Whoa...where have I been? There has been a lot going on in my life and I haven't really had time for any of this but I'm updating this along with another story also so stay tuned and please review.
I was in my dorm waiting for Jason to come pick me up. Jason had given me the 'go' to decorate his condo any way I saw fit and I was thrilled. I wanted the living room to be really soft colors along with the den. The kitchen which already had beautiful granite tile was being matched with a really smoky blue. Jason was remodeling the basement also which was starting construction pretty soon.
Brenda looked at the pictures of the furniture solemnly " Cute. Did they come in yet?"
"Thanks and no Sonny and Jason are painting first. The dining room is dry though and the upstairs bedrooms"
"Hmph" She nodded.
"Alright what's wrong with you? Your not being a pain in my ass or talking constantly"
She looked up from the pictures, crossing her legs indian style. Thinking about if she wanted to tell me. "Sonny asked me to marry him" She blurted "And I said no"
"What? Why?"
"Sonny is a part of the mob, and I want things that he can't have. I want a perfect marriage, kids, safety. He can't provide any of that if he wanted to. But the thing is I can't picture life without him"
"Have you told him any of this?"
Brenda shook her head. "I'm not sure what I want yet"
"You need to talk to him about this Brenda"
She paused looking at my chin instead of my eyes "I'm pregnant"
"Does he know?"
"Yeah I told him the night he proposed
"How far along are you?"
"Two months"
"Are you going to tell mom and dad?"
"No, no not yet...What color are you going to pain Jason's bedroom?"
If she wanted to change the subject I'll let her "Burgundy and white I think"
"Sounds good"
"Congratulations sis"
She hugged me and I could feel the hardness of her stomach "Thanks for not judging"
"You've done a great job Sam"Jason awed, leading me into the kitchen to see the remodeling that had been done.
"It would have been easier if you told me what you wanted you should've had some kind of say in all of this"
"No because when your not here I and watch football on my new flat screen HD and go 'Sam picked this out'"
That was amusing "Yeah your going to be watching Ohio State and immediately think of me"
"I always think of you" Jason admitted, leaning down to kiss me. I loved to kiss him, his scent, his touch drives me crazy.
"Uh-huh. Name some times you've spontaneously thought of me"
He smiled while his lips remained on mine, before letting go and looking out of the window. "Let's go out to the beach the sun's about to set"
"Ohh can't think of any?"
He walked past me to the closet, grabbing some new blankets I had ordered just for this kind of occasion "Samantha don't doubt me. Everytime I come home I'm thinking on you. And even when I'm not I'm thinking about you,I'm wanting you"
"Oh" I couldn't think of anything smart to say back, instead I followed him outside to the dim shining sun and the soft sand to lay down. We talked, and talked drinking bitter, sweet wine. Childishly I tapped Jason on the stomach when his eyelips began to droop. I leaned over his body and traced his lips with the tips of my fingers. Until his lips opened, he pulled my down on top of him. His hands smoothed over my ass, and I ran my finger tips over his bare chest. Knowing what this was leading to when my shirt was over my head, landing in a puddle beside us I unzipped his pants, as he unsnapped my bra.
The sun had set hours ago when we finally had enough of each other, I laid beside him covered in sweat, sand, and Jason. Our bodies remained tangled into each other as we both fell asleep. And I reveled in the words he whispered to me before my eyes fell.
"I love you Sam"
Brenda shook me like I was an empty piggy bank " You had sex with Jason!"
I struggled sucessfully out of her death hold "Isn't it love-making when you love the person?"
Brenda flopped on her back on her bed "This is unbelievable!"
"Thats at least one word you can call it, but so much more!" I replied, dodging a flying pillow.
"I think I'm jealous, being pregnant is making me gain a gazillion pounds"
"You've gained five"
"I need new jeans"
"Shut-up, you love being pregnant you were talking to your baby for hours. I heard you one night"
"Well a-derr I love my baby, but the holding it in my stomach for nine months is kind of sick. I feel like I've been probed by aliens"
"Deal"
"What choice do I have!" Brenda cried, she start fingering her necklace which held the ring she had accepted from Sonny. She always smiled when she looked at it, she was going to move in with him but thought it was more convienant to stay on campus.
"So your saying you love Jason?"
"Yeah I am." I looked at my phone and groaned, "I gotta go sis I have class"
"Lock the door on your way out, I really don't feel like getting up to do it"
After class I went to the local cafe and was surprised when I saw Jason there in the parking lot. He was arguing with a bald white man who didn't look like he wanted to be in the same proximity of Jason. He saw me and pleaded with his coal like eyes for me to help him in some way. All I could think about was that Jason wouldn't be doing any harm to the man unless he'd deserved it. I shoved my hand in my pockets and went into the cafe.
I watched Jason move away from the man and when he was on his way back to this car he saw mine and looked to the window He didn't look to happy to see my face. He looked back to this car to me and then back to his car. Jason came into the cafe. Sat across from me.
"When did you come here?"
I rolled my eyes, "I need to tell you something."
"What?" I could already hear the concern in his voice.
"I love you Jason"
He laughed "I know that"
"I never said anything"
"You don't need to... I just know. There isn't just one way to show the way you feel to someone Sam"
"I hate when you do that"
"What?"
"I say something then you come out with this big philosophical comeback"
He chuckled, checked the view from the window and leaned in closer "Sam, we need to talk, I should've told you this a long time ago but..."
My breath backed up, "Tell me"