okay so the angst isn't over yet... there is more to come, you might need tissues

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

Mac and Stella were still in each other's embrace, until all the tears were gone. Mac pulls back, wiping her wet cheeks dry. He placed his forehead on hers.

"I love you so much Stella."

She placed a hand on his cheek, "I love you too Mac."

"I swear to you Stella, wherever you are I will be right next with you."

"Mac, I want to apologize."

"For what Stell, you didn't do anything."

"I had doubts, I wanted for this hurt to be over. Oh Mac, I had thoughts that I wanted to leave you," she tells him, tears starting to form. "I can't imagine my life with out you."

"Well you don't have to worry about that Stella. Because I am not going back to New York."

"Mac you have to your life is up there."

"So was yours."

"My life is down here now Mac. I can't leave it and you can't leave New York."

"Stella, you can't actually think that us being in different parts of the US is better, because it's not. My life is where ever you are. I hope you believe me," he frowns, putting his hand on her cheek, gently rubbing it with his thumb.

"I believe you Mac, but it's just that... I want you to be happy, and you won't here."

"I will because you are here."

"I'm just confused Mac, I want this relationship to work, but it just won't we want different things. I want you to stay in New York and I to stay here."

"Stella, this relationship is going to work, because it fits. We are meant to be together."

"What if we aren't Mac? I feel like I'm in New Orleans because we aren't supposed to work out."

Mac shook his head, "You don't mean that Stella, please. I've almost lost you a few times. I don't want you out of my life for good."

"But maybe that's how it's supposed to be."

Mac pulled back from Stella completely. "What are you saying Stella?"

"I just need time to think," her eyes water. "Please?"

"Stella, you can't be serious. I love you too much and I know you feel the same. I'm not going anywhere."

"Mac, don't. This is hard on me already, it's time to let go of our feelings for each other."

"You promised me that we will do anything to make this relationship to work. Damn it Stella. Can't you see what you are doing to us here!" he half shouts.

"I can't do this Mac, I just can't!" she cries slumping back down in her chair.

"I am not leaving you Stella. It is going to kill both of us. I am not losing you this way."

"Mac..."

"No Stella I'm not done. If I was wasting my time, you think I would have bothered all the damn way down here just to fucking see you. I care for you too damn much, and I know deep down you feel the same way."

"I don't want to see you any more!" she shouts covering her eyes. Finally letting her tears come out.

"I won't allow you to make this mistake," a voice is heard and Stella looks up to see Lindsay standing by the door way, with a frown.

"This doesn't concern you Lindsay."

Lucy looks up at her mom, and then to Stella and then Mac. She was about to run towards them, but Danny held her back.

"It does Stella," Danny stepped up.

"How much did you hear?" she quickly wipes her eyes.

"You telling Mac you couldn't do this," Lindsay frowned.

"I can't."

"Don't give me this Stella. You told me yourself you were happy you and Mac got together, and you can't let him out of your life. If he leaves you will be an emotional wreak and you know it."

"Yeah Stell, leaving Mac will be the worst decision you ever made."

"But... we want different things."

"Yeah living arrangement wise. You both love each other too much to leave out of your life for good."

"I don't think that there's a point, she doesn't want me, and it's best I just go," Mac spoke up. "I'll see you guys back in New York," he got up and pushed past the Messers.

"Why did you do that Stella?"

"He wouldn't let me alone to think. Just seeing his upset face made me more confused."

"You just lost the best thing that ever happened to you," Lindsay frowns.

"No I didn't," she quickly stood up and ran out of her office. The elevator doors were closing when Stella made it and she caused the doors to open back up. "Mac..." she pulled him out the elevator and the doors closed.

"Stella, I thought it was over."

"No Mac, I am so damn stubborn and selfish. I was only thinking about me, I didn't care how you felt. But now they made me realize that leaving you would be the biggest damn mistake I could have ever made."

"You got to stop changing your mind. When you answer this question you have to promise me you would never change your thoughts about it."

Stella nods, "Yeah that's fair."

"Do you or do you not want a relationship with me? And whatever future plans are brought up we will decide together."

"I want you more than anything. And I apologize for anything or everything that was said back in my..."

Her rambling got stopped as Mac placed his lips on hers. She starts kissing back, he pressed her slightly against the wall. Stella getting breathless pulls back.

"Don't you ever scare me like that ever again Stella."

She shook her head, "Mac Taylor, after today I am never going to think about leaving you ever again."

"Me either, I want to have a family with you. In New York or New Orleans, either one," he tucks a curl behind her ear.

"New York. I want to live in New York. With you and I want to be back in our lab."

"Our lab?" Mac smirks.

"It has always been our lab, and will always be so," she smiled, her lips connecting with his a second time. She didn't care who was watching because she was going back to New York City, right where she always belonged.

Kay hope the chapter wasnt completely horrible and enjoyed the making up... angst most likely gone now, cuz Stella decided she wants mac in her life for eternity

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