Ryan looked at him.

"She said that?"

Spencer stared at his coffee. He didn't want to talk anymore. She sighed.

"Spence."

He looked up with a slight glare and she smiled apologetically.

"I don't know why she would have said that, but I'm sure she didn't mean it. She was hurting and..."

"She was hurting? YOU kissed me. I didn't kiss you. I didn't do anything wrong."

Ryan gave him a look. "Hey, I'm trying to help you here. If you don't want it, you can go somewhere else."

Spencer looked back at his coffee. "Sorry."

Ryan sighed and ran her hand through her hair. "She saw you kissing someone after she just admitted she was in love with you. Can you see how she could be painful?"

"But YOU kissed me!" Spencer whined.

"Not the point!"

"Yes it is! You should go over there and tell her I didn't kiss you."

"You kissed me back, Spencer."

"I did not."

"Did... are we twelve?" She muttered to herself. She rubbed her temples.

"She's with Will, Spencer. Did she ever say she was going to leave him?"

"No, but.."

"But nothing. She's using you."

Spencer glared. "She is not. She loves me."

"But won't leave Will for you." Ryan said, looking at him. He sighed.

"It's better for Henry."

"Why? You're his dad."

"Because Henry loves him. Henry knows him as his dad and..."

Ryan saw a look of recognition enter his eyes. "and if she left Will, he'd be losing his dad...and it'd be my fault."

Ryan looked at him confused. She didn't know what the right thing to say was. Spencer looked back up.

"I really kissed you back?"

Ryan smiled a little. "You grabbed me nad pulled me closer, definitely kissing me back."

He flushed before his phone buzzed.

"Reid."

"What the hell did you do?"

"Elle?"

Criminal Minds || Viva Las Vegas.

Elle opened the door and walked out side.

"You!" She poked him. "Tell me why JJ came to my house, crying, holding a crying baby!"

Spencer gave her a look. "I didn't do.."

"Oh don't even give me that innocent act. I know what you did. She told me. JJ tells you she loves you and you go and kiss Ryan? Are you crazy? You finally get what you want and then you go and make out with the complete opposite of her?"

"She said-"

"I don't care what she said, Spencer Reid. You go in there and you apologize."

Spencer sighed and went inside. He frowned he saw JJ. Her eyes were red.

"Spencer! I'm sorry. I didn't mean.. I know you didn't want to leave. You had to. You're not like your father. I don't think that at all. You're wonderful with Henry. You're a great man and I just.. I got so upset. And I shouldn't. You can kiss Ryan if you want. We're not together and...I just.."

"JJ, I want to be with you. and only you. If you leave Will, I'll be there for you in a second. I don't love Ryan."

JJ looked at him. His words were so honest. His eyes held so much hope.

"I can't, Spence. I... I like my life. I can't just.. pick up and move for love."

"Then stay there. I can visit.."

"Spencer, you can't... we can't do that and you know it. It's not fair to either of us."

Spencer sighed and sat down. "There's got to be a way."

JJ stroked his cheek. "I don't see how."

He looked up at her. "Just move here. I'll... you can work with my team."

"What about Sarah, Spence. You've got a full team. They're a great team too. You have your team and I have mine. Things are changing. Our time... we missed it. We'll always have Henry and the times we had. We'll have this weekend, but we...we can't keep doing this. We're only hurting ourselves."

"But you love me. You said you were in love with me."

"I am, Spencer. There's not a day that I don't think about you. That I wish things were different. But I love Will too and...we've been through so much. I don't expect you to understand."

"I could be there for you. I could do everything that Will's done."

"I know, but Spencer. You're here in Vegas now. I'm in Virgina."

"I'll quit. I'll move back to-"

JJ moved her fingers over his lips. "You need to be here, Spence. You needed this."

"I need you."

"You'll always have me, Spence. You're my best friend."

Spencer shook his head. "I can't do this."

JJ sighed, watching him get up. She stood. "Spencer."

"No. No. He's my son. He's our son and you're in love with but you're making stupid excuses about why you can't be with me. I'm doing all I can and you're being ridiculous. I'd take care of you. I'd do whatever it took to be whatever you needed. Whatever Henry needed and all you can say is you can't move? It's stupid. You don't... you don't just tell someone you're in love with them and then add a but we can't be together. You don't love someone and then just leave."

JJ looked at him. "I was just trying to be honest."

"It seems to me you were just trying to get with me."

JJ's eyes narrowed. "Did you just infer that I used you for sex?"

"When haven't you? That's all we've ever been? Why didn't you want to be with me before Will came around? After Tobias? I asked you to dinner and everything. I tried to make us wor-"

"Because you said you thought about me!"

Spencer looked at her confused.

"I didn't want you to get hurt because of me, Spencer. I didn't want you to risk your life for me and you said you loved me and you'd do it again, if it meant I was safe. I couldn't watch you do that. I couldn't..."

"That wasn't your choice to make!"

"Yes it was! I loved you and watching you almost die changed me, Spencer. It changed everything! Seeing your bruised body and knowing you'd risk it all for me. FOR Me. I couldn't let that happen. I wouldn't let you put yourself on the line, for me. So we couldn't. and I met Will and he was nice. He's a good guy. He's good with Henry. He treats me right and I do love him. Not like I love you, but I do love him and Henry loves him and I can't destroy my family and run away to Vegas. I made a choice that night and I have to stick with it. And I know that I've been selfish. I've been really selfish every time I'vr ran to you, but I..." She sighed. "I don't know, Spencer. We got to stop this. We've got to move on. I made a choice and maybe we should have spoken about it, but I didn't and now everything is so messed up. And it's my fault. and I have to make it right. I have to... to.. I don't know."

Spencer watched her before running his hands through his hair. He took a step towards her and kissed her forehead. He couldn't just let her stand there and cry. She wrapped her arms around him, burying her face in his chest and he held her, wordlessly. Once she had calmed down, he pulled back. He kissed her lips before leaving her. She had made her choice. He paused.

"Come by the house before you leave tomorrow. I want to say goodbye to Henry."

He looked at Elle, who was completely shocked at everything she had just witnessed. "Reid..I.."

"Don't. Just make sure she's okay. Please."

Elle nodded, her hand moving to his shoulder as he passed her. "I'm sorry."