CLARE POV
I was still crying into Eli, I hope he understands where I am coming from, I want him to know that he was never even supposed to hear any of those things, no one was. I hope that he still wants me when this conversation is over.
"Clare, stop crying and tell me what's wrong" Eli had a confused look in his eyes. I hated to have to say this to him, when I wrote the letter it was for personal reasons, not public. I didn't write the letter for people to hear it. I wrote the letter for myself, for some closure.
"Clare Bear relax, it's going to be okay, I promise." I felt so sad right now.
"Eli, you will hate me, nothing will be alright!" he looked at me, still confused.
"Clare. I, Elijah Goldsworthy, of the eleventh grade, of Degrassi Community School, Could NEVER EVER hate you! Okay? Never! Just tell me what's wrong, please." He looked pained now.
"I, well I wrote that letter." I said it in all most a whisper, and then looked down, I couldn't look at his eyes, and I couldn't look at his face.
"Clare, why would I care about that letter? They are your personal feelings; I understand how you are feeling! Do you think I don't worry about that from time to time? I do! I sometimes hear people talking about how beautiful you are, and I dream that you will never realize that you could have someone better. It's human nature." Now I was confused.
"Wait, you think I am too good for YOU?" I looked at him like he was stupid. He just nodded.
"Elijah Goldsworthy, of the eleventh grade, of Degrassi Community School, could never lose me unless HE left ME" he smiled at that; I couldn't believe that he still has this effect on me!
"So, look at you! You always do this to me! Whenever I want to wallow in self-pity, you always come in and make me feel all better, you must be a miracle, ELIJAH!" he smiled a genuine smile. "I am not the only one" then he leaned in and kissed me.
THE NEXT DAY*
CLARE POV
"Clare, what happened to you yesterday?" oh, no I wrote about Alli in my letter too, did she know?
"Hey Alli, well I had something to do with Eli, you know so…" she gave me the 'yeah right' look.
"I saw you run away, and then Eli was STILL THERE! Why can't you just tell me what happened?" I know I should tell her so I will sit her down and tell her, I hope she is as understanding as Eli, but then again, no one is like Eli, no one.
"Alli, sit down. I will tell you." She sat down and looked at me with a waiting expression,
"So, that letter that they read, well I kinda wrote it" she just nodded. "I know." See she was understand- wait! What? She knew?
"Wait Alli, how did you know?" she smiled at me, you talked about me in your letter Clare. I was just hoping that you trusted me enough to tell me, and you do!" she giggled hugged me and ran off, as if we just had a normal boy talk. Sometimes she makes me wonder. Yet I still love her.
ELI POV
I put my hands over Clare's eyes, from behind.
"Guess who?" I said in a singsong voice. She stayed silent for a minute.
"OH, is it Fitz? I have been waiting for you all day!" she laughed, that was so not funny, AT all, but I knew she was joking by how much my sarcasm was rubbing off on her.
"Ha-ha very funny," I turned her around and kissed her
"Would Fitz do that?" She smiled
"I hope not, because then I couldn't do this" she leaned in and kissed me even more than usual. I couldn't help but smile into the kiss, she never showed this much PDA before. I wonder what's with her.
"Clare, are you alright?" she just smiled at me…?
"Yes, I am just as happy as I ever have been in a long time. What about you?" I smiled brightly at her, with as much emotion as ever, I swear with this girl, I smile too much, my cheek muscles start to have an ache, but it feels good.
"I am alright, but I have something for you. Ms. Dawes said that we couldn't share our letters with the person we wrote them for, but since your letter was shared with the whole school, my letter can be shared with you, but don't read it until you are home and relaxed, okay?" she nodded. I handed her my letter, she put it in her locker and kissed me so passionately again. I could get used to this.
LATER THAT NIGHT*
CLARE POV
I was really anxious to read Eli's letter, I wonder what he wrote?
Dear Clare,
You're the only person I have ever loved as much as I do, I have never experienced pure bliss, like I do when I am with you, every time I see your eyes it's like seeing the ocean for the first time during sunset, on a hot day. My heart warms up at the sound of your voice, and rips out of my chest. When I fall asleep you're the first thing in my dreams, and when I wake up, I live my dreams out when you kiss me. I hope your getting the message, because you ARE in the gifted program after all, but I will say it anyways. Clare Edwards, the owner of my heart soul, and sanity, I am madly, unconditionally, irrevocably, inevitably in love with you.
Love,
Eli
That was the sweetest most beautiful thing I have ever read, I love him more than he knows, I think I love him too much. There are tears in my eyes of pure happiness, for the first time in a long time. I am at my happy peak and I can only thank one person for that.
Elijah Goldsworthy.
So guys! what do you think? should I:
A) Continue this story
B) Start a new one
C) stop all together