Thank you so much for the reviews. I understood that some of you don't quite get the story, so I hope this new chapter will make things a little more clear. This is my first fan fiction in English, so maybe that is the problem, but I hope you'll like this new chapter. Tell me what you think, of course!

x IertjeAshfan

The song Alice is listening to; The Vitamin String Quartet - I caught myself

BPOV

Once we're back at the Cullen's house Edward wraps me tightly in his arms. I let out a deep sigh. It was nice at the beach today with Alice, but I really missed Edward a lot. He stares at me with his bright, golden eyes and I feel my face flush. Edward is so beautiful.
These last few years were the most perfect ones of my whole life. The day the Cullen's moved into Forks, my life changed for the better. He and his family we're different, I noticed straight away. They all had that perfect, flawless skin tone, dark eyes and graceful walks. I remember so well, as if it was yesterday that I first laid eyes on Edward.
It was at school with Jessica and Angela. They were trying to convince me of how much fun a school dance could be.

Jeez.. How much fun could a party be when everyone was drunk or high, girls grinding into some random guy like it was some sexual festival..

But then, my eyes focussed on someone else. There he was. Edward. For the first time at our school, and girls were loving him, naturally. He looked perfect, everyone noticed. Even I noticed, and I'm not the kind of girl who looks at every cute guy that walks by. His eyes found mine when I least expected it.

Boom..

As if lightening had struck me, I froze and felt my heart moving up to my throat.

Look away, Bella, look away.

I saw him smile a crooked smile at me and I felt so embarrassed.

Great, now he must think about what an idiot I am, almost drooling over his presence..

Instead, Edward's smile grew bigger, as it reached over his whole face, and walked towards me. All the while he kept his eyes focussed on mine. Before I could blink again he was standing in front of us. Jessica and Angela were also staring at him, giggling and turning red. He just kept on smiling at me.

Shit, fuck.. oh no.. Think of something smart to say. Be charming, try, Bella!

"Good afternoon, girls."

His velvet, masculine voice erupted a shiver that coursed through my whole body. I was sure my face looked like a tomato at this point. Angela and Jessica said nothing but just kept on giggling.

Could they be more annoying? Why do girls always do that? Wait.. wasn't I just doing the same..

I kept on staring into his eyes, amazed by the golden colour. Never had I seen eyes like that before.

How many minutes did just pass? SAY SOMETHING YOU DUMB GIRL!

"I'm.. B..Bella," I managed to stutter at him. He reached out his hand for mine to shake it, and I quickly grasped it.

Jeez, Bella. You look desperate..

"Hello, Bella. My name is Edward. Cullen." I kept shaking his hand while he started laughing.

You can let go now..

I let go of his hand, wishing I didn't had to, and then shoved it into my pocket. He chuckled and I stared at his lips. They were some kind of pale, grey-red colour.

Omg, Bella! Get a grip on yourself. You're out of control.

"You're new here, aren't you? How do you like our school so far?" I found it quite difficult to talk to him, since he made me stutter and stare.

"Yes, I am. And I find your school very interesting." He nodded.

"Close to the subject I wanted to talk to you about," He continued. "Could you maybe show me where.. I can find the.."

Bella, damn it! Stop looking at his lips. Look into his eyes, he is talking to you!

"Bella..?"

Shit, now I didn't hear what he said. DUMB ASS.

"Sorry, what did you want me to show you?" I couldn't get more red than I was now.

He chuckled and pointed at his school map. His pale finger pointed at the gym. Luckily I knew where to find that, and nodded, smiling.

"I'm sure Bella will return to you girls, as soon as she showed me the way."

Edward looked at Jessica and Angela and they both flushed again. I knew exactly how they felt. They both nodded at me and quickly I turned away, walking next to Edward Cullen to the gym. I could feel people stare at me, but for once I didn't care. He asked me, personally, to show him the way, and I was happy to oblige. On our way we started talking and felt a strong connection between us.

Ever since that day we grew closer, even though things changed a lot when he told me that he was a vampire.. But never for a second I doubted my feelings for him, and told him that there was no way I would ever leave him. I knew this was true, I felt it deep in my soul. There was no love like this. There is no love like this.

"Do you want to stay here for the night, or shall I take you home?"

Edward holds my hand while we walk up the stairs to his bedroom.

"I'd like to stay, if that is ok with you, and your parents, of course."

"Bella, don't be silly. You know you're always welcome at our house. You are family, you know. You belong with me." Edward looks at me, seriously. I nod at him and smile.

He's about to speak again but I press my lips on his before he can do so. He takes me in his arms and answers my kiss. I think I'll never get enough of Edward. His kisses are perfect and different every time. I close my eyes and feel his hand on the small of my back.

"Hmm.." I moan. I shiver and he kisses me more roughly, I feel his desire growing by the second.

"Bella, love. We should stop."

These are the words I hear too often. I know this is hard for him, but can't he see that it's hard for me to? After years, I am so ready to take this to a new level..

"Hmm.." I sigh. "Okay, you're right."

I'm not going to push this. Not tonight.

Edward looks at me. His eyes look sad, his lips are staying in a forced smile.

"You really look beautiful, Bella." he murmurs.

I try to hide my disappointment and lean my head on his shoulder, looking out the window.

"You are perfect, as always, Edward."

Before going to bed, I suddenly long for a hot shower. Maybe that will ease the tingling sensation going on in my lower stomach. I peck Edward on the lips and quickly take a clean towel with me to the bathroom. On my way over there I walk past Alice's room. Through the gap of her door, which is slightly opened, I see flickering lights, maybe candlelight, and I hear Alice's voice humming a beautiful melody. The music that accompanies her sounds dramatic, loud, but also really beautiful. The sound of violins and cello's are vibrating in my ears. When Alice starts humming again I decide to walk on to the bathroom.
Quickly I get undressed and step under the hot water, coming from the shower.

Hmm.. this feels so good.

The hot water almost burns my skin, but that's just how I like to shower. A red glow soon appears on my shoulders and legs. I decide to also wash my hair, so it no longer smells like the sea. If only I had my strawberry shampoo with me.. I look over at the wall where all the shower gels and soap bars are lying. My eyes fall on a pearly, purple bottle of shampoo and I reach for it. When I open it a wonderful scent fills my nose. I can't quite place it, though. It smells familiar. I pour it on my hand and then rub it all through my hair.

This really smells so good. Like a mix of all nice scents.

I close my eyes as I step under the shower completely and let the water wash everything off. The soap, as well as my horny tingles that spread through my whole body. I can't wait to get a good nights sleep. I step out of the shower and dry myself quickly. When the towel is wrapped around my body, I pick up my stuff from the floor and open the door.

Oh, the air in the hallway is freezing cold!

I step on the cold marble floor with bare feet and shiver.

I always forget my socks. Why do I do that? Mental note; take socks next time!

When I walk through the hallway I see that Alice's door is wide open now. I stop in front of it and see Alice sitting on her bed, reading a magazine while listening to something, big headphones on her head. It looks funny, actually. Alice's head is small and perfect, and the headphones are way too big for her. I chuckle. Suddenly her head pops up and sees my chuckling face. She removes the headphones and smiles back at me.

"What is so funny?" she chuckles.

"Oh, just your headphones. They look so big on you."

We both chuckle and I walk into her room, leaning against her doorpost.

"It was really nice today. Better not scare me again like that, though." I smile at her and she winks at me.

"I'm sorry, Bella, I had to try something to get you into the water. And guess what? It worked." Her face looks totally smug.

"Yes, it worked. But next time.. I'll be prepared." I wink.

It's quiet for a while and we stare at each other.

"Well, it was fun. Just wanted to tell you."

Alice smiles at me."Yes, and we'll go shopping soon. You promised, Bella," her smug face still smiling.

"Love to. Goodnight, Alice."

"Night night, Bella."

I turn around and walk out of Alice's room. Quickly I run through the hallway and into Edward's room. Edward is lying down on his bed while looking strangely at me.

"What's the hurry?" he chuckles.

"Cold.." I breathe loudly, from running.

I pull open Edward's drawer of clothes and pull out one of his boxer briefs. I put it on and without wasting any time I slip under the black satin sheets. Edward tucks me in and lies closely next to me. His fingers caress my yaw, down to my shoulder. I push my head against his shoulder and inhale his scent deeply.

I wish we could lie like this forever. Maybe better if he was lying under the sheets to, in the same amount of clothes.. Oh, fuck. The tingles are still there.

As I ignore my tingles, Edward rests his arm around my waist and I close my eyes.

"I love you, Edward."

"Just sleep, Bella. I'll be here looking after you all night."

I smile at him, not opening my eyes, and know that he's true. I can't feel much safer than I do at the moment.

"I love you too, Bella."

I drift off in his arms and feel the world around me fading out. All I hear in the background is a lovely melody, pulsing through my veins..