Two in one night! YAY! Hope you guys will like it! This chapter will be mainly the fight between Gill and Hikari. Enjoy!

Two weeks past by since Yuki got here. He worked hard during soccer practice... or that is what Chihaya told me. I hung out with the girls more, plus I was finally able to get a wardrobe change. Wearing my style of clothing made me much happier. I went to the General store to get a few things, then the inn to by some stuff to make the food for tonight. My mind wandered as I did the errands, I hadn't seen Gill in a while... which bugged me for some reason. I guess he was just someone I liked to talk to, but now I can't. It made me feel down. I shook my head to try and get that out of my head. He is a jerk, why would I feel sad for not seeing him. That was a good thing. I sighed and looked at the sky once I got out of the inn, it was a very nice day. Not too hot, no too cold, not a single cloud in the sky, a light breeze blowing, it was nice. I started walking then I caught something in the corner of my eye, I turned my head and saw Gill, he was going the opposite direction but he stopped and his eyes met mine. I felt my heart skip a beat, mainly because I was expecting him to have the same rage filled eyes that he had the last time I looked him in the eye. This time was different, his eyes were soft, they also had sadness in them, that and the same nameless thing that kept appearing in them since the summer festival. Flustered and probably blushing, I quickly turned around, acting like that split few seconds of looking directly at him never happened.

"Hikari." I heard him say behind me.

I ignored him and continued to walk, suddenly a hand grabbed my wrist firmly. I tried to wrench away but Gill wouldn't let me "Just listen for a sec-"

"Let go!" I snapped.

"Just give me a second to-"

"Let go now or I'll scream?" I literally yelled at him while meeting his gaze.

He seemed stunned and first, but then he stood his ground again, but loosened his grip slightly "Just listen to me for a second."

I continued to glare at him "Why should I?"

"Because I want to try and make things right between us. Please let me explain." His eyes begged me to listen, I had never seen him like this before.

I continued to show no emotion and kept my gaze on him "Will you let go of me first please." I snapped.

He gently let go of my wrist.

Relief came into his eyes, I guess because I hadn't ran away.

"Well?" I snapped "If you don't start talking I will go."

He sighed and kept his gaze on me "Hikari, about... that time... I'm... I'm so sorry, I was frustrated and a few other things... you didn't deserve to be yelled at. I hate myself for giving away your secret. Again... I'm so sorry, I know you won't forgive me this easily but-"

"Let me guess? You think if you keep saying your sorry and "I know you can't forgive me" you think I will automatically think that is just dandy and want to be your friend again?"

"N-no... I wasn't... I didn't mean it like-"

"How can I possibly forgive you? I trusted you, and just because you had a bad day you decide to get all mad at me and yell it to the world! If I knew you were that type of guy who got pissed at everything and took it out on random people, I would've left before you even got a chance to say a peep about the secret!"

"I... I'm sorry." He said looking at me with those stupid eyes.

"Will you stop saying that you are sorry! It will never work!" I yelled at him.

"Please let me explain-"

"You already explained enough!" I snapped.

"No... I haven't. Let me finish up please, and if you don't like it you can yell at me, never talk to me again, do whatever you want. Please just let me finish."

I glared at him then snapped my head to the side, I think I would have vomited if I had to keep looking at his puppy dog eyes.

"I had no right to get mad at you. You never deserve something like that. It's just... you know how I said that I liked Roomi?"

I huffed "So what? You thought if everyone found out I was a girl then Roomi would want you?" I said this in almost a mumble.

"No... I did have a crush one her... but... but I realized that she and I just didn't work."

"Really? Everyone never noticed that."

"I just... felt mad at myself for making you feel uncomfortable at the festival-"

"You could've told me you weren't into her anymore though!" I snapped "If she did have feelings for you that would've looked pretty low! It did to me."

He laughed under his breath "I doubt she would like me, she likes you more."

"Or Yuki, which won't be a problem for her."

"What do you mean?"

"Yuki is done with his trip, he is taking my place now so at the end of the summer I can go to my old school."

He was quiet for a second "Oh..." His eyes changed, they still held sadness in them, but also hurt, the nameless thing still remained in there. I finally was able to think about that emotion. It just looked like he would look at me like that no matter who I was. I realized that the emotion had been in his eyes for a long time while around me and every time it increased. It looked like he wouldn't care if I was fat or thing or anything like that, it looked like he liked me for me. The expression on his face made that emotion seem so obvious now, he had feelings for me. Now that I said that I was leaving it was as if that feeling had drowned by all that hurt and sadness in his blue eyes. Like now he was devastated that I was leaving, like he wanted to tell me but now that I was going to go it didn't matter.

my heart felt like it was being strangled. I finally blinked and pulled my gaze away from his and looked at the ocean in the distance.

"Why? Why do you have to go?" He asked.

"Because... I need to go back home, for my parent's sake and to finish up school, it will be hard to swap schools, it would take a lot of work. No way my parents want me to stay here. Plus I need to go back and see my old friends."

"What about your new friends?"

I was quiet "No way my parents will allow it." I repeated, it took everything I got from crying. Why would I cry? I don't know. Part of me now felt bad for yelling at him, now that I knew that he liked me like that. The sad part was that even though I hated him, I still felt the same way, I loved him even more now. I know a lot of people that would be in the same spot I'm in would say "Don't be nice to him, punish him for what he did to you! He betrayed you. Don't forgive him so easily."

"Your friends will miss you you know?" He whispered. I knew that also meant that he would miss me, it took a lot not to look at him, because if I did, the look in his eyes would probably also make me cry.

I felt his hand brush against mine softly. It felt like there was a lump in my throat and I felt my eyes sting slightly. My legs suddenly jolted into a sprint I mumbled a quick sorry before I took off. Why was I apologizing? He was the jerk who betrayed me! Why do I feel so horrible for leaving? Why do I feel like the one causing the trouble and hurting people? I slammed the door to the house behind me and dropped the bags I was holding. Luckily, Yuki wasn't home at the time. I went into the bathroom and took a shower, I laid at the bottom of the tub, feeling miserable, confused, sad, and tons of other things that made me wonder " Why so I feel like this?" I sobbed, my head hurting from all the crying. Part of me wished I could be back at that spot and cry in his arms, where I felt safe. Another part of me was screaming, asking myself why I was like this, why should I feel like this when he is the one to blame. I wanted to punch him yet hug him tightly. Talk about mixed emotions.

I finally stopped crying but stayed in the shower a bit longer. When I got out I took an aspirin to help my head. Hopefully Yuki wouldn't notice anything, the thing I hated about crying was that everyone could tell if you did cry... especially a lot.

I decided to try and relax and take a nap, I know it probably won't help but I would try at least. Every time I closed my eyes, that look gave gave me always appeared. I had no clue what was going to happen now.

Hope you liked it! Gill isn't done yet with Hikari... that is all I have to say. XP Well please comment and again I hope you liked it!

-00Spirited Away00