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EPOV

I relaxed against the light leather seats of my Volvo on my way

home from seeing her.

Trying to rid myself of the familiar clenching in my cold dead heart that always came when it was time for me to take my departure from her.

I stared out of the window shield seeing nothing of my surroundings.

Her face obstructing my view, her cheeks pink and eyes hectic with excitement at my visit.

My hands clenched the steering wheel, the skin on my knuckles stretching tight

I had selfishly gone to see her, this needs to stop now Edward, your being selfish and reckless, again.

.I was well aware that what I was doing was wrong. I was lying to my family, putting her life in danger and all because I couldn't bear to be parted from her.

Esme and Carlisle are worried about you, your whole family is.

But the thought of never seeing her again had the clenching in my heart increasing exponentially.

My thoughts were interrupted by the irksome buzzing of my phone. I contemplated leaving it but it could be her, or my family.

"Hello" I said my voice a monotone. "Edward, its Carlisle. I have some news", he said warily.

I didn't like his tone of voice; I couldn't tell if this was good or bad news.

"I was volunteering at this orphanage and I met this little girl, Edward, I want to adopt her", he rushed in one breath.

I leaned back in the seat shocked into silence, trying futily to gather my thoughts.

"We haven't decided anything yet, we're going to wait until everyone's had time to think this through and meet her", he continued relieved by my silence

"Carlisle, you are aware we're vampires, right".

"Yes", he replied confused.

"Just checking".

All those vampires were right; lack of human blood would eventually drive us crazy.

"Edward I know what you're thinking, but I haven't gone crazy"

And I thought I was a mind reader.

"Just hurry home and we'll talk this through properly", he sighed exasperated.

I was still banking on the crazy theory, but then again I could hardly talk.

APOV

(Flashback, one and a half years ago)

What's wrong with me I feel so normal I hate this feeling.

Jasper put his arms tight around me, trying to comfort me.

I knew the only thing that would comfort me now,

retail therapy.

Unfortunately it was two 'o' clock in the morning and I didn't know any mall that'd be open.

Why couldn't I see, Edward kept disappearing and I couldn't see where he was going or what he was doing.

"Jazz, I'm worried about him what if something happens", I said voicing my worries

"He's over a hundred years old Alice you need to have a little faith, he knows how to take care of himself", he replied giving my shoulders a little squeeze.

(End of flashback)

Nothing had changed, I still couldn't see what Edward did on these little trips of his and I was still worried, everyone was.

And now this little girl, I couldn't see her either, I wonder if there is a connection

RPOV

I was conflicted about this there were so many points to it.

I had always wanted to be a mother but of course being trapped in this damned existence it could never happen.

This girl was six.

Esme and I, we could raise her.

It'd be the closest I'd ever get to being a mother.

But she could get hurt, or figure out what we were, if she did she'd be scared.

Carlisle said that she had told him that a family was the thing she wanted second most in all the world, she hadn't said the first.

I knew from experience that if you want a loving family mine was the best.

I'd made up my mind,

I'd welcome her with open arms.

I would be a kind sister to her,

Maybe even a mother.

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