mhm, it felt so good to write this chapter, made me remember how much I like it. Good thing my writer's block is gone and well, there is probably only one or two chapters left in this fic.
A lot of things happen in this chapter even though it is not as long as I was hoping it would be.
Warnings:...you know them all so bleh!
"I have been wondering something lately." Alfred tilted his head, his azure eyes glancing around the group. After their little tea party the Caterpillar decided to join them and they left the Hatter's 'home' to hide deeper inside Wonderland. The agent was used to walking but he never thought they would literally walk across the whole land to get to a safe place that they were not even sure if it was safe to begin with.
"Do ask." Ivan said with wider smile. The taller male was doing the Hatter a favor and for the moment he was caring him on his shoulders. Apparently Arthur was not used to moving from one way to the other by walking, so during their journal he had shrunk into nothing but the kid version of himself that Alfred had seen before and he was now sitting on top of the cat's shoulders with his hands on top of Ivan's head. The sunny blond thought it was ridiculous for him to carry him so the Hatter ended up on the cat's shoulders.
"When the police captured Arthur back in my world, we found what his name was and that he was a police officer in England, so Hatter, are you the same Arthur?" The agent narrowed his eyes suspiciously and shoved his hands in his pockets ignoring the smoke that was tickling his nose from the Caterpillar's pipe.
The Hatter grinned and leaned his head against his shoulder, his now wide eyes staring down at Alfred. "No! Of course not, that is not me, you see. I haven't die in almost one hundred and twenty years! I'm old, old, so old but it's okay! Because I am so alive!" The sandy blond snickered, his voice now a bit softer and squeaky from the age reduction. "That's my blank."
Alfred frowned, his brows furrowing together. "Blank?"
"We have blanks in your world," The caterpillar filled in, his voice sounding somewhat bored and inpatient. "And they are reborn every X number of years, even if we don't die, but if we die they die as well, or are reborn so we can be reborn inside that body. We created them a long time ago, our blanks are the real way we look outside Wonderland and the way our bodies are supposed to be like, in Wonderland though we can change the way we look, our age and over all everything about us."
The agent made a confused face and rubbed his temples, his mind trying to get everything inside so nothing would slip out. "So those blanks…they live a normal life? And why are they reborn in my world and not here?" Alfred sighed softly; things were just getting more and more complicated as he asked questions.
"We let them borrow one of our old personalities. Like these two probably already mentioned before we can only die in two different kinds of ways. One, we become so mad we basically destroy ourselves and two, we eat each other up. Now as much as I enjoy chewing on corpses I do not dare to eat someone in Wonderland because when you eat them you kee-"The Asian male was interrupted then. The Hatter jumped off of Ivan's shoulders and was now hanging from the Caterpillar by wrapping his arms around his neck, his weight making the petite male bend backwards a bit.
"Ahaha! Oh Caterpillar! You should go and collect more information for us, yes-yes! More information. Tons of it! So we know where the Queen is! Yes, yes, yes!" The hatter grinned and leaned in, his cheek gently rubbing against the Caterpillar's before he let go of him and ran back to where the cat was.
Alfred didn't miss this though, the Hatter had done this on purpose, there was no question about it. Azure eyes narrowed dangerously and he glared down at the child that was now Arthur. "When you eat people in wonderland you keep what?"
The Caterpillar smiled his pipe in his lips. "Oops."
The agent also didn't miss the way the Cat was now not smiling now and the way the Hatter's eyes were now a bright emerald color that was dangerously becoming an acid green.
"You keep their memories and who they are." The brown haired male said as smoke blew out of his mouth and the smile on his lips slowly grew larger.
It took a while for the agent to get what was so grave about that small piece of information. It took him a while because maybe his brain did not want to process it, but when it did it hit him like a bucket of ice-cold water that was being dropped on his shoulders. The Hatter mentioned before that he was giving him his memories back, which meant…it meant the Hatter ate him. The crazy green eyed male devoured him and kept his memories, which explained everything. It explained why Alfred couldn't remember any of this and why he never had any connection with Wonderland, it was because he didn't have his old memories, and by theory this personality of his, what made him, him was just a blank. He was a fake; he was nothing more than a fake personality to keep a body healthy until it was needed to be used.
'No! No! No! Don't think like this!' A voice was screaming inside of him and the agent choked, covering his mouth with one of his hands. Flashes of his old memories were slowly showing in front of his eyes again, but something was screaming at him not to believe them, to stop thinking, to stop assuming things, but it was too late. He couldn't keep his head from going and once the memories began to play backwards in his head he could remember it. The agent could remember the Hatter killing him and swallowing him whole, with cold emotionless emerald eyes that were showing nothing but hate. This is what he deserved, this is what he got for lying and manipulated people, Alice deserved that one way or the other. He lied to the Hatter to get him to be by his side, but how could he not, the Hatter was his!
'Stopstopstop! Don't think like this! Don't hurt him anymore!' The voice was so quiet now and it was slowly being buried away in Alfred's head, because he couldn't listen to that voice, no. He deserved the Hatter, he was Alice, he was beloved by everyone in Wonderland. He was created to maintain order and he was the one that owned the crazy, pretty green eyed male. The sunny blond could feel himself laughing inside his brain and slowly darkness was being wrapped through his thoughts and everything was making sense, so much sense. No! If it made sense it meant he was becoming like them, nononono! He couldn't become one of them, what about the missing children, what about his home back in his world, it was his life, it was who he was.
'Fuck that, now give me my body back you useless blank.' This voice was different, quiet but firm and most of all filled with malice.
Alfred didn't notice when he began to shake or when he fell on his knees but the rest of the group was soon standing around him, except the Hatter. Arthur was now slowly taking one step back after the other and he was shaking just as much as Alfred was. The sandy blond swallowed heavily and soon enough icy blue eyes met forest green orbs.
"You are Alice's first blank Alfred, shouldn't you feel proud?" The Caterpillar snickered softly, the smoke in his pipe slowly turning into a thick fog that was spreading around them.
"Arthur, The Mad Hatter was the one that killed you and ate you. He was the one that kept your memories for one twenty-seven years until you were reborn and he gave them back to you before you became an insane fuck." The Asian male lazily dropped his arms, the pipe gently tapping against his thigh. "He kept them and went into the real world to look for you before you would get them back, so he could manipulate you. I bet you can't even remember everything about yourself, just glimpses of who you used to be and it is because in order to regain your memories you must become insane, you didn't. So it was like injecting the memories just to give you your powers back."
"That's a lie!" The Hatter yelled out and shook his head but he didn't take a step closer to the sunny blond that was trembling and holding his head. "No, no, no, I didn't do it like that, NO! I wanted Alice back, I-I wanted who I loved back and I wanted to be with him. You saw the lie! You did, re-" Before the Hatter could finish a white chain went through his shoulder, ripping the flesh apart until blood was splashing everywhere and soon another chain pierced through his stomach. The sandy blond coughed up blood and his green eyes were as wide as they could get. The irises were trembling and the eyes were slowly filling up with tears.
The agent slowly got to his feet, his face facing the ground, both of his hands were holding tightly on his head before he screamed and closed his eyes tightly. The Cat quickly jumped back along with the Caterpillar except the later looked amused and was smiling from ear to ear, the cat on the other hand was not smiling and he kept shifting his gaze from the Hatter to Alfred.
Arthur stared in horror and quickly shook his head before he tried to take a step back just to have the chains on his body yank him forward, pulling and tugging on his body until he was standing only a couple of steps away from Alfred. The Hatter tried changing forms, changing from a kid to a teenager and then and adult but the chain wouldn't let go so he shifted back into his normal teenager form.
Alfred stopped moving for a couple of minutes and it was like if the world was standing still, no sound could be heard except of his panting and the once trembling body was now calm. Slowly he let go of his head and a white, dusty powder began to wrap around his form until he was left with a different look. The agent now looked younger, around the same age than Arthur and he was wearing navy blue trousers, with black, knee-high boots that were covering the rest of his trousers. A dress shirt was now on his body and a navy blue tie was neatly around his neck.
Smiling Azure eyes met forest green again although this time the green eyes glanced away and the owner gulped loudly.
"Hatter." The voice was sweet, far too sweet and the blue eyes were now kind and gentle. The smile on those lips was soft, almost angelical. "My dear Hatter, it has been so long." Alice tilted his head, his index finger tapping against his own chin before he reached for the Hatter's face, letting the back of his hand rub against the smooth skin of his cheek. "Why? Why did you do that to me? When all I have done is to love you, to be with you because you need me, because that mad little head of yours is far too insane." The sunny blond was talking like if the other male in front of him was nothing but a child.
"Please tell me, because I cannot understand why did you betray me, why would you do something like that?" The voice suddenly turned a dark tone and the blue eyes turned into an icy color that was glowing. Alfred growled softly and then smiled, taking a hold of the hatter's face lovingly, letting his thumbs rub against the gentle jaw line, then the cheek bones before moving to the eyelids."Why?" Alice smiled and let his thumbs push inside the Hatter's eye sockets, letting his digits push into the eyeballs until blood was pouring out from the teen's face.
The Hatter didn't scream but he did whimpered and swallowed heavily. "Y-you are not who I betrayed. No, nononono! You are not who I love, not at all! Not at all! It wasn't supposed to be like this, you were not supposed to remember! NO, not at all!" And the sandy blond whimpered again when the thumbs pulled out, leaving him blind and with blood crawling down from his face down to his neck.
"I think you are far too insane for me to understand you my dear Hatter." Alice said softly and shook his head as his arms wrapped around Arthur's head, hugging it close to his chest. He let his fingers play with the soft sandy blond hair and ignored the blood that was now coating his shirt. "Maybe I should make you a bit saner for me to understand you, wouldn't that be lovely? Wouldn't it?"
Arthur shook his head and began to struggle then. He squirmed and kicked his legs, pushing away from Alfred's chest with both of his arms, even clawing and shoving him but he wasn't capable of getting him off. "NO! nononono! I'm fine the way I am! I'm fine; it's okay to be insane! I like being insane, d-don't do it! No, no, please don't!" The teen was getting and sobbing, but the ground was already glowing underneath them and chains were slowly wrapping around his form. "NO! No, no! I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm sorry! Please don't! STOP!" He closed his eyes tightly, waiting for the feeling of dying to come, waiting for the awful feeling of being drained out until only one part of him was alive…but it never came, instead the sound of someone falling against the ground was heard.
Alfred clicked his tongue and narrowed his eyes, his hand was now holding on his shoulder and the wound that was slowly spitting out blood. Slowly he got to his feet after being knocked back by a figure that was now standing in front of the Hatter. Violet eyes glared at the icy orbs in front of him and a rose was thrown in the agent's direction, a rose that turned into a thousand different thorns that were aiming for their prey. Alice reacted quickly and moved to the side, rolling on the ground and quickly getting to his feet, in front of the Hatter was none other than the Queen of Hearts.
The wavy haired male glared down at Alice and another rose appeared in his hand. "So you are back, I was hoping you were never reborn because you were a failure of a creation but apparently my luck is not that great." He huffed softly, his fists shaking on either side of his body.
The Queen narrowed his eyes and then turned around, one of his hands gently holding on Arthur's hands before he snapped his fingers and the chains on his body broke apart. "Hatter, you silly little Hatter." The voice was softer than Alfred's had been before and the hands were gentler and were soon pulling the other teen into a hug. "Why did you bring Alice back when I'm uniting both words so you can be as mad as you want and never die…so you don't need to be with him anymore, so you can be free, why bring him back." The violet eyed male asked softly his thumbs rubbing underneath the missing eyeballs. "Why? You won't need him anymore, why?" The face staring down at the Hatter was so gentle it was almost impossible to imagine that the owner was a rose with sharp thorns.
The Hatter tilted his head and the full lips slowly partnered apart. "…Don't touch me." And this time Arthur's voice was the one that was cold; it was the one that was spitting out venom. "I don't want you near me, or touching me, I hate you. I wish you would have never been created, I wish you would have never reincarnated." For the first time his words were as directs as arrows that were aiming for a target. Arthur's eyes slowly changed from the desperate emerald to the acid color from before, the eyes with the intention of murdering and killing, to destroy and tear apart.
The Queen went stiff and his eyes widened before a smiled gently tugged from the corner of his lips. "Y-you are kidding…r-right? I had to put up a façade for everyone else, but you know me, you truly know me. I had to be cruel for everyone to understand me, f-for people to follow me but you. You can't say that." The boy with glasses shook his head back and forth and let go of the Hatter. "You can't do that to me, not now. W-why? You love me." But the answer he got was another dark glare and those green eyes were slowly poisoning his head, like a toxic waste that was being set in front of him. The violet eyed teen let out a soft noise and fell on his knees before quickly snapping his head to the side when he heard laughing from behind him. Alice grinned back at the Queen his blue eyes looking colder than ice himself.
"Now that is hilarious!" Alfred laughed a bit more, tilting his head back before walking towards the two. "The Queen in love with the Hatter. Priceless, the person that brings insanity and makes the Hatter die fell in love with the person that he kills, truly priceless!" The laugh turned into chuckles and soon Alice was walking pass the Queen to wrap one of his arms around the Hatter's waist, pulling him closer to himself so he could bury his face against the sandy blond hair. "Are you becoming too insane as well my Queen? You can't be with him, you kill him, and you make him crazier and crazier. You are the source of insanity in this kingdom and you know that you are meant to be alone and by yourself for all eternity." The sunny blond chuckled, his amused eyes on the fallen form of the queen. "How pathetic, you know that the Hatter needs me, right?"
The Queen just glanced away and wrapped both of his arms around himself, his whole body trembling in shock. "No, this is a lie. Hatter, you said it to me!" Violet eyes glanced desperately at the empty eye sockets in front of him. "You said it, you said that you didn't love Alice, you said that you hated him! You said that you loved me; you said it over and over again. Why are you doing this to me? I-I…I broke all the rules, I am uniting both worlds so we can be t-together so why?" The eyes were now filled with tears that were struggling not to get out but the Hatter didn't even look at him, he didn't look at anyone.
"K-kitty…get me out, please."
In the blink of an eye Alice was once again on the floor and the Queen was thrown back as well. Ivan smiled softly and took a hold of Arthur's hand. The caterpillar quickly reacted and the smoke in his pipe turned into a thick fog again, attacking the pair but it was too late. The Cat and the Hatter were gone, leaving the three behind, it was almost like if they had never been there to begin with.
The Queen slowly got to his feet and brushed his clothes clean, his eyes glaring at Alice. "I don't know what you did to him, but I am going to find out and I swear I am going to make you pay. It was a mistake for me to create you!" He hissed and snared the ground shaking as thorns slowly began to crawl out from within the ground. "You make him suffer, hurt him and do awful things to him and now…now I don't know why he prefers you but after I unite both worlds there is going to be no need for you!"
Alice just smiled in return and got to his feet the wound on his shoulder no longer bleeding. "You are pathetic, you have always been pathetic. You are just jealous that I used to be invisible and then everyone's eyes were on me and only on me so you became the invisible one, the one that nobody wanted to be around, after all you would only drive them mad until they would die. You are the reason why Wonderland is the way it is, you are the one that should die. I am going to stop you from uniting the worlds and then the little Hatter would be all mine mhm?" Alfred smiled from ear to ear, his blue eyes shining with a glint of malice.
"I'm going enjoy devouring you after I'm done with what I'm doing." The Queen said with a glare and a symbol then began to glow underneath him and the same dark hands from before began to crawl out, pulling him until he was gone and only the caterpillar and Alice where standing.
"What took you so long to get me." Alfred snapped and turned around so he was facing the Asian male.
"The Hatter was trying to mislead everyone so we wouldn't find you, so he could be the one to find you." The Caterpillar nodded his head slowly the pipe back in his mouth. "You know I am loyal to you and not the Queen, I tried whatever I could Alice."
The sunny blond chuckled, waving one of his hands in an uncaring manner. "Its fine then, I'll punish our little Hatter once I find him. For now we need to stop the Queen from uniting both worlds. I wouldn't want him to keep my little bunny now, would I? Not until I'm done tearing off his ears and legs, not until I'm done with him for what he did to me."
The Caterpillar laughed softly and then the pipe in his hand disappeared and he slipped his hands under the sleeves of his outfit. "The nerve he had, I'm sure he is so scared right now he is not going to show his face for a while, which means we can finish off the Queen with ease." And the Asian male was walking now, guiding the way for the Castle of the Queen…but Alice was not moving, the sunny blond was staring at his hands, turning them around and flexing his fingers with curiosity. "What's wrong?"
"This is not my blank." Alfred said with a grin that was slowly growing bigger and bigger and the icy-cold eyes were shaking with sadism. "Oh Hatter, I see what you tried to do, you silly thing. You stupid whore, I am for sure going to make sure you can't move after I'm done with you, but thank you for making things so much easier for me."
The caterpillar just frowned, confusion showing on his eyes but Alice just turned around and walked away, leaving the other to wonder what he was talking about.
It was raining. The water falling from the sky was heavy, splashing everywhere as it landed on the ground and against the leaves of the trees around them. The Hatter rubbed his face with both of his hands, ignoring how wet he was now and how his clothes were clinging to his form, his hat was gone, forgotten somewhere on the ground around them.
The sandy blond was shaking, his legs were trembling and having a hard time keeping him up and his eyes were filled with tears that were slowly mixing with the water that was pouring on top of him. "H-he was going to unite both worlds for me, he was going to bring madness and let it spread. For me, me, me, just me, just me. W-why didn't I let it be, why did I changed things?" The green eyed male choked with a sob and his fingers dug through his hair, yanking on the soft locks.
"You did what you thought was best at the time, da? He is doing this because he is not who he is, you know that. You know what you did and how it is making everyone madder than before." Ivan said softly, his suit wet and with a sigh he shrugged off his jacket, tossing it aside uncaringly.
"No, no, no! I shouldn't have, this isn't working. They were not supposed to remember anything, they were supposed to keep the personalities their blanks owned, b-because it was their first blanks, s-so that meant it was who they were meant to be originally. This is all wr-" The Hatter yelped loudly and coughed roughly when the Cat slammed his hand against his throat and pinned him down against one of the trees. Forest green eyes didn't shifted though; instead the color grew duller and softer.
Ivan glared down at the blond but his smile was still on his face. "It was the Caterpillar, it wasn't our fault. We didn't know he was a dog of Alice, we thought he was in our side, right?" With a nod the silver haired male pushed his hand harder against the throat underneath his hand. "We did everything right, everything was done correctly. We didn't drive them mad, we just opened their eyes to the reality of Wonderland so they could live here, Alfred was supposed to kill Matthew and then everything was going to be fine, but everything changed, so our plan needs to change."
Arthur nodded his head slowly and swallowed heavily before taking a deep breath when the hand was removed from his throat.
"I am doing this for fun and you know it Hatter, so don't disappoint me. After all living for so many years makes things dull and boring." The Cat smiled a bit wider and tilted his head back, his violet eyes staring at the rainy sky. "People believe mad people are crazy because of the way we think, but in the end we make everything simple. If we do not like someone we kill them, what matters is our pleasure and existence so then, Arthur, what do we do if we can't be with the person we want, but can be with someone else?"
"We switch them." The Hatter answered softly his green eyes staring down at the muddy ground.
"Exactly, so then, what is that crazy little head of yours thinking of now? Make a plan and make it work." The Cat laughed softly crossing his arms over his wet shirt.
"I already have one kitty…I'll make it more amusing for you, don't worry." And the forest green eyes were glowing and smiling.
The Hatter found Alice, he found him sitting on his tea table with the March Hare, Dum, Dee, and the Caterpillar. The blue eyed male didn't look surprise when the sandy blond suddenly appeared from behind one of his chairs and sat down before picking up a cup of tea with trembling hands. The rest of the group looked calm, calmer than before even, the madness in their eyes were gone and now they looked sane enough to know what they were doing, after all Alice was back, their dear little Alice was near them making them happy and sane.
"I knew you will come Hatter." Alfred was the one that broke the silence and smiled, his chin resting on top of his hand.
"T-this is my table silly, my home, mine, mine, all mine." The Hatter nodded slowly and took a sip of his cup of tea but the shaking of his hands was too much and soon he dropped the cup.
"True, true." Alice smiled and then glanced around him. "You guys may leave for now, but get ready, we are leaving for the castle." The sunny blond waited for the group to leave before lazily standing up and walking around the table until he was standing next to the shorter male.
"I-I'm sorry, f-for what I did. I'm so-" The Hatter whimpered softly and closed his eyes when a hand was quickly shoved on top of his mouth to keep him from talking.
"Shhh. It's okay my little Hatter, I know why you did it and I have to say I find it highly amusing." Alfred purred softly and leaned in, nuzzling his face against the other's soft neck. He let go of the Hatter's mouth to slip his hands under his shirt, letting his digits rub against the soft skin underneath. "You still feel the same love." With a content noise the sunny blond pulled the Hatter so he was standing on his feet before pushing him against the table and forcing him to sit on it.
Arthur rubbed his lips together, his eyes staring down at the hand that was underneath his shirt and was now tugging on the belt of his shorts. "R-really? So many years passed, so many. I-I should get more tea, yeah more tea!" The Hatter said nervously and tried to move back just to have a pair of firm hands hold onto his hips to keep him in place.
"No, no, its fine. I think you don't need tea, you need something else." Alfred smiled from ear to ear and slowly got closer until his lips were touching the Hatter's. "You know you want to do this right? You love doing this, specially now. You are going to enjoy it even more with this new body mhm?"
The Hatter froze in place and stared at Alice with wide eyes before he grinned and glanced away. "S-silly, witty. W-what are you talking about? So confusing, I think you are too sane for me to get you!"
The sunny blond just smiled and kissed the hatter, wrapping both of his arms around his waist before pulling him closer to his body until their chests were rubbing against each other. The kiss was rough and demanding, not asking for permission or waiting for the Hatter to get what was happening, no. Alfred pushed his tongue inside the other's mouth, rubbing the wet muscle against the soft and moist insides until he had his fill.
"Twenty-seven years, such a long time in Wonderland. You killed me and made me wait twenty-seven years for this. I hope you enjoy it as much as I am going to." The azure eyes slowly began to glow until the icy coldness was back. "After all, it would be silly if you didn't." Alfred chuckled and roughly pulled the hatter's pants down and lifted his shirt up until the other was fully exposed. He ignored the shaking of the smaller body and instead he hungry took in what was given. The former agent sucked and licked on the soft skin of the Hatter's chest, his teeth rubbing against a nipple before roughly biting on it.
The Hatter squirmed and twisted his body, his back arching a bit as he closed his eyes with a shaky sigh. Not the person you love but he looks exactly like him. How could he deal with something like this? How! It was slowly driving him madder and madder and he could feel the rush running through his veins but he couldn't let the sunny blond confuse him, no. Not now and not ever, not until he could fully hold the person that loved and wanted to be with, but for now, for now he could let this happen, because he needed to let it happen so he could get the other half that was missing.
"What are you thinking about?" Alice asked with a smile as he bit down on the tender flesh of the Hatter's neck.
"How sane I would like to be right now so things wouldn't make sense." And it was the first time the Hatter actually wished his insanity didn't make things so clear.
I hope I gave enough hints for people to figure out what's happening. Oh! Also, I forgot to add last time that the March Hare was Hong Kong!
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