I had figured it out. Ever since I had come here everything had gotten badly, Neferet turning to the 'dark side' Loren dyeing and the other professor, my grandma's accident, Kalona returning from the underground, I even felt responsible for Stevie Rae and Stark's change being rejected forcing them to die and then come back to life as a total different fledging/vampire it had gotten even worse as I felt responsible for Elliot's change being rejected too and I just witnessed it, I hated the kid.

All of this happened within a number of very short months I felt horrible just thinking about it.

"Zo? Where are you?" Heath asked through the phone.

I had to explain the whole situation and how I wouldn't (sadly) be going away with him tonight, I knew he would understand.

I put the phone down and headed for the door to go watch TV sorting out this whole situation, I walked into the dorm to see everyone still sat down,

"Z you okay?" Erik asked.

He got up from his seat to me taking my hands to his,

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do anything hasty" he said lightly kissing me on the cheek.

How could a girl break up with a guy that was so sweet like this and still be controlling even though I didn't want to admit it.

"You want to watch the rest of the movie with us?" he asked.

"Sure" I said in a low voice.

I sat down on the sofa while Erik sat next to me putting his warm arm around me, I know it was weird him being my drama teacher its known illegal to be going out with your teacher I didn't know if the same rules applied here after all I did go out with him before he changed so maybe it didn't matter, it should matter to me, I would be leaving him soon and I didn't know how to deal with the situation me trying to leave and all.

I felt uncomfortable having his arm around me; I couldn't still be leading him on after everything I was planning to do. I come out of his grasp he looked at me in confusion

"I-I left my bottle of brown pop upstairs" I said and went rushing up the stairs.

I shut the door behind me feeling totally confused, all sorts of emotions were hitting me and I didn't like it, I closed my eyes, with my back still leaning on the door dreaming I was somewhere else.

I didn't dream one single thing that night, all I could feel was the wooden floor beneath me as I was falling asleep uncomfortably I didn't know why I didn't have the common sense to go up to my bed, for some reason I was getting used to the feeling of the floor, well my whole body was feeling numb.

I was finally having my perfect dream, I was in the meadow with my grandma meeting up with her, running up to her to give her a hug, I reached her and wrapped my hands around her, she hugged me back giving me sudden nudges, the nudges got a little larger, what was grandma doing? Nudging me to death? But that was when I woke up, remembering I was still on the floor, didn't have the strength to move, all I could hear were faint voices calling my name, my eyes didn't want to open I wanted to stay in my dream with grandma but I couldn't the nudges were hurting as they became constant.

My mouth was really dry for me to say anything but I wanted them to stop,

"Stop please!" I panted.

"Zoey? What's wrong" a male voice called panicking.

While the voices were calling me, I tried making myself comfortable, the hard floor was sticking to me, It wasn't working, finally I opened my eyes, strangely enough they were full of tears, I didn't like being awakened, I got up off the floor slowly feeling dizzy, that was when the door opened hitting me again I fell hard onto the floor and then it all went blank.

I was back at the meadow but this time, it wasn't my grandma, it was Erik and beside them was Heath and Stark, they were all so damn hot in their own way, they were stood there staring at me with angry facial expressions.

"Why Zoey?" Erik cried.

"I promised I would protect you" Stark said.

"Forget them Zo, I will always make you happy" Heath said with that smile I loved.

The two guys looked at Heath in despise, as if he had won, that was when they pounced at him two vampires against a human, who do you think would win?

"No" I screamed as I woke up.

I shot myself up the bed breathing rapidly, reminding myself that it was just a dream, a dream that could come true if I make a certain mistake.

"It's okay" said that familiar male voice as he was rubbing my back to cool me down, it felt nice no doubt, I turned my head to see Damien on the edge of my bed I smiled at him glad it was just him, but I knew he had some help getting me onto the bed.

"Are you okay z?" he asked.

I nodded my head; my mouth was even drier than before, I could hardly move my lips,

"Where's everyone else" I barely whispered lying back on the bed.

"Jack is with duchess and Stark just telling them that you are okay-"

"Why? Why did he tell him?" I asked, It was worse enough having my friends know what had happened but it was not necessary for Jack to tell Stark even if he was protecting me.

"Z, he was the one that found you collapsed on the floor" that thought made Damien shudder "He helped you onto the bed, me and Erik went up to check on you while the Twins went and found some food for you because we thought you would need some as you looked weak, we found Stark by your bed and didn't know what to think that was when Erik went ballistic seeing you like that and blamed Stark for it"

I sighed heavily putting one hand on my forehead.

"But luckily Stark explained what happened and Erik forgave him, Stark just ran off feeling ashamed that he didn't do a good job" he added.

I felt guilty for not actually appreciating Stark for being so committed to me, boring old selfish me.

"Look Z, you should get some rest it's been a long day for you" Damien said pulling the covers on me like a big loving brother I never had.

He was right, I was shattered.

I woke up the next morning, well night, I don't know what day it was I just woke up and the curtains were drawn, no sort of light was reflecting from it so it had to be night, I was in my room, alone I got up finally retrieving my energy back wondering what to do next, I didn't want to stay in this room any longer.

Something was buzzing in my bedside table draw I knew what it was and who I took It out and answered it,

"Hello"

"Zoey thank god you're alive"

"Alive? What do you mean by that?"

"I have been trying to reach you all day"

"Why what's up?"

"I missed you"

That brought a smile to face

"I miss you too but I can't leave right now as much as I want to"

"Yeah I know" I could hear the sadness in his voice.

"I-" I was beginning to say but then a knock came to the door and it opened

"Hold on" I whispered putting the phone underneath the covers

"Hey Z, you okay I have been worried about you" said the school's most gorgeous guy, Erik.

"I'm fine" I said glaring at my covers.

"Do you... want me to help you feel even better?" he said in a flirty tone approaching closer to me, I looked into his beautiful blue eyes and felt I couldn't resist.

"wha- what do you mean?" I managed to say.

We were just inches apart feeling his warm breath near my mouth.

"I'm sure you know what I mean" putting one hand on my neck getting even closer so that our noses touched.

"I-I-I don't feel so good" I said coming out of his gaze lying back down pulling the covers above my mouth.

Thankfully all he did was chuckle kissing me lightly on my forehead.

"Can't wait for you to actually feel better" he said in a flirty tone again, for some strange reason I couldn't wait to feel better either, he finally left the room leaving the door slightly opened I could hear footsteps coming up the stairs I didn't think much of it, probably other girls going to their rooms, I stared at the door for numerous minutes when I remembered I still had Heath on the phone.

"A-are you there?"

"Yeah" he said, he didn't sound happy.

"Nothing happened I swear" I said truthfully.

"Sure didn't sound like anything, sounded like something, I thought you dumped him"

"I swear I will it's just not the right time, I will dump him and I'll get out of here I promise" I said trying to be civilize with him.

The door creaked open but I was trying to get a reply from heath,

"Heath? A-are you there?" I called down the phone.

"There's a thunderstorm, receptions lost" said someone at the door.

I turned my head to see Jack at the door with tears flooding his eyes.

"Why Zoey?"