BPOV
"I can't believe you named him after a fucking Beatle," I seethed softly; I was holding Tony as he slept and didn't want to disturb him.
"You were sleeping," Edward started.
"No I was exhausted after having your son, dip shit."
We were going home today and I wondered why I hadn't seen the birth certificate papers. When I had Mackenzie, I had them right away so four days of Tony being here I wondered where they were.
My father-in-law was the one who told me Edward had them. I questioned him while he was gathering our stuff, which leads me to now.
"I love you, Bella Cullen," he smiled sweetly against my lips.
"I'm not falling for your shit," I mumbled.
Tony shifted and I was afraid we woke him. "He's going to want to be fed soon, he's nuzzling," Edward noticed.
"Look at you," I said impressed.
"I try," he shrugged, kissing Tony's cheek.
"I'm still pissed at you."
"I wouldn't have it any other way," he murmured watching the both of us until Tony was done.
"I'm here everyone!" Emmett announced causing Tony to wail, he entered my room with Mackenzie clinging to him.
"Emmett," I frowned trying to calm Little Tone down.
"Sorry," he said sheepishly give both Tony and me a kiss.
"Tell him Anthony, he's too loud," Edward said playfully as he took Kenzie from Em.
"Can we go? I want my house, bed, and I can't believe I'm saying this… my dog?"
"I knew he would grow on you Bells," Em chuckled ruffling my hair.
"I'll take Anth," Edward grinned taking him and putting him in his car seat.
"Do I get hugs and kisses, Kenz?" I asked quietly.
She looked taken back like she didn't think I would speak to her. I needed to call Alec because this little girl was killing me. Emmett nudged her towards me. "Your mom wants you Mack-mini."
I moved to the edge of the bed knowing I couldn't lean down to pick her up or I might tear my staples. Emmett noticed my helpless hesitation lifting her up, placing her next to me. Edward watched us as he talked to Tony who I could hear whimpering.
"Hi Mommy," Kenz murmured and I just wanted to pick her up and hold her. I pushed her hair out of her eyes, tilting her chin up with my finger.
"I love you," I said simply.
Her eyes widened in surprise.
"Mackenzie you are my first baby I will love you for the rest of your life, nothing will change that. Tony doesn't make me love you less. Daddy and I have to watch him because he's so small."
"Everyone watches him… he's so cute," she grumbled with a scowl.
Emmett surprisingly stepped in and scooped her up in his massive arms. "You know your daddy is my baby brother?"
"Daddy's not a baby," she argued.
"Sometimes I would argue that," he said playfully winking at Edward who was glaring. "It was just Nana, Gramps and me then all the sudden Nana had your dad. I wasn't happy at all, but being the big kid is better."
I giggled because Em was only two when Edward was born.
"I'm a big kid?" she asked cocking her head curiously.
"Yeah, the cool thing is Ani won't really be in school with you because you're way older. So you won't have to share friends and you'll know more than him," he said enthusiastically making me roll my eyes.
"So I can watch Dora and stuff, he can't?"
"Sure," Emmett shrugged.
Edward was beside me sitting the car seat down on the bed. "I told her basically the same thing a few days ago," he complained.
"I'm a better problem solver," Emmett boasted. "You get your kids and I'll get the wifey."
"Just be careful with her," he stressed as Emmett helped me into the wheelchair.
"Leaving so soon," Carlisle smiled, picking Mackenzie up.
"We need home."
"Understandable," he nodded and then turned to Edward. "Your mother and I will stop by later tonight."
"We'll be there," I mumbled as the nurse started to push us to the exit.
"I'll get the car, Mack-mini let's get this show on the road," he hollered taking Kenz with him. I swear he had no concept of inside voices.
We were going home.
My son was an absolute angel. No he really was I don't know if it was because he pitied me because I was useless, but he didn't cry… ever. He came out with a strict schedule. Edward said if I said anything I would jinx it, but I didn't care, he was the best baby on the freaking planet.
He was two months old and he was perfect.
"You're doing it again," Edward whispered from beside me.
I just got out of the shower and I hobbled into my room where my husband sat against the headboard with Tony cradled on his lap. I sat down and tickled his little belly making his face scrunch up.
"Doing what?"
"You're waiting for the other shoe to drop."
"Am not," I sighed, getting up to go to the dresser and get my pajamas out.
"Bella, I know you."
"Please."
"Can I say just a few things?"
"You're going to anyway…"
"Anthony and Mackenzie are great, fuck, they're pretty amazing. Mackenzie has come a long way… she's been talking and playing with him. When we went to the park the other day, she even became a mother hen with him. Your therapy is almost done with and we're back to normal, like before I left for Africa."
"You have to leave for Africa again soon," I said sharply, pulling my shirt over my head. It was actually his shirt, I didn't really wear my clothes around the house I stole his.
"That's the last assignment I'm doing for a while. Alice's fall line is coming out and I told her I'd be her photographer."
"This is the first time you're leaving and there is someone else in this house besides me and Kenzie. I swear he will know you're gone, look at him," I frowned sitting next to him.
Anthony's green little peepers were looking at me almost curiously. He was too cute for words. Mackenzie looks exactly like Edward, the tale-tell sign she was mine was her eyes, but Anthony's face all me, which was humorous to me. His hair was fiery red and his apple green eyes were all Edward.
"Mommy loves you so much Little Tone," I cooed scooping him up from Edward's lap.
Once settled in my arms he started in search of his food. "He's a smart boy," Edward grinned.
I've had enough boob comments from him, Em, Jake, and Jazz to last me a lifetime.
I adjusted him so he could have his nighttime feeding; I looked at the alarm clock on my nightstand he was right on time.
"I don't want to go," Edward whispered stroking his head.
"I know and I'm not being fair to you," I sighed glancing up into his eyes.
"This will be the last time, I promise you," he said with conviction.
"You promise?"
"I promise you, Anthony and Mackenzie," he smiled kissing Tony's head.
"This is your career you're talking about."
"I can do other things with my photography, love."
"Mommy I got my jammies on!" Kenzie announced proudly.
Edward took her to see Alec once a week. He said that we needed to emphasize the big girl idea to her. We let her know she could dress herself and that she could learn to do cool things, such as read and tie her shoes. Chloe was involved as well because she wanted to be a big girl too.
"Good job, monk," I encouraged and she hopped up on the bed as I gave Edward Anthony to burp.
She cuddled up against me as I held her. I made sure she knew I would never forget she was here.
I turned on the TV putting it on the Disney channel for Kenzie. She scooted in between Edward and me. He had Tony lying on his chest while we watched some movie. Tony started making noises, he wasn't fussing it was like he wanted to be heard.
Kenz laid her head on Edward's chest too in front of him. I sat up a bit and exchanged silent words with Edward when he looked up at me.
"Hi," she whispered bringing her hand next to Edward's on his back.
Tony looked at her in wonder, he looked at everyone like that but then his face broke out in a little crooked smirk. Not quite a smile, but he definitely was working on the concept. She kissed his nose and I started to cry because it was corny and fluffy, but this was the first time she ever really showed him she loved him. Tony continued his soft cooing.
"He's talking," Kenz pointed out and went back to her show.
An hour later, she fell asleep and I didn't have the heart to wake her so I left her in our bed. Edward was half way to joining her so I carefully lifted Tony into my arms.
"You about ready for la la land, little Tone," I whispered kissing his head, he watched me as I rocked him. "You're getting sleepy… you're getting very, very sleepy."
I wasn't very convincing because it took him a half-hour and a relaxing ride in the rocking chair to fall asleep.
Again, my conversation with Edward earlier crept into my mind. Things haven't run this smoothly in a very long time. It couldn't be this simple after the year of hell we've been through. Could it?
I gave Tony one more kiss from his bassinet before climbing into bed.
I heard the baby's wails and flew up in the bed. He never cried like this. The panic of his cries startled me. I noticed the familiar faceless figure looking into the crib from his wheel chair. His hands pulled at his cropped hair in frustration.
I woke up to Edward holding me, tears pouring down my face. He maneuvered a sleeping Kenzie to his side of the bed.
"I…I…" I stumbled.
"You were freaking me out, love. Are you okay?"
"I don't… know," I breathed heavily. It felt like Emmett sat on my chest.
"You were having a panic attack."
"I'm good," I insisted, I still didn't know what the fuck just happened. "What…What time is it?"
"Just after five."
"Tony's going to want breakfast," I slowly pulled away from him and crossed the room to pick up my squirming little boy.
"Bella," Edward quietly warned.
I ignored him. "You will probably be a business man, and run a Fortune Five Hundred company. You're only two months old and already you're following a strict schedule," I said stroking his cheek as he fed.
Edward huffed loudly pulling Kenzie to him before he went back to sleep. I stayed up for the remainder of the day. There was no way I wanted to see the anguish of the dream I had… no nightmare. My feelings of the other shoe dropping were slamming into my subconscious.
A/N: Oh… I'm curious a lot of you have said you've heard about this from different sites and fic authors. Where have you heard about this story at? That was awkwardly worded. Dolphin62958 is my beta and she's the best!