DISCLAIMER: My name is Olivia NOT Veronica Roth! Right Zekey-bear!
Zeke: Are you are you really?
Me: Yes it says so on my birth certificate, stupid.
Zeke: Sureeee you are…
Me: I whisper dumbass under my breath.
TRIS POV:
Ugh why me? Lance just called again telling me that because it is a pretty huge surgery I will be in the hospital for about 7 days! 7 WHOLE DAYS! The only bright side to this is I will get to miss school. When my alarm finally goes off I run downstairs in my usual pajamas (sports bra and pants). I run so fast down stairs I nearly slip on the slippery tile. Just as I'm about to fall Toby catches me smirking but I can see the worry in his eyes about the surgery today.
"Nice catch dude now put me down I want some French toast!"
He just shakes his head in disbelief at my behavior and gently places me back on the ground. He turns and runs behind the counter passing me a plate full of food. I scarf it down in a matter of seconds then run back upstairs to get ready. I take a nice and long shower considering after the surgery I won't be able to take a real shower until 2 weeks after surgery. Of course I'll be able to take sponge baths but that is different. Speaking of sponge baths I'll probably ask Chris or one of the other girls to help me with that.
As much as I love Tobias I don't want to force him or myself to do something right now. I mean I was freaking raped 2 times in one lifetime and suffered a miscarriage. After I get out of the shower I put on some basketball shorts and one of Toby's sweatshirts. The sleeves go like an inch or two past my fingertips and the shirt stops mid thigh. I have grown a lot. I look to the clock and it says its 12:00 in the afternoon. Damn how long was I in the shower. I slip on some socks and nike sneakers then jog downstairs not wanting to slip again.
We still have an hour till we have to leave so I walk into the living room and I see the gang and Toby sitting on the couch talking. I sit down waiting for the interrogation to take place which it did.
"Did you talk to Lance?" Tobias.
"What's going to happen after surgery?" Shauna.
"Are you okay?" Marlene.
"What are you wearing?!" Christina.
"Do you have any cake?" Take a guess. If you guessed Zeke and Uriah you are correct! I look from Chris to Zeke and Uriah and shake my head in mock hurt.
"I am going into surgery in less than an hour and you guys are focused on cake and my outfit." Everyone but those three yells, "ANSWER THE QUESTIONS!"
I lift my hands in defense and start to answer the questions.
"Yes I talked to Lance. After surgery I won't be able to do any physical activity until four to six months after surgery. So no football, basketball, cheer or any of that. I won't be able to take a shower until two weeks after surgery so I'll have to take sponge baths. Don't get your hopes up Four I am asking the girls for help on that. I'll be in the hospital for seven days at the most. Sadly no friends can visit till 3 or 4 days after surgery you have to be direct family. The IV thing will be in me for 3 to 4 days. I won't have much of an appetite after surgery so all my nutrients and fluids will be given to me through the IV cord. Physical therapy will start on the fourth or fifth day after surgery for one or two days prior to the hospital. The scar will be on my back and hip permanently or at least until it fades. Any other questions?"
Uriah raises his hand.
"If you ever go through a metal detector will it go off because now you're going to have a metal rod in your back and all?"
"No because it will be a steel metal rod."
He nods his hand and no one else raises there hand so I grab Toby's hand get my phone purse and other stuff then rush to the car with the gang hot on my heals. I may seem to be all calm and stuff but on the inside I'm sobbing uncontrollably. I mean come on if you were going into surgery wouldn't you? Then I can't play any sports for how long? 5 to 8 freaking months! That is like asking me to stop breathing! To break the silence I turn the radio up to the point where it is at full blast. The song that's playing I immediately recognize as Superhero by Cher Lloyd. The second it starts playing and I start singing I think of Peter and Andrew and what they've done to me.
"Oh Oh
Ooh Ooh Ooh
I loved you, I loved you
With all that's in my power
I was used and abused
Til I was sweet and sour
I kissed you and kissed you
And gave you all my sugar
You knew that I'd be useless
If I let you know what you were to me
I thought it would be OK
And we shared everything
No way
And I told you, I told you
How I was such a sad case
You said you could save me
I'm doing the saving
Went to sleep with superhero
And he woke up a villain
Killing and killing my love
Oh, what happened?
Oh, no, what happened
You got me fighting
Like wonder woman, woman
But..."
That is exactly what happened.
"I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o"
Everyone must see what I'm trying to do so they end up harmonizing since I'm the only one who can rap.
"Oh, oh, oh
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
Oh no, don't know what happened.
Don't know what happened.
Don't know what happened.
I keep trying and trying
To wrap my head around it
Crying so can't let nobody see how I'm acting
You hurt me, you hurt me
And no not physically
Ain't got no bumps and bruises
To show people what you're doing to me
I thought it would be OK
But you see I heard everything you said
And I knew it, I knew that you'd turn out to be a sad case
You said you could save me
I'm doing the saving
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
Oh no
You got me
Using all my Kung Fu tricks, tricks
Hit 'em with the round house kick to the tempo
1, 2, 3, 4 hung hi ho, T.K.O, Tae Kwon Do
You know
When you see that hand go chop
Everything stops
The flow so hot
Like steam from a coffee pot
Rush hour, no traffic
No Jet Li, just Jackie
You acting like you stay behind
Go read up on your classics
You ol' fake-o wanna be superman
Give Clark Kent back his glasses
Man I hit you with a judo kick so fast
You look back like what happened
Oh, no
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
I, I, I don't wanna fi-I-ight
Don't wear no ti-I-ights
And I can't fly-y-y
I'm no, I'm no superhero-o-o
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, no what happened
Oh, no what happened
Oh, no what happened"
By the time the song finishes we are in the parking lot of the hospital laughing. I take a deep breath and step out of the car. Tobias comes around from the drivers seat and takes my hand in his and gives it a squeeze along with his million dollar smile. I weakly smile back at him and step through the doors of the hospital and the smell of sanitizer and just hospital in general hits me and I immediately get the urge to run out of this hell-hole.
Just as I am about to turn around and run Zeke and Uriah step in front of the only exit like the body guards from the movies and a perky nurse calls my name, "Beatrice Prior". Ugh I hate perky people. (AN: Don't you hate the perky sales people that you see in stores and stuff. They are sooooo annoying seriously get mad once in a while!) I turn around to face the gang and they all look like they just saw a ghost, well the boys do at least. The girls on the other hand look like water works are going to happen at any moment now minus Lynn of course. Her and Tobias remain emotionless.
If you knew Tobias like I do you probably wouldn't be able to see the sadness in his eyes. I hug everyone but once I get to Toby I stand in front of him and put my hand on his cheek. He leans his head into my hand closing his eyes to prevent tears from falling. I lean in and give him a long and soft kiss that says all my love without words. He kisses back just as hard maybe even harder.
I pull back and tell him the three words that gave me hope, "I love you".
"I love you more."
"Impossible."
I turn back to Lance and follow behind him silently only to hear Christina sob and Will trying to soothe her. When we arrive into the surgery room a couple of nurses tell me to put on a hospital gown and a blue hairnet thing. I do as instructed and sit on the bed and Lance and a few of what I assume are other doctor's walk in. As they begin to tell me what the risks are and what I should expect in the future I just tune them out.
Toby was on his laptop all night last night looking at this website for it and telling them to me. He didn't actually go to sleep till like 3 a.m. It's kinda funny if you ask me. He is all mean and cold and closed off but when he's around me he is like a completely different person. He is sweet, funny, kind, caring, and brave his whole personality just switches.
I remember as kids he would sing me to sleep whether it was silent night or some rap song he found online. I smile at the thought of him and focus my attention back to the doctor's to find out they just finished talking. The butterflies come back in the pit of my stomach and I hope the doctor's remove those during the surgery because these butterflies make me feel like throwing up.
"Okay Tris I am going to put a mask on you and you are gong to count down to 1 starting from 10. Once you get to 1 you are going to fall asleep and we will begin the surgery."
I only not in response not trusting my mouth to say anything I might regret later. He places the mask on my face and I begin counting.
"10…9…8…7…6…5…4…3…2…1…"
Then everything goes black and I fall into what I hope is a dreamless sleep.
AN: I am so sorry for not updating. In my defense my birthday was yesterday was yesterday and then I had a birthday party to go today. On the bright side though I have no school tomorrow! But I do have a dentist appointment. You probably don't care but I get to redecorate my room over my Christmas break! Yay! Well for me. Then lastly I have my first volleyball game on Tuesday. I have no idea what else to say so I'm going to say… BYE FELLOW GEEKS!
~ Dearest apologies Olivia