"Alright popcorn check." Leorio grins grabbing the bag of popcorn out of the microwave that's in his hotel room.
"Blankets check!" Gon beams coming into the room carrying their blanket from their room, Killua by his side.
"Chocolate check." Killua holds up his two trash bags, licking his lips as he closes the door behind him.
"Movie Check." Kurapika chuckles holding out a red case, coming into the room after Gon and Killua. "I got us 'Insidious' to watch."
"I've heard about that! I've been wanting to watch it, they already have a second out and a third is coming out." Leorio grabs a bunch of can sodas before walking over to the two teen boys who have already got themselves settled on the couch, a blanket covering their laps that they're sharing. Killua has the two trash bags by his feet, shifting next to Gon to get comfortable.
The ex-assassin can't help to steal a couple of glances at Gon, checking out his sculpted chest that can be seen through the tank top he's wearing. Killua feels a little warm thinking how Gon's bare legs are under the blanket next to him, the tan skin hidden away from him, teasing him. They went to their room to grab a blanket to share and to get into something more comfortable. Of course that means Gon would just throw on some boxers but at least he put on a tank top. Killua doesn't want Kurapika drooling over Gon's body, and he doesn't want him looking at his bare chest. So far the blonde hasn't looked much at Gon or him which is good.
"Hm I haven't heard of it." Gon tilts his head, smiling when Leorio takes a seat next to Killua, placing the sodas down on the ground. Gon frowns slightly. "It's not one of those movies when there's a guy just killing innocent people is it? Me and Killua watched one of those and I didn't like it."
"Yeah it was pretty boring. You knew how they were all going to die too." Killua rolls his eyes. "Watching slasher movies always pisses me off because they do it so sloppily. I mean you can torture people without making such a mess and leaving a trail."
"They make me mad because the people don't deserve it and the murderer has no reason to do it." Gon shakes his head.
"Don't worry this isn't a slasher movie. I think this is a ghost story of some kind." Kurapika puts the CD into the TV before he turns off the light, taking a seat next to Leorio, pulling their blanket off the bed for them to share. Killua relaxes a bit knowing that Kurapika is separated from Gon by two people.
"Oh a ghost story?" Gon looks at the blonde with interest. "Are they scary? I don't think I've seen a scary movie about ghosts before."
"I have. I use to watch them all the time as a kid. I thought they were cool." Killua smiles at Gon when those amber eyes give him his full attention. "I even tried communicating with a ghost, I wanted to haunt our mansion and get the ghosts to mess with my family." Killua grins thinking back. He soon sighs though. "It didn't work. I even used the Ouija board like in all the movies but nothing happened. It was such a disappointment."
"What the hell! you've messed with an Ouija board!" Leorio shrieks, backing away from Killua "that's like the worse thing to do!" He gets pale.
"Yeah but nothing happened." Killua sighs. "I wanted a ghost or something to come, It would have been interesting seeing my family squirm."
"What's an Ouija board? Why's it the worse thing to do?" Gon looks between his two friends, curiosity written on his face.
"An Ouija board is like a board game but it's supposedly used to talk to the dead." Killua shrugs his shoulders. "You can ask the dead questions and they're suppose to answer them."
"Wow that's cool." Gon's eyes shine.
"But by talking to the dead you can open a portal! Then evil spirits can come into your home and haunt you!" Leorio steps in shaking his head.
"Evil spirits?" Gon frowns.
"You actually believe that? I did the Ouija board many times and nothing happen. The Ouija board is a joke." Killua grunts.
"So you don't believe in it?" Gon looks at Killua.
"Not anymore. I'm sure ghosts aren't even real." Killua shakes his head.
"I tried communicating to the dead once." Kurapika looks down at his hands. "It didn't work out as well. So I'm not sure either if there's such a thing as a ghost."
"I know ghost are real!" Leorio looks at Kurapika before his eyes lower and a seldom look comes to his face. "...When my friend died all those years ago...I saw him. I was in his home, looking at his old room, mourning him when I saw him standing in the hallway, looking at a picture hanging on the wall that was given to him by his grandfather. He would do that a lot when he was alive, just look at that picture. I was shocked. When I called his name, he looked at me...and then he was gone."
"Wow..." Gon's eyes widen.
"It could have just been your mind making images up from the grief of losing your friend." Killua glances at the other man.
"I don't think so. It felt so real."
"So have you tried to talk to the dead Leorio?" Gon tilts his head.
"No. I don't want to be able to talk to my friend. If I can...that means he's here, trapped on earth." Leorio's eyes grow dark.
"Leorio..." Kurapika puts a hand on his shoulder, looking at his friend in concern.
"Ah let's get this movie started." Leorio chuckles suddenly.
"Okay." Kurapika nods, pushing play on the remote, the TV going dark for a moment, leaving them in pitch blackness before the TV lights up again.
"I'm excited to see this now. I didn't even know about all this. Mito-san use to tell me that ghosts were spirits that are lost and that they don't know where to go." Gon whispers to Killua, the light from the TV lighting up half of his face leaving the rest in darkness. "I didn't know there was ways to talk to them or to haunt places. I also want to see what you liked to watch as a kid Killua."
The ex-assassin blushes at Gon whispering to him, his breath being felt against his ear. Killua licks his lips nervously becoming aware of how close Gon is to him, his bare legs are almost touching his. Killua knows that Gon is being quiet because Leorio is getting upset about talking about ghosts but Killua can't help to find it so sexy to have Gon whispering in his ear. Not only that but once again Gon is being cute, saying he wants to watch things he liked as a kid. Killua feels his heart rate pick up speed.
"I think you'll like ghost stories a lot better than slashers." Killua whispers back into Gon's ear, feeling his face flush. I shouldn't be doing this but I wanted to whisper in his ear. There's something very intimate about this. Being secretive, whispering things that Leorio and Kurapika can't hear even though they are right next to them. It's so dark and warm between them.
Gon shifts a bit, his feet rubbing against each other, the movement causes his bare thigh to brush against Killua's. He feels his body warm at feeling that soft flesh against his.
"Do you think it will have a happy ending?" Gon whispers, those amber eyes watching the screen. Right now it looks like a family is moving into a house or something. Killua doesn't know, he hasn't been paying attention.
"Scary movies make you never want to buy a new house. I swear they always start out with a new house." Leorio grumbles, pulling up the blanket to cover more of himself.
"Yeah that's true. And it always seems to be a family with kids." Kurapika comments, the two older adults more focused on the movie. Gon is focused on it too but Killua is more distracted with something much more interesting. Killua's delighted Gon is still whispering him, he's still playing their little game.
"I don't know. Most scary movies don't end well though." Killua resists the urge to kiss Gon's ear. Killua loves everything about his body. Everything is just cute to him. Gon's too attractive for his own good.
"Ne I have a bad feeling." Gon breaks the game, speaking out loud. Killua blinks confused about what Gon's talking about only to look at the TV. Oh yeah we're watching a movie. It looks like a little kid is getting on a ladder in the basement.
"Aw he's going to fall off." Leorio frowns to himself. "Something is going to happen!"
The thing about scary movies is that they are predicable for Killua. Something is about to jump out at them and cause the little boy to fall off the ladder and hurt himself. Gon tenses next to him when that happens, Killua not being able to help the smile coming to his lips. Too cute.
The movie goes on with Leorio and Gon yelling at the screen a couple of times. Gon jumps a bit but Leorio almost jumps off the couch when something happens. Killua tries to pay attention to the movie but he's too focused on how Gon's bare thigh is against his and it's been there for awhile now. From Gon jumping he's been getting closer to him. Killua's fingers twitch...I want to touch his legs. I want to touch his feet that are rubbing against each other nervously. Killua can't stop himself from watching his friend more than the movie as well. Gon's amber orbs are completely focused on the movie, his expressions easily read. He bites his lip when something is about to happen, his mouth opens to an 'o' when something jumps out. His eyebrows crunch in concern when the characters seem to be in trouble and he frowned when the dad started crying about his kid being lost or something. Like Killua said he's not paying attention.
Leorio was crying full out at that part, Kurapika even looked upset. It must have been heart breaking. Killua's not interested. He loves just watching Gon's expressions. He soaks them in. He could just stare at Gon and be entertained for hours. Killua feels his heart beat pick up speed when Gon start to lift up the blanket, gripping it, his toes curl. He's getting prepared for something to happen. Killua glances at the screen when he hears a cracking sound just to see a monster with a red face behind the lady.
"Oh shit!" Leorio curses loudly. "Oh hell no!"
"He's nasty looking." Kurapika tenses.
"Ah!" Gon jumps, making a cute gasping sound. He's almost sitting on his lap at this point. His thigh on top of his. Not only that but Gon grabs a hold of his arm as if for support. Killua feels himself blush. "Ne Killua this is intense." Gon whispers in his ear, setting the ex-assassin on fire. He's so close he can almost feel those soft lips on his ear. You're telling me. "This is a lot different from those other scary moves we watched. It's actually scary." Gon gives a sheepish smile before he gets closer, his cheeks tinting. "When the music starts getting scary again...can I hold your hand?" Gon asks innocently, those amber eyes shifting away.
Killua can only stare at him. He's being overloaded right now. Gon's bare thigh is on top of his. Gon's whispering in his ear, he's gripping his arm. Gon is looking so cute, being scared and getting closer to him and then he has to ask a thing like that. I want to take you right here and now. Killua swallows, he feels too warm under this blanket as he nods his head dumbly, not able to speak. He's worried his arousal will be able to be heard. You can hold my hand any time you want.
Gon smiles brightly before he turns his attention back to the show. Killua decides to start watching the movie before he ends up getting too excited. It would be horrible if he got a boner and then Gon felt it. Killua blinks not understanding what's going on. There's an old woman with a mask on her face, making strange noises into the mask as another man asks questions.
Gon tenses when the kid starts saying he needs help and then the demon takes over the old woman and she starts shaking, sparks going everywhere. Gon grabs Killua's hand and squeezes it tightly. Killua's heart skips a beat, glancing over at Gon who is biting his lip nervously.
"Oh shit, oh shit it's about to go down!" Leorio grabs a hold of Kurapika, gripping into his arms, the blonde is tense himself, his cheeks tinting slightly.
In the movie they turn to see that the kid is no longer in the bed only for the screen to pan over for the kid to be right next to the table. He smacks the table and they all go flying. Gon tightens his grip on Killua's hand, shuffling around restlessly as he watches the people struggle with the ghosts filling up the room. Killua feels so warm. He's loving this movie.
"Ew that's so gross ah no!" Leorio shakes his head when a nasty looking ghost tries to lick the wife.
"This is very intense." Kurapika mumbles.
Once the movie calms down Gon doesn't let go of Killua's hand. He keeps holding it. Killua feels whole holding Gon's hand like this, their locked hands hidden under the blanket away from Leorio and Kurapika's sight. Killua interlaces their fingers, hoping his hand doesn't feel too sweaty. Gon is shifting restlessly, watching the movie, his feet are rubbing against each other, brushing against his in the process. Killua is loving all these touches. Gon's not aware of them but Killua is focused only on them. The ex-assassin slyly moves his foot, rubbing against Gon's, their knees and thighs touching. He's so close yet so far. I just want to touch you more. I want to kiss you. I want to wrap my arms around you.
"I'm sorry but I wouldn't go into the further for no body." Leorio shakes his head, watching the movie. Killua has no idea what he's talking about. Once again he's been spending most of his time watching Gon's cute reactions.
As the movie gets towards the end with the demon chasing the kid, Gon grips Killua's hand, sitting at the end of the couch, his eyes wide and his lips in a tight line. "Go! Go run!"
"Run kid run!" Leorio stands up, shouting at the TV. Kurapika seems to be silently routing for the kid who's running.
"Did he get back into his body?" Gon frowns. Leaning back in his chair after the climax is over. Everyone groans when it ends with knowing that the father isn't really the father but a ghost. "So does that mean the father is trapped in that creepy world? That's horrible! And what's going to happen to everyone else?"
"I have no idea. Man that was a good movie." Leorio whistles leaning back in his seat. "I want to see the second one now!"
"Me too that was well done. The music really added the mood of it too." Kurapika nods, relaxing himself.
"Did you like it Killua?" Gon looks over at his friend, smiling, those amber eyes still shinning in the darkness.
"yeah it was pretty good." Killua smiles at his friend.
"Killua you're so brave you didn't tense at all!" Gon chuckles, smiling sheepishly. "I jumped a lot. This movie was a lot different from the other scary movies we watched."
"Are you scared of ghost Gon?" Killua gives him a teasing smile, his lips curling.
"Sort of." Gon mumbles, kicking his leg. "It's just scary thinking you can't hurt them and they disappear and can just reappear."
"I guess. Don't worry though I'm pretty sure ghost aren't real." Killua reaches down to open up the trash bag when Gon let go of his hand, much to the ex-assassin's disappointment. He digs in the bag of chocolate to pull out a chocolate statue of a bird. He bites it's head off without much thought groaning in pleasure as the sugar gives his taste buds an orgasm. "This. Is. Amazing." Killua throws the rest into his mouth, grabbing his hair.
"Really?" Gon smiles reaching to dig into the trash bag only for Killua to smack his hand, hissing at him.
"Mine. All mine." Killua grabs the trash bag and hugs it. Narrowing his eyes at Gon.
"Hey I thought we said we would share." Gon blinks, taking his hand away.
"I changed my mind. This is too good." Killua hugs the trash bag tighter to his chest, turning his body away from Gon. Killua smirks as he opens up the trash bag and takes out a chocolate butter fly, throwing it into his mouth groaning. "Sooo good."
"I want some Killua!" Gon gets on his knees on the cough, leaning against Killua's back to try to dig into the bag only for Killua to push Gon off the couch. "Hey!" Gon pouts when Killua curls in a ball, protecting the trash bag with his body. Gon starts poking his stomach but Killua doesn't move.
"Mine." Killua grumbles. "My precious."
"Killua!" Gon whines as he tries to pry Killua open. Gon is strong so he's able to make Killua straighten out but that's it. Gon strains with doing just that, Killua growling at him, hugging the trash bag closer.
"Share!"
"What the hell Killua just share your chocolate!" Leorio looks over annoyed at the two boys who are rough housing against him.
Killua only grunts in response hugging the bag closer to himself, still fighting against Gon trying to pull him up. Gon lets go of Killua suddenly to reach for the second trash bag that's still on the floor. Killua gets up in a blink of an eye, appearing in front of the trash bag before Gon could get to it, pushing the raven haired male back by keeping one hand on his head.
"Killua!" Gon glares at his friend, getting in a stance about to fully spare his friend just to get a piece of chocolate from him.
"No fighting in my hotel room!" Leorio stands up, pointing at the two. "Don't even think about it!"
Gon frowns, he was getting excited. Gon straightens himself out, pouting at Killua. "Please can I have a chocolate Killua? You said we would share." The ex-assassin quickly looks away, knowing what Gon's pout would do to him.
"No...It's all mine."
"Please Killua? I just want one." Gon moves Killua's arm away quickly, stepping closer, putting his hands together.
Killua closes his eyes, feeling his cheeks get hot from Gon using that voice. Damn it! This isn't fair he's using his puppy dog act against me. "Killuaaaa." Gon whines cutely, getting Killua's eye to twitch, feeling himself melt. The ex-assassin huffs, his pale face colored.
"Fine!" he throws his arms in the air. "Just one! A small one!" Killua digs into the large trash bag searching for the smallest piece he can find. He smirks when he feels a small piece, pulling it out. It's a chocolate lady bug. It's the size of a regular piece of chocolate you would buy at a store. "Here." Killua holds it out. When Gon reaches for it Killua snatches it away, a mischievous smile on his face as he puts it into his mouth, half of it hanging out of his lips. Killua just wanted to tease Gon some more but the raven haired male does something Killua could have never predicted.
Gon jumps towards him, grabbing a hold of his shoulders so he can't move away before he leans towards his face, grabbing the half of the chocolate lady bug that's hanging out of his mouth with his teeth before taking a bite, their lips almost, almost! Brushing. Killua's mouth hangs open, his purple orbs wide as he stares at Gon in disbelief, his whole body feels as it's just been burned. Did he just...
Gon chews the chocolate, beaming, grinning at Killua. "Ha! I got a piece of chocolate!" Gon punches the air, he looks so proud of himself...acting as if what he just did is completely normal.
Killua slowly licks at the other half of chocolate that's in his mouth, feeling Gon's teeth marks in it. He almost groans thinking of how close those lips were to his own. Killua swallows the chocolate down hard, his throat feeling dry. I wonder if I had the chocolate completely in my mouth... An image of Gon grabbing a hold of him before kissing him, shoving his tongue into Killua's mouth to steal the chocolate away invades his mind.
Killua turns away from Gon, placing a hand over his heart. It's beating so fast, his blush reaching his ears. His mind is wondering too much. Killua can feel that his boxers are a bit tight so while he's turned from everyone he fixes his boxers trying to hide it.
"Aw Killua don't pout." Killua can hear that Gon is walking closer to him. The ex-assassin feels a bead of sweat fall down his face. Oh god don't come over here Gon! Killua's trying to keep his breathing in check, hoping that the fear of being found out by Gon will destroy his boner but to his horror it doesn't. If anything it adds to it, his dick twitching against the fabric. What the hell am I some kind of masochist? Do I want him to see this? No! Do something! Killua, gracefully if he does say so himself, grabs one of the bags of chocolate and hugs it against his stomach, hiding his problem while acting as if he's trying to protect the chocolate away from Gon again. "I-I'm not pouting." Shit my voice is shaky.
Gon doing that to him was too much. Killua controlled his body while they watched the movie. Even though Gon was jumping on him and they were holding hands. Even though he whispered in his ear and could feel Gon's bare thigh against his own. He was able to control it. But Gon grabbing a hold of the ex-assassin like he did and biting that piece of chocolate from his lips was wayyy too much. It was too hot. The two things Killua loves the most mixed together. Fuck Gon why? And then he looked so proud of what he did...he grabbed a hold of me like he was in charge, his lips almost touching mine...
"It seems like you are." Gon chuckles, getting closer.
"W-What the hell is with you? Who goes and does something like that? Why didn't you just try to take the chocolate from my mouth with your fingers?" Killua hugs the trash bag closer, his eyes shifting to the side, his heart beating in his ears.
"hmm...well if I did that you could have jumped away. I don't know, the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to use my teeth." Gon says it like it's the most normal thing.
"Weirdo." Killua closes his eyes, trying to be cross with him to destroy his arousal and to get Gon to back off of him.
"You're just mad because it worked." Gon chuckles, its' light, he seems not at all offended by Killua snapping at him.
"Uh Gon..." Leorio scratches his cheek, he shifts a bit, looking awkward. "You uh...why don't you go get us another movie to watch huh? And take 'insidious' with you." Leorio smiles strangely.
"Hmm? Okay sure." Gon smiles, backing away from Killua, much to the ex-assassin's relief. Gon walks over and takes insidious out of the TV before putting it in the case.
"I'll go with you Gon." Kurapika smiles, taking a step forward.
"No." Killua and Leorio say at the same time, the ex-assassin glaring darkly at the blonde while Leorio gives him a stern look.
"Why not?" Kurapika doesn't look at Killua, he looks at Leorio.
"Because i'm going down with him. You stay with Killua." Leorio crosses his arms.
"Well I had some business with Gon that I wanted to discuss." Kurapika starts.
"Nah why don't you stay here with me." Killua coos, smiling sweetly, his eyes getting darker. "Me and you never have any alone time."
"There you have it, stay with Killua." Leorio smiles at Gon who is looking between everyone, seeming confused. "Come on Gon. Lets go get another movie."
"Okay..." Gon tilts his head as he walks up to Leorio. He smiles at Kurapika. "I'll be back. We'll talk soon I promise."
"Ah thank you." Kurapika smiles, he blinks when he sees some chocolate at the corner of the teen's mouth. The blonde licks his finger before he wipes the chocolate off. Any arousal Killua was feeling quickly fades away, his blood boiling. "You had some chocolate on your face." He just touched Gon's lips. He just licked his fucking finger and touched his face. Killua grinds his teeth before a smirk slowly turns his lips.
You're going to fucking get it.
"Oh thanks." Gon smiles, so innocent, not knowing the kurtas intentions towards him. "I'll be back Killua." Gon looks over at his friend, the ex-assassin gives him a smile, closing his eyes in it.
"Okay take your time." Killua waves. Gon beams at his best friend when he realizes that Killua isn't pouting and isn't mad about him taking the chocolate. The raven haired male leaves with Leorio, Kurapika walking with them only to stop at the door way, the door shutting in his face.
The smile for Gon twists into a smirk as he stands up slowly. He glides like a ghost, standing behind Kurapika in a blink of an eye.
"It looks like it's just you and me now."
Gon hums to himself as he walks down the hallway with Leorio, the raven haired male can't stop the smile on his lips. I got Killua good!" Gon sneakers thinking of Killua's face when he had stolen the chocolate from him. He wasn't expecting that at all! Gon has to admit though that he did feel a little strange when he realized how close their lips were. His heart did that flutter thing and his stomach twisted. Gon frowns, his shoulders slumping. I've been feeling really sick today. First this morning when I felt so hot just from looking at Killua, then throughout the day I kept feeling warm and my chest tight when Killua would smile and get excited about the chocolate. I really felt sick when we were watching the movie and Killua whispered in my ear. It was strange because it felt pleasant but my stomach was doing flips and I was too hot. Killua's voice sounded different when he whispered, huskier, deeper, silkier.
Gon felt the heat pool low again and he was starting to feel uncomfortable as Killua kept whispering in his ear. Gon felt like he was melting yet he wanted Killua to keep whispering in his ear. He wanted more too some how. Gon set his mind to watching the movie to get rid of his sickness but he wanted to be closer and closer to Killua. The raven haired male thinks his body subconsciously moved closer to Killua every time he got scared. The ex-assassin's bare thigh felt so soft against his own, even his feet felt soft when they brushed against his. Gon felt so warm when he held Killua's hand during the last of the movie. It felt amazing. The sickness wasn't unbearable, more like he was soaking in warm water again.
The fact of the matter is that this sickness seems to be getting worse. Maybe it's this island? Why is this sickness effecting me more when Killua touches me? This is the second time today that...it got bigger...Gon feels his face get hot.
"Is something bothering you Gon?" Leorio's question breaks Gon out of his thoughts. He looks over at his friend, the older male looking at him with kind brown eyes, a patience there, an acceptance.
"Yeah." Gon glances at his hands. "It's the sickness I was telling you about..." Gon grips his hands into fists. "It's getting worse and it's effecting me more. I know you said it's normal but I'm getting worried."
Leorio is quiet for a moment. "When you told me about this at the circus you said you felt this way around your special one. The special one you were talking about is Killua right?"
Gon nods slowly, frowning. "Yeah. It upsets me. I don't want to be sick around Killua. I know he's causing it...have I become allergic to him?"
"No it's not that." Leorio looks at his younger friend. "Can you explain to me more about this sickness? When did it start?"
"I'm not sure when it started. I just started to really realize it now but I think I've had it for awhile. It's just stronger now. I get all warm when Killua touches me and when he smiles really big. My heart flutters when Killua holds my hand and my stomach twists badly sometimes to the point I think I'm going to explode. Like when Killua was sitting next to me while we were watching the movie my heart was fluttering and my stomach twisting when he was whispering to me." Gon puts a hand over his heart, frowning deeply.
"And then this morning...just from looking at Killua something strange happened. He had just come out of the shower and I couldn't stop staring at his chest. Then I got really warm and the warmth seem to spread and go lower. I thought I was coming down with a fever so I quickly went to take a cold shower...that's when I saw that my penis was a bit bigger then usual." Gon looks at Leorio, seeing the man's face get red. "Does this mean I'm dying? Is it getting too bad? What do I do? Why did it do that? I didn't have to pee or anything."
"Gon..." Leorio takes a deep breath. He stops walking to put his hands on Gon's shoulders. He's chuckling slightly, giving his friend a kind smile if not a bashful smile. "You're not dying. What you're feeling can't damage your body at all. Everyone feels it every once in awhile. You're a teenage boy. Your hormones are running. When it gets hard it's just because you want to do...sexual things. There's a tension that wants to be released."
"I don't think that's it." Gon tilts his head, thinking hard about what Leorio just said. It got hard when I was looking at Killua... "I don't think I want to have sex with Killua."
"You don't?" Leorio blinks, being taken aback. "have you had any strange thoughts about Killua? Any dreams?"
"I had a dream that Killua held me while I slept. It was nice but I woke up feeling strange."
"Have you ever thought of kissing him?"
"Hmm...No I don't think so." Gon tilts his head.
Leorio stares at Gon a moment, he looks like he's thinking about something deeply. " you almost kissed him a few seconds ago."
"Hm? Oh that! I was just trying to get the chocolate from him." Gon smiles thinking about it.
"You didn't feel anything when doing that?"
"Well...I did feel sick. My heart was beating fast."
Leorio's eyes light with realization. "I see..."
"See what? Do you now why I'm feeling like this?" Gon looks at him hopefully.
"Gon this sickness that you're feeling is a part of growing up. Don't be alarmed by it. I want you to experiment, try to pinpoint what makes you feel sick and what makes you feel the sickest. If you get hard while doing it...well I think you should take care of it." Leorio's face is red but he's looking at Gon seriously. "but if you don't think your old enough you should just keep doing what you're doing-"
"I'm old enough." Gon gets a serious look on his face. He grips his fist. "I'm not a kid anymore. I want to learn more about this sickness and understand it. So I'll do it. I don't want it getting in the way of me and Killua's friendship." Gon blinks. "...How do I take care of it? If it gets hard?"
Leorio sighs, like he knew this was coming. "Just...you know. When you got hard today how did it feel?"
"I'm not sure...I felt hot and there was pressure...I kind of felt like...touching it I guess." Gon thinks back to his morning. That was his instinct. He wanted to touch it but he decided against it. He didn't want to make himself any sicker.
"That's what you do. That's all i'm going to say. Just go with your instinct. It'll come naturally." Leorio scratches his cheek. "Pay attention to what you think about...I think that will help you understand."
"Help me understand what? This sickness?" Gon feels his heart lift when Leorio nods. He grips his fist, determination flowing through his veins. I'm going to get to the bottom of this. I'll write down all the things that make me sick. I'll learn about this and beat it. I don't want Killua to get worried about me. I'll do this and take care of this because Leorio says this sickness is about growing up. I wonder if Killua's already faced this sickness and has beat it? I have to catch up...I can't let him get too ahead of me.
I don't want him leaving me behind.
"Come on, lets get a funny movie. Something light." Leorio smiles at his friend before they walk down the hallway together again. Gon follows by his side, those amber eyes shinning with determination before he smiles at Leorio.
"Thank you Leorio. I feel a lot better now."
"any time. I'm always here if you need me." Leorio grins. "I'm your friend and I want to see you succeed."
Gon smiles brightly, feeling happy by hearing Leorio say this. Gon has such great friends. He's so glad they can all be together and watch movies, and get along so well. Once this sickness is beaten it will be perfect. He'll show Killua how grown up he is. He'll show him he's not just a stupid kid.
I want to walk on the same level as you Killua. I'll beat this sickness to do just that.
Kurapika watches Gon and Leorio go, the clicking of the door closing behind them seems to echo in this room. The blonde wanted to go with Gon instead of Leorio. He wanted to ask him some questions, this would have been the perfect time to get him alone but Leorio had to go and ruin it. The blonde knows what's about to happen. He knew this was coming sooner or later. The blonde didn't help the situation from what he did right before Gon left, rubbing off the chocolate on his face with his finger. Kurapika really wasn't thinking when he did that. His motherly instincts took him over and he just wanted to clean Gon up. The blonde had to stop his wince when he realized what he had just done in front of the ex-assassin, right before they're going to be alone together too.
The blonde knew what was going to happen as soon as the door clicked shut.
"It looks like it's just you and me now." Killua coos behind him, his voice too close. He moved behind him in a fraction of a second. Kurapika turns around to see Killua standing there, a smirk on his lips, his canine teeth can be seen, those blue eyes hold none of the light he saw earlier today when he was with Gon.
"That seems to be the case." Kurapika responds coolly, locking eyes with the ex-assassin, keeping himself tall. Bracing himself for whatever is about to happen.
"Lets talk Kurapika. We never get to talk." Killua takes a step closer, the blonde holds his ground.
"What do you want to talk about?"
"oh nothing really." Killua stops, he picks at his nails as if he's bored before he glances up at Kurapika, a sharp look to his eyes. "it's just that I couldn't help to notice your feelings towards Gon." Killua's eyes narrow, those eyes getting darker even though there's a sweet smile on his face. "Thanks to your chocolate stunt today I know that you love Gon. isn't that right?"
"..." Kurapika closes his eyes, thinking about his options here. He can either say no and come clean, stopping this here and now or... "You're right. I love him." the blonde opens his eyes, Killua is in his face, the smile has turned into a frown, a growl in the back of his throat.
"You're sick." Killua spats, jabbing his finger into Kurapika's chest roughly. "How dare you? Hearing it straight from your lips makes me what to throw up. I should have known, from how you would look at him. Your a manipulator, using Gon's innocence to get what you want." Killua smirks, his voice taunting. "You know he'll never love you back right? Gon's not like you. He's not a faggot." The word faggot is spat from his mouth, dripping with venom. Kurapika feels a sting of hurt and anger. He takes a deep breath, trying to keep in control of this situation.
"That's very cruel of you to say Killua. I thought I was your friend." Kurapika glares back at the ex-assassin. "So what if I love another man? This is who I am. I want to be with him." The blonde watches as Killua's pupils start to shake, his hands tightening into fists. "Gon is kind. I told him how I'm gay and he accepted me. I want to give him happiness. Gon has accepted me so why are you acting this way towards me Killua?!"
"You're right Gon is kind but I'm sure you didn't tell him how you're in love with him! There's only so far his kindness can go! He'd never take your love with open arms. You're pathetic, the type of man that would guilt someone into being with them. Gon doesn't love you. He'll never love you. So give up. Your feelings for Gon are sick. You need help." Killua growls, getting in Kurapika's face. "Forget about having Gon. You'll never have Gon. You don't deserve him."
"I need help? Really?" Kurapika feels his face get red from his anger. He takes a deep breath. Keep calm. You know why he's acting like this. Don't lose sight of the goal. Don't feed into it. "How can you tell me if Gon will love me back or not? I don't care what you say. I'll keep trying to be with Gon, unless you can give me a real reason for me not to. I'm going to confess to Gon how I feel about him. If he doesn't give me a chance as you say he won't that's fine because I know Gon will still honor our friendship." Good. Give Killua reassurance. If you tell your feelings, even if Gon doesn't return it, I'm sure he'd still honor the friendship. Gon's not that type of person.
"Don't make me laugh!" Killua chuckles darkly. "Gon will want nothing to do with you once he knows how you feel about him! He'll think you're disgusting just as I do. My reason for you stopping this stupid chase is that I said so. I'm protecting Gon from your disturbed love."
"What makes my love disturbed? That I love another man?" Kurapika feels his blood boil. It makes him so angry and frustrated. "You're the one who is disturbed! At least I'm honest with who I am. I'm not a coward who hides in the shadows. How dare you try speak for Gon. You have no right to do this-"
"I would shut up if I was you." Killua's hand cracks as it transforms into his claws, his fingers getting bigger with blood vessels sticking out of them. Those blue eyes have gotten glossy, his body stiff. His voice is deep and menacing. "What do you know? I'm doing this as his best friend. Getting rid of the trash so he doesn't have to deal with it-"
"Is that what you're telling yourself? That this is somehow relieving Gon or protecting him? Open your eyes Killua! You know that isn't true! You know I don't mean any harm To Gon. Be honest to yourself and be honest to me." Kurapika summons his chains, keeping his back straight preparing himself if there is going to be a fight. "We're friends aren't we? Why are you threatening me like an enemy? When I've done nothing but confess the love I have for Gon. You've said some hurtful things to me. How do you think Gon would feel about us fighting like this?"
Killua's eyes flash, those purple orbs slowly going back to normal at the mention of Gon. His hand changes back to normal before he stuffs them into his pocket. His bangs cover his eyes as he breaths heavily. Kurapika softens up a bit. "You see now don't you? Saying that this is protecting Gon is a lie. Gon would be really upset if he knew about this. Do you think me telling him I love him is worse then you attacking me for it?"
"...You're a threat. I don't like it." Killua hugs himself. "Just stop okay? Just stop trying to be with Gon."
"But what if Gon returns my feelings? Do you think it's fair for you to stop me when you don't know that? What if he would be happy with me?" Kurapika presses. Killua's really tense. His lips are trembling as he tightens his grip on his arms.
"Don't..." Killua's voice is nothing more than a whisper. Kurapika almost didn't hear it. His voice is filled with a deep rooted pain. Filled with fear.
Kurapika stares at the younger male for a moment, feeling bad about all this. I may have taken this a bit too far. Killua's getting really upset. It started with anger but I think he realized that I am his friend and his actions are unreasonable. I think he knows that now but...he still wants to stop me. He doesn't want me confessing.
"Killua. Look at me." Kurapika makes his chains disappear. The ex-assassin slowly looks up, those blue eyes are a pool of emotions. He looks torn between ripping Kurapika apart or screaming, or crying. Maybe he wants to do all three at this point. Those eyes show how deep this conflict is rooted. These feelings for Gon are laced with fear. The fear of being rejected, the fear of losing Gon because of it. Kurapika saw that in the way he was pushing that on him, saying Gon wouldn't want to be his friend because of it and that he would see him as disgusting. Kurapika's anger fades away. "I'm your friend. I don't want to hurt you. Why don't you want me to confess to Gon? What's the real reason behind all this?"
Killua opens and closes his mouth, his lips trembling, his pupils dilated. The inner battle continues. Kurapika knows he's dealing with a lot right now so he smiles gently at the ex-assassin. "One day."
"Huh?" Killua blinks, looking at the blonde confused.
"You have one day to tell me why I shouldn't tell Gon. I won't confess to him during that time and i'll back off of him but if you don't tell me by this time tomorrow i'll confess To Gon."
Killua's eyes shift as he hugs himself, his bangs covering his eyes. " I know you're going through something right now Killua. I understand. Just think about your reason. I'll hold off till then. "Kurapika walks past the younger male before he stops. "And you know, I didn't like how you talked about Gon. He's not like that. He's not the kind of person that would throw away friendship so easily. Gon's understanding and kind. You should know this more than anyone Killua." The blonde can feel Killua staring at him as he walks over to the couch and takes a seat, taking a deep breath. Kurapika feels his chest sting from Killua jabbing him, knowing he'll have a bruise. He really thought he was going to have to fight Killua there for a moment. It was close but after bring Killua back to the reality of how their fighting would effect Gon, it seemed to wake him up a bit.
Killua can control himself for Gon's sake...that's good. It does bother Kurapika that Killua was close to attacking him though. The ex-assassin is very possessive of Gon. Not only that but Killua was pushing everything he fears into Kurapika, acting as if he's disgusted with the blonde when the kurta knows he's just disgusted with himself. Deep down he's an afraid young boy who is in love and he doesn't know what to do. Kurapika knows Killua has had a horrible childhood. Gon took him away from all that. Killua's love for Gon is deep but he doesn't know how to act on it. He's afraid he'll lose Gon as a friend and that he'll be disgusted...
I hope my words have done something. I hope I'm helping and not hurting the situation. Kurapika glances over at Killua who sits on the floor, digging into his trash bag before throwing chocolate into his mouth. They sit in a tense silence, not saying anything. There's nothing to be said. Kurapika already knows, Once Gon walks through that door they'll act like this never happened. Not only that...
Gon will make this tense air go away. He'll get rid of Killua's fears and calm him down. All Kurapika can do is wait for Gon to come and save the day.
All he can do for Killua is pray that he'll open his eyes to the facts. Gon would never think of him as disgusting. Deep down the ex-assassin knows this but his fear is keeping him from thinking straight. He's too worried about things that he should already know.
Admit it to me Killua. Admit you're in love. You have it bad...so please be honest with yourself and be honest to Gon. Despite the fight we just had...I know you didn't mean it...
I want you both to be happy.
"We got the movie!" Gon cheers as he opens up the hotel door, feeling once again energized. Not only did Leorio tell him that this sickness is apart of growing up but he also taught Gon how to fix it! The young boy feels ready to get down to it. Gon smiles over at Killua who is sitting on the floor, his back turned to him, eating his chocolate.
"We decided on a movie called 'the chief'. It's suppose to be really good." Leorio grins as he walks into the room, taking his place next to Kurapika. "Gon could you put it in."
"Sure thing." Gon walks over to Leorio taking the movie before putting it in the TV. The raven haired male glances down at Killua whos steadily eating chocolate after chocolate. "Killua lets sit on the couch."
"I want to sit on the floor." Killua doesn't look at him.
"Oh." Gon looks up at the couch, seeing the space next to Kurapika is free. Gon can feel Killua looking at him from the corner of his eye. I want to sit on the couch but... Gon walks over to the couch and grabs the blanket before he takes a seat next to Killua, throwing the blanket over him in a playful matter, covering up the trash bag, stopping him before he could reach in to get more chocolate. "Okay then i'll sit on the floor too!"
Killua's shoulders relax a bit. "Don't complain to me when your butt hurts." He grunts as he moves the trash bag out of the blanket and throws it off to the side. Killua pulls the blanket up on his chest getting comfortable. Gon watches his best friend, seeing how he pulls the blanket up to his chin, those purple eyes focused on the movie that's starting. His white locks curve against his cheek bones, those purple orbs sticking out all the more from the contrast of light and darkness. Gon feels a bit sick, his heart beating a little faster at staring at his best friend.
Killua must be becoming aware of his staring because he's starting to shift, those purple eyes looking down before he looks over at Gon. "What?"
"Nothing." Gon looks at the TV, smiling to himself. I'm working on being an adult Killua. Gon's eyes shine with determination as he looks over at Killua again, moving his hand under the blanket, searching out his best friend's hand. Gon touches Killua's muscular arm first, his friend glancing over at him but Gon doesn't stop there. He slowly runs his finger tips down his arm to find his hand. The ex-assassin shivers, cheeks turning pink but he doesn't say anything. There's no complaint from him. Gon feels his stomach twist and his heart beat increase at seeing Killua's face red and his reaction to his touch. I feel it when I touch him...Gon grabs Killua's hand, interlacing their fingers. His chest feels warm.
Killua doesn't grab his hand back at first but soon his fingers squeeze him. Killua's body doesn't look stiff anymore and there's a light in those purple eyes that wasn't there when Gon had walked in.
Gon is waiting for Killua to ask him what he's doing or give him a weird look. After all this isn't a scary movie about ghost so there's no real reason for Gon holding Killua's hand. To the raven haired male's surprise though, Killua doesn't say anything at all. He just holds his hand. This makes Gon's heart skip a beat...this makes me feel the sickness, just holding his hand.
They watch the movie like this for awhile, sitting on the floor, holding hands under the blanket. Gon yawns, today starting to catch up with him. A lot has happened and he didn't get much sleep last night. Gon moves his body a bit, not letting go of Killua's hand before he lays his head on Killua's shoulder, hugging his arm. This way I can get closer, sleep and see if I feel sick! Gon smiles to himself, wondering if Killua will shove him off.
"What are you doing?" Killua swallows, not looking over at him.
"Laying on you. You're so comfy Killua! And soft, warm." Gon buries his head against Killua's shoulder, chuckling sightly when the ex-assassin's hair tickles his cheek. Gon's heart is beating really fast now and he feels warm. He feels even more sick. The closer I get to Killua the more sick I feel.
"Stupid don't say things like that out loud." Killua's face gets redder and he closes his eyes. Gon smiles at his friend as he closes his eyes, not feeling like staying awake any longer. Killua's here, he's soft and warm. Gon feels safe and secure. He lets himself be taken away, darkness consuming his mind as he listens quietly to Killua's breathing and the beating of his heart.
They become a lullaby that puts him right to sleep.
"That movie wasn't that good." Leorio yawns, glancing down at the two younger boys. He smiles when he sees that Gon's asleep on Killua. "Gon went right to sleep. He's probably exhausted from not getting too much sleep last night."
"Yeah he went out half way through the movie." Killua gently works his way out of the blanket. He stands up, picking Gon up, holding him like a baby in his arms. The raven haired male mumbles something but he doesn't wake up. "I"m going to go lay him down and get some sleep myself. We're going to the beach tomorrow right?"
"Yes so when you wake up tomorrow get on your bathing suits and bring anything you want to use at the beach." Kurapika stands up, stretching out his muscles that feel stiff from just sitting for a couple of hours.
"Got it." Killua doesn't look at the blonde as he turns on his heel and heads towards the door.
"Good night you two." Leorio waves. "Get some sleep Killua. You need your rest too."
"Yeah, yeah." Killua grunts as Leorio walks over to open the door for him to get out. "I got the other door." Killua walks out, holding Gon against his chest. Leorio watches them go before he closes the door, leaving the two older males alone together.
The blonde takes a deep breath, bracing himself. I've been wanting to talk to Leorio...After the confrontation with Killua I couldn't help but wonder if I'm helping or hurting those two. I need advice. If I tell Leorio and explain myself I'll be able to get his opinion. Leorio wouldn't do anything to hurt those two and he'd like to help. Kurapika grips his fists. I'm just going to say...just go ahead and say it.. one, two, three!
"Killua's in love with Gon."
"Gon's in love with Killua."
Both of the males tense, Leorio whipping around to look at Kurapika with wide eyes. "What? Why do you say that?" Both males say this at the same time again. They stop talking just to stare at each other for a moment, processing what the other just said.
"...I'll go first, why do you say Gon's in love with Killua?" Kurapika composes himself, not at all expecting Leorio to shout that out.
"...Well I think it's pretty obvious. It wasn't at first but the whole earring thing confirms it. He told us it was for someone special and then he gives it to Killua. Those earrings are really expensive and pretty. They're female earrings."
"You know Gon though he could have just been giving them to Killua as a token of friendship."
"That's probably what I would have thought if Gon hadn't told me something at the circus. He said he felt sick around his special one. His stomach would tense up and his heart would flutter. You know what that sounds like right? Love. The beginning of it. Then I come to find out that the special someone is Killua. So Gon has been feeling this love sickness around Killua. He's in love with him but Gon doesn't see it. He doesn't realize it. He's too innocent." Leorio shakes his head, the older male watches as Kurapika processes all that before glancing away. "So yeah sorry about that."
"hm?" Kurapika raises an eye brow.
"You obviously have some feelings towards Gon but he loves Killua."
"I told you I don't have feelings towards Gon."
"But at the chocolate factory she tasted love in it and you were thinking about Gon weren't you?" Leorio's voice has a bit of bite to it.
"No I wasn't thinking about Gon. I just wanted Killua to think I was."
"...What?" Leorio blinks, looking at Kurapika like he's grown another head. "Why?"
"To make him jealous." Kurapika takes a deep breath. "I'm actually very relieved to hear you say that. Gon does feel something towards Killua." He sighs in relief. "You see, Killua is in love with Gon. He understands his feelings though."
"How do you know?"
"Just by the looks he gives Gon and how jealous he gets when I flirt with him. He almost attacked me when you two left because of the 'love' I have for Gon. He's too afraid to tell Gon how he feels though. He's afraid Gon won't want to be his friend or he'll lose him. He's afraid he's going to be turned down and I think...he's really afraid of Gon finding someone else. He sees me as a threat."
"Hey now, isn't that a bit dangerous? Did Killua try to hurt you?" Leorio's eyes flash.
"He didn't attack me but I know he wanted to. Killua is very possessive of Gon but I found out today that he can control himself for Gon's sake. Killua's feelings for Gon made me a little nervous at first. I thought 'well what if Gon likes someone else?' Would Killua hurt that person? I know he wouldn't hurt Gon but Gon's lover is another story. So for you to say that Gon does have feelings for Killua makes this a lot easier." Kurapika takes a deep breath. "You want them to be happy too don't you?"
"...Yeah I do. Even though it bothers me Killua almost attacked you i'm relieved to hear he loves Gon. I was worried that Gon feelings might scare Killua off. But the bad thing is that Gon doesn't even realize what he's feeling." Leorio's cheeks tint but he looks at Kurapika seriously. "Gon got a hard on from looking at Killua this morning. I told him what that means but he said he doesn't think he wants to have sex with Killua...I think he's just confused. So...I told him that he should experiment and figure out what makes him the most sick. I also told him the next time he gets hard he should...take care of it."
"What?" Kurapika's face gets red, looking at Leorio with wide eyes.
"I think it's the only way to make him see that he wants Killua in that way. He's too innocent Kurapika. He doesn't get it. But if he jerks off and starts thinking of Killua while doing it...maybe he'll realize it. He'll probably ask me questions but I can lead him in the right direction. Do you get it? Or do you think I was wrong in telling him that?" Leorio shifts a bit, looking a little unsure.
"...No I get it. It's a little embarrassing but you're right. We need to help Gon realize his feelings for Killua and we need to encourage Killua to confess to Gon." Kurapika thinks to himself. "Even though we know those two have feelings for each other, they don't know that. And if we tell them that the other person has feelings for them, Killua won't believe it and Gon probably won't understand it. We have to work together to push them closer to each other. They have to figure it out on their own."
"So what's the plan?" Leorio takes a seat next to Kurapika on the couch, looking at his friend seriously.
"...Well when Killua confronted me, I told him he has a day to tell me a reason why I shouldn't tell Gon I love him. I wanted Killua to admit that he has feelings for Gon but he wouldn't. I'm hoping this will give him more of a push." Kurapika looks at Leorio. "I think really our plan is helping Gon realize his feelings and doing whatever we can to push them together. I wonder if Killua will make a move? Or if it has to be Gon?"
"Gon can't make a move if he doesn't even understand what he's feeling though." Leorio taps his finger to his chin. "So Killua gets that he loves Gon, is possessive of him, but afraid Gon wouldn't want to be his friend if he found out...Killua is one to hide his feelings so even if we encourage him he still might not do it."
"So we focus on Gon." Kurapika nods. "We can still try some things to push Killua closer but I think my threat is enough for right now."
"Maybe we could try to make Gon jealous tomorrow! We're going to the beach so we could introduce Killua to a couple of cute girls and they'll be hanging off of him! When Gon sees that he'll get jealous and he'll realize he has feelings for Killua!"
"Do you really think that would work? First off, Gon and Killua are almost always together. Second, Killua wouldn't let a bunch of girls hang off of him. He'll try to get off of them to join up with Gon again. Third, from knowing Gon I don't think he's the jealous type and if he did get jealous I don't think that would make him realize his feelings, I think it would just confuse him more."
"Yeah that's true, that's true hmm...Hey Kurapika? Okay I'm about to ask you a weird question but I think it's relevant. Do you think Gon wants to be...topped or bottomed?" Leorio tries to keep a serious face but his cheeks are getting red.
"E-Excuse me?" Kurapika's eyes get wide at the question. "Why does that matter?! Ugh that's creepy to think about, Innocent little Gon." The blonde closes his eyes rubbing his head. He doesn't see how Leorio relaxes more at his reaction.
"I think it matters because that why I can know how I should go about this. If Gon wants Killua to be the dominate then he'll find different things more appealing then if he wanted to be the dominate. You know what I mean?"
"I suppose but why does this have to be about sex? We're not simply trying to get them in bed together Leorio." Kurapika's face is red. "They're still young."
"I know that! But if Gon sees that he's attracted to Killua then he'll know that he doesn't just like him as a friend! I'm not trying to be creepy here! I'm just trying to help! You get what I'm trying to say?"
"...I get what you're trying to say but lets try cleaner methods first okay?" Kurapika takes a deep breath.
"Cleaner methods?...hmm...I got nothing...ah wait! We could play a game! We could play truth or dare!" Leorio's eyes light up. "We'll act like it's suppose to test will power and endurance you know? Dare some embarrassing things and then start daring them to do things to each other-"
"We are not in some crappy teenage movie Leorio." Kurapika's eye twitches. "We are not going to relie on truth or dare."
"I think it would work." Leorio crosses his arms. "I don't see you coming up with anything except for faking love for Gon and pissing Killua off."
Kurapika tenses a bit before glancing off to the side. "It seemed to be a good plan. It made known to me Killua's feelings and how strong they are. But..." Kurapika glances over at Leorio. "Do you think me acting as if I love Gon is hurting getting them together or helping them?"
"...I'm not sure. It could go either way." Leorio mumbles, thinking. "...I have to say I think it's kind of mean. It's one thing to be jealous for a moment like I think Gon would be if we got some girls for Killua at the beach but it's another thing to feel truly threaten by a friend for that matter. Someone who is around that person all the time. Never knowing if the person you love is going love them back. Think about it, we know it's fake but Killua doesn't. It would be horrible for him if you and Gon got together. It's scary not knowing." Leorio's eyes get glossed over for a moment.
"I understand i'm making it hard for Killua." Kurapika feels a pang of guilt but he shakes it off. "But I think he needs to understand and be pushed to admit his feelings. If Killua just goes on without telling Gon his feelings, what if someone else came along and took Gon away? IT would be too late. I'm only giving him a little taste. I don't like making him upset though. But it's not like I can pat him on the back, smile and say 'oh I was just playing this whole time'. I think he really would kill me then. I either have to keep moving forward or..." Kurapika looks at Leorio. "If Killua admits to me his feelings, i'll tell him that I won't confess my feelings for Gon, that I value his feelings. That will amend our relationship I believe and I can encourage him confess to Gon. That's my plan for Killua."
"But...what if Killua doesn't admit his feelings tomorrow? Are you really going to falsely confess your love to Gon?" Leorio gives Kurapika a strange look.
"...If Killua doesn't admit to his feelings for Gon I'll..." Kurapika frowns. "...pretend to confess to Gon but i'm hoping that the stress of it will get to Killua and he'll either admit his feelings for Gon...or he'll attack me." Kurapika says seriously.
"Which one is more likely?" Leorio grips his fist.
"It's more likely that he'll attack me. The second most likely is that he'll admit his feelings. I doubt he'll let me 'confess' to Gon. Call it just a feeling."
"Damn it Kurapika. They're the reckless ones, not you. I want to help Gon and Killua too but I think risking Killua hurting you is going too far." Leorio looks at the blonde with concern, those brown orbs have a fire to them.
"When I started this I didn't think that Killua would attack me. I underestimated the situation. But i'll be fine Leorio." Kurapika gives Leorio a smile, his chest feeling warm from his concern. " Tomorrow let's not try too hard. Let's have fun together at the beach. Killua and Gon will have a lot of fun together, and if I stay back it will lighten the mood. If we see an opportunity to push them closer together we'll take it but this is our vacation too. We should have fun at the beach tomorrow Leorio." Kurapika smiles gently.
"...Yeah." Leorio lips curl in a large smile. "Sounds good, really good." Leorio chuckles, a warm chuckle as he leans back, putting a hand over his eyes. " You had me freaking out earlier today. One I thought you lied to me, second you and Gon...just no." He sigh, the smile not leaving his face. " I really thought for a second there that this vacation was about to turn really awkward really fast."
"Is that what you were angry about?" Kurapika blinks, studying Leorio closely. The older man tenses slightly, not going unnoticed by the kurta.
"Yeah sort of. I had a headache too." Leorio grumbles, glancing off to the side. "I mean I was kind of pissed off you lied to me and then you were flirting with Gon right in front of my face, like you were trying to rub it in my face. Your attention was on Gon and so was Killua's...so I was just there. The chocolate factory was very annoying for me. It wasn't fun." Leorio crosses his arms, still not looking at Kurapika.
"I wouldn't lie to you Leorio. You're a dear friend of mine. You're the closest friend I have." Kurapika's gray eyes soften when the older man looks over at him, his eyes widen slightly. "I'm sorry, you must have felt left out. I wasn't thinking about how you could have felt, I was too focused on my mission." The blonde looks down at his hands. "You're never just there Leorio and you don't have to worry about feeling left out anymore. Now that you're in the loop. We can help our friends together."
Leorio swallows before he looks forward scratching his cheek." Yeah well don't do that again or i'll have to hit you." There's a grin on his lips, those brown eyes lighter and his shoulders the most relaxed he's seen them today. "Tomorrow will you get in the water with me? Let's go wild, show those kids that we're not old at all." Leorio smirks
"I"d like that." Kurapika chuckles, closing his eyes in his smile.
"We could play volley ball! Us against them! And we can just lay out on the beach, drink some wine, get some sun." Leorio goes on, chatting away excitedly, taking delight in the smiles the blonde gives him, the relief he feels is just too great.
I hope I can help you guys but... Leorio ignores how his stomach does a flip when Kurapika chuckles, his head bouncing in a way that makes his long blonde hair sway....I'm not much different then you.
Killua lays Gon down in their bed, not making a sound, his face blank. He carefully pulls the blanket up, covering the boy up to his chest. The raven haired male shifts a bit but he doesn't wake up, sighing in contentment. Killua's purple eyes soften watching his best friend before he turns and walks out of the their room. He glances back at Gon, making sure he's still asleep before he closes the door behind him.
The ex-assassin shoves his hands in his pockets, his bangs covering his eyes as he shuffles down the hallway, the light and warmth he was feeling all gone.
I wanted to kill him. Killua keeps walking, not paying attention to where he's going and not caring either. I wanted to break him and scare him off but he kept pushing it...Now he's going to confess to Gon tomorrow night if I don't give him a reason...
It should be easy enough right? Killua wanted to yell, he wanted to scream "Gon is mine! You'll never love him like I do!" but the words wouldn't come out. He was torn between wanting to hurt Kurapika, telling the blonde his feelings, and fear. Fear of actually verbalizing his feelings and...fear that Kurapika might be the one for Gon.
The ex-assassin bites his lip to the point it bleeds, the taste of iron not unwelcomed in his mouth. I don't want Gon to get mad at me if I hurt Kurapika...and I want Gon to be happy...so what if Kurapika is the one...? like he was saying...what right do I have? I'm acting as if I own Gon but... Killua grips his fist, his breathing uneven, he clutches at his chest. It hurts. This feeling in my chest. Thinking about Gon with Kurapika...it makes me feel ill. I don't want it. I really don't want it.
So why couldn't I just say how I felt? Why couldn't I tell Kurapika to back off because he's mine? Maybe the statement isn't true but that would be a reason and then Kurapika may not still be confessing tomorrow. I couldn't say anything, my throat closed up, my head got fuzzy...I could hear my brother's voice, mocking me.
"I'm nothing but a coward." Killua stops walking, his breathing unsteady, those purple eyes getting dull. I've been claiming Gon as mine without even letting Gon know how I feel about him. I've been fighting Kurapika off when I have no reason to. Kurapika is a good guy, he'd take care of Gon...but I hate it. I hate it so much. I don't want Kurapika to confess, so why couldn't I just say it?! Killua swallows down the lump in his throat.
What will I do if...Gon returns his feelings? What can I do? If Gon's happy? Killua grips at his hair. I'd want to run. I'd want to run away...but at the same time I would want to take Gon with me. I don't deserve you Gon...I want my happiness more than yours. I've been selfish while you so kind.
Those amber eyes flash through his mind, making his breath hitch. His breathing starts to settle down and he stops biting on his lip. Killua had felt horrible after his talk with Kurapika. He didn't know what to do, how he should feel. He felt powerless. When Gon came back, Killua couldn't look at him. He felt ashamed. Ashamed of his feelings towards him, ashamed that he portrayed him as being a jerk to Kurapika, ashamed of his actions. Killua stayed on the floor because he felt he deserved it and he wanted to be as far away from Kurapika as possible. The ex-assassin was expecting Gon to choose to sit up on the couch...with Kurapika, only for Gon to surprise and save him once again.
Gon chose to sit on the floor with him and share a blanket with him. He chose to hold his hand under the blanket and to lay his head on his shoulder. Gon chose to do those things with him, and not Kurapika.
The blonde is right about one thing...Gon isn't the kind of person who would be disgusted at his friends. He's not the type of person that would just stop a friendship over something like that. Killua knew this all along but there's still a deep fear that things will be different. That deep down he'll look at him differently. Most of all he's afraid...he'll be turned down. If Killua doesn't admit his feelings he can keep lying to himself that there's a chance Gon will love him back. But If he confesses to Gon and he turns him down...there's no more lying. There's no more hope.
Killua doesn't know if he could handle it. It would break his heart. He's been so afraid of confessing his feelings that it's even transferred to just admitting his feelings in general. It felt wrong for him to confess his love for Gon. Confessing it made it all the more real. Killua can't explain it...the thought of speaking the words ' I love Gon.' to Kurapika, terrified him. It also terrified him the thought of Kurapika confessing to Gon.
It felt like he was being torn a part. But then Gon saved him with his kind touches and smiles. Gon wanted to sit with him. He wanted to touch him.
There's a really good chance even if Kurapika confesses that Gon will just turn him down gently. Killua nods to himself but he can feel a bead of sweat fall down his face.
What if he doesn't? What if Kurapika takes him away from you? Killua's heart can be felt in his throat. He tries to keep himself calm, his pupils constricting. You know what you can do to stop this... The voice chuckles. kill him.
"...Stop." Killua takes deep breathes. "...I won't hurt him. No matter how much I want to. He said he'll stop if I give him a reason...I just have to tell him...I have to." Killua closes his eyes. Because even though I want you to be happy Gon...I don't want you to be happy with Kurapika. How horrible am I? To take that away from you without you even knowing my feelings or Kurapika's. But...I just can't deal with it.
If Gon were to come to Killua and say that he loved Kurapika...Killua would be heart broken, he'd probably cry himself to sleep that night but in that moment he would smile, and tell Gon he should go for it. Because Killua wants Gon to be happy...but this is something that he may be able to stop. Gon hasn't shown any interest in Kurapika. If the blonde doesn't confess then there's no chances of those two getting together...
Killua turns back around heading towards their hotel room, licking up the blood from his lip. I won't hurt Kurapika but I'll fight to keep him from you Gon...because I want you all to myself. I'm sorry. I'm a coward, a pervert, a selfish man but most of all...I'm in love with you Gon freeces.
I'll have to get over this fear and just tell Kurapika what's up. Tell him to stay back...lie if I have to. No matter how guilty or ashamed I feel...I can't let you have him.
Killua opens their hotel door, walking in quietly, only to tense when he hears quiet whimpering and shuffling of sheets. All those thoughts are completely forgotten, his heart pounding in alarm. "Gon?" Killua rushes over to his friend, frowning when he sees his Gon moving around in bed, whimpering to himself, his lips trembling as his hands reach out for something, gripping. He walks over towards him, grabbing his hand that's outreached, not really thinking about it, wanting to help his friend. "Gon it's okay it's just a dream-"
Gon grips Killua's hand tight before pulling him into the bed, Killua landing on top of him. Gon wraps his arms around him and hugs him tightly. The ex-assassin blushes trying to get out of his hold- "Don't leave me...Killua..." Gon's voice is nothing but a whisper. "I don't want him to take you away..."
Killua stops struggling, his eyes widening when he realizes that Gon's having a nightmare about something happening to him. The ex-assassin lays his head against Gon's, running his fingers through his hair.
"I won't leave you Gon. Not ever." Killua whispers in his ear, feeling hot when the words leave his mouth from his emotions. The raven haired male's heart rate slowly goes back down and his body relaxes to the point Killua can roll off of him and lay next to him. Gon's expression slowly relaxes and soon he's sleeping normally.
You don't have nightmares about Kurapika being taken away. Kurapika isn't the one who calms you down at night or helps you sleep. He doesn't get you like I do. Killua turns his back to Gon, feeling the urge to hug Gon and kiss him senseless. He wants to claim him, leave marks on his body to show who he belongs to. He wants Kurapika to know he belongs to Killua and only him. He wants Gon so bad...
When he wakes up he'll act like what happened today with Kurapika didn't happen. He'll be Gon's best friend and he'll have fun with him. He'll push all his sick desires away...but for right now...
Killua glances back at Gon's sleeping expression, watching as his chest raises slowly and noting how pink his lips are. Killua's purple eyes soften and he reaches up to touch one of the earrings, his heart thudding slowly.
I want to squeeze you, I want to touch you, I want to be all you need. I want to be your everything. Killua forces his eyes closed, his chest feels tight. He grips the blanket against his face. Because you are my everything Gon. I want you so bad...it hurts.