My secretes.
Who I am.
What I am.
My life was just discovered. It felt like all the air that could possible be in me was squeezed out as I looked at the three boys standing in the doorway looking at me.
I sat here frozen in my seat. Fear had overtook my body. Would they tell my secret? Would they destroy me and my Dad's life, or would they help me?
"Get out!" Dad screamed blocking the boy's view of me.
I continue to desperately try to control myself.
"We can help Coach." I hear Scott assure my dad.
Dad hesitantly moved to stand beside me. Isaac quickly moved towards me but stopped when I growled at him.
He raised both of his hands and softly said," Jessica we're here to help you, not hurt you." He started to ease over to me. Each step he took he would say soothing words.
"Okay Jessica we know what we're doing. I just need for you to trust me. Can you do that?" Isaac crouches right where Dad was previously standing.
I nodded my head still focussing on myself.
"Can you look at me." He asked sweetly.
Not even knowing that I turned my sight to the floor, I look up to see that his eyes were the same golden color as mine. "Good."
"Does she have an anchor?" Scott asks my dad.
"What the hell is that McCall?"
"Umm something that will tie her to her humanity." Stiles answers.
"Jess? I don't remember your mom saying anything about that."
"I don't know." I growled.
"Ok think about something or someone you love." Scott pushed.
"Yea like your Dad." Stiles suggested.
Okay, I can do this. I can think about how I love dad and would never ever want to hurt him or in my case maul or rip apart. I can do this. I can't do this. Why isn't this working.
"You never know what you're doing".
"What?" I look up to see my mom staring at me.
"You heard me clearly Jessica. You're so useless. I don't know why I came back."
"I thought you came back for me and Dad."
"Why can't you wrap your little mind around the fact that I'm here for me and me only. Now listen to me, I'm trying to help you".
"No. The only person that is helping me is my dad! You're only hurting me."
"You watch your tone young lady." Mom stormed towards me. "If you don't want to learn how to control yourself fine by me, but don't call me when you have yourself a murder victim."
"I hate you so much."
"What did you say?" Mom dares me to repeat myself. "I'm your Alpha and you will listen to me."
"Why won't you just leave me alone." I scream at the top of my lungs.
Oh Jessica. Why do you make me out to be the bad person. I'm just trying to make you into the strong beta I know you will grow up to be" she smiles placing her hand on my shoulder.
At this point I refuse to even look into her eyes because I know that if I do, I will believe her like I always do.
"Jessica." I hear her voice teasing. "Jessica."
I quickly squeeze my eyes close to avoid her.
"Oh come on sweetheart." She said rubbing my forearm. When I didn't respond she started adding pressure to my arm.
"Don't look at her. Don't look at her." I repeated in my head.
"I'M YOUR ALPHA!" She let out a growl that shook my whole body. I screamed as she let her claws slice into my arms. I tried to pull back but it seemed like I was only making her claws go deeper into my arms.
"STOP!" I yelled
"Jess!" I hear Dad's voice.
Where am I? I look up to see that Dad was worried, and who are they. Oh yea I remember now.
"Jess. Can you please let go of Isaac?" Dad ask trying to stay as calm as possible.
What is he talking about. I'm not even touching... Oh no. I slowly look down to see that my claws were embedded into Isaac's arms. Blood was dripping onto the floor creating a small pool of blood. I look into Isaac's eyes. He was trying to hide the pain, but gosh his eyes gave it away.
"I...I'm. Oh my god." I breathes out removing my bloody claws away from him.
"Jessica. It's fine. It's already healing. Look."
What did I do. I hurt someone. Someone that was trying to help me. Oh no. I'm just like her. I can't be like her. I refuse to be like her.
I tear my eyes away from my bloody claws to see that the room was spinning. Why are the walls closing. I can't breathe. I have to get out of here.
I stand up quickly causing the room to spin even more. What the hell did I do. That was the only thing going through my mind as I stumbled trying to get out of the room.
"Jess wait!" I hear my Dad's distanced voice.
I can't look back. I just couldn't. I raced off the school campus and into the familiar woods. Without any hesitation I allowed my wolf to take over.
It wasn't until night that I had returned home. I was so exhausted. All I wanted to do was take a hot shower and sleep for a whole week. If that's even possible
As I entered my back yard I could instantly hear my dad's calm heartbeat in the kitchen. I let out a low whine as I pawed at the door.
"The only way for you to get in here is through your little door."
I growled as a warning for Dad to open the door in the next five seconds or he would have to deal with a very upset wolf.
"No Jess I paid hundreds of dollars for that damn door. I will leave you out there for the rest of the night."
I swear I could kill him sometimes. I stuck my head through the hole and snarled. I'm pretty impressed with myself. I never knew I could be so...terrifying. Wow I actually like that.
"You will not use that tone with me." He smirk enjoying this too much. "Come in Jess. I'll give you a treat."
That was the last straw. I am not an animal-well technically I am, but I don't know just be quiet- that he can just wave food in front of and expect me to come running. Slowly I back away from the door. I entered the house at full speed. Bolting past Dad straight up to his room. Luckily the door was open. Now all I have to do is find...jackpot. Dad's favorite slippers. It's time to see who's going to be laughing now.
"Jess." I could hear him snickering.
I headed back downstairs to go stand right in front of him. "No! Jessica Beth Finstock I wish you would."
I got him right where I want him. Let's see who will be laughing when someone has to buy new shoes.
"Jess! Come on I'm sorry. You know I didn't mean anything I said, but you are cute. You have to give me that one." He plead trying to suppress his laughs.
I back up and braced myself as I shook my head with all the strength I could manage. The sound of the shoe's stitches breaking was blissful to my ears. With ease I threw the one shoe at him. Happily I repeated tearing the other shoe apart. After I finished I looked up, and basically let out a happy yelp before I ran to my room.
It was almost ten minutes later when I finally heard Dad coming up the stairs. I could hear him take a breath before he opened my door.
"All I have to say is revenge is a dish best served cold. Good night."
"Yeah right Dad. You will never get me. Goodnight."
"Love you Jess."
"Love you too Dad." I smile as he slowly close my door.
I wonder what Dad can possible do to get me back. Oh well I'll always see it coming.
I wiggle around trying to get comfortable. I have a busy day tomorrow. Yea right. I'm just going to be reading some papers for Mrs. Emily. Well that's fun in my book. I closed my eyes ready to drift off when I heard something that I knew was going to keep me up all night; Dad's snoring. Great just great, and the worst part is soon to come. Reaching over to turn my lamp on, I grabbed my notebook titled "dad's weird sleep talk". No matter how much he denies it, he does it. I don't know if I should find it amusing or should I be worried about it. It's always revolves around...
"You damn evil cat." Dad mumbled. So this is where it starts. I shake my head and write down everything he says.
"Throw the ball that's how we score idiot ."
Ok now that's different. Is he talking about the team. Maybe he's yelling at Greenberg. I wouldn't even be surprised.
"I'll kill you before I let you scratch me."
Nope he's defiantly talking about the one and only evil cat. This part of his sleep ends fairly quickly, but it's soon replaced by even louder snoring. Just block it out Jess, just block it out.
Saturday October 25
Sitting on the porch swing, I breathed in the early morning air. Every Saturday you can find me here, writing as usually. I just felt inspired sitting out here, but something was off. I felt uneasy, like somebody was watching me from a place only they knew about. I shake it off and continue with my story. It was nothing really special about the story. I would probably just end up throwing it away. After a while I can hear Dad getting up to start his morning. We're not really morning people until we have our designated drinks of the morning. Any type of tea will suit me, but Dad had to be a princess with his coffee. It has to have a certain amount of this and a splash of this bluh bluh bluh. So I just gave up making his coffee.
"Jess!" Goodbye to my quiet morning.
"Dad!" I yelled
"Jess!" He yells back coming out the kitchen's backdoor.
"Dad!"
"Why are you screaming?" He questioned taking a seat beside me.
"Why are you screaming?" I dragged out the question.
"I was screaming?"
"Dad I swear sometimes you're losing your mind."
Before he answered our coffee maker made a ding signaling that his coffee was ready. He got up making his way back inside. I can just imagine him getting the biggest cup we have and filling it with his beverage. He wandered back out taking a sip from his "I'm the Boss"' mug.
"You're not the boss of anything." I tease
"Don't be jealous because you can't strike fear into others like a real boss can." He sip his coffee.
"But Dad no one is scared of..."
"Don't step on my ego Jess."
"Fine Dad. Everyone at school trembles under your stare."
"Ooo, I like that. Maybe I should become the principal."
"If you wish."
I return to my notebook while dad slowly rocks the swing. I crossed out a few sentences feeling they failed to compare with the words around them. I was trying get this one done before Dad's birthday. Speaking of which was less than a week away.
"So Dad you never told me what you wanted for your birthday."
"Nothing." He finished off his coffee.
I gave him my "I don't believe you" look, causing him to shrug.
"Come on Dad. You love when people give you things." I bump his shoulder with mine. "What's wrong. Smile." I poked his cheeks.
"I don't know Jess. I'm getting old."
"You're not that old."
"Tell my knees that." He groaned rubbing his knees.
"Fine we can do some yoga, and we can eat healthier. We'll do anything that will make you smile."
Without saying anything he just pulled me into his side. "What will I do without you."
We sat there until It sounded like a full on battle in his stomach.
"Who's cooking breakfast?" He asked
"I cook last time."
"Well guess what, I don't care."
I stuck my tongue out at him before suggesting Rock Paper Scissors. Of course I won. Winning with a paper over his rock. This led to a lot of pots and pans clanging together and a few grumbles every once in awhile.
"Shit that hot." He yells as I guess he burned his hand on the stove.
"Be careful Dad."
I shook my head and laughed when he said this was my fault because I cheated. I swear he's a sore loser.
Not long after dad got breakfast started, that feeling of being watched came back. Out of the corner of eye I see something/someone duck behind our big wooden fence. Someone was spying on me and my dad. Well I show them something to see. As soon as I stood up, the person bolted for the forest.
"Dad I'll be right back." I yell so he could hear me from the kitchen. As soon as my feet hit the ground I ran toward the woods where I had just seen the figure disappear.
"Jess wait!" I hear my dad call out, but I was long gone.
It seemed like every time I get a glimpse of the person, there would be a tree or hill that would allow whoever it was a head start. I pushed myself to run harder, faster. As I was rounding a tree it was like the wind was knocked out of my lungs as I was slammed to the forest ground.
"Never run blindly, sweetheart." I hear the voice I dreaded the most. Starting to crouch near me was my mother. She ran her hand over my hair. I try to jerk away from her, but I was still pinned between the ground and a guy that looked to be in his early twenties. It made me even more uncomfortable because I didn't know a thing about him. Well I knew he had to be up to no good just because he was with my evil mother. I mean she's not that bad, it's just I can't forgive her for just leaving my dad and I when we needed her the most. Dad was still going through his alcohol problems, I was still new at the whole werewolf control whatever, but let's don't discuss the past because I just want to live in the present.
"Can you get off of me?"
"I could, but where's the fun in that." The guy smirked.
The way he had me pinned allowed one of my arms to be free while he had the other one. As if he read my mind, he grabbed my other arm. I got him just where wanted him. With one swift motion I was able to tuck my feet against his thighs and push them up causing him to fly over me. I arch my back and kick off the ground to flip with him so I could gain the upper hand. I landed so my legs were on either side of him. His grip on me had loosened therefore I could pull an arm loss to bring in down in a punch to his throat. I stood up pleased that I had caused him to choke. I dusted my pj off... Wait I'm still in my pajamas. Looking down I riffle some leaves that's beneath my bare feet.
"That was so cool." I look up to see a little girl with dark brown hair that looked to be in her early teen years. When I made eye contact with her she blushed and looked away.
"Mommy. I can do that too. Can I show you?" Pulling on my mom's shirt was a little girl. I would be lying to myself if I didn't say she had to be the cutest thing I've ever seen.
She seemed to stop when she noticed me smiling at her. Her already big green eyes became even bigger as she asked," can you teach me how to do that? Please!"
"To tell the truth I don't even know how I did that." I squatted as she walked to me. "What's your name cutie." I don't even know how in the world I'm being this nice, but she was just too cute to be mean to.
"I'm Olivia and that's Dawn," She pointed her little finger to the dark brunette girl." that's Eric, and that's my mom and dad."
I looked at her confused because I can only recall her and three other people.
"Nice to meet you I'm Daniel." I jumped hearing a voice behind me.
"Wow how long have you been behind me." I place my hand over my heart.
"Sorry I didn't mean to scare you," He said with a little frown on his face. "but I'm Daniel."
I shook his outstretched hand receiving a firm handshake.
"Well enough of the introductions," I turned to my mom. "Why are you here."
"I came back to see you of course." She smiled.
"You're lying. You only care about yourself. So I'm going to ask again, what are you doing here." It was more of a demand then a question.
"Once again I'm going to say I came back to see you, and I don't care for your tone."
"You know just because you are a good liar, I will never believe anything that comes out of your mouth." I was starting to loose my patience with the woman standing in front of me.
"Jessica..."
"Don't call me that, and if you had never left me, you would know I hate that name."
"Why do you hate your name." Olivia says out of curiosity.
Not losing eye contact with my mom I hissed," because she gave it to me."
"Jessica, you don't have to be mean to your mother. I understand that you're mad at her..." Daniel intervened.
"Oh no I'm not mad, I'm pissed. I guess me and my dad wasn't good enough for you. So what, you went and got a new pack. Do you know how dangerous that was for me. You left me as a weak omega." I growled. "I don't even know how you're an alpha, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to find out."
With in second she was right in my face. Her eyes had shift to her red alpha eyes.
"You know I inherited my alpha status, and don't you try to say other wise. I'm your alpha and you're going to show me some respect." I could hear her growls rumbling beneath her chest. To say the least I wasn't even scared.
"You're not my alpha." I smirked.
Her face seemed to drop after realizing that I didn't flinch at her power unlike the rest that surrounded me.
"I have to get back to the only person that actually cares about me, and if you come anywhere near my dad, so help me God I'm coming for you."
With that I turned around leaving them behind just like she did me.
A/N: Hey my readers. I just want you to know that no I haven't abandoned this story. It's been awhile, I'm really sorry. Would seeing the face claimers make you guys forgive me? (puppy dog eyes). I'll try to not make my readers wait as long next time. Have a wonderful day. Peace
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