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The next morning I was excited to go to work and to see Amy. I shouldn't feel this way about her because she doesn't look like the relationship type. Actually if I knew one thing for certain it was that Amy did not do relationships. She even said it herself once in an interview. I decided to put off asking her anything until the video was done. I didn't want to cause conflict between us two.
Shane took me to the hotel since he stayed over. I got there early again but only a few minutes or so. There were fans and paparazzi crowding the front of the hotel today. I guess they know about the music video now. I didn't want to go through them but I really didn't have a choice. I started walking with my head down hoping no one would recognize me but one of the fans yelled, "isn't that Amy's girlfriend?" and everyone looked at me. I froze not knowing what to do since I was crowding by fans now. I started getting scared since there were hundreds of them and only one of me. They started shouting all of a sudden; I felt someone's hand on my lower back guiding me towards the hotel as they whispered in my ear to keep walking. The voice was familiar as it belonged to Amy. She waved and smiled at her fans while some took pictures. They kept yelling how happy they were for us and how much they love us together. We got inside before Amy said something; I didn't hear her so she repeated herself looking down at me into my eyes.
"Hey, are you okay?" She looked concerned.
"Yeah, I'm great." I lied. Being famous must be very exhausting and exhilarating at the same time. Amy took me to the closest chair and sat me down.
She squatted to look at me, "You sure? I'm sorry about the fans. They just…really really like you." She said smiling. I couldn't help but smile back at her. I then told her we should probably get going. We should up and walked side by side to the ballroom.
When we walked in it looked the same as yesterday. Cameramen were setting up and Lauren was screaming. Nothing new. I looked around trying to find Dylan but couldn't find him. I looked at Amy and she looked like she couldn't care less about everything.
"Karma can I talk to you for a second," Lauren asked gesturing for me to come to her. "Dylan quit because he got another offer, but don't worry we got you an even better dance partner." Lauren said.
"Wait. But what about the minute we filmed yesterday?" I asked confused.
"We will have to just redo that and do an extra minute today, won't we?" Lauren sassed. I just stood there and wondered who my new partner would be when I looked around trying to find them. My eyes fell on Amy and what she was wearing, sweats and a black tank. "Amy's your new partner if you haven't realize."
Why did Dylan leave when he was so excited about this video? Amy said she "didn't dance," so why was she all of a sudden? As that thought ran through my mind Lauren said, "Management wanted Amy to dance so that the video would look more original, with the two girls lovingly dancing, it's different." I nodded again not knowing what to say.
"Okay everyone, places!" Lauren shouted.
Amy looked awkward standing there and I wanted to laugh at her but I held it back. Amy rolled her eyes at the whole situation and I smirked at her.
She raised her eyebrow, "don't smirk at me."
"Now you know what it feels like!" I smirked at her again.
She laughed lightly before asking, "Can you tell me what we're suppose to be doing?"
"Which one of us is taking the lead?" I asked and she gave me the "are you serious" look.
I rolled my eyes as I gave her a quick description of what we were supposed to do and she nodded. She was staring intently at me dance when I stopped to look at her. "Are you paying attention or just staring at me?"
"I'm listening! Continue." She said trying to not smile. "Amy didn't you already learn the moves from Candice?" Lauren asked knowingly.
"Oh hell no! So you just made me dance for you when you already knew the moves," I said pushing Amy as she laughed. "I don't find that funny," I said trying to keep a straight face, but failed miserably.
"Okay you two we have a lot to film today so get on with it," Lauren said.
Since we both knew the first minute we decided to practice it. This time there was music and this was the first time I was listening to the song. We walked towards one another while smiling and she grabbed my hand gently and pulled me into her as I twirled. She looked me in the eyes and winked as we slow dance and I held on to the back of her neck. Dancing with Amy was much more intimate than it was with Dylan. Amy was gentle but knew what she was doing. As Amy took the lead, I followed her steps without having to look at her feet. With Dylan, I stepped on his feet too many times. She then quickly spun me so that she was against my back. I felt her nose run along my neck as I closed my eyes. She then twirled me away from her and I walked to her and spun back into her. She grabbed my lower back and dipped me the same time as the guitar strum. She turned slightly and pulled me back to her. When I came back up she was smiling at me and I started laughing," I thought you couldn't dance, Raudenfeld?"
"I said I didn't dance not that I couldn't. Do you even pay attention to me when I talk or are you so caught up in my looks," She said smirking. I rolled my eyes at her cockiness and stuck my middle finger up at her. Amy laughed throwing her head back, as I smiled at how cute she looked.
Lauren came behind us saying she had a meeting with management so we could have a lunch break if we wanted. We looked at each other and nodded at Lauren. Amy suggested that we should go out the back of the hotel so people wouldn't ambush us. We walked around back and found her car in the parking garage. She helped me in as usual and I thanked her. We rode down the highway when she asked me where I wanted to eat and since we did live in Cali I said In-N-Out.
"We should go to this dock that no one goes to so we can eat in peace," I said looking at Amy and she nodded.
Once we got our food we went down to the dock, which was not to far from where we were. Amy was looking around admiring the open lake. "This place is amazing," she said still looking around. I never brought anyone here just because it was my place to hide and get away, but I can share it with Amy. We sat at the end of the dock with our feet in the water as we ate.
"So Karma, tell me a bit about yourself."
"Uh, I like the color red?" I said not knowing what to talk about.
"Oh okay, nice… Well mine is black." I looked at her pretending to be surprised and she grinned.
"You know I saw pictures of us on TV and people think that we are dating," I said looking at Amy who quickly sat up taller.
"Ha, yeah. But I don't date people so don't worry about that." She said and I tried not to seem hurt by what she just said. I knew she didn't date but I was hoping that changed, but having her say it made me realize it hasn't.
"Why don't you date?" I gained the courage to ask her and she paused for a minute. And I could've sworn I saw sadness in her eyes, but its Amy we're talking about.
She looked down at her hands and then up into the distance before talking. "I had this girl who I was so in love with. And I thought I had the world when I was with her. She made me feel like I was on the top of the world, honestly, it was the best feeling. Everyday I wanted to be with her, it didn't matter if we just sat there and stared at a wall, as long as she was by my side. One second without her was, somehow, unbearable. Stupid, right? Yeah, I know. But she was truly something. However, when life gets good for one second something always happens to fuck it up." I was listening to her when she stopped I put my hand on her arm encouraging her to continue and she smiled weakly.
"One day she was diagnosed with cancer. I was devastated but I was strong, not because I wanted to be, but because I had to be, for her. She loved me just as much as I loved her and wanted nothing but the best for me. She encouraged me to move on after she died but I couldn't even imagine the thought of her gone. How can I move on when I can't even be without her for a second? The day she died was the day a piece of me died. To get over her death, I drowned myself in alcohol. I would drink everyday just to stop the pain. That's when Lauren was really concerned that it got as bad as it did. There would be new pictures of me drunk, walking out of bars, everyday slapped on the front tabloids. People called me alcoholic and I didn't care until I knew it was affecting not just me but everyone around me. I knew she wouldn't have wanted this for me and I couldn't drink to forget her. I had to face my pain head on and not try to repress it. It's not like I had a switch to turn off my feelings or something. Lauren helped me get help and I haven't had alcohol in ages."
I thought of the first day we met at the club. I asked her if I could buy her a drink and how she hesitated. I also remember her not taking a sip out of the cup; she just left it there. I looked at her as I felt her touching my face.
"You're crying," she said and I didn't even realize it until she wiped away my tears. I leaned in to hug Amy telling her I was sorry and she hugged me back cautiously. "I didn't know about her or anything. I'm so sorry."
"We managed to hide the news from the media. It was mostly management; they helped me keep the news concealed. I still don't know how they managed to but I'm happy they did. I wanted to keep that to myself, you know?" I nodded looking at her.
I couldn't believe that happened to Amy. I couldn't imagine losing someone that I was in love with and them not being in this world with me. I feel closer to her now that I know about her past. I'm honored that she trusts me enough to share that piece of her to me. I should probably trust her as well and tell her about him.
"You want to head back or sit a bit longer?" Amy said still looking at me. "Maybe we should go I don't want Lauren to kill us." I said figuring the news of my past can wait. We made it back and went inside just as we did coming out. Lauren still wasn't back so I regretted leaving the dock early. I wonder what the meeting was about, it must have been important because she left in a hurry.
"What do you think of the track?" Amy said talking about her song.
The song was absolutely amazing. It was so romantic; I wouldn't change anything about it. From the music all the way to the lyrics, all of it was just incredible. I could also she that Amy was proud of it. I wouldn't have thought it was Amy's song if I was listening to it for the first time, but she did a great job on it.
"It's okay I guess, not the best." I said grinning at Amy who looked hurt and I felt bad for kidding with her. "I'm just joking! I didn't know you would take me seriously. The song is perfect, I actually would make it my wedding song, actually you know what, it will be my wedding song." I said looking at her nodding when she gave me a cheeky smile.
"I knew you were joking, just wanted to hear you say all those things about my song." She said laughing at me and I glared at her.
"I'm getting real tried of your shit Raudenfeld!" I said shoving her causing her to fall back pulling me with her. I fell on top of her and she was gazing at me. Lauren came in and didn't even notice us. I got up quickly as Amy laughed. Lauren seemed upset and defeated, Amy noticed and walked over to talk to her. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but Lauren kept shaking her head and saying something to her. Amy finally backed off and came towards me. I know her and Lauren were close and that they probably shared everything with one another but Lauren wouldn't tell Amy what was bothering her and I could see that it made Amy very uneasy.
"Alright, lets finish the next minute and then we can call it a day. Candice is here and on her way to the ballroom to teach Karma her parts since it's a bit challenging." Lauren said trying to put on a smile for us.
Amy looked down at me and smirked. "You excited?"
"If anything I'm nervous. I don't want to fuck up your video."
"Hey, look at me." She said lifting my face up. "I picked you for a reason. I know you can do it, and Candice will help you step-by-step." Amy said smiling at me.
Candice came in and god she looked like a supermodel. They way she strutted and looked. She was going to make me look stupid, I just knew it. She walked over to introduce herself.
"Hello, my name's Candice." She said in a British accent. "This is Karma," Amy said for me as it took me too long to answer. Candice laughed and shook my hand.
"Okay Karma, shall we get started?" I nodded anxiously.
"You don't need to be nervous. I will help you no matter how long it takes, alright?" Candice assured. I smiled at her thankfully.
For the next hour I was trying to perfect the moves Candice taught me. I couldn't get one move, in particular, down. It was frustrating as hell. Amy stood next to me the whole time encouraging me and telling me I could do it. After what felt like a lifetime, I finally got it. We practiced a few more times. Candice was extremely happy with me as I was too.
Lauren came over and said, "You know what, I think it would be easier if we didn't record a minute a day. On the last day we can just shoot the whole video and you guys can practice these remaining 3 days to perfect the moves. How does that sound?" Amy and me agreed with Lauren, as it would be easier. "Fine it's settled then, I'll see you guys tomorrow. Good night." Lauren said as she left with Candice who waved at us.
"Hey, Karma there's this party tonight and I was wondering if you maybe wanted to go?" Amy asked me. I put my finger on my chin acting like I was thinking about it and she smiled at me. "If you can't, I understand…" She said walking away.
I ran after her not wanting to be left alone in this big room, "Wait! Sure I will, but I don't have anything to wear."
"I'll lend you something of mine." She said smirking as we walked to the back exit.
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