I feel my eyes rollin' deep inside my head
And there's a feeling of misconception in the air
Yeah, I'm startin' to see
Rattle Snake Smile ~ Christian Kane
Katie lay on the other side of the bed, her back to him. He sat down, studying her silently, and feeling guilt for what he had said to her. He could hear her attempting to stifle her crying and he wished he could take back his words.
"I'm sorry," he said, placing his hand on her arm. "I shouldn't have said what I did."
She turned to face him and her expression broke his heart. She wiped her eyes and stared at him until guilt made him look away. "I…just can't stand what he did to you and to John. This isn't about money or the ranch. He killed John and the thought of him touching you…" His voice trailed off.
Then she climbed into his lap, wrapping her arms around him and burying her face in his neck. "But I can't lose you. I'd rather let the mob take him out and you be safe from him. Don't you get that?"
"I know," he whispered. "But you have to let me do what I do. This is why I didn't want us to get involved. You can't handle me at my worst."
"You've killed before." Once again, it was a statement, not a question. "I get that. But I don't want you to kill for me. Does that make sense?"
"Would you rather me kill for money or for the pleasure of it?"
She shook her head.
"I'm not a hired killer if that's what you're thinking," he sighed.
Katie leaned back to look at him in surprise. "I know that. You couldn't kill someone in cold blood." Running her hands down his face, she said, "And I know you'd never hurt me. I don't think you'd ever kill someone if you had any other option. But I'm afraid if you kill Thomas…you'll cross that line between necessity and revenge. I don't want that and neither would John."
She took his hands in hers and kissed his fingertips. "Please…don't let this change you. Don't let Thomas make you a cold-blooded killer."
Eliot's heart tightened and he nodded. She was right; he was letting the rage take over and was hurting her in the process.
Eliot brushed her hair back and brought his lips to her ear before whispering, "If he ever hurts you again…"
"He won't unless he does something to you."
"You need to stop worrying about me, darlin'," he shushed her. "I'm not the one in danger. I'm going to be fine, okay?"
Katie wrapped her arms around him, burying her face in his neck. He held her tightly, letting the comforting smell of her fill his senses. After a few moments, she started raining hot kisses on his neck, her tongue moving in lazy circles against his skin. His hands lowered to her waist and he shifted her so they could lie down on their sides, face to face.
Her lips teased his before submitting to an intense kiss, his tongue plunging into the hot depths of her mouth. After a few moments she pushed him on his back, straddling his waist and whispered, "Almost every time we've been together, it's been so rushed. It's always so passionate and intense. But tonight I just want to slow down and savor each and every moment."
He sat up and let her remove his shirt then lay back allowing her run her hands over his chest and stomach. Her fingers lingered lightly on his scars before she leaned forward to trace each one with her tongue. She didn't ask questions, which he appreciated. She just accepted them as part of him. Her teeth gazed his nipple as he moved his hands to her shirt.
Since she wouldn't let him sit up, Katie removed her t-shirt before resuming her leisurely exploration of his chest. She dragged her finger nails up and down his sides, giving him goose-bumps. She slid along his body, moving lower with her mouth and nibbling lightly on the ticklish side of his belly causing him to smile before she trailed her tongue from his belly button down the dark trail of hair. She stopped at his waist then moved up again. He tangled his fingers in her hair with one hand.
When she kissed her way back to his mouth, she gently bit on his lip before licking it, teasing him. Eliot kissed along her chin and throat, moving his tongue in small circles against her tender flesh. Hands moving up her back, he urged her to lie all the way down on him, pressing her breasts against him. Both moaned at the contact of their bodies.
Her breathing quickened as his mouth moved lower down her throat, her fingers clutching his biceps. He raised his head to kiss her again, slowly exploring her mouth as her tongue moved against his. Her long red hair fell forward across his face, filling his senses with vanilla and some type of berry. The smell was more heavenly to him than any fancy perfume that women seemed to revel in.
He pushed her hair out of her face and she was watching him intensely with her bright green eyes.
"Your eyes are amazing," she whispered, her voice airy. "I feel like they stare straight into my soul."
"No, just your beautiful face," he chuckled before growing serious. "But I feel like I know your soul now, like I'm somehow part of it." He kissed her full lips, sucking her bottom lip in between his.
Lowering his arms, he wrapped them around her and rolled them both over so he was on top, careful not to put all his weight on her.
"My turn," he smiled before lowering his mouth to her shoulder, bracing himself with one hand while the other cupped her breast.
His thumb circled her nipple before rolling it between his fingers. She moaned softly, her hands gliding down his back before resting at his waist. Wanting full access to her body, he slid to the side, his leg still draped over hers. Katie raised her arms to rest over her head. He lazily kissed and licked his way lower while caressing her breasts. They were the perfect size, not too large but so full and obviously real with pale pink delightfully hardened nipples. He growled low in his throat when he sucked her other nipple into his mouth, lashing it with his tongue, as she sucked in her breath, her body straining towards him.
Katie pulled his hair from the ponytail, running her fingers through it before he trailed some of it across her, causing goose bumps to rise on her skin. Straddling her, on his knees, he lowered his mouth to the other breast, teasing her. She arched up to him with a soft moan then he felt her hands on his belt.
"Slow, baby, remember?" he murmured, a quick smile on his face before he resumed his torture.
Eliot finally allowed her to unfasten his belt as his jeans had become painfully tight. When she unbuttoned the top button, he unzipped them before rising up. He climbed off the bed to undress before grabbing the waist band of her shorts and panties. When she lifted her butt to let him pull them off, he dipped his tongue down to taste her, causing her to gasp.
As soon as she was completely naked, his gaze traveled hotly over the length of her body before he climbed onto the bed again. He ran his hand under her leg and began kissing the inside of her thigh. She had a long thin scar on her leg that he wondered about briefly. Katie sat up and began kissing any part of him that she could reach. He moved between her legs and continued to slide his tongue across her skin as his hand moved up her stomach, pushing her back to lie down again. Eliot pulled her leg over his shoulder when he opened her fully and lowered his mouth to her hot sex. She squirmed when he barely flicked his tongue against her, teasing her. She dug her heel into his back, urging him closer but he began kissing and licking her other thigh instead making her moan in frustration.
When she dug her nails into his shoulders roughly, Eliot stopped teasing and began pleasing. Katie arched up to his mouth as he drove his tongue into her. Within minutes he had her wriggling around and moaning. He loved how she never held back her pleasure, always letting him know exactly what she wanted and when. Her honesty was a refreshing change for him, having dealt with more women that tried to control him by playing games. Katie flirted with dominance enough to get him hot but she was more submissive, giving in to his control. She pulled his hair which only turned him on even more and he moved his hand between her legs sliding two fingers into her at once. He curled his fingers a bit and hit her g-spot, making her buck up to his mouth.
"Oh my god!" she moaned when he finally pushed her to the edge. As soon as he sensed she was about to come, he moved his fingers more while sucking on her clit, keeping her at the peak. She tugged his hair harder and he moaned. Right when she came, he moved quickly up her body, holding her leg high.
Eliot sank his cock into her as she tightened around him, her inner muscles rippling up and down his cock. He bit back a moan, moving in slow easy strokes keeping her close to the edge. Pulling her other leg up higher he moved his hands under her butt, lifting her up to him.
"Oh…stop…just a minute…" she stammered, visibly trying to regain control but he wouldn't let her. It had never felt so incredible and he wasn't going to stop.
Katie panted, her eyes delving into him and he felt her come again. He continued thrusting into her in slow full strokes, lowering her legs. He brought his fingers to her mouth, brushing them against her lips, allowing her to taste herself. She sucked his fingers into her mouth making him moan. She rose up on her elbows and he leaned forward to kiss her, his tongue swirling against hers before darting deep inside her mouth.
When he released her lips, Katie lowered her gaze and breathlessly watched his cock sinking into her. Eliot felt her grow even more aroused. She bent her knees, spreading her thighs further apart so she could watch him thrusting into her. She licked her lips and glanced up at him through her lashes before returning her gaze to his cock, now glistening wet. He couldn't help but watch either.
When Katie finally stopped tightening around him, Eliot withdrew and sat up. Swinging his legs off the side of the bed and wrapping his arm around her waist, he lifted her up easily so she sat on his lap her back pressed against his chest. When he entered her again, she was so scorching hot he growled, biting down on her shoulder.
"Do you still want me to stop?" he asked, running his tongue along her ear.
"God no," she exclaimed, bringing his hands to her breasts. He let her set the pace while he caressed her breasts, kissing and nibbling on her shoulder and neck. His heart pounded in his chest and his breathing was erratic. She moved fluidly, like a dancer giving him the best lap dance he'd ever had, including professional strippers. But he knew with her, none of it was for show – this was all honest to God wide-open passion and pleasure. And he couldn't get enough of her. He was so close to the edge but he didn't want it to end so he held her firmly, not allowing her to move for a few minutes.
He bit back a moan when she massaged him from the inside. With one fluid movement, he grabbed her waist and flipped them both over, so she was face down on the bed. She dug her fingers into the sheets, turning her head to the side, and his movements increased. Katie began a new rhythm when she moved her hips in little circles while still pressing back to meet his thrusts. He gripping her firm ass tightly, putting his weight on his knees. Brushing her hair off her back with his other hand, he saw the tattoo at the base of her neck for the first time. He leaned forward to look closer and smirked when he saw it was an angel shedding her wings.
"Are you shedding your wings, sweetheart?" he murmured close to her ear. "Enjoying the freedom?"
Her voice a sultry drawl, she replied, "You seem to have a pretty good control of me right now."
"Do I?" he smirked, moving his hips to grind into her a few times. Katie, breathless, clutched the bed but her body moved back to him.
"Do I control this perfect ass?" he lowered his hand to push her ass down hard, grinding into her again.
She nodded, unable to speak. He slapped her ass, hard enough to test her but not hurt her.
Katie tensed and cut her eyes towards him. "You've wanted to do that for awhile now, haven't you?"
He spanked her other cheek. Smirking, he answered, "You have no idea."
"How's your bull riding?" she asked. "Keep it up and I'm going to find out."
Eliot chuckled under his breath then spanked her two times, a little bit harder. He felt her try to push him off her but he knew she was pinned with nowhere to go. "Apparently, pretty damn good." Following another swat to her reddening butt, he slid out of her almost completely before easing into her teasingly slow. "Want me to tell you what else I want to do to this ass?"
"You wouldn't dare…"
"Dare me then." He chuckled. The thought made him even harder though so he stopped teasing her. Even though the view was wonderful from behind, he wanted to be able to see her face so he reluctantly withdrew. Leaning down, he ran his tongue up her spine and she shivered.
"Roll over baby," he whispered, and she did. But she pushed him back so he was sitting on his knees then she climbed on top of him. Wrapping his arms around her waist he felt her slide over his cock and moaned. She watched him as they moved together slowly. Bringing his hand up to hold her neck, his thumb stroking her jaw, he kissed her passionately, his tongue moving in the same slow movements as his cock.
Katie's hands grasp his upper arms and she whimpered in his mouth. When he looked into her face, she purred, "I love your body, knowing you could take anything I dish out. And these arms…" she lowered her mouth to his bicep biting down into his bulging muscles. She smiled and continued. "were made for holding me. You should forget about inflicting pain on others and concentrate on using this body…" Her hands moved down his chest and stomach slowly before digging her nails into his legs. "to pleasure me."
"I can do both," he smirked. "But can you handle both sides of me?"
"I don't want you to change who you are. I'll just have to learn to share you unless you're willing to be a kept man," she smiled. "But I know…you'll always be a wild horse and I won't ever try to break you."
Moving close, she sang softly in his ear, "Wild horses couldn't drag me away. Wild, wild horses, we'll ride them someday."
Eliot felt like she had reached in and just grabbed his heart. For her to willingly accept him for what he was with no attempt to change or control him, blew his mind.
"I can't promise you much," he whispered. "But I know that…that I don't want any other woman."
"That's all I need. You're all I need." She caressed his face as she kissed him softly. "You don't have to be afraid that we'll break each other. I know you're worried you'll hurt me but you won't destroy me so let's just enjoy this ride together, with no regrets."
Eliot nuzzled his face into her neck as he continued to move into her, at an unhurried pace. He noticed when she started a different, faster rhythm as she rode him. He moved his arms down around her back again, holding her tightly to him. Katie reached up and grabbed his hair roughly as she bit his lip. Her lips then crashed into his, sucking his bottom lip. Then she aggressively sucked his tongue into her mouth and both of them moaned at the same time.
"Eliot…fuck me, now," she demanded, as she twisted his hair around her fingers and pulled harder.
What started out so sweet, ended up turning wild. He threw her on her back, following after and slammed into her hard. She kept a firm grip on his hair with one hand while the other dug her nails deeply into his ass. He growled low in his throat, his thrusts speeding up. She started to scream his name but he quickly muffled her voice with his mouth crashing into hers. When she came he was surprised she didn't rip his hair out or break through the skin on his ass.
Deep down he felt it building, filling every inch of his body. Eliot moved faster, the need for release too strong now. And he surrendered to it, welcomed the total lack of control, knowing she would take it all.
Afterwards he collapsed face down on the bed beside her, his arm draped across her waist. They both were breathing heavily but he looked up to see her watching him with a grin.
"You need to do that at least two more times tonight so you just rest for a minute," she smirked before leaning down and biting his ass.
Eliot grunted when she climbed on his back. "Give me at least five minutes, Katie. And you getting on my back ain't gonna work. I'm talented, but not that talented."
She chuckled and began to massage his back. "I'm helping you relax."
After a moment, he said, "You're going to put me to sleep if you keep doing that." He smiled. "That might make it more difficult for me to repeat the show."
She was quiet for a minute before she asked him, "Speaking of shows, you don't think Hardison would put cameras in here do you?"
"I'd break his fuckin' neck so no, I don' think he's that stupid."
"Dammit," she muttered.
He furrowed his brow. "You want Hardison to watch us?"
A slight pause before she leaned forward and whispered, "Actually I was just thinking of keeping a tape of this. But why not? Hell, he can join us."
Momentarily stunned, Eliot didn't say anything until he felt her laughing. When she threw in, "Bring Nate too," she lost her battle fighting her laughter and he shook his head.
"One man show. But if you want to bring another woman…"
"Hell no!" She smacked his butt. "I don't share. Besides, you're going to be too busy keeping me happy."
"Just so you know…I don't do weird kinky shit. I won't dress in your clothes. We're not going to have orgies or swapping on the weekend. Nor am I going to let you put a collar around my neck and whip me. So any of those fantasies…ain't happening," he mumbled, half to himself.
"I prefer you wearing nothing. And I don't play well with others but the collar…that could be fun. Can I tie you up?" she asked curiously.
"I'll tie you up if you want," he offered. "In fact…"
"No – not tonight," she laughed. "But I'd let you. You own me, remember."
"I'm going to get an iron and brand you if you don't behave," he warned with a chuckle. "Maybe I'll get you a collar. But I'd much prefer you in some skimpy little lace thing that I can tear off you with my teeth."
"Now that can be arranged," she laughed, returning to giving him a back massage.
They made love again, neither one able to get enough of the other, until nearly dawn. Katie fell asleep, nestled in his arms and he watched her contently. If they made it through today, he wanted to take her away for a few weeks. He needed to see her happy. If he never saw tears on her face again, it would suit him fine. As if she sensed him watching her, she smiled sleepily.
"I love you," she whispered half asleep, snuggling closer. He smiled and kissed her tenderly. This felt too good, too perfect. It was almost possible to forget about later that day. Almost. But the thought that something might go wrong today made Eliot lay awake watching her sleep.
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Katie opened her eyes slowly a couple of hours later, then smiled seeing Eliot already awake. "Waking up to you almost makes up for what's about to happen today. Did you sleep at all?"
"Not really," he admitted. He seemed tired but very much on edge.
She ran her fingers through his hair pulling him to her for a kiss. "You should have woken me up."
Trailing his fingers down her face, he smiled, a tired but sweet smile. She kissed him again and let him hold her tightly. She loved his arms. They made her feel so secure. He'd always been good looking and had a great body but it was more than that. God, she had fallen so hard for him. She felt sure her father was probably laughing from heaven. The thought made her giggle.
"What?" he asked, amused.
"I was just thinking what daddy would say about us if he were here."
"Here, in this room? Oh hell no!" he looked horrified at the thought.
"You know what I mean," she smiled, straddling his chest. "I think he'd be really happy about this. He thought the world of you."
"I don't think your daddy would want his little girl with someone like me."
"Dammit!" Katie smacked him on the chest. "Stop that shit. Quit trying to push me away by telling me how 'bad' you are."
"I'm just saying…" he protested before she silenced him with her fingers over his lips.
"Shut the hell up okay?" she shook her head. "You're the most stubborn man I know and that's saying a lot."
When she removed her fingers from his lips, he caught them with his teeth as his eyes traveling over her body making her feel hot. Her gaze traveled to the clock. Eliot began moving to stand up and she attempted to get off him but he lifted her into his arms instead. He grinned wickedly as he carried her into the bathroom. "We both need showers so let's save some time."
"I have an idea what we can do with the extra time," she whispered as he lowered her feet to the floor. Her hands ran down his back and squeezed his nice firm butt.