I was almost sure I was dreaming. Actually, I was praying I was dreaming. This conversation going on around me was not one I wanted to here. I had fallen asleep on our way back from hunting. I was vaguely aware of Jacob putting me to bed, and I wrapped my arms around his neck to make him stay with me.

"I'm going to take a quick shower, I'll be back." He whispered.

It seemed like he was gone and back within seconds. "Hey, you going to sleep in here? If you are than I got the pull out. I'm not sleeping in the same room as you." Leah said sarcastically.

"Probably," Jacob whispered and tightened his arms around me. I curled into his chest even more.

"Fine," She moaned. "Hey, Jake. What are you going to do now? You going to tell her about… you-know-who?"

"Who?" Jacob asked.

"Bella." She whispered.

Was she talking about my mom? What did my mom have to do with Jacob?

Jacob's arms tightened around me even more. "I just got her, I don't want to tell her yet."

"You will have to tell her at some point in time. I mean it's not like you could help yourself. You loved Bella because that love wasn't passed on to Renesmee yet. She'll understand."

"Leah, I don't think she will."

"It was just a kiss, though. I mean you and Bella kiss now and she doesn't think anything of it."

"Not like we did before the newborn fight!" Jacob hissed.

I fought back the anger that was ready to erupt from inside me. He thought I was sleeping, so I had to stay in his arms. The same arms that once held my mother. How could he do this to me? How could she do this to me?

"If it helps at all, I don't think it was Bella you were ever after. It was always going to be Renesmee. Bella has said it to you over and over again. I've heard it in your mind. She always loved you as family. You were in love with Renesmee the entire time. I'm sure Ness will understand that."

Leah's words made sense, but I was still angry that they actually kissed. So the woman that I was competing with was my own mother. Did, Dad know about this? If he did than why was Jacob still alive? I moved to get more comfortable and I heard Jacob suck in a sharp breath.

"Go," Jacob hissed and I heard Leah walk out of the room.

We need to talk. I was too mad to use actual words. Jacob's heart skipped a beat.

"How much of that did you hear?" He whispered. His whole body was tense.

I replayed the entire conversation for him in my thoughts. He cringed under me.

"I didn't want you to find out this way. Baby, I love you with everything I have. Please know that." He begged. "I'm truly sorry that happened with Bella, but at the time I had no idea about you. I feel nothing for her now. I love her, yes, but as a friend. We've been through a lot together, but it's always been you. You are more important to me than anyone else in this world."

"Did you do anything else with her?" I mumbled against his chest. Not really wanted to know the answer.

"I told you already, I haven't done anything with anyone."

"Does my dad know?"

"Yes," Jacob breathed. "Edward and I were fighting for her, but I knew she loved Edward in a way I never understood. That is, until I saw you for the first time. When Bella was pregnant for you I wanted to stay away. It hurt too much to see her in the state she was in. I didn't understand what kept me by her side. I knew she belonged to Edward, but there I was clinging to her every breath, knowing they were numbered. She also wanted me near her. Although it was never her that was pulling me in. It was you. As soon as you were born I was too busy trying to save Bella. Her heart stopped, she was loosing too much blood. Your father handed you off to Rosalie and she took you out of the room. I thought the pull away from Bella meant that it was too late to save her. I gave up, but Edward kept working over her. I couldn't ignore the pull anymore. I walked away from Bella for what I thought was the last time." Jacob paused when he heard me sniff.

"Don't cry, I'm just getting to the best part." He kissed the top of my head.

"Her heart stopped? She actually died?" I sniffed.

"Yes, but Edward had her under control. He got you safely out and I was working to keep her heart beating. She came around as soon as you were born. She was the second one to hold you. The state she was in was horrifying, but her face lit up as soon as your father placed you in her arms." Jacob chuckled before he continued. "Of course you couldn't help yourself. You bit her. She was loosing too much blood. I never took my eyes off her face to look at you. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to my best friend." Jacob hooked his finger under my chin and lifted my face to look at him. He wiped my tears away with his thumb. "As I was saying before, the pull you had on me, dragged me downstairs. I was ready to… to leave, but Rosalie picked you up and you looked over her shoulder. Right at me." His hands moved to the sides of my face and he kissed my eyelids. "Those brown eyes held me the moment they looked at me. The exact same eyes that Bella used to look at me through. That's when I realized why I was so attached to Bella. See it wasn't my fault. It was yours." He chuckled lightly.

I rolled my eyes. Was he really going to put it on me? I wasn't going to let it go easily. I did understand why he felt the way he did, but it didn't help the fact the he was in love with my mother as some point in time. I hated myself for being so mad at her. I was aggravated at Jacob, but most of my anger was focused on the woman who already had someone else. Why did she have to want something that has always belonged to me? She had my dad! Jacob took the silence as me calming down. His body relaxed under mine. I pushed away from him and threw myself off the bed.

"Renesmee, please." Jacob begged and reached out for me.

"You promised me, Jake! You told me you wouldn't hurt me!"

"I didn't mean for you to find out this way. I was going to talk to Bella before I talk to you about it."

"How are you still alive? How did my father not kill you?"

Jacob slid to the edge of the bed and reached for my arm.

I jumped away from him.

He let his hand drop to the bed and looked down at the floor.

"He left us alone. To talk. Bella was hurting because I was going to fight. There was only one way Edward would not come after me if I… kissed her. It was ok, if she asked me. She was vulnerable and I took advantage of that. It worked like a charm. Before I knew it she was begging me to kiss her."

"STOP!" I screamed and covered my ears with my hands. "I don't want to hear anymore!" I spun to walk out of the room, but Jacob was right behind me.

"Please don't walk away from me." He begged. "I just got you, I can't lose you. It will destroy me. It will destroy you." He whispered.

He was right. There mere thought of me walking away from him tore at my heart.

"You know I didn't mean to hurt you. Bella would never do anything to hurt you like that either. If it helps she'll probably kill me herself when she finds out you know."

"Good." I growled.

Jacob chuckled then his face got serious again. "I'm truly sorry. I assure you, Renesmee Cullen, I am one hundred percent yours. No other woman will ever hold me the way you do. Please believe me."

I have never heard him talk like this before. He was always the witty, sarcastic guy. I never knew his mind was capable of thinking like this.

"This conversation is not over with." I warned him. I was too tired to argue anymore. Plus the last words Jacob spoke really hit home. My heart wasn't capable of being mad at him anymore. I'd wait and see how I felt in the morning. I still had a few words saved up for when I saw my mom.

"I'm ok with that." Jacob bent down to kiss me, but I turned my head and he kissed my cheek instead. I couldn't get the picture of his lips touching hers out of my head. He sighed, but didn't say anything. I followed him back into bed and hesitated, but let him put his arms around me. "I will apologize on my knees everyday for the rest of my life if it makes you happy." He whispered into my ear.

"You don't need to do that." I sighed.

"I would, though."

I breathed in deeply. "I know." I let the air out and closed my eyes.

When I opened them Jacob was snoring next to me. I looked at the clock and it read 3am. I stretched and yawned. I needed a glass of water, so I got up quietly and snuck out the room.

The TV was on in the living room, but I didn't see anyone watching it. I knew Leah was sleeping out here, so I left it on. I walked around the couch and screamed as I tripped over something large and furry. I landed on Quil's back and he laughed at me.

"Sorry, Quil." I whispered. I figured he wanted to be connected to the others. Luckily the place was big enough to hold a wolf his size.

"Nessie?" I heard Jacob calling for me.

Quil yelped lightly and Leah rolled over on the pull out couch. "Shut up, Quil." She mumbled.

"What happened?" Jacob asked when he saw me still laying across Quil.

"I wanted a drink. I didn't see him."

"How could you not?" Jacob laughed and bent over to help me up.

"Wasn't paying attention to a werewolf on the floor."

"I'll get you a glass of water. Go back to bed." He leaned in to kiss me, but I turned away once again. This time he didn't settle for my cheek. He sighed and walked around me.

Quil's eyes widened then narrowed as he watched me. I wonder who he was talking about me to. He had to have heard that conversation in the bedroom earlier. Who else knew now? I suddenly felt aggravated that he was capable of talking about me to the others with me standing right in front of him. I wasn't sure if it would work with me just putting my thoughts in his head, so I bent down and took Quil's massive head in my hands. He huffed and looked into my eyes.

All of you better stop talking about me! I see it in Quil's eyes. Cut it out! I'll hunt all of you down. Don't know who is out there to listen to me, but I'm not going to say it again. You know how my parents get when they get angry? Well, I can combine their anger and unleash it on you! That's all goodnight. I took my hands off Quil's face and he stared at me. "Did they hear?" I asked him.

He nodded his head yes and I smiled.

"Good." I patted his head and kissed the side of his head. "See ya." I said just as Jacob walked back into the living room.

"You feeling better?" Jacob asked after I sipped at my water.

"Fine," I said coldly and handed him my glass before rolling over and closing my eyes again.

"I'm so, so sorry." He whispered. "I would take it all back if I could."

I pretended I couldn't here him.

"I love you with all my heart." He sounded like he was on the verge of tears. Good. Serves him right to be upset.

"Shh!" I hissed. "Sleeping here."

"Do you want me to leave?" Jacob asked. He sounded more upset than he was before.

I felt him sit up when I didn't answer him. I couldn't let him walk out of the room. The stupid ties between us pulled at my heart as he walked away.

"Wait," I whispered. "Do you love her?"

"As if she was my sister, yes." Jacob said confidently. "But I'm in love with you." He flashed me my favorite crooked smile.

I sat up and smiled back. I watched Jacob walk swiftly towards me. He climbed onto the foot of the bed and crawled up to me. Stopping when he was leaning over me. I bit my lip and brought my arms up to wrap them around his neck. His breath swept across my face. I could taste his scent on my tongue. I leaned back on my pillow and pulled him down with me. Our lips met and I forgot everything I was upset about. I forgot my name.