Lost but Found Again

Chapter 6

Revisiting the Past

Nanoha,

I guess you've decided that you don't want to be together anymore since you didn't reply to my last letter. I still can't believe that this is it. Nanoha, we've been together for a long time. We loved each other more than anything. We made plans for our future together and the family we wanted to have. How could that just change after a short period? This is madness. This has to be some sort of dream. You wouldn't ever leave me Nanoha, would you? Just the thought of you leaving me breaks my heart. My heart is breaking Nanoha. I feel like I could die without you. Don't do this to us Nanoha. Please don't. I'm begging you.

P.S. I'm not going to give up on us Nanoha. I refuse to because I love you.

Fate

I stormed into Midori-ya in a hurry slamming the door behind me. Mom jumped from her chair and looks in my direction. I was so pissed off, I think my mother was actually scared of me in that moment.

"Nanoha what's going on?"

"I read in one of Fate's letters and she said that she called to tell you and dad that she was coming back to visit me and was told that I said that I didn't want to see her anymore. How could you and dad do that to me?"

"What are you talking about Nanoha? I never talked to Fate on the phone. I never knew that she even called"

"Then who could have told her that?" Then realization hit me. It was him. "Where is he? Where's dad?" I said with gritted teeth.

"He's in his office" and that's where I went.

I didn't knock. I opened that door with so much force, I wouldn't have been surprised if it broke off the hinges.

He was on the phone, but I didn't care. I had to have a talk with him.

"First you take Fate's letters from me and then you put words in my mouth. Words that I wouldn't even say" I screamed slamming my hands on his desk.

"Sorry John. I'll have to call you back" and he hangs up the phone. "How dare you come in my office like that?"

"No, how dare you tell Fate not to come here and tell her I said that I didn't want to see her anymore? Huh? I never even said that, so why did you say it?" he didn't respond.

"Answer me Dammit" I yelled.

"Shiro, we took the letters because we thought Fate wasn't coming back. If she said she was, then why would you tell her not to come?" my mother interjected.

"I was protecting this family" he said in a stern voice. "Do you know what would have happened to us if people found out about their relationship? We wouldn't have this café. I was protecting us"

My anger was at the max and without caring I slapped him.

"So you take away the love of my life so that you could live comfortably? How dare you? How fucking dare you?"

"Don't use that tone with me Nanoha"

"No, shut up. I don't want to hear what you have to say. You took her away from me. Do you know all the pain that she went though, huh? She went through more pain than I did" He says nothing. "Of course you don't. It was in the letters. Listen" I take Fate's letter out of my pocket. "Just the thought of you leaving me breaks my heart. My heart is breaking Nanoha. I feel like I could die without you. Don't do this to us Nanoha. Please don't. I'm begging you" he still didn't say anything. "You see, all her pain, all her sorrows were in the letters and if you would have just giving them to me, I could have stopped it. You are the worse" I walk over to the door. I stopped before going out of the office. "I don't want anything to do with you. You are no longer my father" and with that, I left.

"How could you do that Shiro?" I heard mom say before I left out the café door.

I was crying. How could he do that? I hated him for doing that. I really hated him.

"Nanoha" Mom said right when I was about to get in the car. She runs over to me and places me in a hug. "I'm sorry Nanoha. If I would have known I…"

"It's okay mom. I have to go" And with that said, I got in my car and drove off. I didn't want to be anywhere near that damn café.

~0~

I was parked outside of Fate's house. I was still a little shaken up about what happened today and I wasn't sure if I could go in her mom's house right now. I decided to read another letter. It was dated April 4, 2006. My birthday.

Dear Nanoha,

Happy birthday. I hope you're having a good one. You're finally turning eighteen. I can't tease you anymore about being young anymore. Hehe. I'm sorry. I was trying to make this letter as happy as possible, but it's a little hard. I'm just going to cut this letter right here. Happy birthday Nanoha. There's a charm for the bracelet that I gave you if you want it.

Fate

My heart had never felt this much pain before. It hurt to read this. She was trying to suppress her pain just to say happy birthday to me. I'm so sorry Fate.

~0~

After getting myself together, I grabbed my box of memories and exited the car. Once in front of the door, I knock.

"Hey Nanoha. Long time no see"

"Hey Ms. Testarossa. It's been a long time"

"Yes it has" she says before engulfing me in a hug. "Come in. Fate is upstairs"

"Thank you" I come in and take my shoes off.

"So how have you been Nanoha? The last time I saw you, you were in high school. Now look at you. You turned into such a beautiful young woman" I blush.

"Thank you Ms. Testarossa. I've been good"

"That's good to hear. Well I won't hold you up any further. Just make sure it's not another five years before I see you okay?"

"Yes ma'am"

I made my way up the stairs. The house still looks just as I remembered. It was still classy. Ms. Testarossa always knew how to decorate.

I made my way down the hall towards where I remembered Fate's room being. The door was open, so I walked in.

"Hey Fate"

"Hey Nanoha. How are you?" she says getting off the bed.

"I'm fine" I said forcing a smile to my face. I wasn't fine at all, but I didn't want to ruin our time together with want happened today.

She looks at me curiously before a smile comes to her face.

"I see you've brought the pictures with you" she takes the box and sits back on the bed.

"Yeah. You wanted to see them, so I thought I would bring them"

"Thanks" and she turns and lays on her stomach.

"Your room looks exactly the same as the last time I was in here" I lay next to her

"Yeah I know. Mom said she didn't want to change it"

"She misses you. I could tell"

"I know she does. I'm going to ask if she will come to America with me before I go back"

"That would be great. I know she would be happy to go"

"I hope so" she turns her attention back to the box. "Well let's see what we have here" she opens it.

On top were the pictures that we took at the mall. I had noticed that Fate put her pictures from that day in a frame by her bed. It made me smile.

Under those, were some pieces of paper.

"And what's this" she holds up a folded piece of paper

"It's some of the letters we wrote will we were in school" she opens it.

"Nanoha, this says pass me a piece of gum" she gives me a look that says 'are you crazy or something'.

"So! It was from you. I didn't care if you wrote one word on it. I was going to keep it regardless"

"You're such a silly girl" we laugh.

She moves the other letters and finds the pictures.

"Aww, look at us" she picked up the picture when we first started dating.

"I was cute wasn't I?"

"No" I pout.

"Remember you were the one who said 'Um I think you're cute. Wanna go out?' and you can't say you didn't"

"I lied. I just said that to get in your pants" she giggles.

"Why you little perv" I said before jumping on top of her in order to tickle her.

"Please stop Nanoha" she said laughing.

"Tell me I was cute, or suffer with endless tickles"

"You were cute. You were more than cute"

"Say that you looked like a big red tomato because my cuteness way too much for you to handle"

"I looked like….haha….a big red tomato because…haha….Nanoha's cuteness was too much. Please release me. I beg you" I let her go and laid back down on the bed.

"I hope you've learned your lesson"

"Yes I have…. Not" I was about to tickle her again. "Okay. Okay. No more tickles"

"I thought so" I said glaring at her, but really I was laughing inside. Fate was too cute.

We turned our focus back to the box. Fate picked up another picture. It was from when we went camping seven years ago. I couldn't help, but laugh.

"What's so funny?"

"Sorry, but I just remembered something funny"

"And what was that?"

"When we went camping, you told me that you had to go to the bathroom. When you came back, you had bird poop all over you. You looked like a toilet seat" I couldn't hold my laugh in anymore.

"Why you little meanie" she said before I was tackled with tickles.

My laugh grew even louder as she tickled my sides.

"Please Fate. Stop"

"Say sorry" she said teasingly.

"I'm sorry"

"Okay, I forgive you" but she kept on tickling me.

"No fair" I said between laughs.

A knock came at the door, which stopped Fate. Thanks Ms. Testarossa. She opens the door.

"I'm happy you two are having fun, but keep it down a little"

"Sorry mom"

"Sorry Ms. Testarossa. It's all Fate's fault"

"Hey!"

"I don't care who's fault it is, but don't make me hear it again" she was scary. I remembered all the times Fate and I would get in trouble and Ms. Testarossa being mad was not good.

"We'll be quiet" we both say at the same time.

"Good. Now good night"

"Good night" we say together. And with that she leaves.

"Man, mom can still be scary sometimes" Fate says laying back in her spot on the bed next to me.

"I know"

"You didn't have to put all the blame on me either" I stick my tongue out at her and she laughs.

Fate grabs another photo. It was the photo we took together after I gave her the necklace.

"That was a happy and sad day for me"

"How come?"

"I was happy because I could give you a gift that showed you how much I loved you, but I was sad because you would be leaving me" I pulled out the necklace from my shirt. I looked at it sadly. It meant so much to me then.

"I was sad to, but my happiness was over flowing that day when you gave me the necklace. I never took it off after you gave it to me. Even after I stopped writing you, I still couldn't take it off"

"Why?"

"Because even if you didn't love me anymore, it didn't change the fact that you still had my heart Nanoha" she smiles. "That was reason enough for me"

What she said made all the pain I had been feeling today come back tenfold.

"Why didn't you tell me that my father told you not to come see me?" Her smile disappears.

"So that's what was wrong when you came in?" she looks at me and I nod. "When you told me that it was your parents who kept the letters and told me the reason, I figured it wasn't worth saying. I didn't want to think of those sad times in my life anymore"

"Well the reason was false. My father purposely told you that I didn't want to see you"

"What do you mean?"

"He didn't want us together Fate" The room went silent.

I didn't know what to say. I was too busy thinking about what Fate was thinking. From the expression on her face, she seemed sad. I couldn't blame her.

"Hey, wanna connect the necklaces?" she says with a sad smile" "I don't even remember what they look like together"

"I remember I told you that when we connected our necklaces, it would mean that we would be truly back together again. But we're not"

"It doesn't matter Nanoha. As long as we are together that's all that matters to me. Whether we're lovers or friends, just having you here with me means everything" We look into each other's eyes.

I was so entranced by her eyes, by her words, by her. Fate moved some strands of hair that fell in front of my eye and tucked it behind my ear. I could feel her soft skin as she caressed my cheek. She leans in towards me. I could feel her breath on my lips. She was so close to me and in that moment, I wanted what she was going to give me. Nothing else mattered, but her, but she stops.

"I'm sorry Nanoha" she moves.

"It's okay Fate. It's okay" she flashes a faint smile. It showed everything and that was pain. "Hey, let's finish reminiscing on the good times we had together, okay?" I try smiling as best as I could.

"Sure"

We spent a few more hours laughing and enjoying each other. But of course, in both of our minds, we could only think of one thing…..

~0~

"Wow Nanoha. You look so beautiful" my mom said with tears in her eyes.

"Thanks mom"

I was standing in front of the mirror with my wedding dress on. I never really realized the impact of me getting married until now. I didn't know what to feel, except that the day I was starting to dread since Fate came back, is coming soon.

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