Chapter 4--Aftermath

I was guessing it was around 11 or 12 at night by the time I had run near the house.

I could smell Sue's cooking and felt my stomach growl with hunger.

Decide to come back with us?

Seth was in his wolf form. He was close.

What do you want, Seth?

I was annoyed, and didn't care to be bothered.

You shouldn't have done that. Emily is so upset now...you could have at least waited ---

Listen SETH, I don't need anyone telling me what I have done wrong. Am I the only one who has committed a horrible crime? Have you totally forgotten everything that has happened as well, like everyone else? Don't lecture me. If anything, I should lecture you!!

Just come home, Leah. Please.

He was gone. I guess he was in human form now.

I didn't care. I felt absolutely alone in this world now. No one could even understand my position.

I wish Harry was still alive. He'd probably be able to support me.

Brushing against the trees near my house, I was so close I could smell and see it. But, I didn't want to go home. Not just yet.

Whatever. Who cares what Seth says? He is my little brother anyways.

My legs increased in velocity as I sped deeper and deeper into the woods.

Hmm, no one is out running tonight. That's good. I thought to myself.

I am.

That voice scared me. It gave me a feeling in my stomach that felt like I would explode stomach first. That voice was a voice that once comforted me, but now, I felt like all I wanted to do was run…away from it.

It was Sam's. Meaning, he was in wolf form as well.

I didn't reply to him, but of course he knew what I was feeling.

Leah, can we talk? Please?

His deep,husky voice sent shivers down my spine. But, I couldn't reply. I couldn't make anything come out of my head. I couldn't picture his face. I would crumble.

Leah, please. Say something. We NEED to talk.

Was he mad? I couldn't tell.

Well of course he would be. I'd practically crashed his wedding.

But what the hell did I really care?

Who was Sam to me?

Why was I tensing up anyway?

I didn't have feelings for Sam.

I didn't have to listen to him.

I didn't have to take the pain.

Slowly, I transformed into human form, and dashed towards home, leaving Sam unanswered in his wolf form.

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The last thing that I was wearing was the dress, and that was torn to shreds somewhere back in Port Angeles, so I was naked.

I had no idea how I was going to make it into the house without anyone noticing me.

Slowly, I crept towards the house, covering as much of my body with my hands as possible.

I looked up towards my bedroom window.

I could make it up there and into my room without anyone seeing me.

As I slid into my window, I ran to my drawer and pulled out a t-shirt and shorts.

Now what?

GRRRR… my stomach was growling so loudly now. I'd refused to eat anything at the wedding. Perhaps that's why.

Maybe I could make it to the kitchen and get some food really quick before I had to talk to anyone.

Walking slowly down the hall and turning into the kitchen, I found Sue, gazing off into space with leftover spaghetti on the stove.

When she saw me, she sighed,

"Oh, Leah. I love you sweetie." Turning her back to the stove, she gave me a bear hug.

She continued, "I'm sorry for my behavior today. I never should have even made you go to the wedding. I should have supported you. I should have realized, that it was…it was…Sam….I'm so sorry."

Sue's tears slowly turned into sobs on my shoulder. I felt helpless.

In a way, she definitely needed to apologize, but this wasn't all her fault. I was a little harsh too, earlier this morning.

"I…I.."

"Leah, you have every right to be feeling the way you do right now. After you left, the wedding went on, but your absence caused the wedding to feel more like a funeral, well to me at least. Honey, we all love you dearly, and I just want you to remember that."

I felt nauseous, the kind of feeling before I felt like I was going to burst into tears.

The wedding had gone on.

Well, I guess I should have expected that right?

They couldn't just end it because of me. They probably really didn't even care that much.

Sue was over exaggerating.

I lifted her from my shoulder and pushed away.

I grabbed a half eaten sandwich from the fridge and headed back to my room, slamming the door.

No one was allowed to pity me.

I was sick of it.

I was sick of crying, sick of Sue crying, and I wished things would just let go.

For once!

After devouring the sandwich, I plopped onto my bed and buried my face into the pillow.

Screams escaped from my body.

But only my pillow and I could hear them.

No matter how much I wish it was, I knew that this wasn't over.

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