Gone
It doesn't matter how much you wish,
How much you want them to come back.
Traces of them are everywhere,
Their shadow haunts you wherever you go.
There's no point of hiding
Because they'll always find you in the end.
Despite the countless times
You cry to yourself to sleep at night
And the times that you just want to die
There's no point of hiding the truth.
Even if you wish on shooting stars
Or beg to the skies to send them back
It won't make a difference.
It's too late.
Nothing will ever change.
Even if you try to fool yourself,
With false but reassuring words.
They're not here anymore.
They will never be…
They're already gone.
- violinlover96
If you guys are wondering why I haven't written in such a long time, its because of some personal matters. For all of you that didn't know, the reason I took such a long break before, it was because my mom had learned that she had gotten cancer. It really hit our family hard and we had a hard time going through all the chemo treatments. We kept strong and kept on hoping that everything would be alright. But in the end, hope and faith weren't enough to keep my mom here.
My mom, my best friend and best teacher, passed away on August 12, 2010 at 6:40 in the morning. I know that its been a while since it happened and this post is really late but trust me, the hurt and pain is still the same as it was weeks ago. I apologize for keeping this from all of you for you have been there for me from the very start. I trust all of you with all of my heart and I believe that you deserve to know.
I have decided to extend my hiatus and for everyone that I'm beta'ing for and for all the people that were looking forward to a new chapter, I am so sorry.
Personally, I've grown to get sick of hearing things like "I'm so sorry." and "It'll get better eventually, I promise.". Its not your fault it happened and there's no way of telling that things with brighten up. I'm in my first year of high school and got accepted into the law program, which means honors classes and tons of work. I have a younger brother and a whole family to take care of from now on. I feel like I'm trapped and there's no way of escaping from this twisted world.
I will try my best to pick up the pieces and get back to working on my fanfic's as soon as I think that I am able too. I really feel bad for never updating but I hope that you can all understand.
For all of those that don't really care, I'm sorry for wasting your time. For the others that actually bothered to read this, I hope that you can understand and give me some time.
Always and Forever,
Melody