A/N: Hey everyone! I am sorry for the late updates! I went up to Fairbanks, Alaska for a bowling tournament. So, I was not able to update. I couldn't lug my husbands computer all the way up there. So, my chapters are not "late". I won't be doing another tournament until January, so the updates should stay pretty regular until then!

Again, I am sorry for the lateness! And thank you to everyone who has been reading. Seeing the numbers increase every day is heart warming and I do appreciate it! You guys were the best! :D

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The Awkwardness Ensues

"Calesta, I think we should talk." Albus had cornered me in a hallway.

It was the end of our first day. We just finished Potions with Professor Quigley. Albus and I were partners. Lucy was not in this class with me today. So, I barely spoke two words to the poor boy.

"Back up." I ordered. My hand was clenched around my wand.

Albus threw his hands and took two steps back. I continued remembering how to breathe. My mouth was dry.

"I'm going to make this clear once." I said slowly. My voice was shaky, "Calming you down was more important than my comfort. I'm not a cold hearted German like some of you may think." I cleared my throat, "Understand?"

Albus nodded his head in aknowledgement. He looked around, in agitation, everywhere, but my eyes. His feet shifting around. His hands resting on his hips.

"Look," I started. His hazel orbs snapped to my face, "I am sorry. I know what I did was confusing. Believe me, I am very confused myself and I did it." he scoffed at me.

"I don't know if you know what the hell you are doing." he stated angrily.

I leaned against the wall. I could feel the cool stone through my robes. His anger and frustration was plain on his face. My stomach turned in knots.

"I don't." I stated simply, "But I do know that I'm not trying to do it on purpose. I don't like hurting anyone's feelings." I took a gulp of air and stepped off the wall, "And I do know, I am sorry." this time when he nodded, he was calm.

"Dinner?" he whispered.

"Dinner." I responded.

My first week at Hogwarts went something like this:
1. Wake up
2. Go to breakfast.
3. See Scorpius, Albus and Lucy.
4. Go to class
5. In any class, sit next to Albus.
6. Each lunch in my dormitory.
7. After more classes sitting next to Albus, go to dinner.
8. Homework.
9. Sleep.
10. Repeat.

My butt finally stopped hurting. And no one tried to touch me. Especially if I was with a Potter or a Weasley or a Malfoy. Even more especially, if they were a girl.

This gave me plenty of time to observe the Potter/Weasley clan:
1. James, Albus, Lily - Siblings
2. Rose, Hugo - Siblings
3. Louis - Youngest of Bill and Fluer Weasley
4. Molly, Lucy - Siblings (Do Not Piss Off)
5. Fred, Roxanne - Siblings
6. Save for Molly and Lily, all pranksters.
7. All of them have a different shade of red hair. (Scorpius said it was from the Weasley side. All of them have been red heads and most have married red heads.)
8. Their eyes; James- Green, Albus- Hazel, Lily- Cinnamon brown, Rose- Hazel, Hugo- Blue, Louis- Blue, Molly- Bright blue, Lucy- Ice blue, Fred- Chocolate brown, Roxanne- Dark blue

They tended to travel in packs. Normally favorite cousins will walk with each. And their friends. I suppose it was to ensure that they still had their favorite cousin for summer vacation. Or maybe so they would always have someone around the castle with them. Scorpius and James were never really ever apart. They were brothers. Their last names did not matter.

So, it is now Friday night. Dinner is almost over. Scorpius, JAmes, Albus, Lucy and I were laughing. I was really happy. I stopped laughing and just gave them all a really good, long look. The four of them smiled at me. I started crying.

Good job, Calesta.

"What happened?" James whispered as he handed me a napkin.

"I'm just really happy." I replied, dabbing my eyes dry.

"So you cry?" Albus whispered, rather loudly.

"I'm a girl!" Lucy just giggled.

"It's okay, Calesta. My cousin is like his Uncle Ron. Emotional range of a teaspoon, that one." we both started laughing. Albus just huffed.

"Alright ladies and gentlemen!" James stood up, "I am going to Gryffindor Tower. Anyone care to join me?" he looked at us.

"Um, no, not me." I responded. He gave me a sideways glance, "Well, maybe." I reconsidered.

"I was planning on going." Albus said, "Fred needed some notes and he wants to challenge me to a game of Wizard's Chess."

"Scorp, Luce, you too?" they nodded their heads yes, "Excellent!" and James Potter vanished.

"What is he planning?" I was curious as to what was going on.

"I think he planned a Welcome Back party." Scorpius replied, taking a final sip from his goblet of pumpkin juice.

"A what?!"

Sure enough. I showed up after I completed my homework and it was a party. We can all guess why I hated parties.

I tried to make a break for it, but Lucy saw me. And grabbed me. And pulled me in. She was very strong.

"Lucy, you know why I hate parties." I whined. She just rolled her eyes.

"You even said that this week was hard." she sounded like she was scolding me, "So, take a little break and loosen up." she pushed a cup into my hands. I sniffed it and wrinkled my nose. Firewhiskey. Verdammt!

So, I thought about what Lucy said. I looked around. Then I thought about what Lucy said. And I came to a conclusion. I had to do the responsible thing.

I started drinking the cup of firewhiskey.

And then came the after taste.

James found me. He looked pretty proud of himself. Of course, he also looked pretty drunk. And smelt pretty drunk too. More boys, alcohol and hormones.

"Hey, Cal!" he slurred out, "Can I call you Cal?" I nodded my head yes, "Exssellent." he sounded like a snake.

"Having fun, Jamie?" I asked, "Can I call you Jamie?" James wrinkled his nose.

"Is your last name a Potter or a Weasley?" I shook my head no, "Do you have red hair?" I shook my head no again, "Then I'm afraid the answer is no!" he started laughing. Oh, drunk people. He walked away.

I finished my cup of the firewhiskey. Maybe it was growing on me. So, I sought out another cup. Except another one appeared in my hand. Long, pale fingers held it steady.

I looked up into Scorpius' blue eyes. He had the faintest wisp of a smile on his face. I took the cup from him.

"I saw you needed a refill." he whispered into my ear. The booze smell oozed out his mouth also, "So, here you go."

"Thank you." I took a long drink. Scorpius looked at me with a raised eyebrow, "What? I'm German." he shrugged his shoulders.

"You're a big girl." he took a sip from his cup, "You know your limit." he held out his drink, I tapped my cup on his.

"Cheers!" we both said.

And then bottoms up.

And then...no after taste?

"It is because you are becoming intoxicated." a silky voice whispered in my ear. I felt a shudder run down my spine. Fingers were caressing my arms, gently and tenderly, gliding up and down.

"Calesta..." my name had never sounded so good, "Calesta..." my body was reacting to invisible lips gently and tenderly nippling my neck, "Calesta..." I felt a gasp escape my lips. My pupils were dialated, my skin had goosebumps, my hair was standing on end. Then I heard my name, in His voice. "Calesta!"

"NO!" I yelled. I sat up. I was coated in sweat. I was having trouble breathing. My mouth was so dry, it was sticky. I was not in my room.

This room had red.

My stomach flipped.

I almost did not make it to the loo. It was vile and acrid. I felt like I would not stop. Tears were falling from my eyes. I was one hot mess. Then I noticed my hair was pulled back by someone. They were rubbing my back and making soothing noises.

I did not realize it, but I was sobbing.

"Here." there were paper towels in my hands. I cleaned up my face and dried my eyes. And finally, I flushed the vomit down.

"What time is it?" the haze was slowly lifting. I could comprehend more complex thoughts. But the tears kept spilling over my lids.

"Seven O'Clock." a deep voice rumbled through the grogginess. I was for sure that it was Him.

I started whimpering. I could not fight him off this time. I was confused and weak. He would get me this time. I just knew it.

"What did you do, Scorp?" another voiced asked. Scorp?

"Nothing!" he exclaimed, "She was puking her guts up and I came over to help. I thought she was okay. She asked for the time. I gave it to her and she started whimpering!" he sounded flustered, "End of story."

"Shh, you dumbass." James whispered. He knelt down, "Calesta?"

"What?" I rasped out through my sobs.

"What do yo need?" my hair fell around my shoulders. I took a deep breathe and stifled my sobs. I tried licking my lips, but I had cotton mouth.

"Water, please?" I croaked out.

"Sure." Scorpius saod.

He handed me a cup of water. I fel the acid coating my throat as the water slid down. When my mouth was wet again, I sat back against the wall.

Classic move, Calesta.

"Thank you." I looked between them. They looked relieved I had stopped crying.

"Better?" Scorpius inquired. I shook my head no. They both looked confused.

James opened his mouth to speak, but I silenced him with my hands.

"Your family, especially you two, have put up with my bullshit for a week now. Even I would get tired of me after that long." I drank the remaining water in my cup.

"You are having problems adjusting. No need to be melodramatic." James got up and grabbed the cup. He filled it up and put it back down, "We all had family. You have no one here." my heart melted. But I pressed on.

"What I'm trying to say is, um, thank you." my thoughts were tripping over themselves, "And I want to share with you what happened to me. Maybe it might help."

Shock was written across their foreheads. I took a sip of water. Then a very deep, long breathe. And I let it out slowly.

"Now, I cannot tell this story with my eyes open. So, bear with me." I started twirling the ends of a few strands of hair between my fingers, "I was thirteen, Can you believe that I was even shorter than I am now?" a ghost of a smile fluttered across my lips, "It was our first weekend of the school year. So, we decided to act stupid. We snuck out of our houses and met at a closed off park. In an abandonded part of town." I scoffed, "We were smart.

"Anyway, we didn't know that a couple of drunk kids from the year above us would be there. They were hammered. One of them came up to us, he was so close to me that the booze stench filled my senses. He grabbed my hair and started pulling me away from my friends. 'This one is mine!' I remember hearing. All I felt was paralyzing fear.

"He dragged me away from the whole group, kicking, screaming and punching. I'm a fighter. I knew what was going to happen to me. I'm not stupid. I've read about girls who did dumb stuff like this and were never seen alive again. I knew that was going to be me.

"I couldn't let that happen though. I did not want my first time to be this way. So, I fought, tooth and nail. I delivered a blow to his groin. I was finally able to land a kick. But I did not stop there. I saw him doubled over in pain and all I could think was, 'How would you like it if I assaulted you?' So, I did.

"He needed a lot of stitches and two casts to heal properly. I realized if I had not let him near me, that wouldn't have happened. If I did not let guys touch me, I would never lose control on another like that again. But I soon found a flaw in my reasoning. I gave myself a paralyzing fear. Instead of being able to stand up for mysel, I shut down and cannot move until it comes to them grabbing me."

"You weren't actually..." James lost his voice.

"No." I shook my head, "Still pure, like my name."

"You had a dream about it?" Scorpius asked quietly.

"Yeah. I heard his voice too." I looked down at my body. 'Wait, this isn't my clothing!' My head snapped up and I was looking into forest green and moss green orbs, but face horrified.

"Wait!" James yelled, "We didn't do it! Molly did!" I froze, preparing to bite their heads off. I decided to let him say his piece before I killed him, "She came by to make sure I wasn't getting Louis in trouble. And she saw you. I don't remember much after that, but she came over to me and smacked me and said you were in my bed." I looked at him carefully.

"Alright." I muttered, "Were are my clothes then?"

"Umm...right over...there!" he pointed, "Oh, shit." he let his head fall foreward. My clothes had been peed on.

"Oh Merlin!" I growled in frustration.

"It's okay!" Scorpius was trying not to panic.

"Do not panic." James smacked the side of his head. Scorpius recoiled in pain. Hangovers and violence do not mix. I rolled my eyes.

I went over to my urine soaked clothing and found my wand sticking out, thankfully. I grabbed it and wiped it down with a towel. 'Boys!' I thought angrily.

"I'll just go." I walked to the bathroom door, "Just clean my uniform. I'm not taking it in that condition." and I left the bathroom.

I crept around the dormitory, trying to be quiet. Although, I changed tactics when a bed kept moving. I just ran out. I ran out to the common room. And then I wished I had died.

There was kids up. There was quite a few kids up. They all looked at me. I looked at all of them. I smiled sweetly. I figured my witty personality would take their minds off of my choice of clothing.

"She's wearing James' pyjamas." an observant second year whispered.

"Shit!" I heard someone mutter. My cheeks burned with humiliation.

"You must be the ones who didn't partake in the festivities last night." a few nods, a few chuckles. 'At least no one is laughing.' I cleared my throat, "And this is easy to explain." my mind racing, I blurted the dumbest think I could come up with, "I probably had some kind of- oaf!"

Someone wrapped an arm around me waist and lifted me in the air. I forgot the dumbest words trying to escape my mouth. Mainly because I was being lifted by a boy.

"I thought you were smarter than that." Scorpius grumbled in my ear.

"Put me down." I ordered. He shook his head no.

"You are a loose cannon right now, letting you go is a huge mistake." he opened the common room door and we exited.

After the door shut, he put me down gently. I righted my clothing. I smoothed down my blonde hair. I even took the time to rub the sleepies from the corners of my eyes. I scrubbed my face clean.

Then I shoved Scorpius backwards.

"Just because I am smaller, weaker and a girl does not mean you can man handle me when I about to make a complete ass of myself." I spat through clenched teeth.

Scorpius looked into my eyes, his gaze was boiling. His eyes told me he wanted to hit me.

"You are completely mental." he growled, "You are the most confusing thing on Merlin's green Earth! I cannot figure you out." he stepped really close to me. I did not move, "And do not push me around." Scorpius pushed me backwards. When my ass connected with the stone, I went livid.