I would like to apologize that I haven't written lately...I have had writers block but an anonymous reviewer by the name of Jackie, got me writing again.
Jackie...thanks that was one of the best reviews I have had in a long time. Xoxox
Also read this story I thoroughly enjoyed it
By Sam the 5 is silent....It's an awesome story...
I also have another thing to apologise for...because I haven't update in a while it's a bit delayed.
I had a fight with my sister who also had a fan fiction account on here, and we got into a fight so she got revenge on me by hacking into my account and ending flames to people so they would want to read my story. Sam the 5 is silent was a person I could track down and apologizes for the flame that was sent via my account. So if anyone else has received a flame from my account I would like to apologize.
SORRY.
The song for this chapter is Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson
Disclaimer: SM owns twilight...I just like messing with them.
You make me feel so high
You're love is like sunshine
You had me at hello
Don't mind if I say so
So before it fades away
I got one thing left to say
You're love is like sunshine
It's like sunshine
Bella
My eyelids fluttered open and the sunlight shone violently through my bedroom window, I had to blink a couple of times till my eyes adjusted to the light. My mind replayed all the events that happened last night.
The club
Seeing Edward with Lauren
Me dancing with Jacob
Jacob being punched in the face by me
Edward asking me to be his girlfriend
Even though the way Edward asked was a little unorthodox at least he had asked me. Of course I had said yes. I was so far taken by him; I had never felt this way before with many of my boyfriends, never with Tyler, Chace or Kellan. I thought maybe I was falling in love with him. He had changed so much for me over such a short period of time; I know love when I feel it, I'm not stupid. I had seen it portrayed in movies, books and plays and I thought I had the feeling down pat. But being with Edward was different, when I was dating chace he was so sweet and I thought I was in love with him. But I wasn't because what I felt for Edward was love, I was sure of it. Whenever he smiled at me crookedly I swooned and whenever he touched me or kissed me my knees went weak.
I stretched, flexing my arms to try and get some stiffness out of them. Geez Edward was insatiable
My boyfriend's (Swoon) arms flexed and tightened around my bare stomach. I sighed heavily which caused Edwards sleepy face to scrunch up and he moved himself so he was now practically on top of me. This new position had Edward's legs entangled with mine and he was using my breasts as pillows.
"Bella...love you" Edward mumbled in his sleep.
"I love you too Edward" I whispered in his ear and he smiled slightly as his arms tightened around my neck. He must have heard me because he woke up. His eyes blazed with curiosity and confusion.
"What did you just say?" I looked down at my naked body and I blushed. I felt tears sting my eyes, I felt stupid. Edward put a finger under my chin and coaxed my face up to look him in the eyes.
"Did you say you loved me?" Edward said his eyes were wickedly amused and he had an arrogant smirk on his face. I took one look at his expression and I scooted over to the other side of the bed, pushing him off me and grabbing the sheet and wrapping around myself. Traitor tears started running down my face. I or rather he had just heard I was in love with him and he had teased my feelings. I felt degraded and stupid but most of all hurt that he could make fun of something as serious as my feeling for him.
"Hey! Hey Bella what's wrong?" Edward said in a worried tone. He tried to pull me back to him but I elbowed him in the chest.
"Gaah" he cried and I lay down, pulling the blanket over my head. The tears were flowing freely now and small whimpers and sobs escaped from within me. Edward pulled the blanket off me but I just rolled onto my side so he couldn't see my face. He grabbed me and positioned me so I was sitting cross legged in front of him. I pulled the blanket back up so it was covering my bare body.
"Baby what's wrong?" he asked innocently.
"Y-you don't care" I stuttered
Edward looked angry and I looked away from him but he just pulled my face back so I was looking him in the eyes. He put both his hands on either side of my face and held it there so I would move. To any onlooker would think that Edwards touch was hurting me as I winced, but no it wasn't from his hold, Edward stroked my left cheek with his thumb and his look softened.
"Baby? Bella what on earth would make you think I didn't care for you?" he said
I sighed; deciding it was better that I tell him the truth.
"You heard that I loved you, because I do...I have never felt this way toward anyone" I spat, as if it were a bad thing. "— You heard me say it and instead of saying you love me back or telling me you felt similar you teased me because of my feeling for you. I feel rejected that you do not feel the same way for me—"Edward cut me off by pressing his lips to mine sweetly and tenderly.
I pulled back and glared at him...now feeling like a 5c hooker.
"Bella, I do feel the same for you...it's hard for me to say it considering my past with women. I never had sex with them but that didn't mean that I was never sexual with them. I never gave myself to them because even though I was a player, I wanted to wait for someone I wanted to spend my life with. Someone I loved and I gave it to you. This means I do care for you, I love you Bella. You're it for me. Please don't doubt my feeling for you."
Now I just felt stupid, not realising it before.
"Why were you teasing me then?"
"I wasn't I just found it funny that someone as beautiful and smart and witty like you would love someone like me" I blushed and leaned over to kiss him on the lips.
"I love you Isabella Swan"
"I love you Edward Cullen"
I had another photo shoot today. Not for Victoria's secret but for Vouge. It was there high school prom edition. So no skanky lingerie for me today, much to Edward's delights.
We had a shower together which went a little over time because Edward was trying to conserve water. Then we had to leave for class. The photo shoot wasn't till about four thirty which meant after school I wouldn't have as much time as I like to get ready.
I finished drying myself off and I got changed into a pair of skinny jeans that had huge rips at the knee and a white singlet that had a midnight blue one over the top that had slashes in the side. On my feet I wore a pair of black peep toe heels. When I walked out into the lounge room everyone was sitting down on the love seats. Jasper wolf whistled which caused Edward to shoot daggers at him and growl. Yes, you heard me her growled.
I walked over to him and put my arms around his waist and I looked up into his eyes. Edward was very tall like 6"5'. He looked down at me smiling slightly and he calmed down under my gaze.
"Bella what time is you photo shoot?" Rosalie asked eying me sceptically.
"Um four thirty"
"Oh no that meant we will only have an hour and a half to get ready" Alice cried dramatically.
"Suck it up pixie" I said and Rosalie snicked "Rosalie and I would only need ten minutes and we would look fabulous. Isn't that right Rosie?"
"You bet" Rosalie said with a wink. Alice just chuckled and scoffed,
"You could put on a hessian bag and still be beautiful Bella" Edward said.
"Someone's trying to suck up" Emmett boomed
"It's not sucking up if it's already true"
"I agree" I said arrogantly and Edward barked a laugh before pressing his lips to my cheek.
"Come on love birds. We better get to class before we get into trouble"
The day passed by fast until we were in vocals (singing). Today we were singing ballads we had to write within ten minutes. My song was called when she cries and it was about my friend Leah Clearwater who abused throughout her childhood and made it famous until she fell in love with a man named Sam Uley. We all walked into the auditorium where we sang at the end of each lesson. I was first.
"Miss Swan is you ready?" the teacher called from the back of the room.
I nodded and took the microphone off the stand.
Little girl terrified
She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal
A home is no place to hide
Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels
Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She wonders why, does anyone ever hear her when she cries
Today she's turning sixteen
Everyone singing, but she can't seem to smile
They never get past arms length
How could they act like everything is alright?
She's pulling down her long sleeves
To cover all the memories that scars leave
She says, "maybe making me bleed
will be the answer that could wash the slate clean"
I closed my eyes and sang this song with all the passion I could muster.
This is the dark before the dawn
The storm before the peace
Don't be afraid 'cause seasons change and
God is watching over you
He hears you
I was crying small tears now, revelling in my friends painful past.
Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She'll be just fine, cause now he hears her when she cries
Every day's the same
She fights to find her way
She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray
She'll be just fine, cause now he hears her when she cries
She'll be just fine, cause now he hears her when she cries
Everyone clapped and applauded and I just bowed and walked off the stage into Edwards awaiting arms.
"You sang beautifully Bella" Edward breathed, his breath swirling around my face making my head swim. Everyone else had a turn and there beautiful voices floated throughout the auditorium.
After class we all met up in the parking lot, none of us could be bothered changing our clothes; except the Alice. I envied her for her funny little attitude sometimes.
We all piled into the limo and Emmett and Alice went straight over to the mini bar.
"Geez Alice where do you put it all?" Rosalie scoffed
Alice just smiled cheekily with her mouth full of cheddar cheese slices I sighed and buried my head into Edward's shoulder; he put his arms around me and pulled me into his lap. We sat like that for the entire ride until we reached the studio. Jane Volturi was in charge of this shoot and she met us outside the studio. Her neat shoulder length blonde hair was pulled back off her face and into a French braid. She wore dark lip stick and lots of black eye makeup. She dresses in a long Asian style dress that was black with red swirls on it. But despite her gothic, depressing outlook she still had the face of an angel.
Jane just nodded and gestured for us to follow her. She led us into a studio with red brick walls and had a high ceiling with visible support beams; it was very generic.
Edward, Alice, Jasper and Emmett were all lead to a small bleacher that they all sat down on whilst Rosalie lingered and buzzed around the camera crew asking questions on how a photo shoot worked.
Jane and I walked away and threw to glass doors to the changing rooms. I looked over my shoulder before following Jane into one of the rooms. Edward was looking at me meaning fully I blew him a wink and a kiss before ducking into the room.
"Okay this rack has all your clothes on it. The bag covers have numbers on them so you know which ones to where. Start with one, followed by two, three and the—" Geez did she think I was dumb or something.
"Lemme' guess Four?" she just scowled at me, not looking so anglic anymore.
"Do not get them mixed up and most importantly do not get a single spec on these clothes or Vouge will be suing you" she said trying to size me up as she put her hand on her waist pushing her hips out to one side and sticking her nose up in the air.
"Oh Honey—" I cooed " The head of Vouge is like my mom's best friend...You remember who my mother is right? Does Renée Dwyer ring any bells? Y'know she's worked with your mum a lot over the past couple of years...so if anyone will sue someone it will be me suing you!" I said firmly.
Jane just huffed before adding "Hair and make-up is down the hall to your left. I snickered.
I went over to the rack and unzipped the first bag. The dress was beautiful. The dress was a sexy bright Cobalt blue. It had a sweet heart neckline and a pleated bodice. It had a black halter neck tie which contrasted with the empire waist line and the small side cut outs. Under the bag was a pair of matching colbat blue peep toe heels with a bow at the back. I put the dress on and looked in the mirror. The dress was very form fitting and clung to body moderately tightly. I didn't know where Edward would like the tightness though.
I swivelled and looked at myself in the mirror some more before Jane burst through the door.
"We can't do the photo shoot" she shrieked in a harpy cry with tears rolling down her cheeks "Oh shit! I'm going to get fired"
"Why?" I asked as I grabbed her shoulders to stop her from pacing a trench in the floor.
"James can't make it, we need a male model for this shoot"
"Use one of the boys sitting out there"
"You mean the ones that came in with you" she said looking at me with an incredulous expression.
"Yeah...I guess I mean they are really good looking"
She smiled a gigantic smile at me
"You know Izzie I might have underestimated you" I just gave her small smile a she left to get the boys measurements. I followed her out of the room but I went in the opposite direction to the hair and makeup room.
I walked through and everyone stiffened then stopped, if they were gossiping they stopped and if they were slouching over they immediately stood up straighter. I could smell the fear coming off them. (AN: I thought was just something random to put in. Ha). All except Dimitri didn't move he bounded towards me and embraced me in a bone crushing hug. Dimitri was my personal hair and makeup designer so he was used to my antics.
"Dimye...I...Can't...Breathe" I gasped as he released me from his tourniquet grasp.
"Oh sorry Izzie" he said sniffling I just slapped his arm playfully and went to sit in a hot pink swivel chair.
"Okay Iz, close your eyes you know I don't like people seeing my work until its done" he said and I huffed as I closed my eyes. An hour later Dimitri told me I could open my eyes, which I did and I gasped when I saw myself.
My hair was stripped so it was brown with honey and ash blonde highlights in it. It was more heavily layered and my hair draped over my right eye. My lips were rose red and my eyes were dark with thick black eyeliner and eye shadow coating my eyes. I looked hot. Even if I do say so myself.
I went out into the main part of studio, Edward and the others still sat on the bleachers. Edward looked at me with glazed eyes before suddenly looking sad. I also noticed Jasper wasn't sitting with them.
"Looking for me?" Jasper called behind me I turned around and Jasper was standing behind me in a black suit with a blue tie that was similar in colour to my dress. I ran up to him squealing and jumped on him wrapping my lags around his waist. Something of his pressed into me and I smirked.
Poor little Jazzy turned on by my charms. But wasn't everyone.
I slid off him and turned around to see Edward fuming and shooting daggers at Jasper. I sighed as I walked over to Edward I grabbed his hand and pulled him down the hall into another room. No one objected to this. The walls in this room were blue but the skirting boards and the ceiling were a dusty grey colour. There was a small fridge in this room and a black leather love seat and a big plasma TV.
Edward sat down on the love seat with his face in his hands, after a couple of minutes of silence her motioned me over to him. I stood in between his open legs and Edward placed his hands on my hips and rubbed his cheek against my lower abdomen.
I sat down in his lap as he began to speak. "Bella I love you. You're so beautiful that it makes me want to cry to be near you. I don't deserve you, I haven't had a relationship like this before. I cant't loose you" he said.
"Edward you won't loose me"
He just gave me a peck on the lips before standing up and we went back to the now prom looking room.
"Its only you Edward" I whispered in his ear before I went to find Jasper in the throng of photo extras.
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