Chapter seven – dramas

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The crew had been out for nearly a week and everyone was missing someone. Kate was missing Mike and the kids, Spider missing Becca, Nikki also missing Kate. It was hard for everyone. Everyone had made couples on the Hammersley, it was like a love boat.

Kate got up one morning and knew something was up but she couldn't put her finger on it. It was wasn't her but there was something that just didn't seem right. Kate always had a feeling when something was about to go down. But most of the time it was nothing, some of the time it was more serious, so she wasn't to know either.

On the next port, she was going to text Mike and make sure everything was okay, but in the mean time she was going to send an email knowing full well Mike won't get it, it was busy with the kids and had so much to do without answering to emails.

Little to her knowledge, he missed Kate so much that he had his emails on all the time, day and night and every five or so minutes he clicked the refresh button so that he could see whether or not he had any emails.

He had been doing this since the day Kate left and he so far hadn't received any emails, he had a phone call and a few texts from her but that was pretty much it. He knew she missed them all though.

The next time Mike refreshed the page he had a email off Kate. He thought it was strange considering it was 7 in the morning but Kate never slept brilliant when she was away from the kids. He opened the email.

Hi Mike,

Missing you loads and loads, can't wait to come back to you and see the kids. Remind me again why I said I would cover, it just doesn't feel right to be away from you lot. Well anyways, that wasn't why I was emailing you though. No network so can't text at the moment so I doubt you would even look at this email but ah wells I will try texting later. But you know how I always have a feeling something is wrong, well I have it again, is everything okay? I mean at like your end. The kids okay? What about Becca, Josh and Nikki? If you get this email me back but don't worry I will send you a text later on.

I love you

Love and hugs

Kate xx

Mike was shocked that Kate emailed and even more shocked that she had that feeling because something always went wrong when she had that feeling.

He clicked the reply button to send an email.

Kate darling,

Everything is fine here, no problems, the kids are fine just missing you, just like I am missing you. To answer your question, I have no idea why you went back on the ship, because it is torture without you, I miss you so much. Becca is fine, I helped her move into Spider's and she also told me not to tell anyone but I let slip to Nikki, she was happy for her. Nikki and Josh are also fine, she is doing great with that baby and he is getting bigger, you will see that next week. So yeah everything is fine.

I will pop round to Spider's later to check on Becca, she is probably asleep still and then I will also call at Nikki's to make sure everything is okay there. I will get in touch with you later and pretend it is a call from NAVCOM, but don't say anything. I'm doing it because I miss you and I know when you have that feeling something isn't going to be right so it will hopefully keep your mind and at ease. Also keep me posted with how everyone is at your end.

I miss you and I love you so much, can't wait till you're home.

With love, Mike, Joshua, Lucy and Olivia

Xx

Kate was still sat on the laptop when the email came through, she saw that it was off Mike. Well I never thought he would reply to an email so quick that certainly wasn't like him, he must have been missing me, Kate laughed silently to herself.

She saw from the email that everything was fine back home, so it put her mind to ease a little know that everything seemed okay, but there was something niggling at the back of her mind, but she just couldn't quite think what it was or could be. So she let it go and went to the bridge.

"Morning everyone," Kate announced as she walked to the bridge.

"Morning Ma'am," The others chorused.

Kate went and started planning the route to their next destination, when Spider came over.

"Ma'am," Spider said causing Kate to look up from her work.

"Yes Spider, what can I do for you?" Kate asked.

"I hope I'm not over stepping the mark here, but is everything okay? I mean you just don't look yourself. It looks like you have the world on your shoulders," Spider said causing Kate to laugh.

"Oh Spider, no I'm fine honestly. I just have that feeling I get sometimes," Kate replied.

"Oh no, I hope you aren't talking about the feeling you get when you know something is wrong and something always turns wrong in the end," Spider said concerned.

Kate just gave him a sad look and nodded.

"Oh no Ma'am, that isn't good news at all. I hate it when you get that feeling because you are always right, I want to know what is going to go wrong now," Spider said.

"Well, I hope nothing goes wrong, Spider," Kate said.

"Yeah, again you always say that, and again it doesn't help it, something is always wrong," Spider added.

"Okay, I know, I have emailed Mike this morning and he said everyone is fine including Becca who is now very settled at your house, but he was going to pop round and see her later and then he is also going to see Nikki and Josh, and then ring, but I didn't say that okay. I will tell you later after he has phoned, Spider there is nothing to worry about okay?" Kate said reassuring Spider because right now all he could think about was Becca and the baby, what if something was wrong.

"Thanks Ma'am, I will leave you plotting the course," Spider said just as the phone rang.

Kate walked over to the sat phone. It was still quite early in the morning so it couldn't have been Mike, so it much have been NAVCOM for the CO. She answered anyways.

"Kate McGregor er Flynn speaking" Kate said still not used to her surname well especially with working on the ship again now.

"Yes sir, Oh no sir, erm...okay...right, I will tell the CO...about five hours sir...okay I will plot the course for home...thanks commander Marshall."

With that Kate put the phone down and walked off the bridge to find the CO, who was down below in his cabin writing up paper work.

Kate told the CO the whole story who came up to the bridge to oversee the preparations to set sail for home.

Everyone was confused, they had another week left.

Kate walked over and plotted the course for home, Kate shouted the details over to Swain. And with that she walked off the bridge but not before calling Spider to her cabin.

"Ma'am?" Spider said to Kate.

"Spider, look I told you I would keep you informed about the conversation that we were having earlier. That wasn't Mike on the phone it was NAVCOM. I am really sorry but Becca has been rushed into hospital this morning, I don't really know much more details apart from they think it is the baby, so we have set course for home," Kate said.

Spider just sat in silence, Becca was hurt and the baby, what should he do, there was nothing he could do. Kate noticed that Spider didn't know what to do, so she walked up to him and gave him a hug. Only her knew about Spider and Becca so Kate knew he had no one else to talk to about the whole situation. NAVCOM were now informed about Becca and Spider so that is why NAVCOM thought it was best for them to come home, which both Kate and Spider were grateful for.

"Okay, Spider you need to be strong for Becca here, I don't know what has happened, but I do know it doesn't sound good. But Becca is a fighter and she will get through this, as for you, you are a strong fighter and all, so I want you to be strong especially when we get back to port. The CO knows about the whole situation, I had to tell him why Marshall wanted us to come home," Kate said.

Again Spider just sat in silence, he knew Becca had lost the baby, it was after all fairly common to lost a baby in the first six weeks of pregnancy but this was his baby. It was Becca and Spider's first baby and they had lost it.

"She has lost it Kate, she's lost the baby. This is all my fault, oh I should be there for her," Spider said with tears prickling his eyes.

"Spider, will you please stop thinking like that till we get more details. How is this your fault?" Kate asked concerned for Spider.

"Because Kate, I should have been there for her, she has been moving boxes and lifting things, I told her not to but she never listens, if I was there then she still would be pregnant, and oh god Kate was have I done," Spider said crying.

"Spider, calm down now and pull yourself together, she needs you to be strong," Said Kate not mind that spider was calling her Kate when it was just them two, they were both good friends and he needed her now.

Just then the phone in Kate's office started ringing.

"You stay there one minute, I haven't finished," Kate ordered Spider.

"Hello Kate Flynn...Mike...yeah I have heard...yeah Spider is with me...Are you sure you want me to put it on loudspeaker?...okay will do two seconds," With that Kate put the phone on loudspeaker.

"okay you are now on loudspeaker Mike, have you heard any news?" Kate asked.

"Spider, Kate, I am sorry but she has lost the baby," Mike said.

Spider burst into tears, Kate tried to comfort him.

"Is Becca okay?" Spider asked trying to dry his tears.

"She seems okay, I was just with her in the hospital not long along, Nikki is with her now, she want s to see you, and I know there is four hours left, but tell Charge to get them engines working faster," Mike said.

"I will get on to it Mike," Kate smiled trying to make the situation lighter.

"Spider, there is nothing wrong with Becca, it just wasn't mean to be yet, but she misses you and she told me to tell you that she was sorry for losing the baby," Mike added.

"Oh god, this isn't her fault, none of this is her fault, I just want to be with her," Spider was talking through tears now, he loved Becca so much.

"Kate, keep an eye on him and I will look after Becca, it won't be long till you come back. Spider this isn't your fault and it wasn't Becca's fault, I really am sorry for you both, but I have to go, Kate will look after you," Mike said.

"Thanks Mike," Spider said.

With that they put the phone down and Kate turned to Spider.

"I really am so sorry, are you okay? No of course you're not, come here," Kate said pulling Spider into a hug.

"I know Mike said this wasn't my fault but if I had been there for her, she may have still be pregnant," Spider said.

"Spider, honestly you can't think like that. This is no one's fault, I can assure you of that," Kate said.

"How can you assure me of that Kate, you don't know that," Spider said.

"I do know that, I know you can't think about the if's. That was what I did and it just made everything worse," Kate said.

"What you mean you made it worse?" Spider said confused.

"I was once in the same position as Becca is in now, but no one knew I was pregnant. It was Mike's but I didn't even have chance to tell him before I lost it, he still doesn't know now, I was on the ship when I lost it and I know that it wasn't anyone's fault and I know it is the same with you and Becca and you both can't blame yourselves for it. It is very common with your first. You two can get through this," Kate said nearly in tears now for spilling her story that she has kept a secret for so long.

Spider was shocked at what he just heard, but it kind of put his mind at rest a little, after all he was going home to see her now.

"Should we go and get a brew?" Kate asked Spider.

"Yeah, have you not got nothing to go in it?" Spider laughed.

"Oh yeah because I am sure that will go down with Becca later when you are legless," Kate said.

But she knew Spider was only trying to lighten the mood that both him and Kate were in. He was good at that, always making a bad situation a little easier.

After what seemed like years, they were finally home, Spider didn't even bother to get changed into his whites, nor did Kate. Spider just ran off the as soon as it was in port, but Kate pretty much did the same thing because Mike and her children where all waiting when the Hammersley docked.

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