Hi there! I want to apologize for the way my stories are looking sometimes. I downloaded OpenOffice to get rid of the Italic and Bold mistakes, but they are still there, and it annoys me a lot. I can't seem to fix it. I hope you like reading my chapters anyway, and I still enjoy writing it for sure. Thanks for the reviews, keep them coming! Here is my new chapter.
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APOV

I try to keep my eyes on the road, not focussing on Bella. Edward seems pretty annoyed about me stealing Bella all the time, but this time it wasn't even my fault. Bella wanted to go herself, and of course I know why..
I shouldn't even go away with her alone, make this so much worse, for the both of us, but I just can't ignore her, especially not all of a sudden. She can't notice that I know about her feelings. If I'd act strange now, she would know it for sure. So all I can do now is just go with it and see how things go. If only I knew what was going to happen, but Bella doesn't even know it herself, so that leaves me clueless as well. I sigh heavily and feel that Bella is staring at me from the side. Her eyes burn my cheek and it's so hard to not stare back. I just can't tell her. I can't do that to Edward. She is meant to be with him, not me..

At the shops I park the car and we get out.

"Where are we going first?" I ask.

Bella looks at me and smiles.

"Every shop that sells blouses.." she answers, and winks.

Bella is so cute. She doesn't even know it herself..

At that I have to smile back at her and walk closely to her down the street. To strangers we must look like best friends. A bit scared of her reaction, I take Bella's arm and hold onto it. Bella doesn't pull away but smiles at me and we keep on walking until we reach the shops that we are looking for. We enter several shops but don't find anything. Well, we don't buy anything because I don't want to be done shopping. If it was up to me we'd be walking together like this for hundreds of days to come..
In one of the shops we search through piles of jeans when all of a sudden I hear a weird sound coming from Bella.

"What was that?" I ask her, frowning at her.

Bella's face turns bright red and she stares at her feet, then back at me.

"I think I forgot to have breakfast.."

I giggle loudly and smack myself on the forehead. How could I have forgotten about the fact that she still needs to eat and do other human things to stay alive.

"Of course, and I should have remembered to take some breakfast with me for if you get hungry.."

I take her hand in mine and press it for a short second. Then I pull her with me out of the shop to go look for food.

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"Thanks for paying, Alice," Bella says, and smiles sweetly at me.

If only I could be closer to her now. Stand with our chests pressed together, so I could lean in and touch her lips with my own.. I shake my head with embarrassment and annoyance. I should really stop now with all these mad thoughts and fantasies. I should just convince her that she and Edward must leave to live on their own somewhere far away, so they can be happy together, without me. The thought alone stings somewhere inside me. The place where my heart used to beat, but is still now, aching to beat once more. Maybe Bella will listen to me and follow my advice and find out that she is really meant to be with Edward.

"Are you okay, Alice?"

I am so lost in thoughts that I didn't notice earlier that Bella and I are still standing outside a café, and Bella has been shaking my arm for a few moments now.

"Yes, sure. Totally okay."

Okay maybe I exaggerated, but I can't make her worry.

"Let's start shopping again," Bella pulls my arm and we walk through the busy streets, looking for my imaginary blouse.

After a long morning and half of the afternoon we enter the last shop, sadly enough. We already found a blouse for me, so the shopping is just for fun now. Bella had been watching me try on so many different shirts and dresses today, and still she seemed as happy as ever. I wish I felt the same right now.

"Look, isn't this a perfect shirt for me?" Bella asks, waiting for my answer.

She holds out a cute blue and black shirt and immediately I can imagine her having it on, and me.. taking it off again.. I turn my face away quickly, acting as if I get distracted by someone else walking passed.

"Yes, you should definitely get it," I answer, trying to control my voice, not sounding shy.

"Are you sure you're okay, Alice. You sound so different today.."

I turn to face her again and smile the best smile I have.

Bella makes a move to open her wallet but then she drops it and everything that was inside now lies on the floor. A lot of coins, receipts and small papers and also a photo of me and Bella together. It was made on her birthday, I can remember it well. I never thought she kept it in there.
Bella mumbles a few words of embarrassment and starts collecting her things again from the shop floor. I get on my knees as well and help her quickly. Within a few seconds we are standing again with everything as it was. Bella's face looks like it's turned red permanently, and I'm sure if I was still human, my face would have looked the same. We remain quiet while Bella pays for the shirt, and I walk towards the door.
I wonder how long this can go on. How long until Edward finds out. How long until Bella is going to snap and disappear? I decide that it can't be like this much longer. Things will have to change..

We walk to the car, still silent, and when we've reached it we get inside. Bella smiles at me but when she sees my face her smile drops a little.

"Alice, you know you can tell me, whatever is on your mind."

I keep staring out of the front window but start talking, almost whispering.

"Bella, I've noticed that you act different.. towards Edward. I just wondered if everything was okay between you two.."

Inside I'm strangling myself for lying so bad to Bella. Of course I already know what's going on.

"Really..?" Bella whispers back, looking to her side now, away from me.

"Yes.. and I'm just worried because I can't be without you.. my sister in law.. You are the best friend I've ever had. I can't bare the idea of having to be without you, even for the shortest amount of time."

At this Bella's face totally drops and her smile is nowhere to be found. I can even see her eyes glistening with tears that welled up quicker than ever.

"You and Edward, I never knew things could be so perfect between two people. I envy you. I wish I could love someone like that and know that it is meant to be, just like you two.."

The last part made me shiver with pain, emptiness taking over my body. Lying to Bella is the most painful thing I've ever done. It's just the right thing to do, to be fair towards Edward, our family and Bella..

"Meant to be.." Bella whispers softly, I can hear her voice strained with pain and tears.

"Alice, can you please take me home, now." Bella says, louder now.

She sits up in her seat and keeps looking out of her window.

"Of course. Edward will be happy to have you back in his arms.."

"No. Take me home. My house. My own home where Charlie is."

Bella's voice sounds harsh and I feel panic rise in my body. She must realize that she has to work things out with Edward. She has to be alone and see things clearly. Oh god, surely this isn't the moment before what I've seen in my vision, is it? I can do nothing else but drive Bella back to Charlie's house and wait if she's going to say more to me or not.
When we arrive she opens the door quickly without words of goodbye, and slams it shut behind her. She doesn't look back and I sit in the car, still, with panic and fear taking over all of me. Edward must be able to read my thoughts now, and hell awaits me, surely, at home. As long as he doesn't know about what I've seen in my vision..

BPOV

My eyes let go of the tears that I was holding back in the car, as soon as I slam the car door shut behind me. I can't believe that I just left Alice like that, but this is too hard for me to do. I can't take more of any of this. Any of these feelings, for Alice, nor Edward. And now that I'm sure that Alice doesn't want me the way I want her, I can't even be bothered to face Edward today. Maybe not even tomorrow. How could I explain all my tears and struggles to Edward? I can't go to him telling him that I have a crush.. no.. I'm in love with Alice. For all this time.. And now Edward surely knows about my change of feelings because of Alice, and he'll come by my house soon.
I have to leave now. I don't want to see him. I don't want to see anyone. I'm sure Edward will wait for the full story when Alice is back, so that gives me a few minutes time. I feel weird and scared, running from the people I love, because maybe now I love one of them too much..

I pull all my things out of the closets and then rush into the bathroom for some essentials. While quickly going through my bag to see if I have everything I see Alice's CD. I still have it, stolen now. I let my fingers run over the case for a second, then throw it back in my bag. I will take it with me. I take some money out of a drawer and close my bag. I have not much time left. Where could I possibly go so they can't find me? I try to think quickly, then pick up my phone and dial Jacobs number. He'll know something. He always knows something.
The phone rings 2 times before Jacob answers.

"Bells! How nice of you to call! How are you!"

His voice sounds so carefree and happy. If only I could talk to him longer, it will have to wait. Until.. I don't know when I'll talk to him again..

"Jacob, please help me. I need to get away right now. I need to go somewhere where the Cullen's can't find me. I can't explain right now, I have to leave as soon as possible. Please tell me you know somewhere.."

There's a silence on the other side of the line for a short moment.

"Jake! Please, hurry.."

Finally he speaks again.

"You can go to an old fishers cabin in the woods. Close to a river. My dad and yours used to go there all the time. But now they find it too far and stay close. It might be awful there, no one has been there for years.."

I don't care at the moment and just accept whatever I get. I tell Jake it's fine and he gives me the directions so I can drive there. I have to remember that a key is hidden somewhere under a flowerpot.

"Oh, and Jake, please.. don't tell any of them where I am. Just make up anything, but don't tell them, not one of them.."

"Sure Bells.. are you sure I don't need to come and make sure you're okay, or go with you?"

He always tries to make me feel better, but right now, nothing works.

"No, thank you Jake. You are the best. I'll let you know more soon, I promise," and with that I hang up.

Within seconds I have written a small note saying I'm on a small weekend break, or whatever it might be, and that Jake knows where I am, for Charlie. I'm sure he'll know I'll be fine. I pick up my bag and run to my truck. It's waiting like a safe haven and I climb in to start my escape.