Alec's Point of View

I didn't close my eyes as I kissed Magnus, his wide irises locking in with my gaze, boring into my eyes as if to communicate something. But, ever so slowly his lids fell to cover his stare and mine soon followed. We stayed like that, my lips moving rhythmically, while his stayed frozen. I could hear the murmurs rise in volume around us, but I found I couldn't care what people would say as I leaned my body into Magnus rigid form. Tilting my head I tried to deepen the kiss, but Magnus's lips were unmoving against mine, stilled in surprise. I grabbed Magnus's hair in a fist, causing him to gasp out in pain, while simultaneously thrusting my tongue forward into the newly opened space.

We had never gone this far in our kisses, most were chaste pecks of the lips with not much further movement into the more passionate embraces. In a sudden realization I was informed that I had been missing out. As my tongue collided with Magnus's it was like a shock to the senses that left a pleasant buzz in my mouth, one that awakened him to how we were currently situated. In a fluid movement he wrapped his right arm low around my waist as his other hand found the back of my neck tilting my mouth further up as he bent down to meet it. His tongue slid against mine testing the new sensation before skipping over the top of it to enter my own mouth. I had never felt anything like this, my body pressed to Magnus as our mouths hid a dance like nothing I had ever experienced before this. I had needed this so bad. With my heart so heavy, having had taken a beating tonight with so many gone including one that mattered most to me. My unforgivable mistake.

I turned my head to the side to catch in a breath of air as a firm hand grasped my shoulder pulling me from Magnus's warm touch. I turned to see a shocked and very angered looking woman.

"H-Hello Mom." I started in fear. She looked absolutely livid and I could guess as to why, it wasn't like it was a mystery as to what I had just done.

She stared at me for a moment looking as though if she was deciding to shout or do the thing only mothers and teachers could do, that cold tone that is in and of itself ten times worse than yelling.

She let go of my shoulder, patting down the fabric from the fist she had made over it. My Father walked up behind her as she turned on her heel and walked away, Dad turning and walking into step beside her.

She didn't have to say anything, I followed like I knew she was silently ordering me to.

I looked back to Magnus, his arm slightly stretched out towards me, with an apprehensive expression on his face. I looked him in the eyes and mouthed "I'll be okay." Hoping that would quell at least some of his fears. His expression never changed from the worried look, but his arm slid back to his side as he nodded.

I turned back to see my parents walking to a shadowed corner behind a set of columns. The area was removed from the rest of the crowd, a perfect place to have a private conversation or murder someone without notice.

I followed them to the privacy of the shadows as my Mother and Father turned to look at me. Dad wore a shocked and somewhat pained expression while Mom's face was blank giving away no emotional clues. Dad opened his mouth as if to speak, but Mom cut him off hold up one finger to signify the fact that she needed a moment, most likely to formulate the emotional angle of her tirade. Her other hand went to her face, pinching the bridge of her nose. In barely a whisper she started.

"Alec." She stated as if she needed to reaffirm who I was. "What were you thinking?" Mom asked enunciating it as if talking to a slow minded child. She then stopped and I guessed that this was my turn to answer. But, I didn't know what to say. My brain was a bundle of nerves as my heart raced in my chest, and my palms began to sweat as did the back of my neck. I wasn't sure how to explain, so I decided honesty was the best way to go.

I wiped my wet hands on my dark wash jeans and clasped them together tightly before letting them separate again. I looked up from my feet not remembering when I had looked down. I gazed at my Mother straight in the eyes as I began to explain the unexplainable. "I was thinking-"

"NOTHING!" Came a thunderous and harsh interruption from her lips. Dad looked as startled as I felt. With that one word the flood gates opened. "You were obviously thinking nothing! Because otherwise you wouldn't have done th- wh- that. What does this mean Alec? I know Ma- he's gone, but that does not give you the reason or the right to stir up trouble like a child. Was this just an outburst of ill timed experimentation or are you trying to tell us something? Alec I need answers! What does this mean?" She asked the last part in a whisper as her energy flowed out with the words she spoke. Her shoulders sagged and her head lulled forward in exhaustion. Dad put her hand in his, squeezing gently in encouragement.

At that moment I felt very alone. Before when I talked to my parents it was always with the affirmed fact that they loved me and would always be there for me no matter what I did. But looking now, it was as if there was a wall separating the sides of me and them. I wanted someone to stand by my side, just as Mom had Dad to stand by hers. Not just someone though. I wanted Magnus.

I took in a deep breath and began a speech that I had no preparation for. That you could never really prepare for. How are you so supposed to explain to your parents that the basic logic in their mind that boys like girls and vice versa is wrong when it comes to you? There is no way to prepare for that, but there are two words that are like a bomb dropping for most parents. But, I was in the corner now. I couldn't get around this and I had put myself in this position all by my own actions. I took a deep audible breath, letting it out in a whoosh. With those thoughts I looked at my parents.

"Mom. Dad. I'm gay."

Wow. This was deep at the end. My heart was thuding with the last words.

I feel really bad for Alec here, since I've been his position too. It's never fun to tell your parents the truth when you know it will hurt them. But, you can't lie to them forever. It comes out sooner or later even if you don't want it to.

Sorry for the tense atmosphere I've created. I'll upload the next chapter very soon. It's already like . . . half way done. And remember reviews are love.

Always with Love,
Eli Jones

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