AN: Guys, this chapter was painful for me to write.
Aaaaaah. I'm so weird. And clumsy. Today I crashed into Tadasepaw during training. Somehow, he ended up on top of me. And no, he wasn't standing above me, he was laying on me. And I think this only made my pinkish fur turn even pinker. And I'm not sure if I was imagining it or not, but Tadasepaw's amazingly beautiful golden fur turned redder, too. And today I also found out exactly how soft and silky Tadasepaw's belly fur was.
Oh my StarClan, I'm such a pervert. Why would I want to feel his belly fur again? WELL I DON'T KNOW, BECAUSE IT'S SO FREAKING SOFT! Why can't I get over this crush that I have on him? I already know that he likes someone else!
Oh StarClan, I'm really freaking out now. He just rolled over and went on top of me! I don't think that he's noticed, though, I can hear soft, quiet snores coming from him. Good thing we're the only apprentices though, otherwise in the morning every cat would be laughing at us. Well, that creep Midnight might come in here. He's been doing that every night now.
Hm. I wonder why, though. I mean, Midnight's pretty hot, not that I'll admit that, though. Ugh, but I hate him so much. But have I developed some feelings for him? Oh my StarClan, I haven't, right? He teases me a lot, which probably means that he likes me too. But I should stay loyal to Tadasepaw, right..?
Oh, StarClan, I forgot that Tadasepaw is still on top of me. Hmm, I've been saying "Oh, StarClan" a lot in this, huh? THAT'S BECAUSE I'M FREAKING OUT AND I CAN'T STOP MYSELF! Did Tadasepaw roll over on top of me on purpose, or by accident? Is he faking the snores? If he did it on purpose, why would he do it? Doesn't he like someone else?
Okay, Amuletpaw. Calm down. There, that's better. Why did Tadasepaw roll over? Is he dreaming of when he was on top of me like he is now? Hah, I highly doubt it. See, now I'm mocking myself for even thinking that I even have a sliver of a chance with him. I should think positively! Come on, Amuletpaw! Don't let these bad thoughts cloud your radiance!
Yes, that's right, Amuletpaw! Don't let Tadasepaw get rid of your radiance! Let it shine through the dark wisps of cloud, lighting up the night and chasing away the darkness! After all, if Tadasepaw and whoever he likes become mates, maybe you have a chance with Midnight!
Oh, what am I saying? I'm horrible at cheering myself up. I can never have a chance with either Tadasepaw or Midnight. Ever. Both don't deserve a clumsy she-cat like me...
Ah, I can feel myself drifting off... Maybe, just maybe, I can have a wonderful dream before I wake... Aaah, Tadasepaw's belly is so soft, just like a blanket...