was it good? i really dont know, i thought i would expand my herizons. idk, tell me what you think!

CLARE POV

I am going to kill Alli! Here I am thinking Eli really loved me, well Alli has a way of scaring ideas into people's head, he couldn't love me and now I knew that for sure. I was so angry and hurt. I started hyperventilating

"Get. Out." Eli looked at her in confusion?

"What's wrong Clare?" I couldn't breathe, I felt me head pounding in my ears and my heart was hurting, something was seriously wrong, really wrong.

"Clare! Clare can you hear me?" his voice was like a movie with the volume down as background music. My whole body got really hot, and my head was now pounding even more now. I was in serious pain. What was happening to me?

"Clare! DARCY CALL 911!" What? Why was Darcy calling the cops? What was wrong? My question was answered by my mouth screeching in pain. "AHHH" my heart was warning me that is was going to break out of my chest. It felt like someone stabbed it every beat was a pinch of pain.

THE NEXT DAY…

ELI POV

Clare was hurt, my Clare was hurt. They couldn't tell me why because they needed to talk to her first. I couldn't wait for her to wake up because I needed to hear her voice, her angelic beautiful voice. I needed to see her ocean like blue eyes that drew me in from the beginning. I loved Clare and I don't care what people think about it.

DARCY POV

Oh no! Clare had a mental breakdown, but to the extreme. They couldn't tell Eli anything because they didn't know what caused it. Clare, my little baby sister, I am begging god that she is okay.

CLARE POV

Eli… where was he? Where was I? Then I looked at the water. It was beautiful; it has a blue glistening to it, a blue I only see when I look in the mirror. The blue that only exists in my eyes. There were lily pads on the water they were a deep emerald green. The only place I have ever seen it is the eyes of my beloved Eli. Where was he? Why was I in this beautiful place without him?

"Eli?" I called out hoping for an answer.

"Eli this is sooooo not funny!"

"Clare honey, Clare, wake up." It suddenly felt like a brick hit my head and a dagger in my heart. The beautiful blue water dried up in the dirt and the enchanted green lily pads dried up from the sum into an ugly brown. What was happening? I heard an extremely annoying voice with some beeping sound. It was going off and the same time as my heart "beep, beep, beep" the noise was too high pitched. Where was I? The green earthy trees started to blur away and turn onto a violent white that blinded my eyes. Just an annoying blinding white. Then the voices started to come in.

"Clare we need you to focus, we have some questions. Clare? Can you hear me? Give me a sign that you hear me." My body stayed absolutely still. It felt like my head was moving a mile a minute but no longer connected to my body. Like I wasn't in control. The violent light suddenly became more of an eye watering yellow as a light I presume flashed into my eyes. I couldn't help but tear up. And then all of a sudden all feeling came back to me.

"Clare? Honey it's Darcy, please Clare answer me."

"Darcy… E-E…" I couldn't make out the name of the person that I really wanted to see in fear that he wouldn't be here. I didn't really remember what happened but I had a feeling nothing great considering I'm in a hospital.

"Clare, do you know why your hear?" who was this voice?

"No, what happened is everyone alright?" as soon as I said that I realized everyone wasn't alright, I wasn't all right.

"Clare you had a mental break down, you will be fine but we need to know why you have been so stressed out lately." I knew the answer to that it started with E and ended with I. get it yet? A 3 letter word for the boy I loved unconditionally?

"Clare the doctors need to know!"

"Its just my life is stressed out right now I just want to go home and relax. I will be alright just let me go." I started to try to rip the cords out of my arms, but a warm arm caught my hand, it was Darcy. "Clare STOP IT!" I felt like I would cry I needed to speak with Alli. It's weird that she is the one that betrayed by trust yet I still feel like I can tell her everything.

"I need to talk to Alli. I can't tell you how anything, I am fine, that's all there is to it. I am just not used to stress." Darcy gave me a disapproving look.

"Clare, you were fine when I was in my… situation, so you must be under a lot of unusual stress, Clare can't you trust me?" I sighed of course I could trust her, she's Darcy, my sister, I have trusted her from day one.

"Darcy, you know I can trust you, it's just that admitting what was wrong feels like not such a good idea. I need to get through it with your help but not the hospitals help."

The doctor looked at Darcy as if they knew something I didn't.
"Clare, in my professional opinion, if you cant tell us why you had a mental break down, we are going to have to insure that you talk to a professional. Unless you decide to tell us?" I started to cry, my life was flipped upside down. My sobs were cut of by some noise outside of the hospital room.
"I can't just not talk to her until she decides to tell you, obviously she doesn't trust you! Just let me see her!" I looked at everyone's face. The doctors, the sister, then the door.
"who is out there?" they looked at each other as if again they were hiding something from me. "Whose OUT THERE!" Darcy looked miserable that she couldn't tell me so she just blurted out the name of the person I wanted to see most. "It's Eli!" she sadi covering her mouth up. The doctor wasn't happy about her telling me "Darcy, if you can't fallow the rules you need to leave." He looked at her disapprovingly.

"Let. Him. In." I had a deadly look on my face, they knew I wasn't playing.

"LET HIM IN!" I screamed. Something was off about me, yet I didn't know what it was. The doctor sighed and gave in. "Let the boy in." Eli came in glaring at the man by the door but once he saw me he forgot anything but me and came and sat down next to me.
"Clare oh my god! How are you? What's wrong? Why-" I cut him off

"Eli it is just nothing, they think that they can tell me what to do but they can't. I am not going to therapy. I am perfectly fine!" I glared at the doctor. "Who are you anyway? You're not my doctor, I don't even know you, and more importantly you don't know me! Who are you to judge what I need more than myself?" Eli just looked shocked.

"Eli tell them, tell them I am fine." He looked at me with apology in his eyes.
"Clare why can't you just tell us?" I sighed in defeat.

"Obviously I cant count on anyone, I knew it! I knew that I was right and Alli and Adam were wrong!" they all looked at me questionably. But the only look that counted was of the boy I loved. Eli. He looked at me questionably. "Clare, what are you talking about?" I realized I almost totally embarrassed by what I said. "I- I need to speak with Alli." That's all I said. The doctor thought he wasn't having this. "No, if anyone else comes in, then one will have to leave, he said eyeing Eli. I laughed an angry laugh. He wasn't the only one who would be leaving if Alli came. It is called personal conversation. They looked at me obviously wanting to know why I laughed. "If Alli comes, you are all getting out, even you, doctor who ever." He glared at me. They went to get Alli.

"Clare what is wrong, what so you need?" I sighed and opened my arms out for a hug. She climbed in bed and let me cry on her shoulder. When I finally finished I knew what would make her stay quiet. "Alli, do you remember when you made me promise that I couldn't tell anyone about the Johnny situation, and the sneaking out?" she nodded. "Well I need you to keep a secret okay?" she nodded. "I am in here for a mental break down, they want to know what has been stressing me out, so if I tell you, you have to promise that you won't tell anyone, and oh yeah btw I know you told Eli about my feelings so this is also payback for that." She looked down. "Clare, I can't tell you I wont tell them, because this involves your health. I am sorry, and how did you find out about me telling him." I sighed

"Alli, do you honestly think he just magically fell in love with me, and told me everything that would make me believe him, and then I remembered you would be the only one who knew what was wrong with my emotional problems. Then when I really thought he was truly in love with me, I realized I was right and you and Adam were wrong, you are a very manipulating person. You told him that he loved me and I know he doesn't." Alli looked at me in shock. "This is what caused it- this is why you broke down. Because you really love him! You wore your heart on your sleeve and you thought he just smashed it! Clare, he loves you, yes I did tell him what was wrong but he told ME that he loved you I never told him! Clare you have to believe me!" I looked at her disapproving, "You can't tell them, I am not going to put myself out there and just for time to make him realize his mistake, maybe the one won't be Jenna but it will be someone better than me Alli, so just stop!" by then Alli just left, but on her way out she told me, "Clare I love you, you are my best friend, I wouldn't lie to you, so it is pretty miserable that you can't just try to believe that everyone is not like KC! You have only dated one guy so your point isn't really accurate, just please Clare, if you don't tell them, I will." I couldn't believe this.

Everyone but Eli and Alli came back in. "Clare are you ready to tell us?" Alli's words played back in my head. I knew what I had to do. I had to tell him. "I was afraid that I was being hurt again." I sighed all of a sudden I felt better; the only thing people didn't know was the KC situation. I knew I had to give Eli a chance, if all these people including Eli could believe he loved me I guess it was time I did too.