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BPOV
We got back to Paul's truck before we thought we would, practically running there the whole way. This can't be happening. I thought to myself. I Can't lose Charlie! We left everything that had been brought to the cliffs and climbed in his truck. He sped off before I even had time to buckle my seat belt. I started to think on the past months. My arrival at Forks, dad buying me a truck, him almost shipping me back to my mother when he didn't think I was going to come back to the real worlds after Edward left. It all seemed so trivial. Now that I might lose him all I could think about was back when I first left forks. My mother had never been a small town woman, her dreams were bigger than that. But I came back every year, wanting to see Charlie, and Jake. We arrived at the hospital and I jumped out before Paul had even had time to pull to a complete stop. I could hear him yelling behind me.
"I'll be right behind you Bella!"
Nothing else mattered right now though. Not even Paul. All that mattered was that I got to see Charlie. As I reached the nurses desk they told me his floor and operating room number. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me. Never stopping, I even took the stairs because I could get up there faster than if I took the elevator. I arrived at the room that had been told to me and I knew it was bad. There were two doctors standing outside of the room, as if waiting for my arrival.
"We're doing everything we can Ms. Swan, but we're afraid he may not make it."
"I want to see him," I told them. "I have to see him!" I tried to push through the two doctors but my strength had failed me by this point. If I were real with myself I would admit that this had been a long time coming. All of those years that I wasn't there, Charlie had been eating at the diner, ordering pizza. He never had the healthiest lifestyle. But I wouldn't think like that. Charlie had to make it. I went to the waiting room, by the time I had gotten there Paul was already sitting in a chair waiting for me. I sat down next to him and started to cry. He pulled me into his chest and I slowly started sobbing. When I finally stopped we sat there in silence for a while. I looked at Paul.
"I never wanted to leave here you know?" I started. "Renee decided she didn't like it here and when the courts gave her prime custody, I was forced to leave with her. I wasn't old enough to choose which parent I wanted to stay with. Three more years and I never would have left Forks. Three more years and I would have lived my whole life here. By the time the courts would let me choose who I wanted to live with I already had friends in Phoenix. I couldn't leave. What was I supposed to tell them? 'Oh, I'm sorry but I was only using ya'll to keep me happy until I could go live with my dad. But I can now so I don't need you anymore?' All that time that I missed out on being with Charlie. If I had known, if I had just known! I would have fought to stay here."
"It's OK," he told me, "You can't change the past."
At that time the doctors walked in the waiting room and by the look on his face I already knew what he was going to say. It was over, they couldn't save him. I started to break down as the doctors told us they tried everything they could. And that they were sorry. I wasn't in any fit state to speak to them so Paul told them thank you and they left. I just sat there, sobbing as Paul took me back into his arms and rubbed circles on my back. It was something that Renee used to do to help me calm down when I would have a nightmare. Right now this felt like a nightmare. I kept hoping that I would wake up and it would all be a dream. But I knew I wouldn't. This was reality, I wasn't waking up, Charlie was dead. The doctors finally let me in to see his body and I fell over it sobbing uncontrollably. I was suddenly angry.
"WHY! Why did you have to leave me? Why didn't you fight for me when Renee left? I wanted to stay! I HATE YOU!" My sobs started to calm down as Paul pulled me closer to him. My next thought was whispered. "I'm so sorry."
Paul didn't say anything but I knew what he would if he had. That It wasn't my fault. That Charlie loved me and would have done anything to keep me in Forks. I couldn't be here anymore. I had to go home. The ride home was just as quiet as the ride to the hospital. I sat there in my own prison cell, my mind. Nothing I could have done would have saved him. That was what really hurt me was that no matter how fast I had gotten there, no matter what I had done, the outcome would still be the same. Charlie would have died. I had never felt more helpless than I did in this exact moment. Nor, had I felt more alone. As if he could tell what I was thinking, Paul reached over and took my hand into his. I looked at him and tried to force a smile onto my face. but my lips wouldn't move.
PPOV
She was in pain. I could tell that as I took her hand. And there was nothing I could do except be here for her. She tried to smile. I knew that little motion hurt her even more. I wanted to do something to help her. But I couldn't bring back Charlie. We arrived at her house and as we got out of my truck she started to cry again. I just ran to her side and told her that it would be okay. She couldn't seem to move so I picked her up and carried her inside. I set her on the couch and went to leave, thinking that she would want some alone time. That was when she spoke to me.
"Stay with me." That was all she said. And I couldn't tell her no. I went and sat back down on the couch next to the arm rest. She got up from the couch and put a movie in the vcr, obviously trying to get her mind off of the events that had happened just hours earlier. It had been such a good day, and now it was ruined by the gloom that had taken over the whole atmosphere. She laid down between my legs, and I wrapped my arms around her as if I were trying to shield her from further harm. The movie started and I recognized it at once as Romeo and Juliet. Something told me that it was one of her favorite movies. And I could see why. She saw it as though she, herself, were Juliet, torn between the decision of two men who both loved her very much.
"You know, when my father left my mother, he just walked out." I told her. "He didn't even take time to tell me good bye. One second we were pretending to be your happy family and the next thing I knew his bags were packed and he was walking out of the door. We never saw him after that. Sure we would receive some money now and then. I would get a birthday card every year with twenty dollars in it. It used to make me cry. To think that was all I was worth to him, a lousy twenty bucks. As I grew older it started to piss me off. What had I done? I asked myself. If I could just go back to that time, I told myself, I would be the perfect child. And maybe he wouldn't have left. Then I realized one day that it wasn't my fault. There was nothing that I could have done to stop him. It really hit me when the cops showed up at our door to let us know that he had died. Alcohol poisoning they told us. The worst part is that I didn't even cry. I was angry. How could he? I mean, yea, he had left me and mom, but I always had the hope that he would come back. But if he was dead...It meant he never would..."
Bella looked at me with understanding in her eyes. It was at that point when I realized why fate had chosen her for me to imprint with. No words were spoken, but we suddenly understood each other. In that position we fell asleep. It was a peaceful sleep, for the first time in my entire life.
BPOV
(A/N: when I started to write this part, Paramore's song Decode came on lol)
I could feel the light running in through the window. It shone against the back of my eyelids causing me to wake up. I opened my eyes and turned to find Paul still there. He had stayed the whole night with me. It was something that Edward never would have done. He would have left as soon as I fell asleep. He thought I didn't know, but I would always wake up within a few minutes of him being gone, my body waking from the temperature change. Charlie never knew that Edward spent the night with me. It was then, that the events from the day before hit me and I broke down again. Paul must have felt the tears hit his chest because he woke up and pulled me in tighter. It was comforting to know that someone was there for me. I silently wondered how Edward would have handled this situation. I don't think it would have been as comforting to me if it had been his arms that I woke up in this morning. We heard a howl, and Paul stiffened as if he were alarmed. He got up from behind me.
"Bella, I have to leave." The look on his face was as calm as stone. I couldn't believe it, here I was in the worst time of my life and he was walking out on me.
"Fine!" I yelled at him. "Get the fuck out! And don't come back!" His eyes were pained, as though he wanted to stay. And for a second, I thought he would. He then turned around and walked out the door and I started to cry again. Everyone in my life would walk out on me. First Edward, then Charlie, and now Paul. I thought that Paul would never leave me. I've got to do something to keep my mind off of it. I thought to myself. I got up from the couch and went upstairs. I moved the laundry that I had put in the wash to the dryer and put a fresh load in the wash. Starting them both I walked back down stairs and started to clean the kitchen. It was still as Charlie had left it from the night he had burnt dinner. I put a pot in the sink and filled it with water to let it soak for a bit. I started to wash the rest of the dishes. There was a knock on the door. I answered it, surprised to find Jacob at my door.
"Hey Jake," I mumbled feebly. "Come on in." He walked right up to me and pulled me into his arms. Jake would always be there for me. I knew that much. He told me he was sorry and asked what I was doing. That was when I walked back to the kitchen. "Just working on some stuff that has to be done. The dishes are three days old and this place is a wreck."
I went back to doing the dishes and he stepped up beside me, drying them and putting them away as I washed them. We continued to work in silence until he finally spoke to me.
"Bells, If you need anything at all, I'm here for you." He smiled that knowing smirk at me. It always cheered me up because it reminded me of all the times something embarrassing had happened between me and Jake. Like one summer we were in the fields and we decided we wanted to know what a kiss was like. It probably would have been a lot better if we hadn't seen each other as siblings. "So where's Paul?"
"Fuck if I know," I said, "He just got up and left. SHIT!" I hadn't realized that one of the glasses was chipped and I had cut myself on it. Jake immediately took it and started to clean it. I had forgotten how comfortable it was around Jake. He always made me feel like my troubles were miles away. When he got done he put a band-aid on it.
"There, good as new." He smiled at me but it quickly turned into a frown. "What do you mean he just got up and left?"
"Just that, We heard a wolf howl, he stiffened, and just got up and walked through the door."
PPOV
I hated leaving her like that, but Sam had called and I had no choice but to go. It had been an alpha command and I had no choice but to go. As soon as I got far enough into the tree line I was phasing. The entire packs thoughts joined mine. Jared was the first to speak.
Paul, come to the clearing, we need to talk.
Why can't you just tell me now?
Fine you have to tell Bella what you are
I phased back. The last thought had been Sam. And it had been an order. I had seen from their thoughts that they were planning on having a bonfire tonight and that was when I was supposed to tell her. As if it would have been hard enough before, now I had to tell her this? It wasn't fair, to either of us. I put my clothes back on and ran back to her house. I couldn't stand being away from her, not knowing if she was still okay. I reached Bella's house again, Jake was inside with her. He must have showed up right after I left. I knocked on the door. It was Jake that answered.
"What the fuck are you doing here?"
"Who is it Jake?" I heard my Bella's voice coming from the kitchen right as I smelled the blood.
"What did you do?" I asked him, accusing him with my gaze.
"Nothing, She cut herself on a glass, What do you care?" I pushed past him to the kitchen to make sure that she was okay. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw she was. She glared at me and went back to washing dishes. I should have known that she wouldn't want to speak to me when I got back. It was her time of need and I had left her, just like everyone else.
"Jake, can you please come back another time? I have something I need to talk with Bella about." I glanced at him pleading and for once in his life he didn't argue with me. He told Bella good bye and walked out the door. "Bella, I'm sorry."
"That's not good enough! I trusted you! I needed you!" she started throwing things that I recognized as plates at me. I was able to dodge most of them but one hit me in the stomach. "Oh my gosh I'm so sorry! I never really meant to hit you!" She ran to me making sure I was okay. I knew it was only the pull of the imprint that kept her happy with me. She would never be able to be angry with me for long. And then the anger returned. "What do you want Paul?"
"I want you to go somewhere with me tonight."
"And what if I don't go? Why should I after the way you left me?"
"I promise, everything will be explained if you will just go with me tonight."
"Whatever, but if that ever happens again I won't be so forgiving next time."
"After tonight you'll understand if there is a next time, I'll be able to tell you why."
"So where do you want me to go anyways."
"There's going to be a bonfire in La Push tonight." I started to tell her. "It's going to be Sam, and Jared, their girlfriends, Embry, the tribal elders and us. They're going to tell the old legends and then I have something to tell you."
"Whatever." That was all she said as she went upstairs. I went and sat on the couch waiting on her to come back down. I knew she would when she was ready. When she came back down she was wearing a pair of jeans that looked like someone had taken scissors to them along with a black and purple paisley strapless top that looked like a handkerchief and a pair of purple heels with a flower on the front. I worried that she would trip as she came down the stairs. Her hair had been pulled back in a pony tail again and I never thought she looked more beautiful. "So when is this thing anyways."
"It's in a couple of hours, why don't you rest while we wait, I'll finish the cleaning." She laid down on the couch and fell asleep faster than I thought she would. In an hour she woke up and I had the house spotless so that she had nothing to worry about.
"I've got to make arrangements for Charlie." Those were the only words out of her mouth as she looked at me. We sat down at the table and picked out everything from his casket to flowers. Apparently, Charlie already had a burial plot so we didn't have to go through that. He also had a life insurance policy with Bella as the chief beneficiary for a quarter of a million dollars. Apparently he wanted her to be set for college if anything happened to him. After a few hours, and about ten phone calls, some coming in from well-wishers everything was set. The funeral was going to be in two days and thanks to Bella it was going to be a beautiful ceremony. The only thing she had to do was go find Charlie a suit and we could do that tomorrow. Time flew by and before we knew it, it was time for the bonfire. We walked out to my truck and I couldn't help but stare at her hips as she walked. She was everything to me. And I hoped she would except me after she found out about me.
We arrived right as Emily and Kim were putting out the last of the food. I made Bella get some, she hadn't eaten all day that I was aware of but she still only picked at it. I introduced her to everyone and Emily and Kim were ecstatic to have another girl in the group even though Bella had no idea why. As the elders started the stories I watched Bella. Her eyes grew as she realized what was going on. She looked around the entire circle when the story got to the part of imprinting. And then she looked at me.
"Paul, is this stuff true?" I sighed.
"Yes Bella, every part of it."
"And I'm taking it you imprinted on me?"
"Yes." She was taking this a lot better than I had ever expected her too.
"It was you, in the forest that day wasn't it? The silver wolf that sat with me in the sun..." She didn't need an answer for that one as her cheeks turned red from blushing. She had remembered everything that she said to me in the field that day. She started mumbling to herself. "If there are vampires in the world why wouldn't there also be werewolves..."
I pulled her towards me in a hug. "We like to think of ourselves as more of shape shifters that just so happen to turn into wolves."
Emily and Kim both walked up to us but it was Emily who spoke. "It's gonna be so great to have another girl to talk to this about. No one understands why Kim and I can't stand to be away from them." They both hugged her and left with their respective wolves. As we got in the truck I looked at Bella.
"Stay with me tonight Bells. At my house, I live alone." She simply nodded her head and smiled at me. I was so glad that she hadn't freaked out and ran away. I knew that she could choose not to accept me. But she hadn't. She wanted me just as much as I wanted her. It was forever for us. We arrived at my house and I opened the door. "Welcome to my humble abode."
"You don't lock your doors?" She asked me and I shook my head and smiled at her. "I guess it's a lot safer since you're surrounded by people watching out for you." When she said that she yawned and I showed her to my room. I gave her a pair of my shorts and a tank top and she changed in the bathroom. I loved how modest she was. Even though I had already seen it all she was so secretive. If tonight went well I would see it all again. She walked out to me and I took her gently in my arms and bent down to kiss her. Our lips were a perfect fit for each other. Slowly I moved her to the bed.
I gently laid her down, leaning over her and pushing her further onto the bed. I climbed on top of her, never breaking the kiss. She put her arms around my back, pulling me closer to her. My hands moved to her waist and up her shirt. I gently played with one of her breasts, the other hand moving behind her to unhook her bra. When it loosened I moved my hand underneath it tweaking one of her nipples. I broke the kiss only long enough to remove her shirt. As soon as it hit the floor my lips were back against hers with more passion this time. I wanted her. I needed her. The wolf wanted her too. I was a little more rough as I yanked my shorts and her panties off of her.
Once more I broke the kiss this time long enough to remove my pants, which were incredibly tight at the current moment. When my lips made contact with her this time it was her nipple. I started sucking and nibbling at it as one of my fingers entered her hot core. She was already wet for me. My hand pumped in and out of her touching her g-spot and causing a small moan to escape from her lips. It was like music to my ears. I couldn't stand it anymore. I had to be inside of her. I moved my lips back to hers and placed my tip at her entrance.
"Oh God Paul, I need you so much" With that I plunged deep in her. She was so wet, and so tight I came almost immediately but I wanted her to cum at the same time that I did. As I pumped in and out of her she moved her hand and started playing with herself. God that's so hot. I thought to myself and it only brought me closer to climax. I could feel hers building inside of hers and I started my release as I felt her walls closing around mine over and over again. We both laid there in ecstasy, just listening to each other breathe before I laid next to her. As we were falling asleep I pulled her close to me.
"I love you Bella."
"I love you too Paul"
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A/N: I promised you a Lemon and a lemon you have! It was quite fun writing as this was the first real one that I have ever written. Next chapter I'm thinking about bringing in Edward for a little bit of drama but I want to know what my readers want from me so you MUST review or it will take me longer to update! I love you all!