A/N: Hello, guys! A new chapter is up! I uploaded earlier than other times because I wasn't going to be able to do so later, and I didn't want to make you wait until Sunday! I'm glad that some of you liked the last chapter and I hope you can like this one! In this chapter you're gonna find out what's going to happen between Darren-Freckles-Amanda ;) And you'll get more things. I liked writing this chapter because it was kind of funny, then you can tell me if it was like that or I'm totally wrong, maybe I am! haha Okay, okay, no more spoilers, I need to control that! I will let you read so... Go, go, go! Until next Saturday! Take care and have a good day! Warm fuzzies!
TEENAGE DREAM
Chapter 17
Playing games
"Yes. She's my sister, Amanda." Freckles answered curtly.
"Oh, holy shit." I exclaimed troubled.
When I heard Freckles' response, I felt very puzzled; like... what were the chances for this to happen? Out of all the girls in high school and in San Francisco, precisely Mandy had to be her sister. Like, this was insanely crazy and no... This wasn't true, it couldn't be true. The mouth, I thought. Right, holy crap! That was why her mouths reminded me of something; because Freckles had exactly the same mouth than Mandy. Oh geez, I couldn't believe I've never figured this out before. I would have never imagined that they were sisters, they were so fucking different. It never crossed my mind that Mandy was her family, not even when Freckles talked to me about her sister and all the problems they had. Oh my god, if I thought I was screwed before, now I was literally and undoubtedly screwed. Shit, what would I do now? If I thought that Freckles wouldn't want to be with me before, now she definitely wouldn't want to be with me; women codes, Jen taught me that. I looked nervously at Jen to get some kind of calmness, but she was looking at Freckles and Mandy just as astonished and terrified as me. Damn, it didn't help at all. I looked at Freckles even more nervous and she was avoiding my gaze.
"Darren, are you friends with my younger sister?" Mandy suddenly asked.
"Yes, I am." I responded almost in a whisper while Freckles was still avoiding my gaze.
"And hasn't she told you that we were sisters?" Mandy asked over again. Man, those were uncomfortable questions; I wanted to make her shut up.
"No, she hasn't. I never asked anyway." I answered, shrugging, still looking at Freckles who was looking at her own shoes.
"And do you call her a friend? Someone who hasn't told you about her own sister? Yes, such a good friend you've got..." Mandy sneered sarcastically and I got very angry.
"So what? What if she hasn't told me about you? We talked about more important things, you know?" I said furious, defending Freckles, now looking at Mandy. I noticed how Freckles finally looked up. "And if anything, you didn't mention that she was your sister either, so don't play the victim here."
"I didn't know you were friends with her." Mandy answered coldly because she surely felt humiliated and she wasn't used at it.
"And she didn't know anything about you, so why would she tell me something about you? Why would you tell me something about her? It's the same shit, different form." I said just as coldly as her.
"You know it's not the same! You call her your friend and you really don't know anything about her! Wake up, Darren! The first thing you do when you meet someone before becoming friends is to introduce your family! She hasn't even told you anything about her family! What kind of friend is that?" Mandy questioned almost yelling and I was getting so very furious.
"And what about you, Amanda? You come here with all your lies and bullshit saying that you're ready to start a fucking thing with me and you never introduced me your family! That's even worse, so wash your mouth before you speak." I said rabidly, looking at her really coldly. I noticed how everybody in the room was looking at me astonished. "And just so you know, I know more things about her than you do, her own sister. You're the one who doesn't know a damn shit. And yes, she might have not introduced me her family; oh, but you know? She has told me a lot of things about you and her family; she just never mentioned your name. I know more than you know, so don't mess here."
"Darren..." I heard Jen's warning voice from behind and I turned around to look at her, my mom, my dad and Chuck.
"Can you all please leave? This is private and I don't want anybody to meddle here." I said moody and ill-mannered.
"Let's go, better... They need privacy." My mom said softly and I thanked her. She, my dad, Chuck and Jen turned around to leave. And then I saw Freckles was also leaving, but I stopped her.
"Not you, Freckles. Please, stay." I said softening my voice. I didn't want to treat her in a bad way; she wasn't the one to blame here, the only nasty person was her sister.
"It's better if I go... It seems this is a couple's argument and I don't want to meddle." She responded looking down.
"What? No, don't misunderstand this. Amanda is not my girlfriend. Oh no, no way." I said quickly shaking my head.
"Leave her, Darren. She won't stay, she always runs away from troubles because she's too coward to face them." Amanda said laughing archly and I looked at her in disgust.
"You really don't know a damn shit about your sister, Amanda." I defended Freckles. I wanted Amanda to leave my house.
"Stop it, Darren." Freckles suddenly begged sadly and I looked at her. That was all I needed to calm; if she wanted me to stop, then that was what I was going to do. "I'll stay." She said defiant, looking at her sister.
"Oh wow, that's outstanding. The coward girl will stay." Mandy snickered amused and wickedly, raising an eyebrow.
"Get out of my house, Amanda. I won't let you treat her like this. Get out." I demanded roundly and determined and she looked at me abashed.
"What?" Mandy voiced with trembling voice, astonished. "Please, don't. I... I didn't mean to treat her this way. It's just... I'm bewildered to see her here, doing fine, while I was worried about her because I didn't know where she could be. I'm so sorry."
"You shouldn't be apologizing to me; you should apologize to your sister." I said looking away.
"You're right..." She said and then I saw how she walked towards Freckles. I noticed how Freckles looked at Mandy with suspicion. "I'm so sorry, sis. Really. I know sometimes I can be a bitch over you, but it's because we're sisters. But you know I love you anyway, don't you?" Mandy said with choked voice and that sounded very frank, but I couldn't believe it; not after all the things Freckles told me about her sister.
"I don't know..." Freckles whispered, looking down.
"Please, sis. I love you, you're my sister. It's just that I can't show you it, because you know I'm not that kind of person who shows how she's feeling. And yes, I do realize that I treated you like crap several times... but it's because, you know... Because I know you're always going to forgive me, as I'd forgive you; it's how sisters are, isn't it?" Mandy said still with choked voice and I was starting to believe her. She couldn't be lying, she sounded so honest. "I'm sorry if I didn't show you that I love you the enough; but I really do care about you. And I didn't know that daddy kicked you out, and I was so worried... Please, come back home." Mandy begged and Freckles looked down. Wow, that was really sincere. Now I felt bad for treating her in a bad way, she was only worried for her younger sister.
"I love you too, Amanda. But I... I just can't come back home. Not yet." Freckles replied after a while, distressed. "If you only knew all the things that dad told me..." Freckles whispered with teary eyes and brittle voice; I wanted to hug and comfort her. She wasn't doing fine, she was pretending she was doing fine and I noticed it when tears started to stream down her face.
"I do understand and I'm sorry I wasn't there to defend you, sis. You know that I'd have done it, don't you?" Mandy said sweetly with a hint of guilt while Freckles nodded. "I can talk to dad, so maybe he'd change his mind."
"No..." Freckles refused, shaking her head energetically. "I don't want you to get into this. It's a problem between me and dad, not yours. So don't feel guilty."
"But... Can I at least come to visit you here? Would you let me do so?" Mandy asked with eyes full of hopes and I felt thrilled. It was good to see them getting along.
"Yes, of course." Freckles answered smiling faintly, but looking down. I was feeling as if I was interrupting them... but I wanted to see everything of that.
"Thank you, sis." Mandy said smiling sweetly. "And I'm so sorry."
"I'm sorry too, for having treated you in a bad way." Freckles said apologetically. "Darren..." Freckles said and I startled when she said my name, because I was looking away. I quickly looked at her. "If you don't mind... Would you let my sister stay here for the rest of the day?"
"Yeah, sure..." I responded amazed. To be honest, I wasn't expecting a question like this. I didn't want Mandy to stay, but Freckles was asking me that and I wanted her to feel home here. "She can stay; you don't even have to ask that. You know, this is like your home now; so you can invite whoever you want."
"Thank you, Dare." She said very sweetly looking at me and I felt how my heart skipped a beat. I just loved so much the way she called me. Then she looked at her sister. "We were about to eat cake. I know you aren't used to eat those fatty foods, but I was wondering if you'd like to join."
"Yes, I'd love it. And I could use some cake now, especially if it's chocolate cake." Mandy responded while giggling.
"Then it's your lucky day." Freckles said smiling widely. "Come on, let's go to the backyard."
Mandy nodded and both of them started walking outside. But I needed to talk to Freckles, I still needed to explain her what happened. I couldn't go there without first talking to her; because she was surely still thinking I had something with Mandy when I really wanted to be with her. It was now or never. Fuck, I was so nervous.
"Freckles, wait." I finally said, trying to be brave. Freckles stopped and both Mandy and Freckles turned around to look at me. "Can I talk to you first?"
"Yes, sure." She answered shrugging. Both of them stood there. I looked at Mandy and then I looked at Freckles.
"In private?" I asked shyly, looking fixedly into her eyes.
"I... I'll be outside." Mandy said when she got I didn't want her to be there. Freckles nodded at her sister and fortunately Mandy turned around and left me alone with Freckles. I waited until I was sure Mandy was gone to look at Freckles.
"Freckles... Uh... I..." I started stuttering like a real jerk. I was so nervous and she was only looking at me in silence... How could I start this conversation? "I want to explain you... what you saw upstairs... it's not what it seems..."
"Darren, Darren..." Freckles interrupted me, gesturing her hands and looking down. "I don't need any kind of explanation."
"Yes, you need..." I said nervously, walking closer to her.
"Not at all. I shouldn't have opened the door and I'm sorry to have interrupted you guys, it was so inappropriate from me." She apologized still looking down. Holy hell, how was I gonna change her mind that it wasn't what she was thinking?
"No, Freckles! Listen... I'm not... Your sister..." I said even more nervous, not knowing how to explain her all of this and not knowing how to tell my feelings for her.
"Stop, Darren. I'm glad you're dating my sister. Does it make us family?" She asked trying to pretend she was amused.
"I'm not dating your sister, Freckles. What you saw upstairs..." I started saying again.
"Darren, really, I don't need you to explain me anything. It was an unfortunate event and let's just forget it. This is only a private thing between you and my sister. That's it, imagine I didn't see anything." Freckles interrupted me again and I was feeling so frustrated. "Let's go get some cake."
"No, I don't want cake. I want to explain you this because you surely misunderstood this. Can we please talk?" I asked kinda exasperated.
"I don't want to talk about this; it's easier if both of us just forget what happened upstairs. I really don't want to know." Freckles said looking down, apparently also nervous. I was about to answer her, but she interrupted me again. "Darren, it's okay. I understand that you need privacy... and... You don't have to explain me this only because I saw that and because she's my sister."
"I don't want to explain you this because she's your sister. I want to explain you this because..." I said very nervous, my voice sounding tight. This was the time I needed to tell her that I was in love with her, but I couldn't because of my fear; so I just babbled like the biggest jerk.
"Because?" She asked looking at me curious, frowning.
"Because I... Freckles, I'm in..." I started saying very but very nervous, looking deeply into her eyes.
"Hey Darren! Joe wants to see you, bro!" Chuck interrupted and I huffed in frustration. That was so fucking inopportune, man. Right when I was about to tell Freckles I was in love with her, right when I was being brave. Damn it. Chuck surely noticed it because he looked at us suspiciously. "Sorry, am I interrupting something?"
"No..." Freckles started saying.
"Yes, actually, yes, Charles." I said annoyed and Freckles looked at me frowning.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I... I'll leave you alone." Chuck said kinda uncomfortable and then he turned around.
"Wait, Chuck. We've just finished talking." Freckles said walking to Chuck but I quickly took her by the arm. I didn't want to leave this conversation there. "Darren, let's go."
"No, I want to talk to you." I begged in a whisper, so Chuck wouldn't hear me.
"Later, Darren. Now they're waiting for us." Freckles said roundly and nervously, seeing how Chuck went away.
"No, if it's not now, then I don't know if I'll dare to talk to you about this. Please." I implored again, looking into her big and beautiful eyes.
"Well, maybe it's because you don't have to tell me that thing you want to tell." Freckles said shrugging. "Listen, Darren... Everything is okay for me. You don't have to explain me anything because it's your privacy and I don't want to meddle. I'm happy for you two, guys." Freckles said looking down and then she walked away from me.
"No, Freckles... You aren't getting this..." I said anguished while she was walking away. I saw how she disappeared and I stood there, alone. "I'm not dating your sister because I love you."
And my gloomy words echoed in the silent and empty room.
You left Darren alone because you really needed to walk away from him, you didn't know for how long you were going to be able to contain your tears the way you were doing. You should feel happy because of Darren and your sister. Yes, it was true that you couldn't stand your sister and surely this would have been terrible if you hadn't had that short conversation with her minutes earlier. Now she showed you another side of her that you couldn't see before and she had something with your best friend, Darren. Yes, you should feel happy; but it wasn't like that at all and you felt so selfish. For you, Darren was still the boy with whom you fell in love years ago; he was still that boy with whom you wanted to be all the time; he was still that boy who was all the time on your mind. It was stupid to think that he maybe could feel something more for you, it was really stupid considering he was with your sister and your sister was the prettiest girl, she was like a supermodel and you were... well, you were only friendly and this smartass. You really needed to stop having illusions with things that would never happen because it was hurting you. So there were you, now outside, feeling bereaved while you should be feeling happy for Darren's happiness and for your sister's happiness. You tried to pretend you were fine, because everybody there was cheery and you didn't want to ruin the mood. After a few minutes, Darren finally appeared, now wearing a shirt, and you tried to avoid his gaze. You couldn't look at him into the eyes, but you noticed how he walked towards you.
"Freckles... I want to talk to you." Darren whispered and you looked away.
"No, Darren, stop, please. Let's go get some cake." You replied nervously, quickly walking away from him.
You were trying strongly to not talk to him because he wanted to explain you what happened upstairs and you really didn't want to know. You could understand he was feeling ashamed because you saw him, but he shouldn't explain you anything at all. But the real reason of why you didn't want to hear his explanation was because you didn't want to know private issues of them because it would hurt you, because you weren't ready to assume that they were actually dating. You walked next to Jen and you saw how your sister was now with Darren. She was very close to him and he seemed to be really uncomfortable, surely because he was still feeling ashamed. You observed them for a long, wishing that you could be your sister.
"It's weird to see them together." Jen commented, making you startle because you were so focused looking at them that you forgot that she was right next to you. How embarrassing.
"Why?" You asked curious, now trying to stop looking at them. Jen shouldn't notice that you were feeling kinda jealous because you were in love with Darren. No way, Jen was Darren's best friend.
"Because they aren't dating and they don't have anything. Now I know she's your sister and you surely love her and all... but she wasn't nice to Darren, so things weren't fine." Jen explained while shrugging. "It's really weird. I wonder what has happened..."
"Well, as I see it, they seem to be fine." You said looking down and you frowned when you remembered the way they were making out in Darren's bedroom, as if they were about to have sex or something. You wanted to erase that memory from your mind. "Why do you say that my sister hasn't been nice to Darren?" You asked really curious.
"She was ashamed of Darren. Yes, they had something but that was like a month ago or something. Darren got tired because in school your sister pretended not to know him, but outside school they were fine; so Darren couldn't take it anymore. He wasn't happy with her and when they talked about this, they broke up and Darren was happy again. I know you may not believe this, because she is your sister and it's understandable." Jen whispered and you listened to her very intently.
"No, I believe you. That is typical of my sister. Sometimes I think she only cares about being pretty and popular and she doesn't care about others, I don't know." You said shrugging and now looking at Darren and your sister again. "But they seem to be doing fine now, so I guess I should be happy for them."
"No, I don't think they're doing fine. I'm sorry, I don't want...you know, it's your sister... But Darren isn't happy with her. Look at them, it's obvious that Darren doesn't want to be with her; look, he's avoiding your sister's look, and he wants to get away. And don't think that he's a bad person for doing so, it's just that he's too nice to tell someone he doesn't want to be there." Jen whispered, also looking at them. Maybe she was right, you didn't know. Then she looked at you frowning. "And why would you say that you guess you should be happy for them?"
"Uh...well..." You mumbled nervously. "Well, because she's my sister and Darren is my friend and I do think that they deserve to be happy, and if they're happy, well, I guess I should be happy too."
"Yes, it's not that what I'm asking; it's the guess thing. You actually don't feel happy, do you?" Jen asked and you looked at her astonished. How could she have guessed such a thing? Were you too obvious or was she very instinctive?
"I... No... I mean yes, I feel happy." You said looking down, feeling ashamed.
"Well, you know? Darren is my friend, nonetheless I don't feel happy when I see him with your sister. It's not bad not to feel happy for them." Jen said shrugging and you looked at her curiously. Why wouldn't she feel happy for them? Could she be still in love with Darren?
"Why not? I mean, why don't you feel happy for them?" You asked intrigued.
"Because... And I'm sorry for what I'm gonna say... There's something about your sister that I don't like. I don't think she's the right person for him as I don't think he's the right person for her. They just... They don't fit together. And well, because I've seen Darren happy and I know when he's happy or not; so I can tell he isn't happy with her; even though he's aware that Mandy is the prettiest girl and all, he's not happy." Jen whispered looking at them over again and then she looked at you deeply into the eyes. Oh wow, that was a kinda scary look. "And why aren't you happy for them?"
"I... I don't know..." You babbled nervously, playing with your fingers, at least now admitting that you weren't happy.
"You like Darren, don't you?" Jen suddenly asked and you looked at her terrified. Damn shit, how could she have noticed it? This wasn't good at all.
"No!" You exclaimed loudly and nervous, basically freaking out, and then you realized that you couldn't be more obvious. "I mean yes, he's my friend..."
"Yes, but what I meant... you like him more than as friend, don't you?" Jen asked again and you didn't know what to do to pretend not to be as edgy as you were. You could feel your body slightly shaking because of your nervousness.
"No..." You said frowning and looking down, lying to her. You didn't like it, but Jen couldn't know it because she was Darren's best friend and she'd surely tell Darren all of this.
"Okay." Jen said shrugging as you sighed relieved because she didn't insist. "I'm not gonna tell this to Darren, if that is what worries you. This is a girl's talk and you're also my friend, so this is like our secret."
"But I don't like him more than as a friend." You said quickly.
"Alright, if you say so..." Jen said smiling faintly. "However, I do think you two would make a nice couple; I've told this to Darren already."
"What?" You asked in disbelief. Why would Jen tell this to Darren? And, most importantly... What could Darren have answered?
"Yes, what you heard. Do you wanna know what happened after I told him this?" Jen asked looking at you amused and you just looked at her, trying not to be too obvious that you were dying to know. "He smiled. He smiled brightly as he always does when he's with you; I don't know if you noticed that... But he's happy when he's with you, unlike when he's with your sister." Jen said winking and you blushed hard. "Oh, I really need to taste that cake." She commented and left you there alone, more confused than ever.
What would Jen want to say with that? Why would she tell you that? Wow, you were very confused and you started making things up in your head. What if Darren liked you more than as just a friend? What if you had a chance with him? No, it was impossible. He had your sister and she was way sexier and prettier than you. Why would Darren want to be with you if he had your sister? It was absurd; you reminded yourself that you needed to stop having illusions with Darren, because it would never happen. You glanced at them before you walked to get some cake and pretend to be feeling good again.
"Boys and girls... I'm really sorry but Cerina and I have an appointment now, so we'll have to leave you alone." Bill Criss said giggling very cheerful.
"Oh, you have a date!" Chuck exclaimed amused, looking at his parents and they laughed.
"Yes, it could be named like that." Cerina Criss answered, still chuckling, also cheerful. "Jen, darling, do you want us to take Joe home so you can stay here a little longer?"
"Oh no, I wouldn't want to bother you, Cerina." Jen responded quickly.
"Not a bother. His home is on our way." Cerina answered smiling kindly.
"Are you sure?" Jen asked suspiciously.
"Yes, darling. Don't worry about that. We're gonna take Joe home, so you can have fun now, without the disturbing presence of adults. We were teens once." Cerina said giggling, looking at Bill who nodded. What kind of parents did Darren have? They were amazing.
"Alright then. Thank you very much, Cerina." Jen said smiling kindly.
Once that Darren's parents and Joe were gone, you all were just there, doing nothing in particular while it was getting dark. Your sister was still with Darren and Darren was still trying to get away from her, as Jen said. You were with Jen and Chuck, just talking and eating more cake.
"Hey, we're alone, this doesn't happen so often! We should throw a party!" Chuck joked, chuckling. "No really, I have an idea."
"What's it?" Jen asked curious.
"The night is amazing to stay here. But what if we go to Baker Beach? We could make a bonfire and play some random songs, and you know, just have fun." Chuck suggested excited.
"I love this idea! I've been looking forward to going there since a while now." Jen said cheerfully.
"Yes, I like it too." You said smiling and shrugging. After all, you loved going to the beach.
"So, what are we waiting for? Let's go! I'll bring my guitar." Chuck said excited and you and Jen laughed. "Hey, you two!" Chuck yelled at Darren and Mandy and they looked at him. "We're going to Baker Beach; do you want to join us?"
"No, maybe another time..." Mandy answered and you looked down. Maybe they wanted privacy.
"Holy shit, yes! I'm going too!" Darren interrupted Mandy, now looking at you with a wide grin. Was he looking at you? No, maybe he was looking at Chuck who was next to you.
"But Darren..." You heard how Mandy started complaining.
"I'll bring my guitar! This is gonna be awesome." Darren exclaimed excited, totally ignoring what Mandy was saying and you noticed how she got irritated.
So there you were, all of you walking to Baker Beach; Darren and Chuck bringing their guitars. It was a lovely night and you have never been on a bonfire with friends before, so it could be fun. While you were walking, you were in silence looking at the stars, which were shinning intensely; you loved that.
"This is always my favorite part of the night; to look at you watching the stars." Darren suddenly said next to you and you looked at him before looking down nervously. Your sister was near you, you shouldn't be talking to him. "You have those shiny eyes when you stare the stars. It's cute." Darren said shrugging and smiling warmly. "It's like that night, when we walked through the Golden Gate. However, that night was better 'cause... I was doing this..." Darren said and he suddenly held your hand. You got really nervous, you didn't want your sister to see this, so you quickly moved your hand away and Darren frowned, dropped his jaw and looked down.
"Yes, it was a good night." You answered almost in a whisper, looking away and avoiding his gaze.
"Can I hold your hand, like that night?" Darren asked and you felt really bad. Now it couldn't be like before.
"I don't think it's a good idea." You answered coldly and it broke your heart to answer him like this. It was hard for you.
"It's kinda cold!" Mandy suddenly exclaimed loudly, linking her arm with Darren's. "This feels better."
"What are you doing?" You heard how Darren questioned...annoyed?
Anyway, you walked away from them because you didn't want to hear their conversation, you knew it would hurt you. You walked away from them because you just couldn't see them together. And you felt really bad, not only because you wished you could be your sister and you wished to be able to hold Darren's hand; but also because you were feeling very selfish. This probably wouldn't be a nice night as you thought it'd be.
"I swear this fire is against me, it's something personal, man."
I said annoyed when we were already at the beach and I was trying to make the bonfire but the flame wouldn't catch the kindling material. Everybody laughed at me, man; that wasn't funny, I was trying to make it since hours and nothing would happen. Considering I was there trying to make the bonfire and I wanted to make it alone because of my stubbornness, Chuck was now sitting on the sand, playing his guitar while Jen, Mandy and Freckles were listening to him, entertained. I couldn't help but to glance at Freckles from time to time to see what she was doing and every time I glanced at her, Mandy caught me, but I didn't care. I couldn't get why Mandy was acting this way around me, all the time very flirty, after I told her that I didn't want to have a love affair with her. The fact that Freckles was still thinking that I had something with her sister was too bad.
"Hey Darren, hurry up! It's getting cold over here!" Chuck chuckled from where he was. I knew that kind of chuckle, he was kinda tipsy surely because of the beers everybody was drinking.
"See? I told you, we should have brought a quilt!" Jen chuckled the same way than Chuck. Yeah, she was also kinda tipsy. "Darren could never make a bonfire; I don't know why we let him do so."
"It's weird, because he really knows how to be on fire." Mandy chuckled seductively and everybody laughed except Freckles. Dammit, I hated Mandy for saying something like that, but I knew they all were tipsy, so I decided to ignore them.
"Daaaaaarreeeeen!" Chuck yelled still chuckling. "Let somebody else do it and come here to drink a beer, bro."
I giggled because it was funny to see Chuck like that, he wasn't used to be this tipsy and he was totally slurring his words. He kept singing another song as Jen started dancing, and that was also funny because Jen was always too shy to dance in public but now she was unleashed. I kept trying to make that stupid bonfire and then I saw how Mandy joined Jen; I had to admit that Mandy was a damn good dancer; her movements were really sexy, man. I couldn't help but to stare at her for a while, just as Chuck was doing; but then I looked at Freckles who was only there, lying on the sand and watching the stars with a warm smile, very quiet. I noticed how different but how similar the sisters were. Physically they were similar, especially their mouths; but personally, they were very different. Yes, Mandy could be sexy but Freckles was beautiful and so cute. I realized I was observing them way too much, so I decided to focus on the bonfire again; I needed to make it once and for all.
"You're doing it wrong, that's why this isn't working." I heard Freckles' voice near me. I looked up at her and I stared into her big and pretty eyes for a while, seeing the girl I loved right in front of me. Holy shit, I loved her so much. "Look, you didn't cover the opening with a piece of wood, so the wind is blowing out the fire." She said pointing me the opening that I left to place a newspaper to light the fire.
"You gotta be kidding me. So all the time I wasted trying to light the fire and didn't work was because I didn't cover the opening?" I asked in disbelief looking at her, feeling ashamed and making fun of myself.
"Exactly." Freckles nodded with an amused smile, with that beautiful smile, and she kneeled to cover the opening with a piece of wood for me. "Now, we only have to wait for the flame to catch the kindling material, and then watch your bonfire grow." She said smiling, still kneeled and looking up at me.
"I can't believe it, I'm such a jerk. How did you know it?" I asked intrigued, now kneeling next to her. I wanted to be as close to her as possible.
"I'm a nerd." She answered, shrugging and giggling.
She sat next to the bonfire, which was finally growing. I sat next to her and I dared to hold her hand and, surprisingly, she let me do so; so I took advantage to move closer to her, still holding her hand. I looked at her deeply into her eyes.
"You're not a nerd. You're just smarter than the average and that's pretty awesome." I said smiling warmly at her.
"Yes, whatever." She shrugged again and looked at the bonfire. Whoa man, she looked gorgeous when the bonfire was lighting her face. It was inexplicable; I was mesmerized by her beauty.
"You're so beautiful." I whispered without thinking what I was saying. Fuck, I said it out loud.
"What?" She looked at me frowning and I felt super nervous.
"Nothing, that you... the night and the bonfire... it's beautiful." I said very nervous, almost babbling. Why wouldn't I finally admit that I actually said she was the one who was beautiful? Such a coward.
"Yes, it's very beautiful." She said giggling amused.
"No." I shook my head, trying to be brave and finally admit what I was feeling for her. I needed to do it, I wanted her to know that I loved her; I wanted to be with her so badly. "I actually said that you are beautiful. You're so beautiful, Freckles." I finally admitted looking deeply into her eyes and holding firmly her hand, feeling this thing called adrenalin.
"I... well, wow." She chuckled nervously with eyes wide open because of her astonishment. "Thank you, Darren... but... I'm not..." She said avoiding my gaze, but I lifted her chin so she looked into my eyes again. Man, I was feeling this extreme adrenalin and it was almost unbearable.
"Can't you see it, Freckles?" I asked almost in a whisper, feeling more nervous and excited than ever. I was about to confess her my real feelings and this was like the craziest thing I've ever done.
"See what? Darren... I'm not beautiful and I deal with it since a long time, I don't care..." She said still nervous.
"You're the most beautiful and outstanding girl I've ever met, outside and inside. If you only knew..." I whispered again, feeling how my heart was beating very fast; now holding both of her hands and moving even closer; we were so close.
"If I only knew what?" She asked nervous and curious, frowning. This was the time I needed to tell her, it was time. Be brave, Darren, be brave.
"If you only knew how crazy you drive me." I finally said and this was crazy, the way my heart was beating fast was crazy, the way my body was trembling, expecting to hear her answer, was crazy.
"What?" She asked kinda terrified, with eyes wide open and raising her eyebrows. "Are you trying to say that I annoy you or something? I'm sorry if I ever made you feel mad...I didn't..."
"No, Freckles." I interrupted her, shaking my head and feeling very anxious and edgy. "You drive me crazy because you're this outstanding person... because you make me feel this need to be with you all the time and I love it, I love when I'm with you and it's all I want..." I said stuttering because I was so edgy; I couldn't believe I was telling her this. I moved even closer and now my lips were only six inches from hers. "Freckles, I'm in lo..."
"Darren! You finally made it!" Chuck exclaimed behind us and Freckles moved away from me really quickly, with a terrified face. Dammit, Chuck. This was unbelievable. Why every time I wanted to tell her my real feelings something had to interrupt me? Shit, I was so annoyed.
"Yeah..." I answered bitterly looking away and running my fingers through my curls.
"Awesome! Hey, everybody! Come over here, Darren made it!" Chuck yelled excited and Jen and Mandy walked over where we were. "Let's sing here!" Chuck said sitting between Freckles and me.
"Wow, Darren! I really thought you weren't going to make it. I'm impressed." Jen giggled and sat next to Freckles.
"You're fire, Criss." Mandy whispered seductively in my ear, kissing the corner of my mouth and I turned my face, even more annoyed. She didn't notice my annoyance and she sat next to me, placing her hand on my thigh and I quickly moved it away.
I couldn't believe I was interrupted this way and now Mandy was all over me again. I was really mad at her because she was aware of the conversation we had in my bedroom, she knew I didn't want to have a love affair with her, because even though she was so sexy, I wasn't in love with her and I didn't feel for her the same I felt for her at the beginning of this school year. I figured out that we wouldn't work together because we were very different and we didn't fit together; and there was Freckles now. I glanced at Freckles and she was now giggling along with Chuck and I felt jealous again. And then I saw how Chuck wrapped an arm around her and rubbed her back, still giggling. What the fuck was that? I was so mad, man. I couldn't let it happen, I couldn't stand seeing my own brother being this cuddly with her and less I could stand seeing her enjoying it because... What if she now had feelings for my brother? I wouldn't be able to stand it at all. I needed to do something about it and fast; and the first thing that popped in my mind was to grab my guitar. If I couldn't tell Freckles what I was feeling for her, then I was going to sing a song that expressed my feelings for her. I didn't care if others would notice which the meaning of the song was, I was going to do it.
"I'd like to sing something, now that you all are in mood to hear songs." I said ripping the guitar and I noticed how everybody looked at me. Then I looked intensely into Freckles' eyes. "As some of you already know, I do think that music is the best way to express things that sometimes we can't express with words, so here I go." I said still looking deeply into Freckles' eyes.
"Oh, come on, Darren! Just sing it; we all want to hear you sing!" Chuck exclaimed excited and then he finally unwrapped his arm around Freckles and I felt a bit better.
I didn't answer; I just looked at Freckles for a while. Honestly, I didn't care if others would figure out that this song was dedicated to Freckles, I wanted her to figure it out, it was my point and I was determined. Without taking my eyes off her, I started singing. I thought this was the most accurate song for this situation.
I like the way you sound in the morning
We're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound
I have ever heard.
I like the way I can't keep my focus
I watch you talk, you didn't notice
I hear the words but all I can think is
We should be together
Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you.
Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Be there, never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
So I'm a stay through it all
So jump then fall.
I like the way your hair falls in your face
You got the keys to me
I love each freckle on your face, oh
I've never been so wrapped up, honey
I like the way you're everything I ever wanted.
I had time to think it oh, over
And all I can say is come closer
Take a deep breath then jump then fall into me
Cause every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you.
Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Be there, never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
So I'm a stay through it all
So jump then fall.
The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet
I'll catch you, I'll catch you
And people say things that bring you to your knees
I'll catch you
The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry
But I'll hold you through the night until you smile.
Whoa oh, I need you baby
Don't be afraid, please
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Be there, never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
So I'm a stay through it all
So jump then fall
Jump then fall baby
Jump then fall into me, into me.
Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I shine
And every time you're here
Baby I'll show you, I'll show you
You can jump then fall, jump then fall
Jump then fall into me, into me, yeah.
I didn't take my eyes off her during all the song long; I sang it looking deeply into her eyes, trying to tell her with my eyes what I was feeling, just as she taught me that time in hospital when she tried to tell me something with her gaze. I tried to make her feel this song was dedicated to her and only to her, I tried to make her feel that this was completely honest as it really was. I didn't even bother to look at the others to see their faces, I didn't care. And Freckles looked down when I finished singing. Did she notice this was for her? Or was she uncomfortable with this song because she didn't feel the same for me? Neither of the two options were good, but most definitely one of the options was the right one, because she didn't seem to be happy. I knew that something like this could happen, but I never thought that maybe I wasn't ready to deal with it, of being kind of rejected by her. Shit, I needed to be alone with her; I really needed to talk to her. I finally looked away because it was hurtful, the first person I saw was Chuck who was raising his eyebrows in surprise and then I looked at Jen who was looking at me astonished and kind of nervous. Really, was it a terrible idea to have sung that song? I didn't think it was too bad, but I guess I was wrong judging by their faces.
"That song is so cute!" Mandy exclaimed excited next to me and I sighed, now looking at my lap and putting my guitar aside. "How did you notice I have freckles on my face?"
"What?" I asked in disbelief now looking at Mandy frowning. I didn't want to be rude with her, but she was making me feel very annoyed and I didn't want to be with her; I couldn't believe she thought this song was for her. "I'm sorry Amanda, but the song wasn't for you."
"Oh..." She whispered faintly and looking away, apparently ashamed. I felt bad for it, as if I were a bad person. But what could I do? I didn't want to lie.
"Alright!" Chuck exclaimed loudly and nervously. "I think we should change this topic..."
"Then... For who was this song?" Mandy asked intrigued and apparently a bit upset and a bit anguished.
"I agree with you, Chuck! We should do something else!" Jen exclaimed just as loudly as Chuck, also nervously.
"I think it's none of your business." I replied a bit coldly. Goddamn, I shouldn't be so rude.
"I think I deserve to know. I mean, I'm your girlfriend." Mandy said now really upset.
"What did you say?" I asked also upset, narrowing my eyes.
"What about a game, guys?" Chuck exclaimed almost yelling, even more edgy.
"I think you're not getting this, Amanda. You aren't my girlfriend and you know it. Why do you act as if...?" I started asking really mad.
"Yes, a game is cool!" Jen voiced also almost yelling, interrupting me.
"So... How do you call what we had and what we have, eh?" Mandy asked furiously.
"Are you fucking serious?" I asked rabidly.
"Stop it!" Freckles finally yelled and I looked abruptly at her, and now everybody was silent. She was frowning but she didn't seem to be angry, she was more like distressed; so I felt really bad. "Why don't we just play a game?"
"Yes, please." Chuck commented, sighing in relief. "What about... Err... Never have I ever game?"
"Yes, yes, let's play it." Jen said hurriedly, as though she didn't care what kind of game we could play, she only wanted to change the topic of conversation.
"Alright... Everybody knows how this game is?" Chuck asked and Jen and Mandy nodded, I didn't answer because I wasn't in mood and Freckles shook her head. "Okay, I'll explain you. In the game, each one of us has to say a simple statement starting with Never have I ever. Everyone who has done the thing the person says must drink; if not, then you don't drink. So the game reveals interesting things about others, it's like a way we can know each other. Did you get it?" Chuck asked looking at Freckles.
"Yes, I guess so..." Freckles answered shyly.
"I don't think this is a good game." I finally said grumpy, but actually I said it because I noticed Freckles was a bit nervous about it.
"Oh please, bro! You've played it several times and you know it's funny." Chuck insisted.
"That's right, Darren. It's just a game." Jen said.
"It's not just a game. I know you guys, and you'll start saying compromising statements, and it could be uncomfortable." I said moody, looking away.
"We promise to behave this time. Just innocent statements." Chuck assured.
"I guess it could be fun." Freckles finally said shrugging.
Oh no, she didn't really know in what she was getting into. But maybe... Maybe it could help me to know more private things about her... there was still a lot of things I wanted to know about her, like who this Bobby guy was.
"Alright, alright. Let's play it." I finally said and both Chuck and Jen smiled widely.
"Great! Everybody just grab a beer; I'll start!" Chuck exclaimed excited and everybody did what Chuck said. "Never have I ever embarrassed myself in public, looking like a fool." Chuck said giggling.
All of us sipped the beer, of course; even Mandy. Well, I've never seen her embarrassing herself in public, she was very careful about it. So everybody started telling the stories of when they were embarrassed in public. Well, that was funny; it was really funny to hear all of those stories. Maybe this game wasn't a bad idea after all.
"Okay, my turn." Jen said amused. "Never have I ever prank called anyone."
Once again, everybody took a sip of beer, all of us laughing and telling our stories again. Now it was Freckles' turn. What would she ask? I was intrigued.
"Err... Never have I ever cheated on a test or exam." Freckles said amused.
Well, it was an innocent question and she surely wouldn't drink this time. Jen, Mandy, Chuck and I took a sip and I got very but very surprised when I saw Freckles taking a sip. What?
"Have you?" I asked still amazed and amused.
"I have!" She answered laughing.
"I can't believe it." I said shaking my head and laughing out loud. "Okay, my turn." I said. I've been thinking what I could ask to get an answer from Freckles and this was the best I could think of for the moment. "Never have I ever been so in love with somebody." I said looking fixedly into Freckles' eyes.
I didn't see if others took a sip of beer or not because I didn't care. I took a sip, thinking about her and I got surprised when Freckles also took a sip. Whoa. So she's been in love once, or maybe she was still in love. Thing now was that I had to find out with who she was in love with. Man, I wished so much I could be that person, but it couldn't be possible, not after the way she looked when I finished singing the song.
"It's my turn!" Mandy exclaimed. "Never have I ever laughed until something I was drinking came out of my nose."
"Oh my god!" Chuck exclaimed laughing out loud as he took a sip of beer.
This time, only Chuck, Mandy and I took a sip. The game continued with silly and funny questions and it came a point that everybody was very tipsy that we were laughing out loud without stopping. The night was kinda cold but I wasn't cold at all, I was feeling hot and I felt how my cheeks were like burning. I looked at Freckles and at first it was kinda hard to focus my sight. Damn, man, I was so tipsy. But I saw her, and she also had her cheeks very rosy and she was constantly giggling. Whoa man, she was precious and I wanted to kiss her so badly.
"My turn! My turn!" Jen exclaimed giggling. That was funny, to see Jen tipsy. "Never have I ever farted and blamed it on a pet." Jen said chuckling and looking at me.
"Damn, Jen!" I said frowning but laughing. "I hate you so very much."
I was the only one who took a sip of beer, but then I saw Freckles also taking a sip. Oh dude, that was so freaking funny. I mean, Freckles? Farting and blaming it on a pet? She was surprising me way too much and it was amazing.
"Holy shit! Freckles! You too?" I asked totally amused and laughing out loud.
"What? Those things happen sometimes." She replied shrugging and laughing as everybody laughed along with her.
"Alright, my turn!" Chuck said almost yelling. "Never have I ever played spin-the-bottle." Well, everybody took a sip except Freckles. And Chuck looked at her exaggeratedly astonished. "Haven't you played it?" He asked and Freckles shook her head. "Oh girl, you have to play it! Let's all play spin-the-bottle!"
"Yay!" Jen exclaimed still giggling, totally tipsy. She wouldn't say yes if she was sober.
"No." I refused shaking my head energetically. There was no way I wanted to play that game. No, what if I'd have to stand seeing Freckles kissing Chuck? No, not at all. I wasn't going to play it.
"Fine. Darren is out. Let's play the four of us!" Chuck said again excited.
"What? No!" I yelled exaggeratedly.
"Don't be a party pooper, Darren!" Jen snorted but chuckled.
"Do you want to play it?" Chuck asked looking at Freckles.
"Why not?" She replied shrugging and giggling. No, she was tipsy so that was why she wanted to play it.
"Great! Let's play it. Anyone else besides Darren doesn't want to play it?" Chuck asked and no one answered.
"Alright, I'll play!" I said quickly. If they were going to play it, then I was going to play it so Freckles wouldn't have more chances to kiss Chuck; or maybe I could get a chance to kiss her and that would be great.
Jen grabbed one empty beer bottle and we sat in a circle, so she placed it on the sand in the center of the circle. Freckles was right in front of me, so I could perfectly see her from where I was. Jen was the first to spin the bottle and like this, the game started. Man, I didn't know why I was doing this, I shouldn't have let them play this game; but there I was, wishing that Freckles wouldn't kiss anyone. The bottle finally stopped spinning and it pointed at Mandy.
"Oh my God! Girls kiss! This is gonna be interesting to see." Chuck exclaimed laughing out loud and I couldn't help giggling.
"Shut up, Chuck!" Jen said also giggling.
Jen and Mandy walked to be close enough to kiss. I couldn't believe I was about to see something like that, Jen and Mandy? Like... Jen didn't like Mandy at all and now she had to kiss her, it was like kissing your enemy or something like that. But Jen was so tipsy that she didn't mind to do it and I corroborated it when they finally kissed slightly on the lips. Chuck cheered excited and laughing, and I knew that he always wanted to see two girls kissing; it was like his fantasy or something like that. I only giggled softly. When they broke the kiss, Mandy was the one who had to spin the bottle. I wished so much that the bottle wouldn't stop on me, not when Freckles was there, I didn't want it. I was very nervous but I felt relieved when the bottle stopped on Chuck.
"Oh well, now I'm gonna know which one of the Criss brothers is the best kisser." Mandy commented laughing and a bit seductively, now walking towards Chuck who was looking at her fixedly.
Damn, why did she have to mention such a thing? I observed Freckles who was now looking down and smiling faintly, as if she was laughing minutes before and when her sister mentioned it, she felt annoyed or bad. Or maybe I was just making up things in my mind. I saw how Mandy and Chuck kissed each other; this kiss was longer than the kiss between her and Jen; it was longer but it was a common kiss, not passionately and all that shit. Then they broke the kiss and Mandy looked at me with a mischievous smirk. Oh man, why? I didn't like that look, so I just played fool.
"This is a hard decision, but for sure both of the Criss brothers know how to kiss a girl." She said sensually and I looked away, still playing fool. "Anyway, I guess I choose you, Darren."
Holy shit, Amanda. Why did you have to say that? I didn't want to know it; I didn't care what she was thinking about me and my kisses or whatever. I only glanced at Freckles on the sly and I noticed she was looking away, now kinda serious. This wasn't good. Of course I didn't answer. And now it was Chuck's turn to spin the bottle. If I was nervous before now I was scared the shit out of me.
"Please, please, please, don't stop on Freckles. Please, please, Chuck doesn't have to kiss her." I thought in my mind nervously, looking intently at the bottle. "Oh crap."
The bottle stopped on Freckles and I didn't know how to stop the game right now, but I needed to stop it. No, I couldn't let they kiss each other. No freaking way. I saw how Chuck walked towards Freckles laughing and I saw Freckles frowning amused. Why did she seem to be amused? Did she want to kiss my brother? Dude, no! I tried to stand up and stop all of this, but Mandy caught me off guard and she pulled me closer to her and I felt so annoyed that I didn't notice that I abruptly moved away from her, now looking at her very upset. And then my gaze fixed right where Chuck and Freckles were and it was too late. Chuck leaned to kiss Freckles' lips and I felt so jealous, so jealous as never before; not only jealousy, but also I felt this ugly feeling of anger and rage. I noticed how both of them laughed during the kiss, as though they were happy and, man, I swear I couldn't understand why I didn't stand up in that moment to separate them. And I actually knew why I didn't do it: because it was such the anger I was feeling, that I wouldn't be able to control my impulses to punch my brother and I couldn't do it, because Chuck was an amazing brother despite our silly arguments and because, after all, this was only a game. A very stupid game. I only closed my fists and clenched my jaw, looking at them fixedly while they were kissing. The only good thing about this was that the kiss didn't last too much, even if it seemed an eternity to me. When they broke the kiss, they looked at each other and laughed. Why were they laughing? Oh my god; what if they liked each other and I was there, like a bother to them? I never thought about it; all this time I was thinking only about me and my feelings for Freckles that I didn't stop to think about if she liked my brother and my brother liked her. I was very selfish, but I couldn't help it. Suddenly my rage turned into sadness. I didn't want to think it was like that, because then I wouldn't know what to do and I wouldn't know how to stand it.
"So, this is the famous game." I heard Freckles saying and laughing.
Now it was Freckles' turn to spin the bottle and I really wanted to be that guy who could kiss her now. But it wasn't my lucky day. The bottle stopped on Jen; well, fortunately it wasn't Chuck again. I heard how Freckles and Jen laughed out loud, but I couldn't laugh, not after the kiss between my brother and her.
"I never kissed a girl, and now it's gonna be the second time on a night! Unbelievable!" I heard Jen laughing.
So then Jen and Freckles kissed very slightly on the mouth and then they burst out laughing. Definitely both of them were tipsy. Who wasn't? Even I was tipsy, I could feel it. Jen spun the bottle again and I took advantage to look at Freckles, who was giggling in a way that she seemed to be very entertained.
"Darren! Like the old times!" I heard Jen exclaiming loudly and then I looked at the bottle, which was pointing at me. I couldn't help laughing softly.
"Like the old times!" I said now when Jen was walking towards me.
She kneeled next to me and then she kissed me on the lips. It was a slight kiss, as though this was our very first kiss. It wasn't, but both of us knew that we were only meant to be friends, so it wasn't an intense kiss like the ones we shared when we dated in the past. We quickly broke the kiss and we looked at each other frowning amused.
"No, definitely, no." Jen said giggling.
"I agree. Just friends." I said laughing.
Now it was my turn to spin the bottle and I was so anxious. Please, this time it needed to be Freckles, but this wasn't being my lucky day so I didn't know if I could get that chance. I wanted to kiss her so badly, I wanted to show her that my kiss was real and it wasn't because of the game. I grabbed the bottle and I spun it, feeling how my heart was beating fast while I was looking at the bottle spinning. And it stopped. I looked up to see who the person I had to kiss was. It was between Freckles and Jen. Oh Jen, I love you so much. Jen moved away from the bottle very surreptitiously, so then the bottle seemed to be pointing only at Freckles. Freckles was looking at the bottle in silence and she didn't look up, she wasn't smiling at all and I felt kinda bad. Was I going to do the right thing? Anyway, I walked towards her and I kneeled next to her. She didn't look up. I felt bad; I couldn't do it even if I wanted it so badly. I couldn't be selfish; I needed to think about her and what she wanted. So I leaned my head but not to kiss her, I leaned to whisper in her ear on the sly.
"We don't have to do this if you don't want. I respect you." I whispered kindly, aware that I was doing the right thing and dying inside to kiss her.
That was the time when she looked up at me and grinned softly. She smiled at me and I felt meek, I felt this affection I had for her; an affection that it didn't matter if I was dying to kiss her, because seeing her, smiling that way, was amazing to me.
"It's fine for me." She answered shrugging and I felt my heart beating very fast.
"Are you sure? Listen, if you don't want, we can pretend we're kissing but actually we aren't." I said with trembling voice. Man, I needed to control myself.
"Yes, it's fine. But hey, if you don't want... Well, if you don't want it and you feel uncomfortable, we can pretend it, as you said." Freckles whispered.
"No, no!" I exclaimed quickly, widening my eyes. I totally sounded like a desperate dude, and I was certainly one. "I want this." I added, looking deeply into her eyes and smiling at her. Yeah, why would I lie to her? I could no longer hide my feelings for her.
"So...well..." Freckles started babbling nervously and I couldn't help giggling because it was very sweet to me.
"Let me manage this." I said smiling widely, because yeah, I couldn't stop smiling like a fool.
I leaned and grazed my nose on hers, without taking my eyes off her, while she was also looking deeply into my eyes. I beamed in front of her lips. First, I needed to let her know that this kiss wouldn't be part of this game to me; I needed to let her know that this kiss was a demonstration of what I was feeling for her. Surprisingly, she also smiled in front of my lips, but she didn't do any movement. So my lips brushed hers very slightly, taking a moment to feel the warmth and softness of her lips and enjoy it. When she felt my lips on hers, she closed her eyes and I placed a hand on the nape of her neck before closing my eyes to start kissing her lips. I started kissing her lips very smoothly at first, because what I wanted to do was to show her that I really wanted to do this with her; but I let myself be carried away when I started kissing the girl I loved. Man, I felt how my body was trembling because of my happiness and I felt my heart beating fast, but not because I was nervous, because I was very happy. I placed my other hand on her jaw and I pulled her closer to deepen the kiss. Oddly enough, she let me do it and she let me explore her mouth with my tongue. Everything around me vanished and it was just me and her. The happiness I was feeling for this, plus the effects of alcohol, made me feel turned on. I had to stop kissing her if I didn't want something uncomfortable to happen, because I started feeling tight. But I couldn't stop, I was enjoying this way too much and I wanted more. Geez, she was driving me crazy. The slight kiss turned into a fervent kiss, full of emotions. Dude, I wanted she could feel this I was feeling for her. And then I felt her fingers running through my curls and I went crazy. I sensed how she was breathing heavily against me and I knew I was also breathing heavily against her, but instead of stopping, we deepened the kiss. I lowered my hand from her neck to her waist and I pulled her even closer, as she started running her fingers through my curls again. Goddammit, it felt so damn good. We didn't notice we were in presence of people until someone spoke: Amanda.
"Well, well, I think it was enough!" She exclaimed edgily and loudly.
And that was the time when Freckles quickly moved away from me, looking down, very nervous and embarrassed. Everybody was looking at us with eyes wide open and raising eyebrows, agape. I hated Amanda so much right now. I only wanted to kiss Freckles again; oh man, I wanted it so badly. I moved close to Freckles again and I looked straight into her mouth before looking up into her eyes. Wow, she was the girl I wanted to be with all my life, and now I was more than sure. Freckles was now looking at me shyly and she was blushing.
"I'm sorry..." She whispered so nobody could hear except me.
"Please, don't be sorry." I whispered almost begging, looking into her big eyes. "I'd never regret this kiss..." I said now looking at her lips and I moved closer, so our lips were very close again. I just couldn't help it; her lips were like a magnet to mine.
"Darren..." Freckles whispered weakly in front my lips. "I don't think..."
"I love you, so much." I whispered in front of her lips, fondling her cheek very smoothly and looking deeply and fondly into her eyes. I finally said it to her.