Gentle touches, a soft voice and slight movement is all Gon is aware of. It's like he's floating in darkness, hearing sounds and feeling touches to his body but he can't get out of the blackness. There is no pain. There's nothing but that voice. It reassures, and calms him. As long as he can hear the voice and feel the touches, it's okay. He knows he's okay. This voice he trusts. Gon doesn't know how long he's floating in the darkness but soon it feels like he's floating up to the surface and then there's light.
Gon becomes aware of himself once again, consciousness coming back. He stays still for a moment, taking in the smell of alcohol and cloth, but also the familer scent of his hotel room. He lays there, trying to get his thoughts together as the pain slowly starts to build around his chest area.
What happened? Gon opens his eyes, squinting when the light is too bright. He blinks a couple of times before he can see just fine. Killua is pacing back and forth in front of the hotel bed, a stern look on his face. Gon's chest lightens when he sees his lover and he smiles. "Killua!" Gon's voice is raspy and when he tries to sit up and pain shoots up his spine.
"Gon!" Killua's eyes widen and he quickly runs over to him. "Don't try to get up. You're still healing."
"Healing...?" Gon reaches to touch Killua's cheek only to stop when he notices his hands are wrapped up heavily in bandages. "What..." Gon stops when it all comes back to him. The panic attack. Running off from Killua, fighting with his other self, the sensation of drowning...then the sensation of breathing once again. He remembers Killua's kind words and his singing. "...You got me fixed up?" Gon looks down when he sees the bandage around his chest. He remembers the pain of his ribs breaking. He remembers each painful breath.
"Yeah we took you to the hospital. You've been out for a day. Leorio should be here soon to check you out." Killua seems anxious but he calms down when he takes his seat next to Gon. He touches Gon's cheek, leaning in close to look at him. "You look better than you did yesterday." Killua's purple orbs soften.
"...You're not mad?" Gon's amber eyes shift away from him, feeling that slight pang in his chest.
"Yeah I'm mad." Killua crosses his arms over his chest, giving Gon a stern look for a moment. Gon looks down at his hands. Killua grabs his chin and makes him look at him. "But I told you I forgive you. You're not going to hide anything from me again are you?"
"I'm not." Gon shakes his head, his chest lifting back up at being reminded that Killua forgives him. Killua is still here. Killua took him to the hospital. He still cares about him. He still loves him. The curse was wrong. Gon feels angry at himself for letting it get like that. He completely lost it. How weak can he be?
"Good." Killua leans in and gives him a kiss on the forehead, making Gon's heart flutter. He remembers those soft kisses in his unconsciousness. "I won't leave you so get that idea out of your head. Don't ever be afraid to tell me something." Killua pulls away, looking into Gon's eyes, searching for understanding. He must be satisfied because he nods. He looks down Gon's body before locking eyes with him. "Are you in any pain? You were groaning a little bit ago before you woke up. I told Leorio he needed to get over here." Killua growls.
"I'm okay. It doesn't hurt too bad. I got more messed up that one time in Heaven's area." Gon grins at Killua, remembering good times. Killua snorts.
"You're always getting yourself messed up." Killua puts his hands on his hips. "Still. Pain always effects emotions." Killua looks at Gon seriously.
"Kurapika told you about that?" Gon smiles slightly. "It's only a theory of mine. But I'm starting to think my emotions don't matter. I was really happy at the restaurant but it happened anyway. But I guess I was feeling guilty...So maybe my emotions do make the curse worse?"
"We aren't taking any risks. That's why Leorio should be rushing his butt in here." Killua puts a hand on Gon's shoulder, rubbing in soothing circles. Killua glares slightly. "He's probably still working on the demon."
"The demon?" Gon tilts his head. "You mean the fox stealer? He's here?"
"That's right. You don't' know." Killua gets a stone look on his face. He keeps rubbing Gon's shoulder but he seems reluctant to keep talking. "...He attacked us after you ran off into the forest. Kurapika was able to capture him and bring him here. We're been...trying to get information out of him."
"Oh..." Gon frowns, his stomach twisting. "You guys don't have to do that. I'm sure we can find this guy without-"
"Don't. Gon, this curse is bad and we don't know how much time is left. I know you don't like it but...we have to." Killua cups Gon's cheeks when he kept frowning. "Don't get upset about it. He tried to block my way to get to you. He wanted you dead Gon. I'm not going to play anymore games. Your life is on the line and I..." Killua swallows. "Just don't worry about the demon. We're taking care of it."
"I don't think he wanted to kill me...something doesn't feel right Killua. Can I see him? Maybe if I talk to him again I could get the information without hurting him-"
"Gon you can't even get out of bed yet. I'm not going to let you get out of bed, straining yourself, just to save this guy-"
"Please Killua. I don't like hurting him. We don't need to torture him." Gon looks at his lover pleadingly, those amber eyes getting big, giving Killua one of his best puppy dog looks though Gon isn't aware of this fact. "Just let me talk to him-"
"No." Killua looks away from Gon, those purple orbs shifting away from him. "Gon he's not going to tell you by you just talking to him. He's a steel trap. He needs to be broken-"
"No! Just let me talk to him Killua! Just once!" Gon touches Killua's back, frowning deeply. "We don't need to torture him Killua..." Gon can see the other male shift before he locks eyes with Gon. His face is stern.
"We've already done a lot of damage to him Gon. We've already gotten started-"
"Okay but we can stop it now. We don't have to cause anymore damage." Gon gives him a stubborn look. "I'll be able to get out of bed soon. I can get out now!" Gon tries to sit up only to wince. Killua quickly pushes him back down, glaring at him.
"No, you can't. You're going to stay here and relax-"
"I can't relax knowing you guys are hurting him Killua." Gon knows it's a low blow but he has to say it. "It will mess up my emotions."
Killua's face falls before he curses under his breath. He looks torn. "...You can talk to him...but not today. We'll stop torturing him for right now but if you can't get him to talk we will go back to forcing the information out."
"Okay." Gon smiles, satisfied with that. He's confident that he can get information from that man without having to hurt him.
Killua studies his smile before he leans closer. "Can you tell me what you've been going through Gon?Kurapika has told me his side of the story but I want to hear it from you. What have you been experiencing and don't leave anything out."
Gon tenses up only to relax. He doesn't have to hide anything. He can openly tell Killua the truth. Gon smiles, feeling happy that he doesn't have to lie to Killua anymore. "This curse has been weird. At first it started off with me just hearing ringing sounds and I would see shadows form the corner of my eye. Then I kept seeing you. It wasn't really you and I figured out that the other Killua I was seeing was a part of the curse." Killua nods his head at that.
"What did he do to you?"
"Well the other Killua is always taunting me in my head. He's the one who told me that you would leave me and hate me for keeping the curse from you. He's also the one who I see in my dreams...He made me have this horrible dream where I killed you." Gon hugs himself, thinking about the horrible sounds and sights. "The curse has gotten stronger. Instead of hearing one voice, I hear three voices. And I see more people now. I see and hear the other Killua. I see this thin version of myself who keeps telling me to kill myself and I see this dark version of myself...the one that killed you in my dream. He always says dark things..." Gon swallows, he grips his hands and unclench them. "I wasn't trying to kill myself Killua...I saw the dark Gon in the forest. He was saying he was going to hurt you. I tried to kill him but...All I was doing was killing myself." Gon's eyes start to get a distant look to them.
"Gon stay with me." Killua cups Gon's cheeks, keeping his face close to his own, those purple orbs boring into his. The ex-assassin leans in, giving Gon a tender kiss on the lips. Gon's eyes slip shut and he can't help to moan at how sweet it is. It calms his racing heart and brings him back to the here and now. "That dark Gon you see isn't you. It's just the curse. Don't try to hurt that Gon anymore. He can't hurt me."
"B-But what if I become him-"
"You won't." Killua gives him a stern look, pulling away to look into his eyes. "Even if you did, I'd be right there to knock some sense into you, understand?"
"Killua..." Gon looks into those purple orbs and he feels himself relax. Killua won't let Gon hurt him. That makes the raven haired male relieved. He finds a smile coming to his lips. Killua is amazing. Even after everything that's happen he can still be so calm and reassuring. "I understand."
"Good. Whenever you hear or see any of these guys, I want you to tell me right away. Maybe if you talk about it, I can reorient you and grab you to make sure nothing happens. Don't be afraid to tell me, even if you think it's small. If your head starts to hurt, if your ears ring, anything, you tell me."
"I will." Gon smiles again, putting a bandaged hand over Killua's that's on Gon's cheek. "Just don't worry too much about me. Like you said...Everything is going to be okay." Gon smiles when Killua flushes. "I heard you sing to me and I felt all your gentle touches. You're such an amazing person Killua. The best partner and lover I could ask for." Gon really means it. Killua has always been there for him and even after Gon had betrayed their friendship by keeping things from Killua, the other male is still by his side.
And he's trying to make everything better.
"I'm just doing what I have to do." Killua's face get redder and he scratches his cheek. Gon can't help to giggle. Killua gets embarrassed so easily. Killua glares but it's more of a pout with his lover laughing at him. "If you weren't hurt I'd kick you off the bed."
Gon grins at his lover, feeling his spirits lift. Killua stares at him for a moment before a small smile forms on his lips and it seems the other male is just starting to relax-
"S-Sorry I'm late. I had to clean up the demon and shock him back to life a couple of times. You did a number on him Killua-" Leorio comes into the room, spots of blood on his shirt. He stops when he takes in Gon who is staring at him with those big amber orbs. "Ack Gon you're awake!" Leorio almost squeaks when he sees how Killua goes stiff, his purple eyes getting dark. Killua slowly looks at Gon, and the raven haired male knows what he's waiting for. It's like he's bracing himself for Gon yelling at him or something.
Gon is upset about that man though. Killua hurt him to the point he almost died. Gon isn't upset with Killua though. He knows his lover better than anyone. Killua was only doing what he thought was best for him. Most the time Killua and Gon don't see eye to eye on things but Gon always has a way of showing Killua that his way is best.
"Yeah I'm awake. Sorry for the scare." Gon smiles sheepishly, touching Killua's hand, telling him silently it's okay. Killua relaxes, those purple orbs looking at him with surprise before they go back to normal. But those purple eyes are looking at him with light and appreciation.
"You should be!" Leorio starts to scold, seeing as Gon isn't about to have a fit. "You had us all worried sick! Honestly, keeping all this from us, what were you thinking?" Leorio shakes his head. "I'm sure you've heard this all from Killua so i'll spare you. For now." Leorio's expression becomes softer. "Are you experiencing any pain? Do you need medication?"
"Yes he does. He was groaning just awhile ago." Killua speaks before Gon can.
"It's not too bad though..." Gon watches as Leorio comes over with his suitcase.
"I'm going to give you some morphine. You do need to get out of bed to walk around for a bit. It's best to keep the blood pumping. Especially after being on anesthesia." Leorio explains as he takes out a needle, Gon watching as he sticks it in a vial and fills the needle up halfway.
"Where's Kurapika?" Gon frowns when he notices that all but one of his friends is present. The air around the three seems to change at the mention of the blonde. Killua's purple orbs get dark and Leorio doesn't say anything as he sticks the needle into Gon's arm and pushes the medicine into his vein.
"He's with the demon." Leorio says as he throws the needle away. "He's watching over him to make sure he doesn't get away."
"...You're not mad at him are you?" Gon looks between his two friends. He knew that Kurapika and Leorio might fight over this...He also knew that Killua wouldn't take it well. But he didn't like how both of Leorio and Killua's face changed at the mention of Kurapika.
"Gon, all of this is his fault." Killua speaks up. His voice is calm but Gon knows he's trying to conceal his anger. "after he told us all he knows, he pretty much confessed that he's the one who told you not to tell us. He didn't want Leorio's vacation to be ruined. How selfish is that?" Killua's voice raises at the end only for him to clam himself. "He's not allowed in this room."
"That's not true! We both came up with the idea. I agreed, I didn't want you guys to worry. If you found out we wouldn't be able to have all the fun we had. Don't be angry with Kurapika. He wanted to tell you sooner but I kept telling him to wait." Gon looks at his friends, a frown coming to his lips. "You're not mad at him too are you Leorio?" Gon looks at Leorio with his big amber eyes. "You didn't separate did you?"
Leorio flinches at such a look before those brown orbs shift away from Gon. "...No. We're still together. We're not on the best of terms right now but it won't last." Leorio works on changing Gon's hand bandages and the bandage on his wrist and arm. Once he's down putting all the new dressings on him he stands up. "Get out of bed and start walking. Can you stand?"
"Yes." Gon gets up slowly. Killua getting close to him, his hand twitches like he was about to reach out and help him but he restrains himself. He knows Gon wants to do this alone. Gon grinds his teeth when he feels a slight pain in his chest as he stands up from off the bed. He feels a little dizzy and has to sit back down. He takes a few deep breaths before he stands up again. Killua keeps next to him as Gon walks slowly, his legs feeling cramped from laying in bed for a day. "I want to see...Kurapika." Gon wheezes, feeling frustrated with his body. It's hard to catch his breath.
"You'll see him tomorrow." Killua says though Gon can hear the edge to it. Killua is really mad at Kurapika. He can sense it.
"Killua remember...Kurapika is your friend." Gon glances over at Killua. The ex-assassin's face doesn't change. "We're all friends. Me and Kurapika made a mistake. Don't stay angry at him. I want us all to get along."
"You can't always get what you want." Killua snaps. Gon just looks at him curiously. Killua is afraid. He can tell. When Killua is afraid he either runs away from something or he turns his fear into anger. Killua is pressing his fear into the demon and Kurapika.
"I guess I can't but i'm pretty sure you're not going to stay mad at Kurapika forever." Gon smiles. "And if you stay by my side you will see him. Because we're all friends." Gon starts to get out of breath so Killua helps him over to the bed.
"That's enough walking. Get some rest." Killua puts the covers back over Gon before feeling his forehead.
"He seems to be fine...any issues involving the curse?" Leorio looks at Gon with some worry.
"No. Since I've been up I haven't heard any voices. It's been quiet." Gon smiles reassuringly. "I think that's a good sign!"
"Okay good...I'm going to go check on Kurapika. Are you two okay here? You should go back to sleep Gon, rest as much as you can."
"We're fine." Killua grunts, flopping down next to Gon.
"Yeah we're fine." Gon yawns, feeling sleepy once again. Leorio looks between them for a moment before he leaves. "Hey Killua could you lay down with me?" Gon get under the covers, looking at Killua with pleading amber orbs.
Killua takes off his shirt before he gets under the covers with Gon. He gently puts an arm around Gon's waist, being careful not to hurt his chest.
Gon lets out a content sigh at feeling Killua's warm bare chest against his own, he nuzzles up to his lover, enjoying Killua's aura that has engulfed him, keeping him warm and safe. It's like they've become one.
"Go back to sleep." Killua kisses Gon's forehead, only for Gon to look up and kiss Killua on the lips. He wants to taste Killua. He wants to be closer to him.
"I love you Killua." Gon nibbles on Killua's lower lip, giving him affectionate bites. He wishes he could move his hands more but Leorio wrapped his fingers tight so he settles with just kissing along Killua's jaw line.
"Yeah..." Killua's cheeks get flushed and his body seems to get warmer. "You shouldn't kiss me like this...Don't make me want something I can't have. You're in no condition for it." Gon nibbles at Killua's neck lightly, enjoying the slight groan that comes from the ex-assassin.
"Let me just kiss you." Gon licks Killua's neck before moving up to kiss Killua on the lips. When their lips meet, The ex-assassin pushes a little roughly only to calm himself down. The kiss is sloppy and Gon can't help to melt in his lover's embrace. "When I'm better...It's your turn Killua...I'm going to ...make you feel really good..." Gon yawns before he closes his eyes. Killua starts to run his fingers through his hair making Gon even more tired and relaxed.
"You can't make me feel good if you're not healed. Focus on healing Gon." Killua kisses Gon's ear. "Then you can have me all night long." Killua's words are hot in Gon's ear. Gon's stomach has butterflies and he feels warm but he still feels himself drifting off to the realm of sleep.
"I love you too. Get well soon idiot." Killua mumbles under his breath.
Gon falls asleep with a smile on his lips. Killua really is too cute.
Kurapika sits on his bed staring out of the window. It's during the day and he can see the many families out enjoying the beach. The blonde is use to being alone. For years he's been working by himself but...he's never really felt alone inside. There's this hollowness in his chest that he can't ignore. A guilt, a blame he has placed on himself. There's a lot of things he should of done. He should have told Leorio and Killua right away. He should have pressed Gon to tell them before the curse got worse. Kurapika doesn't know what he was thinking.
Maybe that they would some how get Clover before anything bad would happen? Risky thinking. Especially now that Kurapika knows that this person doesn't care about Clover at all. He cares about killing Gon. That was the goal all along. Yet Kurapika was too focused on Leorio, too focused on this vacation to even think about the possibility. It should have been obvious. This person used Gon's image to steal Clover for a reason. It wasn't just random. Kurapika should have been more aware. He should have been more protective of Gon.
Kurapika is broken from his thoughts when he hears the door open. He already knows without looking that it's his lover. Kurapika shifts his feet, an anxiousness settling in his chest but he keeps it concealed. "How is he?"
"He seems to be okay. He was awake when I saw him. He was able to walk a bit. He's sleeping again with Killua." Leorio answers much to Kurapika's relief. At first Leorio was giving him the silent treatment.
"Any new developments with the curse?"
"No he said everything was quiet. Gon thinks it's a good sign." Leorio sounds like he's frowning. "I can't help to feel like...it's a calm before the storm."
"It may be. That's why we have to work quickly on this man." Kurapika glances towards the bathroom where the Demon is locked away.
"About that..." Leorio scratches his arm. "Gon wants to see him and try to talk to him. I can tell he doesn't like what we're doing..." I can tell you don't like what we're doing either Leorio.
"I knew he wouldn't. And I knew he would want to talk to him. What did Killua say?"
"I don't know." Leorio is quiet for a moment. "Gon wants to see you." Kurapika's heart lightens and he looks over at Leorio. "He doesn't like our fighting. He was worried we separated."
"It's felt like that. You've barely spoke to me." Kurapika pets Sam who has curled up into a ball on his lap, purring happily.
"I know." Silence. "I'm just a little freaked out and putt off I guess. I was the one most out of the loop. You didn't tell me anything. Not even about Hisoka." Leorio looks over at the window. "I didn't like that you hid this from me but I really don't like that I know you're hiding more. You still won't tell me how you got a hold of Hisoka."
"Do we really have to be so open with each other?" Kurapika finds himself saying. Secrets is what keeps him safe. "I have connections and a life that doesn't involve you. I don't want it to."
"Well damn Kurapika. I'm suppose to be your lover! You're suppose to be open with me just like I'm open with you. I don't hide anything from you! I don't have a life that doesn't involve you. How the hell is that suppose to make me feel huh? What do you think is going to happen if you are open with me Kurapika?" Leorio's voice raises and he seems to be trying to keep himself calm. Kurapika can tell his words have hurt the other man. He can see it in those brown orbs. It causes a slight pang in his chest but he keeps his face blank.
"Everything. Anything." Kurapika keeps petting the cat before he shakes his head. "I just don't want to tell you Leorio. This is my business and that's all there is to it."
"We're together Kurapika. We're suppose to be a team. I just...I don't like it. I thought that once we got together you would stop this but it's just the same as before. Now it feels worse though. You don't have confidence in me as a partner." Leorio grips his fist before he glares at the blonde. "There's still this distance between us! So what, after this vacation is over you're going to go back to doing whatever you were doing? You'll go back to barely answering your phone? Is that how it's going to be Kurapika? Even after making all this progress you're still...you're still going to treat me the same?"
"If that bothers you Leorio then leave. You do not have to be with me." Kurapika's voice comes out more harsh then he had wanted. But he stands by his words. Kurapika doesn't want to get Leorio involved with what he's doing. He doesn't want to risk the other man getting hurt or his information leaking out.
Leorio stares at him with his mouth opening and closing before his face becomes stone. He gets red in the face only to take a deep breath before sitting himself down on the couch, letting his head lean back. "You say it like it's so simple. Like it wouldn't matter. 'you don't have to be with me'. You're wrong there. I need to be with you. I want to be with you. I love you, I already told you this. Now i'm just wondering...if you really love me."
Kurapika feels himself tense and he frowns, not liking this feeling in his chest. He looks down at his hands for a moment. "Do not misunderstand me Leorio. I do love you. I've love you since the beginning. I just express my love differently than you. I keep that other life from you and kept things from you to protect you. I do it because I love you."
"Keeping this curse thing from me was protecting me?"
"In a way, yes. As I said, I didn't want you to worry during your vacation when I thought it was something I could handle alone. I was wrong."
"I know that you're still going after the spiders to avenge your family" Leorio glances back at Kurapika catching the blonde tense. "I know." He looks forward. "So why do you have to keep what you're doing a secret? I want to be a part of all the aspects of your life."
"I live it Leorio, I do not wish to repeat the sins I've done. I told you about Sam. I opened up to you then." Kurapika sees Leorio's posture shift. "I may not be the best at this and I may not get better but i'm trying. I'm conflicted. Just know I love you. Don't question that."
"...I worry about you..." Leorio rubs one of his arms. "I don't want you to leave and act like this never happened...our relationship I mean-"
"I won't. I will call you more. I told you I will try. I want to speak with you Leorio. I want to be with you...There are just some things that I'd like to stay hidden."
"I feel like you don't depend on me for nothing. Like I don't contribute to this relationship-"
"What are you talking about? Of course I depend on you. I depend on you to make me smile after a long day of work. I depend on you to make my chest feel light and to make me feel like everything is okay. I depend on you to be my anchor Leorio. You're my sanity. My rational side when I've lost all control. I do depend on you."
Leorio's eyes slowly started to light up and his tensed up shoulders relaxed. He thinks for a moment, keeping his back to Kurapika. "...Next time, Don't keep something from me that involves Gon or Killua. They're my friends too and I deserve to know."
"I agree. It won't happen again. I've learned my lesson." Kurapika looks at Leorio earnestly now. "...Do you forgive me?"
"We'll see." Leorio huffs as he stands up off the couch. "I guess I can consider your apology now but you owe me. Take me out to dinner and buy me all the drinks I want. After we fix Gon of course. If we need to we can extend the vacation a bit. We aren't doing anything in till we find Clover."
"I will gladly take you out Leorio. I'll get you anything you want." Kurapika stands up off the bed to walk closer to Leorio, wanting to touch his lover but he settles for standing closer. Leorio's brown eyes soften and he reaches, touching Kurapika's cheek. The blonde leans into the kind gesture.
"You're lucky you're so cute." Leorio sighs, leaning in to give Kurapika a soft kiss on the lips before pulling away. "I don't think that will work on Killua though. He's still really pissed off."
"Oh yes I know. I don't think Killua will calm down in till Gon is okay." Kurapika takes a deep breath. "I expected this...But Killua is okay with Gon? How did their relationship seem?"
"Good. Killua was all over Gon like a protective mother. I'm sure he's forgiven Gon."
"That's good. Gon's emotional state relies mostly on Killua. He will be upset about the demon but...I think he will be okay. I know Killua won't let Gon out of his sight and that's good. Killua will be a constant watcher and we'll be able to pick up anything that needs to be taken care of." Kurapika thinks to himself before looking towards the bathroom. "I don't know if he will give up the information."
"Killua burned, whipped, and beat him nearly to death and he still wouldn't talk. If not for the fact we need him, I think Killua would have gone ahead and killed him." Leorio frowns thinking about how dark Killua's eyes had gotten. There was hate in his movements, a deep rage that scared Leorio. It made him scared for Kurapika. "Gon wants to see him tomorrow and try to talk to him...and he wants to see you. I don't know if Killua will allow it but I'm a bit worried about having you around Killua."
"He won't do anything with Gon by his side. He wouldn't risk getting Gon upset." Kurapika shakes his head. "It can't hurt. Maybe if Gon shows the demon some of his legendary kindness he might be able to get some information out of him."
"I hope so. I still feel so anxious, not knowing if Gon's alright right now or if he's having trouble-"
"Killua has him. I trust him to watch over Gon. He would take action immediately. He didn't' sleep last night...I doubt he'll sleep tonight. He only left Gon for a split second and that was to take care of the demon. Everything will be okay. It has to be." Kurapika grips his fist, thinking about his younger friend when he saw him come back from the hospital...all pale and his chest raising and falling with difficulty.
Whoever this person is who's trying to kill Gon, he will be stopped. Gon will be okay. He'll live.
"...This is Gon we're talking about. He'll be fine." Leorio smiles, seeming to try to reassure himself as he takes off his shirt and lays in bed. "We should get some rest. Tomorrow is going to be a pain."
"You can rest. I need to make sure no one attacks to get the demon." Kurapika sits down on the bed next to Leorio. He averts his gaze. "... can I start sleeping with you again?"
"Hmm..." Leorio hums, closing his eyes. "Maybe." His lips turn in a teasing smile only for Kurapika's lips to do the same.
"I'll take that as a yes." Kurapika leans in and kisses his lover, melting into his warmth. They won't have much alone time coming up. All their energy is going to be put into finding Clover and breaking this curse. Also all their attention is going to be on Gon. They can't let his condition get worse. They must stabilize him...
Kurapika can only do so much. Leorio can only do so much...Gon's survival rest with Killua. Killua holds Gon's emotions In the palm of his hand. He can make or break Gon at this point. Killua will be the boat that will keep Gon afloat. Just as he's always been.
Killua...I know you dislike me right now but....Kurapika thinks of Gon's bright smile....I'm counting on you.
Killua is the key to Gon's survival.
Gon wakes up feeling warm and snug. He blinks when he sees blue in his vision and a blanket wrapped around his cheeks. He glances up to see Killua staring down at him, his arms are wrapped around him, the other male watching him carefully. When Killua sees Gon's awake, he kisses Gon's forehead, being so tender that he can't help to blush.
"Go back to sleep." His voice is a whisper, Gon just noticing that it's dim in the room and the blanket is wrapped around Gon like a cocoon. Killua isn't wrapped in the blanket. The blanket is tight around Gon, almost like a snug restraint.
"Ne Killua?" Gon yawns, wigging in the blanket and in Killua's grip on him. "I'm stuck." Gon could get out of this hold but he'd have to rip the blanket and he doesn't want to do that.
"You kept shivering and twitching during the night. You kept trying to scratch your hands so...I secured you. I know you have to be tired. You kept waking up throughout the night." Killua's face doesn't change but Gon sees those blue eyes get deep. That familiar look of worry in them.
"I did? I don't remember waking up." Gon blinks, as far as he's concerned he's had a good night sleep. He doesn't remember any bad dreams. "Did I keep you up Killua?" Gon frowns, trying to move his head to look at the time. It's 8 in the morning.
"No." Killua's hand comes up and starts to go through Gon's hair. It feels nice, his nails rubbing his scalp. "Do you feel cold?"
"No I'm feeling a little warm." Gon says after Killua leans in and kisses him softly. This lips lingering close as he speaks. "I wanna get out. I don't want to sleep anymore." Gon starts to wiggle in the blanket again. Killua's eyes get softer but there's this firm look to his face as well.
"If I let you go, you're not going to be using your hands. You moved them in your sleep and your knuckles started bleeding. And if anything feels wrong or if you see any of those people from the curse you will..." Killua trials off, waiting for Gon to fill in the blank.
"Tell you." Gon nods, giving Killua a serious look. "I won't lie to you again." Gon nuzzles Killua's forehead, the other male leaning into his touch before he pulls away. Killua lets go of him and starts to unwrap the blanket from Gon, the raven haired male wiggling along till he's out of the blanket. Killua grabs Gon's arms and inspects his hands. The bandages have a little pink around the knuckles but pretty much dry. "It's okay." Gon gives Killua a smile when there's this look in his blue eyes he doesn't like. "It doesn't hurt."
"Really?" Killua doesn't look convinced as he looks at the bandages around his chest. "What about this?" Killua touches his ribs lightly, Gon wincing slightly. "If you're in pain, Leorio can give you medication... Don't bare through the pain like you normally do."
"It's not too bad though Killua, honest. Just when you touch it and when I take a deep breath." When Killua gives him a pointed look, Gon sticks out his tongue, rubbing the back of his head. "I'm starving!" Gon's stomach starts to rumble before his eyes light up, remembering something that needs to be done. "Oh! That guy! I need to go talk to him-" When Gon starts to get out of bed, Killua grabs his arm, stopping him.
"Oh no you don't. You just said you're hungry. You're going to eat and get some pain meds." Killua really is fussing over him like a mother. Gon's never seen him like this. There was this one time when he got a fever and couldn't get out of bed. He remembers Killua teasing him but when he realized he was being serious, his face fell and he was by Gon's side the whole day. The difference between then and now is that Killua's eyes have no room for negotiation. Gon has to do what Killua wants. Killua is openingly showing his feelings and being firm about this. Gon can respect that but...
"I want to go see him now Killua. I'm not that hungry. Oh! Maybe we could get food for that guy and we can all have breakfast together while we talk!" Gon's eyes light up at his idea.
"Gon this guy is our enemy. We can't just eat breakfast with him. Besides, I don't he could stomach anything down." Killua's eyes get dark but his face doesn't change. "Lets just eat breakfast, me and you Gon." Killua's voice gets softer again and he kisses Gon's cheek. "I could make you blue berry pancakes again."'
Gon's stomach rumbles, his cheeks flushing from Killua kissing the corner of his mouth and from getting so excited about the aspect of pancakes. Killua's pancakes. "W-What about the guy? He should get something to eat and I want to talk-"
"Leorio will feed him." Killua waves him off. "If you eat alone with me, you'll get my pancakes. If you want to eat with that guy, you get no pancakes."
Gon bites his lip. He really wants to talk to the fox stealer guy as soon as possible but at the same time he really wants Killua's pancakes. "Can't I have both?" Gon gives Killua his puppy dog eyes trying to touch him with his hands only for Killua to stop him by his arm.
"Can't use your hands." Killua gives him a stern look before he lightly kisses Gon's right hand. "And no. You can't have both. One or the other." When Gon starts to chew on his lip, Killua smirks. "Come on Gon~ You know you want my PANCAKES." Killua chuckles when he sees Gon's mouth water. "Soft and fluffy. Mmm." Killua leans close, smirking when he hears Gon's stomach growl in protest.
"You win!" Gon throws his arms In the air, pouting. "Using pancakes against' me Killua. That's unfair. And when I'm hungry."
"I always play dirty." Killua gives him a wink, which Gon only pouts more. "Welp let me get to cooking then." Killua gets off the bed, stretching his waist back before cracking his fingers. "I'll call Leorio to watch you while I cook-"
"I'll just come with you!" Gon gets out of bed, he gets a little dizzy and Killua is in front of him in seconds. He doesn't grab him but he's there. Just in case. Gon takes a deep breath before he grins, taking a couple of steps before he gets his bearings again.
Killua gives him a look over before crossing his arms. "I guess you can. I'd rather keep my eye on you anyway." Killua watches Gon as he walks towards the door, in nothing but his shorts, his chest bare exposed. When Gon goes to open the door, Killua glares. "What did I say?" Killua moves so he's in front of Gon and he opens the door. "No using your hands."
"I can't use them at all?' Gon pouts when he tries to hold Killua's hand only for Killua to scold him. "Not even to touch you?"
"They were bleeding pretty bad last night Gon. If you want them to heal properly you need to not move them." Killua gives him that stern look but...Gon catches the playfulness hidden in those blue orbs.
"You're teasing me." Gon puffs out his cheeks as he walks next to Killua. "Touching you won't hurt my hands."
"I think it will." Killua gives him a side way glance, his lips turning up in a smirk before he looks forward.
"Definably teasing me." Gon huffs, stomping a bit louder as they go down the stairs towards the kitchen.
"Don't puff out your cheeks. You might not be able to touch me but...I can touch you." Killua's hand snakes around Gon's waist and he pulls the other boy towards him. Gon feels his heart flutter at feeling Killua's hand resting on his hip bone.
"But I wanna touch you." Gon still says stubbornly as they get to the kitchen. When Killua ignores him to open the door for him, Gon walks in quickly, getting away from Killua's hand that's around his waist. If he can't touch Killua, then he feels like Killua shouldn't be able to touch him. Killua notices this and he smirks though Gon doesn't see it. "Should we make something for Leorio and Kurapika too? Do you think they would like breakfast with us-"
"Don't you think it would be better with just us?" Killua tensed at Kurapika's name but he plays it off by getting out all the pots and pans he'll need.
"Killua..." Gon frowns at his lover who is working on getting all the ingredients out. "If you're mad at Kurapika that's okay but you shouldn't tell him to stay away. You two should work it out. We're all friends-"
"Gon." Killua doesn't stop with his movements, working effectively but his tone has changed. " He is no friend of mine. He has wronged me in a way I can't forgive-"
"But I kept the curse from you too Killua! So why can you forgive me-"
"Because you're Gon! And I could tell you were scared and...I know how you think. You thought you could tough it out. You didn't want to show weakness. But Kurapika is a different story. He was only thinking about Leorio and himself. He put that idea in your head and of course you held on to it. Kurapika should have told us. He could have told us to keep it secret that we know and we could have been helping more with figuring all this out. There's so many things he could have done. And he didn't."
"But I got him to promise he wouldn't-"
"That wasn't in till recently. He told us everything. Guilty conscious. I'll be around him because you're friends with him Gon but I will not be nice. I will not make friends with him-"
"Don't blame Kurapika for what's happening to me Killua. He's not the reason for this." Gon watches as Killua stirs the mixture quickly, not turning to look at him.
"He's the reason it's gotten this bad." Killua growls. Gon can feel Killua's aura is leaking out. It's rage.
"Killua." Gon walks over and lays his head between Killua's shoulder blades, letting his own aura mingle with Killua's. The ex-assassin takes deep breathes, Gon's aura calming him down, if just a little bit. "Everything's going to be okay. You don't have to get mad at Kurapika. I feel pretty good today. We'll find this guy, we'll get Clover and then we won't have to worry about this curse anymore. Then we can get back on the road to find Ging!" Gon smiles thinking about it, nuzzling his head against Killua's back. His tense shoulders slowly relaxing.
"We will find this guy. We will get Clover." Killua nods slowly as he pours the batter in the pan, starting to cook the pancakes. Gon keeps letting his aura mingle with Killua's, covering his lover in something like a warm blanket.
"We'll stay together and go on many adventures. I want to be with Killua forever." Gon kisses between Killua's shoulder blades, loving how Killua is getting warmer.
Killua's cheeks get pink but his blue eyes have that light back to them as he flips the pancakes. He takes a deep breath before letting it out. "Yeah...He's still not my friend Gon-"
"Can you just try to make up? Please? For me?" Gon kisses Killua's cheek, getting him to blush more.
"Whatever. I won't kill him. That's all I can promise." Killua grumbles but he's melting into Gon's touch.
"Okay!" Gon smiles. He knows Killua. After all this is over he should be fine. Probably. Hopefully.
Gon spends the rest of the time leaning on Killua, drooling on him, watching him cook. He can't wait for it. And he's itching to talk to that guy. He knows he'll be able to get information out of him.
Just when Killua is getting the pancakes onto plates they hear Leorio yelling all the way from his room.
Gon and Killua look at each other immediately, sharing at look. They take off running...well Killua does. He picks Gon up and runs with him up the stairs, making sure he's not in a position to get hurt. Gon huffs. He can't even run. Killua overly worries over him. But honestly, right now he doesn't mind much. Gon wouldn't be as fast with his hurt ribs.
Gon feels anxious when he hears Leorio yell again, he grips his fists, his aura building, ready for a fight. Killua kicks open Leorio and Kurapika's door, Gon's eyes widen at what he sees.
The man that Gon saw back in the dungeon is on the floor, his bones are all contorted and cracked. He's in nothing but his boxers, his bones sticking out dangerously to the point where it looks like they're going to rip through the skin. It looks like wire was binding this man...he pulled it off of him by wiggling his body, skinning his arms and back. There's burn marks covering his back and cuts in his stomach. There's a long scratch down the man's face that will leave a scar, one of his green eyes looking to the left while his other looks forward. The left eye looks bloody...as if it was hastily shoved back in. It looks wrong, like a doll you just shove an eye in.
Gon can't help to watch in horror as this man crawls forward, groaning, a couple of his teeth missing. Leorio is standing on the couch like this man is a mouse, his eyes wide and his mouth open. Kurapika is watching the man walk with blank gray eyes. He has his sword in his hand.
Killua has gone stiff and his bangs are covering his eyes. Killua doesn't have to say anything. No one does. Gon already knows that the state of this man was caused by Killua. "Put me down Killua." Gon says firmly. Killua does so.
"I...I n-need..." This man's mouth is so dry. Gon can hear him smack his lips just to be able to say those words.
"Leorio hand me that water bottle." Gon looks over at Leorio, there's a bottle water next to him. Leorio looks over at him before he throws the bottle. Killua catches it before Gon can. Gon holds out his hand. Killua looks at him a moment before handing him the bottle.
"Don't get too close Gon-" Killua starts.
"It will be okay. I don't think he can do much in this state anyway." Gon frowns before he walks up to this man, his gut twisting. This feels wrong and he doesn't like it. Killua is close by his side, watching him carefully. Gon knows he doesn't feel guilt for what he's done to this man, more so that he's made Gon upset.
"Here's some water. We're not gong to hurt you anymore." Gon gets on his knees in front of this man, uncapping the bottle before putting it to this man's lips. Gon watches as those green eyes, at least the right one slowly looks at him. There's a recognition there and he drinks the bottle greedily, his arms snapping back into place so he can grab the bottle and drink. "Leorio, can you tend to his wounds?" Gon looks over at his friend.
"...I can but his left eye..." Leorio frowns, rubbing his arm.
Gon nods his head. "Do all you can." Gon smiles when this man looks at him again. "We'll get you fixed up. Maybe if you get Clover to lick you, she'll be able to heal your eye!"
"...Really?" The man looks at Gon. "She c-can?" His eye shifts down.
"If you tell us where she is we can bring you to Clover and I can talk her into licking you." Gon watches this man shift.
"I c-can't..." The man frowns. "She...She needs..."
"Who's she?" Gon presses, watching Killua circling the man, he's just waiting for this man to attack Gon.
"M-My everything..."
"Do you need the fox to help her?"
"...I-I..."
"We already know that you're working for someone. Let's stop playing the games. Who are you working for?" Killua gets impatient. Gon sees the man flinch and he frowns.
"Tell me more about her." Gon gets this man's attention again. Then...The demon smiles. It's haunting and soft at the same time.
"She's the greatest. So smart and strong. I o-owe her my life." His cheeks get pink. Gon can see Leorio hide behind Kurapika, saying something about 'creepy'.
"Is she your lover?" Gon smiles at the change.
"O-Oh n-no!" He squeaks before wincing. "W-W-We're just friends! Good friends!"
"I bet you want to be more than friends." Gon wiggles his finger in his face, getting the other male to squeak.
"N-No...s-stop it Gon..." his eye shifts before he locks his eye with Gon. "I would like to help you...you remind me of her but I can't."
"Why can't you?" Gon tilts his head. Everyone is watching with sightly widen eyes. Because Gon is doing what he said he could do. He's getting information. Slowly but surely.
"B-Because...I need to keep her safe." He whispers.
"Safe-" Gon starts only to feel a sharp pain in his head. He groans, holding his head with his hands. It feels like someone is ripping open his skull and is poking his brain. His eye starts to twitch and his hands burn. There's a sharp ringing in his ears, his breathing uneven.
"Gon!" The raven haired male blinks when he feels Killua next to him, his eyes wide, a frown on his lips. He looks worried. Leorio and Kurapika are closer, both frowning as well. Gon tilts his head, his eyes widening when he gets a good look at Killua. He's so big! His muscles are huge and his hair is so long. And he's tall! Did Killua have a growth spurt over night?
"Wow! Killua! You got big!" Gon's eyes widen. "Did you drink a lot of milk or something?"
"Huh?" Killua looks confused.
"Kurapika, Leorio! You're here! and You guys look older! And bigger! What have you all been doing? And why wasn't I involved?" Gon pouts before he looks down at himself, his eyes widening. "Wow! I'm big too! I didn't have all these muscles yesterday! Well I did but they weren't as big." Gon chuckles before he frowns. "What happened to my chest? And my hands? Did I lose another battle in Heaven's area?" Gon tenses when he sees the man on the ground. "Wha?! What happened to you sir? Are you alright?! We need to get you medical assistance!"
"Gon what are you talking about?" Killua grabs Gon by the shoulders. He seems to be freaking out, his blue eyes shaking. "why are you talking about Heaven's arena? Why don't you remember how you got your wounds?"
"I'm not sure. I just can't remember. And aren't we at Heaven's arena? Did I fight Hisoka? Did he beat me so hard I forgot?" Gon pouts, his eyes getting fiery.
Killua looks horrified. Gon's not sure why. Maybe he lost really bad.
"Gon...how old are you?" Kurapika asks, swallowing. He looks pale too. And Leorio is frowning deeply.
"You forgot?" Gon tilts his head. "I'm 12!" Gon grins before he looks down at himself. "But I guess I don't look 12 anymore! We all had a growth spurt or something! Maybe I'm strong enough to defeat Hisoka now!-"
"No. shit." Killua arms are trembling slightly before he grips his hair, taking a deep breath. "You've...You've forgotten everything? What about macaroons? Greed island?"
"Uh macaroons are something Mito makes...and what's a 'greed island?' Is that a new place to explore?" Gon's eyes start to sparkle with excitement. Kilua's eyes get watery. Gon's not sure why. He frowns before his eyes widen. Killua's eyes get so dark with rage...blood lust. Killua turns his gaze on the man who's on the floor.
"Tell me who the fuck you're working for and where he is. Now." Killua's voice is so dark.
"Killua what is going on? What has this man done?" Gon gets in front of Killua, holding his arms out. Killua looks so mean. Gon's never seen this look on his face before. He's seen him kill that guy during the hunter exam but...there wasn't this rage. There wasn't this look.
Killua is breathing in through his nose, his hands turning into claws. "Explain to me what's going on? What happened? Why can't I remember? The last thing I remember was going to my fight with Hisoka...Did I hit my head or something? Can you explain to me what happened while I was out? I'm sure it's not too much I forgot!" Gon smiles, trying to cheer his friend back up but if anything...Killua's eyes seem to get watery again.
"Killua you need to calm down. You'll end up killing this guy." Kurapika says, taking a cautious step forward. "Take Gon to your room...try to reorient him-"
"I'm going to kill you." Killua snarls over at Kurapika, causing Gon to gasp. He looks at Killua with wide eyes, a deep frown on his face. "He thinks he's 12! He thinks we're suppose to be back at Heaven's arena! He's forgotten so much!-"
"I'm sure Gon will remember once we break the curse or even sooner! Don't spend your anger out on me, try to reorient him to what's going on now."
"Killua why are you mad at Kurapika? And why are you saying I think I'm 12? I am 12 and so are you! Though I do look older...and my voice Is really deep. So is yours! It's all smooth and silky. Hehe I didn't think your voice would sound like this when you got older!" Gon smiles, trying to lighten up his friends. He frowns when Killua's shoulders slump before he picks Gon up and cradles him against his chest.
Gon winces and can't help to raise his eyebrow, looking up at Killua with confusion. Killua has never carried me like this before...I've seen it once before like when someone gets married. Gon's confused expression isn't returned by Killua. His bangs are covering his face. He walks them out of the room, Gon looking around and frowning. This isn't Heaven's arena. "Where are we Killua?" Gon tilts his head when they walk into another room. His eyes light up when he sees a puppy sleeping in the corner. "Ohh dog! So cute!" Gon winces again only to blink when Killua places him down on the bed with such tenderness. It makes Gon feel a little strange.
"Gon look at me." Killua's voice sounds different and it's harder for the 12 year old to understand. Those blue eyes are looking deep into his own, yet his face is stone. "You're not 12 years old. You're 16 about to turn 17."
"What? No I'm not. Killua I told you during the hunter exam I'm 12! Though I don't know how I got big." Gon tilts his head, trying to remember. Killua is starting to frown again.
"You really don't remember anything? None of these past four years?" Killua bites his lip. "Nothing in this past month?"
"I remember the past four years. I spent most of them with Mito, helping her around the house and exploring the forest." Gon smiles but he frowns when Killua's aura seems unsteady. "You do look older though Killua. You grew and got really strong." Gon touches Killua's bicep, it twitches under his touch.
"So have you." Killua cups Gon's cheeks, making sure the other male is looking at him. "You're grown Gon. It's been four years. Don't you remember?" Killua bite his lip. There's a hint of desperation to him. "Don't you remember...this?" Killua leans in and kisses Gon on the mouth. Gon's eyes widen. Killua is kissing him! On the lips! What does that mean? Killua taste like vanilla...Gon's never kissed like this before. He's given pecks on the cheeks but this feels really different. Who would have thought his first kiss would be with Killua! Gon's heart flutters. He feels really happy.
Gon's head starts to sting and he groans, a ringing filling his ears as images of Gon and Killua sitting on the beach, kissing under the stars invades his mind. Killua is touching him, rubbing his back, begging him to remember. Gon keeps seeing and hearing things...and soon the ringing stops.
"Ugh...my head." Gon groans.
"Gon? Greed island?"
Gon blinks. "What' about greed island?" Gon looks around the room. "When did we get in here? Weren't we going to get pancakes?"
Killua lets out a loud sigh of relief, his eyes get watery and he hugs Gon. Gon tilts his head, not really getting what's going on. "Don't ever forget us. Everything that we've done and accomplished together."
"I would never do that." Gon wraps his arms around Killua, kissing his cheek. Killua completely relaxes.
"I really thought you forgot everything...I was worried." Killua lets out a laugh before he nuzzles Gon's head.
"What did I forget?" Gon frowns. He just doesn't understand what's going on.
"Nothing important." Killua rubs Gon's cheek, trying to sooth him, those blue eyes looking at Gon like he's the only person in the world.
"Oh I know! I want to talk to that guy! After we have pancakes of course...but the funny thing is I'm not really that hungry." Gon tilts his head, rubbing his stomach. "I feel kind of...blah."
"You feel sick?" Killua is messaging Gon's shoulders, the ex-assassin's attention is all on him. Those blue eyes of his seem different though. His aura isn't unstable but it's not like it usually is. Gon doesn't understand why. They were just talking about eating breakfast together and getting pancakes.
"I guess so. My head kind of feels funny and my stomach is cramping up." Gon speaks honestly, just like he told Killua he would.
"You're breaking out in a sweat." Killua's voice stays calm as he quickly gets up and runs into the bathroom. He comes back with a wet wash clothe and starts to wipe Gon's face with it. The cold water feels really nice.
"Ah that' feels good." Gon reaches up. "I can do it Killua-"
"I told you. You can't use your hands." Killua doesn't say anything more as he wipes down Gon's cheek towards his neck. Gon closes his eyes, feeling a relief from the cold. He's really starting to burn up. "I want to do this." Killua cools down Gon's neck before he works his way down, getting his chest. "Keep talking to me Gon. Tell me what you're feeling."
"I think the rag is working. I'm starting to feel cooler. And my stomach isn't hurting as bad...now I think i'm just hungry." Gon grins before his eyes close in his smile. "Killua, You don't have to be so worried you know? Everything's going to be fine! We'll find Clover and then go on a whole bunch of adventures together!" Gon just wants Killua to smile. He looks so tense and serious about this. And his touch is so tender like if he would press too hard he would break him.
Killua frowns at his words before he swallows. "What...what if you forget about me? How will we go on adventures then? You don't even remember already saying this to me."
"Forget about you? Are you kidding? I could never forget about you Killua!" Gon's eyes get wide at the thought. "I already said that to you? Huh...maybe I just need to eat something."
"but what if you do forget me Gon." Killua's voice seems softer. Quieter. "What if we break the curse and you're damaged to the point you don't remember me or the things we did-"
"Killua." Gon cups Killua's face, even though Killua told him not to use his hands, to make sure the ex-assassin is looking at him. He gives him a firm look, ignoring the strange laughter he heard in the back of his mind. "I don't think I could forget you. Even with this curse but if some how I were to forget you...I know that as soon as I see you, I will know you're important to me. That there's something special about you. I'm sure you could make me remember everything." Gon smiles at his friend who is looking at him with large eyes. "You're Killua! You can do anything."
"Gon..." Killua's body seems to relax if only for a bit.
"I'll try my hardest to fight this curse Killua. I don't want to forget you. Ever. I can't imagine the pain that would put you through...Because I know if you forgot me..." Gon frowns, an image of the other Killua in his mind smirking at him. There's a sharp pain.
"I'd kill myself..."
"I'd Kill him."
"You don't have to worry about that idiot. I couldn't forget you if I wanted to." Killua huffs, he seems back to normal. "If some crazy way I did...I know you would be able to make me remember too." Killua looks away, his cheeks getting pink. "Because I...trust you too. And I know you can do anything."
Gon can't help to giggle at his lover. Killua gets all flustered about saying something like this, something Gon already knows. Killua has been expressing his emotions more since they made love but Gon thought he wouldn't have so much trouble afterward. Killua will always be Killua though.
"Hey Killua..." Gon's face gets serious and Killua seems to pick up on it because he turns his head towards him, giving him his full attention, his blush gone. "...I heard some voices in my head." Gon rubs his scalp.
"What did they say?" Killua catches Gon's frown. He gives him a firm look. "It's okay. Tell me. No more holding back."
"Just that one voice telling me to kill myself again...and the other one that wants to kill you." Gon rubs his arm. "I really don't like the other voice Killua. He makes me so angry-"
"Don't let them get to you. That voice can talk about Killing me all it wants but it's not going to. You got to keep your cool Gon."
"I am." Gon hugs Killua, burying his head between his neck. The other male tenses only to completely relax and quickly wrap his arms around his waist. Gon takes in Killua's scent and feels his hair brush against his check. It's calming. Gon's lips are pressed Against Killua's neck. He doesn't want to hear anymore voices or ringing. There's something he can't remember and it's bothering him.
Gon licks Killua's neck, getting his shoulders to stiffed. He nibbles on the sensitive skin, enjoying how Killua's body gets warmer just from him doing this. "S-Stop that. You need to rest." Killua's voice is stern but Gon heard the waver in it when Gon bit harder into his neck.
Killua is so stressed out. Gon can feel it in his aura and the way he's acting. Gon doesn't like it. He doesn't like that he's causing this. He just wants Killua to feel good. "Let me do this." Gon sucks on the tender skin, Killua tilting his head, a soft groan leaving his lips. "I want to."
"You'll make me want it..." Killua's hand has started to wander over Gon's body. It started rubbing up and down his back only to go lower where it now rest on his bottom. This action and Killua's sexy deep voice only makes Gon try harder. He wants to hear more sounds come out of his lover. He kisses up the neck before he licks Killua's ear up the shell. He takes his earlobe into his mouth, taking the earring's chain with it. He bites and tugs lightly, earning him a moan that sends a spark of excitement down his spine. "Gon..." Killua's voice is a growl as his hand starts to grope his ass making Gon feel all warm. He opens his eyes only to widen them when he sees something standing behind the bed.
The other Killua smirks, his arms crossed as he takes in the two with a calculating look. "Keep going. I don't mind watching. But when are you going to tell him about us?"
Gon can't help to give this person a confused look. The other Killua just smirks at him. Gon's eyes widen and his attention is stolen when he feels a warm hand on his bare bottom. Killua's hands are down his pants now, groping him with no restraint. Gon's cheeks get pink from the treatment and from the fact that when he looks up, the other Killua is still watching, this hungry look coming to his eyes. Gon feels uncomfortable.
"I know you said you wanted me on bottom...but I don't think we should have sex yet. You're still recovering. I could give you a little...something." Killua's voice is hot against his ear, his arousal obvious now that Gon knows what this voice means. He kisses Gon's neck as one of his hands goes down his pants to grab his member. Gon squeaks from the much wanted fiction, a moan leaving his lips as Killua continues to grope him and now stroke him.
Gon is feeling good and he doesn't want Killua to stop but...the other Killua is bothering him. The way he watches, licking his lips, those eyes so dark...Gon doesn't' like how he's reacting to him watching. "Killua can we change the position?" Gon pulls back to look into Killua's eyes. He finds his mouth go dry when he looks into those blue half lidded eyes full of lust. Killua's white locks are framing his face and his arm muscles shift every time he strokes and gropes him. Killua really is too sexy.
"To what?" Killua reluctantly lets go of him. "Do you want to lay down? That'll be more comfortable. I'll get some lube." Gon moves so he's laying down on the bed while Killua gets some of the lube. Gon licks his lips, wanting this. Wanting to feel good by Killua's hand but...the other Killua is still watching.
"You're a little slut aren't you? You like me watching." The other Killua chuckles getting Gon to glare at him. Gon can't lay on his back either. He doesn't want to see the other Killua at all. Gon turns on his stomach and buries his face in the pillow.
"Do you want to go to sleep?" Killua voice is blank but Gon catches the hint of disappointment.
"No...I want you to do it like this."
"I can't when you're laying on your stomach-" Killua stops talking when Gon bends his knees, putting his butt in the air. Gon keeps his head in the pillow.
"Is this better?"
Killua swallows. Gon thinks he hears Killua mumble something like ' if you weren't hurt I'd...' but Gon can't hear the rest. Killua pulls down his shorts slowly. This position is actually comfortable. It's kind of exciting not being able to see either. He can feel Killua's eyes on him. He's staring at his ass and Gon's heart is just beating too fast.
Gon hears the cap of the lube opening and then the squirting sound. Gon holds his breath, anticipating feeling Killua's firm hands on his aching manhood. There's shifting behind him, Gon's eyebrow raising. His heart races when he feels something warm near his balls before they're sucked into a place of moist warmth. Gon gasps, his eyes widening in the pillow as Killua licks his balls that Gon knows are in his mouth. It's such a different feeling and it feels so good. Gon didn't even think you could do this.
Gon moans into the pillow, gripping the sheets. His eyes widen once again when Gon feels Killua's lubed finger rubbing at his entrance as he sucks and kisses his balls. Gon's breathing is uneven and his chest is starting to hurt but he ignores it. This feels too good. Gon tenses when Killua shoves his index finger in but he sucks him at the same time, the two sensations clash together and Gon can help to arch his back and gasp. The pleasure and the slight pain feel really good.
"Gon...you're so warm." Killua's breath can be felt on his neither regions as he pulls out his index finger to push in his middle finger with his index. "Does it feel good? My fingers inside you?"
Gon's face flares up but he keeps his cool.
"A-Ah Killua it-" Gon gasps again when Killua moves his body up so he can take the head of his member in his mouth.
"Is Gon still saying he's 12-" Leorio walks into their room. He looks at the two with wides before he screams. "My eyes! My eyes!"
Gon squeaks before he turns so he's on his back so he can cover himself, usually he doesn't care about being naked in front of his friends but this feels a bit different.
"Leorio you idiot!" Killua growls, using his body to cover Gon. "Get out!"
"Okay, okay! But is he alright?! I just wanted to check on my friend!" Leorio groans.
"I'm fine Leorio!" Gon gives him a sheepish smile though Leorio still isn't looking at them. "Hows that guy doing?"
Leorio seems to calm down and he stares at the wall. "...That's another reason I came in." Killua pulls up Gon's pants for him, making sure he's alright before turning his attention to Leorio. "After you left he started freaking out about something. He kept saying Gon's name...I was worried something might have happened to you guys-"
Just as Leorio says this, his words fade away. Gon feels an overwhelming sense of doom, it hits him like a wave and it sweeps him off his feet. He feels sick, the room is spinning. Killua's words morph into something dark and scary. Gon closes his eyes tightly and grips his head. The ringing is unbearable. There's a weight on his chest and he can't breathe.
Someone is grabbing him. It's all dark. There's yelling ,panic. Gon tries to speak but all that comes out is a scream.
"It hurts, it hurts! Why won't you just kill me? Please?"
"Destroy everything. No one deserves to live."
Something snaps in his mind and all the screaming stops. The room stops spinning and he can see Killua shaking him, looking at him with those blue eyes trembling. Leorio is right next to him, holding his arm as well, looking pale.
"Gon! Gon say something!" Killua shakes him, he looks so worried...and hidden is a fear.
Gon opens his mouth to say something, to tell Killua he's okay...but nothing comes out. Gon frowns and he tries to stay something again, a squeak comes out. Leorio and Killua look at each other, that tension seems to leave the air but there's something else building as Killua looks back, a deep frown on his lips.
"Gon what's wrong?"
Gon opens his mouth but nothing comes out again. He frowns and starts moving his hands before pointing at his throat. He mouths 'I have no voice!'
"You can't speak?" Killua breaths in through his nose, concern in his eyes only for a flash of anger to fill those beautiful orbs.
"He's lost his voice?" Leorio frowns before he moves so he's next to Gon. He starts to feel on Gon's throat before he tells Gon to open his mouth. He does so. "There doesn't appear to be anything wrong. The curse is able to take away someones memories and voice?" Leorio starts to look over Gon's body before he touches Gon's chest. He winces but he can't make any sound of pain. "That was some seizure you just had, I need to reassess your chest. I hope it didn't cause anymore damage."
'I had a seizure?" Gon tries to say but no sound comes out. Gon looks over at Killua only to see the ex-assassin staring at him with such a deep frown, his hands gripped at his sides. There's also something else in his eyes...a dark look. A blood lust.
"Leorio watch over Gon." Killua's voice is calm as he gets off the bed and starts to walk towards the door. Gon can feel his aura shift. Killua can't even contain his feelings, Gon sees the sparks starting to go around his body.
'Killua!' Gon tries to yell at his lover but he can't. Leorio keeps him from getting up too.
"Gon you need to rest. You may have more damage to your ribs." Leorio says this before Killua leaves. The ax-assassin's shoulders tense before his body sparks, his electricity hitting the light and breaking it. Then Killua is out of the room, his dark aura can still be felt.
'I'm okay Leorio. Killua is going to really hurt that guy.' Gon mouths as Leorio gets to work on unwrapping his bandages on his chest
"It hurts?" Leorio tilts his head, trying to read his lips. Gon can tell he can't really understand what he's saying. "I'm sure it does. You had me scared to death for a minute there. Your eyes rolled back and you started seizing pretty badly." Leorio takes a deep breath before shaking his head. "Killua is going to really hurt that guy again but...maybe he has to. This curse looks like it's getting worse, I'm getting worried."
'He doesn't have to hurt him more. That guy won't talk with the use of pain...Killua should know that-' Gon winces again when Leorio takes off his bandages. Leorio looks at his chest, touching around his chest and watching where Gon grimaces.
"Luckily it doesn't feel like there's anymore damage but we it would probably be safer to get a x-ray."
'this is annoying.' Gon frowns as Leorio wraps his chest up again. He doesn't like not having his voice and he doesn't like how weak he feels right now. He wants to get up and run after Killua to stop him.
"Let me give you some pain medication." Leorio starts to move-
'I have to stop Killua!' Gon jumps out of bed and starts to run towards the hotel door.
"oi Gon! Don't move around so suddenly-"
There's a high pitched scream from down the hall followed by Kurapika shouting. Gon's heart sinks, wondering if Kurapika is okay-
Leorio runs past Gon and out of the door. He's running to help Kurapika. Gon tries to run too but there's a sharp pain in his head and he ends up falling on his knees. It's so annoying. How weak he is. Right now Kurapika could need him and he can't do anything. What if Killua needs him? Gon starts to crawl towards Leorio's room, his amber eyes showing nothing but determination. He's crawling in the middle of the hallway and it hurts his ribs.
"Ohh what's this?" Gon stops crawling when he hears that voice. He glances over slowly, Catching Hisoka who is standing off to the side, a smirk on his lips. "Crawling on your hands and knees? How entertaining." Hisoka chuckles.
Gon glares and he opens his mouth to say something back but nothing comes out. He hates it. Hisoka stops smiling and he raises his eyebrow. "Oh? What's wrong? Cat got your tongue?" Hisoka starts to walk closer towards him. Gon feels a burst of anger from seeing this man. He's the one who told Killua. He's the one who made him have that huge freak out. Gon focuses his aura in his feet before he swings his feet, trying to knock the older man down only for Hisoka to jump up and land in front of him. With Gon's injuries he's not that fast.
"Feisty!" Hisoka licks his lips when Gon glares up at him with those amber eyes full of fire. "Ohh don't look at me like that Gon. You make it hard for me to control myself." He grains, hugging himself.
'what do you want?' Gon builds up his aura, ignoring the burning. He's been useless all this time. He can fight. He can still fight. He'll show Hisoka all the new skills he's learned.
"Things are going too well you see. I think it's time to shake it up a bit." Hisoka squats down so he's level with Gon.
'I need to help my friends.' Gon starts to crawl around the strange man only for Hisoka to grab his ankle. Gon kicks and gets himself out of Hisoka's hold.
"What will you do when you get in there Gon? Right now all your friends are fighting." Hisoka stands up, looking amused when Gon frowns. "Kurapika tried to stop Killua from killing the poor demon and now Kurapika has Killua's wrath focused on him. Of course Leorio is trying to protect his lover. It's a shame really. Watching their friendship fall apart."
'Killua doesn't mean it...It's just because of what's happen. Once the curse is gone it will be fine." Gon forces himself up and he limps towards the hotel room, hoping he can get in there and stop this before anyone gets seriously hurt. They're friends. They shouldn't be fighting like this. The curse is tearing his friends apart.
"Maybe, maybe not." Hisoka kicks Gon's back getting him to fall on his chest again, getting the breath knocked right out of him. "Oh that's no fun. You can't make a sound. It's scary isn't? I could kill you right now and no one would know it. You're all alone little Gon."
'I was scared of you as a child...maybe I still am but I'm stronger! I will defeat you.' Gon turns quickly and he's proud when he makes Hisoka unstable. Despite the pain, he hits Hisoka in his lower leg, getting him to fall on his side.
"Ohhhhh Gon! You feel so good! Mmmm." Hisoka starts to make some...very strange noises. He's being so loud that Gon's sure the whole hotel can hear him. "So nice and warm mmmmm." Gon tilts his head, just staring at Hisoka like he's crazy. Hisoka winks, smirking.
A few seconds later Killua breaks through the wall, his face red and his sparks flying, breaking all the lights in the hallway. His claws are out and his teeth bared. When he looks over and sees Gon laying on the ground with a confused expression, and Hisoka laying next to him, he calms just a little bit but that anger grows.
"Get away from him." Killua snarls about to charge only for Hisoka to grab Gon by the neck and lift him up.
"Come any closer and I'll snap his neck." Hisoka smirks, getting Killua to skid to a stop, his glare deepening.
"Gon!" Leorio comes out with Kurapika, the blonde is bleeding from a wound to his shoulder but other than that he looks okay. Kurapika gets out his swords when he sees Hisoka, everyone preparing for battle. Gon doesn't like how he has to be saved by his friends. It's not just this either. It's the curse too. Can Gon do nothing by himself?
'Don't help me I'm fine!' Gon tries to reassure his friends but he can't even do that. He doesn't' have his voice. He tries to kick his legs to get himself down but Hisoka just tightens his grip on his neck getting him to gasp.
"Hisoka!" Killua growls.
"Right, where are my manners? Now that I've gotten all your attention..." Hisoka smirks. "Gon isn't looking to good is he? The curse has gotten worse. My poor Gon is in pain. Isn't it horrible Killua?" Hisoka digs his nails into Gon's neck getting him to wince. "So much pain."
Killua's eyes get narrow and so dark. Killua wants to kill. He's holding himself in place, glancing at the hand that's squeezing Gon's neck, to Gon's face and then back to Hisoka.
"What do you want? Let Gon go." Killua's voice is so deep. It sends shivers down Gon's spine. A good kind of shiver though.
"This tension! I love it!"
"Hisoka stop playing around! You of all people should know Gon doesn't need this right now." Kurapika shouts, his eyes turning red.
"you look at me as if I'm the bad guy. While you three were fighting each other, Gon was out here all alone, crawling on his hands and knees trying to reach you. I was beating him around and the poor thing couldn't make a noise to call for help." Everyone's face falls, there's a hint of guilt in Killua's eyes before he glares, his aura growing. "You're worse than me. Knowing Gon is like this but leaving him alone. So horrible."
"You're the ass hole who's hurting him and choking him right now!" Leorio shouts, pointing an angry finger at Hisoka.
"You idiot! I told you to stay with Gon!" Killua turns those angry eyes on Leorio.
"How the hell could I stay with him when you started to attack Kurapika?!" Leorio snaps.
"You lost control of your angry Killua. All our actions put Gon in danger-" Kurapika starts.
"I don't want to hear anything from you!" Killua snaps, his fingers turning into claws that are pointed towards Kurapika. "I blame all of this on you!"
"Be reasonable." Kurapika makes a stance. Gon can only watch as his friends are about to fight again. He frowns. Why are they so angry with each other? Why can't they stop this?
"So it is true." Hisoka hums getting Gon to look at him. "The curse does effect people around the affected as well. That's what he was telling me!~"
'so this is all me?' Gon frowns before looking back at his friends. He wants to say something but he still doesn't have his voice.
"I'm pissed off at you Kurapika! You didn't tell me about Gon and you're not telling me about other things! What kind of lover are you? And by the way, I hate when you're on top. You're too rough and it hurts." Leorio starts to yell at Kurapika, those brown orbs getting glazed over.
Kurapika's gray eyes get glazed over and he glares at Leorio. "Oh yeah? Well I hate how you snore during the night! I hate how you think you know everything because you are a doctor and how nosy you are. This is my business! I'm surprised you're not loose with all the people you've slept with! I might have to get myself checked for aids! I've been planning on doing that since we've been sleeping around!"
"How dare you?! I don't have aids! I didn't sleep with that many people, and maybe if you were around more and would actually talk to me I wouldn't have been going off with others!"
"Both of you, shut the hell up." Killua snaps, his voice so dark that Kurapika and Leorio look at him. "You're both at fault in my book. All you care about is Kurapika, and all you care about is Leorio. You haven't been thinking about Gon at all!" Killua's electricity starts to spread and he takes a step forward. Gon knows that stance. He's about to attack Kurapika. The blonde gets out his wooden sword and Leorio gets out his knife. They're really about to hurt each other.
Gon looks over at Hisoka only to see the other male smirking, this dark amusement in his eyes. Gon wiggles, trying to get out of his hold and to shout at his friends at the same time. Hisoka glances over at Gon, the young male glaring at him. 'let me go!'
To Gon's relief, he does. The raven haired male wastes no time. He runs to his friends just as they're charging on each other. He can't tell them to stop so he'll make them stop. He focuses his aura over his body and jumps in front of Killua, holding out his arms to blunt the blow of Killua's attack.
That dark look in Killua's eyes vanishes to one of surprise. He skids to a stop, just before his nails pierce gon's face. He hears Leorio and Kurapika skid to a stop behind him and he can feel the tip of Kurapika's sword right behind his head.
That could have ended horribly. Gon knows the danger he had just put himself in but he doesn't care. He glares at Killua, putting his hands on his hips before he looks behind him at the wide eyes of his other two friends.
Gon doesn't even have to say anything. The look on his face gets Leorio to rub the back of his head, Kurapika to frown, and Killua's eyes to shift. They know exactly how he's feeling right now.
'We're all friends. Why are you guys fighting each other? Hurting Kurapika and Leorio isn't going to help find Clover.' Gon hopes Killua can read his lips. The other male seems to be trying to. Killua takes a deep breath.
"I know, I know..." Killua rubs his head. "I got lost there for a minute..." Gon could feel his blood lust. He wanted to kill someone.
"Forgive me Gon." Kurapika bows his head. "I should not have played into Killua."
"Me either but I just had to protect Kurapika you know?" Leorio shifts.
'no more fighting.' Gon looks around at everyone, crossing his arms. When everyone nods, Gon smiles sightly, letting out a sigh of relief. He was able to stop it. HE was able to do something. Gon glance over just to see Hisoka is gone.
"That bastard took off." Killua growls when he notices this as well. Gon blinks when Killua wraps his arms around Gon, pulling him into his chest. He kisses Gon's cheek where his nails would have pierced if he hadn't stopped himself. "Sorry I wasn't there." Killua mumbles in his ear. Gon smiles and leans his head back. He's glad Killua has calmed down. Kurapika and Leorio seem back to normal too.
'it's okay. I could have handled it' Gon grins before he frowns and looks at Killua. 'what about that guy?'
"I wasn't able to touch him. Kurapika got in the way which started our fight." Killua grunts. Just as Kurapika is about to say something they hear that guy scream bloody murder. Gon's eyes widen and he looks at Killua. Killua looks confused as well. Everyone takes off running towards Leorio's room and bust in. They see Hisoka jump out of the window just as they come in. The demon is laying on the ground, shaking, crying, wailing.
"I did what he said...I did it...I did...so why? no..." He wails, howls, his body chancing before he looks over at Gon. Killua gets in front of him protectively, Kurapika and Leorio doing the same. "G-Gon!" He wails and starts to crawl over. Gon feels his heart ache. This man is calling out for help. Gon moves Killua out of he way so he can move closer but Killua grabs him and pulls him back.
"Are you crazy? Stay away from him." Killua gives him a firm look when Gon glares.
"G-Gon he's killed her!" This man wails and reaches for Gon's shoe. "I'm...It hurts...I can't...I'm going to lose it. I'm going to kill everyone-"
"Who killed her?" Gon's eyes widen when his voice comes back, everyone looking over at him. Killua sighs slightly in relief.
"The m-man..." His green eyes are flickering. "With the black eyes...He lied to me...he killed her. Gon..." This man looks up at his eyes. "She's gone, I failed her but...maybe I don't have to fail you. You remind me of her, I know if she was here, she would have liked you...In the woods south of the ship wrecked restaurant, you'll find a cabin. The fox is there, in a cage...also that man is there. He's the one who wants...t-to hurt you."
"The woods south of the ship wrecked restaurant." Killua's eyes light up. There's this hope, this urgency.
"I w-would hurry. When I get back up...who ever is in that cabin...I will kill." Tears fall down his face before his eyes roll back and he passes out on the floor. Gon frowns, reaching out to touch him only for Killua to grab his arm.
"We need to hurry up and get the fox and break this curse." Killua says impatiently, a tension in the air from being so close. "We can worry about him later!"
"...Okay." Gon nods before Killua pulls him out of the room, Leorio and Kurapika running by his side, both have serious expressions.
This man with the black eyes...he killed the person the demon held close. Gon doesn't understand the strange twisting of his stomach when he heard about this person. He has a bad feeling.
But what can he do about it? He's going to get Clover and break this curse. He'll make it so Killua can smile again without having to worry. Gon will be okay. It will all be okay.
Gon swears his life on it.
Hisoka chuckles, watching the four friends run out of the room. That worked perfectly. He licks his lips, groaning at this turn of events. By telling the demon a lie about his lover being dead, the demon actually told the group about where Illumi is. Illumi will be taken off guard. His plans will have a dent in them. Hisoka can't wait to watch. He wants to see If Killua will be able to fight his brother. He wants to see what Gon will do. He wants to watch all of them fight Illumi...and if he feels like it he may jump in. To help Illumi? Or to help Gon? Decisions, decisions...
Hisoka's smirk is too wide. This is going to be one hell of a climax, one that he has molded himself from the side lines. He can't wait to see all his little toys play...but which one does he hold more precious?
Gon or Illumi...hmmmm
He'll figure it out. He's more of a spontaneous guy anyway. Hisoka runs off to reach Illumi before the others do. Not to warn Illumi but to hide in the shadows to get a good spot.
Bring on the blood.