. I miss whale island but I can't go back...not in till I find Ging.
"Oh so you've been trained for this. I was at a disadvantage from the start." Killua grumbles. "So I guess this makes us 2 to 1. I'm still ahead of you though." Killua sticks his tongue out as they walk over to the bed.
"Not for long." Gon gives him a determined look. Killua takes the towel off his head before shaking his head like a dog. Water hits Gon's face. "Hey!"
"Opps." Killua gives him a cat like smile.
"That was no accident." Gon grins before he takes his towel off and shakes his head, Killua moves away too fast the water not getting on him.
"But it was I swear." Killua smiles as he takes his towel and starts drying off his hair. Gon watches him for a moment, thinking back to what he said earlier. His resolve earlier.
"Once you're done drying off I could start doing your hair before we go to bed. I'm feeling kind of sleepy." Gon yawns.
"If you're tired maybe we should just keep you doing my hair." Killua doesn't look at him.
"But I want to." Gon frowns.
Earlier today when Gon had grabbed Killua's face to look at him, he had that strange feeling in his stomach and his chest felt warm. Feeling Killua's breath on his lips made his skin feel tingly. Why is it I only feel this way with Killua? He doesn't make me sick, I like to be around him so why does he make my stomach hurt? Well, not really hurt but feel strange? Gon doesn't want this weird sickness to get in the way of being with his friend.
So I decided earlier that I'll keep doing things that require me to touch Killua so I can get to the route of the problem while staying close to Killua and getting use to the sickness so soon it won't even bother me.
Gon also likes doing Killua's hair so that's another plus.
"...Fine if you want to." Killua drops the towel from his waist, grabbing a pair of boxers to put on. Gon's eyes shifted taking in Killua's naked back. His friend really is amazing. His muscles are more defined than his. Gon tilts his head when his eyes fell a little too low before Killua pulled up his boxers. Gon has that weird feeling in his stomach. Killua's butt is kind of cute. Gon blinks. I didn't notice that before. Gon will just add that to the list of things he likes about his best friend Killua.
Gon takes off his towel and gets his boxers on next. He jumps on the bed, his body sinking into it. He pats the space in front of him before he leans over and pulls the brush out of his book bag that is sitting on the floor.
Killua shifts before he walks over to the bed, sitting down in front of Gon, those bangs covering his face. There's goosebumps on his back, his pale skin sticking up. He must be cold. Gon hugs his friend from behind, feeling Killua tense. Soon enough though Killua is feeling warm. Really warm.
"Gon what are you-"
"You were cold so I warmed you." Gon smiles before he starts to bush Killua's hair, happy to see the goosebumps are gone.
"Oh..." Killua's voice sounds strange. Gon keeps brushing his hair before he puts the brush down and starts working the hair into a pony tail. He has to pull on his friend's hair a little bit because it's being stubborn. Killua tenses the goosebumps coming back. Gon hugs his friend again, his body warming instantly. He leans in close to Killua's ear, about to say something when Killua lets out a shaky breath."O-Okay Gon I think that's good." Killua jumps up from the bed, moving away from him in a blink of an eye. He keeps his back towards him. "I have to use the restroom so why don't you get ready for bed? I'll join you in a second."
"Oh okay. I guess I'm done with your hair for tonight. I just put it in a pony tail. Maybe you'll like it better then before." Gon smiles. "Do you want me to turn the heat up for you."
"No I'm fine." Killua walks off towards the bathroom, those bangs hiding everything from him "...Thank for doing my hair."
"No problem! I'll do it for you any time!" Gon smiles, ignoring the feeling in his stomach. The fluttery feeling in his chest has been going on since he's hugged his friend. He won't let these strange feelings get between him and Killua. Gon feels the happiest when he's with Killua. "If I fall asleep before you get back don't sleep somewhere else. Sleep in here with me okay? I sleep best with You Killua."
Killua makes a sound before he shakes his head. "You and saying these things!" He sounds flustered before he gets into the bathroom and slams the door. Gon chuckles at his friend. He gets embarrassed so easily.
His heart does a weird thing before he lays in bed, his body sinking in the mattress. Soon his eyes feel heavy. He can hear Killua running water in the bathroom. Is he really taking a bath? Gon's eye slowly shut, but before sleep can take him he thinks of Killua and the smiles he's given him today. I like it best when he smiles...He looks beautiful. Those eyes get so light, his white hair framing his face... Gon's stomach does a flip, an image of Killua smiling at him as he holds Gon in his arms coming to mind. It's strange because Killua's never held him like this before. Why would I be thinking about this then? Despite how it's strange Gon finds it soothing. He pictures Killua running his fingers through his hair, his silky voice whispering things to him, luring him off to sleep.
Gon falls asleep imagining being in the arms of his best friend, listening to that silky voice he adores while being pampered. I should think about this more often...Just the thought of Killua makes me feel safe and at home.
As Gon has said, he sleeps best with Killua by his side.
"Damn it." Killua curses under his breath when he gets into the bathroom, locking the door behind him. He quickly turns on the sink to add some background noise as he lets his unsteady breathing go. Killua feels too warm. All these feeling from the past couple of days bubbling over from Gon playing with his hair again and hugging him. For fucks sake Gon was just playing with my hair and hugging me...Killua reaches down, grabbing his problem through his boxers, a soft groan leaving him. And look at me. Hard as a rock.
This is your fault for being so cute. This is your fault for flashing me your ass today. Killua slowly slides down the door, the image of Gon's tan, muscular ass fresh in his mind. He has an ass of a god. His member gives a twitch, and his heart rate picks up speed. The image got him excited but soon he remembers who else saw that scrumptious piece of meat. Killua growls under his breath, those blue eyes getting darker. Kurapika was looking at Gon...He was blushing.
It pisses the ex-assassin off the thought of Kurapika, another man, seeing Gon's ass. Killua grips his fist. No one's allowed to see it but me. Killua's breath hitches at his thoughts. No...That's not right either. I-I shouldn't even be looking. Gon's my friend. He's my best friend and i-
"Killua I want to take a bath with you." An image of Gon appears, his best friend standing before him in all his naked glory,those eyes so innocent and bright.
"Shit." Killua closes his eyes tightly, knowing what's about to happen. He can't stop it now. Too much has happened. He's been feeling too much. If he doesn't do this now...He'll end up doing something to Gon.
The ex-assassin closes his eyes and lets himself live out his fantasy. In his head, Killua quickly agrees to take a bath with his friend. Of course it's what he wants. Gon watches with fascination as he takes off his clothes. Killua slides down his boxers in real life, they're feeling too tight for him.
"Wow Killua you're amazing! Look how big you are." Gon's eyes look at Killua's cock like's it's a prize. Gon's cheeks flush. "Seeing you has gotten me excited...It feels strange Killua? What should I do?"
Fuck it. Killua groans as he starts stroking himself imaging Gon moaning as Killua grabs a hold of his member and starts to rub him. Those amber eyes are clouded with lust, he bucks into Killua's hand before he grabs a hold of Killua's hair, giving it a pull. The ex-assassin growls, pushing Gon down on the floor. "You're just asking for it." Killua grinds his hips against gon's groaning.
"Asking for what?" Gon bats his eyelashes innocently, moaning into Killua's face as he continues to pull his hair.
"You're about to find out." Killua leans down, biting Gon's neck possessively. The other male arching his back and crying out.
"Ah Killua!"
"You're mind Gon..." Killua pants out in real life, his eyes shut tight, too deep in his fantasy. He strokes himself violently, feeling the heat pool down to his lower stomach. He moans into his hand, happy that he put on the water before he started this.
"You're all mind. No one is allowed to have you." Killua slams into Gon, a scream of pleasure leaving his best friend as he feels his heat around him.
"N-No one's...allowed..." Killua pants under his breath, a bead of sweat falling down his brow as he pictures himself continuously slamming into his best friend, hearing his screams and moans of pleasure and feeling his heat around his cock.
"Gon...Gon!" Killua feels close. He's close in his fantasy and he's close in reality. The image of Gon's sweaty body under his, those amber eyes looking up at with him lust, a bit of drool dripping from the corner of his mouth is enough to send him over the edge. "I love you...oh fuck I love you..." Killua squeaks when he cums, the hot liquid covering his chest while in his fantasy he fills Gon up to the brim.
Killua breathes heavily, the height of his pleasure slowly melting away till there's nothing left but a dull sensation. Killua opens his eyes, staring at his seed all over his chest. Disgusting. Killua felt so good while doing the deed but now that he'd done it and his mind is clear he feels awful. Once again he thought of his friend while pleasuring himself. It's sick. What's even more sick is how much he enjoys it.
It didn't take me long to finish today...probably because of Gon touching me so much and his words today. He really doesn't' understand what he does to me...Killua gets in the shower to wash himself off, his eyes half lidded from tiring himself out.
I've had my fix. Now I'll be okay...I'll be able to control myself. Killua takes a deep breath to calm his heart beat. Killua makes sure to clean up all the evidence before he walks out of the bathroom. He breaths a sigh of relief when he sees Gon is already asleep in the bed. Killua can't help to smile at the sweet look on Gon's face as he sleeps-
A face I just defiled.
Killua frowns before he shakes his head. It had to be done...It's better than trying to do it to the real person. Killua gets in bed, turning his back away from Gon. Despite just pleasuring himself he knows that if he stares at Gon tonight it won't do him any good. He'll long for him and that's just as bad.
Killua's breath catches when Gon's arms suddenly wrap around him, pulling him against Gon's chest. "Gon?" Killua doesn't move. He's still.
He's answered by Gon's snoring before he nuzzles his head between Killua's shoulder blades. Killua feels a warmness in his chest, his blue eyes lighting up in longing. He tries to move out of Gon's grip only for the boy to tighten it. It's no use. I'll have to wake him up to get out. Killua feels too warm but being in Gon's arms makes him feel...happy. He really likes the feeling. He wishes he could turn around and warp his arms back around his best friend. He wishes he could kiss the top of his head and wish him good night.
Killua bites his lip. If this keeps up you'll end up losing him. You can't lose him. Killua scolds himself and yet despite the guilt he was just feeling, and the internal battle he's having, being wrapped up in Gon's arms like this makes him feel a lot better. He feels safe, secure, wanted. He feels warm. When he falls asleep, instead of hating himself for what he just did all he can think about is Gon's warm arms and how lovely they feel around his body.