Untitled Gundam Wing Story/ Shattered Innocence Chapter 7

Sorry that I got a little lazy in writing chapters. I'm having a little writer's block in ALL my stories.

Ever since Noin had come home to his apartment she had been in more and more pain than in the hospital. He had been giving her pain pills but he found it odd that they weren't working. While she napped in his room he searched for anything to show that she hadn't been taking them. Eventually he found what he was looking for…she had been hiding them in a coin purse.

"What are you doing?" Noin asked seconds later. She was shocked to see that he had found the pills. She leaned against the doorway to keep herself standing.

"Lucrezia," he scolded. Rattling the coin purse.

"I don't need them," Noin said pursing her lips. He sighed grabbing the pill container. Noin back out of the doorway and back into his bedroom.

"If you take there pain pills you'll be in less pain. I know you've been faking it for the longest," Zechs answered.

"I'm not taking them!" Noin cried out. She continued to back away as he followed after her. He had already taken out two pills for her to take. Zechs placed down the pill case on the nightstand as Noin backed into a corner.

"Why don't we go watch a little TV?" Zechs asked sweetly. She nodded insecurely allowing herself to follow him into the living room.

"Relena is coming over today right?" Noin asked curiously. He sat down on the couch as she approached cautiously.

"Yes," Zechs answered calmly. He beckoned her to sit on his lap. Hiding the pills in his sleeve. Not expecting anything Noin sat in his lap. She smiled at him before getting an eerie feeling. The smile quickly faded as he began to move his hand.

"What are you planning?" Noin asked suspiciously. Holding her down Zechs tried to force the pills in her mouth.

"Noin stop struggling. You know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you," Zechs explained as she tried to break free.

"LET GO OF ME!…STOP IT! PLEASE STOP!" she cried out repeatedly. She couldn't kick him and he was already pinning down her arms. Also, on top of that she was already weak.

"Stop struggling. Just take the pills. I would never drug you in the intention to cause harm to you. You know that Lu. Don't you trust me?" Zechs asked.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Noin cried out eventually breaking free. She tumbled onto the floor before racing towards a door. He raced after her trying to stop her from escaping. He pinned her against a wall turning her around in his grip.

"Noin take the pills," Zechs ordered becoming more and more frustrated with her. She was defiantly healing well but her pain caused her only a few hours of doing anything before lying down or passing out.

"I will never take them! First you'll drug me, then you'll rape me and after that I'll be pregnant!" Noin cried out.

"Do you really believe that?" Zechs demanded shaking her slightly. He wanted her to look in his eyes but she only looked away in fear. She could hear in her head the words: look at me. Don't you dare look away. It only made her more terrified. Zechs was much stronger than her…would he lay his hands on her? He couldn't do that…Or could he?

"Zechs," Noin began with her voice quivering, "you're scaring me." He relaxed quickly with a sigh but he didn't release her. She was right…this time Zechs was too confrontational. Noin didn't need this right now and Zechs was only reinforcing her fears. They barely noticed Relena and her "body guard" Heero walk through the door.

"What are you doing? Release her!" Relena ordered pushing the two apart. "Are you alright Ms. Noin?" Noin didn't answer only looking away from them.

"Noin," Zechs said trying to get her to speak.

"I want to lie down," Noin answered. She was thankful that she didn't have to take the pills but this was embarrassing for everyone.

"Alright," Zechs said gently. He'd try to get her to take the pill later. Kindly he guided her back into his room lying her down on the bed before leaving. He closed the door before joining his guest on the couch.

"What was going on earlier that you had to be so rough that she said that you were scaring her?" Relena demanded.

"I was trying to get her to take a pair of pills," Zechs said leaving it at that.

"You didn't have to be so rough with her though," Relena retaliated.

"With her unpredictable personality I think at times he has to be a little rough. He hasn't harmed her physically but being rough could also traumatize her even more," Heero said thoughtfully. Inside his bedroom, Noin lied in bed listening to them talk.

"There has to be an easier way for her to take the medicine," Relena sighed.

"If you can suggest something, I'm listening," Zechs answered closing his eyes.

"Why don't you mix it into her water?" Relena asked.

"You know she's probably listening right now. I don't want her to stop eating and drinking. Today I found 58 pills that I thought she had taken. I've been very lenient on giving her pills. I never forced her and I only gave them to her when she wanted them. I'm not very sure how many she has actually taken. Nor do I know if she's gathering up all these pills to commit suicide either," Zechs answered.

"I can't see her doing that. Are you sure she'd commit suicide?" Heero asked.

Zechs sighed, "She's already tried."

"You're kidding!" Relena retaliated. They heard a thud come from his room causing the three to stiffen. Zechs signaled them to stay there as he went to the door. He knocked on the door hoping for a reply.

"Yes?" Noin called out from inside.

"Can I come in?" Zechs asked.

"Yes please," Noin begged. He entered the room seeing her leaning against the bed.

"How did you get on the floor?" Zechs asked with a nervous laugh.

"I fell," Noin replied. He helped her up and off the floor before feeling a wet liquid in his hand. It was coming from her former gun shot wound. It was blood causing him to get nervous.

"Why are you bleeding?" Zechs asked.

"I…I fell," Noin mumbled.

"Where did you cut yourself?" Zechs asked. He tried to take hold of both of her hands but he found that there was something in the right one.

"I had a little accident," Noin muttered. He took the razor out of her hand.

"Oh Lu. What were you thinking?" Zechs asked quietly.

"I was just trying to cut away my bandages. So I could replace them on my own. I didn't want to call you. I didn't notice how sharp it was…and I panicked and then I fell," Noin sighed.

"Alright. Let's take you to the hospital," Zechs sighed. He had forgotten about the razors and now he had to give them to Quatre as well. He helped her onto the bed grabbing anything and everything they needed in the room.

"I'm sorry," Noin whispered. Zechs scooped her into his arms giving her a warm smile. She was almost like a child at times. He left the room seeing an anxious Relena.

"Are you alright?" Relena asked.

"I have to take her to the hospital. Everything will be alright," Zechs told them. Relena looked up in confusion.

"I'll be alright," Noin said in a soothing tone. Yet being Relena, 20minutes after Zechs and Noin left they followed after them to the hospital. Noin only stayed for a day before returning home and with more pain pills. Oh how she despised medicine all around now. It USED to be helpful and wonderful yet not it was mysterious and horrible for the body. After getting into his apartment Zechs set her down on the sofa before sitting on the opposite seat.

"We need to talk," he said seriously. Noin gulped shifting uncomfortably. Relena and Heero would come by later so they had time to talk alone.

"About what?" she said trying to act clueless. Noin tried a cute smile but it didn't work against those icy blue eyes.

"Noin, don't act clueless. You have to take these pills. I know you don't want to but your pain is going to continue if you don't take them," Zechs told her coldly. Noin sighed feeling fear well up inside her again.

"I don't need THEM! Why do you think I need them?" Noin demanded. Her face was contorted in anger as Zechs tried to stay calm with her.

"Do you know how hard it is to watch you suffer?" Zechs asked. Noin looked into his eyes seeing the frustration and sincerity in his eyes. She knew all of this was troubling for him.

"N-No…Zechs, I don't want you to drug me and impregnate me," Noin replied fearful that he would snap at her. He sighed softly taking her hands. Rubbing her hands Zechs made her look at him.

"And I won't Lu. I want to have the whole children discussion after we get married. I do want kids but I want you to enjoy sex as well. I want to be with you when you're conscious and well aware what's going on," Zechs explained. She was still suspicious of the drugs but his words were genuine. It was as if the drugs were making Zechs into a puppet, which she didn't want to believe.

"Are you sure?" Noin asked. Her gaze was insecure as Zechs sighed, sometimes it felt as if he was dealing with a child.

"Lu why would I do that to you?" Zechs asked. Noin flinched trying to come up with a valid answer.

"I don't know," Noin muttered as Zechs helped her up. Noin really didn't know why she thought that. He kissed her forehead gently before pushing her to his room. She needed to rest and relax, the last couple of days were hectic. Noin enjoyed times like these. Lying her down he kissed her lips gently.

"Why don't you just take one for now," Zechs asked holding the pill out to her. She only stared at it before looking away. At times, Zechs wanted to scream to relieve all the stress of taking care of Noin. It would only cause her to become even more fearful. Taking care of his future wife was a full time job. It was almost impossible to leave the house without her AND he couldn't take her anywhere else besides the courthouse. Not yet, she was still too unpredictable.

"I really don't want to. Medicine was a thing of fear," Noin retaliated. Her eyes were closed as she thought over the painful memories. Zechs rubbed her belly and wound gently before kissing her forehead.

"Can you do it for me?" Zechs asked nuzzling her forehead. She smiled giving him a nod. He was really buttering her up but it was working, Noin really felt as if she could trust him.

"Will I get a kiss?" Noin teased. She took the pill and he handed a glass of water. With a slight gulp Noin placed the pill in her mouth. Her hand was trembling and was noticeable in the glass of water. Knowing that she wouldn't drink it on her own Zechs helped the water to her lips. With a nervous sigh she swallowed the pill. She felt like having a panic attack but soon noticed that she was fine.

"Do you still want that kiss?" Zechs asked encasing her hand in his. She smiled gently looking into his now gentle eyes.

"I'd like that," Noin cooed. But what she wanted the most was for Zechs to lie down next to her and sleep. He gave her a gentle kiss like normal but he could tell she wanted more.

"I'll lie down with you," Zechs said warmly. He laid in bed next to her but was surprised to see Noin just stare at him confused.

"How…How did you know?" Noin mumbled.

"I know you…Over the years you learned how to read me but you never noticed that I learned how to read you, Lu," Zechs began. "Now go to sleep." She nodded feeling his arm snake around her. Noin knew this hold…this meant that he had every intention in falling asleep as well.