BPOV

Why did Edward look so angry at Alice. She didn't even do anything? She just bought me the most expensive dress there is and brought me home without difficulty about the blood..

"Are you okay, Bella? You look so terrible, it must hurt so badly.."

I look up at Edward and see his worried eyes stare into mine.

"I'm fine actually, Alice acted really quickly to help me and brought me back fast, with Emmett of course," I answer, sounding a bit irritated.

Edward frowns hearing my tone and nods his head.

"Well, I expected you to come home safely without injuries.."

What is his problem!? I am fine, I'm still walking and talking, nothing serious..

"You know I always get myself in trouble. Nothing to blame Alice for.."

We walk through the hallway in silence. I'm still holding onto Edwards arm for support when I suddenly remember my actions of this afternoon.

Did I seriously kiss Alice? What was I thinking! Well, I know the answer to that.. I just wanted her to know I'm not at all afraid of her, anything but.. I just needed her so bad..

I feel my face flush and Edward doesn't show that he sees. We reach Carlisle's office within seconds and enter the big room. Inside it smells like a mix-up of library and hospital. In a big armchair next to the window I see Carlisle sitting, reading a book. When we stand close to him he looks up at Edward, then at me, and smiles friendly.

"Bella. Did you trip to get away from Alice's shopping addiction? I'm sure she would have understood if you told her." Carlisle keeps smiling and winks at me.

I get more and more crabby listening to people making jokes about Alice when she did nothing wrong. It was a perfect day..

"No, not at all. It was so nice today. Just me being clumsy again.. like always."

I have a little difficulty staying friendly towards Carlisle. I know he was only joking.

"Let's get started on cleaning your face and arms, Bella. You'll be clean and stitched up in a few minutes." Carlisle pats my hand a few times and then walks to his cupboard, searching for his medical instruments.

"Edward, can you get me a warm washing cloth and a dry towel, please."

Carlisle looks back at Edward, who leaves the room within seconds.

"So, Bella, are you staying here with us tonight? It's our family movie night, which I find really amusing. Of course you are invited, since you are part of our family to."

His fatherly tone is filled with kindness and love. Charlie isn't like that at all, even though I know he loves me so much. And of course he's always there for me. We're just not the kind of family that does those things together.

"Of course, Carlisle. I'd love to stay. No school tomorrow anyway." I smile at him as he finishes the stitches.

"There, all closed up again and ready to start healing. Edward has a washing cloth for you so you can clean your face a bit. I'm proud of Alice."

I nod and feel much better now.

"Thank you, so much, Carlisle."

At least he appreciates what Alice has done for me today.

Edward is standing next to me with the towel and cloth and I quickly grab the cloth and press it to my face.

If only Alice was here to stare into my eyes while she cleans my face..

I wipe all the blood off my face and the remaining blood on my arms and hands. Edward still stands next to me and looks at me every move.

"Can I change clothes first, before movie night?"

I'm sure it's fine, I just feel the need to ask everything.

"Yes, of course. Anything I need to get for you from Charlie's house?" Edward looks at me while waiting for my reply.

"I'll just look in our room first, surely I must have something lying around there. No need to run tonight." I answer.

Carefully I slide off the medical bed and press a kiss on Edward's cheek.

"Thank you for the towel and cloth, Edward. And thank you, Carlisle. Hope you don't get bored of stitching up your daughter-in-law." I wink at him and walk past Edward, leaving the room.
Inside Edward's room it's chilly and I get undressed quickly. Now I only need to find some clothes for tonight. Maybe just pyjamas or something like that. When I reach for my bag next to Edward's bed I see clothes lying on his bed. Women clothes. A note lies on top.

Here, Bella. You can wear this tonight, since all your clothes are in the washing machine.

x Alice

I pick up the clothes and hold them up in front of me. Blue and purple pyjamas, how did she know again.

Does she really have visions about everything?

I quickly put them on and touch the soft fabric with my fingers. Pulling the shirt up to my nose so I can smell it, a perfect smell of Alice fills my nose. With a sigh I drop the shirt again and look at my own face in the mirror on the wall. Looks like my face is a bright red all day long. Again I stroke the fabrics, around my hips, closing my eyes.

Oh, Alice..

With sadness I open my eyes again and take my perfume from my bag. I spray it all over the pyjamas so I smell like myself again instead of Alice. Maybe that will help clear my mind a little more, instead of dwell in my own fantasy world.
When I walk down the staircase I see the whole family sitting down on the sofa's close to the television. I also see mountains of snacks on the table; popcorn, chocolates, different kinds of candy, ice cream, you name it and it's there.

"We didn't want you to get hungry, and also we didn't really know what you would like tonight, so we took it all." Esme smiles friendly when I walk into the living area.

"And now we can be sure as well that you'll stay awake all night, with all the sugar," Jasper says, laughing at me and winking.

More time to look at Alice..

I give myself a mental slap and focus on Edward. There's a space for me next to him on the sofa. He smiles sweetly when I sit down next to him and he pulls me closer in his arms.

"Why, Bella. You smell delicious tonight. New perfume?" Edward asks me. While pressing his nose in my hair.

Just a mix of my perfume and Alice's perfect smell..

"No, it's just my own perfume that I've had for ages now. Thanks anyway," I whisper softly in his ear, even though I'm sure they can all hear it.

I reach out for a big chocolate bar on the table and open the wrapper. I bite off a big piece and chew on it slowly.

"Shall we start with our first film then?" Carlisle asks and puts a DVD in the player.

I wonder what film we are going to watch. When it starts I see the title "The Ring" and I sigh. I've seen this one before, and I'm sure they have to, but before it always sent shivers down my spine watching it. Now, being surrounded by stranger things, I don't get scared that easily anymore.
The film is almost finished and everyone is still watching with high concentration, or at least, that's what I think when I look at their faces. My eyes stop when they have reached Alice's face. It's good that everyone is so focussed on the screen so I can just do whatever I like.

Or so I thought

Alice looks up at me and meets my eyes.

APOV

I look at Bella and see her staring into my eyes.

How long has she been staring at me..?

All of a sudden a vision hits me. Not flashes, like before, but a full one. Bella notices my change of expression and looks away quickly. She probably thinks it's her that I'm acting like this. I close my eyes and focus on my vision.

Bella is somewhere I haven't seen before. A small house in the woods. Far east from our house. Not even Forks. There's a river close by. It's raining. Bella is alone. Sitting behind a sofa, crying. On the coffee table are letters. A diary on Bella's lap. She's writing in it.

It feels like I'm intruding her privacy but my visions are almost always seriously needed.. I close my eyes again and focus to get my vision to the things she's writing.

Bella's hand moves the pen over the paper, writing everything down;

Alice, I could not stay. This is more than I can handle and I hope you understand. I'm betraying the whole family, but mostly myself. Edward can't know. Promise me, Alice. You've always been the best sister I could ever wish for, so promise me that you will destroy this letter after you've read it, and just let me do this alone. I hate myself for this, and it hurts me terribly to have to write you this and not see you in person, but you understand.

I'm in love, Alice. I can't be with Edward anymore, nor anyone else. I'm in love. . . With you.

Bella rips the paper out and puts it next to her on the floor. She starts over on a new sheet of paper, finding the last ten ones not good enough..

I open my eyes again. Shock, panic hits me. Everyone but Bella looks up at me, wondering what's wrong.

How can this be.. It can't, can it?

"Oh, no! I put my white blouse in the pink wash! I have to get it out quickly!"

I make something up so no one will be suspicious, and run to my room as fast as possible. There I sit down on my bed, shaking.

Bella.. she loves me..

I'm not sure whether I should be terribly happy with this news, or upset because she's so miserable now, soon to leave this family to be somewhere alone..

How can I keep on blocking my mind from Edward, knowing this about his girl, the love of his life, the one that makes him truly happy. He can't know this. Not ever. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Before I walk downstairs I get a CD of mine off the desk and slowly walk into Edward's room, placing the CD in Bella's bag. It is the one that I saw lying on the table in my vision of Bella. She must have taken it from me if I wouldn't have known this now because of my vision.
Then, I get back down and see my family waiting for me, watching trailers of the next DVD. Blocking my mind 24/7 isn't helping me while trying to enjoy movies like I normally do.. I sit down next to Jasper and look at the screen. From the other side I can feel Bella's eyes staring at me, but I ignore it and keep repeating the name of the movie in my head.

In the middle of the movie Bella gets up and walks to the bathroom.

"Sorry, humans do pee once in a while," she says, and Edward nods, smiling at her.

I smell the perfume that is sprayed all over the pyjamas I gave her.

Doesn't she like the way I smell?

I look at the film again and focus on that. There's a girl with red hair, swimming in a clear, blue ocean. It makes her hair sway around her face, looking even brighter red because of the water.

She's beautiful, not like Bella though. Bella looks perfect under water. Chocolate brown hair dancing around her beautiful tan face. Her eyes shining bright, looking for mine..

So, that is not helping. I start thinking of the previous film we watched and think of the horrible faces the dead people had in some scenes. Hmm..
Bella returns to the room and sits down next to Edward again. He takes her hand and I suddenly feel jealous. Now that I know she does love me, I'm also very sure she kissed me today, and now she's sitting there, pretending to love my brother the same as she did before. She's holding his hand, not mine.
Suddenly my hands tingle, wanting to reach out for her, take her in my arms, press my lips against hers, not like this afternoon, when it was nothing more than a light touch, no. I want to kiss her roughly yet sweetly. Show her that I do feel the same and don't think she's insane..

We watch more movies, Bella keeps eating, but we all can see that she won't stay awake much longer. Edward looks at Bella and notices it to. He whispers something in her ear and she nods, looking sad and tired. They get up and keep holding hands.

Damn it..

"Bella is tired, I'm taking her to bed." Edward looks at all of us and then back at Bella. We all nod and look friendly towards Bella. Then, we all wish her a good night and Edward takes Bella upstairs. We hear the door close behind them, upstairs, and we continue looking at the TV screen. Not that I'm still interested, but I don't have anything else to do now, and it's the safest at the moment to stay away from both Edward and Bella.

If things were different I'd be there with Bella right now, telling her the truth.