Find Yourself:
First let me say the Oprah appearance was epic awesomeness! Secondly let me just say that I will NOT be killing Kiefer off in this verse (hint hint) Also I am going to try to play with Kurt/Finn in this verse due to popular demand despite slash not being one of my strongest elements. Still don't own the fandoms just various DVD's CD's and MP3 rips of Jake's Karaoke Nights… song used in this chapter is Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard
Monday March 1st 2010:
"New Week, New Month, New Kristina," Kurt asked though she had no idea what he was referring to. "Your eyes… they are all blotchy…I think I have some make up in the glove box."
Letting out a sigh Kristina shook her head as she let out a yawn.
"After I got home last night I went online to research methods on how to up my bowling game."
Kurt shook his head.
"You didn't!"
Kristina nodded.
"I know I've confided in you Kurt on many things before so let me know, are your ears ready for another confession."
He tensed up.
She had told him all about Kiefer, her mob boss father, the crazy Cassodine lineage and he kind of wondered what other skeletons lay in her beautifully complex life.
He just nodded signaling her to go on.
"I'm an over achiever, it's my biggest vice."
Kurt just laughed at that confession.
"I'm serious Kurt."
He continued to laugh.
"I know but compared to all the other things you've told me being an over achiever, really, tell me something I didn't know."
She looked at him and simply smiled thinking Kurt Hummel was beginning to know her more then she knew herself.
"You know you didn't have to pull an online all nighter Kris, I mean FINN looked like he was a pretty good coach."
Listening to the tone in Kurt's voice it seemed like a mix of sarcasm meets jealously.
"Oh my god, you were jealous."
"Jealous of your pathetic bowling skills, hardly."
"My skills are not pathetic! Anyway no you were jealous that Finn Hudson's hands were all wrapped around me helping me to perfect my roll…."
Kurt nodded.
"You know you never call my crush on Finn pathetic and one sided like everyone else, including Mercedes does."
"I blame Molly."
"Molly… hmmm she helped Puck up his game to land Rachel, do you think in one of those romance novels that in my opinion are way to advanced for an eleven year old but I digress…anyway do you think the Molly would have a clue as to how to woo Finn?"
Kristina grinned.
"I think she'd tell you the same thing she told Noah, music is a classical method of romance and it's a strong suit of yours…use it."
Kurt nodded taking it to heart as they pulled up to McKinley.
"So, see you at lunch?"
Kristina nodded heading toward the building.
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Artie was waiting by her locker, a smile on his face.
"Happy Monday," he spoke sweetly to her causing to smile back.
"Happy Monday," she replied as Finn approached them.
"Was I interrupting something," Finn asked with a sheepishly naive grin.
Artie shook his head as he looked up at the clock that hung on the wall.
"I should get going anyways," he said as he took Kristina's hand and raised it to his lips to place a gentle kiss on it before wheeling away.
Realizing Finn still standing next to her she smiled.
"Did you want something?"
He nodded.
"Y-yea," he spoke scratching his head, "I was wondering if you wanted to come over sometime for further coaching…I mean as a friend… n-not."
Kristina nodded.
"I know you meant as a friend Finn and as much as I'd love to come to your place and spend my afternoon playing video games I have midterms to study for."
Finn nodded remembering his friend was in much more complex classes then he was so it was understandable she would need extra studying time for midterms.
"You should ask Kurt over."
"Kurt, but he's already a good bowler."
Kristina tried not to laugh.
"You have other games don't you? And the three of us did have a blast playing Rock Band on Friday which I'm sure the two of you were playing well before I came over."
Finn nodded.
"We were just goofing off."
Kristina was about to argue more when the bell rang.
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"So, what did Finn have to say," Artie asked when they were all sitting down at lunch.
"Finn invited me to come over to play video bowling…as a friend, I told him I had midterms to cram for but he should ask Kurt."
Kurt blushed a bit.
"No, why must you encourage his stupid crush," Mercedes said as Kurt's gaze looked over to her, "I mean I know I'm your best friend which is why I don't want to see you wasting your time."
"Understandable Cedes, anyway Krissy what did the fabulous Finn Hudson have to say about your proposal."
"He commended you on your bowling skills!" Kristina said with a flash of a smile causing Kurt to let out a small laugh before the usual bouts of lunchroom conversation commenced.
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By the end of the school day, true to the word she gave Finn she was studying for Midterms however she left out the key component that she wasn't going to be studying alone.
"Math should be simple right," Quinn spoke as she flipped open the math text. Sure she and Kristina were in the top two of their class but that didn't mean that they knew everything by a hundred percent by any means.
"I know, it's one of the few things that's never changing, one plus one will always equal two, but these formulas."
"I know…I mean half of them we learned LAST SEMESTER so why do we still have to be quizzed on them for this semester's mid terms."
"Beats me…" Kristina paused, eyes falling on the ever-growing bump of her companions stomach, "we should go shopping."
Quinn let out a little laugh.
"Shopping?"
"I mean not now, now were studying but Wednesday after school a bit of retail therapy to help distress us from our studies. I passed by this cute little baby boutique the other day when I was downtown with Artie and Noah told me you haven't found an adoptive family yet."
"You don't have to treat me like a charity case Kristina."
"Your not a charity case, you're my friend Quinn."
"Friend…"
"Yea friend…so is it a date? We could invite Tina and Mercedes and the other girls in glee and make it a girls day."
Quinn let out a laugh.
"Me and Rachel Berry acting all BFF that's laughable, and Santana and Brittany well out of glee I'm still persona non grata to them, part of the front they have to put up to please coach Sylvester."
"But Tina and Cedes?"
Quinn shrugged.
"If they want to come that's fine, if not, that's fine too. Anyways back to these formulas."
Kristina groaned as she looked at the book and began to look over the facts and figures that were laid out in front of them.
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"Noah," Rachel exclaimed as she wrapped her arm around her boyfriend the following morning, "So are you going to tell me what song you chose for out assignment today?"
He thought of the song that he finally picked and kind of blushed a bit on the inside. He didn't go uber gooey but he did choose a song with some sentimentality to it and was kind of embarrassed about it.
"If I told you babe I'd have to kill you," he leaned over and placed a tender yet seductive kiss on her cheek.
She stepped back trying to avert his lips from her being.
"Well when Mr. Schu makes you sing your feelings out loud…"
"If Schuster wants me to sing it then I'll sing it."
He paused as he watched Kristina making her way towards the Science Lab alone and not joined by her usual entourage for once.
"You should go to class babe."
Rachel normally would stomp her feet, declaring that her home room was with Schuster and they could easily steal some extra moments being together but she was kind of ticked off. She had shared her song choice with her boyfriend yet he was being secretive to her.
Pushing the thought that he was singing about Quinn or his unborn child as opposed to her out of her mind Rachel said her goodbyes and sauntered away.
"Trouble in paradise," Kristina whispered as they slid onto their lab stools.
"Just Berry being her dramatic self."
She nodded as they let the day run it's coarse.
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By lunchtime Kristina had finally gotten around to proposing the idea of shopping with Quinn to everyone.
Tina and Mercedes had agreed to go shopping with Quinn while Kurt protested he was one of the girls too.
"You can come too, I'm sure Quinn won't mind," pausing she tilted her head and eyed Artie. Flashing a half smile she continued, "What about you, want to join us?"
Her boyfriend shook his head as he reached over to play with a loose strain of her hair.
"As much as I love spending time with you, shopping is not my thing."
"Your loss," Kurt said with a smile as he looked over to Mike.
"I'm with Artie, shopping's not my thing, but have fun."
They nodded and continued their conversations.
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By the time glee rolled around one thing was of the utmost certainty. The following weeks midterms were going to be the death of them and it was moments like hanging out in the choir room that made for a pleasant distraction.
Various chattering of such distractions began to fill the air only coming to a stop once the teacher; along with his girlfriend the counselor entered the room.
"What's she doing here?" Mercedes asked.
Will smiled at his student before giving a quick gaze over to the red head.
"Great question Mercedes, Miss Pillsbury is here because this assignment was her idea."
Emma just smiled shyly at the gang while Will continued.
"So anyways Quinn will you pass out slips of paper to everyone… in fact keep one for yourself as well."
Quinn nodded as she picked up slips of scrap paper and began to pass them out.
Once all the papers were handed out Will regained the attention of the crew.
"Ok so I now want you to write the song that you feel expresses how you feel at the moment on the paper."
Brittany raised her hands.
"Like the lyrics cause I don't know all the lyrics."
"Just the title and singer will do."
Brittany nodded as she began to scribble down her song.
When all pens stopped moving across the paper the gang had a sense of dread rush over them. They just knew Schuster was going to make them trade papers or something.
"Now fold those papers in half," he ordered and as the group obeyed he looked to Emma, "Emma could you."
She nodded as she stood up to collect the papers and handed them to Will.
Though the student's didn't write names on the paper he definitely could decipher the hand writing and was intrigued as to some of the song choices that they chose and definitely spotted some numbers that would be perfect to add into their repertoire weather it be for Regionals or later on in the clubs career.
Rachel, who was dieing to know her boyfriends choice shook her head. This wasn't going to do at all and so her hand shot up like a rocket.
"That's is Mr. Schuster."
The teacher never thought beyond that. Sure he had sheet music ready and raring to go for a new number but Rachel's tone made him think otherwise.
"Well…do you want to share your song Rachel… heck does anyone want to volunteer to sing their selection."
The room fell silent, Rachel's eyes fell on Puck, Kristina smiled dreamily at Artie seriously considering singing her song but didn't want to be the first one out of the gate.
This was when Kurt's hand flew up catching everyone by surprise.
Kurt smiled as he remembered Kristina's words the previous day on their ride to school when they were talking about his feelings for Finn. She told him how Molly would advise about how powerful an aphrodisiac song was which was why he was pleased that his song selection not only expressed his love of Finn Hudson but that he could easily play it on the piano. Standing up and making his way toward the piano bench he grinned.
"May I."
The teacher nodded as Kurt began to play his song.
I don't know you,
But I want you,
All the more for that.
Words fall through me,
And always fool me,
And I can't react.
As he sand his eyes were firmly glued to Finn who clearly saw them locked upon him.
He really didn't know how to react to this considering… well… he liked Kurt a lot and well it was kind of silly but sometimes deep in his inner psyche, at least he thought that's where it was, he wondered what it would be to be more then friends with Kurt, even if it was only an experimental fling of some sorts.
Falling slowly, eyes that know me,
And I can't go back,
Moods that take me and erase me,
And I'm painted black.
You have suffered enough,
And warred with yourself,
It's time that you won.
Finn and the rest of the club were suckered into Kurt's siren song and were full of shock and awe.
Schuster smiled. Little did Kurt know now but his musical declaration of love to Finn Hudson was now on his teacher's short list of numbers for Regionals.
Falling Slowly sing your melody,
I'll sing along.
The song ended and Kurt was granted a round of applause.
"So, anyone else."
No one, not even Rachel raised their hand to volunteer to sing and so Kurt took a seat while Will announced the new number he had prepared for them while telling them that after Thursday they would have a week off of practices because of midterms immediately followed by their meetings to be upped to three days a week post-midterms in preparations for Regionals.
As the teacher talked Finn glanced over to Kurt, a smile crossing his lips thinking that he would keep mum till after midterms to one, not add any additional pressure to his mind and two just in case it turned out he was just drawn to the moment and he really was into girls and only girls.
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TBC
I know it was shoddy but I set up Kurt/Finn potential so can I at least get a cookie or a review