Let me tell you it was not fun getting in Neal's head while he thinks he lost Kate but I like the way the chapter turned out and I hope you will as well.
Neal's POV
Emptiness, total emptiness.
Peter and Elizabeth were around me with there hands on my arms but I was barley aware of them.
I herd this ungodly wailing sound coming from somewhere as I sobbed uncontrollably. I wished it would stop but before I could get too annoyed I realized it was me.
The overwhelming knowledge consumed me, she was gone. I stared anywhere but the two people next to me. I didn't want to see what I knew I would see in there faces, Pity or worry.
I felt like my sole had been ripped painfully from my body crushed, put in a fire and replaced while still on fire.
I wanted nothing more than to crawl out of my own skin. I knew I was worrying Elizabeth and Peter but I couldn't stop.
"Why did you stop me?" I yelled suddenly "I should have died with her."
I saw the look of hurt in his eyes and I knew my anger at him was unjustified
"I'm sorry, that was wrong of me to say. I know its not your fault."
He nodded and said. "Its ok, I don't hold it against you"
Peter got up and I felt an irrational fear.
"Please don't leave me" I pleaded
"I'm not" he told me "I'm just going to make a phone call. I will be right hear."
"Havershum," he spoke into the phone softly.
"What do you want suit" he said agitated "How did you even get this number? It is so like the government to steal people's personal information like this. It's a direct violation of."
"Get over hear now," Peter said firmly, "please"
"Oh I guess because the almighty feds ask I have to drop everything I'm doing and rush right over there. Nice try suit, nice try"
"It's about Neal. He needs you." Peter said exasperated
"I'll be there in five minutes" Mozzie replied before hanging up.
4 minutes latter Mozzie walked through the door
He looked at me and stood there with his mouth hanging over. I must look worse than I felt. And that's saying something. I looked up at my reflection in the TV. My hair was matted, my eyes were bloodshot and swollen and my clothes were burnt.
What happened" he said simply
"The plane I was supposed to leave on exploded." I mumbled "Kate was on bored Moz."
His expression turned blank and he walked up behind me and touched my shoulder
"Oh Neal" and I could tell he wished he say something more but he said it all in those two words
Peter's cell rang just before I had to reply witch I was grateful for .
"Its Jones" he told us but I was past caring.
This time he stood to far away for me to hear. Something on his face lifted but them fell again as he realized something. He hung up and walked over to us.
"Neal, they only found one body, the pilot's." He told me slowly.
I stood there unable to move for a full minute while what he said sank in.
At that moment I was flooded with the certainty of something.
"She isn't dead" I said. I said as a fact not a question.
"Neal, I know you want to believe that but the chances are we didn't find a body because" I knew he was trying to find a way to word it carefully" the chances are she was to close to the bomb and there's nothing to find. He told me with that look of pity and sorrow I had been dreading.
'Liston I know you don't understand but I know she is alive" I said.
Mozzie looked at me like I was starting to come mentally unhinged.
"Neal I'm sorry, but you saw the explosion" Peter told me
"I just know, ok. I would feel it if she was gone. I was so devastated after the explosion, I couldn't realize what my subconscious was trying to tell me, but that news gave me hope and that cleared my head for a second. I just know she is alive."
"Ok Neal. I will help you look."
I knew he didn't fully believe me, but I could tell he didn't want to dampen the fire I felt back in my eyes , one I haden't had since the explosion.
I didn't care the reason why. All I cared about was one more person would be looking and I was grateful.
"I'll be there to" Mozzi said pointedly looking at Peter as if daring him to object.
I looked around the group of people around the room staring at me and realized that I would find her. With friends like these, it would happen.
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