A.N.: Thank you so much for all the reviews, to those who put this story on alert and especially those who put me on their Author alert! I'm so honored…this is awesome! Also thanks to all of those who simply read this fic, you make my day!

Now this is important… First, I really need a beta reader and if someone could offer (or offer somebody else) it would be grat, also this is a four-part story, so it will only have four chapters (with the chance of a epilogue if you want one).

P.S.: Song credit, again a song in Spanish: "Labios Compartidos" (Shared Lips) by Mexican band Maná.

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Shared lips

Divided lips, my love.

I can no longer share your lips

Already share this lie,

And I share my days and the pain.

I can no longer share your lips

Oh my love, my shared love.

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He loves her, and he can't have her. Because, right now?

Right now she hates him.

He knows it's his own fault. He should stop bullying her so badly. It's just that she takes it so well: she holds her head high, ignores him and his peer's jokes and runs to the ladies bathroom. He wants to see her hurt. He wants to see her cry. He wants to see her break.

Because she broke him.

He always knew he wasn't good enough for her. She was too good, she was talented and she was going places. He was just a Lima loser who barely passed freshman year and needed to hurt his classmates to feel superior in some way.

All that summer he missed her. He could remember some details of their short weekend together and now he missed the little stuff about her that makes him crazy. The smell of her hair, her soft skin, the way her little body seemed to fit perfectly against his and how her delicate hands caressed his scalp, how sweet her lips are and that intoxicating smell that emanates from her skin… and the way she says his name…He tried with other girls, with other guy's moms, with any female he could find, but no one….there as no one like Rachel.

He really hadn't thought that this could get any worse.

And then sophomore year came along…

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Finn. His best friend. Her friend not so long ago. Why did she had to look at him like that?

Dude wasn't perfect. He was stupid, Puck might be his friend but the ugly truth is that Finn is simply just dumb. Besides, he could sing better than Frankenteen so why the hell did she looked at Finn like if he was Adam Lambert or something?

So, yeah he was much braver than Puck because he joined 'Homo Explosion' without caring what the rest of the school population said. He didn't care that his girlfriend was angry at him for joining. But, fuck, Rachel had actually fallen for him.

The worst part?

He knew that Finn was falling for her.

I mean, he wasn't an idiot. That shit came way back before the whole Glee thing. Finn wanted her for as long as Puck had. But he just wanted her. Puck fucking loved her. Now Finn goes and sweeps her off her feet and all he can do is watch as she falls for his best friend while he is still the person she hates the most.

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He knows she likes to go to the auditorium once in a while to sing her heart out. He likes to watch her (from the shadows, and yes, he always feels like a creep after doing so) and hear her powerful and soulful voice cut through his body and….he just likes to hear her sing and, for a moment or two, imagine she's singing those love songs to him.

(He knows she's singing them to his best friend.)

One day he goes and watches her make out with Finn in the auditorium. Once again she has managed to hurt him so badly that it hurts to even breathe. He feels so many things at the same time (jealousy, love, hurt, anger) that all he does is leave in silence.

When Quinn comes to him he doesn't think twice before he fucks her. It's all about hurting Finn. Hurting Rachel. Feeling like he's doing something about it.

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Finn comes to him one day and tells him that Quinn is pregnant, and he explains to him how it happened. What. An. Idiot.

He tries to make Quinn understand that he could help her. That he wants to help her.

He loves that little baby inside her (so much, and he doesn't even know how he fell for his kid so fast) and wants to help his baby mamma. But she thinks he's a Lima loser (that hits him hard) and that Finn would be a better father. Is she serious?

Yep, she is.

She hides the truth from everyone and he expects that at some point, when people notice that she's pregnant with what everyone will believe is Finn's child, Rachel will understand that Finn is taken and that he's out of the market. He puts his hopes on this, trying to come up with something good out of this situation.

Mostly because he has hopes that if it works, Rachel would probably be the only one who would be able to console him and put him out of his misery. (That, if the plans works and she agrees to be with him.)

He joins Glee, Rachel's face is full of surprise (and nothing else, no love no admiration no nothing), and he thinks that maybe they could be just friends again. So he stops throwing slushies at her, he stops calling her names and she starts to smile at him. Sometimes they share a word or two; but they don't really become close again. He thinks that is good, but he still wants more of her.

So he puts even more effort in trying to seduce her (yeah, he is trying to seduce her) and expects the news about Quinn's pregnancy knock some sense into her. That maybe she'll forget about Finn and will run straight into his open arms.

(He doesn't care how long it takes, his arms will always be open for her, forever.)

But Rachel was actually in-freakin'-love with Finn, because she became something like…Finn's good friend and all…supportive and stuff after the bomb exploded. So he lets her because he's tired of trying and trying and failing.

But if he can't have Rachel, well Finn won't have his baby girl either. The mission is on. He was okay with letting Finn have his baby (fine, he was never okay with it but he could barely stand it) because he though that at the end he would have Rachel to console him when the pain of giving away his baby comes. But that is not the case, he can't have Rachel and he at least wants to have his baby in his life.

When the truth comes out, he barely realizes its Rachel the one that tells Finn.

All he knows is that even though he just lost his best friend, his baby girl will be his (fine, it won't but at least people is gonna know he's the father) to yell it at the word. He doesn't even care that the Glee club has lost his chance at nationals.

But then a question comes to his mind. Why did Rachel said the truth to Finn? The answer to that question brings even more pain to his heart. 'To get Finn to herself, so she could pick up the pieces and make him love her back', his mind says.

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Finn saves the day, he comes back to the Glee club and no, he doesn't forgive him but he doesn't care much. Rachel sings and he realizes once again why she's so far away from his reach. She's so talented, so especial and so…she doesn't belong to him. She doesn't belong to Finn either. She belongs to the stage, to the audience. She belongs to Broadway, she's a star and she belongs to the place that lets her shine. The thought makes him strangely sad.

But she's happy, she has Finn and they are going to regionals, so she's happy. (Without him)

He thinks that Finn will be happy with Rachel. (She's amazing, who wouldn't be happy with her by their side?)

He thinks that maybe Quinn is a little more relaxed (and there by his baby is happy) now that the truth is out, she still has her friends so maybe she's not miserable. But weeks later something happens that makes him think that maybe, just maybe, he is not the only one who is unsatisfied (unhappy) in this…love rectangle (plus one) that the four of them have formed.

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He doesn't know how he got into this twisted situation. He's with Quinn, only because it seems natural to be with the mother of his child. Besides she's hot and she is even funny when she wants to. And Rachel is with Finn and that's it.

Except it's not.

He can't stop loving her.

He can't. It's physically impossible for him. He just can't... Fucking. Stop. Loving. Rachel.

He thinks about her all day long, and his nights are full of dreams of her. School is torture, because he has to see her pining over Finn, and his stupid ex-best friend has like the best girlfriend ever but chooses to ignore her at school. What a douche.

(If she was his girlfriend he would have her at arm's reach all day and would be reminding everyone that this star is his girl, and guys better not see her funny and girls better not make fun of her. But he can't allow himself to think that, it's too painful.)

And then, one Friday (it's destiny, it seem like Friday is the day for them) he's trying to write the lyrics to a song he just finished the day before, when the doorbell rings. His sister is in at her best friend's house preparing a slumber party and his mom is working so he actually has to like, walk to the door and answer (instead of yelling to the brat to be careful and watch who it is).

He is surprised hen he opens the door and finds a crying Rachel looking at him with the saddest look ever.

He can't stand seeing her sad. It's painful to watch something so beautiful and so full of life like her break and cry. (If he had known it was this awful to witness this, he never would've tried to make her break at school)

He just takes her in his arms and leads her to his room. His room is a place where he knew she would feel better. She always said that to him (well, before); that his room was so full of him that she felt safe and happy with just being there. It's was actually what the lyrics he was writing were about: how amazing their friendship was.

(Yes, he writes songs about her. She doesn't know but she's his muse. He writes songs about every aspect of his life that involves her; he has since he first started to compose his own music.)

He held her for a while until she stopped crying.

"He doesn't want me", she said in such a low voice that he barely listened to her.

"He is an idiot who doesn't deserve you", he told her. He felt her open her mouth to protest but he turned so they were facing each other, he cupped her face with is big hands and locked eyes with her. "You're amazing, Rach. Fuck, if I had you I would…you're perfect and I would…", his forehead was touching hers and he didn't know what to say now because he knew that he had just admitted that he wanted her for himself.

"We didn't broke up…I know…I know that Finn has feeling for me, but I am also aware of the fact that he's just trying to get over Quinn. I know that if these 'relationship' exist is only because I put so much effort on it. He…he doesn't really want me. He wants to get over Quinn."

That's not true. He knows his best friend (ex best friend or whatever) and he knows he wants Rachel, he'd just not ready for Rachel's obsessive way of loving. Finn doesn't know that Puck would give anything to get Rachel's attention in that way.

He kisses her because…because she's there and she's holding to him for dear life, almost like she wanted him. He can smell her hair and feel her so warm and small between his arms and he knows, he knows….that he won't be able to resist this too long before he gets hard. But when she feels him (and he's embarrassed) she doesn't put any space between them, on the contrary she's clinging to him and it's like…like if she really wanted him.

It feels so good, the way her hips moved against his, how her body arched and her breast were pressed against his chest and she felt just so close. Their first time was much more different, he remembered removing her clothes slowly and with tenderness, but now it's different. It's desperate and incredibly passionate.

He touches her everywhere, because when he does it and sees her face he's sure that she wants him. She must want him if she got rid of his clothes so quickly, she must want him if she's kissing his neck and his chest like that. She must want him if she is sucking the breath out of his mouth with every kiss she gives him.

When he was inside her, and she was all tight and wet for him, he held his head against the crook of her neck and said her name over and over again because she was just so perfect and in that moment all he could think about was her smell (so intoxicating) and her voice (Noah Noah Noah Noah!) and the fact that at that precise moment there was only the two of them, in the most intimate possible way.

Afterwards, when she was cuddled against his chest and he was holding her closely, he remembered that she was still Finn's girlfriend and he was still Quinn's boyfriend. But that didn't mattered. It didn't matter the morning after either, because they did it again…And then again and again for the rest of the weekend. In some sort of tacit agreement they decided not to tell about this to their respective significant other. After all, neither Finn nor Quinn seemed to care too much about them and this felt too good to let it go. He knew why she was doing this; after all this years she was still torn between the two boys, she never made her decision when she was younger and now everything was even messier.

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The fact that she's not his doesn't sunk in until Monday when she sees her fighting with Finn in the (apart from him) empty hallway. All Finn does is say a few words and she's wrapping her arms around him and smiling and shit. (She forgave him for ditching her, again.) He turns around, disgusted, and leaves.

He hates to admit that all the weekend when he was fucking her; the word 'mine' kept repeating itself in his head over and over again and now life prove him wrong.

He doesn't stand seeing them together, luckily for him Finn still treats Rachel rather coldly around school (to make people believe they're only friends and nothing else), so it's bearable. He tries to find comfort in Quinn but his official girl is pissed at something (he doesn't care enough to ask).

He tries to convince himself that he can get over Rachel somehow, but when she and Finn get into another stupid fight and she's pulling him to the janitor's closet for a make-out session (nothing else because she's actually ashamed of doing anything sexual in the school, but she's not ashamed of cheating on her 'boyfriend' or whatever) he can't resist her. He just…falls at her feet easily, all she has to do is ask and he's right there wherever, whenever she wants him.

But at some pint Finn mans up and admits out loud and to the entire world that he's with her. And then he finds out why Quinn was so pissed, apparently both of them had a 'moment' (where they almost kissed) a few weeks ago but he decided that he rather be with Rachel, even if he still had feelings for the blonde. She told him all this to try to get him jealous, but mostly she got him pissed at the fact that she also wanted Finn. He was so pissed that he went to Rachel that night, and she took him in her arms (so incredibly comforting) even when she had an 'official' boyfriend now.

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They are making out in her bed one day when her phone beeps, he looks on and sees that is Finn calling her. She tries to move out of his grasp (he's on top of her) but he presses her further down the mattress.

"Ignore it" She looks at him and starts kissing his neck. And he's happy because he's sure a call this late is probably a booty call. He thinks that for a second. "Are you and Finn fucking?" , he asks her point blank.

"That's…really none of your business"

Of course it is! How can she not see…? "Please just answer the question"

She must have understood how he felt (his face showed how much the thought pained him) because she kissed him softly in the lips and whispered in his ear "Only you, Noah. Only you"

He doesn't know if that means that he's going to keep being the only guy she allows between her thighs or that she's not doing it with Finn just yet. He hopes is the first, because he doesn't want to share her. He already has to share her lips and her affection.

But a day comes (it's a Friday, seriously?) when he's in the showers after practice and Finn is asked by Matt if he and Berry had 'crossed the line' and the guy just smirked and told everybody that he has some plans regarding that for that same night. He tries to talk to her all day long, but she doesn't answer her phone and he's too embarrassed to actually just go to her house. By the time he decides that he better go straight to her house to keep Finn from touching her anywhere near the parts that are clearly his territory, it's almost night and when he arrives he sees Finn's car parked there and the only lights on in her house are the ones in her room. He pulls his cell phone out and he send her one single text that reads: 'Don't do it'

He goes straight to his house and tries to think of anything but Finn and her, alone. Doing God knows what. Doing it. He tries to reassure himself by telling himself that she will probably see his text and remember all those amazing times together and maybe, no (maybe his ass), she will stop anything from happening. That she will read his text and remember that electric spark they feel every time they touch or how perfect it feels whenever he's buried inside her. But then he remembers how many time she ignored Finn's calls and texts because he asked her to, and maybe life decided to be a bitch and give him some payback.

Around an hour or two later she sends him a text: 'I read your message too late. I'm sorry. I really am, you're better. You're so much better in every sense'.

His hearts breaks when he realizes that he has lost her again. He wants to hate her for hurting him, but he wants her so badly that he knows he will wait; He will wait patiently for whatever small amount of time she has for him.

He doesn't know how long he will be able to resist this situation. All he is sure about is that he craves for her so immensely that he will love her even if he has to share her.

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Their affaire continues for the rest of the year, and at some point they both admit they love each other. They're just lying there after sex and they both say it. He thinks it means their relationship is going to change.

It doesn't mean that.

If anything, it means more heartbreak.

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(He said it as in 'I'm in love with you, and I wan to spend the rest of my life next to you', she meant it as 'I love you, you're the best friend any girl could ask, I'm sorry for putting you trough this')

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More than once he had wanted to just tell Finn the truth and let him break up with her so he can pick up the pieces and make her all his. But he knows that will not work.

He has finally understood how Rachel emotions work. When they shared their first kiss, Finn caught them and he got angry at her. And then Puck himself got angry at her for trying to comfort Finn.

So her reaction to their first time together made sense. She didn't want them to have a relationship because Finn would hate her for it and, when she tried to make him understand he got angry at her. And she lost them both again.

They both joined Glee and she could have been friends with both of them; Finn was dreamy and nice, while Puck had been an ass to her, but they still had chemistry and they could still be friends. But when romantic feeling and sex got involved between them, she made her choice.

She could be with Finn and secretly have Puck. Noah was smarter and Saint Finn was too innocent in order to be the other way around. Even though Puck hated to admit this, he understood that Rachel's decisions came as a consequence of his and Finn's reluctance to share her when they were kids.

Because he knew that she could be happy with him as long as she didn't lose Finn. But that was not going to happen, because Finn hated him now and he would hate Rachel if she left him for Puck, and Puck himself would want her as far away from Finn as possible.

So he kept their affaire in secret, because he knew that if she lost Finn and stayed only with him, she would be unhappy, and she would leave him. In the end if there was necessary to put the blame someone or something, it had to be to both Puck's and Finn's desire to keep the girl away from the other.

In a few words, he knows that if he tells Finn he will ruin his chances of having her even for a short amount of time.

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One day he discovers something that leaves him pretty shaken up. Finn and Quinn (who is still his official girlfriend) kissing in the choir room. He runs away from the place and tries to understand how did that one happened.

He doesn't have a fucking clue.

Because last time he checked, his (ex) best friend was way too innocent to be cheating. That probably means he has changed, which means that Rachel can no longer love him if he has become something different that the nice and innocent boy he used to be.

He's happy.

He's pretty sure he has find the way to make Rachel choose him and not feel sad about losing a cheating-bastard like Finn.

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"You're gonna tell her?"

Silence. Seriously? 'Of course I'm gonna tell her her boyfriend has been cheating on her for months'.

"What am I asking? Of course you're gonna tell her. You want her, correction, you love her. You've loved her all along…"

"Quinn"

"Don't deny it; I've seen the way you look at her. I've seen the way she looks at you, she does too."

"I just wanted to assure you than this had nothing to do with you"

"I never really loved you Puck, so…it's not like if I am that hurt"

"You wanted Finn all along?"

"I tried very hard to stop loving him, but it never happened"

"Well, maybe he'll run to you when Rachel breaks up with his sorry ass."

"Hey! Don't talk about him like that! He's confused!"

"Confused my ass"

"I was a bitch to him, and Rachel is like…a saint or something" (Not really.)

"She's amazing. I'm in love with her."

"Well, at least now you'll be able to tell her so as her boyfriend, and not those stupid 'I love you like a friend' stuff"

"Yeah" (Bet she said a lot of those to Finn these few months.)

"So, how are you gonna drop the bomb?"

"I'm just gonna tell her and that's it" and then she'll fall at my arms when she realizes he's a douche and we'll be happy ever after.

"Are you gonna tell her you're in love with her?"

"Not before I make her say it"

"Are you sure sh's in love with you?"

"You said it yourself, Q."

"I said she wanted you. I know she loves you. But is she in love with you?"

"Well, I'm gonna make her say it, damn it"

"Okay, Puck, hear me out."

"What is it, Q? You wanna ruin this for me because the guy you love is unsure? You wanna make me feel bad about this?"

"You know why I slept with you?"

"Because you couldn't resist a hot body like mine?",

She let out a huff before looking at him all serious and kid of sad at the same time. "The first time I said it to Finn I wanted so badly for him to say it back that I forced him to do it, and I was happy. I thought everything was great and pretended that I hadn't forced him to say it, and that gave me security. But then he joined Glee club and he and Rupaul were like….damn, he looked at manhands like she was…And then it kicked, that I had forced the 'I love you' out of his mouth and all this… insecurity came and I slept with you because I wasn't sure, like deep inside, that he loved me ."

"But he did"

"But how could I be sure if I knew that when he said it he hadn't meant it, if I knew that I had forced him to say it?"

"Your point is?"

"If you force her to say she's in love with you, you'll never be a hundred percent sure that she really is in love with you".

"She has already told me that she loves me, it's no big deal for her to say the words"

"Did she clarified if she loved you as in 'in love' or if she loved you 'as a friend', Puck?"

"She said she loved me, Q"

"There's a big difference between say 'I love you' and saying 'I'm in love with you', Puck. There's a big difference between 'friendly cuddling' and sex. How can you be sure that she wants you that way?"

He knew that if he revealed that he and Rachel have been having sex from the very beginning, Quinn would tell Finn and then the dick would break up with Rachel and she would be so upset that she'd probably end her 'whatever' with Puck. So he just said, "You don't know anything about me and Rachel, Quinn"

"Whatever, I just thought that at least someone in this whole... thing must be sure about their feelings for the other person"

"Thanks for the advice Q, but I'm really sure everything will turn out okay for me and Rachel."

He was so wrong.

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Mutant love

Friends with and without the right.

Of having you forever

And I always have to wait patiently

The part of you I can have.

So…that is it, pretty angsty. Next chapter, Puck will tell Rachel the truth, and then everyone will find out the truth about their little affair and…well, more drama! (And angst!)

Trying to translate the lyrics of this song was weird, but I think the lyrics relate so much to the plot that I should put them here. Anyway, I hope you like it and please…

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