Recap of Chapter Fifteen

"Very well." said Nerissa. "I want you to join me."

Misao looked at her mother like she was insane, then laughed out loud. "And what makes you think that I would ever consider joining you? After all Mom, you tried to kill me!"

"What if I could give you information that I know that you don't have?" asked Nerissa. Misao gave her a curious look, and asked what kind of information? "I know the reason for why you are so exhausted, as well as who your father is. Join me, and I will tell you what you wish to know."

"And how do I know you will keep your word?" asked Misao.

Nerissa raised her staff, and pointed it at Misao. A few moments later, the bindings that were on Misao's arms and legs vanished. "You can take that as an incentive."

Bringing her hands around in front of her, Misao started to massage her wrists. "Even though you freed me, mom, it doesn't exactly mean that I trust you. How about this, you tell me one of the two bits of information that you have, and then I will think about your offer?" Nerissa was silent for a while, as she seemed to consider Misao's offer. She then asked Misao, which information she wanted to know. "You said that you know who my father is."

"Is that the information that you want?" asked Nerissa. There was some hesitation, but Misao did eventually nod. "Very well. I will give you the information that you want, but if you even think about betraying me you won't live long enough to regret it." Nerissa then made her way closer to Misao, and knelt down so she was face to face with her daughter. She then leaned forward, and whispered into Misao's ear. "Your father is none other then your precious, Oracle." As Nerissa lent back away from Misao, she saw a look of absolute shock upon her daughters face.

Chapter Sixteen

Misao sat there in stunned silence for several minutes as what her mother had just told her, seemed to sink in. Nerissa with a look of satisfaction upon her face, started to tell Misao that since she had kept her part of the bargain and answered the question that she had asked for, it was time for her to keep her part of the deal and join her. However before she could even open her mouth to speak, the shocked look upon Misao's face turned to one of anger and she shouted. "That is a lie! The Oracle never would have hid that from me!"

"Can you be sure of that?" asked Nerissa. "After all, the Oracle has hidden many secrets over the years that he has been Oracle."

Misao shook her head at this. "So he has other secrets. He never would have kept something like this from me."

"He would, and he did." said Nerissa. Misao looked at her mother, and asked her how can she be so certain, as well as asking her why the Oracle wouldn't tell her that she was his daughter. "It all has to do with power, and The Oracle has power. If anyone on the council were to find out that he had a child with me, he would loose that power." Misao once again shook her head at this information, and started to speak. Nerissa however cut over her. "Why else do you think, he tried so hard to have you killed."

"He had nothing to do with that!" shouted Misao. "It was all your doing Mom! You was the one who blasted me over the cliff with Aunt Cassidy!"

As Misao sat there seething in anger, she watched her mother very closely and saw a sudden look of deep sadness appear upon Nerissa's face. "I can't deny that it was I that did what you say. And I regret what I did."

Misao was totally floored by her mother's words. But what really got to her, was the fact that she had heard the sound of sincerity in her mother's voice when she said what she did. Misao then took a few deep breaths to calm herself. "I'm not going to say that I will believe you, mom, but I heard real sincerity in your voice when you said that you regretted what happened. I want you to tell me what really happened that day, and please tell me the truth."

Nerissa nodded. "Very well, I will tell you everything. But before I began, I need to ask you a few questions concerning that day, so I have a better idea on where I need to begin." Misao told her alright, and asked her what she needed to know. "You have mentioned Cassidy several times now, how much do you remember concerning her and that day?"

Misao was silent for some time as she tried to recall that day. "I can't remember clearly, but Aunt Cassidy was really happy to see us. Then all I can remember, is you blasting both of us over the cliff." Nerissa nodded to this, then asked Misao if she remembered any of the other friends that Cassidy had? Misao could only shake her head no.

Nerissa let out a deep sigh at this information. "It looks like my suspicions are correct." Misao not liking the sound of that, asked her what suspicions she had. Nerissa let out another sigh, then looked into her daughters eyes. "The Oracle has tampered with your memories of that day, and changed certain things that happened."

"Why would the Oracle have done this?" asked Misao. Nerissa not answering the question right away, instead asked Misao if the last thing she remembered of that day, was being blasted over the cliff? Misao looked away and looked like she was trying to once again recall what happened. A few moments later, she turned back to face her mother and nodded. "The last thing I saw mom, was you blasting me and aunt Cassidy over the cliff."

Nerissa nodded to this, and asked her daughter if she had hated her for that? Misao simply nodded. "The Oracle must have used that incident to control you." Misao was still trying to not believe what her mother was telling her about the Oracle, but she was also starting to wonder if what she was hearing was the actual truth. Her attention was then drawn back to her mother. "You asked for me to tell you what really happened that day." Misao nodded at this. "It would be much better to show you, but I must know if you are strong enough to accompany me."

Misao told her mother that while she was tired, she should be able to go with her. Nerissa however, wasn't about to put her daughters life at risk. "Be truthful with me, Misao." said Nerissa."If you don't think you are ready, I will allow you sometime to rest." Misao was really surprised by the fact that her mother had just called her by her name. For in her memory her mother had never called her by name. She told this to her mother, and saw a very angry look appear on her mother's face. Closing her eyes rather quickly when she saw Misao flinch, Nerissa took a few deep breaths to calm herself down. "I am sorry for becoming angry Misao, but I promise you that it wasn't at you."

When Misao asked her why she had become so angry, Nerissa told her that once again the Oracle had messed with her memory. "Misao I want you to rest for awhile, and hopefully regain your strength. I will return in a few hours, and if I deem you strong enough I will show you what really happened that day." Misao nodded, then asked her mother if she was going to rebind her? Nerissa turned so she was looking at the opposite end of the cave. She then turned back to face her daughter. "I won't bind you, since I want you to trust me. However trust is owed to both people, so I do need to trust you as well. Therefore I ask for your word that you won't try and escape."

"I really want to know if what you are telling me is true, Mom, so I give you my word that I won't try and escape." said Misao. Nerissa nodded to this, and got to her feet. She then reminded Misao to get some rest, before turning away and heading back towards where she had left her followers.

Misao watched her mother leave, then lend back against the cave wall behind her. 'I can't believe I am going to do this, but as I told mom I really do want to know if what she has told me is true.' With these thoughts running through her head, Misao closed her eyes and tried to do as her mother had asked of her and get some rest.
-(1)

Several hours after she had closed her eyes, Misao felt the familiar presence of her mother approaching. A few moments later she heard the sound of shifting cloth, and opening her eyes found her mother sitting before her. "How are you feeling, Misao?" asked Nerissa. Misao moved up into a sitting position and told her mother that she did feel some better, but only a little bit. Nerissa was silent for several minutes as she thought to herself, concerning what Misao had just told her. "I would like try something Misao."

"What are you going to do?" asked Misao with a hint of fear in her voice. Nerissa hearing that fearful tone, informed her daughter that she would be in danger. "Very well. If you are sure that this is safe, then do what you wish to do."

Nerissa nodded, and returned to her feet. Holding up her staff, she then used her free hand to remove something from the jewel that was on top of the staff. She then knelt back down in front of Misao, and held the item out towards her. Misao looking at the item, saw that it was a necklace of some kind. She then asked her mother what the item was. "This is the Heart of Meridian. It has almost the same powers as The Heart of Kandrakar, so I am hoping that by giving it to you it will help make you stronger."

Misao turned her attention back to the necklace that was in her mother's hand, but made no move to take it. "I'm not saying you did anything wrong, mom, but this looks exactly like the necklace that I saw that young queen wearing. How did you come to posses it?" Nerissa simply told her, that it was probably best if she didn't know. "Mom, what was it you said about trust? If you want me to fully trust you, you shouldn't keep secrets from me."

Nerissa sighed at this. "You are correct, Misao. However, sometimes there are things that are best not knowing." Misao started to once again remind her mother about the trust issue, but Nerissa stopped her. "However, you do have the right to know how I came to posses the Heart of Meridian, but I will only tell you after I have shown you what really happened the day you saw me try and kill you." Misao didn't really like this idea, but since her mother had said that she would tell her on how she came to poses the heart, Misao nodded her head. Nerissa then held the Heart of Meridian back out towards Misao.

Reaching out her arm, Misao took the heart from her mother's hand and felt an immediate change. She told this to her mother, who smiled. "I had a feeling that my assumptions were correct, on why you was so tired, Misao." Slipping the necklace around her neck, Misao asked her mother what her assumptions where. Instead of answering right away, Nerissa asked Misao if she remembered what had happened back on earth, when she had tried to get young Will to join her and Misao had stopped her? Misao nodded, and told her that the Heart of Kandrakar had put a barrier around her and the girls. "That is correct. You used the power of the Heart of Kandrakar in order to protect yourself and the two guardians."

"So, are you saying that since the Heart of Kandrakar was taken from me by the Oracle, it is the reason for why I am so weak?" Nerissa simply told her that while she was guessing, it was a possibility. "But surely the Oracle would have realized this."

"He most likely did." said Nerissa. "He probably hoped that after feeding you some story about increasing your powers, so that you wouldn't have to fear me, that you would go off to find me and most likely end up being killed by me."

Misao sadly sighed at this, and got to her feet. "I am ready to see what really happened that day, mom, when you tried to kill me." Nerissa nodded, and asked Misao to sit back down. Misao gave her mother a confused look, but did as she was told and sat back down. "I thought you was going to show me, what happened?"

"I am." said Nerissa. "What we are about to do, is enter my memories of what I remember from that day." A sudden look of remembrance appeared upon Misao's face at that, and she told her Mother that she had done something similar, with Will. " Then I don't need to explain much, however I probably should. Now then, since this is a memory neither of us can be harmed by anyone that we see there. However, I must stress this since it is very important, under no circumstances are you to interfere with what you see happening. No matter how much you may wish to save your younger self and Cassidy, you must not interfere. Do you understand everything that I just told you, Misao? Under no circumstances are you interfere." There was some hesitation, but Misao did eventually nod. Nerissa frowned at the hesitation, but didn't say anything about it. "I need you to come as close to me as you can, and place your hand on my shoulder." Misao moved closer so she was sitting directly in front of her mother. She then reached out her arm, and placed her hand on top of Nerissa's shoulder. Once Misao had done this, Nerissa placed the jeweled end of her staff up to her own forehead and called out. "Quintessence!" There was a flash of light, that caused Misao to close her eyes.
-(2)

Opening her eyes a short time later, Misao found herself looking not at the wall of the cave but out over a snow covered mountain. Looking around, she found her mother standing next to her and asked her where they were? "We are slightly west of the main part of it, but this is part of the Mount Thanos mountain range." said Nerissa starting to walk off. Hurrying off after her mother, Misao asked her why they were here? With a sigh, Nerissa came to a stop and turned back to face her daughter. "I'm sorry Misao, but I forgot that your memory has some missing pieces. We are here, because this is where Cassidy asked me to meet her several years ago."

"Why would Aunt Cassidy ask you to meet her here, instead of coming to our home?" asked Misao.

A look of deep sadness appeared upon Nerissa's face as she said. "She thought it was a safe place for us to meet." Without another word, Nerissa headed off. Misao wondering to herself what her mother had really meant by those words, hurried off after her.

Misao hadn't gotten very far, before the sound of laughter reached her ears. Finding her mother standing a few feet ahead of her looking out over the snow, Misao hurried over to her side. She started to ask who was laughing, but her attention was drawn to a very small girl with short black hair playing in the snow. "You was always a happy and energetic child, Misao." said Nerissa.

At her mother's words, Misao realized that the young girl she was seeing was a younger version of herself. "I don't remember this at all, Mom." As she turned back to look at her younger self, Misao missed the sad look that appeared on her mother's face.

A few minutes later, another person arrived. The younger Misao seeing who the person was, stopped playing and ran towards the person. "Aunt Cassidy!" Cassidy barely had time to register the scream, before she was tackled by the young girl.

Cassidy managing to stay on her feet, picked Misao up. "I wasn't expecting you to be here, Misao." said Cassidy as she looked around. "Where's your mother?"

"She is somewhere around here." said Misao. Before Cassidy could say anything more, Misao shouted. "Mom, Aunt Cassidy is here!" Cassidy flinched at how loud the young girl in her arms was, but didn't say anything concerning the shout in her ear.

A few moments later, the older Misao and her mother saw a woman with long black hair make her way towards the younger girls. "Misao, you shouldn't shout being that close to Cassidy." said the younger Nerissa. The younger Misao pouted and as she looked down at the ground, said 'Sorry Mom.' "It is not me you should be apologizing to, Misao."

Misao nodded to this, and turned to look at Cassidy. "Sorry I shouted in your ear, Aunt Cassidy."

Cassidy told her not to worry about it, then put the young girl back down onto her feet. "Misao, why don't you go play, while your mother and I talk about something's." Misao didn't move right away, and asked Cassidy if she would play with her later? "It's a promise, Misao." This caused the young girl to smile, then run off so she could play some more.

Once Misao was far enough away from the two, Nerissa made her way a bit closer to Cassidy. Before she could speak though, Cassidy said. "I wish you hadn't brought Misao here with you."

Nerissa hearing the sound of laughter, turned so she was facing her daughter who was a bit further away from the two older women, then she liked. "Misao, please don't go too far." Misao hearing her mother's call, stopped what she was doing and moved a bit closer. Seeing that her daughter was close enough that she could reach her if she had to, Nerissa turned back to Cassidy. "I hadn't planned on bringing her with me since you said this was very important, Cassidy, but I wasn't about to leave Misao alone since a few days ago someone attacked her."

There was two gasps at this information, but only one was heard by the person who had spoken. "Was she hurt?" asked Cassidy as she looked over towards Misao. As the younger Nerissa told Cassidy that Misao only had a few bruises, the older Nerissa asked the older Misao if she remembered being attacked? Misao shook her head no, and told her mother that she couldn't remember ever being attacked except for the ones she had done.

"What do you mean the ones that I had done, Misao?" asked Nerissa. "I have only attacked you once, and that was at that lake on earth."

"It could have to do with my memories of you being changed, Mom, but I remember several instances were you attacked me. But the one that stands out the most, was the one that took place here." Nerissa started to ask Misao to explain in detail what she remembered, but her younger self spoke first, asking Cassidy why she had asked her to meet with her.

Cassidy seemed to become really serious, as she turned back to the younger Nerissa and said. "Before I say anything more, I need to know how loyal you are to the Oracle."

Nerissa had expected Cassidy to say several things, but she never expected this. Before she could say anything about it though, another voice came from behind her. "What a surprise to find you two here." As Cassidy looked past Nerissa, a look of surprised shock appeared upon her face. Nerissa seeing this, turned around and found the Oracle standing behind her. Nerissa then asked him why he was there. "I came to speak to you Nerissa, concerning the attack upon your daughter."

"There's not much to talk about, Oracle." said Nerissa. "Misao wasn't hurt except for a few bruises, and when I asked her about who attacked her she could only say that she didn't know the person."

The Oracle nodded to this. "As you know, Nerissa, I have the power to see many things. And I saw everything that happened during your daughter's attack."

"Then you know who attacked her." said Nerissa. The Oracle nodded, and told her that he did. "Who was it?"

The Oracle looked past Nerissa at Cassidy. "Cassidy, could you look after Misao while Nerissa and I discuss this in private?" Cassidy asked Nerissa if she was in agreement with this?

Nerissa turned away from the Oracle, and faced Cassidy. "Cassidy, you know you don't have to ask me that. I trust you a lot more then I do a lot of the other people that we know, and if I needed someone to watch over Misao, you would be the first one that I would come too."

Cassidy smiled at this, and stepped closer to her friend. She then wrapped her arms around Nerissa and hugged her. Nerissa was slightly surprised by this, and started to ask Cassidy what the hug was for. Before she could do so however, she heard Cassidy whisper. 'Don't trust the Oracle, Nerissa.' Nerissa whispered back why, and Cassidy told her that she couldn't say as long as the Oracle was here. With this said, Cassidy released her friend and headed off towards Misao.

Nerissa watched Cassidy walk off, wondering to herself what Cassidy had meant when she said to not trust the Oracle. Nerissa's thoughts on that matter, were interrupted by a hand being placed on top of her shoulder. "Shall we go?" asked The Oracle. Not really having a choice in the matter, Nerissa nodded. The Oracle then made his way past her, and asked her to follow him.

Seeing her mother take off with the strange man, Misao turned to Cassidy and asked her who the man was and why her mother was going off with him? Cassidy simply told Misao that the man was a friend of her mothers. Misao nodded to this, but didn't seem all that convinced. Deciding to try and change the subject, Cassidy asked Misao if she still wanted her to play with her? Misao turned to face her Aunt, and with a eager smile asked. "Can we build a snowman, Aunt Cassidy?"

Cassidy returned the smile, then held out her hand to the young girl. "We can build the best snowman anyone has ever seen, Misao." Misao gave her a confused look, and asked how they was going to do that? "Well, since I am the guardian of water, I am pretty sure that together we can come up with something."

As Cassidy and the younger Misao headed off to start on their snowman, the older Nerissa looked over at her older daughter, and found a sad look of longing upon her face. "Misao, what's wrong?"

"I want so much to remember all of this, Mom, but no matter how hard I try I can't recall any of it." said Misao.

Nerissa could only sigh and wish she could help her daughter remember the happy times that she was seeing, but only one person could undo what was done to her. "We should go find the Oracle and my younger self, so you can see what caused me to attack you and Cassidy." Misao however wanted to stay and watch her younger self having fun. This caused Nerissa to sigh once more, and take a hold of her daughters arm. "Please forgive me Misao, but you need to come with me, if you want to know the truth."

Choosing a path that would take them away from Cassidy and the younger Misao, Nerissa lead her daughter away from the wonderful scene and towards the spot where the younger Nerissa and the Oracle were currently at. A short time later, Nerissa came to a stop close to a small clearing. Misao hearing voices, looked up and found the Oracle and her mother's younger self in what looked like a heated argument. "I can assure you Oracle, that Cassidy would never harm our daughter!"

Misao heard the Oracle sigh. "I wish that was true, Nerissa, but what I told you is the truth. Cassidy has become corrupted due to the influence of the Heart of Kandakar. I don't know the full details on why she would attack our daughter, but I can say without a doubt that she is the one responsible."

The younger Nerissa shouted that she wouldn't believe that no matter what he said. She then turned away and started to head back the way she had come from. "Maybe Cassidy is right about you, and I shouldn't trust you any longer!" Since her back was turned, Nerissa didn't see the look of anger that appeared upon the Oracle's face at her words.

Next thing Nerissa felt, was three fingers pressed up against the back of her head. "You will regret betraying me, Nerissa!" shouted the Oracle. Nerissa asked him what he was doing, and tried to get away. However, she found that she was unable to move. The older Nerissa and Misao, saw a glazed look appear in the younger Nerissa's eyes, before the Oracle removed his hand from the back of her head. "Now then Nerissa, are you going to do whatever I ask of you?" The younger Nerissa turned to face him, and nodded. "Very good. I need you take care of Cassidy by any means possible for her hurting our daughter."

"As you wish Oracle." said the younger Nerissa. She then turned away from the Oracle, and headed back towards the spot where she had left Cassidy and Misao.

As the younger Nerissa headed off, Misao turned to her mother. "I thought you said the Oracle was responsible for you attacking me, Mom? I didn't hear anything there involving me, except for the fact that Aunt Cassidy was responsible for the attack on me."

"This memory isn't over yet, Misao." said Nerissa heading off after her younger self. Misao took a look back at the Oracle and found that he was smiling. 'I wonder what that smile is for?' Deciding that she couldn't dwell on this matter if she wanted to see what really happened, Misao took off after her mother. Soon as she caught up to her mother, Misao told her about the smile she had seen upon the Oracle's face as she left. Nerissa nodded to this, and told Misao that she would soon see why the Oracle was smiling.

A short time later, Misao and Nerissa arrived back at the area where they had left Cassidy and the younger Misao. The older Misao looked around for a sign of her mother's younger self but didn't see any sign of her. She did however, see a snowman that looked to be about four feet tall. 'Wonder how Aunt Cassidy managed to do that, with just her water powers?' She started to make her way closer, but her arm was grabbed by her mother. "There I am." said Nerissa pointing with her free hand.

"Cassidy!" shouted the younger Nerissa. Cassidy who was currently chasing Misao, stopped when she heard her friend call her name. She started to ask Nerissa what the Oracle had wanted her for, but before she could do so the ground next to her exploded, showering her with snow and small rocks.

"Nerissa, what are you doing?" shouted Cassidy as she dodged another attack. Nerissa didn't say anything, and attacked again. Dodging the attack, Cassidy did a quick sweep of the area looking for the Oracle since she had a really good feeling that he was responsible for this. 'I told her not to trust him.'

Cassidy's attention was drawn away from Nerissa, by a small shout. "Aunt Cassidy, where are you?! I thought you was going to play with me."

Looking around the area again, Cassidy paled as she saw Misao make her way back up the small hill she had ran down a few minutes earlier. Cassidy then looked towards Nerissa, and saw her look towards Misao. As Nerissa raised her arm, Cassidy knew what was about to happen. Calling on what power she had, since she wasn't in her guardian form or have time to use the Heart to transform, she sent a blast of water towards Nerissa, that when it hit her caused her attack on Misao to be slightly off. The attack however, did hit the ground in front of Misao and Cassidy heard the young girl cry out. Taking advantage of the short moment she had, Cassidy quickly headed towards Misao.

As she reached the young girl, she found Misao holding her right arm. "Misao, are you alright?" Looking up at her aunt, Misao asked her what was going on? Cassidy couldn't bring herself to tell the young girl the actual truth. "It's nothing that you need to worry about, Misao."

"But Aunt Cassidy, where did that attack come from?" At that time, Nerissa had made her way closer. Misao seeing her, asked. "Mom, what's going on?" Instead of saying anything, Nerissa once again raised her arm, and pointed her palm towards her daughter. As she called out her attack, Cassidy realized that she wouldn't be able to counter this one, so being left with no choice she placed herself in front of Misao shielding her. However, the attack was stronger then Cassidy had anticipated and it sent her and Misao over the side of the cliff.

A sudden movement to her side, had the older Nerissa looking to see what was going on. What she saw caused her to pale. "Misao you mustn't interfere"! Misao didn't stop running, so this left Nerissa no choice. "Quintessence!" Misao's legs were suddenly bound by the same bindings that had held her arms and legs, when she was back in the cave. This caused her to fall to the ground, and due to her momentum, slide a short distance. Nerissa was quickly at her side. "I am sorry I had to do this to you, Misao, but I had to stop you."

"How can you just let this happen all over again!?" Nerissa couldn't answer that question, and sadly looked down at her daughter. Misao then asked her mother, if Cassidy falling off of the cliff with her in her arms, was the end of the memory?

Misao's answer came, when a very loud shout rang out. "What have I done!?" Managing to move herself into a sitting up position since her arms were free, Misao found her mother's younger self down on her knees leaning over the side of the cliff.

As Misao's heart broke for her mother, she saw the Oracle make his way up behind the younger Nerissa. "You did what needed to be done, Nerissa."

Nerissa hearing the Oracle's voice got slowly to her feet, and turned to face the man that she had at one time respected above all others. "This is all your doing!" She then raised both of her arms, and prepared to attack The Oracle. Before she could do so, she was blasted by an attack from behind. Misao looking past the Oracle, saw a younger woman with black hair floating behind Nerissa. The younger Nerissa being only dazed by the attack, pushed herself up and faced the one who had attacked her. "Yan Lin?" That was all she could say, before she lost conciseness.

Misao looking up at her mother, asked her what happened next? "I'll have to tell you back at the cave, since my powers are growing weak and I can no longer keep us here." Misao nodded to this, and her mother cancelled the spell. A few moments later, Misao found herself back in the cave sitting in front of her mother.

As she removed her hand from her mother's shoulder Misao said. "Everything you told me, was true." Nerissa simply nodded. "I still find it hard to believe though, that the Oracle of all people would really do something like this."

"It goes back to what I said earlier, Misao. The Oracle has power, and he was afraid of loosing that power if anyone on the council was to ever find out about you."

"But I am still alive." said Misao. "If he really wanted me dead, then why save me? Why not leave me at the bottom of the cliff?"

"That was the Oracle's plan." said Nerissa. "Since with you, Cassidy and me gone, who would ever reveal what really happened?"

"Then, how come I am alive?" asked Misao.

"Another person found you at the bottom of the cliff, barely alive." said Nerissa. Misao asked her who it was? Nerissa simply said. "You was found and rescued by Tibor and Luba."

End of Chapter Sixteen

Bold Numbers:

1. Don't know if Nerissa can actually do this or not, but since she was the one who fused the Heart of Meridian into her staff, I simply assumed that she could also remove it.

2. Hope I didn't make this to confusing, since there was now two Nerissa's and two Misao's. I did try to keep it simple by addressing each one with the younger and older tags.

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