Chapter 4: The Results

DISCLAIMER! From what I see every morning in the mirror I am NOT Veronica Roth!... At least I don't think I am. (Runs to mirror and dramatically sighs)

TRIS POV:

"The results are a little complicated your spine is now at a 50 degree angle so you can decide whether or not you want to wear a brace or have surgery done. It's completely up to you. The remarkable thing is it doesn't show you are leaning over and in this case it isn't as bad as it is with my other patients."

"Will the surgery get rid of the scoliosis?" At the word surgery Tobias's head jerks up and looks my way concern tattooed on his forehead. He puts a hand on my back and rubs soothing circles. I loosen up slightly at his touch.

"Yes it will. I do recommend you get the surgery because it is getting worse and you may be required to get surgery one way or another. Let me tell you some of the risks. It may just worsen it but that is highly unlikely because we will be using our best surgeons if you do agree to have surgery. You will be in a wheel chair for a week or more depending on how it goes. There is also risk of infection, bleeding, pain at graft site, blood clots, and lung complications. That's pretty much it from what I've gathered. (AN: The risks are true thank you google! I just added the wheel chair for more drama! YAY drama.)

"Well um that's a lot of nasty risks. I'll take the surgery. When are the closest available dates so I can get this done with?"

"Is tomorrow alright?"

"Yeah perfect. I'll see you tomorrow for the surgery. Thanks Lance."

"No problem kid. Bye Tris." Then the line goes dead. I turn to Tobias and explain everything Lance just told me.

'I want to tell the gang everything. I mean I kinda have to. Its gonna be pretty hard to explain as to why I'm going to be in a wheel chair. If I'm going to tell them about my scoliosis why not tell them the entire story. Do you mind calling the guys while I call the girls?"

"No not at all this is completely up to you." After that he kisses my head giving me a reassuring smile before bolting upstairs to call the guys.

I grab my phone and call Chris first still sniffling. After about 4 rings she finally answers.

"Hey Tris!"

"Um hey Chris I was wondering if you and the girls could come over Four is calling the guys too. Its really important."

"Yeah no prob do you want me to call the other girls too?"

"Uh yeah that would be great."

"Okay see you in about 20 minutes. I hope everything is alright."

I hang up and go to the elevator and take it to my floor. I run into the training room and tape my knuckles. I figured I would burn off some steam after the news and started beating the living shit out the punching bag. I have been so caught up in my thoughts about the surgery tomorrow I didn't even notice I've been crying. This only makes me punch harder until its off its chain and on the other side of the room. Even pro fighters would run from me. The punching bags I have are filled with sand not foam which makes it harder and tougher to knock off its chain. Most pro fighters can't do what I just did.

I move on to my next bag and hit and punch it till its yet again off its chain. I frustrated with all that's happened in my life I crumple to the floor and let out a frustrated scream I really had to do. I cry for I don't know how long. A few minutes later the entire group walks in looking terrified but crush me in a group hug, I cry harder while they all try to comfort me whispering non sense in my ear muffled by my sobs.

After I've calmed down a bit I decided to tell them everything from start to finish even Toby. Toby puts his arm around me and I take a deep breath.

"So I guess I'll start from grade school, I knew Four before he became famous and stuff and he was my best friend. I was bullied a lot but didn't tell him because I didn't want him to worry. We all have our own problems to deal with. So time passed and the bullying got worse and I started to believe their mean comments. So I started cutting- only a little though" I quickly added the last part. I look away from Tobias because I never told him this part of the story.

"Four and I were inseparable but my depression worsened when he moved away. It was really bad at the time because I had just found out I had scoliosis, it wasn't as bad as to it would be noticeable but it was still pretty bad."

"Once my dad found out I had scoliosis he was furious, he rushed into my room with a belt. He started yelling and screaming at me telling me I was a disappointment and all that crap. He started whipping me and when he got sick of that h-he um he r-rraped me too." I once again look any where but Tobias.

"I was completely disgusted, repulsed. He hit me so many times I lost count. Caleb barged in the room before I was fully unconscious he took me to the hospital and now my asshat for a father is in jail. Ever since then I was more closed off and reserved but then freshman year came along. As you all know Peter raped me. The gang knows the full story but I didn't get to tell Four the full story."

"You mean you didn't tell him?" Christina asks vaguely. I just shake my head in response.

"Tell me what!" Toby demands.

"I was getting to that!" My voice rising.

"Peter raped me and a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant. When I started to show people started calling me names like 'bitch', 'whore', 'slut', etc. I was about 8 months pregnant and I was walking down the halls when I was waling down the stairs. Someone pushed me down 2 flights of stairs causing me to have a miscarriage."

"Tris I know what your thinking and its not true."

"Of course its true Four! I was responsible for that life and it dies! You have no freaking idea what its like! I am a murderer Four! I didn't… It was going to be a boy and I was going to name it after you. I actually stopped cutting the second I saw the baby on the ultra sound picture. My dad's in jail, my mom doesn't give a damn I even exist, and Caleb shut me out after I was beaten. The baby was pretty much the only family I had left." I say the last few sentences so quietly I don't think they actually heard me.

"I'm sorry I had to leave Bea but I had a good reason to. I thought you'd be better off with out me that if I had just left I would be putting you out of harms way. I didn't think I would be lessening your safety. Don't you dare think I didn't hear that part when you talked about not having any family. You want to know how I feel about that. BULLSHIT! Okay bullshit you aren't seriously telling me that me or any of your friends around you aren't your family. Family is with you till the very end. What do you think they've been doing Tris?"

I stay silent not knowing what to say. Once the silence got boring I continued with my story.

"Today I had an appointment regarding my scoliosis and now I scheduled a surgery for tomorrow. Some of the risks are my death if something goes wrong or my spine permanently damaged." I look up to see a group of people in a puddle of their own tears minus Lynn and Toby.

Will is the first to speak, "Tris before anyone says anything else you have to know we will be there for you. You aren't doing this alone." In response I get a chorus of "yeahs".

"Yeah Twissy we wuv you." Who else would say that other than Uri. After that he tackles me in a hug and I hug him back surprising myself. Everyone gives me a surprised look and I just shrug, "I really needed a hug." They all laugh as I release Uriah then remembered I needed to tell them about Four and I.

"Oh wait guys one more thing Four and I are dating!" All the girls squeal and the guys plus Lynn pats our on the back. After a while of talking they finally leave and Tobias turns to me. I know he is gonna blow up since I didn't tell him the full story. No one says anything at first but he breaks the silence, "How could you not have told me about the cut and the rape or the baby?" He says just above a whisper I would much rather prefer yelling by a landslide.

I look at my hands not able to look in his eyes.

"I couldn't. I felt so ashamed at myself for cutting I gave up a few weeks ago. I just couldn't tell you risking you regretting liking a broken girl beyond repair." Tears pool my eyes but I don't let them fall. After I got the news about my scoliosis I promised to be closed off and to never cry. I have been cry free up until today.

Toby lifts up my chin forcing me t look in his eyes but I just stare at his forehead avoiding his eyes.

"Tris never in a million years would I ever regret loving you. Have you already forgotten that I'm broken too. Together we will mend each other so we are not so broken because no one is unbroken whether they notice it or not."

At this I look in his eyes my bottom lip wobbling. Without another word he dresses me in some PJ's and lays me on my bed under the covers even though it is 100 degrees out. I don't know why but I have always had the need to be under the blankets at night. (AN: I do the exact same thing at night. TWINSIES!) Toby remembered from our sleep over's as kids, I smile at the thought. Toby always thought it was weird but eh I admit I am weird. I am broken. I am beautiful. I am humorous. I am smart. I am selfless. I am peaceful. I am truthful. I am divergent.

Authors Note: I am so sorry I haven't gotten any updates posted but I have had so many student council and mock trial practices. Plus volleyball practices started but guess what I am CO-CAPTAIN! :D There is also lots of boy problems. ;P Just a warning I have to now go to my older brother's football games every Friday. DON'T FORGET TO GIVE ME NICK NAME IDEAS! Bye Losers! JK

~Liv