The Light In Your Eyes

by Maddylovesyou

A light that is so precious. A light that brings hope and can change any situation from dire to okay. A light that one would kill for. Killua would certainly kill for him.

9. Chapter 9

Empty headed...Child...

Those words have been haunting Gon's dreams. He didn't have the nightmare he usually has. He dreamed of nothing but darkness. Yet as soon as Gon opened his eyes, those words that were spoken by his best friend came back, making his chest hurt. Gon glances over at Killua who is still asleep, his back turned to him.

Gon's relieved that the ex-assassin didn't leave him last night but at the same time he feels that pang in his chest. He's curled up in that cute ball. Gon wants to get closer to him but Killua said no more touching...So that means no more good morning kisses? Gon frowns at that. Does he not want any touching? Or just the touching we were doing last night?

This sickness has gotten worse. He really wants to hug Killua from behind and give him a good morning kiss. He wants to share that with him but now he's not sure if he can. Gon looks over at the alarm clock, seeing how it's 12 in the afternoon. Geez we really slept in today. Yesterday was a long day though. We dealt with trying to find the circus all day and then we had to deal with the leader. And then... Gon reaches up and touches his neck, he can already feel it scabbing. The mark can probably still be seen though.

Gon tries not to think of last night. He doesn't want to get sick again. That will just make it harder for him not to touch Killua and he doesn't know if he's making it worse yet by making that white stuff come out. I need to talk to Leorio. Gon glances over at Killua, seeing as the ex-assassin hasn't moved he can only assume he's still sound asleep. Gon gets up slowly, trying not to wake his friend up. The bed makes a creaking sound-

Killua sits up in bed, his eyes wide open as he looks around quickly, his hands out ready to attack. When those purple orbs lock with amber ones...The ex-assassin calms down. "Gon..." Something flashes through Killua's eyes before he looks away, his bangs covering his eyes.

"Ah Good morning Killua I didn't mean to wake you up." Gon smiles sheepishly. His lips tingled when he said good morning. He had the urge to walk over and give Killua a kiss on the cheek but he held it in.

"It's alright." Killua fiddles with the blanket. "...Good morning."

Gon feels like he's lost something. Right now Killua's suppose to be kissing him on the forehead. The air between them feels tense and strange. Gon doesn't like it. "So last night...when you said you didn't want us touching...Does that mean the morning kisses too?" Gon shifts from foot to foot. The raven haired male noticed that the ex-assassin tensed.

There's a long pause before Killua nods his head. "Oh." Gon looks down, not able to hide the disappointment in his voice. Now it just feels stranger between them. Is he just imagining it?

"How's your neck?" Killua glances up at him.

"It's fine, it's already started to heal." Gon smiles, showing Killua his neck. Maybe that's what's bothering him right now. Killua stares at it before looking away again.

"That's good."

"How's your neck?" Gon moves closer to Killua.

"Fine." Killua moves his hair away from his neck. Where Gon bit is a dark purple bruise. Gon winces.

"I think I might have bit too hard." Gon scratches his arm. I don't know my own strength. I was just too excited last night.

"It was good-" Killua's face flushes before he covers his eyes with his bangs again. "A-Anyway lets start getting ready. We're going to the beach today aren't we?"

"Yeah." Gon smiles when Killua gets up but something's eating at him. If Killua just said it was good...then why doesn't he want to do it again? Why doesn't he want morning kisses? Is it because it's strange? "I'm just going to put on my trunks but first I was going to go check on Kurapika to see how he's doing."

Killua stiffens but it happened so fast that Gon's not really sure of it. "Yeah we should check how he's doing. If he's still doing bad Leorio might want to call off the beach."

"If he does we could just watch movies again or we could get started on the quest to find Clover!" Gon grips his fist. Either way, today is going to be fun. He'll just have to push his sickness off to the side and restrain himself from touching Killua. He doesn't want to make his friend mad at him. "Lets go-"

"Put some clothes on first. At least a shirt." Killua throws a shirt at him, it hits him in the face. Gon chuckles a little, not really understanding why it matters but Gon's liking that Killua's being playful with him again. Gon puts on the shirt before grinning at Killua.

"Am I presentable?" He does a twirl for his friend.

"Smart ass." Killua grunts but his lips are cracking in a smile. Good. That's what I want to see. I don't like seeing you upset Killua. When Gon keeps giving him a goofy grin Killua's cheeks color before he grabs Gon's face and pushes him away. "Come on lets go."

"okay." Gon chuckles. He's found out this trick you see. If he smiles at Killua long enough the ex-assassin will get embarrassed and push him away. He's been doing it for a couple of years now. I think it even worked when he was 12. Gon walks out of the hotel room, feeling a little better now. He's not one to get hung up on things. Especially if it's Killua. Of course he was hurt by his words last night and he doesn't like that Killua doesn't want to touch anymore but he'll still beat this sickness somehow and show Killua he's not just a dumb kid. And as long as Killua's by his side then it doesn't matter if he can touch him or not. As long as Killua's happy. As long as he's by his side then it's okay.

Gon's a very simple person.

The raven haired male notices that the ex-assassin is walking a couple steps behind him. The closer they get to Kurapika's and Leorio's room, the slower he seems to go. Gon doesn't really pay this any mind. Maybe he's worried about Kurapika? Gon makes it to their room first, knocking on the door. There's some shuffling on the other side before the door opens, Leorio being revealed, a frown on his lips.

"We're not going to be able to go to the beach today." That's the first thing Leorio says.

Gon can hear Kurapika curse in the back ground, he looks at Leorio. "Is Kurapika okay?"

"Not really." Leorio grumbles as he moves out of the way to let the two teenagers in. Gon walks in quickly to see Kurapika, his eyes showing his concern. Killua on the other hand drags his feet behind him.

Kurapika is sitting up in bed, his eyebrow twitching, his blonde locks brushed and out of the way. There's some crumbs on his chin. "He can only move at the waist. He's able to move his toes and shift the muscles of his legs but he's still pretty much frozen." Leorio sighs, shaking his head.

"This is embarrassing." Kurapika sighs, closing his eyes when he sees Gon's concerned look. "I could have waited to eat till I could move Leorio."

"We don't know when that'll be. I wasn't going to let you starve yourself." Leorio grunts, giving the blonde a stern look.

"But you will be able to move soon right Kurapika?" Gon moves so he's right by Kurapika's side.

"...Yes don't worry. I should be able to move some time today." Kurapika smiles at his friend, those gray eyes softening. "I'm sorry that we won't be able to go to the beach today. You three should go with out me-"

"No!" Gon shouts before Leorio does. "We should do stuff together! Like you guys kept saying it's our vacation. I want you to have fun too Kurapika."

Kurapika lips turn in a small smile, those gray eyes giving Gon a message of gratitude and kindness. Gon knows that something bad happened with Kurapika and the leader. He just has a feeling in his gut that Kurapika's not feeling well. And when Gon's sick or upset, the last thing he wants is to stay at home, in bed, while everyone else gets to have fun.

"Then i'll do anything you want to do today Gon." Kurapika's smile wavers slightly when he glances behind Gon at someone else.

"Hmm...what do you think guys? What's something we can all do with Kurapika not being able to move much?" Gon looks back at his friends. Leorio was looking at Killua but he quickly looks at Gon, his face blank. Killua's face is blank also. It looks like Gon just asked them a hard math problem, they're both drawing a blank.

"We could play video games." Killua shrugs, looking indifferent.

"But Kurapika couldn't hold the controller." Gon frowns. Killua looks irritated.

"We could watch movies." Leorio suggests.

"We could do that." Gon hums, thinking to himself before he looks at Kurapika. " How do you feel about going to the pool?"

"Uh Gon he's not going to be able to swim." Leorio gives him an odd look.

"But Kurapika could sit in the hot tub or stand in the shallow end. That might not be that fun though. What do you think Kurapika?" Gon sees the kurta is smiling at the idea.

"I'd like sitting in the hot tub just watching you guys swim. That sound relaxing. I like your idea. I'm tired of just laying here anyway. I'm not really in the mood to watch movies and even if I could play, video games."

"Yay! And then later when you feel a bit better you could look at the book for us? Then we can get started on the search for Clover." Gon smiles at his friend. Kurapika gives him a knowing look before nodding.

"Sounds good to me."

"Alright well you two go and get your swim suits on and I'll get us ready." Leorio pushes out the two teenagers, a kind of skip to his step. Gon can't even say anything before he's out of the room and the door is shut on them.

"Ne I guess Leorio really liked the idea of swimming too." Gon beams, feeling proud of himself for coming up with something everyone can do together.

"He's probably just excited to see the half naked women at the pool." Killua grunts, shoving his hands into his pockets.

"yeah maybe." Gon chuckles, shaking his head. Oh Leorio. He lustful likes a lot of people.

"Hell who knows, maybe I'll see a hot chick I like." Killua's voice sounds different. His face doesn't change though but there's a smirk on his lips.

"Oh Killua you're looking for someone to date?" Gon smiles brightly, looking at his friend. "If you need any help I could give you pointers. You've never been on a date before right?-"

"That's just because I've always been with you." Killua snaps defensively. " I've had plenty of opportunities though. It's not like I can't get a date."

"I know. You're very good looking Killua." Gon smiles. Killua's eyes widen slightly and his cheeks tint. "You could probably get any girl you wanted to."

"Well...yeah. Probably." Killua mumbles, his face flushed. He glances away, scratching his cheek. It's cute how embarrassed he gets over these things.

"I wasn't trying to offend you. It's been awhile but I know the basics of having a good date." Gon beams feeling proud of himself for having something he can teach Killua. It's always the other way around. "Just tell me if you need my help."

"I'm pretty sure I can do it myself." Killua crosses his arms. Now he seems irritated again. Gon frowns. Sometimes I don't get Killua. Why does he seem mad at me now?

"...So what's the sudden interest in dating? You've never really been interested in getting a date before." Gon thinks back to the years he's spent with the ex-assassin. He's never really said anything about girls. All these years they've been talking about their techniques and their home lives or playing games or going on adventures.

"I'm 17 years old. It's time to get some." Killua grunts crudely. Smirking at Gon. The raven haired male blinks. 'get some?' He doesn't focus on that though. He focuses on what his first few words are. Gon's eyes widen. Is this the next step for Killua? Finding a lover? Isn't that what adults do? They date to find their one true love? Is Killua that far ahead of him? By 'get some' does he mean to get love? Killua's so far ahead of him. Gon's still suck with this sickness! Maybe I can start trying to get on his level even though i'm still dealing with the sickness...maybe I can do both and then Killua will really be impressed!

"Maybe it's time for me to get some too." Gon smiles brightly not understanding why Killua looks over at him in shock, his face getting pale. Did I say something wrong? Maybe Killua's already shocked to see i'm on his level! Or at least trying to be. "It's been awhile since I've dated but I'm sure I still know what I'm doing. Those older women at whale island taught me a lot of things." Gon smiles thinking of all the dates he went on. They taught him how to get to a woman's heart. You have to be kind and smile. You have to take them out many places and spend money on them. Don't touch too much on the first date. Other things like that. He would take the women out on dates and if he did something wrong they would tell him and explain how he should do it better next time. They really helped him out.

Killua grinds his teeth, his bangs covering his eyes, he seems all stiff now. A strange,tense air between them.

"Going on many dates, doing stuff with older women, like that's something to boast about." Killua growls. "Since you've gone on so many dates Gon you don't need to go out anymore. This is our vacation, what's wrong with you? Trying to bring some stranger into the mix which will only waste our time."

"Ne but Killua you said first that you were going to date someone-"

"No I said I might fine a sexy girl and do things to her, there's a difference. What' i'm going to do is only going to take less then a day." Killua snaps.

"...oh..." Gon frowns. "that's not right Killua. You shouldn't just have sex with a girl in less then a day. You should get to know her and care about her. Sex is special."

Killua tenses up badly. "And I'm sure you cared about allll your dates right Gon?"

"I did. They were all nice ladies." Gon doesn't' understand why Killua seems to be getting madder and madder.

"SO what you took your time with all these girls? You got to know them and care about them?" Killua grinds his teeth. "But there was so many right Gon? So what did you do? Just keep moving on to the next one?"

"well the ladies didn't stay on the island for a long time. I didn't really move on they asked for me to take them out. I couldn't say no. That would be mean. All of them were nice to me."

"So you're a pushover who has no self control." Killua grunts.

"Killua why do you seem like you're getting mad?"

"I'm not getting mad Gon. I don't care about what you do. I just don't like you trying to tell me what I should do." Killua glares as they walk into their room together, Gon frowning at how Killua marches off into the room. "I'm grown up Gon. You see Leorio do it all the time. If I want to fuck someone I'm just going to do it."

Gon shivers at Killua saying that word. He's never heard him say it before. In a sense it made him feel kind of dirty to hear that word, his stomach doing a strange twist. Gon's eyebrows furrow, not really knowing how to classify how he feels right now. He doesn't like Killua talking about doing it with a stranger so easily. He doesn't like thinking that's what he's going to be trying to do at the pool but...is this what he's lacking? Is this what it means to be a grown up? Kurapika doesn't just have sex with anyone though and he's definably a grown up. Gon looks down.

I don't understand. Why does my chest hurt? Why am I so confused? Why do I not like Killua talking about having sex? Growing up is hard.

Gon doesn't know how to respond to his friend right now so he just moves silently, getting his trunks out of the drawer. His mind is in deep thought as he tries to work everything out in his head. I wish I was smart enough to understand this all without needing help. Gon sighs as he takes off his boxers and puts on his trunks. Killua's mad at me again though. Gon wants to say something. He looks over at Killua to see the ex-assassin glaring at the wall, his arms crossed. When Killua feels his stare, he covers his bangs with his eyes.

"I'm going." Killua grunts, walking out of the hotel room, leaving Gon behind. The raven haired male looks out of the window, feeling that pain in his chest again but not really understanding it. Killua just went off to swim. It's not like he just left him for good but there's this space between them now that wasn't there last night. Did I cause it? By becoming too sick and touching him? Gon grumbles rubbing his head. This is too much. I just don't get it.

Gon sighs before he turns and walks out of the room heading towards Kurapika and Leorio. I need help to understand this. Maybe it's good Killua went off alone so now I can talk to Leorio and Kurapika about this. He didn't like how Killua was talking about having sex or how angry he was getting at him or the distance he's been keeping between them. His chest hurts. He wanted to hug Killua and keep him from leaving but Killua said he didn't want to touch and that he didn't want Gon telling him what to do. Because he's grown up.

Gon's eyebrows furrow. I'm getting to be a grown up. I'll defeat this sickness and then i'll be able to explain to you what I'm feeling. I want to walk on your level so...you don't leave me behind like you just did.

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"I really see it now. He's really jealous of you." Leorio says after he's kicked the two boys out, walking back to Kurapika who's nodding slightly. "I saw that look on his face."

"Yeah. I can tell he's worried about what's going to happen when I 'confess' to Gon. He doesn't like Gon showing me any Kindness though he should know it's just out of friendship." Kurapika sighs. "Also he seemed tense before Gon even said anything to me."

"Yeah I noticed it too. Killua was keeping his distance from Gon and something felt off. You think they had another fight?"

"I'm not sure. It's possible." Kurapika closes his eyes, thinking. "I can't do much as I am now. We should just play it ear by ear. If an opportunity comes up we'll try to help them but I think i'm going to have to rely on you Leorio. Killua will just get angry the more I try to butt in. I told him I would back off till I confess, which will be tonight."

"I'll try to get them in a better mood." Leorio gives Kurapika a look. "I think you should hold off on this confessing thing till you're able to move well. I don't want you defensiveness facing a pissed off Killua."

"Don't worry. I can feel my body slowly defrosting. I'll be able to move again soon." Kurapika's eyes shift as Leorio gets closer to him.

"If you say so." Leorio starts digging in their dresser. He pulls out his black trunks before pulling out Kurapika's red bathing suit. The blonde glances away when Leorio starts to get undressed, his cheeks coloring slightly. Shameless. "Alright now lets get you ready." Kurapika tenses when he feels Leorio's hands on the edge of his pants.

"I-I don't need a bathing suit I can just wear this." Kurapika's heart is beating too fast, his face getting redder at feeling Leorio's large hands on his waist.

"You'll look stupid getting in the pool with your pants on. Don't worry, there's nothing for you to be embarrassed about. I'm just going to take off your pants and slide your trunks on. I'll keep my eyes on your face if that will make you feel better but we are both men here. What do you got to hide?" Leorio's voice is playful, getting Kurapika to feel both irritated and flushed. If he could move he would slap him.

"Nothing. Just hurry up and do it." Kurapika closes his eyes, his eyebrows furrowed in his glare, making sure to show how displeased he is with this. He can feel his face Is hot though.

"Okay, okay." Leorio chuckles, his laugh warm and it touches his heart. He's been feeling so cold. Sleeping had been a hell in itself. He couldn't escape his nightmare, or the smell of rotting flesh. When he woke up, he felt sick. He wanted to just curl up and stay under the covers but Leorio brought him back to reality. He was kind and took care of him this morning when Kurapika still couldn't do anything for himself.

Kurapika's heart skips a beat when Leorio's hands slide down his body, taking his pants with him. He squeezes his eyelids tighter, feeling himself being exposed by his friend and secret love is hard to handle. He dare not open his eyes. Kurapika keeps his breathing in check as Leorio lifts up his body and starts to slide on the trunks with some difficultly. He's going awfully slow. If feels like forever has gone by before Kurapika is finally covered again. He knows his face is a dark red.

"See? Not so bad." Leorio's voice sounds strange so Kurapika opens his eyes to look at his friend. Leorio has his back to him, the tips of his ears red. "Now you won't look stupid at the pool."

"I suppose." Kurapika can't help to note how Leorio shifts his shoulders. Did he get flustered changing me? I suppose I understand that. I'd be embarrassed if I had to change him. But his blush is reaching his ears...

"And your stomach doesn't look as bad as it did last night." Leorio glances back at him, the blush gone, he's going back to doctor mode. "It's still dark though. Are you in pain?"

"As I said this morning, no. I'm not in pain."

"Do you want to wear a shirt to cover it up?"

"Yes. I don't want people staring at me and asking me unnecessary questions." Kurapika sighs when he knows that Leorio's going to have to dress him again. The older male grabs a white t-shirt before putting it over Kurapika's head. The doctor has to fight with him, lifting his arms himself to put through the holes. It takes awhile, and Kurapika can see his eye is starting to twitch in irritation. He doesn't complain though. He sighs in relief when he finally gets the shirt on him.

"There, you're all ready."

"...I'm sorry for the trouble Leorio. I'll be able to move soon so you won't have to be bothered with this."

"I'm not bothered." Leorio says quickly, giving Kurapika a gentle smile. "You're my best friend. It's no trouble at all. You don't have to feel bad about this. I'm actually kind of relieved. Maybe it's not by choice but you're finally letting me help you in some way." Leorio scratches the back of his head, glancing away. "...And it makes me happy."

Kurapika's chest feels warm, his eyes widening slightly by his friend's words. Some times I wish I could lean on you more Leorio but it's not something I can do. Not when I'm sick. I'm sick in the head, a murderer. I killed someone out of cold blood. Your kindness makes me happy but it's slowly bringing me to my grave. My guilt like chains bringing me down. He can still hear the leader's silky voice mocking him.

"His name was Sam."

"Kurapika? Are you alright? You got really pale all of a sudden." Kurapika blinks. Leorio is leaning over him, a frown on his face. He reaches out touching Kurapika's cheek, before touching his forehead. "You're chilled! Are you sure you're okay to go swimming? You don't have to force yourself Kurapika."

"I'm okay. I want to get out of bed." Kurapika takes deep breaths. My dreams aren't safe. I don't want to close my eyes anymore. I want to spend time with you. I want to forget what I am.

"..Alright. I'm going to help you out of bed now." Leorio wraps his arm around his shoulder, hooking his arm under Kurapika's armpit and wrapping his other arm around his thigh. He pulls him so that Kurapika is sitting on the edge of the bed, his feet dangling. Leorio gives him an apologetic look as he picks Kurapika up, holding him like a baby against his chest.

"This is embarrassing." Kurapika's face heats up, feeling irritated that he can't walk.

"It'll be fine. It's a nice day out so I bet the pool won't be too crowded." Leorio gives him a smile. Brown eyes lock with gray. The two males stare at each other for a moment, their bare skin against each other, making Kurapika aware of how intimate this is. Kurapika's in the hands of Leorio. He can't do anything for himself. He's relying on his best friend. Leorio is his legs and his arms. Kurapika wishes he could move his head. He wishes he could hide because he can't control his coloring cheeks or how fast his heart is beating. "So it'll be okay..." Kurapika can feel Leorio's grip on his thigh tighten. There's a tension in the air as Leorio stares at him, his skin feels warmer against his.

"Leorio." Kurapika says trying to break this feeling. He has the urge to warp his arms around his neck, to kiss him but he can't move right now. The doctor's eyebrows furrow and he opens his mouth to say something-

"Leorio, Kurapika! I need help." Gon's voice breaks through the moment and stops Leorio from saying whatever he was about to say. The two older males blink at each other before looking towards the hotel door that's being banging on.

"I'm coming Gon." Leorio places Kurapika down on the edge of the bed gently before walking over and opening the door for the younger male. Kurapika watches as Gon comes into the room, closing the door behind him, a troubled look on his face. Those amber eyes are burning with a fire though.

"What's wrong Gon?" Kurapika asks his friend, noting Killua isn't with him.

"is it possible for me to make the sickness worse?" Gon looks at Leorio, a frown on his lips.

"Sickness?..." Leorio blinks before his eyes light in realization. "Why do you ask?"

"Because I did what you said to do and I took care of it when I got hard. When I took care of it, a bunch of white stuff came out." Gon speaks shamelessly, Kurapika's face heating up from the subject matter. "Was that the infection? But anyway after I did it I felt really good and tired like I told you when you checked up on me but when I looked at Killua after I did that I felt even sicker. Like I wanted to touch him more than before. I ended up taking care of it tomorrow night again and more white stuff came out! While I was doing it I started thinking of Killua and I thought that was strange but it feels really amazing and I like to do it but I'm just worried that by taking care of it I'm making it worse."

Leorio just stares at Gon, his eyes wide before he composes himself, coughing into his hand. "Um that white stuff isn't infection Gon. It's semen. It's what comes out after you've released a certain amount of tension. It's what gets the woman pregnant when you have sex. It's completely normal. To answer your other question, you're not making the sickness worse, you're understanding it better. Like I told you, when it gets hard that means you want to do sexual things. You told me you think of Killua...while doing it yes?" Kurapika's impressed by how he's keeping a straight face. Leorio is speaking like a true doctor and yet he has the patience of a kind father.

"Yeah..." Gon flushes slightly, his eyebrows furrowed. "So that means...I want to do sexual things to Killua? Is it because of this illness? Is it normal for me to want to do that? Because even now I want to be closer to Killua and the more he touches me the more likely I am to get hard. I really like touching it though and thinking of Killua. It feels amazing. So I'm not hurting anything by doing that?"

"Ah...No." Leorio flushes slightly. "Now Gon this illness isn't making you have these feelings. It's your own heart. It's natural to want to be closer to someone that you like."

"My heart is making me want to do sexual things to Killua? And to get closer to him?" Gon puts a hand on his chest, thinking hard. "Sex is done by two people who like each other a lot. I was taught that sex is for people who are in love. At least it should be." Gon's eyes get glossed over before he looks at Leorio. "So am I not normal for wanting to do things with Killua? He's my best friend..."

"Maybe he's more than that." Leorio glances over at Kurapika. "Maybe you like him a little bit more than that Gon. This sickness has a name. Have you figured it out yet?"

"...It has a name?" Gon crosses his arms. He's in deep thought. "I like him a bit more?...You know when you say 'like'...it reminds me of a conversation me and Killua had when we first got here. He was trying to explain to me the difference between liking a friend and romantically liking someone. I had trouble because what Killua was saying for romantically liking someone, I felt for him. I want to be with him all the time, I care about him, I love the person he is and I think he's amazing. Now I want to do sexual things with him though I don't understand it really. I just want to be closer..." Gon looks up at Leorio and he frowns. "Do you think I...romantically like Killua?"

Leorio and Kurapika exchange a look, soon big smiles cross their lips, not able to hold it in. Kurapika can't stop his gushing a little bit. That was just too cute. Gon's adorable. He'll have to forget all the other stuff he said about pleasuring himself but still he's just too innocence.

"Exactly!" Leorio cheers, patting Gon on the shoulder. "You romantically like Killua. That's what this sickness is Gon. It's love. That's why you've been feeling strange when Killua touches you or when he smiles. It's because you're in love with him. Do you get it now?"

"...I think so." Gon's eyes light up in realization and his face becomes red. He puts a hand on his heart. "Wow...I'm in love with Killua!" Gon shouts, his eyes lighting up in happiness. "I"ve figured the sickness out! I'm a grown up! I already found Love! Even before Killua!-" Gon frowns, his shoulders slumping. Kurapika frowns watching Gon turn from excited to put off. "I don't think Killua likes me romantically though. And love isn't as I thought it would be. It kind of hurts."

"What do you mean?" Kurapika frowns at the change in his friend.

"Killua told me he doesn't want us touching anymore. And he left to go to the pool without me to look for girls to do stuff with." Gon frowns deeply, his eyebrows furrowing. There's conflicting emotions fighting it out, being shown in those amber orbs. "He's been getting irritated at me too. When he left me alone to go by himself to the pool, my chest hurt. It makes me feel a little strange too thinking Killua is just going to find a girl he doesn't know and do intimate things to."

"Love can be painful." Kurapika's eyes get glossed over before he focuses on Gon. Don't think about my situation. Think about his. Why would Killua suddenly not want Gon to touch him anymore? Killua's obviously not interested in Girls. He's interested in Gon so the fact he's doing this tells me he's trying to make Gon jealous. Interestingly enough it seems to be working though Gon's still working out his feelings. "The ones we love have the power to bring us up or the power to destroy us."

"Mito-san always did tell me love is the most powerful thing there is." Gon closes his eyes in his smile, thinking of his aunt before he frowns again, opening his eyes. "Because Killua's so close to me it hurts when he goes off without me and calls me names. It also kind of hurt him saying he didn't want to touch anymore. Maybe he could sense my feelings after he touched me last night and he didn't like it?"

"I don't think that's it. Could you tell us what exactly happened last night? That way we can better understand the situation." Kurapika watches as his friend shifts a little but he locks eye with him, those eyes not holding anything back. Gon really wears his heart out on his sleeve and never holds back. Those eyes are the eyes of honesty.

"Last night I started feeling sick when Killua got in bed with me. I really wanted to touch him. And since I was still exploring what the sickness is I wanted to make myself sick. Killua let me touch him. I touched his chest which made me sick but then Killua said he wanted to touch me. I got really sick then. Especially when he was giving me a good night kiss." Gon tilts his head, pointing to the scab on his neck. Kurapika's eyes widen and his face flushes. "It felt really good but then Killua bit down really hard all of sudden. He seemed really worried and upset about it. I wanted to make him feel better so I gave him a good night kiss in return and bit him. All of this made me hard so I went to the bathroom to take care of it. When I came back Killua seemed different. He kept moving away from me when I got close. I knew something was wrong but he wouldn't tell me. Then he started to yell at me and call me names. I guess he felt bad because then he told me he didn't like us touching." Gon frowns after he gets done explaining.

Leorio and Kurapika exchange a look. The blonde's sure that Leorio caught that too. Killua went a little far last night. Knowing the ex-assassin he probably felt bad for his actions. He lied to Gon and called kissing on the neck a good night kiss. Gon being as innocent as he is, didn't see what Killua was doing was strange. Maybe it was Gon touching Killua first that made him lose control? If Leorio was touching his chest, touching him first...It would be hard for Kurapika to hold back. Killua's love is very deep and possessive. It's been hidden for a long time too. He probably told Gon he didn't want them touching just to help stop himself from doing anything to Gon. He's still trying to hide his feelings instead of being up front about them. Gon understands his feelings now but Killua's still being tricky about it. Instead of confessing he's distancing himself from Gon and making him feel bad.

Kurapika frowns, feeling displeased with the ex-assassin. You're probably saying you want to do stuff with girls just to cover your feelings more. It isn't right. Kurapika can tell that Gon's hurt. The poor boy is confused and Killua has to go and be mean to him. The raven haired male still seems unsure, even though he understands what his sickness is now, those amber eyes shifting as he thinks.

"I love Killua..." Gon's eyes light up, he looks down at his shoes, a small smile on his lips. Kurapika feels his heart sink. It's a sad smile. How is it possible? He looks both happy and sad at the same time. "Ne i'm pretty stupid. It shouldn't have taken me this long to figure out. I just didn't realize it because I thought it was enough that Killua was with me." Gon glances at his friends. "What should I do? I don't know the next course of action. Killua's a man so...is romance different between a man and a man? Also like I said I don't think Killua likes men and I don't think he likes me. My touches make him uncomfortable and he wants to find a woman..."
"Gon." Kurapika wishes he could get up. He wishes he could wrap his arms around this sweet boy. It's hard to just lay here and watch. Kurapika knows how Gon feels. He knows exactly how he feels. The pain of knowing your love wants something other than you. It's a lie though Gon. I know the truth. "Killua's-"

"It's okay." Gon suddenly beams, that sad look gone from his eyes, taking the two older males aback. "If Killua doesn't like me touching him and he wants to find a woman, I won't stop him. As long as he stays by my side and doesn't leave than I don't mind. He's grown up and I can't tell him not to. I just want him to be happy...but I don't want him to leave my side. I've always been okay with just this. It hurts but it hurts more when Killua's angry with me. I'm just understanding these feelings for him so it's okay. Killua has always gone along with what I want so...for once i'll go along with what he wants. He's always had my back so now it's time for me to have his back." Gon grips his fist. "I've always been selfish so...I'll do whatever I can to help Killua find someone he'll be happy with."

Kurapika's vision gets blurry. He can't even wipe his eyes. He really wishes he could. Gon's love for Killua...is so pure. It's in the purest form. Gon understands that it hurts him. He understands that Killua will get mad if he tries to tell him what to do. He understands that if Killua finds a woman he'll never be with him but he wants Killua to be happy. He'll push aside his wants for Killua's being.

I wish I could be like you Gon. I wish I could accept and be a part of Leorio's love life. I get so angry but here you are. You're truly one of a kind.

"Gon, Killua isn't going to be happy with some woman." Leorio butts in, those brown orbs of his look a little glossy. He does what Kurapika couldn't do. He wraps his arms around the younger male, squeezing him tight. "Stupid! I bet you that's not what he really wants." Leorio gives Kurapika a look. The blonde knows he's on the verge of just telling Gon Killua's in love with him. "And what about you and your feelings? Are you just going to let some else have him?"

"I don't want someone else to have him. It makes me feel bad but I want Killua to be happy more. It's hard to explain. But Killua's never really wanted anything from me all this time. He's never asked me for anything. He just goes along with whatever i'm doing, fighting with me, doing things to help me get closer to finding Ging. So if Killua wants a woman...if he doesn't want me then for once I'll have to back him up even if it hurts. Because he's my best friend." Gon smiles before his eye brows furrow.

"So what? You'll just move on? Forget you love him?" Leorio presses on.

"No I don't think I could forget that I love Killua. Because I could never forget about Killua or all the times we've shared. As long as I remember Killua...I know I'll remember the love I have for him." Gon's so honest, those eyes lighting up a bit. "This has been growing for years now. It's just gotten to the point were I realized something was different. I think as long as I live i'll love Killua. The way I feel around him and how happy I am when we just talk together or play games tells it all. Just because he loves someone else doesn't mean I have to stop loving him."

Leorio sniffles a bit. "God you're so..." He tightens his grip on the younger male. "When he finds a woman he'll want to start a family. What if he wants to leave you to be with this woman?"

"That's when I'd be selfish." Gon shakes his head. "Letting Killua have his love is one thing but...I don't think I could handle Killua leaving me too. I'd follow him. He won't be able to shake me off. Killua can get mad at me but I wouldn't leave. Even before I knew I love him I would have been the same. Killua can love someone else but I still want to be able to play with him and be by his side. I want to still have those nights where we stay up and talk all night or those times when we rough house. If Killua wanted to take everything away...i'd be selfish. He'd have to kill me to get rid of me."

Kurapika's eyebrows furrow, knowing all that Gon says is true. It makes sense really. Gon and Killua's love is deep. Killua is Gon's first friend. They've been together since they were 12. They've been in life or death situations together. They've done everything together for the past 5 years. The bond they have runs deep. If Killua were to leave Gon, the blonde has no doubt in his mind that Gon would follow him. He's stubborn and understands what he wants and what he feels. If Gon left Killua on the other hand, the blonde feels like Killua would leave him alone but sink into a deep depression.

Gon's love is different then Killua's. Killua's love is possessive, defined, and powerful. Gon's love is pure, undeveloped and powerful. The love they both have is deep and powerful. Gon's honest with his feelings while Killua's trying to hide it away.

"Gon you don't even have to worry about all that alright?" Leorio's caving in. Should we just tell him Killua's feelings? Would it help? Would it push them together? Would Gon believe it?

"Killua's in love with you Gon." Kurapika bites his lip. Leorio gives him a surprised look. I'm sorry. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. "He's not into finding a woman. He's interested in you but he's too afraid to admit it. He's just trying to make you jealous. I can prove it."

Gon gets quiet for a moment. Kurapika's words sinking in before he tilts his head. "You think Killua's in love with me? But he doesn't want me touching him."

"It's a cover Gon. What he did to you last night isn't normal. He kissed your neck. That's something you do with someone you romantically like."

Gon's eyes widen, his eyes lighting up in hope. "Really?" Gon feels on his neck, a smile turning his lisp before he blinks. "Ne Killua called it a good night kiss...so does that mean he was lying to me?"

"yes because he didn't want you to know what he did. He wanted to touch you because he likes you Gon. He most likely felt bad about it after he bit you. He doesn't want you two touching because the more you touch the harder it is for him to hold back." Kurapika can't stop now. He doesn't like seeing his friend upset when he doesn't have to be. There's a happy ending just waiting for Gon, and Kurapika's the one who's being impatient.

"Killua thinks I'm stupid...well I don't know much about this stuff." Gon mumbles as he touches his neck. "But this means he likes me back...but he's being mean to hide it." Gon pouts. "That's no fair! Why didn't he just tell me?"

"Because he's worried you won't want to be his friend anymore. He doesn't know you love him in return."

"...I can finally call Killua stupid." Gon grins, his eyes so bright Kurapika almost has to look away. "I'd never want to stop being his friend. He should know that!"

"So now that you know, what are you going to do?" Leorio looks at Gon.

"Hmm...i'm not sure. I'm really happy to hear you say that but...I haven't heard it from Killua. I want him to say it." Gon smiles, he looks all giddy now. "What should I do? Should I ask Killua to go on a date with me? Two men still go on dates right? Are dates the same as they are with women?" Gon stops in his excited rant to think. "Or maybe I should try to get him to come to me? What do you guys think?"

"I think we should fight fire with fire right now." Leorio grins. "If Killua wants to be nasty we can be nasty right back! Gon you should stay in the hot tub with Kurapika."

The blonde's eyes widen and he smirks slightly. Yes. That will make Killua jealous but...will Killua come closer or will he leave angry?

"maybe we should just go down to the pool and see how Killua is. We'll play it ear by ear. Do what you think is best Gon and we'll back you up." Kurapika closes his eyes. "To be honest with you we knew about your feelings and Killua's feelings for a couple of days now-"

"You guys knew that long before I did?" Gon's eyes widen before he grabs his head. "ne I was really behind."

"It's alright Gon. You've never experienced something like this." Kurapika smiles gently. "Please forgive us for not telling you but we wanted you to figure it out for yourself. We've been trying to push you in the right direction."

"I see...like Leorio telling me about the sickness and how I need to understand it to grow up. And that I have to take care of it when I get hard." Gon nods before he smiles at his friends. "Thanks for not telling me. I feel like I get it better now after I've explored a little bit."

"I've also been working on Killua. He gets jealous when I'm around you because he thinks I like you."

'Really?" Gon blinks. "Why does he thinks that?"

"Just from me staring at you and from me telling him that I do." Kurapika's eyes shift away.

"SO Killua's gotten jealous too." Gon smiles before he chuckles. "This is great! Kurapika can you tell me what I should do? Since i'm gay do I do something special?"

"No Gon you keep doing what you're doing." Kurapika chuckles sightly at his friend and his optimism. He has no restraint by social norms. Despite everything he's really happy finding out about his feelings and Killua's. Kurapika knows that Gon wants to get Killua to admit it though.

"I have an idea. You should make Killua want to get closer to you. Make him lose it." Leorio suddenly grins, he was thinking to himself.

"How do I do that?" Gon tilts his head.

"Killua thinks you're attractive Gon and you're going to be shirtless...I don't know just do something sexy." Leorio seems more bashful saying his plan.

"What should I do that's sexy?" Gon frowns, looking confused.

"I don't know just think of what you find attractive about Killua and then use it against him!" Leorio doesn't seem as confident as he was.

"Hmm..." Gon thinks hard to himself.

"Lets head down to the pool. Killua's waiting down there for us." Kurapika glances at Gon. "could you carry me down to the pool?" that way I can gauge if Killua will do something or he'll run off. Leorio frowns slightly but the blonde doesn't pay him any mind. We're so close.

"Sure!" Gon smiles before he grabs Kurapika, holding him against his chest. Kurapika sighs, not liking how he has to be carried but he doesn't mind if this will help his friends.

"Fine lets go." Leorio grumbles. He seems a little put off but at the same time a smile starts to form on his lips. This is where it gets Interesting. Gon knows his feelings, so all that's left is getting Killua to admit his.

Kurapika smiles to himself. In this moment he's away from his nightmare. In this moment he's forgotten the blood that stains his hands.

In this moment with Leorio and Gon, he is happy.

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"Stupid Gon." Killua mumbles to himself, his eyes dark as he marches himself down the stairs and towards the ground floor where he knows the pool is. "Boasting about all the dates he's been on, all the stuff he's done with those women. I don't care." I really do care. "Shameless, stupid Gon." I'm the stupid one.

Killua grips his fist, grinding his teeth slightly. I know I'm pissed because I'm jealous. I'm pissed because I'm pathetic. Telling Gon I want to find some girl to bang just to try to make him jealous. How sad is that? Gon doesn't even have feelings for him but he hated watching Gon and Kurapika exchange smiles. He was jealous then. He wanted to get Gon back for it. How sad he is. How stupid. All he did was yell at Gon and say things that he didn't mean.

I don't like knowing about the dates you've been on. I don't like seeing you smile at Kurapika. Killua calms down when he thinks about last night, his heart thudding slowly. I'm really... He remembers Gon's hurt tone after he had called him empty headed and his disappointment this morning when he turned down the morning kiss...pathetic.

All I'm doing is making Gon feel bad. Why am I doing this? Why can't I just get over myself? Killua's anger dulls down till he feels nothing but his guilt and shame. I'm the one who lost it last night, i'm the one who's jealous so why am I pushing these feelings on Gon? Am I trying to bring him down with me? I was mean to him last night...and mean to him today. What kind of friend am I?

Killua wants to scream. He wants to destroy something. He can feel his blood lust in the back of his mind boil but really he feels like hiding in a hole somewhere and never coming out. But of course he would have to come out. Because he couldn't be without Gon.

Ughh why is everything so complicated. Or more so why am I so complicated?

Killua sulks into the pool area, his eye twitching when he hears a couple of annoying giggles coming from the pool and splashes following. He grumps over to the bar, passing the pool. He takes note that there's some couples who are playing around in the pool together( he doesn't look at them for very long). A couple of the women look over at him for a moment before focusing on their man. Killua just feels more pissed off.

Killua sits at the bar, he can feel all the bad feelings just radiating off of him. Even if their were single women here Killua wouldn't be interested. He doesn't give a rats ass about finding a woman or doing dirty things to her. Killua only wants to do dirty things to Gon. He only wants to have sex with Gon. He only wants to be with Gon.

Killua glares over at the bar tender who seems to be purposely ignoring him. "Hey over here." Killua hits his fist on the table. The ex-assassin feels like drinking. He needs something right now. He just doesn't know what to do with himself. He feels tense, irritated and pissed. At the same time he just feels like shit.

"...Can I help you sir?" the bartender comes towards him, frowning slightly. She was hesitant to come over.

"Get me a pina colada." Killua grumbles. Don't judge, he loves anything sweet. Honestly he's half tempted to run back up to his room and gorge himself in chocolate, just drown all his feelings in it. So this will have to do.

"Can I see your ID s-sir?" The woman's voice trembles at the end when Killua glares at her. The ex-assassin shows her his hunter license, knowing it doesn't count but he really doesn't care at this point. He gives her a dark look letting her know he's not feeling it right now. "O-Okay." The girl moves away and talks to a man behind the counter with her. He glances over, seeing the license and the look on Killua's face, he nods. She gets to work on his pina colada.

Killua lays his head on the bar table, groaning to himself. His head hurts. He just doesn't know what to do. Gon right now thinks he's down here to find someone to date, more so he thinks he's looking for someone to bang. I don't know why I said that. It was a stupid attempt to make him jealous. Now what do I do? Just play it off like I never said it?

"Poor thing. You having troubles with your wife?" Killua's eye twitches, he looks next to him at an older woman who has a glass of wine. There's a flirty look to her eye. "My you're a young one-"

"Piss off old hag I'm not interested." Killua snaps. The older woman glares darkly before slapping him across the face and leaving. Killua growls, rubbing his cheek. Damn it I could have at least tried there so when Gon came it looked like I was actually trying to find someone but...Killua hits his head on the table. I don't feel like it. I don't feel like acting like I'm into some old hag just to keep the lie alive. I'll just tell him everyone is taken here.

"Your pina colada." The bartender places the large glass in front of Killua. It has a little umbrella in it. She moves away quickly. Good. Killua glances over at the entrance when the door opens. He scowls when it isn't Gon. What's taking him so long? Great now I'm worried. Why didn't Gon come right after me? What's he doing? Killua glares at his pina colada before he takes it and chugs it all down, ignoring the brain freeze he gets.

...I need to get myself together. This is ridiculous. Gon hasn't done anything wrong. I'm the one who's in the wrong. I told Gon I didn't want to touch...and now i'm distancing myself from him. Yet I want Gon to try to break the space. I still want him to touch me. I wanted to give him a morning kiss and I wanted him to give me one. I wanted to wake up with him in my arms. What I want and what I say is two different things. Why do I expect you to know that Gon? It's stupid.

It makes me crazy though, thinking about those women you dated. I haven't kissed anyone. I've never went on a date before. It's always been you. I've only wanted to be with you. I want to kiss you. I want you to be my first. It makes me so angry thinking that one of those old bags has taken your first kiss. It drives me crazy thinking about all those lucky women.

It drives me crazy thinking of Kurapika's feelings towards you. It makes me want to just steal you away and hide you off somewhere. Last night, thinking about Kurapika caused me to bite down and hurt Gon. I get so possessive of you...

"Aww that's so cute!"

"I didn't know there was a gay couple here! They're adorable!"

Killua looks up when there's a commotion behind him in the pool. He looks up, going to glance at this 'gay' couple in silent jealousy only for his eyes to widen. His blood turns cold, his face turning pale as he takes in the sight before him with shock. The 'gay couple' these people are talking about are no other then Gon and Kurapika. Gon is holding the blonde against his chest, a goofy smile on his face as he chats away.

The cold shock soon turns to anger when he realizes that the people behind them are still calling them a couple and he takes in how Kurapika smiles at Gon. Killua grips the glass he's holding, not noticing he completely shatters it, his eyes locked on his love holding the blonde in his arms. What the hell is this?! As soon as I leave Gon goes to Kurapika? Why is he carrying him? Couldn't Leorio have done that? Killua feels hot under the collar the more he hears the word 'couple' get thrown behind him. They're not together. That Kurta is using his weakness to get Gon's attention. That attention whore son of a bitch!

Killua stands up from his seat, the stool making a screeching sound as it's pushed back. It seems like time has slowed down as Gon slowly turns his head, those amber eyes meeting purple. Killua feels his heart skip a beat, his look of anger falling immediately. Gon stares at him with a sort of confusion, those eyes filled with an emotion that Killua's never seen before. Gon glances down at his hand before he frowns, looking back up to meet with Killua. He blinks once more before he glances down at Kurapika, his eyes light with realization. "OH!" all this happens in a second but to Killua it took forever. The anger had faded from his face as soon as Gon saw him. Those amber eyes bring him to his senses if just for a moment. Killua did not expect what Gon does next though.

The raven haired male drops Kurapika. The blonde makes a surprised squeak as he lands hard on his butt, his face changing to a wince. "A-Ah sorry Kurapika I forgot you couldn't stand." Gon gets on his knees next to Kurapika, frowning deeply, flustered.

"Gon what the hell!" Leorio comes in the room, carrying towels and such. He glares at the younger male.

"It's okay Leorio, Gon didn't mean to." Kurapika smiles at Gon. Killua who had been watching from the side lines couldn't help to chuckle darkly when the blonde had been dropped. A sort of satisfaction being taken from that. but soon he feels his blood boil again when he sees Gon's concern and how Kurapika smiles at him.

"Could you carry me to the hot tub Gon?"

"Yeah sure." Gon smiles sheepishly before he picks the blonde back up and carries him over to the hot tub. Leorio follows behind them grumbling about something. Killua breathes in and out, trying to calm himself down before he goes over there and causes a scene. Killua winces when he grips his right fist. He looks down seeing a couple of cuts on his hand, his blood on the table. The ex-assassin blinks...I didn't even know I did this...Is this what made Gon drop Kurapika? He saw my hand? Killua stuffs his hand into his trunk's pocket, knowing soon enough Gon will be asking him about it if he saw it.

The ex-assassin glances over at Gon only to tense when he sees the raven haired male is staring at him, those amber eyes look like he's studying him. He looks in deep thought.

"Tsk." Killua glares off to the side, not understanding why he did it right after doing it. I'm acting like a spoiled brat. I'm acting this way towards him but I still want him to come over to me? I should go over to him...Killua doesn't move though.

"Hey Killua." Gon runs over to him, smiling brightly like they never had a fight. Killua tries not to take in his sun-kissed skin as Gon stops right in front of him. "Let's go swimming together Killua!" Gon reaches out to grab his hand only to stop himself. He frowns slightly, pulling his hand away before smiling again. The action makes Killua feel really guilty and disappointed. Gon would have held my hand if not for yesterday.

"Sure." Killua grunts, trying to keep his indifferent expression as Gon beams at him and rushes off to the end of the pool, towards the deep end.

"On the count of three lets jump in." Gon grins at Killua, those eyes too bright. Despite how awful he was just feeling Killua can feel the makings of a smile coming to his lips. Gon's smile is contagious, especially when he's smiling at me. "One, two...three!" Gon chuckles as he jumps in, Killua jumping right after him, keeping his hands in his pockets.

The ex-assassin lets the cold water take him over as he slowly sinks to the bottom. He waits to his feet touch before he uses the floor to jump back up to the surface, still not taking his hands out of his pockets. He shakes his hair and the water out of his face as he keeps himself up by paddling his feet. Gon's the second to come up, his hair down a little from being wet. Killua blinks when Gon gets this weird look in his eyes before he goes back under. Killua's about to take his hands out of his pockets when he's yanked under water. Killua glares into the water, seeing Gon swimming up to the surface, a smile on his face. The ex-assassin swims up after him quickly, using both of his hands now.

"You're going to get it Gon." Killua says once he comes out of the water. Gon's giggling, swimming away from him already. Killua can feel his lips tug up as he swims after his friend, a mischievous look in his eyes as he uses the wall from the side to propel toward Gon, pushing him down in the water with a triumphant grin. That soon falls when Gon grabs him by the waist and pulls him back underwater. The two teenagers tussle it out underwater, they roll around, one trying to reach the surface before the other. Gon lets him go when Killua's face started to turn purple and he rushes up to get air. Curse Gon's lung capability!

"Haha I win." Gon chuckles when he comes up from the surface only to get dunked by Killua in response, a cat like smile on his lips.

"No it looks like I win." Killua can't help to chuckle at the look his friend gives him when he comes back up.

"Ne my mouth was open Killua!" Gon whines which only gets the ex-assassin to laugh more. "I'll get you back!" Gon starts to swim after him, the ex-assassin quick to swim away, his chest light in his laughter.

"Catch me if you can Gon!" Killua coos back as his friend, his smile playful. After Killua reaches the touchable end of the pool he realizes something. Gon has completely destroyed the space he had put up. Not only that but they're playing together like nothing happened. Killua's able to laugh and feel happy when just a moment ago he was hating himself. Gon's amazing...

Just as Killua is thinking about all this Gon catches up to him. The raven haired male jumps up on his back, chuckling as he leans back, taking both of them underwater. Killua can feel his face flush with Gon's legs around his waist and his arms around his shoulders. He quickly lets go though to get up to the surface. Killua comes up after him, sporting an annoyed look.

"I mind as well give up now you'd never let me have the last dunk or you'd have a fit." Killua grunts but he feels his smile on his lips.

"Ne so I win?" Gon gives him a goofy smile as he doggy paddles around Killua. Damn he's cute. Killua just wants to pull him under the water and kiss him. Killua puts a finger on top of Gon's head before he pushes him down, chuckling with how easy it was.

"Nope."

"Killuaa." Gon pouts coming up before he tries to jump him. The ex-assassin quickly moving out of the way. "You said you gave up."

"I lied." Killua smirks. "Lets take a break from this Gon and just swim around."

"you're just saying that because you have the last dunk." Gon glares before he starts to swim around, going under to do a hand stand underwater before doing a flip. "I love the pool." Gon comes up, smiling brilliantly.

"Me too." I love you.

"So hows it going with the lady search?" Gon keeps swimming around him, Killua's face twitches. He felt it.

"Ah all these people are taken." Killua grunts, shaking his head. I don't want them. I want you.

"Oh that's a shame." Gon smiles oddly before he stands up in the pool, the water dripping off his toned body making it hard for Killua not to stare. "Killua do you want to play a game I use to play with Mito-san when we swam in the ocean?"

"Sure." Killua relaxes, glad that Gon's changing the subject. He made a mistake in saying that.

"Okay hold me in your arms." Gon smiles at his friend like what he just said was normal.

"W-What?" Killua flushes, his eyes widening when Gon jumps at him, the ex-assassin has to fight the urge of punching him away from his reflexes of his old job and instead listens to his other instinct that moves his body to quickly catch Gon. The raven haired male smiles as he wraps his arms around Killua's neck.

Killua stares at Gon, his mouth going dry, his heart beating so fast. I'm holding Gon in my arms...his bare skin is against mine. Gon's smile is too bright. I'm on fire.

"You caught me!" Gon cheers.

"It's not like I had a choice idiot you were coming right at me!" Killua's face gets red as he glares away from his friend, his heart skipping a beat at how he beams. "How is this a part of the game?"

"You'll see." Gon winks, getting Killua's heart to do an annoying flutter. "Now get in the water with me in your arms." Killua listens to his friend, getting on his knees so the water comes up to his chest and up half Gon's body.

"Now what?" Killua raises his eyebrow.

"Now think of a color. Once you have one i'll have to guess what it is. If I guess wrong you have to dunk me underwater but you keep me in your arms. When I guess right you flip me." Gon giggles. "It was so fun to play when I was younger."

"This sounds like it's going to be only fun for me." Killua smirks at him before he closes his eyes, thinking of a color. The first color that comes to mind is green. "Alright I got my color."

"Blue?" Gon smiles only for Killua to smirk as he dunks him under the water, pulling him back up. Gon sniffles from the water being in his nose, a cute pout on his lips. Killua can feel his body reacting to him. He feels warm in this water and he's very aware of his arm that's under Gon's thighs. "Red?"

"Wrong~" Killua sings as he dunks Gon again, chuckling when Gon gives him a determined look, that pout too adorable.

"Purple?" Gon says the color purple with warmth. The smirk falling from Killua's lips as he finds himself very close to Gon's face. Those amber eyes are staring at him, looking at him with admiration. He's looking into his eyes. The way he said purple, it rolled off his tongue like he was claiming a masterpiece. Killua feels his face flush and his lips twitch. Killua feels himself move closer, their noses almost touching.

He grins. "Wrong!" And he dunks him, ruining that moment. That was too close. I almost kissed him. Gon's too cute for his own good. This is why I said we shouldn't touch anymore. I can't control myself when it comes to you Gon!

"Ne I thought I got that one right." Gon whines as he's pulled up again. He thinks for a moment before looking at Killua. "Green?"

"Bingo!" Killua smirks as he flips Gon in the water, letting him go. "You're right Gon that was fun." He chuckles at the look Gon gives him only for that look to turn into a grin.

"Ne now it's your turn Killua! Jump in my arms!"

"What? I'm not playing that game." Killua stiffens when Gon opens up his arms, smiling, waiting patiently.

"Why not? You got to dunk me a bunch of times now it's your turn!"

"This is just a trick of yours to get the last dunk!"

"Killua please?" Gon tilts his head, giving him those puppy dogs eyes. Well damn.

"...Fine." Killua grumbles, giving in like he always does. Killua keeps an irritated look on his face to hide what he's really feeling as he jumps towards Gon. The raven haired male catches him with ease, pulling him against his muscular chest. Killua feels himself warm at feeling Gon's hands hold him. Killua slowly wraps his arms around Gon's neck, in a strange way it doesn't feel awkward to him. He doesn't mind Gon holding him like this. He liked holding Gon more but this is okay too. He gets to feel his muscles and feel his warm body...

Gon gets down on his knees before he stares at Killua for a moment. The ex-assassin feels his heart thud slowly, resisting any urge he has of destroying the gap between them. This is intimate. They're bare chests pressed together like this. Killua should be complaining. He should tell him this counts as touching but he can't say anything. Those amber eyes have him held in place.

"Okay I got my color!" Gon grins.

"...Purple?"

"..." Gon stares at him fro a moment before he frowns. "Damn how'd you know?" Gon flips him under water.

"because you were just staring at my eyes." Killua grunts as he comes up, smirking at how Gon looks disappointed. "Don't make it so obvious next time."

"But I can't help to stare at your eyes. They're so awesome." Gon smiles brightly. Killua blushes, covering his face with his bangs. " and pretty and cool and-"

"Shut up I get it already idiot." Killua can feel the blush reach his ears as he grabs Gon by the head and pushes him under the water. Killua hears a chuckle behind him, the ex-assassin looking over to see Kurapika and Leorio are in the hot tub together, they were just staring at them but now they look away. Kurapika has a straight face but Leorio has an odd smile still stuck on his lips. What are they laughing about?

"I want a retry!" Gon comes up with a grin on his face as he shakes his hair like a dog, spraying the water on Killua.

"Nope." Killua smirks, the smirk falls when he sees a couple making their way over towards them, there's another woman trailing behind them.

"Hello, i'm sorry about bothering you." The older woman smiles at Gon, the other younger woman peaking around her shoulder. "But my sister finds you and your boyfriend adorable. She was wondering if she could get a picture of you two?"

"My boyfriend?" Gon tilts his head, seeming confused.

"He doesn't have a boyfriend." Killua snaps, feeling his possessiveness boil his blood.

"Oh i'm sorry I thought you were with the blonde up there." The younger woman frowns.

"He's not with Kurapika nor will he ever be." Killua wants these people to go away. He feels his fingers twitch. Who do they think they are? Wanting to take a picture of Gon and Kurapika because they think they're together? What is Gon to them? Some zoo animal to take pictures of?

The younger woman stares at Killua, the ex-assassin glaring at her. "I didn't mean any harm by it. I just got excited is all. I think gay couples are the cutest so when I saw him holding that blonde guy-"

"He was holding him because they're friends and he's in a weaken state right now." Also he's a manipulative son of bitch who is milking his weakness. "Now get lost." Killua grunts. "Come on Gon-"

"Hey Gon could you come up here for a moment. I need you." Killua twitches when he hears Kurapika's tone of voice. He swears if his looks could kill, Kurapika would be dead. Killua whips his head to look over at Kurapika who is giving Gon this look of longing, his cheeks flushed.

"Ne okay i'm coming." Gon smiles at Kurapika, completely unaware of what this bastard is doing. "Wait Killua i'll be right back." Killua waits just as Gon said as he watches his best friend get out of the pool, the water dripping down his muscular back, his tan skin glistening. He watches as those women secretly oodles him as he walks over to Kurapika, his trunks too tight, Killua can see every shift of his ass. It makes him hot in two ways. One it's Gon's ass so of course he's going to react to it but he's also pissed because if he can see it, everyone else can too. He doesn't like anyone looking at Gon.

Killua silently fums as Kurapika smiles at his friend, looking at him with those eyes that obviously lust after his best friend. Killua bites the inside of his cheek, his jealously bubbling up once again.

"Could you get me a drink? I'll take a lemonade if they have it." Kurapika smiles at Gon, staring into his eyes.

"Sure." Gon smiles before he runs off to the bar. Kurapika watching him go with those eyes...Hell the way Leorio is grinning to himself it's like he's in on it too. Oh hell no. Killua gets out of the water, pushing his hair out of his face as he walks towards the hot tub. He keeps his face blank, hiding his anger for the moment. Kurapika locks eyes with him, those lips of his turning into a smirk. Killua growls, not even caring Leorio is right next to him as he jumps into the hot tub, his eyes turning dull purple, showing how serious he is.

" one, Stop using your weakness to get Gon's attention. Leorio can take care of you, you don't need Gon." Killua's eyes narrow. "Second, keep your eyes off my friend's ass."

"I don't know what you're talking about." Kurapika stares at him with a straight face, no fear, no guilt, no shame. Leorio seems tense though, he glances at Kurapika before glaring slightly at Killua.

"Calm down Killua." Leorio stares him down. This only pisses Killua off more.

"Oh so you're an enabler? You know what's going on but you're letting this pervert do as he pleases?" Killua snaps, glancing back at the bar, seeing that Gon is still over there.

"Oh yeah he's the pervert when you-" Leorio's eyes narrow.

"Leorio stop." Kurapika grunts, locking eyes with Killua. "Tonight Killua. I can't hold back anymore. I'm going to confess to Gon."

Killua's anger fades away to a kind of panic, his face getting pale, his pupils becoming constricted. His body is telling him to get rid of the threat. His mind is telling him to think things through. His heart...He's mine.

"Do you have a reason that I shouldn't confess to Gon yet?"

He's mine. I love him. You can't have him. Killua's lips tremble. He wants to say it. He wants to tell Kurapika he can't. He wants to tell him how Gon is his and only his. But he can't form the words. His heart is beating so fast, he can feel himself start to sweat. He's frozen.

"I got your lemonade!" Gon runs over with a glass of lemonade, a smile on his lips. He beams when he sees Killua, only to frown when Killua looks away from him, his bangs covering his face.

"thank you Gon." Kurapika winces, trying to reach for the drink but he still can't move his arms.

"Here you go." Gon places the glass against his lips, tilting it gently so Kurapika can drink it. Killua hears the aws from the pool. Seeing Gon and Kurapika like this only makes him feel ill. Tonight Kurapika will confess to Gon...but Gon's not gay right? He'll turn him down...but what if he doesn't? What if Kurapika steals a kiss...what if Gon likes him back?

Killua stands up, biting his lip, stopping himself from yelling. "I'm going back to the hotel room. I don't feel like swimming anymore." Killua gets out of the hot tub and quickly makes his way out of the room. He's running away from his feelings, running away from the threat. What can he do? Tell Gon to get away from him? Yell at Kurapika with Gon there? He can't attack Kurapika. He can't do anything. So he had to get out of there. He doesn't want to see Gon and Kurapika being cute together. He hates it. He hates it so much!

Killua is going to go up in their room, he's going to jump in bed and stuff himself with chocolate. He'll be stuck with Gon's scent on his pillow and the image of his friend's smile. He'll drown his feelings in chocolate and hide away under the blankets. He won't think of Kurapika and Gon...
or he'll lose it.

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"Killua..." Gon frowns as he watches his best friend leave in a rush. "He's upset and to think we were just getting along good a moment ago."

"I'm sorry. I pushed him too hard." Kurapika sighs, glancing down slightly.

"Killua got jealous because you've been helping Kurapika." Leorio leans back sighing.

"Does Killua want me to take care of him?" Gon tilts his head.

"It's not really that. The concern you show for me, Killua's afraid that it means you have a chance of returning my 'feelings'." Kurapika closes his eyes.

"Ne Killua gets jealous easily then." Gon chuckles before he frowns. "He looked so upset when I walked in carrying you. I forgot he was jealous of you. I didn't know what to do so I dropped you. Killua looked mad too...he broke glass in his hand. I know how it feels though...to be jealous. I think that's what I was feeling when I thought Killua wanted to find a woman to do things with. Killua's being stubborn though. I want to be able to touch him again." Gon thinks hard before he grins at Kurapika. "I think I have an idea!"

"you do?" Kurapika blinks as Gon jumps out of the hot tub, giving his friends a wink.

"You guys stay here and enjoy yourselves! I'm going to go up and join Killua." Gon waves to his friends before he runs off after his best friend, a grin tugging at his lips.

"Judging by that look in his eyes...we may have created a monster." Leorio looks over at Kurapika who is chuckling slightly.

"maybe but I'm relieved Gon understands his feelings now. I'm sure he'll be able to push Killua right where he wants him." Kurapika smiles to himself.

"...Killua really wanted to hurt you." Leorio mumbles, a look of worry crossing his features. "You still can't move. Are you sure you want to do this tonight? He might try to attack."

"Yes i'm sure. It will be fine Leorio. Don't worry." Kurapika smiles at his friend, he's able to turn his head now. "Lets just enjoy right now together."

"Sounds good to me." Leorio relaxes a bit. The two older adults talk to each other, exchanging smiles and looks. Gon you're working on getting your love, it makes me wonder if I should start working to get mine... Kurapika glances down at the water, Leorio's smile getting his heart to beat faster. ...Heh if only.

I'm like you Killua but I want you to succeed where I fail. I want you to get your happy ending.

"Hey Killua." Gon smiles to himself feeling giddy and excited about the plan he's made up. He takes a deep breath, trying to not give it away with his smile before he walks into their hotel room. "Are you in here?"

He hears Killua grunt in response. Gon blinks as he walks into the room and sees a lump in the blanket. His happiness fades a bit, his lips tugging in a frown. Killua's sulking. I guess seeing me taking care of Kurapika really upset him. "Ne Killua are you okay?"

"I'm fine." He mumbles, shifting under the blanket.

"Then why did you just leave the pool? I thought we were swimming together?" Gon gets on the bed, slowly creeping towards his best friend.

"I thought so too but then you had to go and be weird with Kurapika!" Killua snaps, he pulls the covers down, glaring towards Gon. "Why don't you just-" Killua stops, his eyes widening slightly when he notices how Gon's crawling towards him on the bed, a pout on his lips. Gon watches Killua swallow, his cheeks getting flushed.

"What you mean? I was just helping Kurapika get a drink. I didn't think I was being weird with him." Gon tilts his head as he continues to crawl towards him. He feels strange. Like an animal closing in on their prey. He wants to just pounce on Killua and kiss his cheeks that are pink. He wants to touch him, this sickness making his heart beat fast and his body warm. I want you to come to me Killua. "Did you not like me taking care of him Killua?"

"I just thought...I..." Killua gulps. He tightens his grip on the blanket, those eyes shift, staring at him with a strange look in his eyes. "G-Gon what are you doing? Don't' come any closer."

"Why?" Gon pouts but he stops crawling towards him. He stays on his hands and knees, tilting his head at Killua.

"Because you're being weird! Why are you crawling towards me like that?" Killua looks away only to glance back at him.

I'm making you blush. That makes me happy. Gon giggles, closing his eyes in his smile. "You always call me weird. I guess I am." Gon opens his eyes, Killua is staring at him, his lips slightly parted. " I'm crawling towards you because it's fun. It feels natural."

"N-Natural?!" Killua makes a sound close to a squeak. When Gon moves forward a bit, Killua puts his arm between them, his blush reaching his ears. "Gon don't come any closer." His voice is wavering.

Cute. Gon smiles only to stop when he notices that the hand that's in his face is the one that Killua cut up from gripping that glass too hard. You did this because you got jealous. You got upset because I was holding Kurapika...Yet you don't want me touching you? Killua...you're always lying to me. Gon frowns, not liking that Killua hurt himself over something he shouldn't even be upset about. I know now. I love you.

Gon leans forward, placing a kiss on the cut in his palm. Killua tenses, his eyes widening as he watches Gon kiss all over his hand, making sure he gets every single one. "Gon-" Killua tries to pull away only for Gon to grab his wrist, stopping him. Gon gives him a determined look.

"I didn't kiss all of them. When I would get cuts on my hands Mito-san would kiss them and make them better."

"You don't have to idiot. This is nothing they're just small cuts-" Killua closes his eyes, his voice sounding irritated.

"But I don't like seeing you hurt yourself Killua. Was it because you were mad at me?" Gon frowns when Killua snatches his hand away from him.

"You're 16 years old. You know you don't kiss wounds away. Grow up." Killua snaps. Gon feels a pang in his chest but instead of letting it get to him he frowns at Killua.

"Do you hate it that much Killua?" Gon sits on his legs, sitting up, keeping his arms in front of him. "Maybe it's childish but I want to kiss your cuts. I obviously made you upset at the pool. That's why you came up here with out me. I don't like when you leave me behind Killua."

"...Gon." Killua's expression softens. Guilt flashes through those purple orbs. "It's not that I hate it Gon I...you didn't upset me I just..." Killua bites his lip before he pushes his hand in front of Gon's face, his bangs covering his eyes. "...You can continue. I think...they're working."

Gon smiles, his eyes lighting up as he grabs Killua's wrist and gets to work on the rest of the cuts. He kisses his finger tips, enjoying the feeling of Killua's soft hands on his lips. Killua's skin is beautiful. So pale and bright...Like the moon's light. Gon glances up at Killua, seeing that the ex-assassin is staring at him, only to look away when Gon looks at him. The raven haired mile smiles to himself. You always give in to me...you just won't be honest with me. I'll make you be honest Killua.

Gon takes his time, rejoicing in being able to touch Killua again and kiss his skin. He feels his body get warmer and his heart speed up. He understands this reaction now. It's because of Killua. Because of his scent, because of the feeling of his flesh on his lips. It's because of how Killua is watching him, a blush on his face. It's because he's so close to Killua. Killua truly is amazing. He's able to make me like this without doing anything.

Gon pulls away, smiling at Killua who pulls his hand back. He holds it with his other hand, cradling it against his chest as if it's his baby. Killua glares off to the side, he's trying to hide his face from Gon but the raven haired male can seen how his eyes light up. "...Thanks..." Killua's voice is quiet, embarrassed, happy. Gon's been with him long enough to know.

"See now i've taken care of Killua." Gon smiles wanting to get even closer to his best friend but he keeps himself where he is, standing on his hands and knees by Killua's feet that's under the covers. "Do you feel better?"

"Yeah a little bit." Killua mumbles, glancing back at Gon before looking away again. He gets embarrassed so easily.

"I'm glad." Gon tries to stop his smile from getting too big. Phase two of my plan. Phase one has been completed but Killua hasn't cracked and he hasn't tried to touch me. "Kurapika and Leorio are still at the pool so while we're waiting for them I thought we could take a bath together!"

"No." Killua shakes his head quickly, shooting down the idea. "...I don't want to take a bath right now."

"Will you want to later?" Gon tilts his head, giving him a pout. Killua doesn't look at him though. He's shifting under his stare.

"N-Not today alright?"

"Oh." Gon frowns as he crawls backwards off the bed, Killua watching him go from the corner of his eye. "but I really wanted to take a bath with you today. You said you would take a bath with me again."

"Yeah but not today." Killua takes a breath, his shoulders slumped a bit when Gon moved away from him.

My phase two didn't work so well. Gon turns his back to Killua trying to think of what he should do next. I want Killua to come to me...so what should I do? Should I try to be sexy? How? Leorio told me I should think of what I think is attractive about Killua and use it against him. What do I find attractive about Killua?...His eyes. His scent. His muscles. His face and the cute up turning of his lips. His body and how it curves in slightly at the waist, his butt...well I like everything about Killua. What does he like about me?

Gon blinks, looking down at his body. Does Killua like my muscles? Does he like the color of my skin? Does he like my butt? Does he like my face? Kurapika says Killua loves me...does his body react the same way that mine does when he's close to me? Does he get hard too? Does he take care of it?

Gon feels his face get flushed thinking about Killua touching himself. He shakes his head, trying to get the image that's about to appear in his mind. He's feeling too warm and frustrated. This is hard. My heads starting to hurt. What's the best next move? I wish I could ask Killua! He always knows everything.

Gon sinks to his knees, getting too wrapped up in his thoughts, he can feel his gears working. "What are you thinking about?" Gon blinks, looking over at Killua who's scooted closer. Now he's sitting at the edge of the bed, his eyebrow raised. Killua's face isn't flushed anymore. Aw that's a shame.

"Killua what do you find attractive in people?" Gon locks eyes with his best friend, looking at him seriously. The ex-assassin looks a little taken aback by the question, he looks forward, his face blank.

"Why do you ask?"

"I'm just curious." Gon smiles, hoping Killua will answer so he can get a better idea of how he can be sexy.

"Hmm...Well I like women who aren't two tall or too short. I like women who have black hair, tan skin and eyes that are-" Killua trails off, he tenses before he takes a deep breath. "...Eyes that are blue. It's nice if they have a big chest but i'm more of an ass kind of guy." Killua picks at his trunks, glancing over at Gon like he's disinterested. "What do you find attractive Gon?"

Killua's only saying what he likes in women. Not too tall, not too short...black hair, tan skin...I have all those! I don't have blue eyes though and I don't have a chest. But Killua still loves me? Does he not want me knowing he likes men? Or maybe it's that he just likes me? Killua likes butts too...I have that! Gon blinks, seeing that Killua is staring at him. Oh yeah he asked me what I find attractive. Gon smiles brightly.

"I like big muscles and silky deep voices-"

"Big muscles and deep voices?" Killua blinks. "What kind of woman has a deep voice?"

" i'm not talking about a woman." Gon smiles. "I'm taking about a man."

"...You...You like men Gon?" Killua looks shocked but he's moved closer, getting on the floor, staring at Gon with this strange look in his eyes. Hope? Uncertainty? Gon can't tell.

"Yup! I guess that makes me gay." Gon scratches his cheek, looking at his friend sincerely. "It's weird but I just figured this out about myself. Just a while ago I didn't even know men could like other men. Thanks to you and Kurapika i've been able to understand myself better." Gon catches how Killua's face scrunches up at Kurapika's name but that light hasn't left his eyes. A sort of cautiousness in his eyes too. "You don't mind do you Killua? You don't dislike me for it?"

"Why would I mind if you like men Gon? I'm your best friend. I accept you for who you are." Killua puts a hand on his shoulder, giving him a smile. I'm your best friend too Killua...I accept you for who you are so why aren't you being honest with me? "So...you like muscles and deep voices huh?' Killua closes his eyes in his smile as he leans against the bed. He moves his arms subtly but Gon caught it. The raven haired male tilts his head. Did he just flex? Gon feels a bit warm watching his shirtless friend shift in such a way that it makes it look like he's moving normally, but each moment flexes his muscles. He's defiantly flexing. Gon tries not to giggle. It makes him warm and happy at the same time. Is Killua being sexy for me? But trying not to let me know at the same time? Gon has to look away to hide his smile. Too cute Killua.

"yeah I do." Gon can feel his body reacting to Killua, his face feels a little warm.

"What else do you find attractive Gon?"

"Hmm...I like long hair. Unique eyes..." Gon tries to name things that Killua has but at the same time it's not to specif. It's like a game they're playing. Gon for once has the upper hand.

Killua's eyes light up only for him to tense. His face gets pale and his body stiff. Doubt and fearful suspicion in his eyes before he cover his eyes with his bangs. Gon frowns turning to look at his friend when he feels the difference between them.
"...So Gon how did you realize you like men? Do you like someone right now?" Killua looks away from Gon. His voice is wavering. "Do you like a man?"

"I realized that I have feelings for someone, that's how I found out I was Gay. I do like a man right now." Gon smiles but Killua seems to have sunk in more. He looks paler then before. Sick even. Gon frowns. "Are you alright Killua?"

"...Who is it?" Killua's voice sounds low. Not light as it was before.

"that's a secret." Gon tries to lighten the mood but it only seems to back fire on him. In a blink of an eye Killua has him on the floor, his arms pinned above his head with the ex-assassin hovering over him.

"A secret?" Killua's voice is strange, his grip on his wrists almost painful. Gon's heart beats faster as he looks up into those purple orbs that have dulled slightly, hiding away all emotion. The raven haired male can feel an excitement bubble up in him. Being under Killua like this, with Killua pinning him down...It's not unwelcome. It has a dangerous feel to it but not only that...He's gotten Killua to touch him.

"Yes a secret." Gon feels his face flush and he can't help the smile cracking on his lips. Maybe this reaction is strange from Killua. Maybe he should be wary but he's not. This is Killua. This is his best friend. He trusts him with everything he has.

Killua's dull eyes slowly go back to normal. He blinks, looking down at Gon in shock, his face getting pale again. Killua lets go of Gon's arms and jumps back from him. He's breathing heavily, a look of guilt on his face only for his face to go blank.
"Tsk. A secret. That's lame you can't tell me." Killua glares off to the side, looking irritated but he keeps glancing over at Gon, checking his expression as the raven haired male sits back up.

"I'll tell you someday Killua. I'm hoping it'll be soon." Gon tries to calm down his heart rate, willing his body to not get too excited from what just happened. It's a strange feeling. Half of him wants to tackle Killua and roughhouse with him, another half wants to hug him and touch those muscles that he was flexing just for him. Gon looks down at his wrists, seeing how it's red from Killua gripping him so tightly. You were jealous then too weren't you? You must not think it's you.

Killua follows his eyes and sees the red spots. His lips go in a tight line as he makes his way over to Gon, kneeling down in front of him. The ex-assassin doesn't say anything as he glares at the red on his wrist before before he takes his hand and lifts it up to his lips. Gon feels his heart skip a beat when Killua kisses his left wrist, holding his arm with such care as he does so before he kisses his right wrist.

"...Sorry." Killua mumbles under his breath, his bangs are in the way so all he can see is his flushed cheeks. "You said kisses make it feel better so-"
"thanks Killua! It wasn't bad to start with though so don't worry it's okay." Gon beams, feeling his face warm up and his stomach flutter like there's butterflies in it. I got Killua to kiss me! "Lets do something Killua! Lets go get some ice cream!" Gon stands up, grabbing Killua's hand, pulling him up with him. Killua's eyes that were dull light up when Gon had grabbed his hand and when he saw that the raven haired male is smiling at him. It didn't hurt. You get really jealous Killua but I don't mind. Because it's you.

"Sounds good. I want some ice cream." Killua mumbles, but his face has gone back to normal.

"Then what are we waiting for? Lets go chase down an ice cream truck or maybe we'll find an ice cream stand" Gon starts to walk with Killua, still holding his hand. His eyes light in realization as he lets go of Killua's hand. "Oh sorry Killua I forgot not to touch-" Gon starts only for his heart to skip a beat when he feels Killua' grab his hand, interlacing their fingers.

"...This is fine." Killua doesn't look at him, his long hair getting in the way of Gon seeing his blush. Gon beams at his friend feeling giddy. I got him to hold my hand! Gon chuckles as he leads Killua out of the room ,not able to stop his smile. "What are you so happy about?"

"That's obvious! I get to hold hands with my best friend Killua!" Gon smiles over at his friend who's looking at him in surprise, his cheeks slightly pink. "So of course i'm going to be happy!"

"You're so weird." Killua flushes, staring forward but his lips crack up in a smile. The term weird said nicely and his grip on his hand tightens slightly.

Gon admires his friend, his love. Killua's always been helping him. He's helped him in battles, and he's helped him to grow up. I want to share everything with you. I'll make you be honest with me Killua. I can't wait to tell you everything that I want to say to you. I'm never letting you go.

"Hehe I guess I am weird."

But I love you and I think you love me too.

Killua chuckles slightly, the thick air disappearing between them as they walk together, hand in hand, out of the hotel. Those purple eyes have a light back to them, his purple ear rings dangling and bouncing as he walks. Those earrings that were given to him as a gift. A confession of Love that Gon didn't even know he was giving...

I just want you to say you love me Killua.