Find Yourself
The muse kind of stalled in this chapter so I hope it lives up to everyone's expectations. Anyway still don't own either fandom though I did get buzzed on white wine while watching glee on New Years Eve….
As she approached the music room she sucked in one final deep breath before closing her eyes and taking in a brief moment of Zen.
"I can do this," she spoke to herself as she entered the music room and casually began to look around the room.
Standing in the middle of the room were two girls who looked equally as nervous as she was, one of whom was holding the hand of a guy she didn't recognize. There was a second guy she didn't recognize who sat down between two young women dressed in cheerleading uniforms. There was Rachel and Finn playing footsie though she could see Finn wasn't as into it a Rachel was. Kurt, Artie, Tina, and Mercedes were clumped together in a cluster. And the she spotted him.
"I guess he wasn't sick after all," Kristina thought to herself as she spotted Noah sitting closest to the front table where Mr. Schuster and a young blonde girl sat.
At three PM precisely Rachel got up and closed the door to the room while Mr. Schuster took the floor.
"Ok, so the reason we are holding these auditions midway through the school year is that we need twelve performers for Regionals and so we need an alternate to take Quinn's place for the interim."
Rachel decided to cut the teacher off.
"It's not like you're an alternate you'd be an integral part of our little family and when we make it to Nationals we can definitely have thirteen performers so don't worry about being cut."
The teacher looked over to the girl in a sweet yet stern gaze causing her to nod before sitting back down.
"Anyway the procedure will be as follows. The three of you ladies will each draw a number and that will be the order in which you sing. When you are all done the club will take it to a vote."
Kristina and the other two girls nodded as they each pulled out a card.
Looking at the card that she picked Kristina rolled her eyes as she began to head to the door.
"What number did you get Kristina," Kurt whispered as she passed him.
As she held up three fingers Kurt was reminded of Sectionals when Rachel said that the best place to be in any performance was first or last and seeing as how they were last and they won sectionals he definitely thought it was rather good karma for his new friend.
"Good," he said smiling as he watched her leave.
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Waiting in the hallway she was beginning to worry. Was the fact that she personally knew the majority of the members of New Directions be a blessing on a curse. If she got in would the other two girls think it was a bag job or if she didn't make it would it distance her friendships? So many questions ran through her head as she tried to focus. It would be just her luck she'd forget all the words and blow the whole thing.
"Kristina," Rachel said peeking out the door after what seemed like an eternity.
Sucking in another deep cleansing breath she entered the room.
"Break a leg," the other brunette said before taking her seat again.
Kristina smiled as she popped on her CD and prepared to perform her song.
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your hometown
All eyes were on her every move not that she knew. She was so nervous that she decided it best to mentally block out the other occupants in the music room and pretend she was alone in her bedroom singing around to the radio and to just have fun with it.
Her methods seemed to be paying off.
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Finishing the song she was greeted by a round of applause from the gang, which was music to her ears.
She took a seat on one of the three chairs that were now set up on the opposite side of the room from the rest of the club as the other two girls were lead back inside.
"Ok," Mr. Schuster said, "now we are taking it to a vote."
He handed each of the twelve students a slip of paper to write the name of the girl they liked the most down. Soon the papers were returned and he began to read off the names that were written.
"First vote goes to Kristina….and the next Kristina… and the next Kristina."
In fact of the twelve members of the club seven of them voted for Kristina while four votes went to the one girl that she had spotted holding hands with one of the boys from the club and one vote went to the other girl.
"Ok so Kristina you are now the newest member of New Directions."
She was greeted by applause as Kurt patted the free seat to his side for Kristina to move over to sit at.
"I knew you could knock it out of the park Krissy," Kurt whispered to her as she sat.
Smiling she looked back at him.
"I couldn't of done it without an excellent coach," she replied back before Mr. Schuster once again took the floor.
"So Kristina, we usually meet Tuesday and Thursday afternoons, sometimes more if we are in the midst of learning a new routine or are gearing up for a performance."
Kristina nodded making a mental note to add glee practice into her date book.
The teacher talked some more about how he was thinking of setting up a showcase sometime in February for them to perform for the school and Rachel and him began to banter back and forth about some odd thing like they were old pros before he dismissed the group saying he'd see them again as a group on Tuesday afternoon.
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The room had begun to clear out now as her lab partner approached where Kristina was still seated with Kurt still by her side.
Rolling his eyes a bit thinking about the promise he had made to her kid sister the young man simply stared at his friend.
"I'll be waiting in the hall with Mercedes."
Kristina nodded thinking about how earlier that day they had all decided that weather Kristina made it in or not that she Kurt and Mercedes would hang out together after school at Kurt's father's garage.
"Hey Kristina," Puck spoke when the coast was clear.
"Hey," she spoke as she smiled at him, "so, is the reason you skipped out on chemistry today your way of trying to hold back your dirty little secret."
He stood there in shock wondering if she had found out about baby gate before realizing that the secret that she was referring to was the fact that he was in glee.
Grinning back at her he knew that soon she would know all about the drama that went down, as glee was a close knit albeit dysfunctional and borderline incestuous family however today would not be the day.
"No, I had a doctors appointment," he said which wasn't a lie. That morning he had skipped out of his first two classes in order to take Quinn to her OBGYN appointment and once again he begged her to look into keeping the child or having an open adoption especially since the whole deal with Mr. Schuster's soon to be ex wife fell through.
"Anyway about me missing class today that's actually why I came over.."
He paused nervously running his hand through his Mohawk.
"Well that and to congratulate you again personally."
Kristina was flattered by this gesture though her heart was still conflicted as she pondered weather or not it was too soon after Kiefer to pursue a relationship and if it was soon enough if it would be wise to choose Noah Puckerman or should she go the safer route and choose Artie Abrams.
"Here," Kristina said reaching into her pocket and pulling out a small piece of notebook paper she had been doodling on while she was in the hall waiting to audition, "write down your e-mail and I'll send you a copy of my notes to print out."
"You don't have to type them up just for me, I can just borrow your notebook and copy them myself."
Kristina shook her head.
"It wouldn't be an imposition, I type my notes up every night."
He shrugged as he wrote down his address.
"So see you tomorrow."
Kristina nodded.
"Tomorrow," she replied as she headed out of the classroom to be greeted with Kurt's sweet concerning gaze.
"So what was that encounter all about," he asked.
"He wanted to congratulate me and to ask to borrow my chemistry notes from today."
Kurt just nodded taking her with one arm and Mercedes with his other and headed out of the school.
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TBC
Hope you all liked it. I don't know, maybe I'll do a time jump soon I don't know… anyway thanks for reading and reviewing.