Chapter 5—Twenty One

I'd waken to a cold sweat and the heat of the sun shining through my window and pouring on my back as I lay in bed.

My hair was a mess, but like that mattered right now.

I dragged myself to the bathroom and looked at my reflection.

I looked like a sickly person.

My eyes were drooping from the crying. I had tear stains. And my skin was oddly, but slightly, lighter than usual.

Ugh.

I was so freaking disgusted with myself. Why on earth was I even on this planet?! I don't even belong here. What was my point in being?

My fist banged on the counter and sent all the soaps, lotions, toothpaste, and stuff vibrating in all directions.

What was I?

I had to get myself together. That's it.

The warmth of the water coming from the shower as I turned it on didn't quite match with exactly how warm I was right now, but it felt great against my skin. I let the water roll down my face and through my hair and down my back. Closing my eyes, I finally relaxed, not giving a crap about anyone or anything. Finally.

After my shower, I got dressed and went to the kitchen.

"Hello?" I called out. I wanted to know if anyone was home.

Sue was probably pissed at me. Not only did she have two mutant teenagers, but she had a bitchy one and one who was never home. I guessed she was out with Charlie or something.

They are both clueless.

I grabbed an apple. Took a bite. Juice splattered all over my face.

Seth was probably out running with Jacob, or even worse, at the Cullen's hanging around the weird human/ vampire freak.

That just left me. Usually, I'd be out on a so called beautiful day like this with Sam, walking along First Beach or…just doing nothing with him. Even if it was nothing, at least it was with him.

Now, I had absolutely no one. No one to love. No one to be with. No one.

I grabbed some money from off the counter, squeezing it into my tight blue jean shorts. It was only 20 dollars, but I could probably find something to buy. I didn't know whose it was, but they obviously didn't want it. It's mine now.

I decided to walk to a small, local shopping center that wasn't too far from home. Browsing around, I saw nothing that I wanted particularly. I was just bored, and had absolutely nothing to do.

I could go to the movie section and pick out some crappy 70's romance hit and fall asleep to it while stuffing my face with pizza and ice cream. That sounded absolutely perfect to me though.

I was taking off from patrolling. We had enough damn wolves in our pack, which had gotten back together (Jake's alpha now), that it didn't really matter if I were in the pack or not anymore.

Who really gave a crap?

The store was pretty much empty. Knowing La Push, everyone was probably out at the beach right now. Ha. But I wasn't.

I passed the drinks section. I read a sign which said, "MUST BE 21 YEARS OR OLDER AND CONTAIN AN ID. STATE LAW."

I'd never had a beer or any alcohol actually, in my life. Hey, I guess you could call me a goody good before. But I really didn't care anymore. I wanted to just forget about everything. Even if it was only for a minute. I wanted to be free. It'd give me something to do at least.

Not thinking twice, I grabbed a 6 pack of beer from the cooler and forgot about the movie. I started to head for the cash register where a plump man sat in his chair, his book practically plastered to his face. He wasn't paying any attention. That's when I realized my dilemma.

I had no way to pay for this. If anything, I may have looked like I was 21, but I definitely didn't have the ID to prove it. Maybe I could transform into wolf form and rip the guys head off and leave.

But that'd take too much work, hiding the body and such.

Hmm, I'd never stolen before, but there's always a first for everything right?

Making sure the man didn't see me, I slowly headed down an aisle, trying to make it seem like I was still looking for something. Once I finally neared the back of the small store, I saw a door. Above it read, "EXIT."

Perfect. This was just way too easy.

I turned the knob and slowly exited out the small door without a sound.

No one would ever have a clue.

Author's Note: I actually liked this chapter a lot. Did you? YAY! I can't wait to write more!!!