AN: Hey guys... Long time no see huh. Okay so back to my story. Remember how I mentioned homecoming and Halloween in my past chapters yeah forget that was ever mentioned. Since this is such a late update I have no idea how I'm going to start this off. Alright that's it. Read the bottom please!
Disclaimer: I honestly don't understand the point of these I mean why would Veronica Roth write fanfiction of her own story it just doesn't make sense.
Alex POV:
While everyone is talking my mind drifts to Four and Tris. Didn't Tori mention them being abused and stuff? Is that why Tris is in a wheelchair, because the abuse went too far? Tris looks like me a lot which is really starting to creep me out. Why would she look so much like me I really don't understand what's going on.
The entire lunch Luke kept sneaking glances at me. I mean he's cute but what would he see in me. I may be built like a normal 16 year old would but as far as looks go I just don't see it. His eyes are an amazing green color that words its self can't describe. His hair lazily side swept to cover half of his eye. His tan and muscular build. Oh dear lord I've got a problem.
As I'm walking back to class Luke runs up besides me.
"Do you even know where you're going?" He asks not in a mean way but in a way that's humorous I guess.
"Nope all I know is that I have science next."
"Me too. We can get lost together!" He says and holds his arm out but I just push it aside not wanting to get close to anyone and have my personal life interfere with my friends. For a second Luke seems hurt but pushes the feeling aside looking embarrassed. I feel bad for being so harsh but I can't have someone I even remotely like get hurt, the guilt would just be too much for me to bear.
I decided to skip the last two periods and just go to music since that is the only subject I enjoy. I swear the teachers here are only here for the money hey are so clueless. When the bell rings signaling next period I walk to room 26 for Music looking at the school directory the entire time and trying not to fall. When I walk through the doors I see the entire gang inside including Luke.
I catch his gaze briefly but I turn my head the second my eyes meet his. I feel a tightening in my chest when I see him. Everyone begins to signal me over to sit with them but I turn on my heel and sit on the other side of the room.
I can feel their confused stares burning a hole in the back of my head. I just keep my head faced forward. When Tori walks in I immediately relax so I don't have to put up with their awkward stares.
"Hey class today we will sorta be showing off our talents to the class. But here's the catch it's supposed to be a meaningful song! No anaconda and all that shit. Got it?"
Everyone in the class nods their heads vigorously.
"Awesome. Who's first?" No one raises their hand at first but Luke raises his hand slowly.
"Finally someone with enough balls to come up! Come on up new kid!"
The class laughs as Luke makes his way up to the stage.
"Hey guys I'm going to be singing something by someone and I am dedicating it to Alex." Wow shocker there. I duck my head and slide down the chair with my hood over my head.
"You call me up,
It's like a broken record
Saying that your heart hurts
That you never get over him getting over you.
And you end up crying
And I end up lying,
'Cause I'm just a sucker for anything that you do.
And when the phone call finally ends,
You say, "Thanks for being a friend,"
And we're going in circles again and again
[Chorus:]
I dedicate this song to you,
The one who never sees the truth,
That I can take away your hurt, heartbreak girl.
Hold you tight straight through the day light,
I'm right here. When you gonna realize
That I'm your cure, heartbreak girl?
I bite my tongue but I wanna scream out
You could be with me now
But I end up telling you what you wanna hear,
But you're not ready and it's so frustrating
He treats you so bad and I'm so good to you it's not fair.
And when the phone call finally ends
You say, "I'll call you tomorrow at 10,"
And I'm stuck in the friend zone again and again,
[Chorus]
I know someday it's gonna happen
And you'll finally forget the day you met him
Sometimes you're so close to your confession,
I gotta get it through your head
That you belong with me instead,
[Chorus 2x]"
Did he really mean that? When he finds out about Jack he'll screw me over. He's trying to reel me in. Screw it I'm singing a song for me to remind me I'm not the only one. I can't keep putting up with Luke like this.
"That was amazing Luke!" Tori beams.
"Who wants to go next?"
"I'll go." I say while walking up to the stage.
"Thanks again for paying for my tattoos."
"No problem Alex."
"Alright. So I have a song as well that I would like to dedicate to Luke to try to make the message a little clearer. For all you people that think I'm goth based on what I wear and the type of music I listen to this is a sort of pop song. Shocker right?" I say sarcastically with a fake smile plastered on my face.
"
I'm just a ghost, but I'm not the only one,
I guess I'm not the only one
This one's for the kids that walk around with their hoodies up
No one to talk to and on the verge of givin' up
Same shit, different day, nothing seems to work out
Headphones on, always tryin' to tune the world out
And this one's for the kids who gets picked last
Yeah, so might as well just skip gym class
Why not? I bet no one would even notice
'Cause no one really cares when you down, feeling hopeless
And this one's for the kids at lunch that sit alone
So embarrassed you pretendin' that you're on the phone
But then you realize that it doesn't really help
'Cause ain't nobody on the line, you're just talking to yourself
And it stings, right?! Yeah, I know
Sometimes it feels like you're on your own
Trust me, you are not the only one, life has only just begun
Just remember that you're not alone
I'm just a ghost, oh-hoo (yeah)
They're staring right at me, (right at me)
Looking right past me, (right past me)
I'm just a ghost oh-hoo (yeah)
Who do I turn to (Who do I turn to)
When I feel see-through? (yeah, see-through, yeah)
I'm just a ghost, but I'm not the only one,
I guess I'm not the only one
Look, you feel invisible, but I can see you
You're callin' out, nobody's answering, but I can hear you
They don't like me, they don't get me, they don't feel my pain
But there's a million people out there who relate to you and feel the same
Yeah, so just smile and you'll be alright
When you feeling like a ghost blowing through the air
Remember stars still shine in the darkest nights
Even when you can't see 'em, they always there
Yeah, so keep your eyes up to the sky
We're all in this together, we gon' make it if we try
It's hard when you're feeling like you're lost and forgotten
And you got no one around to dry your tears, when you cry
And it stings, right?! Yeah, I know
Sometimes it feels like you're on your own
Trust me, you are not the only one, life has only just begun
Just remember that you're not alone
I'm just a ghost, oh-hoo (yeah)
They're staring right at me, (right at me)
Looking right pass me, (right pass me)
I'm just a ghost oh-hoo (yeah)
Who do I turn to (Who do I turn to)
When I feel see-through? (yeah, see-through, yeah)
So tonight, I'm a fly up to the sky and let the whole world see me
And if you're feeling how I'm feeling you should come along with me
It's the last time you'll ever look past me again
I'm not a ghost, I'm more alive than I've ever been
And I'm a let the whole world see me
And if you're feeling how I'm feeling you should come along with me
It's the last time you'll ever look past me again
I'm not a ghost, I'm more alive than I've ever been
I'm just a ghost, oh-hoo
They're staring right at me,
Looking right past me,
I'm just a ghost oh-hoo
Who do I turn to (yeah)
When I feel see-through? (come on)
I'm just a ghost, oh-hoo (yeah)
They're staring right at me, (right at me)
Looking right past me, (right past me)
I'm just a ghost (you're not a ghost)
Who do I turn to (so keep your head up)
When I feel see-through? (and one day the whole world's gonna see you, yeah)
I'm just a ghost, but I'm not the only one,
I guess I'm not the only one
When I finish everyone's clapping but Luke who is smiling with a look of determination in his eyes.
Oh great. I think sarcastically. But while this thought flashes through my mind I can't help but hope that look of determination turns into one of love and passion. I close my eyes tightly and try to push the thought away. Once the bell rings I practically run out of the room and to my locker.
I grab my backpack and just as I am about to turn around and leave the gang steps in my way.
"Oh hey guys what's up?" I ask trying to play it cool which is not working.
"What's up? You just sang an amazing song like two seconds ago and your asking what's up?" Tris says smiling.
"I just wanted to make it clear that I can't date right now."
"Can't? What's that supposed to mean?"
As I'm struggling to find an answer I hear someone honk their horn from the front of the school. Everyone turns their heads in search of the cause of the sound when I spot Jack fuming in the drivers seat.
"That's my ride later guys." I say hurriedly as I walk to the car.
Jack opens the passenger side door from the drivers seat and mumbles, "Get in."
"Yes sir." I say quietly as I step inside.
AN: Hey again. Okay so I'm so sorry about the infrequent updates but on the bright side I won my mock trial competition now let's see if we can make it to states! I have yet another competition to go to tomorrow and am currently working on my next chapter for my other story that should be up sometime over the weekend or sooner. Go follow me on instagram at olivia_nicole2002! Bye fellow geeks!
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