I walked into my grandfather and Sue's house and slumped down onto the couch. Jacob wondered into the kitchen as my grandpa threw me the phone.
"Call your mother." He insisted.
I tossed the phone onto the couch, laying my head back. "She won't answer." I sighed heavily.
"Why not?" He asked, picking up the phone and sitting next to me. His hand patted my knee.
"Because it's either my dad screaming at her for sending me off without her coming, too, or she's busy trying to keep Derek from killing everyone in Boston…." I trailed off when I heard my father talking into the phone.
"Hey, Bells, I just wanted to let you know Nessie got here ok. I guess I'll have her give you a call later tonight." He looked at me and hung up the phone. "Voicemail," he shrugged.
I smiled and patted his arm. "Told ya."
"Ok, so you did," he paused as he stared at my face. "Here," he handed me the phone again. "Call Claire and Alyssa. I'm sure they are anxious to hear from you."
"Maybe later," I push the phone away from me. "I'm tired." I lied. I just wanted to be left alone.
"Leah's room," Sue called from in the kitchen. "I set up a bed for you."
"Wonderful," I groaned, too quiet for her to hear. I already missed my own room, my own bed, and my own bathroom. Here I had to share it all. Why couldn't I stay in Boston and they take Derek somewhere else.
I wondered into Leah's room and stepped over Alyssa's mattress on the floor. The room was just big enough to hold Leah's bed and the two twin mattress on the floor. Great. A twin mattress. I don't think I ever slept on a twin size bed. I collapsed, face first, on my tiny mattress. I didn't want to hold in the tears anymore. I hated myself for wishing I just let Derek die naturally. But he was taking my family from me. I'm not used to being pushed aside. I was beginning to realize sharing my parents was not going to be an easy thing for me. Maybe things will go back to normal when Derek calmed down.
"Ness," Jacob knocked lightly on the door.
I quickly wiped my cheeks dry before he walked in. "Yeah?" My voice shook.
"I brought you something to eat. You haven't eaten all day." He said as he walked into the room. He sat down on my mattress, placing a plate of re-heated pizza between us.
I scrunched up my nose. "No thank you." I took the plate and placed in on what little floor was left, and laid my head on Jacob's lap. His hands immediately moved to my hair and I closed my eyes.
"Why so glum?" He said softly.
"I miss home."
Jacob snorted and I turned my head to look up at him.
"What?" I snapped.
"Sorry they can't provide you with the five star luxuries your parents give you at home…" Jacob trailed off as he smiled down at me. How did he know I was thinking that?
I shifted so I was leaning over his lap, half sitting up to get a better look of his face. "You're thinking of something that could get us in trouble," the smile slowly spread across my lips. "Tell me!" I urged.
"Let's go hunting and we'll stop at the Cullen house."
I didn't answer him. I shut the bedroom door and changed quickly.
"I take that as a yes." Jacob smiled as he watched me change.
"Come on!" I tugged at his arm. He followed me through the small house and I stopped when my grandfather and Sue looked at us from the couch.
"Where are you off to?" My grandpa asked.
"Ness needs to hunt," Jacob said quickly.
"Oh, well… ok then." My grandpa shifted uncomfortably.
Jacob pushed lightly on my lower back. I hurried out the door and he took my hand leading my into the forest. He stood, listening for a moment. Then stripped down, kissed me, and stepped back to phase. I stood wide-eyed. This was the first time Jacob actually stripped down in front of me to phase. I've seen him phase before, but it included his clothes ripping to shreds around him. I had to admit, I liked this way better.
Jacob took in the look on my face and barked a deep laugh. "Shut it." I blushed. He licked my cheek and leaned down so I could climb on his back.
He turned to run deeper into the woods, but I tugged on his fur. "Can we go to the house first?" Before I finished the question, Jacob threw himself into a sprint towards my old house. He leaped into the clearing of the cottage.
"Stop!" I yelled. I wrapped my arms around his neck so I wouldn't be thrown off his back when he stopped short. I slid off and he whimpered.
"I haven't been here in so long. Just give me a minute." I rolled my eyes.
He nodded and I watched his ears turn as he listened to whatever was around us. He laid down in the grass and I turned to jog into the house.
Everything was exactly the same. The furniture was still here, but the shelves were bare. I swiped my finger across the TV screen, wiping the dust off. I could just smell the scent of my parents. It was faded and weighed down by the dust in the air, but it was still here. I wondered down the small hall and opened my bedroom door. It creaked open, the sound echoing off the bare walls. My bed and some toys I left behind were buried in cobwebs.
"Yeah," I snorted. "My abandoned bed is bigger than the one I'm sleeping on, and I had this when I was a child." I grumbled, picturing the mattress on Leah's bedroom floor.
Jacob barked impatiently outside and I walked out of my room. I decided not to look into my parents bedroom. I missed them too much already. I could tell by just walking passed their closed door that their scent was stronger in there.
"Ok, Mr. Impatient." I smiled walking up to Jacob. "I just wanted to look."
He nodded once again and we hurried towards the big house.
"This looked like someone was living in it." I whispered as I slid off his back. I walked into the meadow and looked up at the clean windows on the front of the house.
I heard Jacob phase behind me, he stepped out of the forest, wrapping his arm around my waist, pulling me back into the shadow of the trees.
"I hear someone inside." He hissed in my ear.
"Who?" I hissed. I listened closely, but didn't hear anything that sounded bad.
"They're cleaning," Jacob snorted. "Of course they would have cleaners keeping the place looking spotless."
"Hmm," I groaned. "My cottage isn't clean."
"I know, I can smell the dust on you."
I heard the door open and turned to see two women step out. They hurried around the side of the house and I heard a car start. As soon as they were out of sight, Jacob took me in his arms. He ran towards the house. He went directly up to my old room. My back pressed against the closed door as Jacob's lips moved hungrily over mine. I could hear his hand moving frantically over the door, trying to find the doorknob. When he did, he stumbled forward, keeping me tight against him.
My shirt was gone before my back hit the bed. Jacob knelt over me, his eyes roaming over my body. I waited for myself to blush, but I didn't. I had nothing to hide with him, I wanted him to know every part of me. That was exactly what he did. His fingertips grazed over my skin. He started at my forehead and stopped at my toes. I giggled when he ran one finger along the bottom of my foot. His face stayed serious as he moved back up my body. His lips replaced his fingers on his way up to my lips. I sighed, relieved when his lips finally found mine.
He broke the kiss to trail his lips up my jaw to my ear. "You're beautiful, Renesmee. How, how can someone so perfect even want to belong to me?" He whispered into my ear.
"You're not so bad yourself." I smiled, trailing my fingertips along his torso.
"No," he mumbled against my skin just below my ear. "Not one thing in this world can be compared to you."
"Well, that's your opinion, not every man in this world thinks the same." I shivered as his lips moved along my collarbone.
"Well, this body," he sat up, still kneeling over me, and slid his hands down my sides, stopping when he reached my hips. He looked into my eyes before continuing. "Doesn't belong to every man in this world. So my opinion is the only one that matters." He had a point.
I sat up, wrapping my arms around his neck. He took in the look on my face.
"What's wrong?" He reached between us to touch the frown on my face.
I smiled, bringing my lips to his neck. "You sat up. You were too far away from me."
Jacob moaned and we were done talking for the moment.
"You want to hunt now?" Jacob traced the dark circles under my eyes.
"No," I groaned, pressing myself into his side. I didn't want to move. We didn't have to move.
"I don't want to either, but it's going to be dark soon and Charlie is going to be suspicious. I don't want the packs to come looking for us either."
"Can we come back? When everyone is sleeping. I don't want to stay in that house. I want to stay here. With you."
Jacob kissed my lips softly. "Whatever you want."
That motivated me to get up. I would be back in his arms in a few hours. I could handle that. Maybe.
I hunted in the familiar forest. It was easy to get around. I remembered where the mountain lions roamed. After my second one, Jacob insisted I got back to my grandfathers house.
"Where have you been?" My grandpa asked frantically as soon as I walked through to front door.
"Hunting."
"Ok, well, you're mother called four times already. I'm not going to lie, she wasn't happy I let you two go off alone. Is there something I should know?" My grandpa was glaring at Jacob. I now understood where my mom got that look from.
"No, grandpa. I'll call her right now." I turned to hug Jacob. "Good night." I smiled, then put my thoughts into his mind. I remembered our night, lingering on my favorite parts.
"Ha!" Jacob laughed once, shifting uncomfortably. He cleared his throat and turned for the door. "Good night." He said and shut the door behind him.
"Nessie! You're back." Alyssa hurried into the living room.
"I'm going to call Mom in Leah's room. Night, Grandpa." I kissed his cheek, said goodnight to Sue and dragged Alyssa into Leah's room.
I stopped short when I saw Leah tying her leather band around her ankle. "Hey," she smiled at us.
"Hi," I smiled back.
"I'm going back out to run. Seth should be back soon. And I heard Jacob's thoughts before." Leah leaned towards me to whisper. "This goes against the grain, you know, since I'm technically your aunt, but I will be back before Jacob comes to pick you up. I'll be in my room all night and I'll cover for you if Charlie comes to check on you."
"Wow, Leah, thanks."
She shrugged and winked at me. "It gets me my room back. Of course I'm going to cover for you. Alyssa goes into Seth's room when he comes home from patrol."
I looked at Alyssa and she shrugged.
"See you later." Leah said and walked out of her room. I heard her saying goodbye to my grandpa and Sue.
"You sleep with Seth?" I hissed, pulling Alyssa down on her mattress. Calling my mom was going to have to wait. I rolled onto my mattress, waiting for her to answer me.
"It's hard. Knowing he's in the same house, but not next to me."
"Oh, trust me, I know."
"So, were you really hunting?" Alyssa laid on her stomach, matching me, so our faces were only inches apart.
"Yes," I giggled, then shrugged. "Well, we only just went hunting."
"No way!" Alyssa squeaked.
I nodded. "But that's not the best part." I watched her jaw drop and laughed. "He asked me to marry him."
"What did you say?"
"Hello! I said yes, but not until after I graduate…" I looked down at my hands. The excitement drained from my face. Derek would never graduate.
"Was the accident scary?" Alyssa whispered. Knowing why my mood changed.
I nodded. Tears filling my eyes. "I think I made a mistake."
"No," she shook her head. "He'll be ok. I know it." She sighed heavily, rolling onto her back, starring at the ceiling. "It's not fair." She huffed.
"What's not fair."
"What happened to Derek. I think I'm some sick, horrible person. I wish I wasn't out with Seth that night. I wish I was in that car too. I wish it was me having to be changed. It's not fair."
"You don't mean that." I whispered.
She sat up to look at me, her expression determined. "Oh, I mean it. Ness, Derek is a part of our family more than I am! He's tied to you through venom. Me, I'm just a stupid human who happens to live with a family of vampires."
"Aunt Alice and Uncle Jasper," I pointed out. "They were not changed by Grandpa."
"So, they're vampires, right?"
"Yes, but--"
"No buts, Renesmee, Derek is living my dream right now and I hate him for it. I don't care that he's some blood crazed newborn. I want to be one too."
"What about Seth?"
"He likes vampires."
"Right, but do you know how hard it's going to be for you to be with him? You talked to my dad. He told you how it was for him to be with my mom when she was human--"
"It's not going to be hard for me."
"And what about kids? Don't you want to have them?"
Alyssa looked down at her hands. "Yes," she mumbled. "But I can have them and then be changed. Seth is ok with it. He understands how I feel."
"He will go for anything you want. He's going to make you happy before himself." Alyssa stared at me as if I just told her I killed her cat.
"He wants this for me, too!"
"Sure, he wants the love of his life to become a crazed killer. It's his lifelong dream."
"Shut up, Renesmee!" Alyssa snapped. She grabbed her clothes and stormed towards the bathroom.
I felt bad for getting her mad at me, but what I said was true. I decided to focus my thoughts on Jacob until I could see him again.