A/N: Hi guys! Are you ready for the last chapter that takes place in high school? Yes, the last one; that is why this chapter is the longest I wrote in this story. It is finally the prom dance! I wrote about different things to compensate all the time you'll spend reading this, so I really hope you can enjoy this chapter. I liked writing this chapter; I think it's emotional, a bit funny and also hot. So yes, there's a warning! If you don't like smut, probably you shouldn't read the last part because it's a bit sexual. I warned you, guys! Okay, that's all. Thank you a lot for reading this first part of this story, for sharing with me your opinions and feelings and just for spending half-year of your lives reading this. Yes! It's been already half-year since I published Teenage Dream! Crazy. Okay, I won't bother you anymore and I'll reply your reviews. Here I go!
SkittlesPanda: Here you have more! What will Karen do? Maybe it's gonna surprise you! I've told you that I believed in happy endings and I'm happy you were happy for their happiness! haha. I hope you can enjoy the last part of this story!
MeMi83: Please do not make a standing ovation because I'm a shy person and I'll probably run away! Now in all seriousness, thank you a lot! It made me smile, really! Wait, you still have to read the very last 1st part of this story! It's not over yet! It's gonna be over after this chapter. I really enjoy writing, even though lately I've been lazy! haha But I do really enjoy doing this, so you'll get like 100 more chapters! Well, maybe not so many, but you'll keep reading this for a long time, hopefully!
alicegursk: Brian is out bro, man! It's a bro thing! (talking in a fratty way here). Now I have a blanket and I'm a happy colorful unicorn! I have the power to make you cry tears of joy and tears of sadness; I think the next thing I have to achieve is to make you cry tears of anger, and then I'll be complete, I think. So, happy puppy, I hope you can enjoy this last chapter of the first part of this story! Get ready to read a lot. (Btw, this has nothing to do with the fic, but I've heard about the meteorite, don't know if Satka is near where you live; but anyway I hope you're fine!)
Ginny Zoey: Yes, they are back together again! I couldn't help it and I had to make it fast! I wanted to see them together again! haha. But Darren is so tiny! Would he be able to yell the crap out of Karen and beat the crap out of Jim? Let's see what he can do or what he can do not! I'm so glad that I made you smile with the last chapter and I hope I can make you smile with this one too. And yes, I'm gonna miss writing about their life in high school; so... Your wishes of make out scenes are granted! Ready? ;)
zahra auob: Yes, I liked this new Freckles as well! She's way more confident and you'll see it in this chapter. Oh the song! Never anyone mentioned me about the songs I put here, so I'm really happy you asked! It's called Everybody Hurts by R.E.M. I completely love that song, you need to listen to it, it's wonderful! That song often inspires me when I write emotional things (I use music as inspiration! haha). About Beauty School Drop Out; yes, I think I wrote that chapter just as soon as I finished watching that episode of Glee, I thought it could be a good idea to add it in here, I think it fitted. Would Darren kick Karen's ass? Let's see what happens!
SamGabCollins: Well, definitely I feel flattered! lalala I'm Moriarty lalala! lalala I beat you Sherlock lalala! Okay, enough with my silliness. And I feel even more flattered because you admitted I won, then; you competitive psycho! Well, okay, I promise if it's a Broadway show, I'll act and behave like a princess for a couple hours, but as soon as it finishes, I'll go out and stand with all the fans and I'll turn into a crazy animal, making high-pitched noises, hyperventilating and shaking my head fiercely while jumping and screaming your name as I wave you. Hey wait! Omg, I think I'll love your original songs! I really need to listen to them someday! So you forget your lyrics just as Darren, huh? Well, that makes you even more awesome! Hey, you! I like history! I'm a history nerd! Not! Well, maybe a little; I do like history of architecture, does it count? haha. Why don't we just throw a physics book? Your man-voice! haha! You're in love with Brian, unbelievable! But yes, he's so damn cute and sexy, yes. You'll love him more in the next chapters, maybe. I totally forgot about that scene of Friends! I watched it like a long time ago! Omg, you're right! Maybe that scene was in my subconscious all along! Well, truth is that I planned that scene since the first chapter of this story! So I tried to make it cute! Freckles must kick Karen's ass! But would she? I don't know. Oh, Everett, Everett (I love Everett more than Darren you know? haha) Yes, it was time for him to find out the truth! But I'd have loved writing about the couch scene! haha. I'll tell you the truth about Jen and Chuck: In the chapter 'You give me something' (When Darren and Freckles start dating) I was going to write about them being together, then I regretted so I didn't do it, I thought it was better if they were just like family; but then, in the last chapter, I thought 'What the hell! It'd be cute to see them together!' So I did it. Yeah. I love Chuck too! I love Freelance Whales! And if Blaine performs a Freelance Whales song, I think I'd die, literally! It'd be amazing! The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles! Man, I was Donatello; I don't know why, I liked purple color and well, maybe because I knew that I was the reincarnation of the Renaissance Italian artist... not! Okay, stop, I'm rambling too much! And I'd love to see the picture of the case that you have for your school! Okay, okay, I'll let you read this chapter, my Sherlock!
Guest 1: I think this '3' means something really nice! Thank you! 333
Kaylacriss332: First off, your picture is so damn hot. I feel like he's killing me with his sexy look. How am I supposed now to focus on what I have to answer you? Okay, okay, Beauty School Drop-Out! Damn, now I'm imagining his sexiness when he sang it. Okay, stop. Don't you worry, potterhead! I'll definitely write that chapter, a promise is a promise. I'm trying to think about a proper moment to write it, but I definitely will do it! I'm a potterhead myself too, so yes, it excites me!
Nicole: Did you like the ending? Oh, I don't know if you'll like this one, but I wish you can enjoy this whole new chapter! Have you read Chain Letters? Awww! So many memories! I liked so much writing that story! It always makes me smile when I think about it, I don't know why! I hope you liked it! And geez! Thank you a lot for saying I'm talented! It's so weird to hear that! Like, no I am not! But it made me feel so happy and flattered and shy when you said it! Thank you very much, you made me smile!
caarolineboeira1: Omg! You thought that when you saw Tina crying? Me too! I'll never have him and let me cry in peace! haha. Damn, I'd have done the same than her, that thing of vapor-rape him. Yeah! And now we got the hot make-out in the steamy car and ahhh! I wanted to scream, they were so horny! And well, so many Klaine feelings. Blaine got the D! haha. Okay, I'll stop, I promise! Yes, I also like that they're together again! I just... I didn't like them to be separated! I love them together, but I also love drama and all that stuff! haha. And Freckles and Karen! hahaha, well, you'll see what happens! Maybe it's gonna surprise you! Well, I'll let you read now this last chapter of the first part of Teenage Dream! Yay!
Guest 2: Yes! They're together again! Was it cute when Darren apologized to her? I wanted to make it cute and also awkward, as well all feel when we have to apologize to someone we really love! It's always awkward, I don't know why! If I were Freckles, surely I'd have loved the things he said. Maybe Freckles will start having a normal life again, not sure about the school part! And well, yes, Karen appeared so soon! Maybe something bad is gonna happen, or maybe not; or maybe something you weren't expecting will happen and you'll feel surprised, I don't know! You'll find it out! So, I'll let you read so you'll get your answer! I hope you can enjoy the last chapter of the first part of this story!
vicky: I liked writing that chapter as well, I swear I pictured it as if I was watching a movie when I was writing it! (haha I'm so weird!). Like, everything was exasperating and Darren, fuck, hurry up! haha okay, you might be thinking I'm completely insane, so I'll stop. Well... About what will happen now... A lot of things will happen. Good and bad things. Mostly good things, though. I don't know, you'll just have to read it, please don't kill me. And enjoy this last chapter!
Vcriss: You're about to find out what will happen now after that cliffhanger! And I'm with stupid right now; I think I didn't get what you tried to say with that you hoped glee this week didn't change all of our thoughts about Darren. I can be really stupid sometimes! haha. Thank you, anyway! I only hope you can enjoy this last chapter!
Alright guys, that was it all! Now get ready to read a long chapter, the last one! Don't kill me, that's all I'll say. Now, I hope you all have a totally awesome week! Until next Friday/Saturday! Warm fuzzies for y'all!
Teenage Dream – Part 30 – The Prom.
"What did you say?" Karen asked disturbed looking intently at Darren and then at you, in disgust.
"Oh please, do not play dumb, Karen." Darren said upset and in disgust. "I know it all."
"You know what?" She asked frowning and stunned.
"That you're the most hideous person that I know; that you're a heartless bully and that you make me sick." Darren answered harshly looking at her fixedly.
Now Karen changed completely her face now; now she wasn't pretending that she didn't know what Darren was talking about. Now she was looking at Darren coldly and then she looked at you in a rage, in a very nasty way. She walked to you still looking at you in that scary way, but Darren held you in his arms tightly, as if he wanted to protect you or something. You were scared because you didn't know what Karen was able to do now.
"Bitch, I told you not to say anything at all." Karen said looking at you in a menacing and arrogant way while you were just looking at her scared. "Have you told him?"
"What if she...?" Darren started asking angry, but you interrupted him.
"Yes, I told him." You faced Karen, looking at her fixedly and with no fears now.
It was time for you to start facing those bullies, who screwed your adolescence; who hurt the people you loved, who made you feel miserable all this time. It was time for you to stand for yourself, to make them respect you, to be self-confident and strong to defend what was right, to defend your dignity and your person, to defend the people you loved. It was time for you to stop all those people who wanted to harass and bully you, who wanted to hurt your feelings and beat you, who wanted to make you feel as if you weren't important. You were important and the people you loved were important, so you were going to stand for all of them and for yourself.
"And I don't regret it." You said firmly. Darren looked at you amazed and agape and Karen looked at you even nastier.
"I'm gonna destroy you, bitch." She said harshly and threateningly.
"You won't..." Darren started saying coldly, but you interrupted him again.
"Dare, please, let me manage this. I want to do this by myself; I need to do this, please." You whispered softly looking at him.
He looked at you stunned, but he nodded and stayed silent; anyway he kept holding you in his arms. Then you looked at Karen fixedly into her eyes. It was incredible that you weren't feeling scared anymore, it was incredible how self-confident you were feeling now; and that was because you knew this was the right thing to do. This was what you always wanted to do and you finally were doing it, so you were feeling how the adrenalin was running throughout your whole body.
"What did you say, Karen?" You asked coldly.
"I said that I'm going to destroy you." She said harshly, stepping closer to you.
You didn't move from where you were and Darren held you even tighter. You unwrapped Darren's arms that were holding you to walk firmly to Karen. Darren was looking at you frowning and very stunned to do something; surely he couldn't understand how you were so self-confident all of a sudden. Now you were very close to Karen and the two of you were looking very fixedly into each other's eyes. There was hate in Karen's eyes.
"You can't destroy me, Karen. No one can destroy me." You said smiling bitterly. "You're only destroying yourself and I feel pity for you."
"What did you say, whore?" Karen asked coldly but with a hint of nervousness. She surely wasn't expecting you to face her the way you were doing.
"I said that I feel pity for you because you're wasting your life trying to hurt me because you can't accept the fact that you and me aren't so different, both of us were rejected; the difference is that I admitted it and I tried to move on, dealing with it; and you felt humiliated to the point you didn't want anyone to find out that inside you're feeling miserable, reason that led you to be on the defensive all the time, hurting people to try to show to the world that you're badass when actually all you want is to fit in, to have someone who can really love you with all your problems and mess. That's why you can't destroy me and you're destroying yourself." You said firmly and looking fixedly into her eyes as she was looking at you astonished, nervous and scared. "You have serious problems and you should start dealing with it, maybe you could get some kind of help from a professional. So then maybe you'd be able to start living your life and accept that not always things are as we want because it's impossible not to fail at everything. You're a loser like me."
When you said it all, Darren was looking at you astonished and surprised. But Karen was looking at you in a rage and very nervous. And she punched you strongly on your face. When she punched you, you placed a hand on your nose because it was bleeding. Darren tried to walk to you and push away Karen because he was angry, but you made a gesture with your hands to stop him and so he did. You looked up to look at Karen again. You looked at her fixedly and with superiority; she was really angry and edgy. You didn't move, you just looked at her for a long time. You weren't going to punch her, you weren't like her.
"What do you win when you punch someone? What does it make you feel? Does it make you feel good, more important?" You asked frowning as she looked away, apparently disturbed. "Or is that a way to make people believe that you're a badass instead a loser, to make people think that you're not like me?"
"I'm not like you!" She yelled angrily and edgy and you just looked at her quiet.
"Yes, you are." You said quiet and she yelled irritated before she punched you again.
"Stop, Karen!" You heard how Darren yelled upset but you made the same gesture again and looked at Karen.
"I forgive you, Karen." You said looking deeply into her eyes and she looked at you puzzled and edgy, with teary eyes because of her nervousness.
"I don't care! Stop talking to me, I don't wanna talk to a loser; I don't want to be near you! Stay away!" She yelled very edgy.
"Will do if you want. But I wish someday you can overcome your problems and if you ever feel like you need someone to help you, I can be there for you; because I know how I can help you because I've been there too, I know how it feels when you think you're alone. No matter what you did, I forgive you and you can count on me. I really wish you can get better." You said quiet and looking fixedly at her as she started shedding tears, looking away very edgy and apparently ashamed because she was crying. "Do not feel ashamed for crying, everybody cries. Despite everything, I believe that you are really good at heart."
"Stop, stop!" She said with trembling voice and still crying nervously. "I don't wanna hear you, I don't want!" She exclaimed weakly while still sobbing and looking away, covering her face with her hands.
You observed her and the situation and the angriness you were feeling days ago disappeared and it turned into a feeling of pity for her. All the days you had when you were alone, right after you were forced to tell Darren that you were W, you spent almost all the days missing Darren but also trying to understand why Karen could have done something like that. So it was when you started to think that she and you weren't so different; that maybe Karen has done everything she has done because it was like a wall of self-defense she built to protect herself from being rejected again; even though you'd have never do something like that, but maybe it was her way. Maybe she wasn't a bad person, maybe she was too scared, lonely and stricken but she didn't want people to know it, so she was pretending to be something else. And Karen, judging by the way she acted seconds ago, proved it was like that; she didn't say it directly, but her nervousness, shame and disturbance were the signs that proved you that it was in fact as you thought it was. So now you were feeling bad for her, because you also felt once so ashamed of your own feelings; you also felt alone and lost, not knowing how to move on to overcome your troubles. And one time you said that you wouldn't like anyone to feel the way you've felt in the past, no matter who it was the one who was feeling like that. And you knew perfectly what she needed: just a simple hug could heal the wounds, not completely, but it was a start. So you walked to her slowly, forgetting all she has done to you, and you hugged her. At first she resisted and tried to push you away while still crying and covering her face with her hands; but then it was as if she felt too weak to keep resisting and she let you hug her; she even buried her head to cry on your shoulder. It was weird to be hugging her, but you knew that a hug could do a lot, and you knew that she needed it, despite everything.
"I'm sorry for all I did." Karen whispered with choked voice and still sobbing. You didn't answer, you just rubbed her back. You knew that those words were hard for her to say, so you appreciated it. Then she finally moved away and wiped her tears away. "I don't want anybody to know about this; I want you to forget about this; just pretend that this never happened, that you never hugged me and that I never cried."
"Why would you want to hide the best of you?" You asked frowning, looking at her.
"Just pretend it, please. I don't want anybody to know that I'm weak." She said in a whisper, concerned.
"All right, if that is what you want. Don't worry, I won't tell anybody and I won't tell all the things you've done neither the good things nor the bad things." You answered shrugging but kind of disappointed. You thought that the hug would make her think or feel different. "I wish someday you could show the world how you truly are, so then you'll feel better and happier. But I guess it'll take time for you to accept yourself as the way you are. You know, everybody hurts and everybody feels down sometimes, you shouldn't be ashamed of it; but after all, you're the only one who can decide what to show or not." You said quiet and Karen just looked away.
"Maybe..." She whispered still looking away and concerned. "Would you tell the principal..?"
"No, I won't say anything; at least I won't give him your name." You interrupted her and she looked at you thankful.
"Why are you doing this? Why are you being nice to me after all I've done to you?" She asked bemused.
"I already told you, because at heart, you and I aren't so different and I know how it feels when you make a mistake and you don't know how to apologize, when you can't find the way to hold on and move on, when you feel alone and rejected, misunderstood and lost. Because with time I learned that it's impossible not to get hurt and when people hurt you, you have to forgive them; because, after all, they're humans like me and humans make lots of mistakes. And because, as I already said, I believe that everybody is good at heart, despite everything. That's why." You answered looking fixedly at her, in a soft way. Karen just looked at you troubled and stricken and then she nodded.
"Right." She whispered, looking down. But then she looked up to you with her eyes filled in tears. "Now I get why Darren has chosen you; now I understand why he loves you." She said with choked voice and you looked down, now really not knowing what to say. "Whatever, I gotta go to school."
"Right." You said shortly, not knowing what else to say.
"Bye." She greeted with a faint smile looking at you and you nodded.
Then she looked behind you, surely to look at Darren, but she quickly looked away anguished; now turning around to leave. You stayed silent looking how she was walking away. You thought that this was the oddest situation you've ever been through; not only because you finally found out why Karen did all she did, but also because you finally stood up for something, because you finally could face the person who bullied you and you even forgave her. It was weird, but it felt good. You felt different; you've changed and you liked that change. Then you felt how Darren stood behind you and placed his hands on your waist and rested his chin on your shoulder.
"You forgave her." He whispered, also looking at the direction where Karen was walking.
"I did." You answered also in a whisper.
"I admire you." He said now looking at you and then he kissed your cheek. "What you did, it's admirable; it's remarkable. Do you realize what you did? You faced her and you forgave her."
"I know, it's crazy." You said amazed. You were feeling really weird.
"You're outstanding. Not everybody would have done what you did, not even me. See? That is one of the reasons why I love you this much." Darren whispered now grabbing your chin to turn around your face and kiss your lips sweetly. "Never change, please." He whispered in front of your lips and looking intensely into your eyes.
"I will try." You smiled in front of his lips. You felt thrilled when he said 'never change'; it wasn't a big deal, but for you it meant a lot.
"Baby?" Darren asked after a while in a whisper, while he was still holding you in his arms by your back and resting his chin on your shoulder; still both of you looking at nowhere in particular.
"Yeah?" You asked deep in thought.
"Would you like to go to prom with me?" He asked in a very cute way.
You turned your face to look at Darren surprised and thrilled. He was already looking at you in a fond way with a wide smile. This was the first time that a guy asked you to go to prom; and it was Darren the one who was asking you and this was very rousing. You placed a hand on his cheek and caressed it with your thumb with an affectionately smile.
"Of course I'd like it." You replied, feeling happier than ever.
When he heard your answer, he smiled even more widely and laughed in joy before giving you a deep and sweet kiss.
"Dare, are you alright?" Freckles asked curious, looking at me.
What would I answer her? I couldn't say yes because I'd be lying, but neither I could say no because I didn't want to screw this moment. Freckles didn't go back to high school and she was studying at her house, but the principal now knew that she wasn't the bully, so he apologized and he said that in her academic history won't figure that she was expelled. Freckles talked to Jen already and she told her everything that happened, so now Jen also knew everything as me. Jen told Freckles that she was sort of dating with my brother and Freckles didn't seem to be so surprised, maybe she has noticed it; I was still feeling weird by seeing Jen and Chuck together, but well, I couldn't do anything, after all they seemed to be doing fine. Anyway, now Freckles and I were in Golden Gate Park, in the Japanese Tea Garden, after Freckles spent hours trying to convince me to go there because she wanted a quiet stroll and a cup of tea and because she loved the variety of trees, flowers and bonsai trees, the water, the humpbacked bridges and small-scale pagodas; and I wanted to go to the Exploratium to have fun; but she won me because she wouldn't stop saying that it was a fantastic sunny day and we shouldn't waste it by being indoor. So now we were sitting on the grass, away from all the people; Freckles was reading a book and so then I started thinking about a lot of things. Graduation was really near and there were a lot of things that were worrying me. I still needed to tell Freckles something and I didn't know how to say it.
"I've got my admission letter from University of Michigan." I said, looking down, playing with the grass.
"Really? And...?" Freckles asked excited, with a wide smile.
"They accepted me." I answered with a slight smile, now looking at her.
"Oh my god!" She exclaimed loudly and excited, bouncing on the grass and then she pounced on me to hug me very tightly. "Congratulations, Dare! I knew you were going to get it! Oh my god, I'm so happy for you!"
"Yeah, thanks." I said smiling and still hugging her. But she moved away to look at me frowning.
"I don't see you're happy, why? This is what you've always dreamed of." She said suspiciously and I just looked down, feeling troubled. I stayed a long time in silence until I finally looked up into her eyes, feeling distressed and scared.
"What are we going to do after graduation when I can't see you every day?" I asked distressed, finally saying out loud what was worrying me.
She looked into my eyes afflicted with her lips parted, but she stayed silent for a while; then she finally looked down and started playing with her fingers; she was nervous. Surely she has also thought about this, but neither of us ever dared to talk about this, because we thought we still had time; but in two days it was the prom and after that I had to leave San Francisco. I couldn't postpone this conversation any longer because I couldn't take off of my mind the idea that I was going to be away from her after graduation, and that was killing me. I didn't want to be away from her. Freckles put her book aside and she sighed before looking at me again.
"Well... You have to think that every story has an ending, but in life every ending is a new beginning." Freckles said with a faint smile, but there was still sadness in her eyes. When I heard her response I sighed and I looked down. She noticed that I didn't like that answer. "Listen Dare, I know that beginnings are scary and endings are sad, but it's the middle that counts the most. So don't look too hard for happy endings, because you might miss the best part of the story; that is this, what we have right now, in the present."
"What are you saying, baby?" I asked frustrated and feeling even more anguished, and she looked at me distressed before looking down. "I don't want to hear those kinds of analogies or those kind of things that are ideal for a book or whatever but not for real life like now. This is real life and we have a problem that is that we're not gonna see each other for a very long time; it's a problem that is saddening me and is driving me nuts. And this is something that we both have to face now, because later it's gonna be too late and the two of us are gonna be away from each other. Haven't you thought about this? Doesn't it hurt you?"
"Yes, I thought about it and yes, it hurts me too much." Freckles answered with choked voice looking down. "It always hurts to lose the one you love; but it's even worse to lose yourself while loving them. And I don't want you to lose yourself while loving me; because I know that what makes you be yourself is music and theatre and that is what you're going to study; that is why you're going to University of Michigan, to chase your dreams. It's time for you to go forth boldly in the direction of your dreams; and live the life you've imagined."
"I can't do that." I said feeling stricken and feeling like a hole in my heart. Freckles looked at me just as anguished as before. "Yeah, I want to chase my dreams as you said; but I can't let you go. I'm scared that I'm gonna lose you, that I'm gonna feel lonely without you, that things will change when I'm gone. I'm scared." I said with teary voice, trying to hold back my tears.
I was feeling terrible; I didn't want to think I wasn't going to be with her anymore. Freckles looked down and stayed silent for a while, playing with her fingers. She was doing it because I knew she was also trying to hold back her tears, I knew she was also feeling as terrible as me; but she wanted to cheer me up, so that is why she was trying to hold on; I knew it. She sighed and then she looked at me again, with teary eyes but not shedding tears.
"So this is the part where I'm supposed to tell you it's not scary." She said giggling faintly but with sadness. "Well, it is. But fear is natural; fear is good; it just means you're growing. Do not let your fears take the place of your dreams. I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it." Freckles said placing her hands above mine, smiling kindly at me. I tried to smile back at her, but I couldn't; so that was a sad smile and she noticed it, so she moved closer and she held both of my hands. "Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that it'll all be okay. Maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but one day. Say it enough that one day you'll actually believe it. Remind yourself that things have changed, they changed for a reason. You just have to let go and move on. It's going to be hard, and you're going to feel lonely, but just hold on, because who is to say tomorrow won't be the best day of your life?" She said smiling encouragingly at me.
"I don't think that tomorrow will be the best day of my life, not if I'm not with you. I'm gonna be away from you and I think long distance relationships don't work out even if I'd really love it to work out; notice what happened with Chuck and his ex. So then what are we gonna be?" I asked distressed and exasperated.
"We will be friends, then; until we get to be back together, some day." She answered shrugging with a slight smile, as if this was easy for her.
I sighed, looked down and shook my head; I didn't want it because I couldn't do it. Fuck, why did this have to be like this? Why couldn't we be together and nothing else?
"No..." I whispered afflicted and Freckles looked at me intensely.
"Darren, you have to understand that this is about your dreams and I wouldn't like you to give up on them because of us. It'd be stupid. Yes, I know it's hard, because I'm feeling it too the desperation of not having you anymore. But I do believe that time, someday and somehow, will bring us together; after the two of us get to accomplish our dreams. And right now, even if it hurts, you have to go your own way for all the dreams you've always dreamed of. Now it's time for that, later it's gonna be our time." Freckles insisted, still holding both of my hands and now even closer and looking at me straight into my eyes intensely.
"Yeah, maybe." I said weakly with choked voice, now not being able to hold back my tears for any longer.
I still didn't like this all, but I needed to stop being so pessimistic, because Freckles was doing her best to cheer me up, to encourage me; and for her this was just as hard as for me. When I started crying and I tried to wipe my tears, she held my hands and she wiped the tears for me with her thumb; looking at me sadly. She caressed my cheek fondly as she was looking at me deeply into my eyes. Then she smiled warmly at me, while still caressing my cheek.
"Listen, Dare..." She said softly and sweetly. "As we go on, we have to remember all the times we spent together and as our lives change come whatever, we will still be friends forever; because, after all, we can grow separately without growing apart. Because even though we change and we're finding our own place in the world, we know that when tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not still friends or lovers. And though we're off to different worlds, somehow we're together; because deep within our heart, these memories are made forever. So don't feel sad; because you're always going to be right with me and I'm always going to be right with you, even if we are miles apart. Screw those miles." She said giggling softly in between tears and that made me giggle, also in between tears.
So then we both looked at each other with a fond smile before hugging tightly. I hugged her as if this was going to be the last hug; as if this was going to be the last time I was going to touch her, to feel the warmth of her body, to smell her, to feel her skin and to caress her hair. I was sad; but now at least I was feeling as if I was never going to forget her, as if I was going to meet her soon and talk just as much as now, telling my experiences in there and she telling her experiences in here. Yeah, I was going to miss her like hell, but I was going to do everything to come back to her. This wasn't a break up, this was a 'We'll come back together soon'. Still, I wanted to hold onto her. So when we broke the hug, I looked deeply into her eyes, grabbing both of her cheeks.
"Promise me, you won't forget our laughs, our jokes, our smiles, our conversations, our plans, our tears, our memories, our experiences, our friendship, our love." I whispered while she was looking at me with teary eyes but with an affective smile.
"I promise, Dare." She said and she leaned to kiss me.
We kissed for a long time, also as if this was going to be the last kiss. It was a sweet and tender kiss at the beginning, and then it turned into a passionate and very emotional kiss; and it ended in several short and tender pecks.
"I'm gonna miss you, baby; everything of you, everything of us. I can't say goodbye to you, I can't." I whispered in front of her lips while I still had my eyes closed and I was nuzzling her nose with mine.
"So do not say goodbye." She whispered and I finally opened my eyes to look at her; she was still smiling. "You know, you've taught me a lot, one of those things is that you taught me how to appreciate music and to feel identified with a song. And I have a perfect song for us now."
"Are you gonna sing to me?" I asked looking at her with a wide smile.
She was too cute and I loved whenever she wanted to sing to me; even if she wasn't the best singer, even if she couldn't sing in tune. I loved it because she was ashamed of singing, but she did it anyway because she knew I loved it. She was such a sweetheart.
"Will do. If you don't mind to hear my scratchy and shaky voice." She said chuckling and I laughed shaking my head; man, she was adorable.
"I already told you; I love when you sing. So just rock it!" I said laughing and she giggled amused. Immediately, she started singing and I shut up to listen to her.
Now what if I never kiss your lips again
Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace
How would I ever go on?
Without you there's no place to belong
Well someday love is going to lead you back to me
But till it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
Somewhere out there you're thinkin' of me
Till the day I let you go
Until we say our next hello it's not goodbye
Till I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry on down the road
There is one thing I can't deny it's not goodbye
You think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
When you've been missing somebody so long
It's just a matter of time I'm sure
Well time takes time and I can't hold on
So won't you try as hard as you can
Put my broken heart together again?
Till the day I let you go
Until we say our next hello it's not goodbye
Till I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry on down the road
There is one thing I can't deny it's not goodbye
Hey, yeah it's not goodbye
Till the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello it's not goodbye
Till I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry on down the road
And I can't deny it's, not goodbye
Till the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello it's not goodbye
Till I see you
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry on down the road
And I can't deny it's, not goodbye
It's, not goodbye
Goodbye
No more tears to cry
It's not goodbye.
When she finished singing, she smiled at me warmly with teary eyes and she wrapped her arms around me and rested her head on my lap. I wrapped my arms around her and I started caressing her hair before leaning to kiss her head while shedding tears, but not sad tears. I held her in my arms tightly, I rested my head on hers and we stayed like this in silence for a while.
"Thank you, baby. That was the perfect song." I said with chocked voice, feeling how much I loved the little girl I had in my arms now. Then I lifted her chin to make her look at me. "I love you so much and that's not gonna change. Now I understand what you tried to say when you said that we're gonna be together even if we're miles apart. I love you."
"Love you too." She said with teary voice because she was thrilled.
And we kissed again. This time this was a soft but long kiss, it was more like we were pressing our lips together while caressing each other. This was the kiss I was going to remember when I would be gone. Yeah, how would I stop loving her? Never ever that was going to change no matter how distant we were going to be from each other. It was hard to grow separately from her, but I knew that someday and somehow I was going to be with her again as she said. I knew I was meant to be with her.
"What did you say?" Your sister asked concerned.
"That what you heard, Mandy. After the prom, Darren and I are going to spend the weekend together and alone, we rented a hotel room on the outskirts of the city." You explained feeling a bit annoyed; the last you needed was to be reproached for this.
"You cannot just rent a hotel room to spend a weekend alone with a guy!" Mandy exclaimed looking at you in disbelief.
"Why not, huh?" You asked annoyed, looking at your sister frowning and she mumbled some nonsensical things because she actually didn't know what to say or she didn't know how to say it.
"Because... Because you're a girl... And he's a guy... And you're gonna be alone..." Mandy started saying awkwardly.
"Yeah... And?" You asked even more annoyed, now searching for the dress you were going to wear that night. Mandy stayed silent for a while, but still babbling.
"Have you already had sex with Darren?" Mandy asked gingerly and you stopped searching the dress to turn around and look at her incredulous. You felt how you were blushing hard.
"What?" You asked loudly and astonished. "No! Why would you ask that?"
"I was just checking, okay?" Mandy replied quickly and on de defensive; she was also ashamed. "Listen... You won't cheat me; I know what's going to happen if you and Darren go to that hotel room alone for a whole weekend! You... You'll sleep in the same bed and you're going to be very close and... And well..." She started babbling while feeling uncomfortable while you were still looking at her incredulous.
"Mandy! I've already slept in the same bed with Darren several times and never anything happened." You said interrupting her, still astonished.
"Well, but it was different! You slept with him in the same bed but it was at his home or at our home, when your families were around! Of course never anything happened in that way. But now you're gonna be completely alone and it's gonna be different. I know what happens in those kinds of situations and you and Darren will end up..." Mandy started saying still uncomfortable.
"Amanda, stop!" You exclaimed loudly and upset and she stayed silent. "Nothing is gonna happen. If he and I are going to a hotel room to spend the weekend alone is only because after the weekend, Darren will leave San Francisco to go to Ann Arbor and we want to be together as much as we can before he leaves."
"I see, fine." Mandy replied still unsure, but didn't say anything. "How are you both taking this issue that he's leaving and you're gonna stay here?"
"Good, I guess." You answered curtly because you didn't want to think about it. Yes, you reassured him that day, but the truth was that you were really sad about the fact he wasn't going to be with you anymore.
"You'll miss him, won't you?" Mandy asked and you tried to search the dress again to keep your mind busy and not feel sad in front of her.
"Yes." You answered curtly again. "But it's just a matter of time, so we're gonna be fine, I guess."
"Yes, that is right. It's just like you and me; I'm gonna be away from San Francisco, well, not so away but away anyway; but we're gonna still be in touch and we won't grow apart. It's the same." Mandy said shrugging and you felt even worse.
Not only Darren was going to leave the city; your sister was also going to leave San Francisco to go to Los Angeles to study Fashion Design at Otis College of Art and Design; Jen also was going to leave San Francisco to go to Detroit at Wayne State University to study Psychology; Chuck was going back to college to study Music at Trinity College. Even Brian was leaving the city also to go to University of Michigan, but to study English Language and Literature. And you were going to stay here alone, completely alone; all your friends were leaving. Again, you tried to think about something else not to cry.
"Yes, I guess it's the same. Have you seen my dress? I can't find it." You said trying to change the topic of conversation.
"Yes, it's right there." Mandy said pointing you the dress that was in a chair. How couldn't you have seen it? You walked to there and grabbed the dress. "Why are you looking for the dress now? We still have time to go to prom. And you won't wear that dress; I'll give you one of mine."
"What's the problem with this dress?" You asked frowning because for you it was fine.
"That dress is very unfashionable and you'll look like a granny. No way you're wearing it." Mandy replied serious.
"Whatever." You sighed. "Your dresses won't fit on me. I'm fat and you're skinny, so it won't work."
"Shut up. We already had this kind of conversation and we agreed that you aren't fat. I have the perfect dress for you; Darren will faint as soon as he gets to see you." Mandy said excited with a wide smile and you opened your mouth to start complaining but she interrupted you. "You will wear that dress and you won't argue. End of this conversation."
"Fine, fine." You complained annoyed and threw the dress to the floor. Then you walked to your bed and lay down there, feeling irritated but actually sad. Your sister walked to there too and she lay down next to you.
"It's not bad to feel sad for someone that you love who is gonna leave. Do not pretend to be annoyed when you're feeling sad instead." Mandy said softly and you looked at her wondering how the hell she found it out. "Yes, I've been there too, you know? That is why I know how you feel; and besides because you're my little sister and I know you pretty well." She said smiling slightly as you were looking at the ceiling. "You feel sad now but life goes on and you'll get better. Do not think that you're gonna lose your boyfriend and your friends; they'll stay in your life only that living in different places. And in the blink of an eye, you'll be together again, eventually. Right now, all you have to do is to enjoy while they're still here and you can't do it while you're feeling down thinking about the future; just enjoy the present."
"I know I have to do it. But I don't choose to feel like this, I just feel like this." You said sighing and gloomy.
"I know, sis. But just forget it, forget that they're leaving and think about how amazing this night is gonna be. And... And think about the weekend you're gonna spend with your boyfriend alone." Mandy said encouragingly and you looked at her in disbelief.
"I thought you didn't like the idea of me being in a hotel room alone with Darren." You said looking at Mandy and raising an eyebrow.
"No, don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't like the idea; actually I think it's a really good idea." Mandy said and you looked at her very confused. "I was just trying to prevent some things before you leave..."
"Prevent what?" You asked looking at her fixedly.
"Well, you know, I'm going to put forward some things that could happen when you and Darren get to be alone in that hotel room based on my experience." Mandy said taking a deep breath. "The time for when Darren has to leave is coming closer and both you and Darren will feel touchy and affectionate, trying to make the most of every second together that you have left. Everything will be more intense, warmer, more yearning; you'll find comfort in the arms of each other for those moments when you start to feel the anguish and nostalgia, so you'll be very close." Mandy said quiet and you were listening to her intently. "And the two of you will be carried away by love. And it could end up in an intimate way, it'd be normal."
"I don't think..." You started saying, feeling very uncomfortable and embarrassed.
"Listen sis, there's nothing wrong with being intimate with someone; being intimate doesn't mean necessary to have sex with someone; being intimate with someone provides strong emotional attachments; it also includes holding hands, hugging, kissing, cuddling, tickling, caressing, and leg-to-leg touching." Mandy said looking at you deeply into your eyes and you were feeling very uncomfortable as she seemed to be tranquil. "You really love Darren, don't you? I mean, you're very sure that Darren is the only guy with who you imagine to spend your life, right?"
"Yes." You answered honestly.
"Well, have you ever had a desire to have physical intimacy with Darren?" Your sister asked and you felt very embarrassed, you didn't want to answer it because it was very private. You felt how you started blushing.
"I... I... I don't want to answer that..." You stammered, feeling very uncomfortable. The answer was yes, but that was something that nobody knew, not even Darren; it was very embarrassing for you.
"Listen, sis...To desire occasional physical intimacy is a natural part of human sexuality, so you shouldn't be ashamed to feel that desire." Mandy said softly, very tranquil while you were still feeling ashamed. You have never talked to someone about this. "It's about to let someone entering into your personal space, such as to make physical contact and that's an indicator of affection, as an expression of feelings which people have for one another." She said smiling slightly as if this was the most normal thing in the world as for you it was something private and intimate. "I don't know why sex is like a dirty word in this society; as if it's something wrong that you shouldn't do. I don't think it's like that, sex exists since forever and it's a natural and ancient way to express feelings of love." Mandy said shrugging and you were listening to her, now starting to feel less embarrassed. "Sexual intercourse with the person you love can play a strong role in human bonding, leading to stronger emotional bonds and build trust; it even helps dissipate feelings of sadness or depression and it makes you experiencing deep emotional connection and the profound feeling of mutual caring. Sex reinforces intimate social bonds between individuals to form larger social structures and allows to gain the skills necessary for high-quality relationships later in life and to develop feelings of self-worth." Mandy said smiling and you frowned. You never thought about sex in this way and when she said it like that, then you started to think that maybe it wasn't actually something about you should feel embarrassed of. "But you have to be responsible. If you are gonna have sex, you need to be sure that it is with the person you love, with the person you want to spend your life. And also you have to take care and have safe sex practice by using the adequate protection such as condoms to avoid the transmission of sexually transmitted infections; and contraceptive methods such as the Pill for women and also condoms, to prevent pregnancy. If you practice safe sex, then there's nothing wrong with it."
"Thanks, Mandy, for talking to me about this." You finally said with a slight smile.
"You don't have to thank me, it was a talk that I needed to have with you, considering that your thing with Darren is something serious." She said smiling friendly. "Does mom know that you're going to spend the whole weekend alone with Darren?"
"No, not yet... I wanted to tell her, but you know..." You said nervously, looking away.
"I know, she won't let you go." Mandy replied. "Let's do something... You just go with Darren and do not tell mom. I'll make up something such as you were going to spend the weekend with Jen or something, and I'll tell her that I'm going too. It'll help me too, because I really want to do something else this weekend."
"What do you want to do?" You asked curious.
"There's a conference about fashion design in Los Angeles and I thought that maybe I could go, but mom wouldn't let me go. So... Maybe I can take advantage of this." She answered shrugging and you nodded. It was fair enough. "Well, I think we need to get ready for the prom now..." She said standing up. "Come on, I'll show you the dress you're going to wear. And maybe I could lend you some sexy underwear, so you'll impress Darren." Mandy said winking and giggling.
"Oh my God, stop it, Amanda." You said shaking your head in disbelief but anyway, you also giggled.
It has been a while since the last time you giggled since you were all the time sad because Darren, Mandy and all your friends were going to leave San Francisco. So this was a good thing. And now, instead feeling sad, you were feeling excited to go to prom with Darren and to spend the weekend only with him. Maybe this weekend your bond was going to become stronger and it'd be easier to maintain a long-distance relationship. That was all you wanted, to be with Darren no matter where he was; you only wanted him forever.
"Oh shit!" I exclaimed nervously.
"You're gonna have a heart attack, relax, bro." Chuck said laughing.
"Shut up." I replied annoyed. "How do I look?"
"Terrible. You betrayed the Hobbit community by wearing a suit." Chuck answered making fun of me and he laughed out loud.
"You idiot!" I exclaimed annoyed but because I was nervous, in another opportunity surely I'd have laughed. "I was asking Jen, not you." I said now looking at Jen. "So? How do I look?"
"As if you were Shaggy or Scooby-Doo when they find a monster; nervous pretty much all the time." Jen replied serious but then she burst out laughing and she high-fived Chuck.
"You both are the most stupid people in the world, goddammit!" I huffed in annoyance while they were still laughing.
"Relax, bro! This is not the end of the world! You look cute for the first time in your life; she'll love you more this night." Chuck said still amused, chuckling.
"Okay, okay." I said still feeling nervous.
"Darren, if you keep acting like that, you'll scare her. Right now I'm starting to think that you're a sort of psychopath and I think that soon I'll run away because I have fear for my life." Jen said making fun of me and I looked at her disgruntled.
"You know? One day I'll revenge, I swear I will." I said trying to ignore their comments and then I took a deep breath to calm down before knocking the door of Freckles' house.
Finally it was the prom night and I was very eager and nervous; I don't know why exactly I was feeling like this; it was as if this was going to be the last night with all my peers, this was going to be maybe the last time I was going to see some of them; this night was going to mark an ending and a new beginning; maybe for that I was nervous. And I was eager because I wanted to see Freckles, I wanted to spend this night with her and I was anxious to spend the weekend with her alone; I was eager to see her because I wanted to be with her all the time as possible. I already admitted the fact that I was going to have to get used to not see her very often as now; so as long as I was still with her, I wanted to exploit to the fullest her companionship. Then I heard steps coming closer to the door and I felt even more nervous; man, why?
"Hello guys." Natalie greeted cheerfully looking at all of us. "Please, come in. I'll tell the girls that you're already here."
So we did and Natalie went upstairs, leaving us in the living room. Chuck and Jen were the first to sit on the couch together, holding hands. I looked at them before sitting in the other couch alone; still was weird for me to see them together, I thought that I was never going to get used to see them like that; but oh well. The first to get down was Natalie, of course.
"The girls will come in a moment. So, are you excited for tonight?" She asked smiling widely.
"Yes." I answered also smiling widely.
"Darren is the most excited. He wouldn't stop asking if he was looking good and he wouldn't stop feeling anxious and nervous." Jen replied giggling and I looked at her in disbelief.
"Thanks, Jen." I whispered irked. Natalie only laughed softly. If I was feeling nervous before, it was nothing compared to now.
"Yes, I remember my prom, a long time ago." Natalie said still laughing. "I was just as nervous. I wanted it to be perfect, so perfect that at the end I didn't enjoy it as much as I should because I was nervous. So you should relax and just enjoy this perfect night that it's already perfect itself."
"That is what we tried to convince him, but he wouldn't listen." Chuck said shaking his head and I looked at him annoyed. That was a lie; they were only making fun of me all the way here.
"Darren, just relax sweetheart; this will be a good night." Natalie said smiling kindly.
"I... I'm relaxed." I replied shyly, looking down. Everybody burst out laughing, even Natalie. Oh great! This was unbelievable.
Fortunately, Mandy saved me when she came downstairs. Everybody looked at her amazed, even Jen; she was known for being the sexiest girl in school, but tonight, even if it seemed impossible, she was even sexier. She was wearing a long white and red dress with a very provocative plunging neckline, provocative but very classy; and her lips were more attractive than ever in a furious red. No one said anything at all because we all were busy looking at her.
"So?" Mandy asked with a slight smile, going around. "How do I look?"
"You look pretty, Mandy." I said smiling, still looking at her amazed.
"Yeah, most definitely." Chuck replied open-mouthed, looking at her goofily.
"All the guys in the prom will leave their partners to get a chance to dance with you." Jen answered nodding, also open-mouthed.
"The guy who's going with you to prom is a very lucky guy." I said smiling friendly at her and she smiled slightly.
"Thank you, bro-in-law." Mandy said politely. "But I'm going to prom alone." She answered and I felt terrible.
Oh man, I didn't know that. Everybody looked at me as 'Darren, you screwed it'. Now I was feeling very guilty for saying that and I reminded myself that I still needed to learn how to shut up and don't speak more than I should. Why would she go alone anyway? It was hard to believe considering that surely all the guys in school wanted to go with her to prom, so it was impossible to believe that no one asked her.
"I... I'm sorry, didn't know." I said awkwardly, still feeling guilty.
"Oh, no, it's alright. It was my decision; I didn't want to go to anybody. I'm better off alone." She said smiling and shrugging and I felt less guilty. There was an uncomfortable silence for a while, but Mandy broke it by changing the topic of conversation. "Oh, if I impressed you... Wait to see my sister, she's gonna kill it!" Mandy said bouncing excited with a huge smile. When she mentioned Freckles, my heart skipped a beat and I started feeling nervous and eager again.
"Why is she taking so long?" I asked loudly. Oh shit, it wasn't my intention to say it loudly. Now everybody was looking at me amused.
"Good things take time." Mandy answered, winking and giggling. "Why? Are you that desperate to see my little sister?" Mandy asked amused and everybody in the room chuckled softly as I blushed hard, shifting on the couch, uncomfortable.
"No!" I exclaimed quickly and loudly. I thought that I couldn't have sounded more awkward and dork. "I was just wondering..." I added in a whisper.
"All right, if you say that." Mandy replied still amused. "You know, there are pills to control nervousness. You could use some of that." She said making fun of me and I sighed, shaking my head. Man, why was everybody thinking that I was nervous?
"Very funny." I answered, raising an eyebrow and then looking away to avoid all the looks.
After an uncomfortable silence and amused glances directed at me, I finally heard some steps getting down. Freckles, I thought, and my heart skipped a beat as I started feeling more nervous and eager. Then a beautiful and flawless girl walked into the living room: Freckles. Oh geez! She was splendid wearing that strapless evening red dress, it was a sheath dress that fitted close to her body and defined her waist; but it was very short and I didn't like it, not because it didn't look well on her, but because everybody would look at her. And man, she had something on her face and her hair; I couldn't tell what, but she looked radiant and flaming. And wow, that pretty girl was my date. I couldn't say anything because I was still admiring her as she was smiling radiantly.
"Oh my God." Chuck was the first to exclaim. Apparently he was just as amazed as me. "Mandy, you weren't wrong when you said that she was going to kill it; but I'd change it and I'd say that she's gonna kill every single man in the prom."
"And also every single girl." Jen exclaimed also amazed. "Freckles, I swear I'd turn into lesbian only for you." Jen said dumbfounded and Freckles giggled softly as everybody in the room; except me; I was still busy admiring that beauty in front of me.
"Darren, won't you say something?" Mandy asked looking at me fixedly and amused. Oh fuck, I didn't know what to say because I was feeling so silly and so insignificant in front of the grand presence of Freckles.
"Uhm, well... Isn't that dress too short?" I said awkwardly like the biggest jerk as Freckles looked at herself frowning. I heard giggles coming from Chuck and Jen.
"Really?" Mandy asked in disbelief, raising an eyebrow. "You were so impatient to see her and the first thing you say is that? Seriously, Criss?"
"It's alright, Mandy." Freckles whispered shyly and she was blushing now. Then she looked at me, just as shyly. "Don't you like how I look?" She asked ashamed.
"Oh no, I love it." I said quickly, still feeling awkward. "But... But..." I stammered like an idiot. "But the dress is too short and tight and all the guys won't take their eyes off you and I won't like it." I whispered looking at her and she frowned.
"Oh Criss, come on!" Mandy exclaimed loudly in disbelief. "What if other guys look at her?"
"I just don't want it." I replied annoyed, feeling already jealous for no reason.
"What, bro? Are you afraid that your girlfriend will want to go with someone more handsome and classy than you?" Chuck asked laughing, obviously making fun of me.
"Shut up." I said annoyed.
"Criss, I can't believe it. Instead feeling stunned by the girl you have, you're worrying about other guys." Mandy said incredulous.
"Guys, stop..." Freckles said shyly, looking down. "Mandy, I told you that wearing this dress wasn't a good idea. I should have worn the other dress." Freckles said embarrassed and still looking down. "If you don't mind waiting a little more, I'll change this dress."
"What? No! You look beautiful, sis." Mandy exclaimed alarmed.
"No, I look ridiculous." Freckles replied ashamed. "Be right back, you can go to the prom if you want, I'll go there later." Freckles said turning around and leaving the room really fast before I could say something.
"Criss, do something, this is your fault!" Mandy exclaimed looking at me kind of mad.
"That's right, Darren. Freckles was hoping to hear something nice from you because she dressed like that only for you and you just made her feel bad." Jen reproached me.
"It's needless to mention what I think, bro." Chuck said serious, shrugging.
"I didn't want to make her feel..." I started saying feeling very guilty, but Mandy interrupted me.
"You shouldn't explain us anything; you should be explaining this to my sister." Mandy said, crossing her arms and looking at me very serious.
I nodded and I left the living room to follow Freckles. She wasn't downstairs anymore, so I walked upstairs and I walked directly to her bedroom when I saw that she wasn't in the corridor. Before entering into her bedroom, I knocked the door, but she didn't answer so I slowly opened the door to enter into her bedroom very shyly. She was there with her back to the door, trying to unzip her dress to take it off and I quickly walked to her to stop her. When I placed my hands above hers by her back, she turned around, shivered and looked at me as if she hasn't noticed that someone was there in the bedroom. When I saw her teary eyes, I felt completely terrible. I was such a jerk.
"You should be downstairs, Darren. I won't take so long to change this dress." She said looking down and trying to walk away from me, but I quickly grabbed her by her waist.
"No, do not change your dress." I said looking at her even though she was still avoiding my gaze. "You look beautiful."
"No." She said with choked voice, shaking her head. "I look like a slut."
"What the fuck? Of course not!" I exclaimed alarmed and frowning.
"Yes, I do. I look ridiculous and awful and I told Mandy that wearing this dress wasn't a good idea because I'm fat and ugly and I don't look pretty, I look and I feel so stupid wearing this dress that is only for pretty and skinny girls." She said very fast, slurring her words, with teary voice and still looking down as I felt some tears falling in my hands.
"What you just said is a bunch of crap." I said feeling upset with myself for making her feel that way. She didn't look up and she didn't say anything. "You're not fat, you're not ugly and you don't look stupid. You look and you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. If the first thing I could say to you was that the dress was short, it wasn't because you didn't look amazing. It was because you indeed look amazing and first, I didn't know what the hell I should say because I was admiring your beauty; and second, because I'm a jealous guy and I wouldn't stand seeing how other guys look at you." I said trying to look into her eyes but it was being hard to do because she wouldn't stop looking down. "You're pretty, very pretty that the first thing I thought when I saw you was: Whoa, is she real? Is that lovely girl my girlfriend? What a lucky guy that I am!" I exclaimed smiling brightly at her even though she wasn't looking at me.
"Do not lie to me." She said gloomy. "I'm pretty aware that I'm not pretty, Darren."
"No." I exclaimed loudly, shaking my head. "Hey, look at me." I said lifting softly her chin and finally I could see her big and teary eyes. "You are gorgeous and I love the way you look tonight." I said firmly, smiling fondly at her.
"Do you really think that I look pretty with this dress?" She asked shyly, looking at me with a hint of hope.
"No..." I answered shaking my head. "You don't look pretty. You look outstanding." I whispered caressing her cheek before leaning to kiss her lips softly.
"You look handsome." She whispered in front of my lips with a sweet smile and I smiled back.
"I just hope to be at your level." I giggled softly. "Come on, let's go to enjoy this night. Just a little warning..." I said frowning slightly as I was holding her hand, walking downstairs. "You better don't walk away from me tonight. I want you to be with me all the night long... Just in case there's any rogue and bounder guy." I said serious but she laughed anyway.
"Deal." She answered still laughing.
Everything was going pretty well until we arrived at the party. Shit, I wanted to punch everybody there, why the hell do they have to look at my girl? I held her hand very firmly and I pulled her even closer to me, so that everybody would know that Freckles was mine and no one had the right to look at her and less to talk to her. As we walked by, all the girls in the salon were looking at her from head to toe, whispering things that I couldn't hear, but looking at her frowning. I looked at Freckles and she seemed to be very uncomfortable.
"They're just jealous because you're the prettiest in here." I whispered in her ear and she smiled faintly but not convinced.
Anyway, what worried me weren't the girls; the problem was the boys. Not even a single guy didn't turn to look at her. Some of them tried to dissimulate, but some of them made it very obvious, looking at her from head to toe open-mouthed and almost drooling. When I caught a guy looking at her ass, I looked at him in a rage and in a menacing way.
"What are you looking, huh?" I asked harshly and the guy stopped drooling while looking at her ass to look at me kind of scared.
"Nothing, dude! I was just admiring the panorama." The guy answered and it was such my anger that I was about to walk to him and punch him, but Freckles took me by my arm to stop me.
"Stay away, clear?" I said menacingly and the guy looked at me astonished.
"Alright, dude. Chill out!" The guy replied and then he turned around to leave, not before looking at Freckles' ass again.
"Darren, you need to calm down; you're overreacting and picturing things that aren't." Freckles whispered in my ear.
"Baby, that asshole was looking at your ass without dissimulation." I replied defensively and still feeling upset and then Freckles giggled softly.
"You're so cute like this, but really; no one was looking at my ass. Stop it, okay? Just focus on spending a good time with me and all of your friends." She said smiling cheerfully and that made me smile.
So we went to a table to sit and drink something to get in the mood. People were already dancing and everybody seemed to be enjoying it. But actually I wasn't paying attention to the people around, I was observing Freckles; damn she was really beautiful. What was I going to do after this party, after the weekend that we were going to spend together? I didn't want to think about it, I didn't want to admit the fact that I was going to be away from her; I just needed to enjoy this party with her, my first party with her. Then I remembered something: I have never ever danced with her and I've never ever seen her dancing. I really wanted to dance with her. Jen, Chuck and Mandy were already dancing but I preferred to stay with Freckles, but now that I remembered that, I wanted to ask her to dance.
"Baby, do you wanna go over there to move our bodies to the beat of the music?" I asked cheerfully and she giggled.
"I can't dance." She answered shyly. "But why don't you go and dance with your friends? Maybe you could dance with Mandy."
"No, I don't wanna dance with Mandy; I want to dance with you. Come on, if you can't dance, I'll teach you. Please, please, please." I begged exaggeratedly and she giggled again.
"No... Maybe later..." She answered smiling uncomfortable and unsure. "You should go, Darren. Have fun with your friends, it's your prom. I'll be right here, seeing how you move your body." She said chuckling.
"No, if you don't come, I'm not going." I answered.
"Oh come on, Dare. Go and dance and have fun. Maybe later I'll join you." She said trying to convince me but I shook my head. "Please? Do it for me?" She asked looking at me with a kind of look that I knew pretty well: it was the same puppy dog eyes that I used to make whenever I wanted something. Dammit, it really had a good convincing power.
"Oh shit. I hate that, do not copy my techniques." I said pretending to be annoyed but I was pretty amused.
"Please?" She said again with the same puppy eyes as I looked at her in disbelief, shaking my head and giggling.
"All right, but just for a while and then you're gonna be forced to dance with me." I said firmly as she smiled brightly.
"Yes, deal." She said still smiling and then she leaned to peck my lips very softly and then I kissed her back, this time more fiercely. "Go and have fun, Dare."
I nodded with a bright smile and then I stood up to walk to Mandy so I could dance with her that was alone, even though a lot of guys tried to dance with her. When I reached her, I looked at her amused.
"Are you also gonna reject my offer of dancing with you?" I asked with an amused smile and she laughed, shaking her head.
"I have to think about it, but I guess I can make an exception and dance with you." She answered, continuing with the joke.
"Oh whoa! I feel flattered now." I laughed amused as I placed my hands in her waist and she placed her hands on my shoulders. "Is okay this way?"
"Yes, it's fine." She said smiling slightly and then she leaned to whisper something in my ear. "Actually I should thank you for dancing with me, bro-in-law. Those guys were starting to annoy me." She whispered and I laughed out loud.
"Oh well, well. Now that I kind of saved you, now you'll have to help me." I said in a mysterious way.
"Oh yeah? With what?" She asked intrigued as we started dancing. She was a really good dancer, maybe Freckles was just as good as her sister.
"You have to convince your sister to dance with me. She's telling me that she can't dance and shit, so she wouldn't want to dance with me." I said in a whisper, as if this was a secret or more like a conspiracy. When Mandy heard this she laughed.
"She really can't dance." Mandy answered still laughing. "Actually she's better than me because when she was young she took dance classes, but she's shy so she wouldn't dance in a crowded place and she'd pretend that she's a bad dancer."
"What the fuck?" I asked in disbelief.
"Yeah, what the fuck. It's the same that I wonder. But well, I'll help you with that." Mandy agreed with a smile of conspiracy.
"Good, thanks." I answered with a smile and then I looked behind Mandy to look at Freckles, as I've been doing since I started talking to her just to check if any guy wanted to walk and talk to my girlfriend.
"Darren, you need to stop controlling her." Mandy whispered serious and I looked at her. "She's not gonna do anything and she won't let any guy to cross the line with her."
"I can't help it." I said shrugging.
Then I looked at Freckles again. Brian was now sitting next to her, very close. They were laughing and very distracted to look at me. I knew that Brian probably wouldn't do anything because he helped her and me to be together again; but still, they were really close and I didn't like it at all. I felt really jealous and I attempted to go there and take her away from him, but Mandy took me by my arm.
"Darren, you need to trust on her." Mandy said serious, looking at me straight in the eye.
"I do trust on her." I answered frowning, still looking at Freckles and Brian and feeling jealous.
"It doesn't seem like that." Mandy said quiet but firmly. "Just because a guy is talking to her, doesn't mean that the guy wants to bang her."
"What? I didn't think..." I started defending myself.
"Yes, that is exactly what you're thinking." Mandy said serious, looking at me pointedly and raising an eyebrow.
"Well, sorry, but I can't help it. Since we arrived here, guys wouldn't stop looking at her and I want to kill everybody." I said letting out my jealousy. Mandy looked at me amazed, raising her eyebrows and then she burst out laughing.
"Is that a bad thing that all the guys are looking at her?" Mandy asked amused.
"Yes, it is. I don't like it." I huffed in annoyance and I looked at Freckles and Brian again.
"Darren, let her feel beautiful at least only for tonight. She's not used at guys looking at her and she barely feels beautiful, so this is weird for her and I'm sure this is special for her. So let her feel that way, let her feel and experience new things; after all, you're still the one and only for her, she's yours." Mandy said kind of supplicant and I sighed.
"All right. I'll try not to feel jealous." I said now looking at Mandy to stop looking at Freckles to control her.
"Good." Mandy answered smiling joyfully. We danced for a while as I tried not to look at Freckles again, until Mandy whispered something. "Maybe you could try now to ask my sister to dance." She said winking and I nodded. I really wanted to dance with my girlfriend but I couldn't leave Mandy alone.
"What about you?" I asked.
"Oh, I'll be fine. However, I need to rest; I've been dancing for hours." She said shrugging and smiling.
Before I left Mandy, I looked at Freckles directly into her eyes; even if I was away from her I could notice the spark of her eyes. She was still talking to Brian, but I walked to her very slowly, just admiring her; I didn't care about Brian anymore, I was just focused on her beauty. She wasn't looking at me, she wasn't aware that I was walking to her. But Brian did notice it and I knew it because he saw me and as soon as he saw me he stood up and greeted Freckles. When Brian finally left Freckles alone, he walked in my direction and he just greeted me with a nod and I greeted him back just in the same way, with a slight smile. Yeah, now things between him and me were different. Now he wasn't the bully for me, he wasn't the asshole who harassed me and my girlfriend; now he was the person who helped my girlfriend when she was being harassed by Karen, he was the one who gave me that video and letter that allowed me to be with Freckles again. Anyway, we weren't friends or anything; anyway I knew that he still didn't like me and I didn't like him for some random reasons that had nothing to do with the bullying; but we were just fine and that was good. I looked at Freckles again, she was now distracted with a flower that was on the table; she was smiling beautifully and that smile made me smile and walk a bit faster. I didn't want her to see me, I wanted to surprise her; so when I was close enough and she still didn't notice I was there, I stood behind her and I leaned to whisper something in her ear.
"May I have this dance?" I whispered with a huge smile. She startled and turned around to look at me abruptly and surprised.
"Dare, you scared me... I... I don't know... I..." She started babbling nervously as I kept looking at her with the same bright smile. I only offered her my hand in silence and she giggled. "All right, only one song." She said still giggling as she placed her hand above mine and I helped her to stand up.
I held her hand, leading her to the dance floor, both of us in silence but joyfully. The atmosphere now was amazing: the lights were dim, the music was now ballads and love songs and everybody was quiet dancing with their respective partners. I led Freckles to the middle of the dance floor and once we were there, I placed my hands on her waist and I pulled her closer to me. When she wrapped her arms around my neck, I pulled her even closer, so now our bodies were touching. Instantly, she rested her chin on my shoulder and we started dancing; when she did this before I could tell her what she needed to do, I corroborated what Mandy told me: She could dance and she was only playing dumb. Damn, she was dancing better than me and she was leading me when I thought that I was going to be the one to lead her. Although she said we were going to dance only one song, it has been like three songs already and we were still dancing together, very close and in silence. I wanted to hold onto her as much as I could and dancing like this was perfect. Neither of us said something but both of us were thinking that maybe this was going to be the last time we were going to dance together in a long time, so both of us tried to enjoy this moment we had now. Another song started and when I noticed which song it was, I lift her chin so now I could rest my forehead on hers. I looked intensely into her eyes while I was nuzzling my nose with hers and I was smiling fondly in front of her lips. She also looked into my eyes and smiled in front of my lips, so dancing this way was much more amazing.
"I dedicate this song to you, baby." I whispered as I started singing this song in a whisper in front of her lips while we were still dancing very close.
I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright
I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance
They're looking for a little romance, given half a chance
I have never seen that dress you're wearing
Or the highlights in your hair that catch your eyes I have been blind
The lady in red is dancing with me cheek to cheek
There's nobody here, it's just you and me, it's where I wanna be
But I hardly know this beauty by my side
I'll never forget, the way you look tonight
I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright you were amazing
I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled, it took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as I do tonight
The way you look tonight
I never will forget, the way you look tonight
The lady in red
The lady in red
The lady in red
My lady in red
I love you.
Right after the song finished and before the prom queen and prom king were going to be revealed, I pulled Freckles even closer to me and I leaned to kiss her lips, now placing a hand on her cheek. It was a long, soft and fond kiss. Our first kiss of the night, our first kiss in front of so many people. But we didn't care about the people who were looking at us because we actually thought we were alone. Even when the prom queen and the prom king were announced, we were still kissing.
"I love you so much, baby." I whispered in front of her lips with a fond smile before we started clapping to congratulate the prom king, Brian, and the prom queen, Mandy, of course.
"What a nice place!" Freckles exclaimed loudly and very excited when we arrived to the hotel.
She started looking around and bouncing as soon as she got out of the car that my dad lent me to drive to here. I started to get the suitcases out of the trunk of the car while I was looking at her amused; man, she seemed to be very happy.
"Wait to see the room. I rented one with Jacuzzi. And there's also a swimming pool in the hotel." I yelled amused and she looked at me with eyes wide open, even more excited.
"You shouldn't have rented a room in this hotel, Darren! We could have been fine with a less expensive hotel room." She started saying now, frowning. I left the suitcases on the ground and I walked to her to hold her hands.
"I wanted to rent a good place in which we could stay to spend the last days together in the best way." I said looking at her with a slight smile. "What? Aren't you happy with this place? Because if you want we can sleep in the car." I joked and she giggled.
"No, this place is amazing and I love it. But... It surely must have been expensive." She said.
"I don't wanna talk about money, okay? It doesn't matter. What matters is that... We have a Jacuzzi!" I exclaimed loudly and excited, laughing in between. "Oh yeah, and also that we're together." I said smiling amused and she laughed.
When I looked for the keys of the hotel room and we finally went there and opened the door with our suitcases, we looked at the room very astonished. Nothing was as what I saw in the advertising.
"Sorry, the room you've reserved wasn't available when you asked for it. It was our mistake for having reserved you a not available room. This is the only available room and for our mistake you won't have to pay the extra cost of this suite room." The hotel concierge said. "I hope you can have a good stay."
"Y-yeah, t-thanks." I stammered like an idiot and the man gave me the keys and left.
Freckles and I entered the room in silence, just looking around, still astonished and amazed. When I closed the door, Freckles and I looked at each other for a while and we both started screaming of excitement.
"Gosh darnit! Look at this room!" I yelled excited.
"Holy cow! This place is amazing, Darren! Amazing, amazing, amazing!" Freckles exclaimed just as excited, bouncing around. "Look at those couches! And the TV! Oh my goodness! It's as if we were in the movies! And look at that table!"
"Hey! We have a mini fridge! Look, look! We have water, sodas, beers and even champagne! And look at this! We have also a snack tray!" I exclaimed excited, grabbing a pack of potato chips. When I turned around, Freckles wasn't here anymore.
"Oh holy crap! Look at this hell of amazing bathroom!" She yelled in the distance and I went running to the bathroom.
"Oh my fucking god!" I exclaimed when I saw that bathroom. Not only had a Jacuzzi, but it was huge and it had even two sinks and mirrors and all. Then Freckles ran to the bedroom and I followed her.
"Oh geez!" She exclaimed with eyes wide open.
"Well, I hope you don't mind sharing the same bed." I said laughing but also amazed by that bedroom. The bed was like huge and there was also a TV there.
Freckles didn't answer anything; instead, she ran to the bed and she started jumping on the bed, laughing and very hyper like a little kid. It was very cute. I looked at her very amused and then I joined her. When I started jumping on the bed, I held her hand and we started jumping together, laughing as never before; this was so much fun, I couldn't remember the last time I did something like this. Then I looked at her in a mischievous way and I started tickling her as she started laughing desperately. She made a weird movement, like she hit my legs with her feet and it made me fall on top of her on the bed. Anyway, both of us were still laughing loudly and then we looked at each other while I was still on top of her. She raised her head to kiss me in a very fierce way. Whoa! That surprised me but I totally loved it. She placed a hand on the nape of my neck and other hand in my hair, as I placed a hand on her waist and other hand in her jaw. I deepened the kiss, making of the kiss a passionately and intense kiss. She started cuddling with her legs tangling up with mine and whoa, this was the first time she did something like that and it was weird, but I loved it most definitely; it was a weird feeling, as if she wanted to be close to me. I placed my hand on her thigh but now underneath her red dress. It seemed that she liked when I touched her there because she automatically kissed me more fiercely, now running her fingers through my curls and placing her hand on my back underneath my shirt in a way that was turning me on. I tried to think about something else to avoid an uncomfortable situation, but I couldn't; I was enjoying this moment way too much and I loved that I was doing this with her, with that girl that was driving me crazy. I don't know what led me then to kiss her neck, but I liked it: I liked the way she moaned softly as a sign that she liked it; I loved the way she had her eyes closed and it seemed that this was pleasant for her. And when I licked her neck slowly, she moaned louder and that sound she made, made me get a hard on and I couldn't control it. I wanted to stop because I knew that this was the moment I needed to stop, because later I wasn't going to be able to stop and control my body and my instincts and urge. But she started unbutton my shirt and I looked at her amazed, gulping. She was now looking deeply into my eyes as she kept unbuttoning my shirt very slowly. I placed my arms on her sides and I strained my arms to keep my chest up to let her unbutton my shirt as she was doing. When she finished unbuttoning my shirt, I helped her to take it off. I started into her eyes while she was seeing my naked chest for the first time. I wasn't a stocky guy but neither I was a muscular guy; and unlike the guys from the TV, I had hair on my chest; but she was still looking my naked chest as if she was admiring it. I let her doing so before I grabbed her hand to place it on my chest; I wanted to feel her touch. Staring into each other's eyes, I rubbed her hand on my chest and once I showed her how to touch me, I let out her hand so now she was rubbing my chest slowly and softly as I was leaning to kiss her again. We kissed for a little until she stopped me. I looked at her frowning, maybe I've done something wrong; but she looked at me intensely and the she sat on the bed, just below me and she started unzipping her dress.
"Would you help me?" She asked softly and I gulped.
Oh man, I was so fucking nervous. I've never ever undressed a girl before. I mean, yeah, I undressed her once but she was drunk and almost unconscious and that was a fast thing and neither kisses nor cuddles were involved. I looked at her for a while before answering.
"Yeah." I replied hoarsely, as if I haven't spoken for years.
She smiled before turning around to give me her back. I also sat on the bed, placing my legs on each one of her sides, very close to her that I could touch my legs with hers and my chest with her back. Then I noticed that I wouldn't be able to unzip her dress if my chest was against her back, so I moved a little to make room between us. So then I started unzipping her dress very slowly as I was starting to see her naked back, full of freckles. When I finished, I pulled down her dress to her hips. I started caressing her back very softly; her skin was as soft as the skin of a baby. I started giving her some massages and she relaxed her body; I wanted that, I wanted to make her feel relaxed and comfortable. While still giving her massages, I started kissing her shoulders very softly, but not in any place, I started kissing each one of her freckles in her shoulders and then in her back; I was discovering each one of her freckles, of her marks, of the particularities of her body. Then I moved closer to her, so now our bodies were touching, and like this I started kissing her neck. When she groaned softly, I knew that she liked this kind of kiss, so I kept doing it for a while, while caressing her arms and touching her legs with mine and caressing her feet with mine. I've never been this close to someone ever, I've never touched someone this way; and I guessed that it was the same for her. As I always wanted, I was experiencing new things with her and only with her. She turned her face and she kissed my lips, placing one of her hands on my jaw. Slowly while still kissing, she turned all her body and sat above me, with her legs on my sides as I bend my legs, so she could rest her back there. I placed my hands on her naked waist and she wrapped her arms around me. I kissed her for a little more until I broke the kiss to bite her lower lip very softly and then to look into her eyes. She was more beautiful than ever, she had something different in her eyes; it was a mix of bright eyes with happiness, nervousness and pleasure. While still staring into each other's eyes, I caressed her cheek and she smiled at me fondly. She also started caressing my cheek and like this, we started caressing each other's bodies, very softly and caringly. It was much more than being aroused, it was a whole new thing; I always thought that this kind of cuddling was cheesy and only happened in romantic movies. But I was wrong; this wasn't cheesy, this was about discovering our bodies, about sharing all we had, our most private things. We didn't need to talk to show the other the love we were feeling and it was weird and great. I stared her whole body while I started caressing her arms, her shoulders, her collarbone, her chest, her abdomen and her navel, and then I started running my fingers through her groin very slowly. She was looking my whole body while caressing my shoulders, my chest, my nipples, my tummy, my belly button, going straight to my the bone of my V zone. When she started running her fingers near my pelvis, I shivered and I suddenly I felt a tingle in my belly and also in between my legs, as I started to feel really hot and a warm sensation, as if down there I was warmer than the rest of my body and I felt as if my dick was getting very swollen and it was throbbing with up and down sensations of my heart beat. My heart was beating fast, my breath was slow and I had a deep urge; her touch in my skin was suddenly more sensitive. This was definitely a sensation that I've never felt before and it was feeling so amazing, even though that it was hurting me because my pants gave it no room for my hard on, that was getting even harder. She surely noticed this, because she kinda moaned and started breathing faster. I tried to focus on the cuddling thing, so I placed my hands on her back; but the first thing I did, without even being aware of it, was to unfasten her bra. She moved closer to me, and I felt her pelvis against mine as she placed both of her hands on my jaw to kiss me fiercely; of course I kissed her back, now placing a hand on her lower back and the other hand on her hair, messing it. She only broke the kiss to move back her upper body to take off her bra and to drop it on the floor. We kissed a little more, but then I broke the kiss to observe her whole upper body naked. When she noticed that I was admiring her, she smiled shyly and then she was the one to grab my hands to place it on her breasts. Oh wow, this was the very first time that I saw breasts in person and of course the very first time that I touched them. I gave it a little squeeze and this contact was hugely thrilling. It was weird; it was like bulgy, soft and warm. Oh god, it felt really nice to touch them. Then, when I was feeling more comfortable and I noticed that she liked this, I gently tickled the bottom of her breasts between her chest and her nipples with my finger nails; I gently grazed the sides of her breasts with my finger nails as I kept taking the occasional glance to make sure I wasn't inducing any pain; when I noticed she was liking this, I carried on. I leaned to kiss her and I applied my whole hand to her breasts, with her nipples up against the palms of my hand and I gently applied pressure and rubbed her breasts in a gentle circular motion and surprisingly, she was now helping me out. While I was doing this, I was kissing her chin, her jaw, her cheeks, her ear, I nibbled her ear lobes and I began to work down, kissing her neck ever so gently worked my way to her shoulders. My hands were gliding down her sides gently tickling her with my finger nails where I could pay attention to her stomach and her panty line all the way around her body, as I started to get down her dress to her knees. I kissed down her shoulders and neck until I reached her breasts, and then I kissed every inch of her breasts slowly and gently, except her nipples, while my hands tickled the backs of her thighs, knees and calves. Then I ran one hand up her body, tickling the area between her collar bone and her breasts, her neck, the side of her head, running my fingers through her hair, and finished by holding her hand. Then I gently licked her breasts in spots and blew air across those spots to give her some added sensation. I lightly licked the edges of the nipple, again blowing air on her nipple from time to time, using one of my hands on the breast I was working on and using the other hand to touch her thigh and then to hold her hand again to induce her a feeling of closeness and that I cared about her. After a long time I was doing this, I finally covered her nipple with my warm mouth and gently sucked on her breast as she started moaning. Oh hell damn, I loved those sounds she was making, it was making me feel that she was enjoying this as much as I was doing, as if I was pleasing her. I repeated this action with her other breast and then I felt her hands on my pants: she was unbuttoning my pants slowly and her touch down there made me feel even more aroused on a level that was driving me crazy, so crazy that I let out a loud moan. Once she unbuttoned my pants, she tried to pull down my pants and I stopped sucking her breast to help her. I raised my hips still with her on my lap and I started to pull down my pants to finally take them off and to drop them on the floor. Then she was the one who raised her hips and I took her dress off and I dropped it on the floor. Now she was only on her panties and I was on my underwear. We stared into each other's eyes intensely; she was smiling, I was smiling. I couldn't believe this was happening, I haven't planned this. I ran my fingers through her thighs and she did the same with me, while still looking at each other. This was very intimate and neither of us was feeling uncomfortable; this seemed to be completely natural. I pulled her closer to me, so her pelvis was against mine again; now I could feel her even more. I kissed her lips again, placing my hands on her hips as she wrapped her arms around my neck. It was a very fierce and passionate kiss, we were breathing slowly but our hearts were beating really fast. I was feeling hot, very hot; and her body was also hot; I knew that I was starting to sweat, but I couldn't help it. This kiss was arousing me even more that I started thrusting my hips up and down against her vagina; she accompanied me with the movement as we both started moaning in between the kiss; but it came a point that the moans didn't let us to keep kissing, so more than kissing we were just brushing our lips with our mouths opened. I let out a very loud groan when she placed a hand underneath my underwear to run her fingers through my pelvis; automatically, I placed both of my hands on her ass and squeeze it, without even thinking about it. When she ran her fingers down underneath my underwear, touching slightly my already fully erected penis and when she kept going down to my balls; I let out the most loudly moan I could make. I couldn't control it, those sounds were just coming out from my mouth as a reaction of the pleasure I was feeling. Oh shit, this was the first time that someone that wasn't me was touching me there and it felt even better than the times I did it myself. As an instinct, I thrust up my hips against her vagina and then I quickly took off my underwear; I was kind of desperate and I couldn't control this feeling. When I completely took it off, Freckles observed me and for some reason, I didn't feel uncomfortable while she was doing it. I let her doing it while I was caressing her cheek very softly. Then she looked up to me and I smiled at her. I slowly leaned her on the bed, so now she was lying down in bed as I was on top of her. She was looking deeply at me while I was caressing her cheeks, her neck, her shoulder, her breast, her abdomen and then her groin. I placed my hands on her panties and, slowly and caringly, I started taking off her panties as she pushed up her hips to help me. Once I did it, I dropped her panties on the floor and I stared her whole body naked. Oh holy crap, she was beautiful. We stared our naked bodies for a long time, just discovering each part of our bodies, our most intimate parts. Not only we stared our naked bodies, we also started caressing each other in parts we've never caressed before; it was something special; it was a new feeling, it was a new experience that I was experiencing with the girl I loved with all my heart and soul, with my Freckles. I leaned and I rested my body against hers; now I was feeling her naked body against my naked body and that feeling was very pleasant, it was thrilling. I kissed her very softly, but the kiss quickly turned into a fierce kiss, as we started thrusting our hips ups and down. Now it felt different. Now I felt my dick touching a warm and wet part of her body; I couldn't explain it, but that feeling was one of the best feelings I've ever had; and there was something else, a particular smell that I've never smelled before, but it was making me feel more aroused for sure. Man, this was feeling amazing. Then my erected penis touched her wet spot and it made me moan and she also moaned. Oh fuck, oh fuck, I had this urge that I couldn't avoid for any longer; this urge to get inside of her. So, while still kissing her, I extended my arm to reach my bag where I had a condom. While still looking for it, with my free hand, I ran a finger in her clitoris, making her moan loudly. Oh damn, that moan and the warm and wet sensation on my finger was driving me completely crazy. I felt as if I almost lost my mind when she grabbed my dick with her hands and started moving it up and down. Oh shit! This was a fantastic feeling, a really hot and beyond-belief feeling. I have no idea how I managed to keep searching for the condom with this feeling I was having. But I did and I found it. I quickly opened the condom wrapper. And then I did exactly the same that Chuck and Jen once told me about condoms and how to use them properly. I determined which way the condom was rolled, I pinched the entire reservoir at the tip of the condom shut, I placed the condom against the tip of my erect penis and I rolled the condom slightly over the tip of my penis and then I gently pulled back the foreskin and I slid my hand from the reservoir tip down to the rolled ring of the condom and rolled it down the entire length; I used one hand to hold the bottom of the condom in place at the bottom of the shaft and then pushed the foreskin forward inside the condom with the other hand. Once it was correctly placed, I leaned against Freckles again, placing one hand on her jaw to kiss her fiercely as we were doing as she wrapped her legs around my waist and wrapped her arms around my neck. I used my free hand to hold my dick and then I started rubbing it on her clitoris, going down straight to her vaginal opening. Oh god, oh god, this was an extraordinary feeling and I couldn't wait for any longer, it was an urge. But I stopped.
"Baby, if you want me to stop, just let me know." I whispered looking at her.
"No, it's fine." She answered hoarsely.
"Are you sure?" I asked slowly and she only nodded. I leaned to kiss her lips very softly and fondly. "I love you."
She smiled fondly, it seemed she couldn't talk, so I kissed her again before I lined my penis with her vaginal opening and I tried to push my dick inside; but then I noticed that something different was happening; so I looked up to her again. She seemed to be scared.
"Darren?" She said with trembling voice and I frowned.
"Yeah?" I asked hoarsely.
"I... I'm virgin." She said with trembling voice and very nervous, so I looked at her and caressed her cheek softly.
"I am too." I whispered softly but still hoarsely, kissing her lips and still caressing her cheek before smiling at her. She was looking at me scared but also frowning and confused.
"Are you?" She asked in disbelief.
"Yes, I am." I assured with the same soft smile. "My first time is gonna be with you and I'm glad for it." I whispered in front of her lips as she was still scared. "Listen... We can stop right now if you want."
"No, I want... I mean..." She babbled nervous and I chuckled softly.
"Don't be nervous, I want you to feel comfortable with this." I whispered sweetly while caressing her hair.
"I'm not nervous, I want this." She whispered with trembling voice and I kissed her. "I'm ready." She whispered in between the kiss.
Yeah, I told her not to be nervous; but the fact was that I was nervous like hell; I thought that maybe it was normal to feel like that; like I couldn't stop thinking 'What if I totally suck at this? What if she doesn't like this? What if I don't do it right?' I didn't want to hurt her, I didn't want to make her feel bad; I wanted her to enjoy this new thing that the two of us were about to discover and I wanted to show her how much I loved her, I wanted to be loving and affectionate but also I still had this urge. I started kissing her fiercely but not forgetting to be affectionate, to get in the climax again. I kept kissing her while running my fingers through her whole body, going from her neck to her groin as she started moaning in between the kiss as I also did. With my free hand I grabbed my penis and I pushed it slowly and very softly in her vaginal opening. It didn't work; it wasn't as easy as I thought it was, judging for what I saw. It was like I couldn't do it because it was very tight. I tried to do it again and she almost screamed of pain and I felt something wet and warm, but not exactly where I was supposed to feel it. I felt that something wet and warm in my cheek that was resting against hers. I moved my face to look at her. She was crying.
"Baby, are you okay?" I asked hoarsely and kinda concerned.
"I'm so sorry, I can't do this!" She exclaimed in between tears and I looked at her confused and frowning.
"Hey, do not cry." I whispered weakly. I couldn't get why at first she seemed to be very sure and now she was crying.
"I'm so sorry, I'm an idiot." She said weeping and I could barely understand that she said it because her voice was choked. But I heard perfectly when she said the next thing. "I'm sorry, Darren, for being a stupid girl who can't do this yet as you expected."
When I heard this and when I saw the way she was crying and covering her face, I got off of top of her to sit next to her head and wrap an arm behind her to raise her upper body and hug her as she buried her face on my chest, wrapping her arms around me, still crying. I caressed her hair and I kissed her head several times to try to reassure her.
"Baby, do not cry for this. I understand and it's alright." I whispered softly and reassuringly but it wasn't working. "You're not stupid only because you aren't ready yet and I wasn't expecting to do this, not if you're not fully ready." I said while she was still weeping disconsolately. "Hey baby, look at me." I said now grabbing both of her cheeks as she looked at me with her eyes full of tears. "This is not about me nor about you; this is about us. We both need to be ready and comfortable and if you don't feel like that now, it's fine, I get it and I have no hurry; because what I want is you to feel fine and sure about this. The last I want is to do something that you're not ready yet. We can wait; we have time; because I'm not planning to leave you, not even if we're miles away." I said looking intensely into her eyes.
"I really wanted to make this special, but I screwed this moment, I screwed everything." She said crying.
"Do not say that." I said frowning, still looking into her teary eyes. "You didn't screw this. This is the best thing we've ever had; hey, we have discovered something new about each other. Someway, we've made love, when we discovered our most private things about us; making love doesn't necessary involve sex. So I'm telling you that you didn't screw this, quite the contrary, you gave me the best I've ever got tonight. So, do not cry." I whispered softly, caressing her cheeks with my thumbs and smiling fondly.
"I'm stupid; I should be like the other girls who have sex with no fear." She said sobbing.
"What? No, of course not. I'm with you precisely because you aren't like the other girls; so do not ever compare yourself with other girls. I'm not looking from you to have sex, what I'm looking from you is this, being just like this, sharing new things that has nothing to do with only sex." I said with a fond smile before kissing her sweetly and she kissed me back. "See? This is what I want. If we don't have sex now, it's okay. Maybe now isn't the time and the place; eventually that day will come, and it won't be something forced; it'll be because it'll be the right time. We have all of our lives to do this, so... Why would we hurry?"
"I... Darren..." She said still sobbing, but more calmed now. "Will you stop loving me because of this?"
"What?" I asked laughing but because I couldn't believe she was asking that. "Why would you think that I'd stop loving you?"
"Because I stopped you and... and..." She started stammering and I interrupted her.
"Of course not, baby. I love you even more because you had the strength to stop me, because you made me respect you and because you respect yourself." I answered honestly looking deeply into her eyes. "Come here." I said lying down in bed and making her rest her head on my chest, wrapping an arm around her and holding her hand with my free hand. "I love you so much, I really do."
"I love you too." She whispered looking at me. I kissed her very sweetly and gently and then I smiled in front of her lips.
"Let's just sleep like this and you'll make me the happiest guy in the universe." I said looking at her with a big smile while caressing her long hair.
"Yes, alright." She said smiling shyly.
I smiled brightly when I heard her answer and I snuggled up into her, as she did the same. We lay on our sides, face to face, intertwined our legs and we held our hands. Now we stared into each other's eyes intensely as the two of us were smiling. She had bright eyes, but also swollen and sleepy eyes because of the crying; anyway, she looked gorgeous. I moved my face closer to hers to rest my forehead against hers and nuzzle my nose with hers, still staring into her eyes. It was not long until she fell asleep peacefully and smiling. I kissed her temple and I whispered goodnight in her ear, even if she couldn't listen to me. I couldn't fall asleep because I couldn't stop looking at her and how beautiful she looked while being asleep next to me, completely naked and smiling. My erection finally disappeared and I was still feeling bad by the way she cried because of this. Yes, I wouldn't deny that I really wanted to make this with her, but if she wasn't feeling sure, she shouldn't have felt bad and guilty for it. I looked at her and I thought that I could wait for her all the time she needed; for now sleeping like this with her was already pretty amazing. I caressed her naked side slowly and softly until I started feeling sleepy. When I was about to fall asleep, someone knocked the door. Maybe it was the hotel concierge. I kissed Freckles' lips lightly before I put on my underwear to open the door.
Next morning you woke up really peacefully. When you opened your eyes, you realized that you were still naked and that Darren wasn't next to you. You thought that maybe he was taking a shower, but no sound came from the bathroom, so maybe he was just having breakfast or maybe he went for a walk and he didn't want to wake you. So you covered yourself with the blankets to your face and you started thinking. What you've experienced last night, was special, was unique and it was quite awesome. The whole thing of undressing in front of Darren and him undressing in front of you so naturally was great. The whole thing of discovering your bodies and caressing and kissing as if this was the most natural thing you could have ever done was amazing. It was a nice feeling and thinking about it was making you feel butterflies in your stomach. What it didn't feel good was when you were about to go all the way with him. You thought you were ready, because you were sure that you wanted to lose your virginity with him and it surprised you when he said he was virgin too. But somehow, at one point, you started feeling very scared and your whole body tensed when you were about to have sex. And it hurt you way too much when he tried to get inside you; it was very painful. That was when you started to regret, even though you wanted to do it with Darren; but you weren't ready, not yet; it was scary and painful. You felt really guilty and ashamed when you finally told him that you couldn't do it. He told you that it was fine, but still you were feeling bad for it, because Darren really wanted to do it, he even put on a condom and all. Anyway, Darren finally convinced you that it was fine and he was very sweet and caring. You remembered when Mandy told you that it was hard to find a guy who could respect the way Darren respected you; she was right. Darren was unique. Well, it was time to get up and dress, so you could go with Darren and enjoy this last time together. You wanted to spend every single second with him now that you had the chance. You wanted to talk to him to hear his voice, to laugh along with him, to hear his voice singing, to look at him, to look at his beautiful hazel eyes and his sexy and charming smile, to be in his arms and feel the warmth of his body. Excited, you got up and you dressed feeling very cheerful. You first went to the bathroom but Darren wasn't there, then you poked your face to the living room, but he wasn't there; you were alone in the hotel room. Maybe he was in the pool, he loved swimming. You went to the bedroom to look for your phone before going outside with Darren. In the nightstand, there was a note. Well, it surely was a note from Darren telling you where he was going to be. Yes, definitely it was his handwriting. Excited and happy, you read it.
"After thinking all night long, I decided that I'm leaving. I don't want to deal anymore with a girl who's scared of having sex. I had to wait so fucking much to get laid with you and at the end nothing happened because you're such a crybaby. All this time trying to be sweet, loving and cheesy to get in your pants and you didn't give me anything. I'm sick of that, I'm gonna look for a better girl in Michigan who's not gonna be scared to satisfy me. I'm sorry, I'm breaking up with you and I don't wanna see you again. Goodbye, have a good lonely stay here and please, do not call me anymore and do not try to find me. Darren."
When you finished reading the note, you excitement and your happiness faded. You felt really heartbroken and everything fell apart. That was undoubtedly Darren's handwriting. You stayed in shock for several minutes, not believing what you just read. All the fears you were feeling last night before Darren reassured you, appeared again. You were afraid of it and it happened. You couldn't believe that he actually did it, that he actually dumped you because you didn't dare to have sex with him. How could he? No, no, no; this wasn't happening; this was surely a joke, a really hideous joke. You stood up and you searched Darren's suitcase, but only your suitcase was there. You looked through the window right to the parking lot; Darren's car wasn't there anymore; there were no signals from him except for the note he wrote. The guy you loved walked away from you and dumped you because you couldn't give him what he wanted. This wasn't the Darren you thought he was. You started feeling insecure again; you started feeling lonely, helpless, hopeless, stupid, ugly, neglected, deserted and depressed again. You felt a hole in your heart that wasn't going to heal. You were alone again; you felt how, over again, no one loved you. Darren, the guy you loved with all your being, made clear that he didn't want to see you again and he was gone. This time not for a while; this time forever.
"Why have you done this, Darren? Why?" You cried your heart out in that lonely hotel room.