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CLARE POV

"Ms. Edwards, where is your assignment?" I sighed I couldn't turn it in. Never would I be able to let anybody read what I wrote on that paper.
"I lost it, sorry" I left it at that; I really didn't care if I failed it. It was her fault for assigning that to me.
"Ms. Edwards, without it you will receive a zero." I shrugged my shoulders and gave her a look that said I flat out didn't care.
"Well I am quite disappointed." I just ignored her. Eli turned around I could feel his eyes on me but I didn't look at him. I was having belated grieving. But he wouldn't know that. When the bell rang I half ran outside of the class room, to face Alli, she had a sorta sad expression on her face.
"Alli, what's wrong?" she looked at me. Just looked and walked away.
"Alli, what's wrong?" I repeated this time she had a tear in her eye.
"You know that boy, JT Yorke" oh no what was going on with JT?
"Yea, what about him?" she sighed.
"There are having a little service after school, they wanted to bring something to our attention." What could this be about?
"Well are you going?" she had the normal glow to her again.
"Sav won't go! So no I can't unless someone goes with me!" I smiled at her.
"I will be more than happy to go with you!" she smiled and hugged me really tight. I couldn't wait to be close to JT again. My happiness was interrupted when Alli left me and Eli came up to me.
"Clare I thought you told me you did that assignment?" I sighed I really couldn't tell him!
"I did, didn't you hear me tell the teacher I lost it?" and with that I walked away.

ELI POV

What was up with Clare, she always turned in her work and ALWAYS cared about the teachers opinion. I guess I will give her some space, but I really want her to tell me what's going on.

AFTER SCHOOL: JT ASSEMBLY
CLARE POV

Mr. Simpson walked up to the podium with a small piece of paper in his hand.
"Okay, everyone here is aware of what occurred with JT Yorke." He waited while everyone nodded. I felt a tear slip down my cheek already.
"Okay, I am glad to hear his spirit has not been forgotten, however we found this letter, by his memorial this morning. We would like to read it and if whoever wrote it would like to own up after I finish reading then I wouldn't mind silently if you silently came up here to own up." Oh, my god! That is MY letter! I couldn't let people know it was me, what would they think.

Dear JT,

I don't really know what to say in this letter, I just have a feeling that it should be for you. I have really missed you, at first when you died, I couldn't even cry in front of anyone because no one even knew that I knew you. Not even my sister, no one. I felt so angry and alone. It was wrong of me to be mad at you, but I was. I was furious. You are the only reason I was ever excited about going to Degrassi. You told me that great things happen here. I still thought that I should go even after you passed away. I know that you would grow to be happy that Degrassi and Lake Hurst, have become one school, it doesn't feel awkward anymore. When I saw that my best friend was with the guy who saw you last before you were alive, it took everything I had to not say anything, I knew he felt guilty, I mean he didn't stab you, but he was there. I really miss those conversations we used to have; I could really use your help now. I am with this amazing guy, totally perfect. What is the next step in our relationship? I was with this other guy; let's just say blonde cheerleaders are not on my list of friends. I just hope that the same thing doesn't happen with who I'm with now, look at me I am sitting here crying, I am CRYING JT! I am in need of your expertise help. I mean not that you were really good with this yourself. You always told me to fallow my heart, I will never tell anyone this, but I was so afraid to love him, then I remembered how you told me that you still loved liberty, I remember that you were afraid. I then remembered that you died before you ever got to fix things with her, it made me realize that I need to just get over my fear and tell him. But just between me and you, I am still afraid, I mean I totally trust him, but I trusted the other guy too. I even trusted the cheerleader. I have gone way deeper with my guy now than with the other one though. I believe him when he says that nothing can break us apart, but what happens if someone or something does? I know I shouldn't fret these things and just live life, but how can I when if he leaves, I will have absolutely nothing! No one would understand except for you JT, I really miss you! I know I have said this over and over. I really regret not going to your memorial site. I think that is where I will leave this letter. This was supposed to be my English assignment, but it's not, I can't turn this in. I remember those times that you told me that I was wayyy to mature for my own good. I trusted you most because you made me feel better about myself. You treated me like I was a peer instead of a little sister, or nieve friend. You told me that I was the smartest person you've ever met; well you should see me now! Okay I guess this letter is getting long, there is so much more that I can tell you! I just don't seem to be able to get the words out.

With love,
C.

I was crying by the time the principle finished reading my letter, I ran out of there before anyone could say anything, anyone who knew me was sure enough able to put the pieces together. I would never come out and say it.

ALI POV

"Wow, wasn't that letter brilliant Clare?" I turned to see Clare running out of the room, what was wrong with her. I look at Eli, who was with Adam in the front he has this weird look on his face, what was up with them, he didn't even know JT, and as far as I am aware, neither did Clare- oh no! It was Clare's letter! Oh my god! Eli just turned to where Clare had been standing then his expression became worried as he rushed out of the school too. Oh my god, I am the best friend of the Lake Hurst guy, the one that say JT being stabbed! Oh my, how did Clare never tell me about any of this?

ELI POV

As I listened to the letter, I realized some awkward coincidences between this person and Clare, by the end of the letter I was convinced that it was Clare's the fact like the English assignment, our relationship. Is this really how she feels? Like I could just walk out on her? I need to prove her wrong, yet I still wasn't sure how to bring it up in a conversation, she might deny it. I look back to where she was and she's gone, and Alli is standing there looking dumbfounded. At that moment I knew I needed to find her, to reassure her. I hoped no one else knew it was Clare, except you could tell by the expression on Alli's face that she knew too.

CLARE POV

I cannot believe that they would release this kind of personal information, how could they? WHY would they? Is it their ultimate goal to embarrass me in front if the who school? Is it their job to read that? It was obviously personal, there was extremely private things in that letter, things that didn't need to be read to the whole student body of Degrassi, never ever would this blow over. I am in the woods behind the school, I honestly don't know what to do anymore, and did anyone know it was me? I really hope not, but how could I play it off, how could I act normal, how could I? I just need to, like go somewhere or something. I guess I could stay where I am, no one would be able to find me, so I just sat there and cried, for at least an hour before I felt to hands grab me gently from behind and lifting me off the ground. I started to freak out, but then I realized who it was, the one person I really didn't want to talk to right now, but obviously had no choice.